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Falling - Season 1 Episode 2
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00:23I
00:24was wondering if perhaps you wanted to get some clothes
00:29Yes, I probably should
00:31Good
00:35This is £200
00:38No, I can't take your money as well as your hospitality
00:41Well, the hospitality is a gift
00:43This is a loan
00:45No, you've done so much already
00:46I don't want to be any trouble
00:48Well, have you got a bank account?
00:50No
00:51Have you got any cash money?
00:54No
00:55Well, I don't know what your Bible says
00:58But mine is quite explicit about helping people in need
01:04My sons have moved out
01:07My husband left me
01:09I like having you here
01:11And if you find anything nice for the Harvest Festival
01:14I'll drop something at the church
01:15No, I didn't mean for you to go
01:17Oh, I have no intention of being afraid of him
01:21You're going to be okay, aren't you?
01:24Hmm
01:25Let's start with a question
01:28What do you think a priest is?
01:31People who talk to God
01:33Yeah, that's good
01:34Um
01:35But I actually think anyone can talk to God
01:37That's what prayer is
01:39A priest is a boss in church
01:42I like that
01:44I like that
01:45I like that
01:45Yes, we are
01:46Do you have a class representative?
01:48Someone who sits on a committee representing the class?
01:52Angus
01:55Are you Angus?
01:57On Wednesday we have race dinner
01:59But Angus decided we should have sausages instead
02:02So he talked to you about that decision?
02:04No
02:04Yeah
02:06I did
02:06No, you didn't
02:08Would you consider you elected him your representative leader?
02:12When it comes to lunch menus, at least
02:14Definitely
02:15Definitely?
02:17Okay
02:17Yeah?
02:18Right, well, I would say what I do is spiritual leadership
02:24I don't decide what we have for lunch
02:26But I do lead people, or try to, in their prayer and their worship
02:34And that's why I'm here today to talk to you about a festival we're going to be running at my
02:39church
02:39Who here has heard of Harvest Festival?
02:43Good
02:44And who can tell me what it's all about?
02:46Thank you for doing that
02:48Talking business, were you able to give any more consideration to my needle exchange idea?
02:53Yes, um, Harvest Festivals, Needle Banks
02:57They did warn me that you were radical when you came our way
03:00It's just a small capital investment
03:02Now this diocese is already running three full-time food banks
03:06I think there are six part-time banks
03:08And the deanery is going to take to opening its doors twice a week as a wall bank
03:13And there's countless outreach educational groups
03:16Okay, but those are all necessary
03:19The diocese has 53 million pounds in funds, 21 of which is cash in the bank
03:23Surely we can find this
03:24How long have you been with us? Is it two years?
03:28Three
03:28Well, don't you think you were settling properly before you tried taking on my job?
03:33Look, I know what happened with this nun
03:35And clearly, clearly there is no, no blame attached to you
03:39But it's not as if your copy book wasn't already blotted
03:42And now you're digging into our account
03:44I never knew that she was so flighty
03:49Silly
03:52Um
03:53I think there was, um, there was confusion
03:58Oh, there's no confusion, she took a vow
04:00She didn't even wait to ask for permission to leave
04:07I did, uh, if you want to find her, I do know where she is
04:09Well, we know where she is
04:11But the abbess, she wants
04:13She wants her to stew a little
04:15Poor Anna
04:16She has absolutely no idea of the real world
04:21Good luck, David
04:24Ah, and thanks once again
04:26Very kind of you
04:30Massive
04:31Morning
04:36It's all about you
04:41Awesome
04:44Whoa
04:47Hey
04:48Oh
04:49Ah!
04:50Ah!
05:44Oh, sorry, I need to count your, I'm sorry.
05:47I need to count your clothes. Need to count them.
06:26Oh, sorry, I need to count your clothes.
06:34Oh, sorry, I need to count your clothes.
06:45Oh, sorry.
06:49I need to take this.
06:50Thanks.
06:55It's a recruitment drive.
06:58You've discovered a way to recruit people.
07:02You love it. Admit it, you do.
07:05They get to feel charitable about donating a can of beans.
07:08They remind themselves they're Catholic, see the inside of a church.
07:12They might even, God forbid, come to the actual service.
07:15How many cans of beans do we have?
07:17At a rough estimate, 467.
07:19I could fill the front three pews.
07:21Well, we could keep them and do that thing
07:23where we push you down here on the path for the beans.
07:26Well, I don't think that would do your reputation any good at all,
07:30especially now.
07:31It's all over the diocese.
07:33The pretty priest who steals sisters.
07:39It's not my fault she's flighty.
07:42Oh, flighty, is it?
07:48It's not my fault.
07:54It's not my fault.
07:54I know I'm not sure what made you feel.
07:54Like this morning, then.
07:55It's not that I'm meeting you.
08:08I brought home some food.
08:11Chinese.
08:12It says I like it.
08:14Well, I hope you like it.
08:19Pretty much like all food.
08:21How was your day?
08:23Uh, not the best.
08:25We're overrun.
08:27Well, I'm sorry.
08:30Been overrun for years.
08:33So what did you get?
08:37Shopping, I mean.
08:39Uh.
08:41Uh, it felt a bit much, to be honest.
08:46Oh.
08:49We need a drink.
08:51But first I'm going to get you some clothes.
08:54See, we didn't have mirrors.
08:56Of course you didn't.
08:59And I, well, I seem to have lost the ability to look at myself.
09:03And yet everybody else seemed to want to look at me.
09:05It's almost as if I've forgotten what I look like.
09:10Not that I think I'm still 16.
09:12You've got a beautiful face.
09:14No, no, no.
09:15It's not, uh, it's not a question of pride.
09:18Do you know, to be honest, I've got to admit, I don't like changing rooms either.
09:22Everything had short sleeves.
09:24And the tops and the dresses.
09:27And I just wanted something to cover myself.
09:32What is it you want covered?
09:34Well, my arms and my legs.
09:38I mean, there were some long sleeves, but...
09:42It's not that I don't like my arms.
09:44I mean, I don't really think about my arms.
09:48But...
09:53I have never shaved my armpits.
09:59Oh.
10:01And everything felt very, well, very exposing of that.
10:06And, uh, I've also never shaved my legs.
10:15I am profoundly hairy.
10:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha,
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10:26ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha,
10:30ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha,
10:35ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha
10:49Oh, hi, I was caught with Gertrude Blasey.
10:52Yes, of course. Take a seat.
11:38Thanks for coming.
11:41You're Lucy? Yeah.
11:44Um, thank you for bringing me.
11:48I care deeply about your mum.
11:51I've missed her at Mass.
11:54I went in every day, right?
11:56That's right.
11:58Bet confession was a blast.
12:07Did she talk about me?
12:13I know you can't say.
12:21Wink for yes, Amy.
12:27Gertrude was, er, is very kind around the parish.
12:32She wasn't...
12:36I wasn't Catholic.
12:39She wasn't Catholic when I was a child.
12:43She was when she was a kid, but found being an adult more...
12:50...difficult.
12:52I'm guessing you two didn't always get on.
12:56No.
12:57No.
12:58She...
13:00...liked to hurt.
13:07I'm sorry about that.
13:08I'm just...
13:13...pleased.
13:13Someone's forgiven her.
13:19It's time.
13:34Lucy, would you come in with me?
13:40The last rites are something really quite beautiful.
13:49It's a celebration of the sacraments of penance and viaticum.
13:54Viaticum is a Latin word meaning provision and love for the next part of the journey.
14:04We are taken with you on the way.
14:15It's about faith, of course, but I think it's mostly about love.
14:24I...
14:26It...it doesn't have to be about your forgiveness.
14:29I'm not challenging your anger.
14:32All that's asked for is your support for her penance.
14:36And her journey.
14:44I definitely support her penance.
15:03Do you have anything to say to me, Gertrude?
15:07If you're unable to talk, just squeeze my hand.
15:10If you're sorry for anything you've done wrong.
15:23I just...
15:25...wanna say...
15:28...thanks, Gertrude. Thank you.
15:32...for being a really good friend...
15:35...to me and to the community.
15:38I think we support the very best of you.
15:43I love you.
15:46Very much.
16:05God, the Father of mercies, through the death and resurrection of his Son, has reconciled the world to himself and
16:12sent the Holy Spirit among us for the forgiveness of sins.
16:15Through the ministry of his Church.
16:18May God give you peace...
16:21...and pardon.
16:25May I absolve you...
16:27...from your sins.
16:28In the name of the Father...
16:31...of the Son...
16:33...and of the Holy Spirit.
16:34Thank you, Italy.
16:57I will not bless you for the minister of the Holy Spirit.
17:09I saw the lights on when you're on.
17:16What's wrong with that?
17:20I'm having that.
17:36I'm sure that we'll both be able to go home with that.
17:48Yes.
17:50You know that.
17:54I'm sure.
18:07I'm not a nun.
18:14I'm not a nun.
18:18People are in drama.
18:22I love you.
18:25I love you.
18:27I love you.
18:39I love you.
18:42I love you.
18:45I love you.
18:49I love you.
18:52Is she okay?
18:59Oh, I haven't been seeing her.
19:02I appreciate you.
19:03Sorry.
19:08I appreciate you.
19:11You're there.
19:14I appreciate you.
19:15I appreciate you.
19:28I feel something.
19:39I feel something.
19:42I feel something.
19:43I feel something.
19:45I feel something.
19:48Oh.
19:49Maybe shh.
19:54You find a pair, Debbie.
20:04I don't like this.
20:06No, no.
20:07I'm just mad.
20:08I know.
20:34My name's David. I'm an alcoholic.
20:37Hi, David.
20:39I'm also, as most of you know, a priest.
20:43It's been a while since I've spoken.
20:47I was in Reading quite a big deal.
20:50I was given a lot of responsibilities in the diocese, a lot for my age.
20:54There were those that said I was to be the next bishop, quite a young bishop.
21:02There were a group of kids I was counselling.
21:05Not all Catholics, but I was pushing for a church that reaches out.
21:10I wasn't a trained counsellor, but I'd done courses,
21:15and I thought the priesthood was social work.
21:20I thought this boy, I won't tell you his name, was being abused.
21:29And I was trying to help him, get him to admit what had happened to him,
21:35how he felt about it, things I felt he needed.
21:41And he did tell me, he told me all sorts.
21:47There was his father raping him.
21:55And the difficult thing was, the difficult thing was that he told me he thought he liked it.
22:13And then he, um, he killed himself.
22:25It was very...
22:30sad.
22:33No-one blames me, but...
22:36people kept telling me to pray, and, uh, kept wanting to pray themselves,
22:41and I led them, that's my job, I led them in praying.
22:45And...
22:47that's when I lost it.
22:51The ability to pray.
22:55I found I could only talk to God, I could only find God within myself,
22:59when I drank, I found truth, solace.
23:08I don't know.
23:12And I took to starting the day with a drink.
23:20You know, I'm-I'm not blaming it on losing the kid.
23:25It was my own weakness.
23:26I'm not saying that was the reason, but it was the...
23:31trigger.
23:34Anyway...
23:38I was-I was no longer talked of as a future bishop.
23:44Yeah.
23:45Someone saw what was happening, and I was taken away and treated,
23:49and...
23:50helped.
23:54And...
23:55I moved in with my sister,
23:58and found a new life.
24:02Here.
24:05Three ever priests to move.
24:08But...
24:10Bristol was good enough to welcome me, and...
24:14felt I was doing good.
24:17Perhaps not good enough, but...
24:20could work.
24:27But...
24:30lately...
24:32things have become disturbed.
24:39And I-I-I-I guess I'm...
24:44scared.
24:45I'm gonna...
24:54Right now I need to drink so badly.
24:57What-
25:02I'm gonna...
25:09The police...
25:12So...
25:12The police...
25:16The police...
25:24The police..
25:28In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
25:33Amen.
25:34The Lord be with you.
25:36And with your spirit.
25:39Lord, we have sinned against you.
25:42Lord, have mercy.
25:44Lord, have mercy.
25:47Show us your mercy and your love.
25:51And with your salvation.
25:53May Almighty God have mercy on us.
25:56Forgive our sins.
25:58And bring us to everlasting life.
26:01Amen.
26:02Amen.
26:16Uh, welcome.
26:19Um, welcome to something a bit different.
26:27Now, the Catholic Church is not known for its thieving, apart from all the things we've
26:32stolen.
26:35Um, but this today is an audacious act of larceny, taking back from the Church of England what
26:41is, in fact, a Catholic event.
26:44In fact, I'll go further.
26:45A Catholic embrace.
26:47A celebration not of plenty, but of eliminating what?
26:52Of giving and the understanding of need.
26:56Saint Isidore, often called the farmer and our saint of harvest, said this.
27:02When God's grace touches our innermost minds to bring understanding, his word, which is received
27:10by the ear, can sink deep into our heart.
27:17Today is an act of love.
27:21And let's start by singing hymn number 432, Come ye thankful people, come.
27:51Well, that was a beautiful service.
27:53Oh, yeah. Still fancy him, though, right?
28:02I hope you didn't think I got my hair done for him.
28:05You had a haircut. You didn't get your hair done.
28:12I felt so ashamed sitting there.
28:14Well, you shouldn't have.
28:18I feel... I feel like I'm ten years old.
28:22Why, you're not!
28:25And I say that to someone who's shaved your armpits.
29:07I'm sorry.
29:08I'm sorry.
29:22I'm sorry.
29:23I'm sorry. I was dizzy.
29:25I'm sorry.
29:25My fault.
29:32Go.
29:33Stop it.
29:36Stop it.
29:37Stop it.
29:46Stop it.
29:54Stop it.
29:57Stop it.
30:04Stop it.
30:09Sorry.
30:12Your mother wanted to work.
30:17Who is he?
30:19It doesn't matter.
30:21I'm not discussing him with you.
30:23Why not?
30:24Because I don't want your judgment.
30:2726 years just torn up like that.
30:29That's not how I see it.
30:33I don't have to justify my choices to you.
30:37You just walked out on a job for a man who won't look at you.
30:41How do you see it?
30:43Did you come here just to shout at me, Mum?
30:45You were 16.
30:46I told you it was a mistake.
30:49You were so sure.
30:50Until suddenly you throw it all away.
30:53All that work.
30:53All that work?
30:54You made a commitment.
30:57A commitment which ripped my heart out.
31:02Your dad's heart out now means nothing.
31:04I made a commitment which I do not regret.
31:08Of course you regret it.
31:09But now I realize...
31:10Now you realize you've thrown away the best part of your life.
31:14And he doesn't want you back.
31:16Right?
31:18You made this choice and he doesn't want you back.
31:24That's the thing you could never understand.
31:27There's a point where you are.
31:29As a woman where we all are so beautiful.
31:32But now...
31:33I'm not.
31:37Go home.
31:40I needed to see you.
31:42You are making your problems mine.
31:44Yeah.
31:45Mum, like you always do.
31:48Go home.
31:51Don't remember the wrong things from this.
31:53You've made your point.
31:57Go home.
32:19Hello, Father.
32:20Uh, hello, Miriam.
32:22I was, um...
32:24I was wondering if, uh, I could talk to...
32:31I wondered if you fancy the walk.
32:43I enjoyed your harvest service.
32:46I was pleased to see you there.
32:50Surprised, if I'm honest.
32:52There's something basic, isn't there, about the harvest as a time for sharing.
32:58It was originally Catholic.
33:01Until Henry VIII, there was a Catholic service and the Irish...
33:04Yes, I think you mentioned that a few times.
33:09How long did it take you to write it, the, uh, the sermon?
33:14Depends on why you're asking.
33:16I liked it.
33:18All the stuff about the true nature of giving.
33:21I thought you gave a really...
33:22A true analysis of generosity as an exchange.
33:26Yeah, thank you.
33:29Um, I...
33:30I write them very quickly, often in the bath.
33:34And then I revise them quite a bit.
33:38So you...
33:39You write in the bath?
33:40Well, I actually dictate them into my phone.
33:43I can hear the water moving when I listen back.
33:46Huh.
33:47That's an odd image.
33:49Well, I suppose there isn't a great deal to do, but I think.
33:54I mean, wet.
33:56No.
34:01My parents came to see me.
34:03Furious.
34:04About leaving you?
34:06Yeah.
34:06I thought you said they weren't especially Catholic.
34:08Well, my mum didn't want me to become a nun, but, uh, here I am.
34:12Doing it anyway.
34:12Oh, leaving.
34:15Having ruined the best part of my life serving something fruitless.
34:19You haven't ruined the best parts of your life.
34:22If only you were my mother.
34:25My parents were troubled by my choice.
34:28My sister thought it was great.
34:30Not like the good old days when that third child will be stuffed off to the clergy.
34:33So, I think that's more of an Anglican tradition.
34:37Do they come to your services?
34:39Uh, both dead.
34:41My sister's still around there.
34:43She's a natural daughter.
34:44I was adopted.
34:46Oh.
34:48So, your parents were...
34:51Not white.
34:54Yeah.
34:56It's a bit strange how that question's always the first one people ask.
34:59Sorry for the boring question.
35:01It's not boring at all.
35:02Just marginally...
35:02Racist.
35:04Socially taming.
35:10I don't want to have sex with you.
35:14Sorry?
35:19I don't know what this is, but I've kept thinking about it, and I just wanted to say
35:25that I don't think I want to have sex with you.
35:31Uh, okay.
35:33Or, well, maybe I do.
35:35Maybe I'm just saying that to...
35:36But sex, the idea of sex, even when you were talking about yourself in the bath,
35:43actually, that didn't do it for me, because the idea of sex is truly terrifying to me,
35:51as I'm sure it is to you.
35:52Uh, I'm not even sure how I feel about kissing.
35:57I just don't know what this is.
36:02The way you make me feel, the way you've made me feel in an instant is...
36:11It remains something I can't explain or even understand, even now.
36:21It's something else.
36:23It's something more.
36:28So...
36:30That's it.
36:35Now...
36:36Now you have to talk.
36:45I just wanted to see you.
36:48Why?
36:51Because I like you.
36:56What a safe word to use.
37:01I suppose I was worried about you.
37:05Of course you are.
37:11But, um...
37:13Thank you for the clarity...
37:18about sex.
37:38I don't want to have sex with you.
37:43But I do want to hold your hand.
37:45I don't want to hold your hand.
38:06Okay.
38:11Okay.
38:15My position hasn't changed.
38:19You're...
38:19Uh, you're worried for me.
38:21You don't want to have sex with me.
38:24And you don't have feelings for me.
38:25Are you going to keep saying the word sex?
38:27I know now.
38:27I still want you to can't stop.
38:32The promises are...
38:35everything...
38:36to me.
38:38My service to God...
38:41matters...
38:42to me.
38:45My feelings for you...
38:48are ones of...
38:50care...
38:52and...
38:52friendship.
38:56Okay.
38:57All I want to do...
39:01I want to help you.
39:05You know, I threw my life up...
39:07for you.
39:09And you can deny responsibility, but I...
39:11Hang on, I'm responsible?
39:13Yes.
39:14Yes, you are.
39:14And now you are...
39:15You're sat here like a...
39:17like a wet pudding.
39:18And I feel like I'm the one who has to make you feel okay.
39:25And I, uh...
39:26I should go.
39:27But you came to my service.
39:28Yes, I came to your church.
39:30Why?
39:31To take part in a festival.
39:32Well, it felt like you were...
39:34What?
39:36What?
39:42I hoped it was an act of friendship.
39:47Ah.
39:49It must be lovely to have hopes like you've got.
39:51I...
39:54I want to be your friend.
39:56And...
39:56Help isn't a bad word.
39:58I want to support you in what you're doing.
40:00I...
40:00I want...
40:01To...
40:03I can't be that.
40:08But...
40:08I can be...
40:11I'd like to be your friend.
40:12Okay.
40:14Well, I accept your friendship.
40:17You do?
40:18Yes.
40:19Yes, I do.
40:19But, uh...
40:20I am...
40:22I'm tired now.
40:23And I want to go home.
40:27Do you...
40:28Do you even know the way?
40:30I've, uh...
40:31Always been good at retracing my steps.
40:36You know, I was sure when I became a nun.
40:38And I am equally sure now.
40:41I...
40:41I just know that God's path for me has changed.
40:45And I...
40:46I...
40:48I believe that God's path for you has changed, too.
40:54I am not some caged bird who saw a means of escape.
40:59I saw what you felt.
41:04And I felt it, too.
41:08I didn't imagine it.
41:10I didn't know what happened to me.
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