00:00Wow, that's a real blast from the past.
00:01What was I thinking when I wrote this?
00:03Someone used to call me Yoko.
00:13Okay, I write handwritten letters, you're a man with few words.
00:22It's On This Love.
00:23Yes.
00:27This song, On This Love, took me such a long time to finish.
00:32I felt I could never quite get, that's why it wasn't on the album before, I could never
00:37quite get that song done.
00:39I'd like tease it on Instagram or something and the only reason that really got me over
00:43the edge is that I would get kind of messages on Instagram, people being like, where is
00:48the song?
00:48So yeah, me and the producer, Two Feet, we finally finished it actually when Rob was
00:54on set for the drama in Boston and I was visiting him in the middle of tour and I was
01:00like, we've
01:00got this little window here.
01:01I'm like kind of, after a while, you know, I had a few days of sitting in Boston.
01:04I got a bit itchy feet and I'm like, okay, we're going to finish the song and he drove
01:09down in the middle of the snow and we found a studio and finished that song there.
01:12All right, first one down.
01:14Play casino halls of my eyeballs, roll the dice on my thighs.
01:18This is, these lyrics are so strange.
01:21This is good looking.
01:22What was I thinking when I wrote this?
01:24This was in a very poetic phase I was in.
01:31That music video was shot by my friend Eva and I had this room at the Bowery Hotel and
01:37I was like, just come over and we'll shoot a video.
01:40We're in the hotel, I'm jumping on the bed and I didn't look up and there's a fan swinging
01:46around and I kind of do this big hand movement and my hands in the fan and it's cut open.
01:52I've still got my scar here.
01:53My friend Eva's the real deal and she was not going to call cut just because there was
01:57blood coming out.
01:58She's like, yes, this is what we need.
02:00You know, we have no budget.
02:01The fact there's blood and something going on, like great, we didn't have to pay for that.
02:05Everything else is real in that too.
02:07We're on our way to the hospital.
02:08I remember calling downstairs and saying, hi, can somebody come and stitch me up?
02:14And they were like, no.
02:15You know, nice New York story.
02:18Okay, next one.
02:19I can't forget that night you said I look like Susie Quattro.
02:23I love this line.
02:23And I love that a couple more people will have looked up Susie Quattro because she's like one of my
02:30favorites.
02:31I can't forget that night.
02:33I remember I was backstage at a White Stripes concert and Jack White walked past me in the corridor.
02:40I didn't really chat to him, but he kind of looked at me and he went, you look like Susie
02:45Quattro.
02:45And I was kind of like, I think I was maybe like 22 at the time.
02:49And I was like, ah, I wonder who that is.
02:52So I went home and looked her up.
02:55The song, it wasn't actually a love song to Jack White.
02:59It was for someone else.
03:01But I did put that line in there because I guess I felt like it was kind of cool that
03:05he'd said that to me and it was written down.
03:07And it ended up being in a song about a different night, but that's where Susie Quattro came from.
03:14You've been talking my love language baby back to me.
03:16God, it's weird when you say it out loud because then I know what this is.
03:21But wait, this is my last song.
03:23You've been talking.
03:24Wait, this is back in life.
03:26Yes, this is literally the song, the first song of the record.
03:29Yeah.
03:29You've been talking my love.
03:30Why can't I remember how it goes though?
03:32I can't remember the part of the song.
03:34You've been talking my love language baby back to me.
03:37That's why, yeah.
03:38It's weird seeing this out because I only finished these songs like a couple of months ago.
03:43So it's right fresh.
03:47I think my love language is actions.
03:51You've got to be doing stuff.
03:52Bringing tea.
03:54I love it if like, yeah, I've got something that's arrived, that's in pieces.
03:58And if my partner can put it together, that's a huge source of love language for me.
04:03Yeah, I love seeing somebody like using their hands and screws and all that kind of stuff.
04:08You used to call me Yoko because I made a joke that all your friends are leaving.
04:13That is from Memoir of Sparkle Muffin and it's called Faded.
04:17I know my lyrics.
04:19You used to call me Yoko.
04:20This song is like kind of an amalgamation of like little moments that I can remember in relationships where someone
04:27used to call me Yoko.
04:31Not because I was like splitting up a band or anything, like just as like an endearing term.
04:36And yeah, that's where that came from.
04:38That's, wow, that's a real blast from the past.
04:41I've just worked too fucking hard to be forever known as the girlfriend.
04:45Now this isn't a lyric.
04:46This is a line from Daisy Jones in The Six.
04:50That was a great line that I remember saying that and I was like, ugh.
04:55I've just worked too fucking hard to be forever known as the girlfriend and the six.
04:59That's Karen talking about Graham and she is pregnant.
05:06She's going to make this very difficult decision about whether or not she's going to keep the baby or not.
05:11It brings up a lot about choosing yourself or whether or not you can have a family and whether or
05:18not you can have both.
05:19And I think in our time now, maybe we have a bit more of a 50-50 situation going on.
05:25I don't know.
05:26Everyone's doing it differently.
05:27I have no idea.
05:29I knew about the book.
05:30I knew that the casting process was going on.
05:32And it was definitely one of those moments where I marched into my agent's office and was looking at kind
05:38of,
05:38they had a big board up going and I was like, I want to be on that board.
05:43And we did a lot of auditions.
05:44And then it was Christmas time and I was going to go back and do a piano recital.
05:49So I remember, I really remember spending Christmas doing Come On Baby, Light My Fire.
05:54And I remember everyone around me was really going through it because all Christmas it was,
05:59Come on baby, light my fire.
06:02Just imagine that really badly on keyboard, done over and over again.
06:05All of my dreams came true, the bigger the ocean, the deeper the blue.
06:09That is, model, actress, whatever.
06:12All of my dreams came true.
06:15I have loads of dreams and I have loads of things that I'd love to accomplish.
06:20And there have been dreams that I've had that have also taken me in completely unexpected ways.
06:25And that's become a dream too.
06:27Yeah, I mean like even like having a baby.
06:30And you know, maybe there are loads of things that happen after having a baby that,
06:34like opening up for Taylor or something.
06:35Oh my God, it was terrifying.
06:37It was, it was, it was like pretty much the coolest night of my life.
06:41Well, I actually went to the Reputation tour many years ago.
06:44And I was wearing like my little Taylor T-shirt and had, had my camera with me.
06:48But never did I think back then that I would be opening for her.
06:52It's like, what, what is my life?
06:54What is going on?
06:55I mean, I'd love to play Saturday Night Live.
06:57That would be a pretty cool thing to do.
07:00You and I are not the same.
07:02You've always had it easy.
07:04Okay, that did take me a second.
07:06But it's, oh my God.
07:07Yes.
07:09That's his name on my charm.
07:11That's my kid in his arms.
07:12Okay, I can remember this one because this is the last single that I just put out.
07:16That is Tiny Raisin that just came out.
07:19Very strange name for a song.
07:21That's his name on my charm.
07:22I think of Loveland as part nostalgia, part kind of grappling with who I am now.
07:30There's this friction of like, oh, I'm not making a, like a mum record.
07:35Like that's not, you know, I'm, I, but I'm that.
07:38And, and I also feel all these other things that haven't changed after I've become a mum.
07:42And then a lot of parts have changed.
07:44So it feels like Loveland's this place of like joy and adoration and desire and devotion.
07:52And, and it's also fractured and, and messed up.
07:57So I think that's, yeah, that's the place that I've come to with Loveland.
08:00Seems to me it's over.
08:01I'll get used to it eventually.
08:02That's my first song that I ever put out.
08:05That is one of my favorite songs of mine.
08:07That's Brutally.
08:09Seems to me it's over.
08:12It always makes me emotional.
08:14I think that's the only song of mine that can really actually make me kind of tear up listening to
08:19it.
08:19It was the first song.
08:20I wrote it with Blue, who is now just produced the Lily Allen record.
08:26I was like 17 or something and I met him in a pub in London.
08:31And I went around to a studio in East London and I was going through a big heartbreak at the
08:36time.
08:36I think he kind of like forgot about it and didn't send it to me for like six months.
08:40And he finally sent it through to me.
08:42And I remember, I remember the couch that I was lying on when I first heard it.
08:46And it felt like one of those like euphoric moments where it was like, oh, this is, I really like
08:52this.
08:52And it was like the first time in my life that I'd made something that I really loved.
08:56And I still love it.
09:06We'll see you then.
09:07We'll see you soon....
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