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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 04: Stage Five Clinger
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00:14I
00:15Think we just need to say what we want to do
00:26Do you need time to think about it?
00:33I
00:33This morning and in the first date I had I just got like a gut punch just felt
00:40Like a little bit more
00:42Like a different feeling
00:48I think that's a sign I
00:53Think so too
00:56I'm so sorry, don't be sorry. Don't be sorry
01:00All I want is someone who gets me
01:03Until then, I'm not settling
01:06Bye, Connor
01:07I've been all through the mud
01:10I've got a wild side
01:13All I want is someone who understands
01:17My heart, the dark places I've been
01:21Right now, I'd rather be lonely
01:24I'm holding out for someone who gets me
01:30Someone who gets me
01:31Emma
01:32What happened? We broke up
01:34Someone who gets me
01:35Are you okay?
01:36Who was this?
01:37Your number two?
01:38No, it's my number one
01:39I get it
01:42Please it's my number one
01:45I love you
01:47No, it's my number one
02:06I can't SERGA
02:07and i was like you gotta follow that feeling yeah you're not gonna change your mind
02:25so checking in how are we emotionally when it comes to your grandpa it's a lot but having that
02:32family support it's kept me at peace okay good so how are you feeling good i got a little workout
02:38in
02:38which i mean honestly is kind of the nice part of pod dating because i don't exactly smell like
02:46roses over here but you don't know that it's fun to envision you i think you're probably
02:52gonna be wrong about me uh time will tell i have a guest for you but obviously like having the
03:00name
03:00davante i could be french i could be italian you could be davante shut up you're definitely not
03:11french not with that accent hey you'll never know so with your dad i know you said he wasn't like
03:18present in your life how old were you when he like stopped being a big part of your life around
03:23like
03:24three or four how old were you when he passed i was 18 and he was 42. jeez there was
03:34one time after
03:35one of my high school football games i was like going off the field and like you know how like
03:38people friday nights they're all like waiting by the fence and i remember like someone by themselves
03:43and they're like hey good game and like i just like you know kept walking and then my mom was
03:48like hey
03:49did you talk to anyone and i was like what are you talking about and i didn't know but it
03:53was like
03:53my father oh wow i just didn't have any idea and just never heard or saw from him again i
04:00did get
04:01like a chance to like meet him like once but at that time you're an 18 year old kid you
04:05don't really
04:06know what to even say like i always questioned i was like how could you have a child and you
04:10don't
04:10want to be in their life i was like if my father like didn't even want me like
04:18sorry with my therapist like all the things that i wrote down like who i want to be
04:22on that paper the very top the most important to me was to be a husband and then to be
04:27a father
04:28yeah i want to be my kids everything that's what i want yeah my mom's my best friend i do
04:34her lashes her
04:35nails i hope that i'm half of the mom that she is when i do become a mom i definitely
04:42think having this
04:43emotional connection makes the physical 10 times better and i think that's kind of why i'm in this
04:48season of celibacy because it feels different yeah we've got these little phrases over here like
04:54you're feeling like some feels for somebody like oh i got the tingly winglies like it's like when
04:59you're feeling it in your heart and then the other one it's basically when you're feeling it down below
05:05that's the one that you need to run from which one do i give you the tingly wingly yeah you
05:11give me
05:11the tingly wingly oh you have me smiling ear to ear yeah you got the tingly wingly i i have
05:21the tingly
05:22wingly after meeting you my whole like perspective is like changed on a lot of things and it's an
05:34amazing feeling to your core jess how compassionate you are how kind you are i wouldn't want to spend
05:41the rest of my life with anyone else ever i love the way that you talk to me this is
05:46the greatest gift i have ever been given i'm in love with you yeah and like that's the truth and
05:54oh my gosh jess lee
06:02will you spend the rest of your life with me and marry me
06:16i will i love you so much i love you i love you so much i have my hands on
06:22the wall oh my god
06:26i think i felt that i love you i love you
06:52i just don't know what to do i don't want to
06:59go to my second just because my first doesn't like me but i also owe it to myself to try
07:03and
07:04continue this experiment reevaluate after the date yeah going into today i really thought i
07:11was on the same page with connor i thought i knew things and i don't i'm getting in my mind
07:18a little but
07:19i came here to find love so i do think it would be regretful of me to not try
07:31hello hi talk about waiting all day to see or speak to you you were waiting all day for me
07:38i was i mean
07:40it's been absolute chaos out there there's like six guys here that have number ones
07:46i was hoping it was going to be you but i didn't know if it was i was super nervous
07:52so i'm so sorry i feel so bad but yeah um today me and my second ended it
08:03do you want to hear this you don't have to tell me if you don't want to i think it's
08:08important for
08:09our journey it wasn't mutual oh okay um well it was him ending it with you then
08:18mm-hmm yeah okay yeah so he had another connection yep jesus christ
08:24don't mike i don't want that to negate what we have i just think the past couple days like i
08:31was
08:31juggling so many people yeah so i do i do really like you and it's just in my mind i
08:39just need to
08:39get that out of my mind yeah and you were so incredibly kind and caring and listening like it
08:49has meant a lot to me so listen i i know you know i know we got a little deep
08:54and i know it was very
08:55emotional and it gave me like a little bit more clarity obviously and like i said i i waited all
09:01day
09:01for this you've been my number one for since since the beginning
09:08and yeah i can't wait i have a question actually to ask you like tonight you're getting on one knee
09:13already it involves like what your ring looks like seriously swear to god
09:20damn think about that and we will chat tonight i will not dish you don't ditch me i will be
09:26there
09:26i will be there or i will be square bye bye
09:37falling in love with him every single day was so exciting what's his last name speez speez it's kind of
09:44funny though breezy speez breezy speez
09:47i do have some things to say okay let's hear them wait you really want to hear it i do
09:55okay connor
09:56yes from the moment i met you i knew i met my perfect match you take away all my self
10:03doubts of
10:04never being enough or being too much and embrace me for all that i am even though i cut you
10:10off every
10:11other sentence thinking about our future together i know that the best is yet to come
10:18you've been my slow burn from the start but falling in love with you more and more each day has
10:23been my
10:23favorite part i believe it's fate that brought us together and know that it will be unconditional love
10:29that will keep us bonded for a lifetime i can't wait to start this next chapter with you you're the
10:36man i've been praying to find and i'm so excited to be your ride or die and forever stage five
10:41clinger
10:42oh my god are you ready for this brianna i am so ready for this i can't believe we found
10:49each other i am
10:50so happy that we did i really do think you're my person like it's crazy i did not see this
10:57coming
10:58and that's why i think it's one last coincidence for us that this just happened you are
11:07everything i could ever ask for you support me you laugh at all the dumbest jokes i tell
11:14thank you for helping me open up thank you for challenging me thank you for being open thank you
11:22for feeling like you can share anything with me you make me feel secure thank you for accepting me for
11:29me thank you for being authentic honest and genuine but most of all thank you for being you i can't
11:38wait
11:38to spend the rest of my life with you i love you brianna marie mcneith
11:47will you marry me
11:54absolutely let's go
11:59oh my gosh we are engaged holy shit i love you i love you too let's go
12:13come on boys come on
12:39i literally would walk into the dates with big and be like kevin that's so freaking funny
12:45that's okay wait has he told you that no but i knew it wasn't him they have very different
12:49voices yeah you're gonna be perfect i you are perfect i am excited to see y'all's journey i was
12:55literally telling dynasty i was like i don't know who else could be i said but i would not be
12:58mad if
12:58it's christine from day one you've been authentic with what you have in common which is your freaking
13:04faith like the type of personalities that y'all are the way that you would blend in with his family
13:08his background story i know dynasty struggled with like my story isn't that and i don't know how i could
13:14relate to someone that came from that which i got that just didn't make sense for me with him and
13:20i
13:20know like may look different maybe a different color but your story and his story are similar
13:25just different version different version and it sounded to me like he needed someone to connect with
13:30on that level so i think your love story is beautiful you're in la la land i am in la
13:37la land
13:37i'm the president of la la land right now i'm the mayor you're the mayor of la la land
13:45seeing the girls thriving and happy and fall in love with someone makes me feel worthy like why
13:51wouldn't this work for me i don't know i feel like i deserve to have a husband i deserve to
13:58have
13:58a husband on the other side of that wall kevin better be for me um that is my expectation
14:09but kevin has to make a decision every time i'm like now looking at the door and tyler together
14:15it's just when she goes what did you say not rewind but you're like redo and like walked out i
14:21was
14:21like very embarrassing no nothing's embarrassing here i don't think i'm necessarily worried about
14:29kevin dating other folks i think that's what we're supposed to be doing it's my intention to
14:35to ignore the noise and focus on what's going on here wow that's a watch i talked to you a
14:53little bit
14:53about honoring my dad and i've been wearing my watch every day it it looks great it reminds me of
15:02my
15:02father but i feel like it's perfect for you too because i feel like sometimes you're in your head
15:08and i want this watch to represent understanding that it is okay if it takes a few more ticks to
15:16understand where you're at with things just know that everything is what it should be
15:25that's beautiful
15:31kia you deserve honesty i'm kevin from columbus i'm literally
15:40putting everything by my bootstraps to pay for my stuff my mother's stuff drive a little beat up chevy
15:49cruise i love it i don't have the crazy crib or anything i just have like a little one bedroom
15:56apartment i don't have everything figured out i came out here to take a chance and find someone that
16:03special you are a phenomenal amazing person
16:12and i do think you deserve the world yes i do i know that
16:24but to be clear i don't want a man that has it all it doesn't matter what matters is someone
16:30who is
16:30kind who is thoughtful it doesn't matter you're right but at the same time you are so awesome kevin
16:43i hope you feel like that
16:47i appreciate you here for really taking the time to learn about me and getting to know me
16:54you are phenomenal kia thank you yeah damn in this experience the one thing i really have learned is
17:07what it means to love for you to share that with me it means the world to me you kia
17:16you have
17:17you know really opened my eyes i feel good i want a better word than good
17:23like i feel thankful thankful for this experiment and i don't know like i feel like we
17:35unlocked it like this is crazy right do you want to open up um the gift
17:41oh my god are you kidding me it's so funny because of what you do you know yeah for basketball
17:50and i want
17:51be the lebron james of fathers this is really cool this is a very sweet gift are you kidding me
17:59oh my god
18:01oh i'm so excited how do you feel right now uh i feel
18:12a little just heavy a little uneasy but really today i think i really just realized that i probably should
18:25let
18:26let kia win okay let everybody win let what let let let kia win let everybody win let
18:38i don't know like it's this is so crazy to me i don't know if i'm worth
18:45the love of both people that i'm talking with now yeah it's time to start doing the mature
18:57decisions you know we have feelings for each other right yes i care kia i do you know care about
19:04you
19:04you really took it to a whole nother level thank you but i also know that i have to make
19:12sure i'm making
19:15the best decision for everybody
19:20yeah me and tyler
19:28i want the best for kia and i don't want
19:34fuck up we both have a lot to think about you want the best for me i want the best
19:39for me
19:41but i on a serious note i want the best for you too so like
19:47yeah yeah yeah let's go process i'm gonna go see if they'll let me play basketball with my new
19:54shiny blue basketball i deserve somebody who's willing to take all the risks for me you all have
20:05an instinct today right now the power is like all in his hands yeah i don't like that at all
20:11yeah
20:13hi guys hi beautiful hi hi it was good good is that a gift it is a gift well you
20:23guys know how
20:24well i don't know if you guys know this about me but i used to work for the calves
20:26in sales and marketing long story short i'm a basketball girlie and ironically enough
20:32i had a basketball so like what are the odds very sweet gift
20:48i'm just gonna say because i just can't with this whole fucking secret of shit like
20:51it's me and kia what like sitting in this fucking room every day and that's my girl
20:56we're just sitting ducks i know it sounds silly but it's like i just want to be somebody's like
21:02undeniable choice i just want for once like a man to be like that they choose tyler i know
21:12but you and kia have been phenomenal i don't want to fucking let anybody down
21:27shit's hard bro it's the hardest decisions i've ever had to make in my life i don't know what your
21:34journey is with kia but what i would need like today is for you to only be dating me
21:44i need you to make a decision
21:52i'm just going to speak from the heart when i hear your name like my face it lights up i
21:58love that
21:58that passion that you've had you've been just so fucking steady rock fighting for it getting to it
22:08it's like wow
22:14that's true love right there that's
22:17fucking true love so what you're gonna do kevin
22:28i am choosing
22:32fucking tyler kevin look at you making a decision
22:39this feels so good wow are we like official
22:44you are currently my girl
22:47i got a boyfriend oh yes ma'am i got a boyfriend yes ma'am oh i haven't had a
23:00boyfriend in so long
23:02okay so we're official now love that for us love that now that i'm your girlfriend
23:08do you remember my middle name
23:13because i don't remember yours at all facts facts i don't i don't it's marie
23:19oh shit i did
23:22oh my gosh in all seriousness i have loved every um interaction
23:31moment when we had to share the highs and the lows yeah i can't shy away from how that makes
23:36me feel
23:38what's the feeling like it feels like i'm floating
23:50it feels like cloud nine it's a wild feeling it's a great adventure i think i'm falling in love
23:57like that yeah oh man this is what a fucking day what a day oh oh my god
24:12okay i kind of gotta pee okay i'm gonna take a quick 10 minutes yeah okay i'll see you soon
24:27hi sweet girl hi i have to go patty do you need anything do you want an old-fashioned
24:37yes you want a snack yeah maybe some cheese and salsa is kia is kia in here what is kia
24:43in here no
24:45i have a boyfriend hi shut the up what happened she has a boyfriend
24:53okay because i think kia is using a good type of space about it girl
25:02so are you gonna wait till he can talk to her tomorrow or are you gonna say anything i'm not
25:06saying anything okay i wonder if he can ask to talk to her tonight or if he'll just wait until
25:10tomorrow i think i might ask him yeah you don't want to sleep on that shit you fucking decide
25:17it's about you you're good have fun good luck sweet friend thank you i love y'all no that is
25:26hard
25:29i wonder if we should take a shot now or wait for kia
25:35welcome back thank you it was just emma and christine in there and i was like i'm just going
25:40on a quick bathroom break and look how do you feel i was like i feel really good and they
25:44looked
25:44me really confused because they were like okay i think kia also feels really good yeah that just
25:50feels like to me i'm sorry like she could be laying out her engagement outfit where she's gonna get
25:56engaged in like that's just kind of up kevin like if it was me i would want you to tell
26:01me
26:07i have been having strong connections with her it was hard choosing between you know
26:17you two and why why was that again i didn't want someone who i had these feelings for to just
26:29to leave you know at the end of the day tyler i felt very deeply about you but me and
26:41kia were able to
26:42bond is there any parts of you that feel like you have like feelings of love for her
26:52love is a very strong word but i will say you know definitely you know bonded exchange gifts it's
27:01relating to a lot of a lot of stuff how are you going to tell me that you literally asked
27:08me to be
27:09your girlfriend yes i want you to be my girlfriend but having two amazing
27:18people this isn't a game you know this is our lives like this isn't
27:25i want you though you know what the fuck is happening you know what i want you i
27:51i do want that oh my god
28:02okay
28:08oh my god i just oh i feel so fucking dumb not not dumb
28:22how do you ask somebody to be their girlfriend how do you talk about engagements and weddings and
28:29marriage and life if you don't feel ready to be married if you don't feel ready to be engaged
28:33i feel i feel ready oh my god i feel crazy
28:38don't feel crazy tyler but baby tomorrow you're supposed to be getting down on one knee i know
28:44i know but i i wanted to talk through us though let me just be very clear i'm not spending
28:52the night
28:53in that hotel with it with the feeling that i have right now i'm not coming back tomorrow this is
28:58crazy this is banana this is nuts like if i think about how my husband would make me feel it's
29:06how i
29:06felt two hours ago not how i feel right now which is crazy well if you're my husband you got
29:11to
29:11spend the rest of your life making it up to me but if you're not my husband then leave me
29:14alone
29:15i'm gonna go tyler don't go
29:21you are an amazing woman you are that person that i want to be with prove it okay
29:32let me figure out how to do something that um because i'm not coming back here tomorrow without
29:40clarity and i don't know how to tell you to do that okay so you got to figure that out
29:47i'll figure it out all right good night good night
29:53might be having one of the craziest days ever
30:00girl unless that man can send a secret carrier to my mother hotel room i thought i might get
30:04back on another bus i just went on the most roller coaster of my too bro this is crazy bro
30:13i gotta figure some out man if you already see the last five hours i've been through i just feel
30:18like i got jumped by like sumo wrestlers oh jesus like i just got my ass looked
30:29like it was it was i was great and went from great to okay who was that who which one
30:36tyler
30:39well it's been but i thought we were said that we're we were ready to move forward and
30:48be together and you know perform but then she did make me think about with nia
30:57i just don't i just don't i just don't like how that ended up oh god you want to leave
31:01a break
31:02help me help me
31:04what do you got laying on tell her that you love her yeah i went from exuberant to just
31:10fucking what the fuck bro man i love you bro it's gonna work out it's gonna work out appreciate it
31:31how are you i'm good how did you sleep amazing that's good i do not i was up a lot
31:41daydreaming what
31:42were you daydreaming about our life together i am grateful for you thank you for bringing me
31:51so much peace and comfort and security even with not even physically being with you i just feel so
31:58safe um i feel loved i feel seen and i pray for a lifetime of laughs love and um lots
32:08of babies
32:10you have me at a loss for words i met my best friend and i'm excited to do life with
32:16you
32:16i'm brittany elena wicker i love you
32:25will you marry me
32:29yes
32:32i knew you didn't know what i was gonna say but
32:35i can't wait to be your wife
32:37we're getting married be ready no more waiting for you
32:42right uh let's go celebrate okay bye bye
33:01oh my god
33:06he's a fiancee
33:08i mean i mean i mean i mean it's beyond comprehension how lucky and grateful i feel in
33:29this moment i'm ready to commit to chris forever because of who he is i love that man so much
33:35it is
33:36fucking wild
33:44choosing jessica to be the person i want to spend my life with it's almost like a premonition of
33:50fate when the stars align like almost perfectly my life that i've lived up to this point and maybe her
33:58life she's lived up to this point it's just like literally meant to be
34:04i'm dying to see chris because i want to touch him and i want to be in his presence but
34:10not because i
34:10want to see what he looks like like i don't care the anticipation is unbelievable
34:19she's willing to go above and beyond for love
34:23and i don't think that's ever been reciprocated back to me i mean i love her yeah
34:38i don't think that's ever been a great day
34:55he's feeling like
34:55he's feeling like
34:56he's feeling like
34:56he's feeling like
34:56he's feeling like
34:57mmm Wow I feel like I have to do this in person right now
35:07you try to figure this out real quick okay
35:27oh my God I feel like I'm so nervous right now
35:44okay okay okay okay okay okay I love you I love you oh my gosh you look amazing
36:01see Jessica I'm like I know you so well and like to see her physically it was
36:06like oh my god and she's perfect it was the best moment of my entire life I'm so
36:15happy I'm so happy oh god I love you I love you oh my god I could have never
36:22found you never wow you're literally stunning stunning literally I'm also so
36:31short like when you were talking about my six inch heels I was literally I wasn't
36:36gonna say anything to you I was like how do I because I'm not I'm not six foot
36:39three obviously so I was like six inch heels I was like she's six foot with
36:43heels I was like I'm gonna be like yo this guy
36:46literally only five feet tall
36:51you're perfect stop no you are I was like man I wonder if she liked the way I look and
36:56then I got
36:57are you kidding me oh can we just stay here I know
37:12the connection we made I love you so much and like just seeing you just like it
37:17literally makes it like a thousand times better I will remember this forever
37:27god you're so cute
37:31stop you stop everything's exactly how it's supposed to be
37:36literally one of the best moments of my entire life
37:38a hundred percent actually no question it's not one of it literally is
37:40same
37:43you're a falling star you're the getaway car you're the light in the sand when I go too
37:50far I absolutely did not care what package he came in but he's gorgeous oh god
37:59I'm really glad I have some champagne
38:11I haven't had this love before after my divorce I literally couldn't even have dreamed it he just
38:18makes me feel so safe like I just know he's never gonna let me down I just know it
38:24I love you
38:26oh gosh
38:28I love Jessica I couldn't imagine being with anybody else like ever
38:33and in this crazy life
38:37and through these crazy times it's you it's you
38:43you make me sing
38:45you're every line
38:47you're every word
38:49oh my god
38:49you're everything
38:52I'm getting more of this
38:54you're every song
38:58and I sing along
39:01cause you're my everything
39:06you're everything
39:11so you felt like your one last night after the everything went a lot better
39:15I'm so
39:17I was so confused and I feel in search of people that I feel so comforted feel so stable so
39:23secure and like
39:25I feel like loved like I can like feel like he really really really cares for me
39:31that's the one and that was never the one that I thought I was gonna go for
39:35that was that was him like that was the one who's standing here today
39:41I woke up at peace for the first time in a long time
39:44I got butterflies you know
39:45do you wanna open first?
39:47sure
39:47alright
39:48I'm opening right now
39:49okay
39:51they are letters
39:53okay so my mom is an amazing writer
39:58every year she writes a Christmas letter summarizing our life in a nutshell and excerpts of each of us
40:04oh my gosh I'm already getting cured up
40:06I was hoping that someone was going to get to know me so well
40:09I found that in you
40:13so I'm really excited for you to be able to read these letters and learn more about my family through
40:21my mom's words
40:22I'm gonna read the first one
40:24what year is that?
40:262002
40:27I didn't have a personality then so it's not as funny but it's
40:30a personality
40:31I think you had a personality
40:34season's greetings
40:35after writing the past three Christmas letters from three different homes
40:38living in the same house for over a year
40:40we had a good year
40:41took a few family vacations
40:43the biggest being four days at Disney World
40:45it was Emma's first time there
40:48so it was very exciting for everyone
40:50Cora, 10, continues to study violin
40:53and also participates on the math team
40:55and went on to the state level
40:56Hannah, 8, is in third grade
40:58still loves animals and the outdoors
41:00on her walk home from school one day
41:03our mighty little naturist
41:04managed to capture two little turtles
41:06so the two turtles join our two guinea pigs
41:09two fish and two dogs
41:11oh my god
41:11the ark is full
41:12she goes
41:14your mom's got a sense of humor
41:15we had every single pet under the sun
41:17hamsters, rats
41:18rats?
41:19yeah, my sister had rats
41:20Jesus
41:21we had lizards
41:22we had ducks
41:24we had a rabbit
41:25you had a whole farm
41:27yeah, we like have housed many things
41:31alright
41:32Emma
41:33here we go
41:34is five and a half
41:36don't make the mistake of leaving off the
41:39and a half
41:41most of you know she underwent six operations
41:44to remove a big black birthmark
41:46that covered her left arm
41:47and we are all grateful to that behind us
41:50Emma developed an enormous medical vocabulary
41:53over the last several months
41:55and can probably name more types of bandages
41:58than the average intern
41:59I wanted to be a doctor when I grew up
42:01because of that
42:01oh wow
42:03that's amazing
42:04this is
42:05now she delights in playing hospital
42:08with the leftover supplies
42:09yeah
42:10yeah there you go
42:11checks out
42:12she wrapped the neighbor's boy's leg
42:14in bandages
42:15and then told him
42:16to come back on Tuesday
42:17for a dressing change
42:21we wish all of you a wonderful holiday season
42:23and wish all the best for the upcoming year
42:26love
42:26Jeff, Steph, Cora, Hannah and Emma
42:30aww
42:30you can really feel the love
42:32and how proud she is of interviewing
42:34I knew my parents loved me
42:36yeah
42:37but I didn't know
42:40like it could be that much
42:41like looking back at these
42:42my mom
42:43I told you we were very big into sports
42:45yeah
42:45yeah
42:46so she's doing like a scrapbook for me
42:48yeah
42:48aww
42:49for like my high school career and stuff
42:51that's so special
42:51she went to every single one of my games
42:54and she filmed it
42:55yeah
42:55oh my gosh
42:56even my younger ones
42:57wow
42:58it's amazing how mothers can show love
43:00in so many different ways
43:01I couldn't agree more
43:03yeah
43:03all right
43:03you wanna open up mine
43:05oh yeah
43:06oh my gosh
43:09this is so cute
43:12a little scrapbook
43:13stop it
43:15so do you like scrapbooking?
43:17I do like scrapbooking
43:19so I decorated the front
43:21Mike you did this?
43:23yeah
43:23I'm excited to have the both of us
43:27take pictures and fill that out together
43:29and it's our story
43:31wait so are we boyfriend and girlfriend?
43:34yes
43:34I think we have so many similarities
43:36so you don't judge
43:38you're very empathetic towards me
43:40I am
43:41very very excited
43:43for committing to you
43:45and
43:45wanting you to be my wife
43:47yeah
43:48um
43:48the only thing would be
43:50the kids thing
43:51yeah
43:52you're kind of afraid
43:53because you don't know
43:54your genes
43:55what if we got gene testing done
43:57and it was fine
43:58cause I mean
44:00listen to you talk
44:01like
44:02even when I was
44:03reading these letters
44:04you're such a family person
44:06I know
44:06you could be
44:08a great
44:08mother
44:09and just think of having
44:11a little you
44:12that you can literally
44:14do what your mom did for you
44:17I think that you would
44:19absolutely kill it
44:20I
44:22could see
44:25a family with you
44:26the idea is still so new to me
44:29I'm also nervous
44:31that I'm like
44:32some days I
44:35am very selfish
44:36and I'm like
44:37no I don't need to take care of anyone but me
44:38and like that's kind of how I've been
44:40rocking and rolling for 27 years
44:42I've been selfish too
44:44yeah
44:44you could be selfish for a little bit
44:46yeah
44:46and I'll take the brunt of the work
44:48yeah
44:49you know
44:50and then vice versa
44:50like if I'm having a tough day
44:52you know
44:53you might take the brunt of the work
44:55my parents
44:56gave us so much
44:58I'm just afraid
44:59like I can't
45:00like
45:00offer that to my kids
45:02I've been in
45:04money situations
45:05where I'm like
45:06oh shit
45:06like
45:07yeah me too
45:07I've maxed out my credit card
45:09what if shit hits the fan
45:11so
45:11we're young
45:12yeah
45:12you're 27
45:13I'm not even 30 yet
45:15maybe like 3 or 3 years ago
45:16yeah
45:17I
45:18maxed out my credit card
45:19yeah
45:20I was $23,000 in debt
45:22yeah
45:22I fought
45:23and I clawed my way
45:24and now I don't have any debt
45:26things like that happen
45:27yeah
45:27and it's a learning experience
45:29but we're learning together
45:31and I know
45:32just how my family is
45:34and I'm getting a really strong sense
45:35how your family is too
45:36yeah
45:37I feel like
45:37if there ever was
45:39a money issue
45:40yeah
45:41which I don't think there would be
45:42but I know that my family would help out
45:44yeah
45:44and I'd like to think that
45:46that maybe your family
45:47yeah
45:47it seems would help out too
45:49yeah
45:49I know they would say yes
45:50so that's what I'm trying to say
45:51and it's not
45:52that's not being shameful
45:54yeah
45:54to go to parents for help
45:55that's what they're there for
45:57yeah
45:57it doesn't sound good
45:59I'm sorry
46:00no no
46:00no it didn't
46:01it did sound good
46:02I'm like speechless
46:03just seeing you so passionate about it
46:05I want to be open minded
46:07I do see myself
46:08marrying you
46:09and that was the only thing
46:11that was a question mark
46:12are you still okay
46:13that it's a question mark
46:14I am
46:15yeah
46:16okay
46:16I feel such a strong connection with you
46:18that I'm okay with the question mark
46:20yeah
46:21I'm okay with the question mark
46:22but
46:23I'll be lying to you
46:25if I
46:25if I didn't say
46:26I'm gonna try to sway you a little bit
46:28yeah
46:29um
46:30not looking for an answer
46:31no I know
46:32but
46:33I'm just saying
46:34yeah
46:35yeah
46:35think about it
46:35anything could happen
46:38anything could happen
46:40anything could happen
46:44anything could happen
46:56oh my gosh
46:58I'm literally engaged to Connor
47:00I feel like I just put it in the universe
47:02the first day I was like this is my guy
47:06I found
47:07I found
47:08my person
47:12I feel over the moon
47:13elated
47:14Brianna has made me realize
47:16what I want
47:17we've trusted each other
47:19put confidence in each other
47:20supported each other
47:22listen to each other
47:23me more than her
47:24since she doesn't ever
47:26stop talking
47:27it's so awesome
47:29I never want her to stop talking
47:32it's definitely a fairy tale
47:34but is this all gonna come to fruition
47:36and be real life
47:37or are we just like living in this fairytale world
47:40that
47:42isn't really gonna pan out
47:45I do have some insecurities
47:47is she gonna be okay with
47:49how I look
47:50I know I'm out of shape
47:51I'm not the most built
47:53and I'm 5'11 and 3 fourths
47:55I'm not short
47:56just standard date
47:58normal body
47:59normal height
48:00and I don't really stand out
48:01hopefully she's okay with that
48:03cause she's my soul mate
48:15stop
48:18Connor
48:19finally
48:20oh you have no idea
48:22stop it
48:24oh my gosh
48:25stop
48:25oh my gosh
48:27you're freaking gorgeous
48:38the wildest brusque ever
48:40oh shit
48:42oh my god
48:42you have one thing for you
48:44what?
48:45okay you are so sweaty
48:47I know I'm freaking sweaty
48:47your hands are so sweaty
48:49yeah I know
48:52this is insane
48:53you're like free
48:55what?
48:55I know
48:55officially
48:57it's official
48:59okay
49:00it's on
49:01yeah
49:03holy shit
49:04no you have no idea
49:05oh my god
49:08no you have to go my way
49:10oh your way
49:10because I
49:10you have to walk away
49:11not me
49:12I was gonna walk you back
49:13no you were
49:14yes I was
49:15you're a gentleman
49:16yes
49:16oh my god
49:17Connor
49:17what?
49:18your hands are the sweatiest
49:20I told you
49:21this is nuts
49:22my heart's like
49:24like
49:24Connor's a stud
49:25I can't wait to see like
49:27all of each other
49:28whether that's with clothes
49:29or without
49:32this is weird
49:35wow
49:35stop
49:36stop
49:37stop
49:39you're such a cheese ball
49:41she's gorgeous
49:42it matches her personality
49:43you look unbelievable
49:45oh thanks
49:46holy shit
49:47holy shit
49:47he said
49:48no
49:48get out of here
49:50you get out of here
49:51such a clown
49:51come here
49:52perfect smile
49:53you could see it just radiating off her
49:55and she was just so happy
49:59to see me
50:00that's when I knew
50:01I'll remember that moment for the rest of my life
50:04am I what you expected?
50:07mm-hmm
50:07really?
50:08yeah I think so
50:09it all checks
50:10really?
50:12well he's not meaning ugly
50:13I appreciate that
50:15you're laughing
50:16the minute you just started laughing
50:18when you came out
50:19of the double doors
50:20I was like
50:20that's all I needed
50:21it's just like
50:22when we were on our dates
50:22and I'm just like
50:23if I'm ever nervous or what not
50:24and I just hear your voice
50:25and like your positivity
50:27and your optimism
50:28just like
50:29aww
50:29look at him
50:31gasping me up
50:32that's all I needed
50:32and then you just started laughing
50:34it sounded like
50:34I told you I would
50:35I'm like I'm just gonna start laughing
50:37I know
50:37it's like my nervous tick
50:39I don't even know what I did
50:40wait how tall are you?
50:415'4
50:42okay
50:42wait how tall are you?
50:455'11 and 3'4
50:46I'm not 6 foot
50:47yeah someone fact check this man
50:48I didn't say I was 6 foot
50:50yeah you were honest
50:52that's a great
50:53that's a great
50:53quality in you
50:54I think I got like an extra half inch
50:56you wore his high heels today
50:57is my heart still being like fast as
51:00yes
51:01mine was too
51:02did you think there was gonna be
51:03any awkwardness
51:03when we see each other?
51:04no
51:05I thought maybe
51:06for like a
51:07me or you?
51:08me
51:09being engaged
51:11is
51:12one of the craziest feelings
51:13no one's ever said
51:15how good it feels
51:19I feel like I can
51:20climb a freaking mountain right now
51:21even in this suit
51:27this is an unbelievable feeling
51:29I found the love of my life
51:32she's perfect
51:33she's perfect
51:33you're too far away from me
51:34we even get closer
51:35oh my gosh
51:36she's like
51:37sit on my lap
51:39stop
51:43you are so freaking cute
51:45stop
51:47stop
51:47do you want me to stop or no?
51:48no
51:49no
51:49guess
51:51don't actually stop
51:52I know a miracle
51:56there's not something to ignore
52:01okay
52:03what?
52:04you can't just make out for 20 years
52:05no we can
52:10it feels like I'm gonna be okay
52:12because I have Connor
52:14oh my gosh
52:20well it's nice to meet you
52:22stop it
52:23I'm really happy
52:24don't walk me down
52:25no I'm not walking you down
52:27I'm fine
52:27are you the only one
52:32lost in the million
52:33I love you
52:33I love you too
52:34oh my gosh
52:36I don't know how we've not said that yet
52:38so you just wanted to make out
52:40I told you
52:41okay watch out
52:43you're gonna like run into that side
52:44you're worth it babe
52:46oh
52:47okay
52:52you kidding me
52:53I fucking love you guys
52:56oh my gosh
53:03the best moment of my life
53:05I don't know what to do with my hands
53:11you've been in your head for a while now
53:15you don't have to make a decision now
53:16make a decision together
53:17I don't know
53:18I don't know
53:19don't know
53:20we shall see
53:21I never expected myself to be
53:24you know
53:25love triangle
53:26but
53:27here we are
53:28getting stronger
53:29as I move through every day
53:32what percentage of your heart is with Kia
53:34and what percent is with Tyler?
53:39I don't know if I can put a percent on it
53:42what I will say is that
53:44for different reasons
53:46there's something that's pulling me
53:49and I truly don't want to
53:55don't want to mess that up
53:57it's true
53:58I can feel I'm breaking through
54:01I'm not here to find a girlfriend
54:03I'm here to find best friend
54:05I want to raise a family
54:08be with my wife
54:09and in today's date with Tyler
54:11I need to be able to
54:13say hey
54:14this
54:15is where I'm at
54:16this is how I feel
54:19that beautiful chapter
54:20it needs to be written
54:21that's what I'm here for
54:26Tyler makes me feel like she may be the one
54:28so I'm ready to see if she's available
54:30and she's ready to see me
54:35hey
54:41hello hello
54:50hello
55:02nobody's on the other shot
55:13nobody's on the other shot
55:18a world that's like now
55:21oh
55:22oh
55:22oh
55:25my voice
55:27oh
55:29journeys
55:30on the cover
55:32so much to discover
55:35so much to discover
55:41better
55:43so much to discover
55:48You
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