Half Man Season 1 Episode 4

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Half Man (2026) Season 1 Episode 4  In "Half Man" (2026) Season 1 Episode 4, the protagonists confront escalating dangers and unravel complex betrayals that threaten to shatter their fragile alliances. This installment delves deeper into the intricate power dynamics of the post-apocalyptic world, exposing the ruthless tactics employed by emerging factions fighting for survival.  Viewers will witness critical decisions being made under extreme pressure, forcing characters to question their loyalties and re-evaluate their personal stakes. The narrative explores themes of sacrifice and the moral compromises necessary in a world where trust is a luxury few can afford.  The episode masterfully builds suspense, setting the stage for even greater conflicts ahead as the true nature of the central mystery begins to surface. Prepare for a gripping continuation of this compelling dystopian saga.  #HalfMan #DystopianFuture #SciFiSeries

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00:00:02What can I say about Niall Kennedy?

00:00:08He's funny.

00:00:12He's odd.

00:00:16He's awkward.

00:00:20He's determined.

00:00:24He's devoted.

00:00:29He's self-sacrificing.

00:00:32He knows what he wants.

00:00:35And he takes it.

00:00:45I remember the first time I met Niall Kennedy.

00:00:48I was only a kid.

00:00:50Around seven at the time.

00:00:54The wee bastard was terrified of me.

00:00:57I suppose it didn't help that I would terrorize the wee fucker.

00:01:00But he was such easy prey.

00:01:03Always wore a shirt with a top button done up.

00:01:05Made his head look massive.

00:01:12We'd play hide and seek.

00:01:14And he was so scared of me I would find him in the most random of places.

00:01:17Under cars.

00:01:18On top of bookcases.

00:01:20At the end of the road in other people's gardens.

00:01:24I remember this one time.

00:01:26It was raining.

00:01:27And I'd long given up finding him.

00:01:29But the poor wee bastard was so committed to the game.

00:01:31He'd develop pneumonia.

00:01:39And there was this other time.

00:01:40He said, you hide.

00:01:42I'll seek.

00:01:42And I hid.

00:01:44Up in the attic space under some random tarpaulin.

00:01:47But he never came.

00:01:50When I walked down the stairs half an hour later.

00:01:52The wee bastard was tucking into my birthday cake.

00:02:01But that's now Kennedy.

00:02:04He knows what he wants.

00:02:07And he takes it.

00:02:15Here.

00:02:17Stand.

00:02:22Come on.

00:02:23Stand.

00:02:27Come on, how long's it been?

00:02:28Let's go.

00:02:32Come on.

00:02:35All right.

00:02:36That's it.

00:02:43So.

00:02:46Here's to now Kennedy.

00:02:48A man who knows what he wants.

00:02:52And he takes it.

00:02:55Call me Daddy.

00:02:56Yes, Daddy.

00:02:58Yes, Daddy.

00:03:00Aw.

00:03:02Oh!

00:03:04Oh!

00:03:06Oh!

00:03:08Oh, my God.

00:03:43Hey, can I print something off?

00:03:49Oh, you are out of credit, I'm afraid.

00:03:54Look, this is the proposal to my follow-up novel.

00:03:57I don't want to send it over email because I don't trust my publisher to read it properly on screen.

00:04:01Can you do me a solid?

00:04:03Just this one time?

00:04:05I don't know, Niall.

00:04:06The boss hates it when I do this.

00:04:12Well, the boss is a prick.

00:04:14Come on, do this for me.

00:04:17Promise I won't ask again.

00:04:21Fine. Last time, okay?

00:04:59so what do you think

00:05:03um just not really sure what it's all about you know in the journey the main character goes on

00:05:07well it's all about being true to your roots you're not selling out on yourself well i mean

00:05:12if getting an oxford education is selling out yourself i had to think one other

00:05:15impossible standards this guy holds himself to look it's a proposal all these things will come

00:05:20out in the wash yeah you said that about your last book and i hate to break it to you

00:05:23buddy but i

00:05:23think there might be a problem with your filter not to mention the fact that it's clearly been

00:05:28coupled together between one too many nights out what what hasn't you spelt glasgow with a seven

00:05:43look all we're looking for here now is a little more authenticity when it comes to your writing

00:05:48my writing is authentic come on daniel you've written my first book it was straight from the heart the

00:05:52one about the boy who tries to communicate with his deceased father what was authentic about that

00:05:55all of it my dad died when i was young i never knew him well that was evident from the

00:05:59reviews

00:06:02look you've just got to try opening yourself up a little bit more it's what they all say nile

00:06:05key to a good career in all of this is learning how to tell your own story

00:06:11not do they now why is that well it's quite simple really write about what you know

00:06:17and so

00:07:18Hello, how you doing?

00:08:03Well, this has got to feel good, right?

00:08:07Not really.

00:08:10You won't tell anyone, will you?

00:08:12No.

00:08:13Only because describing it would place me at the scene.

00:08:15Yeah, yeah, I hear you.

00:08:18Plus, it's the dog is cold, isn't it?

00:08:20Wherever we wheel, our lips are sealed.

00:08:23I've never heard that before.

00:08:25No, it's because I made it up.

00:08:27Look, do you fancy going for a pint or something?

00:08:30Uh, no. I should, uh...

00:08:31Come on, man, I've just been caught buckering in a car park in the dead of night,

00:08:34but I can't have bullied at school.

00:08:35I'm standing here with no shoes on.

00:08:37Look at my socks now, for Christ's sake.

00:08:40Wallace and Gromit.

00:08:45Accept my humbling, will you?

00:08:49Come front, let me drink.

00:09:11Fuck, I hate lager.

00:09:13Me too.

00:09:22So you, um...

00:09:26I'm...

00:09:26No way.

00:09:27I'm not even gay.

00:09:28You sleep with men all the time, don't you?

00:09:30I mean, you must do, you go to a place like that.

00:09:31It doesn't mean I'm gay.

00:09:32It would be gay if I fell in love with them.

00:09:34Oh, you're one of those, are you?

00:09:36A man's so straight, he fucks men.

00:09:38Are you so vegetarian, too, you eat meat?

00:09:41Yeah, it's a fucking mess, is what it is.

00:09:43You're fine.

00:09:45Could be worse.

00:09:47Could be married with kids.

00:09:52I always had my suspicions, you know?

00:09:55Used to love a wedgie.

00:09:59It was a whole mix of things.

00:10:01Watch your brother put me behind your eyes over all that, remember?

00:10:05Piss sideways for about three months afterwards.

00:10:07I didn't condone that, really.

00:10:11I saw him the other day, you know.

00:10:13Still puts the fear of fucking me.

00:10:17Sorry, what did you say?

00:10:18Your brother.

00:10:19I saw him just the other day.

00:10:22What?

00:10:24Where?

00:10:25In the street.

00:10:26No, but wait, it can't even him.

00:10:28He's still inside.

00:10:29Well, no, mate, he got out.

00:10:31We spoke for ages in the end.

00:10:32He'd met some chick who was working...

00:10:34Wait, and I'm sorry, he's working?

00:10:37Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:10:37Up in the rugs in Aberdeen.

00:10:39Three months on, three months off.

00:10:41Even Gimri's can't.

00:10:47Jesus Christ.

00:10:51The fuck's a slinger?

00:10:53I've no idea, but you can keep it just in case there's a tracking in it or something.

00:10:58You're not winding me up here, are you?

00:11:00He got out.

00:11:02Yeah, mate, I promise.

00:11:04He got out.

00:11:16It's Reuben.

00:11:17He's out.

00:11:18He's out of prison.

00:11:21What do you mean you know?

00:11:23I know.

00:11:23How?

00:11:24What did Maura tell you?

00:11:25You're not still speaking, are you?

00:11:27Kind of.

00:11:27What do you mean, kind of?

00:11:29I thought things were finished.

00:11:30They are, Niall, but we still see each other from time to time.

00:11:33Yeah, but you didn't think to tell me that any of this was going on.

00:11:35Well, how could I, Niall?

00:11:36You're never bloody well here.

00:11:37Well, you could have phoned.

00:11:38You never pick up.

00:11:39I leave you four voicemails a week and never get anything back.

00:11:42The last one, I pretended I'd fallen down the stairs and was on my last dying breath,

00:11:46and you still didn't call.

00:11:49Well, I knew you were faking it.

00:11:50I was a fake on my birthday, too.

00:11:54Wait.

00:11:56I just don't understand what the plan was here.

00:11:59Were you just going to plot and scheme and hope I never found out?

00:12:01Well, you make it sound like I'm enjoying it.

00:12:04I have deep facial contours devoted to the pair of you bloody idiots.

00:12:07I felt nothing was to be gained from you knowing anything about each other.

00:12:11It runs the risk of him killing you, or you dying from the worry.

00:12:14Yeah, but what if he finds out where I am and he comes looking for me?

00:12:17I highly doubt that.

00:12:19He's hardly going to bump into you on Brunswick Avenue, is he?

00:12:23Or in Kelvin Grove Park men's toilets at 2pm with your pants around your ankles.

00:12:28And you wonder why I don't come around here anymore?

00:12:32No.

00:12:33Wait.

00:12:34Wait.

00:12:35I'm sorry.

00:12:37Everything I did, I did to protect you and I am.

00:12:40But I...

00:12:40I still don't understand.

00:12:41When did he get out?

00:12:42I don't know.

00:12:45Two years, maybe.

00:12:46Two years?

00:12:46Are you kidding me?

00:12:47That's a good thing.

00:12:48That's two years where he hasn't come looking.

00:12:53Well...

00:12:53Have you seen him?

00:12:56Yeah, a few times.

00:12:58Right.

00:12:59And did he mention me?

00:13:02And me, huh?

00:13:03Well, come on.

00:13:04What did he say?

00:13:05Didn't say anything.

00:13:06He just...

00:13:07smiled.

00:13:09Okay, that's good.

00:13:10That's good.

00:13:11Is that like a...

00:13:12Like a nice smile, like a fun one?

00:13:15Look, I can't lie to you.

00:13:16What kind of smile?

00:13:17Come on.

00:13:18I don't know.

00:13:19Sort of with his mouth and not with his eyes.

00:13:23You know,

00:13:24the one he tends to do before he kicks off.

00:13:30So,

00:13:55like...

00:14:11I've only got ten minutes.

00:14:13Darren has to visit his mum's today, so I've got the kids.

00:14:15Yeah, no worries.

00:14:16And...

00:14:18Well, look, Joanna, I don't want to worry you.

00:14:20Reuben.

00:14:22What? How do you know?

00:14:23Look, I didn't want to see you,

00:14:25but I bumped into him not too long ago.

00:14:28He was doing this thing where he was going round apologising

00:14:30to people he'd wronged in his past.

00:14:32Christ, this is crazy.

00:14:34I mean, going round saying sorry to people,

00:14:35that doesn't sound like Reuben.

00:14:36Well, he's been in prison for God knows how long now.

00:14:39That's bound to change someone.

00:14:40No, no, people like him don't change, Joanna.

00:14:43Come on, you know that better than anyone.

00:14:44I don't know.

00:14:46He seemed different.

00:14:48Right.

00:14:49Well, Jesus, you must be coming to me to apologise next, then.

00:14:53No, he said I was the last one.

00:14:56Well, that's bullshit.

00:14:57How?

00:14:58Because he owes me the biggest apology of his life.

00:15:01Don't do that, Niall.

00:15:02It's embarrassing.

00:15:03He messed up my life, Joanna.

00:15:05I dropped out of Oxford.

00:15:06I was so stressed with it all.

00:15:07I thought you didn't like the snootiness.

00:15:09No.

00:15:10That too.

00:15:11It was a combination of both.

00:15:14Look, I think you'd better put this out your mind, Niall.

00:15:16But how can I put this out my mind?

00:15:18I mean, I just found out he's working some fancy job on the rings.

00:15:21Well, what's wrong with that?

00:15:22Everything.

00:15:23What does it teach him about life if he comes out of some cushy existence?

00:15:26Meanwhile, I work my arse off every day.

00:15:29And I'm rewarded with what?

00:15:30Dread payments, handshakes and promises.

00:15:32Look, I get it, Niall.

00:15:34It's hard seeing someone you have so much history with doing so well.

00:15:38But maybe it's not the fact he's changed that bothers you.

00:15:43It's the fact you haven't.

00:15:51Shut the fuck up.

00:15:53Shut the fuck up.

00:20:14I think I know what this is about.

00:20:16Mind comments the other night?

00:20:17No, actually, it's not.

00:20:18I don't mind you being gay, Niall.

00:20:20It's the way you go about it.

00:20:22It's about Maura.

00:20:25Huh?

00:20:28What happened to her, Mum?

00:20:29What happened to her, Mum?

00:20:32No, she hung herself, as you?

00:20:38... She hung herself, as it happens.

00:20:39The rope snapped after about a minute.

00:20:41The rope snapped after about a minute.

00:20:43left her near brain dead.

00:20:47Oh my God, Mum. It's awful.

00:20:52It's life.

00:20:56Did she leave a note?

00:20:57Kind of. It's more of a list of things to do.

00:21:01The cats are in the shed. The keys are under the plant pot.

00:21:04There's something so matter-of-fact about the whole thing which made it all feel worse somehow.

00:21:10Like it was just another thing to do that day.

00:21:16Well, look, I'm sorry I haven't been around much.

00:21:20I mean, you get it, right? The way you reacted.

00:21:23I was just shocked.

00:21:25I mean, how was I supposed to feel when my brother calls me to say he found you rogering another

00:21:29man in a public toilet?

00:21:31I blame myself, really.

00:21:34I should have spotted it sooner than you.

00:21:36It's like looking for my glasses only to find they were sitting on the bridge of my nose the entire

00:21:40time.

00:21:44So that's why Reuben got back in touch?

00:21:45Yeah, he contacted me from prison. He needed my help looking after her.

00:21:50So all this happened whilst he was inside?

00:21:51Yeah, but don't go blaming yourself, okay?

00:21:54She was in debt, she had aches and pains, all kinds of things.

00:22:02Lyle, I want you to promise me here that you're not going to go blaming yourself.

00:22:09I promise.

00:22:11I promise.

00:22:13I promise.

00:22:26I promise.

00:22:37I promise.

00:22:41I'm no longer any other than the other thing.

00:23:28Hey, Stephen.

00:23:30Couldn't do me a favour and print this off.

00:23:32Sorry, mate. The boss was raging last time.

00:23:35Well, you couldn't ask, could you?

00:23:39Nigel?

00:23:40No chance.

00:23:42I'm sorry, but no can do.

00:23:46You're a sad man, Nigel.

00:23:49A sad, sad man.

00:24:26I'm sorry, but no can do.

00:24:28I'm sorry.

00:24:31I'm sorry.

00:24:55so would you like to tell me why you were in the toilet cubicle with another man this afternoon

00:25:00well it's quite simple really we were talking creative ideas and we didn't want to disturb

00:25:04the rest of the library you must think i was born yesterday no don't worry nigel i've never thought

00:25:10that look you can't keep me so if you're going to ban me just ban me already no it's a

00:25:17little more

00:25:18than a ban actually i was all for sexual liberation until it started seeping its way into our public

00:25:30services i started doing it when i saw the library coming up on google searches renowned

00:25:36cottaging spot what you intended to do with this footage nigel upload it online make an example

00:25:42of you stop anyone else trying it what no please i mean why me i'm not the only one you

00:25:49let the

00:25:49other guy go straight away i know because you're the constant

00:25:58okay look what can i do to make you not do this

00:26:03you can pay your fine

00:26:05well my printing debts that's easy what is it like 20 quid

00:26:09no i'm looking here and the computer has it down at

00:26:13two thousand pounds that's ridiculous where you're getting those figures from i don't know

00:26:19all those books you sold online perhaps

00:26:29okay i'm sorry i've been in a bad place but listen there's no way i sold thousands of pounds

00:26:35worth no but that's the rate i'm charging to buy them all back

00:26:40come on nagel you're a librarian not a bloody lawyer

00:26:44no

00:26:47i'm just a sad sad man

00:26:54i just need two grand

00:26:56two grand

00:26:57i know it's a lot but i'll pay you back ten percent on every pound see it's an investment

00:27:01don't worry those stockbrokers who chose not to invest in amazon

00:27:03you have a high opinion of yourself don't you nile

00:27:06where someone caught buggering in a public toilet yesterday

00:27:08oh come on joanna i am begging you here please

00:27:12don't make me go to my mom you wouldn't believe the thing she said to me when i got caught

00:27:15the last time

00:27:15like what

00:27:17she called me a pervert

00:27:18said she didn't mind a gay son she just didn't raise a deviant

00:27:21she said that

00:27:27go on buggy run to auntie

00:27:29go please

00:27:36look nile

00:27:39i still have a lot of love for you

00:27:41but bailing you out every time you're in a tough spot is clearly not helping you turn your life around

00:27:45whoa whoa

00:27:46where is this coming from

00:27:49i can't do this anymore now

00:27:51i have three kids to look out for

00:27:53i can't handle one more

00:27:57please don't visit us anymore

00:27:59go

00:28:14go

00:28:15go

00:28:32what happened gay stuff don't say gay stuff mum well come on what was it

00:28:42gay stuff

00:28:46I was caught in the library toilet having sex with a man

00:28:48and now the manager's threatening to upload the video unless I pay him off

00:28:52which library?

00:28:53Clyde Park Library

00:28:54Jesus Niall they do school trips there

00:28:56what's your excuse this time?

00:28:59I'm just exploring myself

00:29:00exploring yourself in a library?

00:29:02yeah it's not as crazy as it sounds

00:29:03oh I don't know about that Niall

00:29:05I mean would you bring a book to a fucking brothel?

00:29:08look I get that it's hard for you to understand

00:29:10but I'm almost there in terms of figuring myself out

00:29:12are you now?

00:29:13you got caught shagging a man in a library

00:29:15ten yards from where they stopped Peppa Pig

00:29:17great to hear you're almost there

00:29:20what's it going to take to push you over the edge then?

00:29:22a fucking intergenerational gangbang

00:29:25you're insulting my struggles here mum

00:29:26I'm insulting my struggles

00:29:28they're my struggles too

00:29:31at least you're the one coming

00:29:32Jesus Christ

00:29:36what do you need?

00:29:46two grand

00:29:47impossible

00:29:48I'm a social worker

00:29:49I couldn't get you out if I robbed all the people I work with

00:29:51we don't have a pot somewhere

00:29:52I used to pot

00:29:53I used to pot the last time you had a breakdown

00:29:55when you needed to go into the madhouse

00:29:56hospital

00:29:57no no no

00:29:57it was a hospital

00:29:58a hospital is for arms and legs

00:30:00it was a madhouse

00:30:01you sat around in circles talking about God

00:30:03you don't get much madder than that

00:30:05enough of the jokes mum

00:30:06I need money

00:30:07I'm not ready for the public to think I'm gay

00:30:09then stop having sex in it

00:30:10there's your answer

00:30:11mum I'm begging you

00:30:12please surely you know someone that can help

00:30:16I do but you won't like it

00:30:20a ribbon

00:30:22are you serious?

00:30:24how can you even ask me that?

00:30:26after what he's done putting me in this position

00:30:28oh yeah

00:30:29he put you in a public toilet

00:30:30did he?

00:30:31I suppose he pulled your cock out your pants too

00:30:33I am talking about the turning point

00:30:35the seed of all of my issues

00:30:37oh the seed

00:30:38you're always talking about the seed

00:30:40aren't you?

00:30:41first it was dad

00:30:42after dad it was Maura

00:30:43after that it was Reuben

00:30:44then it was a court case

00:30:46and the Oxford elite

00:30:47and now we're back to Reuben again

00:30:48great

00:30:49glad you see it so clearly

00:30:50turns out your glasses have been on your face

00:30:52this whole time too

00:30:56see

00:30:56this

00:30:57is your problem

00:30:59you are too busy

00:31:01blaming everyone else

00:31:02for your issues

00:31:02because it's easier to point the finger

00:31:04than turn it back on yourself

00:31:06you're acting like my breakdown was my fault

00:31:08it was

00:31:09you made yourself sick

00:31:11mum

00:31:11was I right to tell the truth on the stand?

00:31:13mum

00:31:13I had to didn't I?

00:31:15you became obsessed with it

00:31:17nothing I said would help

00:31:18I was ill

00:31:19you were self-involved

00:31:23now

00:31:23as far as I can see

00:31:25you are out

00:31:25of options here

00:31:26no doubt about it

00:31:28so

00:31:29either you let me

00:31:30ask him for money

00:31:31and I will disguise it

00:31:32by saying it's for me

00:31:36or you can face the music

00:31:38on your own this time

00:31:39because I won't be helping

00:31:42wait a minute

00:31:46have you done this before?

00:31:48well

00:31:49you've used his money

00:31:50to pay for things from me

00:31:51well of course

00:31:52where did you think

00:31:53it was all coming from?

00:31:54well you remortgaged the house

00:31:55I thought you had stuff left over

00:31:58I mean

00:32:01what else has he paid for?

00:32:04a lot of things

00:32:06my bed sit

00:32:08yes

00:32:10my car

00:32:12yes

00:32:12my therapy

00:32:13yes

00:32:14the therapy I use

00:32:15to talk about him

00:32:15yes love everything

00:32:17your clothes

00:32:18your Christmas presents

00:32:19converting your bedroom

00:32:21into an adult's room

00:32:22so you can come back

00:32:22every time you have a breakdown

00:32:24well is that right is it?

00:32:25well I hope he accepts

00:32:26fucking refunds

00:32:27oh

00:32:27Niall

00:32:28wait

00:32:28no

00:32:30wait

00:32:33Niall

00:32:34I need him

00:32:36stop this

00:32:37Miss Locke

00:32:38did you buy it with his money?

00:32:40yes

00:32:40done

00:32:42the CD player

00:32:43this is ridiculous

00:32:44did he buy the CD player?

00:32:46yes he bought it

00:32:47bye

00:32:48this

00:32:49this

00:32:50signed Harrison Ford poster

00:32:52yes Niall

00:32:54really?

00:32:55he bought the poster?

00:32:57yes Niall

00:32:59okay

00:33:00that's fine

00:33:05now you know what fuck this

00:33:07stop

00:33:08you're out of control

00:33:09you don't know what you've done

00:33:11you've made me

00:33:12you bitch

00:33:12oh my god

00:33:13you are losing your minds

00:33:15well good

00:33:15if Ruben's anything

00:33:16go by

00:33:16perhaps you'll start

00:33:17paying me some attention

00:33:24I hate him

00:33:25I fucking hate him

00:33:26no you don't

00:33:27I do

00:33:28I'm his bitch

00:33:29I'm his bitch

00:33:31hey

00:33:33come here

00:33:35you're a nobody's bitch

00:33:36you're a nobody's bitch

00:33:36okay

00:33:44I sometimes wish you would just kill me

00:33:46you know

00:33:50put me out the best

00:33:51didn't you say

00:33:54it doesn't need to

00:33:57you're doing such a good job

00:33:58about yourself

00:34:03I have lost sleep

00:34:04over you Niall

00:34:06I keep thinking

00:34:07I'll wake up one day

00:34:09to find you've taken too much

00:34:10or contracted HIV

00:34:14I've done a morrow

00:34:18I think you need to move back in here

00:34:20and calm yourself a bit

00:34:22meet someone

00:34:23they don't have to be perfect

00:34:25they just have to be steady

00:34:27settle down

00:34:27in life

00:34:28in yourself

00:34:30give up these silly writing dreams

00:34:32they're not doing you any good

00:34:35I can't

00:34:36you can

00:34:38one of the most lethal acts

00:34:40of self-harm

00:34:41you can commit

00:34:42is convincing yourself

00:34:44you're worthy of a higher purpose

00:34:47you were published five years ago

00:34:49you sold less than 100 copies

00:34:53you live in a bed set

00:34:54in a shitty park town

00:34:57don't make me tell you

00:34:58to get a job Niall

00:35:02at least have the self-respect

00:35:04to land on the conclusion yourself

00:35:28I don't know

00:35:31I love you

00:35:36that

00:35:36you are

00:35:36I don't know.

00:36:09I don't know.

00:36:42I don't know.

00:37:06I don't know.

00:37:08I don't know.

00:37:09I don't know.

00:37:33I don't know.

00:37:36I don't know.

00:37:41I don't know.

00:38:02I don't know.

00:38:05I don't know.

00:38:42I don't know.

00:39:14I don't know.

00:39:34I don't know.

00:39:47Here, sir.

00:39:47I'll let you out of the front of the house.

00:39:49You can get your ball back tomorrow.

00:39:59I don't know.

00:40:01I don't know.

00:40:15I don't know.

00:40:37I don't know.

00:40:40I don't know.

00:40:44I don't know.

00:41:15I don't know.

00:41:17I don't know.

00:41:36I don't know.

00:41:46I don't know.

00:41:48I don't know.

00:42:15I don't know.

00:42:18I don't know.

00:42:32I don't know.

00:42:46I don't know.

00:42:48I don't know.

00:42:49I don't know.

00:43:04I don't know.

00:43:08I don't know.

00:43:37I don't know.

00:43:41I don't know.

00:43:42I don't know.

00:43:50I don't know.

00:43:54I don't know.

00:44:00I don't know.

00:44:01No, wait.

00:44:01Please, I'll talk.

00:44:02I'll do anything you want.

00:44:04I'll beg for forgiveness if that's what you want.

00:44:05Just don't do this, okay?

00:44:19Why'd you do it?

00:44:21It was 14 years ago.

00:44:23Why'd you fucking do it?

00:44:27I guess I felt I owed it to justice to tell the truth.

00:44:30Justice?

00:44:31Justice is letting a recently diagnosed cancer patient.

00:44:35Watch your son go the clink.

00:44:37I felt like it at the time.

00:44:38No, I don't think it had anything to do with justice.

00:44:41I think you couldn't stand to see me doing well.

00:44:43You were bitter.

00:44:44Bitter?

00:44:45I was off to Oxford.

00:44:46What did I have to be bitter about?

00:44:47My real life.

00:44:47You're a fucking fake one.

00:44:49Living in my shadow.

00:44:51You wanted me out of the way so you could flourish.

00:44:54How's it been in my absence, eh?

00:44:56Flying, are you?

00:44:57You little fucking cock.

00:45:00Or did you realize the hard way?

00:45:01When you try and walk in my boots, they're always going to slip off of the heel.

00:45:08Ah.

00:45:09You didn't like that, did you?

00:45:12You know it kills you, doesn't it?

00:45:15To know that even in my absence, with all the fucking opportunities in the world at your feet,

00:45:19all you've done is kick up dust.

00:45:20While I, with my back against the wall and a glass ceiling above my head and a fucking army,

00:45:26in my way, clamber over you to the top.

00:45:30I don't know what you're talking about, Reuben.

00:45:31I'm doing just fine.

00:45:32Oh, I know from your mum that's not the case.

00:45:35How she comes begging for money to solve all your pathetic little problems,

00:45:39your printing costs, your therapy.

00:45:42She told you that, did she?

00:45:43Oh, she told me everything.

00:45:45You know, I have to bite my lip from laughing.

00:45:48As a handle for the money, you should see me well.

00:45:51Well, Miss Kennedy, I hope he gets himself back on his feet soon.

00:45:56I mean, imagine it.

00:45:58I go to prison for 13 years, and you go to Oxford, and I'm the one lending you money.

00:46:05And you wonder if I'm here for revenge.

00:46:10Shit, son.

00:46:11Don't be ridiculous.

00:46:14It's already mine.

00:46:17Is that what you want, is it?

00:46:18I mean, to just admit that you're doing better than me?

00:46:20Well, you can have it. You're doing better than me, and I hate it.

00:46:23I hate that the scum always sits at the top of the water.

00:46:26But no, I'm not better. I'm gleeful.

00:46:28Because when you inevitably fuck it up, and you will fuck it up,

00:46:32I'll be the one grabbing the popcorn watching you fall.

00:46:39Say it.

00:46:40Say you were bitter.

00:46:41No chance. I wasn't bitter in the slightest.

00:46:44I did what was right, and you can beat me all you want.

00:46:46I'll never admit it.

00:46:52Okay.

00:46:54I admit I was bitter.

00:46:55Please don't hit me again. Fuck.

00:46:58I was bitter, okay?

00:46:59I was bitter.

00:47:06Better that you put me in that position in the first place.

00:47:10Better that you kept doing the same old shit.

00:47:13Never learning.

00:47:14Never growing.

00:47:15Never accepting responsibility.

00:47:16Always smashing shit up and expecting others to pick up the pieces.

00:47:19Well, I wasn't going to do it over the Albie stuff.

00:47:21Not when it put my freedom in danger.

00:47:24What would I teach you about life anyway?

00:47:25Life?

00:47:26I don't need to learn about life, Rap.

00:47:28Why I wrote the fucking book on it.

00:47:29How?

00:47:30You've done fuck all!

00:47:33You never applied yourself.

00:47:34You never got an education or a degree or a proper job.

00:47:37I've never got a degree or a proper job.

00:47:40Why the fuck would I need to do that?

00:47:41I think you're forgetting, son.

00:47:43I don't need to work for status.

00:47:45I was born with it.

00:47:47I mean, why be a general manager?

00:47:48Or an academic.

00:47:50When you're king of the fucking world.

00:47:52King of the world.

00:47:53That's a joke.

00:47:54I'm not jealous of that.

00:47:55I'm jealous of the fact that you can so willfully think that without irony.

00:47:58Challenge me on it then!

00:47:59Prove me wrong!

00:48:00I'm your fucking muse!

00:48:04I'm the reason you have meaning in your miserable life!

00:48:07Don't tell me!

00:48:08You sit there telling people about that time you fucking aced your exams!

00:48:13Or you smashed out your dissertation!

00:48:15No.

00:48:15No, you tell them about that time we egged that house.

00:48:19We slashed those car tires.

00:48:20We took mushrooms down the lake and saw the water shoot green!

00:48:25And the soundtrack to your greatest moments.

00:48:27And it pains you to know that all your achievements fill you with a void.

00:48:30Whereas a smile from me fills you with all the fucking energy you need.

00:48:35You might be the painter now.

00:48:38But I'm the rolling hills.

00:48:42So you can point at my CV.

00:48:44My 13 years in prison and all the bullet points you need to think you're better than me.

00:48:48But you know fine well.

00:48:50You'd do 40 years in a windowless fucking cell.

00:48:55Just to walk in my shoes for the day.

00:49:00I mean, look at you.

00:49:02I went to the clink for over a decade.

00:49:05You didn't even do something worthwhile with your life.

00:49:08You didn't even give me something to take from you when I got back out.

00:49:11And just as I stopped thinking about you.

00:49:14Just as I pulled my life together.

00:49:16You appear like a rat on my driveway.

00:49:21How dare you appear like a rat on my driveway.

00:49:29Come on, with all due respect, you broke contact first.

00:49:31How did I?

00:49:32I talked to my mum about Maura.

00:49:36You don't talk about my mother, alright?

00:49:38You don't mention her name.

00:49:39But that's what I'm talking about.

00:49:40You and Laurie and Goode's behind my back for four years.

00:49:42She didn't even tell me Maura was sick.

00:49:50What did I just say?

00:49:53I'm saying I could have been there.

00:49:55Been there?

00:49:56Are you kidding me?

00:49:58She's half-brained because of you.

00:50:00Half-brained because of me?

00:50:01I haven't seen her in 14 years since the court case.

00:50:03Well, they started with that, didn't they?

00:50:04The separation from Laurie not long after.

00:50:06Because they couldn't come to terms with what you did.

00:50:08You fucking did that!

00:50:10I did that!

00:50:11I was looking after a fucking animal for a child!

00:50:13Oh, you're talking real talk now.

00:50:15What, what do you expect?

00:50:16You're blaming me for your mother's suicide attack.

00:50:17Oh, spare me the self-pity, you little prick!

00:50:20She did it while I was in prison!

00:50:21I mean, I couldn't even get to her!

00:50:24I couldn't even phone!

00:50:26I mean, imagine it!

00:50:31See, we don't want to take the blame for it.

00:50:34At least the mate you wished it upon her.

00:50:37I didn't.

00:50:39She wished it upon you.

00:50:46You know what she used to call you?

00:50:49King Rat.

00:50:52You know why?

00:50:55Because you act like royalty.

00:50:57But you belong in the gutter.

00:50:59You're a gutter rat.

00:51:01Who looks in a mirror.

00:51:02And sees a king.

00:51:08Is that right?

00:51:09Yeah.

00:51:10So come on, gutter rat.

00:51:11Come back at me.

00:51:12I know you want to.

00:51:16That's a little glass house, isn't it, Ribbon?

00:51:20The family gutter.

00:51:21I hate to think of where you both ended up.

00:51:22Yes!

00:51:23That's what I'm talking about.

00:51:25Come on.

00:51:25More of that, please.

00:51:26The gutter is something you and your mum can only aspire to.

00:51:29Beautiful.

00:51:29Let's have it.

00:51:29Come on.

00:51:30The court case was convenient because she could draw an imaginary line between past and present

00:51:33and assuage her own responsibility in raising a fucking monster.

00:51:36Oh, it's an illness, she would say.

00:51:38Time and time again.

00:51:39Oh, it's just an illness.

00:51:40He can't help it.

00:51:40But when on the fourth, or fifth, or even sixteenth time you stamped someone's head into the floor,

00:51:45does it stop being an illness and become some sick, sinister fucking gleeful act of perverse violence?

00:51:50I have never once seen you show an ounce of remorse for what you did to that poor albie boy,

00:51:54whose face, I hear, is still mangled, by the way.

00:51:57The callousness you possess is born straight out of your mother's heart.

00:52:00So yeah, I hate her.

00:52:01I hate everything about her.

00:52:03I hate how she let you get away with near murder, but if I did anything minor, she was on

00:52:07me like a rash,

00:52:07turning my mother against me, squeezing the life out of me because I was her second chance child,

00:52:11seeing as though she so royally fucked up the first.

00:52:14But I mean, I don't expect her to be anything less than blinded by you.

00:52:18I mean, you hit her enough times to forget, didn't you?

00:52:25And the worst part about all of this is you are totally right.

00:52:30I would face forty years in prison to walk in your shoes for a day.

00:52:34An hour even.

00:52:36To feel what it must be like to be you.

00:52:39To look the way you look.

00:52:41To fuck the way you fuck.

00:52:43To talk the way you talk.

00:52:44Hell, they can lock the door and throw away the key for all I care.

00:52:47Because I would be happy to lie back on the bed and feel what it must feel like to be

00:52:51the centre of the universe for a change,

00:52:52rather than some cunt standing in a queue outside.

00:52:56I hate everything about you and the giant shadow you cast which seems to turn over the sun which everywhere

00:53:02I'm walking.

00:53:03But that doesn't stop me.

00:53:06I'm wanting every bit of it.

00:53:12So yeah, I'm better.

00:53:14I'm better that I'm alone.

00:53:16And I'm better that I have no money.

00:53:19I'm better that no matter how hard I try, how hard I work, I'm sweating toil.

00:53:23I just can't find the click that's going to make me happy.

00:53:27And I'm better that you went around apologising to people.

00:53:30And you didn't think about apologising to me.

00:53:35And I'm better that I'm being blackmailed by some cunt.

00:53:39I'm better that I can't pay him off because I'm broke or threatening because I'm too pussy.

00:53:45And I'm better that I had the whole world at my fingertips.

00:53:49Scholarship, Oxford education, all of it.

00:53:51And I squandered it all thinking about you.

00:53:53What the fuck are you talking about?

00:53:54I couldn't breathe.

00:53:55I couldn't do fuck all because my mind was still reeling from that bastard court case.

00:53:59I couldn't get it out of my mind.

00:54:00Your words, your screaming as you left that you would make me ugly.

00:54:03I've seen you make people ugly, Reuben.

00:54:05I know what it means.

00:54:09I lived in fear of you from that point on.

00:54:12Just imagining all the things that you might do to me.

00:54:14That you might tell one of your prison mates about me

00:54:16and they would come looking for me when they got out.

00:54:18I woke up in the night once convinced that you bugged the flap.

00:54:21That you were monitoring my every move.

00:54:22I started to sleep in the garden.

00:54:24I wandered the streets pulling up phone wires.

00:54:29I went through about 30 pen lids.

00:54:31Swallowing them down a hole because I were chewing them when I wrote.

00:54:35And throwing them away wasn't safe enough because you might find them and use my DNA to pin a murder

00:54:39on me.

00:54:39I ended up in a madhouse.

00:54:41I had to have an operation on my gut.

00:54:43What?

00:54:45Why?

00:54:47Because I was telling the truth!

00:54:51And then you appear out of nowhere with a six figure salary and a house and a girl and a

00:54:58car.

00:54:58How dare you appear out of nowhere with a six figure salary and a house and a girl and a

00:55:04car.

00:55:07So just be safe in the knowledge.

00:55:09That when you are imagining the worst kind of revenge for me.

00:55:14Nothing can come close to the damage that I've unleashed on myself.

00:55:17So go ahead Reuben, fucking kill me!

00:55:20I don't give a fuck.

00:55:24I'm already dead.

00:55:50I didn't know any of this.

00:55:55Yeah, I will.

00:55:57Your mum never set that part.

00:56:00The part by the hospital.

00:56:08That's good to know she still has some respect on the left.

00:56:13Hm.

00:56:20You sound different.

00:56:24You talk different.

00:56:28I've done a lot of reading now.

00:56:31Well, Grace and I are cleverer than me too.

00:56:33Hm.

00:56:37Hm.

00:56:44You're getting blackmailed.

00:56:48Yeah, sort of.

00:56:51Do you know their name?

00:56:53No, not like that.

00:56:56What do you need?

00:57:01Money.

00:57:02I've got money.

00:57:08What do you want in return?

00:57:12An apology.

00:57:15For what you did.

00:57:23That's it.

00:57:26It's a lot now.

00:57:29It's a hell of a lot.

00:57:38I'm sorry.

00:57:40I'm sorry.

00:57:45Hm.

00:57:55Hm.

00:57:57Hm.

00:58:03Well, I'm sorry too.

00:58:13Mm-hm.

00:58:14Mm-hm.

00:58:24Mm-hm.

00:58:26Mm-hm.

00:58:28Mm-hm.

00:58:29Mm-hm.

00:58:37Missed you

00:58:39Missed you

00:58:41Right, now

00:58:42A proper toast

00:58:43Come on, I'll be, stand

00:58:58Come on

00:58:59To the happy couple

00:59:10On this special day

00:59:19At the start of a beautiful journey together

00:59:28Hand in hand

00:59:35Heart to heart

00:59:42Forever and ever

00:59:47Amen

00:59:50Amen

01:00:21Amen

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