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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 09: I’m Just Being Honest
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00:00:14I just don't know if it's like there for me like I feel like sex is a big thing mm
00:00:21-hmm I
00:00:22felt like we could get over but I could get past that you know she's such a great person I
00:00:27care
00:00:28about her and I know how you can feel about me and I was like well I feel like we
00:00:34could get past that
00:00:35like part maybe some way and now I'm like I don't want to like fake something but like the more
00:00:46like
00:00:46we do that it's like I never not talk to this person
00:00:57but like over the past two days I was thinking about it about like what it would be like if
00:01:03I was with that person too just thinking about it what person the number two person I had
00:01:10just thinking about it not about it I'm just being honest like my thoughts I was like
00:01:14what would that look like and it probably I don't know maybe it'd be up in flames you know what
00:01:19I mean
00:01:20mm-hmm that person I'm just saying like these are just thoughts in my head yeah I mean all of
00:01:31these things are really hard to hear okay I figured they would be I just feel like the past two
00:01:38days
00:01:38I've had enough time to like think about like
00:01:46fucking long term five ten yeah fifteen twenty years and it's like I feel like it's hard but
00:01:53like that doesn't mean like how I felt like that was all like true like everything like how I felt
00:01:59about you it's very true I just I don't want to be like sad about it like I want to
00:02:16like continue
00:02:16like trying like figuring this out because I feel like we have fun together
00:02:26right
00:02:29I don't know how I'm supposed to be like fun now oh wow okay I feel really stupid why
00:02:41why honestly the fact that
00:02:47me not working out every day is even a sentence that came up in this conversation is blowing my mind
00:02:52oh my gosh it's not even what I meant by that well it's what you said
00:02:57it's I mean I'm just trying to like I'm not saying like people I would date before like that's
00:03:01the things they would do and like that's the things like I would well I just go after work at
00:03:06the hospital every day sorry I understand I was very upfront about that from beginning this there
00:03:11was no like illusion that I was gonna be going to Pilates every day I understand and it makes me
00:03:17feel
00:03:17like shit too like not good enough in a way that like I can't control feel very like inadequate
00:03:33three days ago if you had told me like that I would question if you I would be like you're
00:03:37fucking insane
00:03:38like this man has treated me better than anyone ever has and like he's told me that he's in love
00:03:44with me like he's told me that he wants a future with me and so today it's really fucked with
00:03:48my head
00:03:48to go from like thinking that you think I'm like the best fucking thing in the world to being like
00:03:53well
00:04:00if my body isn't good enough for you like I'm never gonna be like oh please still love me
00:04:05that's not what I'm here for now I'm standing here alone
00:04:14everything I knew has turned to stone
00:04:20I feel like I just need to go home
00:04:36love was absolutely blind for me I was madly in love with Chris like I genuinely believed that
00:04:42this was the person I was gonna spend the rest of my life with with him doing this like complete
00:04:47180
00:04:47and feeling like a different person I could never look at him the same I'm extremely disappointed I'm
00:04:54extremely hurt but I know I'll be okay I've always been okay I will take care of myself I have
00:05:01a
00:05:01wonderful life and I don't want to be with somebody unless they're just gonna make it better
00:05:26I believe love is blind I mean I fell in love with someone without seeing them and
00:05:29literally wanted to spend the rest of my life with them but when two people want to fornicate
00:05:33or have sex it might not be a big deal to a lot of people it might people say it's
00:05:375% 10%
00:05:38relationship like to me like I get it when you're 90 years old everyone's not gonna look good I get
00:05:43it but I'm not 90 I'm disappointed how it turned out and like she said she didn't work out I
00:05:50get it
00:05:50it's fine but Brie was my number two and it's like you know maybe that's someone like I would be
00:05:58more attracted to and I thought maybe I could say some of those things without feeling like I was
00:06:04being the bad person there and I was wrong if she doesn't like the way I feel and she feels
00:06:10like
00:06:10she can't be with me because the way I feel then it's what it is
00:06:30your sweatshirt and sweatpants are on the bed
00:06:31I saw that thank you how good does that feel to have all the laundry done
00:06:35I'm not gonna say it out loud but doing like these chores to make sure it looks nice is
00:06:42oh he just is appreciating the finer things in life like a clean house
00:06:49and it smells good
00:06:50I do I told I said positive
00:06:55I'm saying you are
00:06:57you've been away from me all day oh no what are you gonna do you what are you gonna do
00:07:05when I go
00:07:05back tomorrow cry well maybe just make a bunch of money and I can just stay at home you're gonna
00:07:13stay here forever I'll be I don't think I'll have to go to the office before the
00:07:21wedding but probably wait you have to go in the office sometimes once a month
00:07:26we have once a month meetings and it's just all the higher-ups so
00:07:34I swear to God you are a treat
00:07:39I get no one I need to okay it's called efficiency
00:07:42and delegation true just like how we delegating our chores around here
00:07:49I gotta I gotta we're managing a household do you realize that and tonight we're gonna make dinner
00:07:54you're our first dinner here in the apartment
00:07:58there's that sizzle oh yeah baby just please be careful
00:08:02I will
00:08:09okay let's just maybe choose a different tool
00:08:11this is the butter it is hard as a rock okay yeah it probably needs to be warmed up
00:08:20Connor it's in plastic for like 20 seconds it's gonna be fine
00:08:26I'm gonna get cancer living with you
00:08:29maybe I'm just kind of an idiot sometimes
00:08:33I secretly think that you're like the house dad of like a fraternity
00:08:37I'm not I wasn't even in a fraternity
00:08:40well you should have been
00:08:42why be in one when you can just do it in your 30s
00:08:44you're like
00:08:46sassy
00:08:46yeah
00:08:47yeah
00:08:47sometimes a little mean
00:08:48okay
00:08:50I need some eye
00:08:57look at what you're capable of
00:08:59a clean place
00:09:01look at him he's cooking he's doing it
00:09:06come on now I need to be nicer you're right that's good feedback
00:09:10but I might as well I just got a text from Joss
00:09:14I got a text from Chris
00:09:21what
00:09:23what did he say say he's going home
00:09:29let me just check in
00:09:31I'm sure when Chris is done with him I'm on a chat so
00:09:38wow
00:09:38we are good good friends to our friends
00:09:47my mind souped up car down mountain
00:09:51can't stop racing
00:09:53you show me up
00:09:54I'm going to show you up
00:09:55I'll see about that
00:09:57you're too strong
00:10:01oh no
00:10:02wait did we put a wager on this
00:10:04oh that's the one
00:10:05you let me win one
00:10:07I'm a sore loser
00:10:11perfect
00:10:12you're being nice to me now
00:10:13yeah I gotta give you one hole
00:10:15I kind of want all of them but
00:10:16I really set myself up for that one
00:10:18you did you did
00:10:20good shot
00:10:21she's back
00:10:22she never left
00:10:24look at you
00:10:24it's not easy having our first fight but we come back and we're our old selves
00:10:30got it
00:10:31look at you impressing me
00:10:32you like me
00:10:33I do
00:10:33he likes me people
00:10:34I do I do I do
00:10:35I do
00:10:36Lucas
00:10:37give me that
00:10:38give me that
00:10:38with my sexual frustrations
00:10:40after tonight
00:10:42there is a great chance that need will be met
00:10:46it may have already been met
00:10:49I have to get this in the hole
00:10:50that's the one
00:10:51please don't tell my parents
00:10:54that's the speed
00:10:54nice work
00:11:02where are we at babe
00:11:03that's the building that I work in
00:11:05so I could like come here and have one with you
00:11:07be cool yeah
00:11:08okay
00:11:08sit out here
00:11:11it's really neat like getting to see Fig in this real life situation
00:11:16Dr. St. John
00:11:18so you clip these on
00:11:20they can hear the audio
00:11:21teach them
00:11:22they raise hands
00:11:23I'm gonna come sit up in one of these corners one day
00:11:27also I want to show him all the hearts
00:11:30you know of my life because it got me to where I am now
00:11:34so we're on our way to where
00:11:36you don't have to look because I know you're driving
00:11:39Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:41Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:42yes
00:11:43the hometown
00:11:44hometown
00:11:46you want to show them the scenery of where we're headed
00:11:48yeah let me show you where we at
00:11:50because if I go missing
00:11:53country just let me know
00:11:54it's a big deal you know I don't I don't bring anyone to my hometown to see where I grew
00:11:59up
00:12:00I'm all for it
00:12:01horse and bucky time
00:12:03you know I used to be really insecure and embarrassed about where I came from
00:12:07this is where the cow died in the pernative
00:12:09in the air
00:12:10like
00:12:12there's a part of me that was like
00:12:15am I good enough for him
00:12:16why would he choose me
00:12:18we're in your hometown
00:12:20you want to call with that
00:12:23didn't ask for much
00:12:26what is one of the best things about growing up out here
00:12:32something that helped make you who you are today
00:12:37just playing outside and getting to be a kid
00:12:41we had to make our own fun and explore and learn and grow and do things a lot differently than
00:12:47you do in the city
00:12:47yeah
00:12:48yeah
00:12:49past the spot I used to play
00:12:51round the corner where I got my first kiss
00:12:56like people would sneak beer and we'd sit in the back of cars and trucks and hang out in the
00:13:01bowling alley parking lot
00:13:02we should go bow
00:13:03yeah
00:13:04are you when you're going to bowl
00:13:05all right
00:13:07so that's when you're born
00:13:10there you go big guy
00:13:15first interaction with the horde
00:13:17all right
00:13:18I know right
00:13:19uh
00:13:20beautiful
00:13:21seeing him
00:13:23really taking the experience
00:13:25he just he feels like home and he has from day one and I know that I'm going to be
00:13:29so comfortable and so happy with him
00:13:31you've been wearing flannel today
00:13:32yeah I can see
00:13:34my love is coming home
00:13:38my love is coming home
00:13:43my love is coming home
00:13:46hey mom
00:13:47good to see ya
00:13:48this is Amber
00:13:49you too Amber
00:13:49nice to meet you
00:13:50so nice to meet you
00:13:51we brought you a little gift
00:13:53oh my goodness
00:13:54you guys are so nice
00:13:55oh of course you brought a gift
00:13:57we heard you like plants
00:13:58I love plants
00:13:59I love that
00:14:01you look so pretty
00:14:02thank you
00:14:03I love your outfit
00:14:04thank you
00:14:05I see your ring
00:14:07oh my gosh that's beautiful
00:14:09thank you
00:14:10I know he did a good job
00:14:11so pretty
00:14:13George's always been the little baby brother
00:14:15they were all his mother hands
00:14:17yes
00:14:17I used to have to babysit you and you were so mean you'd pull my hair
00:14:21ah
00:14:22oh my gosh
00:14:23you're so mean to me
00:14:24sorry
00:14:27how old is your daughter
00:14:28seven
00:14:29my I have a son
00:14:30will be seven in April
00:14:31so
00:14:31that's what he was saying
00:14:32we both have boys
00:14:33so they
00:14:35Jordan would call him fun uncle
00:14:37yeah
00:14:38they like to beat up on him
00:14:40and climb on him
00:14:41yeah
00:14:41oh yeah
00:14:43have you got to meet her yet
00:14:44Emma
00:14:44no
00:14:45I just met um
00:14:46Matt who's the father of Emma
00:14:49good
00:14:49doing well
00:14:51awesome
00:14:51do you think you guys would ever have kids together
00:14:55we've talked about it
00:14:56we don't have kids
00:14:58I think you'd be like an amazing dad
00:14:59you would
00:15:01I've never met anybody that I've thought about having kids with
00:15:03besides her
00:15:05besides her
00:15:05aw
00:15:07how do you feel about meeting my mom?
00:15:10I'm excited now
00:15:10yeah
00:15:11I'm a little nervous
00:15:12like when she doesn't like me
00:15:1429
00:15:15did you know he had a CPAP machine before you went to Cabo hopefully?
00:15:19yeah
00:15:20he's like busted out
00:15:21you look over and he's like
00:15:23Darth Vader
00:15:25she sees that every morning
00:15:27it was the highlight of the day
00:15:29oh my god
00:15:31feels like he's shaving his back
00:15:32what?
00:15:34that is true love
00:15:35there you go
00:15:35I think the hairy hairy guy
00:15:37you gotta do
00:15:39you have to shave his butt too?
00:15:41yeah
00:15:41yeah
00:15:45yeah
00:15:46yeah
00:15:47I want you here, here, here every night
00:15:50I want you there, there, there by my side
00:15:56you here every night
00:16:05Mmm.
00:16:07Nasty?
00:16:08No, why would I go mmm if it's gross?
00:16:13Hopefully it's good.
00:16:14Only tried the broccoli.
00:16:18Thank you for cooking.
00:16:20You're welcome.
00:16:22The chicken's good.
00:16:23Is it?
00:16:24Mm-hmm.
00:16:25I did it medium rare tonight.
00:16:30The chicken isn't...
00:16:32You wanna kill us?
00:16:34We won't make it to a wedding.
00:16:36Or we'll be deathly ill.
00:16:38I need to look slim in my suit.
00:16:40So we should get a Big Mac tonight?
00:16:42No, I'm just kidding.
00:16:43Your eyes.
00:16:45You haven't looked at me like that since the reveal.
00:16:48Like, oh my god.
00:16:50What am I doing?
00:16:52Doesn't that feel so long ago?
00:16:53Yeah.
00:16:55Sight unseen.
00:16:57Can you help me cover my face so you don't have to look at me?
00:16:59We can act like we're in the pods.
00:17:04Oh my gosh.
00:17:07Um...
00:17:07This is uncomfortable for me.
00:17:11But...
00:17:13I don't feel as secure as I did in the pods with you.
00:17:19I don't like that you don't ever really tell me that I'm pretty.
00:17:21Because I don't know if you're attracted to me.
00:17:23Like you just compliment my clothes.
00:17:26Complimenting me, it gives me security like that you find me attractive and you want me.
00:17:32And I don't always necessarily feel like you do.
00:17:35In Cabo, you know, when I did compliment like your bathing suit, like I was starting to like open up.
00:17:40And you, I don't remember the exact comment, but it was just like, you haven't called me pretty.
00:17:45And then internally for me, I'm just like, okay, well now I don't want to because like you're forcing me.
00:17:51And then I was like, well now I don't feel like it's genuine if I say anything.
00:17:55If it's felt distance or I haven't felt like physical touch, it's because like I've been putting up these walls
00:18:00because now I feel like if I do it, it's only because you told me.
00:18:04And in my head, I'm like, if I do it, I feel like that's what you're going to say.
00:18:07But when I do make comments or I compliment something, for me, what would help is like leaving like the
00:18:14small comment aside.
00:18:15I feel like I go in defense mode because I'm like, okay, I'm not going to try if it's not
00:18:21being reciprocated.
00:18:23Yeah. And I think for me, it's just like addressing it how we address it tonight instead of saying like,
00:18:28you never call me pretty.
00:18:29Just be like, is everything okay?
00:18:31Like, I just want to make sure that you are like in more of like a conversation instead of like
00:18:37a small comment.
00:18:38I think for me, it does a lot.
00:18:40I think we can easily get through this stuff and like figure it out.
00:18:44But that was what would help me.
00:18:46And I obviously know helping you would be like doing it and like saying it, so.
00:18:54I think something that I need to do is start projecting my past relationship insecurities on me.
00:19:01And I think that also means that I have some work I need to do outside of us.
00:19:09Yeah.
00:19:10But I hear you.
00:19:12And I will work on not, not projecting my hurt on you.
00:19:20I know it's not easy.
00:19:22Well, this was therapeutic.
00:19:24Because apparently both of us have been feeling some type of way at not seeing.
00:19:29But it explains a lot.
00:19:32Yeah.
00:19:34I think you are very pretty.
00:19:36I love that you like have like natural beauty.
00:19:39And it's not like makeup.
00:19:41You know me, I'm a very simple man.
00:19:42So I think that's beautiful that you are beautiful in your own skin.
00:19:48And I do really like your lashes.
00:19:50They're very voluptuous.
00:19:52And your soft, your soft curly hair.
00:19:55I love your height.
00:19:57Really?
00:19:59Yeah, because I can hide my snacks in the big cupboards.
00:20:03Oh, that's right.
00:20:04So I think it's really attractive.
00:20:07And your smile is contagious.
00:20:11Thanks.
00:20:12You're welcome.
00:20:25Big Dome.
00:20:26Yo.
00:20:27What up?
00:20:28How are you?
00:20:30Good to see you.
00:20:30Hanging in there?
00:20:31Yeah.
00:20:33Talk to me.
00:20:35She doesn't want to do this anymore.
00:20:37I don't know if like, the physical connection is there yet.
00:20:41And if that can grow.
00:20:43You're attracted to her.
00:20:46Yeah, I mean, she's beautiful.
00:20:48You're good looking.
00:20:50But I was just trying to be honest.
00:20:52She, I assume, didn't really take it well.
00:20:55No.
00:20:55Not at all.
00:20:56And I didn't say like, I wanted to be done.
00:20:59Did she say she wants to be done?
00:21:01Uh, yeah.
00:21:02I think so.
00:21:04Like she said that, she's like, I'm done.
00:21:05I mean, it's what it sounded like.
00:21:07Sounded like, but not actually.
00:21:09So there's...
00:21:10Have you tried reaching out to her?
00:21:13She's like, I can't be around you anymore.
00:21:15Basically.
00:21:15So.
00:21:22That sucks.
00:21:23I didn't say I wanted to be done with it.
00:21:25Yeah.
00:21:25But I just said we need to work on these things.
00:21:27Okay.
00:21:28Um.
00:21:29But I think she thinks I'm just going to be going through the motions.
00:21:31I mean, you guys talked for 50 hours.
00:21:34Yeah, literally.
00:21:35And Cabo was, Cabo was great.
00:21:37Cabo was fun with you too?
00:21:37I mean, how do you not have fun there, right?
00:21:39I know.
00:21:39But like, also we found our person to do it with, which makes...
00:21:42That's what I mean.
00:21:42Cabo was going to be fun regardless, but like, doing it with your person.
00:21:45There's just like no better feeling.
00:21:48So.
00:21:50Yeah.
00:21:51Fuck, man.
00:21:52I appreciate that.
00:21:54I just...
00:21:55Yeah.
00:21:55You two are awesome too.
00:21:56That's the other thing.
00:21:57It's like, it's frustrating.
00:21:58Just because like, I saw how much love there was between you guys.
00:22:01And how much love there definitely still is.
00:22:03And she was a great friend of Bree too.
00:22:06So she is this great friend of Bree.
00:22:07Like both of you guys.
00:22:08So it's like, we want to see you guys do well and stay together obviously.
00:22:13And do what's best for you too.
00:22:17So.
00:22:18Yeah.
00:22:20Couples fight all the time and it sucks that this got to the level where it's at.
00:22:23But like.
00:22:24I don't know.
00:22:24Give it a day or two I think.
00:22:26Yeah.
00:22:26I think uh.
00:22:27Maybe send her like a, just uh, even like a letter or something.
00:22:31Not just a text.
00:22:32Just like why you were feeling how you're feeling about her.
00:22:36That you're not just going through the motions.
00:22:39Yeah.
00:22:40Or that you still want to continue things.
00:22:41There's nothing more that I want to do is like continue with you type stuff.
00:22:44So honestly whatever you're feeling.
00:22:46Put that in writing.
00:22:48If you just give it your 100% effort.
00:22:50Like you can at least sleep at night.
00:22:56Yeah dude I like that idea.
00:22:57No.
00:22:57Definitely um.
00:22:59Take that advice.
00:23:00You got your room.
00:23:01Obviously call me if you need anything.
00:23:03Yeah.
00:23:04Let me know.
00:23:05Maybe I'll be with Jess and we can all go on double date or something.
00:23:07Dude I hope.
00:23:07I hope.
00:23:08If I see her I'm like.
00:23:10Talk to Chris.
00:23:11We love you guys.
00:23:12Uh.
00:23:13Alright dude.
00:23:14We're rooting for you.
00:23:15I do.
00:23:15See ya.
00:23:19Write your thoughts down.
00:23:20Yep.
00:23:29Hey.
00:23:30Steven's my boy.
00:23:31This is the place.
00:23:34And this is my fiancee Ashley.
00:23:36My.
00:23:36Good.
00:23:36She's my mom.
00:23:37Hi.
00:23:38So good to meet you.
00:23:39Good to meet you.
00:23:39I've heard so much about you.
00:23:41A little about you.
00:23:43Look at.
00:23:43Color.
00:23:45Welcome to our home.
00:23:47Where are you coming from?
00:23:48You were in like Arizona or Montana when we called you.
00:23:51It's the news.
00:23:52It's always a crapshoot.
00:23:54I was in Arizona when we called.
00:23:56I know.
00:23:56Well he's like I travel all around and I was like so your mom is the same way.
00:23:59I am.
00:24:01Yes.
00:24:01I may have instilled that in him a little sorry.
00:24:03That's okay.
00:24:04So you drive commercial trucks?
00:24:07I do.
00:24:07Yeah.
00:24:07I drive a semi with a car hauler on the back and whatever we can.
00:24:12That's insane.
00:24:13Yeah.
00:24:13Yeah.
00:24:14I was test driving tractors for a while up to Alaska and Mack.
00:24:18Oh that looks beautiful.
00:24:20Ashley did you put that together?
00:24:22So do you ride motorcycles?
00:24:24I do not.
00:24:25Would you?
00:24:25I've been on a motorcycle.
00:24:27I have never driven one.
00:24:29This is where I get it from obviously.
00:24:30Yeah.
00:24:30You can kind of see like the traveling bouncing around.
00:24:33Experiences to me are what are important.
00:24:35Yeah.
00:24:35Things are not important.
00:24:37You know I know we live our lives a little differently than a lot of people.
00:24:42Although I think you know the nomadic lifestyle is kind of coming into vogue maybe.
00:24:47I don't know.
00:24:48But have you done much traveling?
00:24:50No.
00:24:51So that's something that appealed about Alex is like I haven't traveled a lot.
00:24:54And I've always wanted to travel and explore.
00:24:57He loves the exploring.
00:24:59He always had my support on that.
00:25:00Absolutely.
00:25:01Go travel now.
00:25:02We've talked about like planting roots either in Arizona or Florida.
00:25:05Do you think he's capable of staying in one place for?
00:25:08Yeah.
00:25:09Much more than I am.
00:25:10She's more of a planner.
00:25:11Like I mean I plan things out but.
00:25:13I'm a Virgo.
00:25:14I'm not go with the flow.
00:25:15I definitely like to plan.
00:25:16It's not a weakness.
00:25:17Yeah.
00:25:18It's just how does it fit together with the other person.
00:25:22He compliments that very well with me.
00:25:23Like he'll just look at me and be like we got this.
00:25:26Like shut up.
00:25:28Respectfully.
00:25:29And I'll be like okay.
00:25:30Most of the time.
00:25:32He yelled at me because I organized the water bottles in the fridge.
00:25:34No.
00:25:35No.
00:25:36Rephrase that.
00:25:36Rephrase that.
00:25:37I put them in.
00:25:38In rows.
00:25:39Ready to go.
00:25:40Wow.
00:25:40I'm impressed.
00:25:41I know.
00:25:42I was impressed.
00:25:43I was impressed.
00:25:43And then I opened them up again.
00:25:44I was like you flipped those around.
00:25:46Like what.
00:25:46That's my comfort.
00:25:47Like when I'm cleaning I'm like anxious.
00:25:49I'm like I'm just cleaning.
00:25:50Do you need him to do that or are you okay just doing that?
00:25:52Nope.
00:25:54That's.
00:25:54That was one of those.
00:25:54I'm like hey I'm.
00:25:55I'm putting the effort in here.
00:25:57And when she explained it.
00:25:57Because you have to let him be him too.
00:25:59If he's gonna let you be him.
00:26:00That was what we talked about.
00:26:01It's new.
00:26:02Like we're living together.
00:26:03So it's like we do have to like.
00:26:04Not compromise.
00:26:05But like we have to.
00:26:06Just learn each other's language.
00:26:07Especially if you're gonna marry them.
00:26:09Yeah.
00:26:11That's awesome.
00:26:14All right.
00:26:15Well I'm gonna let you guys.
00:26:16Go to town on that charcuterie board.
00:26:18I will see you guys in a little bit.
00:26:19I'm a truck driver.
00:26:19I don't get real food.
00:26:23I guess what is like Alex's previous girlfriends been like.
00:26:26Um.
00:26:28Girl talk now.
00:26:29Yeah.
00:26:30Like let me get the dirt.
00:26:31I don't know if he's told you about his.
00:26:33Last serious relationship.
00:26:35He.
00:26:36Gave it more chances.
00:26:38Than it should have been given to him.
00:26:39Yeah.
00:26:40And um.
00:26:41Was she.
00:26:42Chicago.
00:26:43Yes.
00:26:43Um.
00:26:44And she was a piece of work.
00:26:45Was she.
00:26:46The travel nurse.
00:26:47That he was gonna go to Australia with.
00:26:49No.
00:26:50Cause I've only known about.
00:26:52No it's two people.
00:26:53But the travel nurse and then Chicago.
00:26:55I didn't know if they were.
00:26:56Same person or what.
00:26:57No.
00:26:57So.
00:26:57He doesn't like to talk about.
00:26:59The past too much.
00:27:00And I understand like.
00:27:02He's had a rough go.
00:27:04Yeah.
00:27:04Of women not being.
00:27:07Authentic.
00:27:07And not being honest.
00:27:08And.
00:27:09Not being loyal.
00:27:11Yeah.
00:27:11So.
00:27:12Have you seen anything that.
00:27:14Causes you.
00:27:15Concern.
00:27:16I think the biggest thing for me is.
00:27:19I analyze like.
00:27:21The timelines.
00:27:22Cause his timeline is.
00:27:23It's insane.
00:27:24It's like.
00:27:24I don't know where you lived.
00:27:26And then I like.
00:27:26Try to like.
00:27:27Rehash it to like.
00:27:28My girlfriends.
00:27:29When I see them.
00:27:29And they're like what?
00:27:30And I was like.
00:27:31What?
00:27:32I don't know.
00:27:33And he knows.
00:27:34That it is hard to follow his story.
00:27:37Yeah.
00:27:38It's hard to follow my story.
00:27:39Just people's heads go.
00:27:41Yeah.
00:27:41They're like.
00:27:42I don't know what you're talking about.
00:27:43I think he's finally kind of mourning the loss.
00:27:46Of.
00:27:46Of soccer.
00:27:47It was such a huge part of his life.
00:27:49Coaching is obviously.
00:27:50Something he's very passionate about.
00:27:52I guess a concern of mine is like.
00:27:54You know.
00:27:54We move away.
00:27:55And we've talked about him going into this like.
00:27:57Financial role or something.
00:27:58And.
00:27:58It's not what he wants to do.
00:27:59Yeah.
00:27:59I know it's probably very hard for him to.
00:28:02Yeah.
00:28:02Have to walk away from.
00:28:03What was.
00:28:04His life.
00:28:06Um.
00:28:06That's going to make me cry.
00:28:07I'm sorry.
00:28:17I would love for him to coach because.
00:28:21He's got so much to offer.
00:28:23Um.
00:28:25And he loved the game so much.
00:28:30Um.
00:28:31And I think.
00:28:33He's.
00:28:34He needs something that isn't.
00:28:36So structured.
00:28:37Then he's.
00:28:38You got to be in an office all the time.
00:28:40That's just not his.
00:28:42Yeah.
00:28:42His.
00:28:43Venue.
00:28:44What's the.
00:28:45Hardest thing you've had to overcome in your life.
00:28:48Probably my previous.
00:28:50Relationship.
00:28:51My friends and my family.
00:28:52They started.
00:28:53They sort of saw me like.
00:28:54Lose myself.
00:28:55I was this like.
00:28:56Bright.
00:28:57Shining.
00:28:58Like.
00:28:58Personality.
00:28:58Bubbly girl.
00:29:00Smart.
00:29:00Intelligent.
00:29:00Ambitious.
00:29:01Beautiful inside and out.
00:29:03And that was completely drained from me.
00:29:05I will no longer date potential.
00:29:07And I don't want to marry potential.
00:29:08And.
00:29:09I have not had any of those feelings with Alex.
00:29:11Like.
00:29:11It's not potential with Alex.
00:29:13I guess.
00:29:14I'm glad you see that.
00:29:15Yeah.
00:29:15He is who he is.
00:29:16And I fell in love with him through a wall.
00:29:18And.
00:29:19That's crazy.
00:29:20To say out loud.
00:29:21But.
00:29:21He's shown me who he is as a man.
00:29:23Like.
00:29:23What kind of protector.
00:29:24Provider.
00:29:25He will be for.
00:29:26Me.
00:29:26And our family.
00:29:27And.
00:29:28I've never had someone choose me.
00:29:30Wholeheartedly.
00:29:31Like.
00:29:31100%.
00:29:32And.
00:29:32Alex chose me.
00:29:34To be like.
00:29:34His only priority.
00:29:35Those are the important things to me.
00:29:37That's who he is.
00:29:38Yeah.
00:29:38How we doing?
00:29:39Good.
00:29:40She'll do.
00:29:42Just kidding.
00:29:43We're gonna become besties.
00:29:44And we're gonna just talk about you.
00:29:45And.
00:29:46I'll go golf.
00:29:48Alex does want to.
00:29:50To settle down.
00:29:51I don't think he'll ever give up.
00:29:53Traveling and exploring.
00:29:54But I think that he does.
00:29:56Want something.
00:29:57Where he feels safe.
00:29:58And stable.
00:29:59She would be a wonderful daughter-in-law.
00:30:02Virgo and Pisces.
00:30:03Can be very compatible.
00:30:05Very compatible.
00:30:06Yes.
00:30:06It's one of the good things.
00:30:06Can be.
00:30:06Absolutely.
00:30:18What?
00:30:19It's my family.
00:30:21I'm so nervous.
00:30:22You've been on edge.
00:30:23Yeah.
00:30:24I know.
00:30:24Ah.
00:30:26Ah.
00:30:27Ah.
00:30:29Ah.
00:30:30Ah.
00:30:31Mike is meeting my family.
00:30:33Mike is meeting.
00:30:34The whole gang.
00:30:35My parents.
00:30:36My.
00:30:37Sisters.
00:30:38Hi.
00:30:38This is Mike.
00:30:39It's so nice.
00:30:40Nice to meet you.
00:30:41He's gonna get interrogated by everyone.
00:30:44Hi Mike.
00:30:45Nice to meet you.
00:30:46Nice to meet you.
00:30:47Hey how's it going?
00:30:48Good.
00:30:48Nice to meet you.
00:30:50Mike.
00:30:50Nice to meet you.
00:30:51Same.
00:30:51Should we sit?
00:30:52Yeah.
00:30:53You can sit right there.
00:30:55With my notebook.
00:30:55Did she tell you that I intend?
00:30:57She said you're bringing a notebook and I go Jesus.
00:30:59To grill me?
00:31:00Yeah.
00:31:02I am a big believer in balance in marriage.
00:31:07Where do you feel like you fill in some weaknesses?
00:31:12So I think that I do a very good job of keeping her grounded.
00:31:15Great.
00:31:16You should have seen her freaking out when you guys were coming.
00:31:19Yeah.
00:31:19Yeah.
00:31:20We freak out.
00:31:21We're a good freak out family.
00:31:24We all have grounders.
00:31:26All of us.
00:31:27Women have grounders.
00:31:28And that was the biggest thing that why Mike stood out was cause he grounded me in the
00:31:32pods.
00:31:33Like I would go up to him and be like dude I am stressed today.
00:31:36That's awesome.
00:31:37I'm telling you the communication that we've had is insane.
00:31:39That's really good.
00:31:40So when we were talking about kids and he's really like challenged me to like think more
00:31:46on that spectrum and I'm like okay well why don't I want kids.
00:31:50Uh huh.
00:31:52Number one I don't have a maternal instinct.
00:31:53What is that?
00:31:55Um.
00:31:57Yeah.
00:31:58But I think.
00:31:59I think it's there.
00:32:00You take care of Monji.
00:32:02I think comparing taking care of a dog to having children.
00:32:04Well I'm not.
00:32:05Yeah.
00:32:06You get what I'm saying though.
00:32:07She needs to care and still take care of it.
00:32:09You need to walk it.
00:32:10You need to be on a schedule.
00:32:11Yeah.
00:32:11It needs to feed.
00:32:12And you can leave it alone for eight hours.
00:32:13I am a strong advocate of.
00:32:15Well.
00:32:15Like I'm somebody.
00:32:16When it's a puppy.
00:32:16I'm somebody who grew up my whole life wanting to be a mom.
00:32:18And I have two kids and I wake up some days and I'm like why did I like this is.
00:32:22She said that.
00:32:23It is the.
00:32:23Yeah.
00:32:23You told them that I'm sure.
00:32:25Yeah I told them that.
00:32:25I still question my choices.
00:32:27One of the things I told to that is do you regret it.
00:32:29And she said no.
00:32:31And I said then that's all you need to know.
00:32:33I would say though if I lived another life.
00:32:35Like I don't regret having my children and I love my children.
00:32:38But if I got to the end of my life and they said you can do it again I wouldn't
00:32:41have kids.
00:32:43Okay.
00:32:43Because there's there's a beautiful thing about living a life for yourself too.
00:32:47Yeah.
00:32:47Sure.
00:32:48So my concern is as somebody who wanted this and is currently living it and knows how hard it is.
00:32:53If somebody chooses to have kids simply because they're trying to make a partner happy.
00:32:58Yeah.
00:32:58That's one of the most terrifying thoughts.
00:33:00And that's what I told you.
00:33:01And especially for Emma.
00:33:02Like I love her to death and I would not be able to live with myself if I didn't say
00:33:06that.
00:33:08Would you be willing to live your life without children or is that not an option?
00:33:11I so I was trying to be open about it.
00:33:13The more that I'm thinking about it like I don't think I can.
00:33:17Yeah.
00:33:19Nobody has to justify why they want kids or don't want kids.
00:33:23Because I love being a grandma.
00:33:25I love being a Mimi.
00:33:26I love my babies.
00:33:29But I also want to support.
00:33:32Yeah.
00:33:33You.
00:33:33And I haven't I haven't asked.
00:33:36No.
00:33:36Like I told you I would not push you.
00:33:38And like I'm not I'm not.
00:33:39You need to come to that on your own.
00:33:41On any of this.
00:33:41And I respect your decision whatever it is.
00:33:44Good.
00:33:44Family is so important to me and I would not have said yes if I was not open.
00:33:54But you were a hard no for a long time.
00:33:56Yeah.
00:33:56So that's why we're a little bit protective.
00:33:58I think we were all pretty certain you would not have kids throughout the time.
00:34:04He's let me be who I am and like be independent and have my choices but also like is there
00:34:12for me when I need him.
00:34:13On the pods I didn't want to tell anyone about my adoption or like my surgeries because those are the
00:34:17deepest parts of me.
00:34:19And like I was just like my self identity is rooted in that.
00:34:21Right.
00:34:22You were so kind and so reassuring like I was getting emotional and he was like I'm here take your
00:34:28time.
00:34:29I'm not going anywhere.
00:34:30And the more I thought about kids is like I don't know if I'm going to pass down the birthmarks.
00:34:35I don't know if my parents had other birth defects.
00:34:39I don't know if my birth mother had birth complications.
00:34:42Right.
00:34:43Do you think you were right of having kids because of your birthmarks and stuff.
00:34:47Oh yeah 100 percent.
00:34:50I had a great life growing up.
00:34:52But like it was very very tough mental romance.
00:35:03Like not feeling good enough comparing myself to other people.
00:35:06Like I just don't want like I like don't want to bring a kid into that because it's tough.
00:35:11Because of your scar?
00:35:14Oh really?
00:35:15Yeah.
00:35:15Yeah.
00:35:15Yeah.
00:35:16See we didn't know.
00:35:17Mm-hmm.
00:35:19Because you always handled yourself.
00:35:21Yeah.
00:35:21Yeah.
00:35:23Yeah.
00:35:23With strength.
00:35:24And we were curious how much.
00:35:26Yeah.
00:35:26How much she covered up and didn't.
00:35:28In middle school I think she would come home from school and just shut down and go to the basement.
00:35:34We wouldn't.
00:35:34Just quiet.
00:35:35And she didn't want to talk.
00:35:35Yeah.
00:35:36And then we went to this parent teacher and the teacher's like Emma just lights up the room.
00:35:40She talks.
00:35:41She drives the conversation.
00:35:42Well you guys already know that.
00:35:44And you're like.
00:35:45Nope.
00:35:46Yeah communication is not in my strong suit.
00:35:49I wasn't bullied or anything.
00:35:51No you had a great.
00:35:51I had a great life.
00:35:52I had a great friendship.
00:35:53It was all mental.
00:35:55Mm-hmm.
00:35:56Right.
00:35:56Like there was always something that I was like I felt different.
00:36:03Mm-hmm.
00:36:04Yeah.
00:36:05Growing up.
00:36:06For.
00:36:07Everything.
00:36:08Um.
00:36:10Also dating is like.
00:36:12Then a whole nother ball game especially in Wisconsin.
00:36:15Yeah.
00:36:15It's like.
00:36:16You still feel different.
00:36:18Like.
00:36:20You want to be chosen.
00:36:21You know.
00:36:22Yeah.
00:36:22And.
00:36:24Sometimes I wasn't.
00:36:25You know.
00:36:26So.
00:36:29We try.
00:36:31You know.
00:36:31Yeah.
00:36:32To check in.
00:36:32And make sure everything's okay.
00:36:34Yeah.
00:36:34And on the outside.
00:36:35You were okay.
00:36:36And I hope we did.
00:36:39Good by you.
00:36:40No.
00:36:40You.
00:36:41No.
00:36:41You did.
00:36:41You guys did amazing.
00:36:42And like I think for me I'm just so independent that I like.
00:36:45Mm-hmm.
00:36:46I don't ask for help.
00:36:48And then like.
00:36:49No.
00:36:49You do not.
00:36:49Like I can do it myself.
00:36:51One of the things I most admire about Emma is that she takes care of herself.
00:36:55And I know how much mothers lose by having children.
00:36:59And I don't want you to lose that.
00:37:01Yeah.
00:37:09You can't do everything that you think you're going to do with kids.
00:37:12So many people that haven't had kids yet are like it's not going to change my life.
00:37:16Oh yeah it will.
00:37:17Oh yeah.
00:37:18Yeah you're not.
00:37:18They will ruin your vacations.
00:37:20Believe me I've heard it from my own.
00:37:22I've heard it from my own parents.
00:37:23Uh huh.
00:37:24It is hard but it's worth it.
00:37:25It is.
00:37:27Not if you don't want them though.
00:37:28But I got three there.
00:37:29That's been worth it.
00:37:30I understand that.
00:37:30Yeah it's only worth it if you want it.
00:37:32No I know.
00:37:32I'm just advocating for her wishes.
00:37:34I know you're advocating for my wishes but like I have the right to change my mind too.
00:37:39Absolutely.
00:37:39I am just supporting you.
00:37:41We are making sure that if you change your mind that Mike is somebody who is going to
00:37:47be able to support you in the way that we would love you to be supported so that you
00:37:52continue to thrive.
00:37:53Yeah and that's like that's what I want.
00:37:55Yep.
00:37:56You having children would be amazing.
00:37:57I would love to be on.
00:37:58I would love that.
00:37:59Are you kidding me?
00:38:00Yeah.
00:38:00Not so bad.
00:38:01Yeah.
00:38:02She's our baby.
00:38:04I guess you know there's the adoption element to this but we've never thought of her as anything
00:38:09but a member of the our family.
00:38:14Yep.
00:38:18I know.
00:38:20We love her.
00:38:21She's got the best heart.
00:38:23Our two oldest left were about three years ahead of her and so when they left the home
00:38:29we had Emma to ourselves so she became our only child.
00:38:33That was great.
00:38:34She's the sweetest kindest person.
00:38:36My grandma just passed a few years ago and she was like 106 almost and when they were
00:38:42going through her belongings there is a stack of handwritten letters from Emma.
00:38:48I mean who does that?
00:38:50Emma does.
00:38:51I mean she's just.
00:38:53Yeah.
00:38:54So we want the best for her obviously.
00:39:00Oh my gosh.
00:39:04Hi.
00:39:09Hey how's it going?
00:39:11Nice to meet you.
00:39:12How's it going?
00:39:13Mike.
00:39:14Nice to meet you.
00:39:15Nice to meet you.
00:39:18I think Mike is a genuine guy.
00:39:20Seems like he really cares for Emma.
00:39:23What I was happy to see is they are addressing the hard questions with themselves honestly.
00:39:27If Emma chooses him to be her life partner.
00:39:30Then we choose him.
00:39:32We choose him.
00:39:32If she feels like she's ready for it then we stand beside her.
00:39:36Hi.
00:39:37I'm Mike.
00:39:37Nice to meet you.
00:39:38Nice to meet you too.
00:39:40And how old are you?
00:39:42I'm five.
00:39:42Oh nice.
00:39:44She's two.
00:39:46Yeah.
00:39:47So cute.
00:39:48Can you shake hands with Mike?
00:39:49Hi.
00:39:50Good job.
00:39:52Good job.
00:39:54Good job baby.
00:39:56That doesn't do anything for you.
00:39:58No it does.
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:18Hello.
00:40:20Today we're meeting Annie, my little sister, my older sister Katie and then my mother and
00:40:24father.
00:40:25Oh my gosh.
00:40:26Hi.
00:40:27Thank you so much.
00:40:28I'm Katie.
00:40:29Nice to meet you.
00:40:30Nice to meet you.
00:40:31Thank you guys.
00:40:31Oh my God.
00:40:33So nice to meet you.
00:40:33You guys are like all colors.
00:40:35I love it.
00:40:36Oh wow.
00:40:37What were you talking about?
00:40:38These are gorgeous.
00:40:41Oh my God.
00:40:42I'm hoping she gets to see why I'm the favorite Joan.
00:40:45Okay.
00:40:45So Connor actually like handpicked these flowers.
00:40:48Wow.
00:40:48Like one by one.
00:40:50Can I see something?
00:40:51Oh wait.
00:40:52You got me.
00:40:53Wait.
00:40:53Congrats.
00:40:54Can you guys believe it?
00:40:56No.
00:40:57I don't believe it.
00:40:58I know.
00:40:58I know.
00:40:58I mean no I don't believe it.
00:41:00I can't believe it.
00:41:01And you got dressed up too.
00:41:02Wait.
00:41:03Yeah.
00:41:03You're from Michigan.
00:41:04I know.
00:41:08We were screaming.
00:41:11I was screaming.
00:41:12We were talking about our hometowns and like you can see kind of that you start to see the
00:41:16life together.
00:41:17Mm-hmm.
00:41:17And I just all I had described as is like electric.
00:41:20My heart was like racing.
00:41:21Like I was like physically responding to like talking to him.
00:41:23You guys haven't heard that from a girl before?
00:41:25It's crazy.
00:41:26Like.
00:41:26Dang.
00:41:27Wow.
00:41:27It's so weird.
00:41:29You guys look great together.
00:41:30Do you believe it?
00:41:31I was like he's not ugly you guys.
00:41:33I'm like he's not.
00:41:36Because when you see each other the first time.
00:41:39Yeah.
00:41:39I wouldn't care what you look like.
00:41:41Well.
00:41:41But here's the thing is like you're so attracted to him for like all these different reasons
00:41:44and I'm like I don't even care what you look like.
00:41:46I don't even care if you're like medium ugly.
00:41:47Like I like you.
00:41:48Like it doesn't matter.
00:41:50She said it like every day.
00:41:51You get it.
00:41:51I'm like you're not medium ugly.
00:41:53Yeah.
00:41:53I was just obsessed with him I guess.
00:41:55Should we sit down?
00:41:56Yeah.
00:41:56Let's sit down.
00:41:57Let's do it.
00:41:58So what has it been like living together and.
00:42:01What?
00:42:02You're like smiling.
00:42:03How has it been?
00:42:05Maybe you answered.
00:42:06I think the question is directed at you.
00:42:08No honestly.
00:42:09No it's actually been great.
00:42:11Like I've never lived with anybody.
00:42:13So transparently like the day we are moving in.
00:42:16I like had a moment.
00:42:18I was like how do you load the dishwasher?
00:42:20How do you do laundry?
00:42:21She literally was waiting for me to load it.
00:42:23She's like.
00:42:23You need to see this.
00:42:24Show me the good, bad and the ugly.
00:42:25Yeah.
00:42:26How do you put like the knives in?
00:42:27Where do you do it?
00:42:28Oh I know.
00:42:28Because I haven't loaded a dishwasher in three years.
00:42:30I haven't had a dishwasher.
00:42:31You guys know that.
00:42:32So I was like I get one non-judgment.
00:42:34Cause I'm like I don't remember how to do it.
00:42:35You're fine at the dishwasher.
00:42:36He was also we cooked together too.
00:42:38And I love to cook.
00:42:39Did he make his famous plain chicken?
00:42:41Not yet.
00:42:42Not yet.
00:42:43She's not huge on pasta like I am.
00:42:46Oh it's like pasta every day.
00:42:47I'm like.
00:42:47I have tried like six new things this week though.
00:42:50Oh.
00:42:51So I heard you saw his house.
00:42:53You guys.
00:42:53Yeah how was that?
00:42:54Yeah.
00:42:55Did you go in through the door that doesn't lock?
00:42:58The honest.
00:42:58There's a keg outside.
00:42:59It's a good investment.
00:43:00I was like a keg.
00:43:01That's a problem.
00:43:02And then you guys would see my house.
00:43:04We couldn't be on more opposite ends of the spectrum.
00:43:07Like I'm insane.
00:43:07Opposite.
00:43:08Opposite is kind of nuts.
00:43:10He's a single guy.
00:43:12He's a boy.
00:43:13Like he's just a standard boy.
00:43:15So when I went in I was like this all checked.
00:43:17He's just a boy.
00:43:18He's just a dumb boy.
00:43:18I'm like you're just a boy.
00:43:20He's a Midwest blue collar guy.
00:43:21Yeah.
00:43:21So I was like.
00:43:22Blue collar.
00:43:23Excuse you?
00:43:24He's a hard working man.
00:43:26He works hard.
00:43:26He works hard.
00:43:27He works hard.
00:43:29You get out while you put it in.
00:43:30That's blue collar.
00:43:31So what was different about him after the pod set?
00:43:34You're like I didn't expect this.
00:43:36The house or what?
00:43:37Actually I think what was surprising to me like I'm not used to like I live by myself.
00:43:41I'm so independent.
00:43:42Like you know I'm having a bad day like I'm just going to go home and kind of lay on
00:43:46the couch
00:43:46or do whatever I need to do to like reset.
00:43:48But managing those emotions together was really crazy.
00:43:52And trusting him too.
00:43:53Yeah.
00:43:53Like he literally I'm like crying about like being overwhelmed and he's like is this helping
00:43:58or hurting?
00:43:58I'm like I don't even know.
00:44:00That's only a question to ask though.
00:44:02Like I love that.
00:44:03It's so surprising like when someone shows up for you like that like I'm like not used
00:44:08to it.
00:44:08Was the keg surprising?
00:44:10Yes.
00:44:10It's like what was more surprising is like how he showed up for me.
00:44:14I was like this is wild.
00:44:15Communal.
00:44:15And for you to pick up on those emotional cues for me I was like well this is crazy.
00:44:19Wow.
00:44:20And I was like if it wasn't Connor it was nobody.
00:44:22Yeah.
00:44:22Like really.
00:44:23Right?
00:44:24It was.
00:44:24And I say that wholeheartedly and my friends know they're like you wouldn't be here if
00:44:28this wasn't for real.
00:44:29It's like we can talk about anything under the sun.
00:44:31Like I mean things that as a single female that you're like my biggest insecurities are
00:44:37like am I being too much?
00:44:38Yeah.
00:44:38Am I being not enough?
00:44:39Yeah.
00:44:40Like how am I coming off?
00:44:41And like for once I felt like I could come in and just like let it rip.
00:44:45Like I was like we're talking about fertility.
00:44:47I'm 33 years old.
00:44:48Like I just went and had my fertility tested and like this stuff matters.
00:44:52And like I think like I had the realization of like it doesn't matter how quickly you
00:44:56fall in love.
00:44:56It's just a matter of like if you're gonna fall in love.
00:44:59Yeah.
00:45:00Love you honey.
00:45:00Oh my gosh.
00:45:01The circulation in these hands.
00:45:03I was about to ask how do you feel about his sweaty hands?
00:45:05You should have seen this at the review.
00:45:07No but like now they're freezing.
00:45:09Yeah.
00:45:09So when I met him you guys we're just like oh my gosh it's you.
00:45:12And his pomps he comes up and grabs my hands.
00:45:15I'm like you're dripping sweat.
00:45:17Yes.
00:45:18I was like aww.
00:45:18I appreciate it.
00:45:19Isn't this crazy?
00:45:21Ain't she nuts?
00:45:22Like.
00:45:23You guys actually though like I requested the mustache.
00:45:26Cause I was like I think I would like this.
00:45:28I love you for that.
00:45:29Really nice.
00:45:30I was like you can rock the mustache a hundred percent.
00:45:33I gotta figure out how much I owe her.
00:45:35Yeah.
00:45:36Yeah.
00:45:38No it's it's very nice to see each one when one of your kids find somebody that is their
00:45:45connection.
00:45:46They appear to be very much in love.
00:45:48I would be proud to call her daughter-in-law.
00:45:52Welcome to the family.
00:46:01How are you feeling after your mom?
00:46:04Good.
00:46:04It's good to see her.
00:46:05I definitely see where you get your travel bug from.
00:46:08We kind of had like a time to chat.
00:46:10Do you want to talk about your last relationships more?
00:46:13Like I'm not.
00:46:13Yeah.
00:46:14Trying to like attack you or anything.
00:46:15Like I just want to know like your story.
00:46:17You know what I mean.
00:46:18I mean the college was more puppy love.
00:46:19Similar schedules with student athletes.
00:46:21It kind of made sense.
00:46:22There was always like you know her accent was always in the picture as a friend type
00:46:25thing which was kind of a bigger red flag for me.
00:46:28Like why are you guys still friends?
00:46:29I don't get it.
00:46:30The Chicago relationship was more the one that you learn.
00:46:34But on and off you know a little bit of distance to start with.
00:46:37So I don't really blame her for leaving necessarily.
00:46:39Just the way that she did it was not great.
00:46:42And I don't love that you know kind of cheating going on behind the scenes to where it's not
00:46:48great.
00:46:48I don't love that.
00:46:49Yeah.
00:46:49Not a big fan of that obviously.
00:46:50But I also point the finger myself.
00:46:52I definitely had some growing to do.
00:46:53I had to learn who I was outside of soccer.
00:46:56And what I mean by that is obviously that relationship ended and I had to go find myself
00:47:00elsewhere which I did through travel.
00:47:02Okay.
00:47:03Was it just the two then?
00:47:05That are the most serious.
00:47:07There's a you know a third that was a little bit longer than the situation.
00:47:12Oh the travel nurse?
00:47:12Yes exactly.
00:47:14Was this the one that was going to go to Australia with you?
00:47:16Yes.
00:47:17Yeah.
00:47:17That's pretty serious.
00:47:18You said it wasn't that serious.
00:47:20Well I mean it was over four months.
00:47:22It was over a summer.
00:47:22So that one ended before Australia?
00:47:25Correct.
00:47:26Yeah.
00:47:27Why did it end?
00:47:28Well because I was leaving and she didn't want to travel nurse at that time.
00:47:31You guys like ended like amicably?
00:47:33Yeah.
00:47:34Yeah.
00:47:34Do you still have a relationship with any of your exes?
00:47:37I mean I'm friends with her for sure.
00:47:39I mean she's got a new boyfriend and by friends I mean it's like hey I hope you're
00:47:43doing well but it's not a hey let's get back together type thing.
00:47:46When is like the last time you guys talked or saw each other?
00:47:49A while ago.
00:47:50I mean I saw her in Austin for a week.
00:47:55When was that?
00:47:58When is it September-ish?
00:48:00Were you visiting her in Austin?
00:48:02I was visiting a number of people in Austin.
00:48:04Yeah.
00:48:04Was she one of them?
00:48:05Yes.
00:48:06Yeah.
00:48:06What was that dynamic when you visited her then?
00:48:09I mean we hooked up for sure.
00:48:11September's not that long ago.
00:48:12It's just weird because I'm not friends with my ex and I don't care to text him and hope
00:48:18he's well.
00:48:19And that's how I am with the one that you know was cheating on me as well.
00:48:23Yeah.
00:48:23But I'm happy to cut that off if it's an issue.
00:48:27No I'm just if you're like confident in that that's fine.
00:48:30So what was your dating life like in Cleveland then before?
00:48:33Because you were in Cleveland for a year and a half like.
00:48:35Yeah.
00:48:35I don't expect you to not have any relationship.
00:48:36No.
00:48:37Yeah.
00:48:37There was a situationship for sure.
00:48:39I met her through the gym.
00:48:40We were you know probably about three maybe four months.
00:48:44She ended things.
00:48:45I don't think she understood my lifestyle and my nomadic dynamic that I've been living
00:48:49for the past three or four years.
00:48:51She ended things and then I think a month later roughly I kind of got the LinkedIn message
00:48:58to kind of come onto this show.
00:49:00And at that point I shut things down.
00:49:04When was that?
00:49:05October.
00:49:06I think.
00:49:07I'd have to get a look at that but I believe it was early October.
00:49:11And then I.
00:49:12So.
00:49:12Go ahead.
00:49:13You said you got the LinkedIn message about a month after in October.
00:49:16Yeah.
00:49:17Which would mean that you were seeing this girl in September.
00:49:22Which is when you went to Austin.
00:49:27No.
00:49:28So this girl in Austin was right after this girl in Cleveland.
00:49:36Okay.
00:49:37But there was some kind of relationship with the Austin girl because you don't just like.
00:49:40Yeah.
00:49:41Go to Austin and see a girl.
00:49:43Yeah.
00:49:44Two days after the girl ended things that I was seeing in Cleveland.
00:49:48I reached out to my ex.
00:49:50It was my ego basically saying okay you want to end things that's fine.
00:49:54I can go get whatever I want right afterwards.
00:49:56I'm not the greatest.
00:49:57Because I didn't like being broken up with at that time.
00:50:00And then I came back to Cleveland afterwards and it was how it worked.
00:50:03That doesn't make me look great but it's honest.
00:50:05Yeah.
00:50:06Okay.
00:50:08Okay.
00:50:08I was just making sure.
00:50:10Yeah.
00:50:11What.
00:50:12I feel like something about that makes you uncomfortable.
00:50:14No.
00:50:14Like I said I was just.
00:50:15I wanted to make sure like we've talked about cheating is like a non-negotiable.
00:50:19So like when you set the timeline and it was like September.
00:50:22I was like.
00:50:23Okay.
00:50:23It's not.
00:50:24There was no overlap.
00:50:25And even if there was we weren't together exclusively because I asked the question.
00:50:29She didn't want that.
00:50:29But there was no overlap.
00:50:31Okay.
00:50:33Okay.
00:50:34When I stumble it's I'm trying to remember the exact date of two years ago or a year ago.
00:50:38I'm not trying to follow you.
00:50:39I'm not trying to like catch you.
00:50:41I know you're not.
00:50:41I know you're not.
00:50:42But I wanted to make like very clear there was absolutely no overlap.
00:50:46You got it.
00:50:46It's also not cheating in my eyes.
00:50:48No.
00:50:48I wouldn't say that either.
00:50:50Okay.
00:50:50You cope how you cope.
00:50:52I think the biggest thing for me was like I was in a relationship just about a year ago
00:50:57and I thought that man was going to be like the father of my children and like I thought
00:51:00I was going to have babies with him.
00:51:01Just please be honest with me.
00:51:03Yeah.
00:51:04And like please don't cheat.
00:51:06That's not happening.
00:51:07And I apologize like that that's happened to you before.
00:51:09Not really my place to say sorry but I don't love that that's happened for you.
00:51:13Yeah.
00:51:18Yeah.
00:51:19I've got you.
00:51:22Yeah.
00:51:32I don't know.
00:51:55A few more of these, I'm losing a finger.
00:51:59Vic's here.
00:52:00Let's go!
00:52:18Oh, you smell so good.
00:52:22Oh, my God.
00:52:25Oh, my God.
00:52:26Oh, my God.
00:52:30I wanted to see you guys.
00:52:32Oh, my God.
00:52:34Yeah, I'm like, I had to celebrate with my girls.
00:52:37Are you kidding me?
00:52:38Oh, my God.
00:52:39Oh, I love you.
00:52:40I love you.
00:52:41Oh, my God.
00:52:41I love you guys.
00:52:42Wow.
00:52:42You're like, how fucking fun.
00:52:46Oh, my God.
00:52:50Oh, my God.
00:52:56Oh, my God.
00:52:57Oh, my God.
00:52:59Oh, my God.
00:53:07Oh, my God.
00:53:10I love you guys.
00:53:11We're unbiased topper her.
00:53:12Okay.
00:53:12We aren't doing the vest.
00:53:13It's all about this.
00:53:13I'm pretty fucking sorry.
00:53:13I should be mum Girat.
00:53:14I've made my purse for Sarah!
00:53:16I have to go.
00:53:19A van out and I love it.
00:53:20If you're fucking, you have to live there.
00:53:22I don't see her.
00:53:23Oh, my God.
00:53:24Iera.
00:53:29This is not much Christmas.
00:53:35Oh, my God.
00:53:36Oh, my God.
00:53:36I feel really doing this pretty long.
00:53:38Most of the time, Mr.
00:53:38He DMed me at like 11.30 and was like, oh yeah.
00:53:42And then I was like, what the fuck happened last night?
00:53:44And he was like, call me.
00:53:45And I'm like, no.
00:53:47I literally was like, Connor, abort.
00:53:48I was like, look at this.
00:53:50Did Connor say anything to him?
00:53:51I said, don't make a big deal out of nothing.
00:53:53Like, who knows?
00:53:53This man is like spiraling.
00:53:54I was like, obviously, I'm not engaging with it.
00:53:57It's not a big deal.
00:53:58Guys, he bought followers.
00:54:01No, yeah.
00:54:02We were talking.
00:54:03No, that's why I was like, he can't afford me.
00:54:04Wait, he bought followers?
00:54:05He bought followers.
00:54:05I want to unfollow.
00:54:06He can't follow.
00:54:07He can't afford me.
00:54:08All of his followers, if you look,
00:54:09are like all random people that don't know followers.
00:54:13Two posts.
00:54:14And they're like all from like Mexico.
00:54:17OK, I don't understand that.
00:54:18He was my number two.
00:54:19He is a different person.
00:54:21Like, first night single goes to a strip club.
00:54:23I'm like, the way I gasped, I was like, no.
00:54:27The strip club picture.
00:54:29The strip and the pole in the background.
00:54:31And the stripper on his left.
00:54:33Like, it was like one extreme to the next.
00:54:35Like, not even just like a fucking gross ass bitch.
00:54:38It's exactly it.
00:54:40I'm like, this is not something's off.
00:54:41Something doesn't match up.
00:54:42Narcissistic fuck.
00:54:43He literally told Connor he goes for 21 to 25 year olds.
00:54:47I was like, so she's 38.
00:54:49Like, what?
00:54:51This is why I told you guys fuck those pussy ass bitches.
00:54:53And he is one of them.
00:54:54We're too fucking short to be this cocky.
00:54:58Too short to ride this ride.
00:55:00Never.
00:55:00That was true.
00:55:01I want to see your heart shatter on the floor.
00:55:06I want to watch you hurt like never before.
00:55:14Oh, shit.
00:55:16Oh, god.
00:55:16Oh, my god.
00:55:19What's up?
00:55:20Big dog.
00:55:21What's up, man?
00:55:21How are you?
00:55:22Hey, buddy.
00:55:22Good to see you.
00:55:23Chris and Jess is weird.
00:55:25They seem like such a good couple.
00:55:27But I don't think about it too much.
00:55:29Just because me and Brie, at the end of the day,
00:55:31is what I came here for.
00:55:32So.
00:55:32I'm like, hi.
00:55:33How are you?
00:55:34Good to see you.
00:55:36Welcome back to the crazy.
00:55:38We're here.
00:55:39I don't know.
00:55:40Dudes are fucking idiots, at the end of the day.
00:55:42Amber.
00:55:42What's up?
00:55:43How are you?
00:55:44I got it.
00:55:53You're welcome.
00:55:57I'm so excited.
00:55:58How are you?
00:56:04How are you?
00:56:13OK.
00:56:13Okay, you look amazing.
00:56:16God, your body is so perfect.
00:56:18I'm not even kidding.
00:56:19Do you work out?
00:56:21Are you not working out?
00:56:22Do you actually have fucking time?
00:56:24Do you actually know?
00:56:25Do you have it?
00:56:25I'm not going to work out anymore.
00:56:29I don't give a flying fuck.
00:56:42Wait, who's here?
00:56:43Who just showed up?
00:56:45I don't know.
00:56:46Mary Yaga?
00:56:47My God!
00:56:49I think?
00:56:50Yeah.
00:56:51Is that for you?
00:56:52Yeah.
00:56:53Oh, God.
00:56:54Is it?
00:56:57How do you know Pranaka?
00:56:59Uh, Pranaka was in a friend group of mine in Chicago.
00:57:01She's been in my friend group for a little while.
00:57:03Hello.
00:57:04What's up?
00:57:05Hi.
00:57:05How are you?
00:57:06Good, how are you doing?
00:57:07Hi, Priyanka.
00:57:09She was in the pods.
00:57:10But I wanted Priyanka to have her entire experience untarnished.
00:57:14And if I'm going to come out and say, hey, we knew each other,
00:57:17there's a chance for that not to happen.
00:57:19Hi.
00:57:20She's amazing.
00:57:20What are we doing without each other?
00:57:21What are we doing?
00:57:22Hi.
00:57:23Hello.
00:57:24It's the whole damn time.
00:57:26You look great.
00:57:27You look great.
00:57:28Thanks.
00:57:29It's so cool.
00:57:30Are you real?
00:57:31I know simulations.
00:57:33I do.
00:57:36I like this, actually, a lot.
00:57:37Oh, thanks, man.
00:57:38It's fucking fresh.
00:57:39Yeah.
00:57:39It's a nice sweater.
00:57:40Be careful how you touch it.
00:57:41It's expensive.
00:57:43I'm just kidding.
00:57:44Fucking spit on it, shit.
00:57:45It's expensive.
00:57:46He's a funny guy.
00:57:47You think you're a funny guy, don't you?
00:57:58Mexico's great.
00:57:59Mexico's incredible.
00:58:00So in love.
00:58:01Everything's amazing.
00:58:02No, we literally thought they were, like, already married.
00:58:04Okay.
00:58:04Because that's what I thought.
00:58:05So it's amazing whatever we get back.
00:58:07He was like, how would you rate our physical connection on a scale of one to ten?
00:58:12This is where I'm about to kick him in the teeth.
00:58:14And I go, what?
00:58:16What do you mean?
00:58:17And he's like, well, like, I'm just, I'm used to being with somebody who works out every
00:58:21day.
00:58:22Are you fucking kidding me?
00:58:23This is where I kick him in the teeth.
00:58:26I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm confused.
00:58:28What he said is gross.
00:58:30Okay.
00:58:31But then he also said, before we stopped talking, he was like, I also, like, keep wondering,
00:58:35like, what if I had chose my number, too?
00:58:38What was his number?
00:58:39Greasy.
00:58:40Greasy.
00:58:41Oh.
00:58:41So then that night, he started an Instagram out of nowhere.
00:58:45And then he posts a story on Instagram of him at a strip club with his friends with
00:58:49a stripper on his left.
00:58:51She's like, no.
00:58:51The bar is on the ground.
00:58:55And like, obviously, Christine, like, I don't follow him.
00:58:58I don't want anything to do with it.
00:59:00But everybody screenshotted it and sent it to me.
00:59:02I know that that is not okay for me.
00:59:04And I don't have anything to do with him.
00:59:07And he's also since split into another girl's team.
00:59:11He told me about it right away.
00:59:13I'm just an honest person.
00:59:14I know you are.
00:59:15I know you are.
00:59:15People fucking don't like it.
00:59:17All right.
00:59:18I'll be right back.
00:59:18I gotta pee.
00:59:20You know that he has issues, right?
00:59:23You know this is nothing about you.
00:59:25I was 110% in.
00:59:27I was 110% in love.
00:59:29Three years ago, it would have, like, ended me.
00:59:34Dude, Brie is so hot.
00:59:38I saw Brie and I was like, yeah, I'm into her.
00:59:42And I want to talk to her.
00:59:44And Connor.
00:59:45I don't care.
00:59:46What's he doing?
00:59:48Beat me up?
00:59:49Yeah.
00:59:49Yeah, right.
01:00:04Wait, Amber, I love this guy so much.
01:00:07I love Chris.
01:00:07I love Chris.
01:00:08I love this dude so much.
01:00:09I know him.
01:00:10He's such a good dude.
01:00:11Everyone's like, Amber is like, they're like, yo, she's crazy.
01:00:15She's like, too much for us.
01:00:16But I'm like, she's perfect for this dude.
01:00:18You and fucking Amber are like, goddamn, like, the only couple that's the only thing to get married.
01:00:23I swear to God, I said that to his face.
01:00:26He's good for me.
01:00:27No, I swear to God.
01:00:30I swear.
01:00:30He's so tamed.
01:00:32Yes.
01:00:32He does.
01:00:33He's so crazy, too.
01:00:36Amber, in a good way.
01:00:37I know you probably fucking date me.
01:00:40A little bit, but.
01:00:41No, stop.
01:00:42Listen, I just feel like you don't, like, I don't know, know me, like, as a person person.
01:00:48Like, I promise you, like, I'm not, like, a crazy asshole.
01:00:51I swear to God.
01:00:53Chris doesn't give a shit about anything but himself, so I don't give a shit about him.
01:00:56You think you're gonna get another hot doctor?
01:00:59I'm just saying.
01:01:00I'm just saying.
01:01:01Okay.
01:01:07She's dead.
01:01:08Are you okay?
01:01:09No, I'm fine.
01:01:10Listen, I don't care if she's a neurosurgeon or if she's a goddamn hundred million dollar
01:01:14trust fund.
01:01:15If I'm gonna get married to someone for the rest of my life, I need to be like...
01:01:23You don't need a reason.
01:01:24No, no.
01:01:25I'm not gonna say it.
01:01:26I don't give a fucking fuck.
01:01:28I've heard him say it.
01:01:29I don't give a flying fuck four times already.
01:01:32You couldn't pay me to be in that conversation.
01:01:35The sex and, like, everything, like, I could see it, like, growing.
01:01:40Yeah.
01:01:40And, like, I even said it and it's gonna be on camera.
01:01:45Like, I don't give a flying fuck.
01:01:45Like, I need someone, like, that does, like, Pilates or, like...
01:01:50Does she hide that from you in the pods?
01:01:52No, but she said she danced for 15 years and I was like, okay, well, that may be a thing.
01:01:56But, like, I don't care.
01:01:57I've been with girls who don't work out, but they're also, like, 5'11", and they're taller than me.
01:02:01I don't give a flying fuck.
01:02:02And they're, like, ballet dancers and shit.
01:02:04I mean, she's not, like, morbidly obese or anything.
01:02:06She's not.
01:02:07She's stunning.
01:02:07She's beautiful.
01:02:08She's great.
01:02:09She's hot.
01:02:09Yeah, she's hot.
01:02:10Yeah, I agree.
01:02:11And I'm like, Jess, you're beautiful.
01:02:12You just want someone that works out.
01:02:13You want someone who goes to the gym with you.
01:02:14You want someone who's, like, doing those things, like, you have the partner things together.
01:02:17It's way different.
01:02:18It's way different.
01:02:20It's more...
01:02:20And, like, the discipline and, like, the...
01:02:22I need to redo a sexual attraction when we're naked together.
01:02:25And it's, like, I feel like there's a thing, like, when you're, like, having sex with someone, it's, like, pheromones.
01:02:29And, like, it's, like, you're with together and, like, you love it with each other.
01:02:33And, like, it just...
01:02:34It wasn't there.
01:02:35For me, I tried it multiple times.
01:02:36It just wasn't there.
01:02:37And I'm like, I don't know if we can do this for the rest of my life.
01:02:40And I was like, I'm gonna bring this up.
01:02:41Like, this is a big thing.
01:02:42And I was like, listen, we have such a deep emotional connection.
01:02:45I could not do that for the rest of my life.
01:02:47You guys can say whatever you want.
01:02:49I don't know.
01:02:49But for...
01:02:50I'm not trying to talk to them.
01:02:51I'm not trying to talk to them.
01:02:55And listen, listen.
01:02:56I'm not trying to talk to them.
01:02:57No, no, no, Ashley.
01:02:58Ashley and Priya.
01:02:58Ashley and Priya, listen to me.
01:02:59When I'm 90, I don't give a flying fuck.
01:03:01But guess what, girls?
01:03:02Like, I am fucking 30.
01:03:03Girls.
01:03:04I wanna fuck when I'm fucking...
01:03:05Like, yes.
01:03:07I wanna, like, do those things for at least 40 more years.
01:03:10And I wanna enjoy it.
01:03:11And, like, if I...
01:03:12It's not there.
01:03:13It's not...
01:03:13If I'm not a psychojective to you, like, I'm not gonna force it or...
01:03:16But I told her, I said, maybe this can grow.
01:03:18Maybe it can.
01:03:19And I asked her and she said, adios.
01:03:22And I said, adios.
01:03:23I was not trying to be mean.
01:03:24I swear to God, I was not trying to be mean.
01:03:26If I wanna marry someone, like, I wanna make sure, like...
01:03:29Trust me.
01:03:29It doesn't need to be 100%.
01:03:30But, like, it needs to be something enjoyable.
01:03:32But it was the worst I've ever had in my life.
01:03:34You're screaming.
01:03:34I am...
01:03:35Yeah, why are you getting loud?
01:03:35Your voice is echoing.
01:03:36I'm sorry, sorry.
01:03:38I'm loud, and I'm like, wait.
01:03:39We should all, like, do something together.
01:03:41Like, just me and then...
01:03:43I will lie.
01:03:43Do you wanna, like, chat with Alex a little bit?
01:03:46Sure.
01:03:48What do you mean?
01:03:48Me?
01:03:49Okay, I'm ready.
01:03:49Sorry.
01:03:49It's okay.
01:03:49It's okay.
01:03:51Seriously?
01:03:52I'm on nobody's side with anything.
01:03:55I know you're not.
01:03:55Like, we're all navigating it.
01:03:56I love that.
01:03:56Like, Connor and I have kind of, like, stayed in our lane of just doing our thing, because
01:04:00it's, like, hard when you open it up to everybody and hear everyone's stories, because it's
01:04:03like, I hear Jess, I hear you, but, like, I get it.
01:04:06Like, we're making a big fucking decision.
01:04:08I just laugh so loud, because when you say, like, me and Connor, I just kind of, like...
01:04:12What?
01:04:13Why is it funny?
01:04:18You want me to let it rip?
01:04:20I like Connor, but he's very submissive.
01:04:26I could have turned up the notch with you, and Connor wouldn't be in existence.
01:04:33Oh, like in the pods?
01:04:34Yeah.
01:04:38I see it in the real world, and I'm like, fuck.
01:04:40I fucked up.
01:04:45Connor loves me to the nth degree.
01:04:46He's a great guy.
01:04:47He'll love me from the...
01:04:48He will say yes at the altar, and he will say, I will love you forever, and I'll do the
01:04:53dishes, and I'll clean the house.
01:04:54Yeah.
01:04:55And you're like, well, I need someone who's going to do a lot more.
01:04:59I'm bringing him to my hometown this weekend, and my dad and my family are all like,
01:05:04he's gonna meet your dad.
01:05:05Finally.
01:05:06Your dad's a legit man who's been successful in life.
01:05:09He needs somebody who you're gonna introduce him to, to be like, hey, this is my Charles
01:05:13Schwab account.
01:05:14Yeah.
01:05:14This is what I'm doing.
01:05:15This is what's going on in life.
01:05:16This is where my rejections are in one to three years.
01:05:19That's what you need.
01:05:20Come on.
01:05:24We're going to Grand Rapids this weekend.
01:05:25I heard.
01:05:26Do you feel, like, ready, confident?
01:05:29I think we'll get along.
01:05:30I mean, I'm just literally a normal blue-collar dude.
01:05:32Like, I work for a dumpster rental company.
01:05:34Like, if Brie has confidence in somebody, like, that's the utmost confidence, because
01:05:38she's not gonna fuck around with some randos.
01:05:40No.
01:05:41And, like, I talked to, like, one of her friends, and it's like, I don't think she's looking
01:05:44for someone to, like, outwork or outmotivate or out, like, out for her.
01:05:48I think Brie and I are very similar, and the way you're showing up for her is exactly
01:05:53what she needs.
01:05:54Yeah.
01:05:57Is it the best you've ever had?
01:05:59What, sex?
01:06:01No, but it's good.
01:06:02Okay.
01:06:04So you're looking for the best you've ever had?
01:06:06I like to give the best they've ever had.
01:06:11Yeah.
01:06:12So, like, that's important to me.
01:06:13Like, people are like, oh, it's 5%.
01:06:15No, but that's why I was like, I get it.
01:06:16Like, for me, it's important.
01:06:17You guys all have your own reasons.
01:06:18For me, it's important.
01:06:19Great.
01:06:19Sometimes you get the ick.
01:06:20Like, I get it.
01:06:21It's not the ick.
01:06:22It's hard.
01:06:23It's like, we're...
01:06:25I'll be honest with you.
01:06:27I just feel like you guys aren't going to get married.
01:06:29And I feel like you need someone who's going to be more dominant in your life and to help
01:06:33you, like, guide you and, like, show you places you've never been before.
01:06:37He's a very submissive guy.
01:06:39I'm not a submissive guy.
01:06:40I know.
01:06:40I'm not like that.
01:06:41Like, I would never be submissive in my life.
01:06:43I know.
01:06:43I want to do that with you.
01:06:45Stop.
01:06:46I swear to God.
01:06:47I even said to Jess, I was like, Brie is, like, a girl, like, I would go for in my
01:06:51normal world.
01:06:52And I was like, she's hot.
01:06:55The way she looks, the things she does.
01:06:57I'm just saying.
01:07:00I feel a regret because I saw you and I was like, that is the girl, like, I would literally
01:07:11propose to.
01:07:23I know I've never felt like this in my life.
01:07:26I love you deeply, baby.
01:07:27Deeply.
01:07:30I 100% think you are the right part.
01:07:33I love her authenticity.
01:07:34You excited for the wedding?
01:07:35Mm-hmm.
01:07:36Yeah.
01:07:36Excited to see you in a tux.
01:07:38I know what it's like to feel loved now.
01:07:42You love me.
01:07:43I feel like I even fall in love with you, like, more and more each day.
01:07:46It feels like a forever thing.
01:07:47I want to do life with you and experience so much with you at the same time if you're
01:07:51not sure about me.
01:07:53Insecurity's coming out a little bit.
01:07:55I guess that's my fear with you.
01:07:57I definitely am stronger feelings than you, and that scares me.
01:08:01Please leave me alone.
01:08:03It just feels like you have a backup plan.
01:08:06I don't know.
01:08:07She's the inverse of what I like.
01:08:08I want that brunette brown-eyed girl.
01:08:11You've been in contact with her for years.
01:08:13Right now, I feel attacked.
01:08:15I've never dated a woman with a child before.
01:08:18I tried to think this whole thing through, like, fully before making a lifelong commitment.
01:08:22I am super in love with you.
01:08:24I trust you, like, with all my heart that you were, like, communicating everything to
01:08:27me.
01:08:28I love him so much.
01:08:30But, like, he really wants kids the next three to five years, and I'm like, I don't
01:08:33want kids until, like, I personally want them.
01:08:35It's hard.
01:08:36I never want to sway her opinion, and she needs to make this decision first.
01:08:40Can I ask you a crazy question?
01:08:42Can you be honest with your wedding ring on?
01:08:44What?
01:08:44Yeah.
01:08:45I'm like, what?
01:08:45If you had to choose, like, one person.
01:08:49For Mr. Busco.
01:08:50Babies.
01:08:51Yeah.
01:08:53You knew what you were doing.
01:08:54I think you were ready for marriage.
01:08:57I'm just feeling really blessed and really thankful.
01:09:00Your whole future right in front of you.
01:09:02I'm so happy.
01:09:03Aw, Emma.
01:09:05Now is the time to decide if love is blind.
01:09:09This is the biggest moment of my life.
01:09:12We can't keep holding on.
01:09:16Don't tell me everything's all right.
01:09:21You say we gotta be strong, but I can't stay here one more night.
01:09:30Get out.
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