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Falling Season 1 Episode 4
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00:23TESLA
00:23Shall I take your bags to us, Tessa?
00:25Look, it's just... it's just one bag, quite small.
00:28They don't... I don't... they don't want me to bring much.
00:31No, no, no. Yes, I've read the booklet.
00:36So I can carry it?
00:37I always thought we should have redecorated this room.
00:39It was on my list, actually.
00:41Well, you can now.
00:43No, no, no. I meant for you.
00:44I meant this room was done up for a seven-year-old.
00:46You've dears on the wallpaper.
00:48I should have given it a lick of blue paint over the summer sometime.
00:51Made it feel more like a grown-ups room.
00:54I like it.
00:56My point is, I think you grew up.
00:59And I didn't notice.
01:04Well, Dad, none of this is to upset you.
01:08I found an answer to something, that's all.
01:14Muriel, are you there?
01:19Anna?
01:21Uh, if you're there...
01:23I think you need to talk.
01:27I'm just posting my number through the door.
01:32I just like to talk, talk more, that's all.
02:28I just like to talk, talk more, that's all.
02:53I just like to talk, talk more, that's all.
02:59Yeah?
03:01Don't.
03:05How you doing?
03:08Don't.
03:23How you brought him?
03:26Yeah.
03:28You've been waiting long, father?
03:31I'm sorry to keep you.
03:33I'm having a bladder reaction to the drugs or something and they were changing my paths.
03:39It's the right level of embarrassing for you?
03:42Yeah.
03:43Do you want, would you prefer some private time?
03:47No.
03:48Well, she wanted you here.
03:51Besides, we've had enough of that.
03:54She's bored of me yapping away, complaining about this, that, the other.
03:59Are you in pain?
04:01Oh yeah.
04:03And it's on my notes that I'm an addict so they're being very cheap with the painkillers.
04:10Uh, Tina wanted me to come and ask what you want to do next.
04:16Oh, I'd like to go home and live my life, thank you very much.
04:19Oh.
04:21I suppose I am concerned that we have Tina's baby underway.
04:28Well, I'll let him back in and he'll mess up that kid too.
04:33You're still charming.
04:36Tina wants help.
04:38I just want things to be different now.
04:46So you went to a priest.
04:49I'm not a priest.
04:51Yeah, just someone who cares.
04:55We all care, Father.
04:59Some more than we should.
05:15I am through with vetting families for schools.
05:21Little Algernon is a firm Catholic.
05:23We can't attend, of course.
05:25We dry ski on Sundays.
05:26But he prays daily and we bought him some of your holy beads from Amazon.
05:31Show him, Algy.
05:32Show him.
05:32I'm sure his name isn't Algernon.
05:34No.
05:35It's called Biscuit or some such nonsense.
05:41Sermon?
05:43Uh, uh, it's my sister's marriage blessing.
05:47I didn't see it in the diary.
05:49Second marriage.
05:50Ah.
05:51First one was...
05:53The bloke was an arsehole.
05:56It's a registry office wedding and then a blessing in the garden.
06:00Then praise be she's getting on the horse again.
06:03What?
06:05The church isn't right about everything.
06:07And I like your sister.
06:10And I like people getting on horses.
06:14I'm extending an awkward metaphor.
06:18I'm checking you're getting the help you need.
06:22I'm getting the help I need.
06:23But...
06:25I thought the witch is coming from my sister.
06:28Well, that's good.
06:31I...
06:32I was concerned, et cetera.
06:36I won't interfere, et cetera.
06:39Consider me spent.
06:45Now, we've had a strange request I didn't know whether to pass on.
06:50The chaplain at HMP Avonmouth has requested a visit.
06:55Well, well, well...
06:57A parishioner has requested you.
07:00Tina's father.
07:01I don't think you should.
07:04I'm not even sure Tina would like you going.
07:09But, uh...
07:11Your decision.
07:41CHOIR SINGS
07:54Oh.
07:58I, uh, I wasn't sure whether to, um...
07:59Knocked for you, like, four or five times at Muriel's.
08:02You haven't been to hell.
08:04Well, that is, uh, impressive of you.
08:06I've run.
08:08Repeatedly.
08:09You've done a lot.
08:11Very thorough.
08:12I, uh...
08:14Begin, you sound like harassment.
08:19I, um...
08:20I wanted to talk to you.
08:24I'm aware.
08:27I just wanted to say that I stand by everything I've said.
08:33I, I've, I've thought about it, and, um, this doesn't often happen to me, but, uh...
08:40I think I was right.
08:43I think you and I should accept that what happened between us was meaningful, but not in the way, well,
08:50not, not in the way that I thought it to be meaningful.
08:55Can I speak now?
08:56No.
08:57No.
08:58No.
09:00Yes, if you want to.
09:06Yeah, uh...
09:06But you're, you're not allowed to compliment me.
09:09Can you...
09:09Just, if, for instance, you were going to say, uh, that I was formidable or fantastic or even just interesting,
09:18or anything about how I look or how I am, then that, that wouldn't be okay to say.
09:24Why not?
09:28Let me just start from the beginning.
09:30The beginning and the end is that I changed my life for you.
09:37And you are not responsible for that.
09:39I really, I really hope I've made it clear that you are not responsible for that.
09:46It's just the truth.
09:47I've, I've found all of this very confusing.
09:51I apologise.
09:53I also hope I've made it clear that it was all me, and, uh, I, I do apologise for your
10:02confusion.
10:02But I wasn't all you.
10:03You're not allowed to say that, either.
10:05And I, what am I allowed to say?
10:11Have you been praying?
10:13About you?
10:15No.
10:16No, not about me.
10:19I just mean, have you, have you been, uh, praying generally?
10:23I feel like I've, uh, been the cause of some spiritual undoing, and I just, I just wanted to make
10:32sure that you've been, you've been praying again.
10:36Yeah, I've been praying.
10:38Have you?
10:40Yes.
10:42I've also been going more regularly to Alcoholics Anonymous.
10:47It's not something I want advertised, but it's something you probably guessed.
10:55Yeah, I did, um, you sense, um, and that's helpful.
11:02I think so.
11:04My sister's good people around me.
11:09You, uh, you want to feel responsible.
11:14You shouldn't apologise, I should.
11:18I'm sorry.
11:20I've behaved towards you.
11:23I, uh, I felt you, you made me feel things.
11:28I, I needed to know that.
11:32You made me feel things.
11:38Well, I, uh, trying to set myself right, I'm determined to be a good priest.
11:44At least the best priest I'm capable of being.
11:49My confusion was never you.
11:53It was, uh, you, uh, brought to light what you've done, but what you've been to light.
12:05At AA, we tried to explain not who we are, but why we are.
12:12And I think you saw the who, but not the why.
12:19I think my understanding of what I should be has been, I think I've been trying to help people in
12:24the wrong way.
12:26And which way is that?
12:28Saving people.
12:29Saving addiction like any other.
12:55Saving addiction like any other.
13:05Wonderful's the word I would have used.
13:08It's great.
13:09You?
13:16I'll see you again.
13:21Not if I see you first.
13:36I'll see you next time.
14:05Is that you?
14:08Oh, of course it's you.
14:11I'm due on shift.
14:13Oh, I've cooked.
14:15Yeah, a disgusting idea, I know, but on the off chance you're not repulsed, there's half a shepherd's pie in
14:21the oven.
14:22You look like you're coming down with a cold.
14:25No.
14:25No, I'm fine.
14:26You sure?
14:28What time are you back?
14:29Shift ends, 5am.
14:31Very lucky.
14:31Now, come here.
14:34Eat the pie.
14:46Mila gets two ahead of you.
14:48We're going local for this one.
14:50In which English county would you find watching?
14:54Seven.
14:55Maybe not quite.
14:57Five.
14:58Correct, Sally.
15:00What current suit do you use if you hold it to speed it?
15:25What current suit do you use if you hold it to speed it?
16:00Hey, um, can I help a glass of red wine, please?
16:04Well, you've got a list if you want to.
16:05Oh, just the cheapest.
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23:24I don't know.
24:16I don't know.
24:24I don't know.
24:25Father Hicks?
24:26Father Bennett.
24:27Call me William.
24:29David.
24:36Okay, so you'll be meeting him in the multi-faith room.
24:39It's up to you if you want someone in the room with you.
24:41I'll be okay.
24:43I think he genuinely wants counsel.
25:08God, stay now.
25:10You asked for me?
25:12Yes.
25:15I was surprised.
25:16Yeah.
25:22My hair's a priest.
25:25Where's the man?
25:28There's a priest.
25:36What do you want from me?
25:43I, um...
25:47They told me she's gonna be okay.
25:51I asked if I could call her, but they said no.
25:56You thought they might allow it?
25:57I didn't know.
25:58That's why I asked.
25:59I'm glad you want to speak to her.
26:00Because I love her.
26:05I wanted to hear her voice.
26:06Here she was...
26:10Here she wasn't in too much pain.
26:14What pain that you caused.
26:20Yeah, I know, I know.
26:26Have you, um...
26:30Will you visit her?
26:33I have.
26:37And is she...
26:37She's in pretty bad shape.
26:43I don't know...
26:50I don't know...
26:53How to stop.
27:01If she gives evidence against me,
27:03they'll give me two years, maybe, and...
27:06I'll be released on condition that I stay away from her,
27:08but she'll find me, because that's her way,
27:11and then I'll just do it again.
27:12You've assumed a lot of things in that statement.
27:14Of course you won't, and I'll find someone else.
27:20I can smell it on them.
27:24The woman...
27:27The women who...
27:29won't say no.
27:30The women that'll take it,
27:32and know who they are.
27:33Sounds like...
27:33Oh, what, you think there weren't others before her?
27:36Others during her?
27:40Yeah, it doesn't take a lot for me to get women.
27:43These hands have broken three jaws.
27:45I've stamped on hands.
27:47I've shattered legs, pelvises, eye sockets.
27:49One girl I almost ripped her ear clean off.
27:51What can you say to that?
27:52You sound almost proud.
27:56My mum...
27:57She walked with a hunch.
28:02Walking round the house with a bunch of washing
28:04and a cheap plastic basket, and this saggy face, and this...
28:09hunch.
28:12Like she was always waiting for the gut punch.
28:14Why did you want me to hear that?
28:17What's the question?
28:21I'm thinking I need to kill myself.
28:26And I know that that is a sin, but I'm thinking it's all that I've got.
28:33It is the only way to stop me.
28:41And I'm asking for your guidance on that.
29:12Okay.
29:17I think...
29:18that you need help.
29:20Tried it, it didn't work.
29:22I think you need to try again.
29:26Father Bennett told me we have a counselling service here.
29:28No. No.
29:29I just want to hurt them too.
29:30They think they're so fucking clever.
29:32They never are.
29:32I am actually clever.
29:34I can see how fucking thick they are.
29:36And I won't have it.
29:38Do you think I'm clever?
29:39You?
29:40You're not as clever as you think.
29:44You are weak.
29:51I can smile the booze on you now.
29:55No.
29:56Fine.
29:59But I've smugged the booze on you before.
30:02And I know you go to those meetings.
30:05I've got friends in those meetings and they know you're weak too.
30:09Why does it matter what I think?
30:10Because I have said this.
30:15You are my priest.
30:17I've never much felt like you're a priest.
30:21You can talk to any priest.
30:24Maybe someone with some distance, Father Bennett.
30:26I don't know them.
30:27They could be kitty fiddlers.
30:28Or worse still, the pious fuckers who think that everything is easy.
30:32You're weak.
30:38But you're a good man.
30:41I've seen you.
30:42And I know you're good.
30:43And you have been good to my daughter.
30:47I trust your judgment.
30:50I don't want this last act to be a sin.
30:54I want it to be an act of penance.
30:57And God is not talking to me right now, so I need to know from you.
31:00I need to know that...
31:01I need to be sure that this is, um...
31:06That penance is right.
31:20Good.
31:24Good.
31:24Yeah, you think him?
31:29Well, there it is.
31:30I know I've said all I want to say.
31:34I'll trust your word.
31:44Yes or no.
31:45The first foster home I went to was fine, but they were only doing emergency care.
31:51The second was okay, but we didn't get on.
31:55The third foster family I went to, I was...
31:59Five.
32:00I lived there for two years until I was seven.
32:04The older kid there was 14.
32:09I won't give him his name because...
32:12He doesn't deserve it.
32:14To be honest, I don't need to hear the personal stuff.
32:16He thought I made too much noise.
32:18He liked to pinch me.
32:22Just little hard pinches that no one saw.
32:25And I was a pretty scared child and I let him.
32:29And then it escalated a little.
32:33He'd punch me.
32:35Little rabbit punches, he'd call them.
32:38He'd push me off things and he'd...
32:43Do everything he could.
32:45Little things to...
32:48He enjoyed my pain.
32:50I am not finding this interesting.
32:51I just want an answer.
32:52I didn't want to talk to my support worker about it because I thought it was this or an institution.
32:57And I had my own room with this family and I really enjoyed the food.
33:02And I had a couple of friends at school that I liked to play with.
33:06And then, like, the people who became my parents started to visit.
33:13And they were really special.
33:15Everyone could see.
33:17They...
33:18Smelt good.
33:20They were Catholic.
33:21Everyone knew that religious adopters were the best kind.
33:23And the third time they visited, he followed me into the toilet.
33:32And he slammed my head into the bowl and he held it.
33:35He tried to hold it into the water.
33:37He tried to drown me in the toilet water, but there wasn't enough water in the bottom of the bowl.
33:42And so he pushed his hands around my head and I was bleeding.
33:47He strangled me.
33:55He strangled me.
33:58So hard.
34:00I lost consciousness.
34:04I...
34:06I don't know how...
34:10I know who saved me.
34:15I was taken away from that foster family immediately.
34:18Actually taken in to...
34:20by the Catholics who adopted me.
34:24I...
34:27My point...
34:28is actually I have two points.
34:30My first is I understand pain.
34:34I understand people who want to inflict pain.
34:40My second point...
34:42is that boy, me...
34:47I had no one...
34:50to talk to.
34:51No one.
34:54And...
34:55I...
34:55I thought since then...
34:57I resolved I would never let anyone...
35:00be alone like that, like I was again.
35:06But...
35:07But I think...
35:08you do need to be alone, Phil.
35:13Penance is about change.
35:15It's not about ends.
35:19If you commit the same sin...
35:21you can't just clean it off.
35:23And you can't think one act...
35:24cleans the slate.
35:25It doesn't...
35:25God doesn't work like that.
35:28God loves.
35:29But God also expects.
35:30And what does he expect?
35:31He expects love.
35:36He expects...
35:37love.
35:39For yourself...
35:40and for others.
35:42And he expects you to be the best love.
35:46John chapter 4, verse 8.
35:48Dear friends, let us love one another...
35:50for love comes from God.
35:51Everyone who loves...
35:52has been born of God...
35:54and knows God.
36:04So, no.
36:05No.
36:06I will not sit in judgment on your end.
36:08It's a sin how you've lived.
36:10And if you kill yourself...
36:11it'll be a sin how you die.
36:14But I will say this.
36:17Yeah, you're right.
36:19I am weak.
36:22But you are weaker.
36:24If you think...
36:25you truly have no way of helping yourself.
36:30And I will be...
36:31I will do...
36:33everything I can...
36:35to help Bianca see this through.
36:37So you stay in here...
36:40for a very long time.
37:00for a very long time...
37:02and I will be...
37:02won't be too many years...
37:03to help you...Ø´...
37:05so...
37:11They just
37:12save you... they just
37:12save you... they just
37:17save you... can't
37:22struggle... I'm
37:22you will
37:22PHONE RINGS
37:31Hi.
37:33Hello.
37:34This is a surprise.
37:37I thought about calling.
37:39I didn't want to catch you unawares.
37:42You caught me unawares on your last visit, so fair's fair.
37:47And you're cooking.
37:49The James family invited us over.
37:52I thought I'd make my apple cake.
37:54Chris?
37:55Chris?
38:00Don't let me stop you.
38:03Do you want to help?
38:07Yeah.
38:08Of course.
38:19Hello.
38:21She's helping me now.
38:22You can go back to your room.
38:25Nice to see you.
38:26And you, Dad.
38:27Are you well?
38:28We're cooking.
38:42That was an odd thing to do, wasn't it?
38:44Forgot I had some out.
38:46Oh.
38:47Sure.
38:48You decor and slice.
38:51I'll keep working on the rest of it.
38:53Okay.
38:57I've been making a yoghurt and apple cake, actually.
39:02And we had a farmer who would swap me.
39:06And we had a farmer who would swap me, um...
39:09It doesn't matter.
39:12I hate it when you do that.
39:15When you're superior like that.
39:17It doesn't matter.
39:20And you are the arbiter of...
39:24I am.
39:26I'm just...
39:27I'm just here to see you, Mum.
39:30I just want to help you make a cake.
39:40I like thin slices.
39:43Feels like they melt into the cake when they're thin.
40:11I need a lift, Dad.
40:12Okay.
40:16Where to?
40:45Hello, Father.
40:47Hello.
40:48Um...
40:48I just wondered if Anna...
40:51Whether I could talk to Anna.
40:54Um...
40:54No, I'm afraid you can't.
40:56Look, I know I've made mistakes.
40:58I just want to explain or try to set things right.
41:03Just talk to her.
41:04She's gone back.
41:07Back where?
41:17She, um...
41:18She left me a letter.
41:21Probably thought I'd try to convince her different.
41:30John, come in.
41:31She's made a mistake.
41:36I think you've thought that a few times.
41:38She has.
41:42She took her skin off for you.
41:48Maybe she just wanted to put it on again.
41:54Feel safe again.
42:00Yeah.
42:12Anna?
42:17Oh, it is you.
42:18And looking so healthy.
42:21Look at that lovely hair.
42:24Hello, Polly.
42:26Hello, Agnes.
42:29I didn't think I'd see you again.
42:32You have light all through you.
42:53Hello.
42:57I...
42:58Are you, uh...
42:59In the middle of something on the stage?
43:02Please.
43:06Please don't make this humiliating.
43:08I wasn't intending to.
43:11But...
43:12May I ask why?
43:15This is my home.
43:17No.
43:18It is a home of God.
43:26Did he reject you?
43:28No.
43:30Are you going to change your mind again?
43:33No.
43:34Sorry to ask.
43:35I hope you...
43:37know why I have...
43:39Is there still a place...
43:41for me?
43:44Of course...
43:45there is.
43:47I can do good work here.
43:50You always did.
43:53I, uh...
43:54I have my habit.
43:58If you want to...
44:00you may put it back on.
44:06You are loved here.
44:09And we are pleased you have found your way back.
44:15I love you too.
44:19And...
44:21I will try not to expect you to be the same person now as you were when you left us.
44:29Though you do seem to be just as irritating.
44:33In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
44:37The Lord be with you.
44:39And with your spirit.
44:44Lord, we have sinned against you.
44:48Lord, have mercy.
44:50Lord, have mercy.
44:53Lord, hear our prayer to fill us as you filled your Son with love.
44:58To fight the world.
45:02Help us...
45:06To...
45:09Help...
45:09Help... Help us to...
45:13Amen.
45:14Amen.
45:17Show us.
45:20Show us.
45:20Show us your mercy...
45:22and your love.
45:24And grant us your salvation.
45:29May Almighty God have mercy on us.
45:33Forgive our sins.
45:36And bring us to everlasting life.
45:40Amen.
45:40Amen.
45:42Amen.
46:19Amen.
46:26Amen.
46:44Amen.
46:44Amen.
46:55Amen.
46:57Amen.
47:01Amen.
47:02Amen.
47:03Amen.
47:04Amen.
47:04Amen.
47:05Amen.
47:05Amen.
47:06Amen.
47:06Amen.
47:06Amen.
47:07Amen.
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