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Falling Season 1 Episode 2
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00:23I was wondering if perhaps you wanted to get some clothes?
00:28Er, yes, I probably should.
00:31Good.
00:34This is £200.
00:38No, I can't take your money as well as your hospitality.
00:41Well, the hospitality's a gift. This is a loan.
00:45No, you've done so much already. I don't want to be any trouble.
00:48Well, have you got a bank account?
00:50Er, no.
00:51Have you got any cash money?
00:53Er, no.
00:55Well, I don't know what your Bible says,
00:58but mine is quite explicit about helping people in need.
01:04My sons have moved out.
01:07My husband left me.
01:09I like having you here.
01:11And if you find anything nice for the Harvest Festival...
01:14I'll drop something at the church.
01:15No, I didn't mean for you to go.
01:17Oh, I have no intention of being afraid of him.
01:21You're going to be okay, aren't you?
01:24Hmm.
01:25Let's start with a question.
01:28What do you think a priest is?
01:31People who talk to God.
01:33Yeah, that's good.
01:35Erm...
01:36But I actually think anyone can talk to God.
01:38That's what prayer is.
01:38A priest is a boss in church.
01:42I like that.
01:43I like that.
01:45Yes, we are.
01:46Do you have a class representative?
01:48Someone who sits on a committee representing the class?
01:51Angus.
01:55Are you Angus?
01:57On Wednesday we have rice dinner.
01:59But Angus decided we should have sausages instead.
02:02So he talked to you about that decision?
02:04No.
02:04Yeah.
02:05I did!
02:07Er, would you consider you elected him your representative leader?
02:12Er, when it comes to lunch menus, at least?
02:15Definitely.
02:16Definitely?
02:17Yeah?
02:18Right, well, I would say what I do is spiritual leadership.
02:24I don't decide what we have for lunch, but I do lead people, or try to, in their prayer and
02:32their worship.
02:34And that's why I'm here today, to talk to you about a festival we're going to be running at my
02:39church.
02:39Who here has heard of Harvest Festival?
02:43Good!
02:44And who can tell me what it's all about?
02:46Thank you for doing that.
02:48Er, talking business, were you able to give any more consideration to my needle exchange idea?
02:54Yes, um, Harvest Festivals, needle banks, they did warn me that you were radical when you came our way.
03:00It's just a small capital investment.
03:02Now this diocese is already running three full-time food banks.
03:07I think there are six part-time ones.
03:09And the deanery is going to take to opening its doors twice a week as a wall bank.
03:13And there's countless outreach educational groups.
03:16Okay, but those are all necessary.
03:19The diocese has 53 million pounds in funds, 21 of which is cash in the bank.
03:23Surely we can find something.
03:24How long have you been with us? Is it two years?
03:28Three.
03:28Well, don't you think you're settling properly before you try taking on my job?
03:33Look, I know what happened with this nun and clearly, clearly there is no, no blame attached to you.
03:39But it's not as if your copy book wasn't already blotted and now you're digging into our accounts.
03:44What have you heard about?
03:44I never knew that she was so flighty.
03:49Silly.
03:52Um, I think there was, um, there was confusion.
03:58Oh, there's no confusion. She took a vow.
04:00She didn't even wait to ask for permission to leave.
04:07If you want to find her, I do know where she is.
04:09Well, we know where she is, but the abbess, she wants, she wants her to stew a little.
04:15Poor Anna, she has absolutely no idea of the real world.
04:21Good luck, David.
04:24Ah, and thanks once again. Very kind of you.
04:40Rally.
04:41Oh, my God.
04:49Oh, my God.
05:26MUSIC CONTINUES
05:44Oh, sorry. I need to count your...
05:46I'm sorry. I need to count your clothes.
05:49Need to count them.
06:26MUSIC CONTINUES
06:49Let me take this.
06:50Thanks.
06:55It's a recruitment drive.
06:58You've discovered a way to recruit people.
07:01You love it. Admit it, you do.
07:05They get to feel charitable about donating a can of beans.
07:09They remind themselves they're Catholic, see me inside of a church.
07:11They might even, God forbid, come to the actual service.
07:15How many cans of beans do we have?
07:17I have a rough estimate, 467. I can fill the front three pews.
07:21Well, we could keep them and do that thing where we push you down the hill and bath for the
07:25beans.
07:26Well, I don't think that would do your reputation any good at all, especially now.
07:31It was all over the diocese, the pretty priest who steals sisters.
07:39It's not my fault she's flighty.
07:43Oh, flighty, is it?
07:44It's not my fault.
08:07I brought home some food.
08:10Welcome.
08:12I brought home some food.
08:21How was your day?
08:23Er, not the best.
08:25We're overrun.
08:26Well, I'm sorry.
08:28Yeah.
08:30Been overrun for years.
08:33So what did you get?
08:36Shopping, I mean.
08:41Er...
08:42It felt a bit much, to be honest.
08:46Oh?
08:49We need a drink.
08:51But first, I'm going to get you some clothes.
08:54See, we didn't have mirrors.
08:56Of course you didn't.
08:59And I...
08:59Well, I seem to have lost the ability to look at myself.
09:03And yet, everybody else seemed to want to look at me.
09:05It's almost as if I've forgotten what I look like.
09:10Not that I think I'm still 16.
09:12You've got a beautiful face.
09:14No, no, no.
09:15It's not a question of pride.
09:18Do you know, to be honest,
09:19I can admit I don't like changing rooms either.
09:21Everything had short sleeves.
09:24And the tops and the dresses.
09:27And I just wanted something to cover myself.
09:31What is it you want covered?
09:34Well, my arms and my legs.
09:38I mean, there were some long sleeves.
09:41But...
09:42It's not that I don't like my arms.
09:44I mean, I don't really think about my arms.
09:47But...
09:53I...
09:54I...
09:55I have never...
09:56shaved my armpits.
09:59Oh.
10:01And everything felt very...
10:04Well, very exposing of that.
10:06And, uh...
10:08I've also never shaved my legs.
10:15I am profoundly hairy.
10:18Ah!
10:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
10:42Father David
10:49Oh, hi. I was called with Gertrude Macy
10:52Yes, of course. Take a seat
11:38Thanks for coming.
11:41You're Lucy?
11:42Yeah.
11:44Um, thank you for bringing me to care deeply about your mum. I missed her at Mass.
11:54I went in every day, right?
11:56That's right.
11:58Bet confession was a blast.
12:00No, no, no.
12:07Did she talk about me?
12:12I know you can't say.
12:21Wink for yes, Amy.
12:27Gertrude was, er, is very kind around the parish.
12:32She wasn't...
12:36I wasn't Catholic.
12:39She wasn't Catholic when I was a child.
12:43She was when she was a kid, but found being an adult more...
12:49...difficult.
12:52I'm guessing you two didn't always get on.
12:56No.
12:58She...
12:59...liked to hurt.
13:06I'm sorry about that.
13:08I'm just...
13:13...pleased someone's forgiven her.
13:20It's time.
13:34Lucy, would you come in with me?
13:38Uh...
13:39The last rites...
13:42...are something...
13:44...really quite beautiful.
13:48It's a celebration of the sacraments of penance and viaticum.
13:54Viaticum is...
13:56...a Latin word meaning...
13:58...provision and love...
14:00...for the next part of the journey.
14:04We are taken...
14:06...with you...
14:07...on the way.
14:14It's about faith...
14:16...of course, but I think...
14:19...it's mostly...
14:20...about love.
14:24I...
14:25...it...
14:26...it doesn't have to be about your forgiveness...
14:29...and not challenging your anger.
14:32All that's asked for...
14:33...is your support for her penance...
14:36...and her journey.
14:45I definitely support her penance.
15:03Do you have anything to say to me...
15:05...Gertrude?
15:07If you're unable to talk...
15:08...just squeeze my hand...
15:10...if you're sorry for anything you've done wrong.
15:24I just...
15:25...wanna say...
15:29...thanks, Gertrude, thank you...
15:32...for being a really good friend...
15:34...to me and...
15:36...to the community.
15:38I think we saw the very best of you.
15:43I love for you...
15:46...very much.
16:05God the Father of mercies...
16:07...through the death and resurrection of his son...
16:10...and has reconciled the world...
16:11...to himself...
16:12...and...
16:12...sent the Holy Spirit among us...
16:14...for...
16:14...the forgiveness of sins...
16:16...through the ministry of his church.
16:18May God...
16:19...give you peace...
16:21...and pardon.
16:25I absolve you...
16:27...from your sins...
16:28...in the name of the Father...
16:30...of the Son...
16:33...and of the Holy Spirit.
16:43I believe in the Father...
16:45...not only...
16:45...if he will be!
16:52...to him...
17:00...of the Holy Spirit...
17:02...to him...
17:03...and for...
17:04...anime...
17:08...what is he...
17:09I saw the lights were on when you're on.
17:16Hot chocolate.
17:21Have a damn.
17:36I'm sure that would pop the hell.
17:39You are good with that.
17:49You know that?
17:54I'm sure.
18:07I'm not a nun.
18:18I'm not a nun.
18:22I'm not a nun.
18:25I'm not a nun.
18:27Sometimes I'm not going to sleep.
18:31I'm supposed to mind her.
18:33Listen.
18:34Because I'm sorry.
18:36Ah!
18:37I remember something.
18:39When I went naked.
18:42Spudgy.
18:44I know.
18:46I know.
18:49I found her.
18:52She...
18:53Was she?
18:54Was she okay?
19:02She...
19:02I don't know.
19:08She can't.
19:09Was she.
19:10Was she?
19:11Was she?
19:12Was she...
19:12I was not going to see her.
19:13Was she?
19:15I was yelling.
19:15Was she?
19:21Oh, baby.
19:23I was going to be very quiet.
19:31You should feel something.
19:35You should feel something.
19:39Shhh.
19:41Shhh.
19:43It's all.
19:46It's all.
19:49Maybe shhh.
19:50It's all.
19:54You find a better demon.
20:04I don't like this.
20:05No, no.
20:07I know.
20:08No.
20:09No.
20:10No more.
20:20No more.
20:38No more.
20:39I was most of you know a priest.
20:43It's been a while since I've spoken.
20:47I was in Reading quite a big deal.
20:49I was given a lot of responsibilities and diocese a lot for my age.
20:53There were those that said I was to be the next bishop.
20:56Quite a young bishop.
21:02There were a group of kids I was counselling.
21:05Not all Catholics but I was pushing for a church that reaches out.
21:10I wasn't a trained counsellor but I'd done courses and I thought the priesthood was social work.
21:20I thought this boy, I wouldn't say his name, was being abused and I was trying to help him, get
21:31him to admit what had happened to him, how he felt about it, things I felt he needed.
21:40And he did tell me, he told me all sorts, as his father raping him.
21:56And the difficult thing was, the difficult thing was that he told me he thought he liked it.
22:13And then he, um, he killed himself.
22:25It was very sad.
22:33No one blames me but people kept telling me to pray.
22:38And kept wanting to pray themselves and I led them, that's my job, I led them in praying.
22:44And that's when I lost it.
22:51The ability to pray.
22:54I found I could only talk to God, I could only find God within myself when I drank.
23:01I found truth, solace.
23:08I don't know.
23:12And I took to starting the day with a drink.
23:20You know, I'm not blaming it on losing the kid, it was my own weakness.
23:26I'm not saying that was the reason but it was the trigger.
23:37Anyway, I was, I was no longer talked of as a future bishop.
23:45Someone saw what was happening and I was taken away and treated and helped.
23:53And I moved in with my sister and found a new life.
24:02Here.
24:05I have to pray for priests to move.
24:09But Bristol was good enough to welcome me and felt I was doing good.
24:17perhaps not good enough, but
24:20it could work.
24:26But
24:29lately
24:32things have become disturbed
24:38and I guess I'm
24:44scared I'm going to
24:54Right now I need to drink so badly
25:28in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit
25:33Amen
25:34The Lord be with you
25:37Lord, we have sinned against you
25:41Lord, have mercy
25:47Show us your mercy and your love
25:53May Almighty God have mercy on us
25:56forgive our sins
25:57and bring us to everlasting life
26:01Amen
26:01Amen
26:16Uh, welcome
26:19Um, welcome to something a bit different
26:27Now the Catholic Church is not known for its thieving
26:31apart from all the things we've stolen
26:32Um, but this today is an audacious act of larceny
26:38taken back from the Church of England
26:40what is in fact a Catholic event
26:43in fact I'll go further
26:45a Catholic embrace
26:46a celebration not of plenty
26:50but of eliminating want
26:51of giving
26:53and the understanding of need
26:55Saint Isidore
26:58often called the farmer
26:59and our saint of harvest
27:01said this
27:03When God's grace
27:04When God's grace touches our innermost minds
27:06to bring understanding
27:07His word
27:09which is received by the ear
27:11can sink deep
27:13into our heart
27:17Today is an act of love
27:21Let's start by singing hymn number 432
27:25Come ye thankful people, come
27:51Well that was a beautiful service
27:53Oh, yeah
27:55Still fancy him though, right?
28:02I hope you didn't think I got my hair done for him
28:05You had a haircut
28:07You didn't get your hair done
28:12I felt so ashamed sitting there
28:13Well you shouldn't have
28:18I feel
28:20I feel like I'm ten years old
28:23Well you're not
28:25And I say that
28:26as someone who's shaved your armpits
28:53And I say that as someone who's shaved your armpits
28:57I don't know what you're doing
29:01No, no, no
29:03Come on
29:19I'm sorry
29:22It's all right, I was teasing, it's all right.
29:25It's all right.
29:26My fault.
29:32Go.
29:34Stop it.
29:50Go.
30:09Dad.
30:12Your mother wanted a word.
30:17Who is he?
30:18It doesn't matter.
30:21I'm not discussing him with you.
30:23Why not?
30:24Because I don't want your judgment.
30:2726 years just torn up like that.
30:29That's not how I see it.
30:32I...
30:34I don't have to justify my choices to you.
30:37You just walk out on a job for a man who won't look at you.
30:41How do you see it?
30:43Did you come here just to shout at me, Mum?
30:45You were 16.
30:46I told you it was a mistake.
30:49You were so sure.
30:50Until suddenly you throw it all away.
30:53All that work.
30:53All that work?
30:54You made a commitment.
30:57A commitment which ripped my heart out.
31:02Your dad's heart out now means nothing.
31:04I made a commitment which I...
31:06I do not regret.
31:08Of course you regret it.
31:09But now I realize...
31:10Now you realize you've thrown away the best part of your life.
31:14And he doesn't want you back.
31:16Right?
31:18You made this choice and he doesn't want you back.
31:24That's the thing you could never understand.
31:26There's a point where you are.
31:29As a woman where we all are so beautiful.
31:32But now...
31:33I'm not.
31:37Go home.
31:40I needed to see you.
31:42You are making your problems mine.
31:44Yeah.
31:45Mum, like you always do.
31:48Go home.
31:51Don't remember the wrong things from this.
31:53You've made your point.
31:56Go home.
32:19Hello, Father.
32:20Hello, Miriam.
32:22I was, um...
32:24I was wondering if I could talk...
32:31I wondered if you fancied a walk.
32:43I enjoyed your harvest service.
32:46I was pleased to see you there.
32:50Surprised, if I'm honest.
32:53There's something...
32:54basic, isn't there, about...
32:56the harvest as a time for sharing.
32:58It was originally Catholic.
33:00Till Henry VIII, there was a Catholic service,
33:02and the Irish...
33:04Yes, I think you mentioned that.
33:06A few times.
33:09How long did it take you to write it?
33:11For, uh, the salmon?
33:14Depends on why you're asking.
33:16I liked it.
33:17All the stuff about the true nature of giving.
33:20I...
33:21I thought you gave a really...
33:22a true analysis of generosity as an exchange.
33:29Um, I...
33:30I write them very quickly.
33:32Often in the bath.
33:34And then I revise them quite a bit.
33:38So you...
33:38you write in the bath?
33:40Well, I actually dictate them into my phone.
33:43I can...
33:43I can hear the water moving when...
33:45I'm listening back.
33:46Oh.
33:47That's an odd image.
33:49I suppose there isn't a great deal to do.
33:52But, I think...
33:53when you wet.
33:54What?
33:56No.
34:01My parents came to see me.
34:03Furious.
34:04About leaving your...
34:05Yeah.
34:06I thought you said they weren't especially Catholic.
34:08Well, my mum didn't want me to become a nun, but...
34:11here I am.
34:12Doing it anyway.
34:13Oh.
34:13Leaving.
34:15Having ruined the best part of my life serving something fruitless.
34:19You haven't ruined the best parts of your life.
34:22If only you were my mother.
34:25My parents were troubled by my choice.
34:28My sister thought it was great.
34:30Not like the good old days when that third child will be stuffed off to the clergy.
34:34I think that's more of an Anglican tradition.
34:36Do they come to your services?
34:39Uh, both dead.
34:41My sister's still around there. She's a natural daughter.
34:44I was adopted.
34:46Oh.
34:48So, your parents were...
34:51Not white.
34:54Yeah.
34:55It's a bit strange how that question's always the first one people ask.
34:59Sorry for the boring question.
35:01It's not boring at all, just marginally...
35:02Racist.
35:04Socially taming.
35:10I don't want to have sex with you.
35:14Sorry?
35:16I...
35:19I don't know what this is.
35:22But I've kept thinking about it and I just wanted to say...
35:25That I don't think I want to have sex with you.
35:32Uh...
35:32Okay.
35:32Or, uh...
35:34Or, uh...
35:34Well, maybe I do.
35:34Maybe I'm just saying that to, um...
35:36But sex.
35:37The...
35:38The idea of...
35:39Of sex.
35:40Even...
35:40Even when you were talking about yourself, you know, in...
35:42In the bath.
35:43Actually that...
35:44Didn't do it...
35:45For me.
35:46Because...
35:47The idea of sex is...
35:49Truly terrifying.
35:50To me.
35:51As I'm sure it is to you.
35:53Uh...
35:53I'm not even sure how I feel about kissing.
35:57I just don't know...
35:59What this is.
36:02The way you make...
36:04Me feel.
36:04The way you...
36:05Made...
36:07Me feel.
36:08In an instant.
36:09Is...
36:11It...
36:12Remains...
36:12Something I...
36:13I can't...
36:14Explain.
36:15Or...
36:15Or even understand.
36:17Even now.
36:20I...
36:22It's...
36:23Something else.
36:24It's...
36:26Something...
36:26More.
36:28Sarah.
36:30That's it.
36:35Now...
36:36Now you have to talk.
36:45I just wanted to see you.
36:48Why?
36:51Because I like you.
36:56What a safe word to use.
37:01I suppose I was...
37:03Worried about you.
37:05Of course you are.
37:12But um...
37:13Thank you for...
37:14Well...
37:15The clarity.
37:18About sex.
37:26Of course.
37:38I don't want to have sex with you.
37:43But I do want to hold your hand.
38:05Okay.
38:11Okay.
38:14My position hasn't changed.
38:19You're...
38:19Uh...
38:20You're worried for me.
38:21You...
38:22Don't want to have sex...
38:23With me.
38:24And you don't have feelings for me.
38:25You're gonna keep saying the word sex.
38:27I know now.
38:27I still just can't stop.
38:32The promises are...
38:35Everything...
38:36To me.
38:38My service...
38:39To God...
38:41Matters...
38:42To me.
38:44My feelings for you...
38:48Are ones of...
38:50Care...
38:51And...
38:52Friendship.
38:55Okay.
38:56All I want to do...
39:00I want to help you.
39:05You know, I threw my life up...
39:08For you.
39:09And you can deny responsibility, but I...
39:11Hang on, I'm responsible.
39:13Yes.
39:14Yes, you are.
39:14And now you are...
39:15You're sat here like a...
39:17Like a wet pudding.
39:18And I feel like I'm the one who has to make you feel okay.
39:24And I...
39:26I should go.
39:27But you came to my service.
39:28Yes, I came to your church.
39:29Why?
39:31To take part in a festival.
39:32Well, it felt like you were...
39:33What?
39:36What?
39:42I hoped it was an act of...
39:45Friendship.
39:48It must be lovely to have hopes like you've got.
39:51I...
39:54I want to be your friend.
39:56And...
39:56Help isn't a bad word.
39:58I want to support you in what you're doing.
40:00I...
40:00I want...
40:01To...
40:03I can't...
40:04Be that.
40:08But...
40:08I can be...
40:11I'd like to be your friend.
40:12Okay.
40:13Well, I...
40:15Accept your friendship.
40:17You do?
40:17Yes.
40:18Yes, I do.
40:19But...
40:21I am...
40:22I'm tired now.
40:23And I want to go home.
40:27Do you...
40:28Do you even know the way?
40:30Fair.
40:31Always been good at retracing my steps.
40:36You know, I was sure when I became a nun.
40:38And I am equally sure now.
40:40I...
40:41I just know that God's path for me has changed.
40:45And I...
40:48I believe...
40:49That God's path for you has changed too.
40:53You know, I am not some caged bird who saw a means of escape.
40:58I saw what you felt.
41:04And I felt it too.
41:08I didn't imagine it.
41:33With...
41:48I knew...
42:00I knew...
42:03Then...
42:08Transcription by CastingWords
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