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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 09: I’m Just Being Honest
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00:00:14I just don't know if it's like there for me like I feel like sex is a big thing mm
00:00:21-hmm I
00:00:22felt like we could get over but I could get past that you know she's such a great person I
00:00:27care
00:00:28about her and I know how you can feel about me and I was like well I feel like we
00:00:34could get past that
00:00:35like part maybe some way and now I'm like I don't want to like fake something but like the more
00:00:46like
00:00:46we do that it's like I never not talk to this person
00:00:57but like over the past two days I was thinking about it about like what it would be like if
00:01:03I was with that person too just thinking about it what person the number two person I had
00:01:10just thinking about it not about it I'm just being honest like my thoughts I was like
00:01:14what would that look like and it probably I don't know maybe it'd be up in flames you know what
00:01:19I mean
00:01:20mm-hmm that person I'm just saying like these are just thoughts in my head yeah I mean all of
00:01:31these things are really hard to hear okay I figured they would be I just feel like the past two
00:01:38days
00:01:38I've had enough time to like think about like
00:01:46fucking long term five ten yeah fifteen twenty years and it's like I feel like it's hard but
00:01:53like that doesn't mean like how I felt like that was all like true like everything like how I felt
00:01:59about you it's very true I just I don't want to be like sad about it like I want to
00:02:16like continue
00:02:16like trying like figuring this out because I feel like we have fun together
00:02:26right
00:02:29I don't know how I'm supposed to be like fun now oh wow okay I feel really stupid why
00:02:41why honestly the fact that
00:02:47me not working out every day is even a sentence that came up in this conversation is blowing my mind
00:02:52oh my gosh it's not even what I meant by that well it's what you said
00:02:57it's I mean I'm just trying to like I'm not saying like people I would date before like that's
00:03:01the things they would do and like that's the things like I would well I just go after work at
00:03:06the hospital every day sorry I understand I was very upfront about that from beginning this there
00:03:11was no like illusion that I was gonna be going to Pilates every day I understand and it makes me
00:03:17feel
00:03:17like shit too like not good enough in a way that like I can't control feel very like inadequate
00:03:33three days ago if you had told me like that I would question if you I would be like you're
00:03:37fucking insane
00:03:38like this man has treated me better than anyone ever has and like he's told me that he's in love
00:03:44with me like he's told me that he wants a future with me and so today it's really fucked with
00:03:48my head
00:03:48to go from like thinking that you think I'm like the best fucking thing in the world to being like
00:03:53well
00:04:00if my body isn't good enough for you like I'm never gonna be like oh please still love me
00:04:05that's not what I'm here for now I'm standing here alone
00:04:14everything I knew has turned to stone
00:04:20I feel like I just need to go home
00:04:36love was absolutely blind for me I was madly in love with Chris like I genuinely believed that
00:04:42this was the person I was gonna spend the rest of my life with with him doing this like complete
00:04:47180
00:04:47and feeling like a different person I could never look at him the same I'm extremely disappointed I'm
00:04:54extremely hurt but I know I'll be okay I've always been okay I will take care of myself I have
00:05:01a
00:05:01wonderful life and I don't want to be with somebody unless they're just gonna make it better
00:05:26I believe love is blind I mean I fell in love with someone without seeing them and
00:05:29literally wanted to spend the rest of my life with them but when two people want to fornicate
00:05:33or have sex it might not be a big deal to a lot of people it might people say it's
00:05:375% 10%
00:05:38relationship like to me like I get it when you're 90 years old everyone's not gonna look good I get
00:05:43it but I'm not 90 I'm disappointed how it turned out and like she said she didn't work out I
00:05:50get it
00:05:50it's fine but Brie was my number two and it's like you know maybe that's someone like I would be
00:05:58more attracted to and I thought maybe I could say some of those things without feeling like I was
00:06:04being the bad person there and I was wrong if she doesn't like the way I feel and she feels
00:06:10like
00:06:10she can't be with me because the way I feel then it's what it is
00:06:30your sweatshirt and sweatpants are on the bed
00:06:31I saw that thank you how good does that feel to have all the laundry done
00:06:35I'm not gonna say it out loud but doing like these chores to make sure it looks nice is
00:06:42oh he just is appreciating the finer things in life like a clean house
00:06:49and it smells good
00:06:50I do I told I said positive
00:06:55I'm saying you are
00:06:57you've been away from me all day oh no what are you gonna do you what are you gonna do
00:07:05when I go
00:07:05back tomorrow cry well maybe just make a bunch of money and I can just stay at home you're gonna
00:07:13stay here forever I'll be I don't think I'll have to go to the office before the
00:07:21wedding but probably wait you have to go in the office sometimes once a month
00:07:26we have once a month meetings and it's just all the higher-ups so
00:07:34I swear to God you are a treat
00:07:39I get no one I need to okay it's called efficiency
00:07:42and delegation true just like how we delegating our chores around here
00:07:49I gotta I gotta we're managing a household do you realize that and tonight we're gonna make dinner
00:07:54you're our first dinner here in the apartment
00:07:58there's that sizzle oh yeah baby just please be careful
00:08:02I will
00:08:09okay let's just maybe choose a different tool
00:08:11this is the butter it is hard as a rock okay yeah it probably needs to be warmed up
00:08:20Connor it's in plastic for like 20 seconds it's gonna be fine
00:08:26I'm gonna get cancer living with you
00:08:29maybe I'm just kind of an idiot sometimes
00:08:33I secretly think that you're like the house dad of like a fraternity
00:08:37I'm not I wasn't even in a fraternity
00:08:40well you should have been
00:08:42why be in one when you can just do it in your 30s
00:08:44you're like
00:08:46sassy
00:08:46yeah
00:08:47yeah
00:08:47sometimes a little mean
00:08:48okay
00:08:50I need some eye
00:08:57look at what you're capable of
00:08:59a clean place
00:09:01look at him he's cooking he's doing it
00:09:06come on now I need to be nicer you're right that's good feedback
00:09:10but I might as well I just got a text from Joss
00:09:14I got a text from Chris
00:09:21what
00:09:23what did he say say he's going home
00:09:29let me just check in
00:09:31I'm sure when Chris is done with him I'm on a chat so
00:09:38wow
00:09:38we are good good friends to our friends
00:09:47my mind souped up car down mountain
00:09:51can't stop racing
00:09:53you show me up
00:09:54I'm going to show you up
00:09:55I'll see about that
00:09:57you're too strong
00:10:01oh no
00:10:02wait did we put a wager on this
00:10:04oh that's the one
00:10:05you let me win one
00:10:07I'm a sore loser
00:10:11perfect
00:10:12you're being nice to me now
00:10:13yeah I gotta give you one hole
00:10:15I kind of want all of them but
00:10:16I really set myself up for that one
00:10:18you did you did
00:10:20good shot
00:10:21she's back
00:10:22she never left
00:10:24look at you
00:10:24it's not easy having our first fight but we come back and we're our old selves
00:10:30got it
00:10:31look at you impressing me
00:10:32you like me
00:10:33I do
00:10:33he likes me people
00:10:34I do I do I do
00:10:35I do
00:10:36Lucas
00:10:37give me that
00:10:38give me that
00:10:38with my sexual frustrations
00:10:40after tonight
00:10:42there is a great chance that need will be met
00:10:46it may have already been met
00:10:49I have to get this in the hole
00:10:50that's the one
00:10:51please don't tell my parents
00:10:54that's the speed
00:10:54nice work
00:11:02where are we at babe
00:11:03that's the building that I work in
00:11:05so I could like come here and have one with you
00:11:07be cool yeah
00:11:08okay
00:11:08sit out here
00:11:11it's really neat like getting to see Fig in this real life situation
00:11:16Dr. St. John
00:11:18so you clip these on
00:11:20they can hear the audio
00:11:21teach them
00:11:22they raise hands
00:11:23I'm gonna come sit up in one of these corners one day
00:11:27also I want to show him all the hearts
00:11:30you know of my life because it got me to where I am now
00:11:34so we're on our way to where
00:11:36you don't have to look because I know you're driving
00:11:39Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:41Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:42yes
00:11:43the hometown
00:11:44hometown
00:11:46you want to show them the scenery of where we're headed
00:11:48yeah let me show you where we at
00:11:50because if I go missing
00:11:53country just let me know
00:11:54it's a big deal you know I don't I don't bring anyone to my hometown to see where I grew
00:11:59up
00:12:00I'm all for it
00:12:01horse and bucky time
00:12:03you know I used to be really insecure and embarrassed about where I came from
00:12:07this is where the cow died in the pernative
00:12:09in the air
00:12:10like
00:12:12there's a part of me that was like
00:12:15am I good enough for him
00:12:16why would he choose me
00:12:18we're in your hometown
00:12:20you want to call with that
00:12:23didn't ask for much
00:12:26what is one of the best things about growing up out here
00:12:32something that helped make you who you are today
00:12:37just playing outside and getting to be a kid
00:12:41we had to make our own fun and explore and learn and grow and do things a lot differently than
00:12:47you do in the city
00:12:47yeah
00:12:48yeah
00:12:49past the spot I used to play
00:12:51round the corner where I got my first kiss
00:12:56like people would sneak beer and we'd sit in the back of cars and trucks and hang out in the
00:13:01bowling alley parking lot
00:13:02we should go bow
00:13:03yeah
00:13:04are you when you're going to bowl
00:13:05all right
00:13:07so that's when you're born
00:13:10there you go big guy
00:13:15first interaction with the horde
00:13:17all right
00:13:18I know right
00:13:19uh
00:13:20beautiful
00:13:21seeing him
00:13:23really taking the experience
00:13:25he just he feels like home and he has from day one and I know that I'm going to be
00:13:29so comfortable and so happy with him
00:13:31you've been wearing flannel today
00:13:32yeah I can see
00:13:34my love is coming home
00:13:38my love is coming home
00:13:43my love is coming home
00:13:46hey mom
00:13:47good to see ya
00:13:48this is Amber
00:13:49you too Amber
00:13:49nice to meet you
00:13:50so nice to meet you
00:13:51we brought you a little gift
00:13:53oh my goodness
00:13:54you guys are so nice
00:13:55oh of course you brought a gift
00:13:57we heard you like plants
00:13:58I love plants
00:13:59I love that
00:14:01you look so pretty
00:14:02thank you
00:14:03I love your outfit
00:14:04thank you
00:14:05I see your ring
00:14:07oh my gosh that's beautiful
00:14:09thank you
00:14:10I know he did a good job
00:14:11so pretty
00:14:13George's always been the little baby brother
00:14:15they were all his mother hands
00:14:17yes
00:14:17I used to have to babysit you and you were so mean you'd pull my hair
00:14:21ah
00:14:22oh my gosh
00:14:23you're so mean to me
00:14:24sorry
00:14:27how old is your daughter
00:14:28seven
00:14:29my I have a son
00:14:30will be seven in April
00:14:31so
00:14:31that's what he was saying
00:14:32we both have boys
00:14:33so they
00:14:35Jordan would call him fun uncle
00:14:37yeah
00:14:38they like to beat up on him
00:14:40and climb on him
00:14:41yeah
00:14:41oh yeah
00:14:43have you got to meet her yet
00:14:44Emma
00:14:44no
00:14:45I just met um
00:14:46Matt who's the father of Emma
00:14:49good
00:14:49doing well
00:14:51awesome
00:14:51do you think you guys would ever have kids together
00:14:55we've talked about it
00:14:56we don't have kids
00:14:58I think you'd be like an amazing dad
00:14:59you would
00:15:01I've never met anybody that I've thought about having kids with
00:15:03besides her
00:15:05besides her
00:15:05aw
00:15:07how do you feel about meeting my mom?
00:15:10I'm excited now
00:15:10yeah
00:15:11I'm a little nervous
00:15:12like when she doesn't like me
00:15:1429
00:15:15did you know he had a CPAP machine before you went to Cabo hopefully?
00:15:19yeah
00:15:20he's like busted out
00:15:21you look over and he's like
00:15:23Darth Vader
00:15:25she sees that every morning
00:15:27it was the highlight of the day
00:15:29oh my god
00:15:31feels like he's shaving his back
00:15:32what?
00:15:34that is true love
00:15:35there you go
00:15:35I think the hairy hairy guy
00:15:37you gotta do
00:15:39you have to shave his butt too?
00:15:41yeah
00:15:41laughs
00:15:45laughs
00:15:47laughs
00:15:48laughs
00:15:48laughs
00:15:50laughs
00:15:51I want you there
00:15:53there
00:15:54there by my side
00:15:55I want you here
00:15:59here
00:15:59here
00:16:00every night
00:16:03mm
00:16:05Mmm.
00:16:07Nasty?
00:16:08No.
00:16:08Why would I go, mmm, because it's gross.
00:16:13Hopefully it's good.
00:16:14Only tried the broccoli.
00:16:18Thank you for cooking.
00:16:20You're welcome.
00:16:22The chicken's good.
00:16:23Is it?
00:16:24Mm-hmm.
00:16:25I did it medium rare tonight.
00:16:30For a chicken, isn't it?
00:16:32You want to kill us?
00:16:34We won't make it to a wedding.
00:16:36Or we'll be deathly ill.
00:16:38I need to look slim in my suit.
00:16:40So we should get a big maculine?
00:16:42No, I'm just kidding.
00:16:43Your eyes.
00:16:45You haven't looked at me like that since the reveal.
00:16:49Like, oh my god.
00:16:50What am I doing?
00:16:52Doesn't that feel so long ago?
00:16:53Yeah.
00:16:55Sight unseen.
00:16:57You helped me to cover my face so you don't have to look at me?
00:16:59We can act like we're in the pods.
00:17:01Stop.
00:17:04Oh my gosh.
00:17:07This is uncomfortable for me.
00:17:10But I don't feel as secure as I did in the pods with you.
00:17:19I don't like that you don't ever really tell me that I'm pretty, because I don't know if
00:17:22you're attracted to me.
00:17:23Like, you just compliment my clothes.
00:17:26Complimenting me, it gives me security, like, that you find me attractive and you want me.
00:17:32And I don't always necessarily feel like you do.
00:17:35In Cabo, you know, when I did compliment, like, your bathing suit, like, I was starting to, like, open up
00:17:40you.
00:17:41I don't remember the exact comment, but it was just like, you haven't called me pretty.
00:17:45And then internally for me, I'm just like, okay, well, now I don't want to because, like, you're forcing me.
00:17:51And then I was like, well, now I don't feel like it's genuine if I say anything.
00:17:55If it's felt distance or I haven't felt, like, physical touch is because, like, I've been putting up these walls
00:18:00because now I feel like if I do it, it's only because you told me.
00:18:04In my head, I'm like, if I do it, I feel like that's what you're going to say.
00:18:07But when I do make comments or I compliment something, for me, what would help is, like, leaving, like, the
00:18:14small comment aside.
00:18:15I feel like I go in defense mode because I'm like, okay, I'm not going to try if it's not
00:18:21being reciprocated.
00:18:23Yeah.
00:18:23And I think for me, it's just, like, addressing it how we address it tonight instead of saying, like, you
00:18:28never call me pretty.
00:18:29Just be like, is everything okay?
00:18:31Like, I just want to make sure that you are, like, in more of, like, a conversation instead of, like,
00:18:37a small comment.
00:18:38I think for me, it does a lot.
00:18:40I think we can easily get through this stuff and, like, figure it out.
00:18:44But that's what would help me.
00:18:46And I obviously know helping you would be, like, doing it and, like, saying it.
00:18:50So.
00:18:54I think something that I need to do is start projecting my past relationship insecurities on me.
00:19:02And I think that also means that I have some work I need to do outside of us.
00:19:09Yeah.
00:19:10But I hear you.
00:19:12And I will work on not projecting my hurt on you.
00:19:20I know it's not easy.
00:19:22Well, this was therapeutic.
00:19:24Because apparently both of us have been feeling some type of way at not seeing.
00:19:29But it explains a lot.
00:19:32Yeah.
00:19:34I think you are very pretty.
00:19:36I love that you, like, have, like, natural beauty.
00:19:39And it's not, like, makeup.
00:19:41You know me.
00:19:41I'm a very simple man.
00:19:42So I think that's beautiful that you are beautiful in your own skin.
00:19:48And I do really like your lashes.
00:19:50They're very voluptuous.
00:19:52And your soft, your soft, curly hair.
00:19:55I love your height.
00:19:57Really?
00:19:59Yeah, because I can hide my snacks in the big cupboards.
00:20:03Oh, that's right.
00:20:04So I think it's really attractive.
00:20:07And your smile is contagious.
00:20:11Thanks.
00:20:11You're welcome.
00:20:25Big Dome.
00:20:26Yo.
00:20:27What up?
00:20:28How are you?
00:20:30Good to see you.
00:20:30Are you in there?
00:20:31Yeah.
00:20:33Talk to me.
00:20:35She doesn't want to do this anymore.
00:20:37I don't know if, like, the physical connection's there yet and if that can grow.
00:20:43You're attracted to her, though, right?
00:20:46Yeah, I mean, she's beautiful.
00:20:48Good looking.
00:20:50But I was just trying to be honest.
00:20:52She, I assume, didn't really take it well?
00:20:55No.
00:20:55Not at all.
00:20:57And I didn't say, like, I wanted to be done.
00:20:59Did she say she wants to be done?
00:21:01Yeah.
00:21:02I think so.
00:21:04Like, she said that.
00:21:04She's like, I'm done?
00:21:05I mean, it's what it sounded like.
00:21:07It sounded like, but not actually.
00:21:09So there's...
00:21:10Have you tried reaching out to her?
00:21:13She's like, I can't be around you anymore, basically.
00:21:17So...
00:21:22That sucks.
00:21:23I didn't say I wanted to be done with it.
00:21:25Yeah.
00:21:25But I just said we need to work on these things.
00:21:27Okay.
00:21:29But I think she thinks I'm just going to be going through the motions.
00:21:31I mean, you guys talked for 50 hours.
00:21:34Yeah, literally.
00:21:35And Cabo was great.
00:21:37Cabo was fun with you two.
00:21:37I mean, how do you not have fun there, right?
00:21:39I know.
00:21:39But, like, also, we found our person to do it with, which makes...
00:21:42That's what I mean.
00:21:42Like, Cabo was going to be fun regardless, but, like, doing it with your person, there's
00:21:46just, like, no better feeling.
00:21:48So...
00:21:50Yeah.
00:21:51Fuck, man.
00:21:52I appreciate that.
00:21:54I just, um...
00:21:55Yeah.
00:21:55Yeah, you two are awesome, too.
00:21:56That's the other thing.
00:21:57It's, like, it's frustrating just because, like, I saw how much love there was between you guys
00:22:00and how much love there definitely still is.
00:22:03And she was a great friend of Brie, too.
00:22:06So she is this great friend of Brie, like, both of you guys.
00:22:08So it's, like, we want to see you guys do well and stay together, obviously, and do what's
00:22:14best for you, too.
00:22:16So...
00:22:18Yeah.
00:22:20Couples fight all the time, and it sucks that this got to the level where it's at, but,
00:22:23like...
00:22:24I don't know.
00:22:24Give it a day or two, I think.
00:22:26Yeah.
00:22:26I think, uh...
00:22:27Maybe send her, like, a...
00:22:29Just, uh...
00:22:30Even, like, a letter or something, not just a text.
00:22:32Just, like, why you were feeling how you were feeling about her, that you're not just going
00:22:37through the motions.
00:22:38Mm-hmm.
00:22:39Yeah.
00:22:40Or that you still want to continue things.
00:22:41There's nothing more that I want to do is, like, continue with you type stuff.
00:22:44So, honestly, whatever you're feeling, put that in writing.
00:22:48If you just give it your 100% effort, like, you can at least sleep at night.
00:22:56Yeah, dude, I like that idea.
00:22:57No.
00:22:57Definitely, um, take that advice.
00:23:00You got your room.
00:23:01Obviously, call me if you need anything.
00:23:03Yeah.
00:23:04Let me know.
00:23:04How do you, uh, maybe I'll be with Jess, and we can all go on double date or something.
00:23:07Dude, I hope.
00:23:08I hope.
00:23:08If I see her, I'm gonna talk to Chris.
00:23:11We love you guys.
00:23:12Uh, all right, dude.
00:23:14We're rooting for you.
00:23:15All right, dude.
00:23:15See ya.
00:23:19Write your thoughts down.
00:23:20Yep.
00:23:29Hey.
00:23:30Hey.
00:23:30Hey, my boy.
00:23:31So, this is the place.
00:23:34And this is my fiancee, Ashley.
00:23:36Hi.
00:23:36Good.
00:23:36Actually, this is my mom.
00:23:38So good to meet you.
00:23:39Good to meet you.
00:23:39I've heard so much about you.
00:23:41I've heard so much about you.
00:23:41I've heard a little about you.
00:23:43Look at the color.
00:23:45Welcome to our home.
00:23:47Where are you coming from?
00:23:48You were in, like, Arizona or Montana when we called you?
00:23:51It's the news.
00:23:52It's always a crapshoot.
00:23:54I was in, uh, Arizona when we called.
00:23:56I know.
00:23:57Well, he's like, I travel all around.
00:23:58I was like, so your mom is the same way.
00:24:00I am.
00:24:01Yes, I may have instilled that in him a little.
00:24:03Sorry.
00:24:03That's okay.
00:24:05So you drive commercial trucks?
00:24:07I do.
00:24:07Yeah, I drive a semi with a car hauler on the back and whatever we can.
00:24:12That's insane.
00:24:13Yeah.
00:24:13Yeah, I was test driving tractors for a while up to Alaska and AAC.
00:24:18Oh, that looks beautiful.
00:24:20Ashley, did you put that together?
00:24:22So, do you ride motorcycles?
00:24:24I do not.
00:24:25Would you?
00:24:26I've been on a motorcycle.
00:24:27I have never driven one.
00:24:29This is where I get it from, obviously.
00:24:30Yeah.
00:24:30You can kind of see, like, the traveling bouncing around.
00:24:33Experiences, to me, are what are important.
00:24:35Things are not important.
00:24:37You know, I know we live our lives a little differently than a lot of people,
00:24:42although I think, you know, the nomadic lifestyle is kind of coming into vogue, maybe.
00:24:47I don't know.
00:24:48But have you done much traveling?
00:24:50No, so that's something that appealed about Alex, is, like, I haven't traveled a lot.
00:24:54And I've always wanted to travel and explore.
00:24:57He loves the exploring.
00:24:59He always had my support on that.
00:25:00Absolutely.
00:25:01Go travel now.
00:25:02We've talked about, like, planting roots, either in Arizona or Florida.
00:25:06Do you think he's capable of staying in one place for...
00:25:08Yeah, much more than I am.
00:25:10She's more of a planer.
00:25:11Like, I mean, I plan things out, but...
00:25:13I'm a Virgo.
00:25:14I'm not go with the flow.
00:25:15I definitely like to plan.
00:25:16It's not a weakness.
00:25:17Yeah.
00:25:18It's just how does it fit together with the other person.
00:25:21He compliments that very well with me.
00:25:23Like, he'll just look at me and be like, we got this.
00:25:25Like, shut up.
00:25:28Respectfully.
00:25:29And I'll be like, okay.
00:25:30Most of the time.
00:25:32He yelled at me because I organized the water bottles in the fridge.
00:25:35No, no, rephrase that.
00:25:36Rephrase that.
00:25:37I put them in.
00:25:38In rows, ready to go.
00:25:40Wow, I'm impressed.
00:25:41I know.
00:25:42I was impressed.
00:25:43I was impressed.
00:25:43And then I opened them up again.
00:25:44I was like, you flipped those around.
00:25:46Like, what?
00:25:46That's my comfort.
00:25:47Like, when I'm cleaning, I'm, like, anxious.
00:25:49I'm, like, I'm just cleaning.
00:25:50Do you need him to do that or are you okay just doing that?
00:25:52That was, like, my big thing as well because it was one of those.
00:25:54I'm like, hey, I'm putting the effort in here.
00:25:57Because you have to let him be him, too, if he's going to let you be you.
00:26:00That was what we talked about.
00:26:01It's new.
00:26:02We're living together.
00:26:03So, it's like, we do have to, like, not compromise, but, like, we have to...
00:26:06Just learn each other's language.
00:26:07Especially if you're going to marry them.
00:26:11That's awesome.
00:26:14All right.
00:26:15Well, I'm going to let you guys go to town on that charcuterie board.
00:26:18I will see you guys in a little bit.
00:26:19I'm a truck driver.
00:26:19I don't get real food.
00:26:23I guess, what has, like, Alex's previous girlfriends been like?
00:26:28Girl talk now.
00:26:29Yeah.
00:26:30Like, let me get the dirt.
00:26:31I don't know if he's told you about his last serious relationship.
00:26:36He gave it more chances than it should have been given.
00:26:39Been there.
00:26:39Yeah.
00:26:40And, um...
00:26:41Was she Chicago?
00:26:43Yes.
00:26:44And she was a piece of work.
00:26:45Was she the travel nurse that he was going to go to Australia with?
00:26:49No.
00:26:50Because I've only known about, no, it's two people, but the travel nurse and then Chicago.
00:26:55I didn't know if they were the same person or what.
00:26:56No.
00:26:57So he doesn't like to talk about the past too much.
00:27:00And I understand, like...
00:27:02He's had a rough go of women not being authentic and not being honest and not being loyal.
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:11So have you seen anything that causes you concern?
00:27:16I think the biggest thing for me is I analyze, like, the timelines.
00:27:22Because his timeline is insane.
00:27:24It's like, I don't know where you lived.
00:27:25And then I, like, try to, like, rehash it to, like, my girlfriends when I see them.
00:27:29And they're like, what?
00:27:30And I was like, what?
00:27:32I don't know.
00:27:33And he knows that it is hard to follow his story.
00:27:37Yeah.
00:27:38Like, it's hard to follow my story.
00:27:39Just people's heads go, they're like, I don't know what you're talking about.
00:27:43I think he's finally kind of mourning the loss of soccer.
00:27:47It was such a huge part of his life.
00:27:49Coaching is obviously something he's very passionate about.
00:27:52I guess a concern of mine is, like, you know, we move away and we've talked about him going
00:27:56into this, like, financial role or something.
00:27:58And it's not what he wants to do.
00:27:59I know it's probably very hard for him to have to walk away from what was his life.
00:28:05Um, that's going to make me cry.
00:28:07I'm sorry.
00:28:17I would love for him to coach because he's got so much to offer.
00:28:25Um, and he loves the game so much.
00:28:30Um, and I think he's, he needs something that isn't so structured that he's got to be in
00:28:39an office all the time.
00:28:40That's just not his, his venue.
00:28:44What's the hardest thing you've had to overcome in your life?
00:29:26And I've never had someone choose me wholeheartedly, like, 100% and Alex chose me to be, like, his only
00:29:34priority.
00:29:35Those are the important things to me.
00:29:37That's who he is.
00:29:38How are we doing?
00:29:39Good.
00:29:39Good.
00:29:40She'll do.
00:29:42Just kidding.
00:29:43We're going to become besties and we're going to just talk about you and...
00:29:48Alex does want to settle down.
00:29:51I don't think he'll ever give up traveling and exploring, but I think that he does want something where he
00:29:58feels safe and stable.
00:29:59She would be a wonderful daughter-in-law.
00:30:01Virgo and Pisces can be very compatible, very compatible.
00:30:05It's one of the good things.
00:30:06It can be.
00:30:07Absolutely.
00:30:19What?
00:30:19It's my family?
00:30:21I'm so nervous.
00:30:22You've been on edge.
00:30:24Yeah, I know.
00:30:25Ah!
00:30:26Ah!
00:30:30It's...
00:30:30Mike is meeting my family.
00:30:32Mike is meeting the whole gang, my parents, my sisters.
00:30:38Hi!
00:30:39This is Mike.
00:30:39It's so nice to meet you.
00:30:40Nice to meet you.
00:30:41He's going to get interrogated by everyone.
00:30:45Hi, Mike.
00:30:45Nice to meet you.
00:30:46Great to meet you.
00:30:47Hey, how's it going?
00:30:48Good.
00:30:48Nice to meet you.
00:30:49Good job.
00:30:50Mike, nice to meet you.
00:30:51Same.
00:30:51Should we sit?
00:30:52Yeah.
00:30:53You can sit right there.
00:30:55With my notebook?
00:30:56Did she tell you that I intend...
00:30:57She said you're bringing a notebook and I go, Jesus.
00:30:59To grill me?
00:31:00Yeah.
00:31:00Yeah.
00:31:02I am a big believer in balance in marriage.
00:31:07Yeah.
00:31:07Where do you feel like you fill in some weaknesses?
00:31:12So I think that I do a very good job of keeping her grounded.
00:31:15Great.
00:31:16You should have seen her freaking out when you guys were coming.
00:31:19Uh-huh.
00:31:19Yeah?
00:31:20We freak out.
00:31:21We're a good freak-out family.
00:31:24We all have grounders.
00:31:26All of us women have grounders.
00:31:28And that was the biggest thing that...
00:31:30Why Mike stood out was because he grounded me in the pods.
00:31:33Like, I would go up to him and be like, dude, I am stressed today.
00:31:36That's awesome.
00:31:37I'm telling you, the communication that we've had is insane.
00:31:39That is really good.
00:31:40So when we were talking about kids and he's really, like, challenged me to, like, think more on that spectrum.
00:31:47And I'm like, okay, well, why don't I want kids?
00:31:50Mm-hmm.
00:31:51Um, number one, I don't have a maternal instinct, but...
00:31:54Well, there's that.
00:31:56Um...
00:31:57Yeah.
00:31:58But I think...
00:31:59I think it's there.
00:32:00You take care of mom, aren't you?
00:32:02I think comparing taking care of a dog to having children...
00:32:05Well, I'm not...
00:32:05Yeah.
00:32:06You get what I'm saying, though.
00:32:07She needs to care and still take care of it.
00:32:09You need to walk it.
00:32:10You need to be on a schedule.
00:32:11Yeah.
00:32:11It needs to feed and all that stuff.
00:32:12And you can leave it alone for eight hours.
00:32:13I'm a strong advocate of...
00:32:15Well, one is a puppy.
00:32:16Like, I'm somebody who grew up my whole life wanting to be a mom.
00:32:18And I have two kids, and I wake up some days, and I'm like, why did I...
00:32:21Like, this is...
00:32:22She said that.
00:32:23Yeah.
00:32:23You told them that, I'm sure.
00:32:25Yeah, I told them that.
00:32:25I still question my choices.
00:32:26And my rebuttal to that is, do you regret it?
00:32:29And she said no.
00:32:31And I said, then that's all you need to know.
00:32:33I would say, though, if I lived another life...
00:32:35Like, I don't regret having my children, and I love my children.
00:32:38But if I got to the end of my life and they said, you can do it again, I wouldn't
00:32:41have kids.
00:32:43Okay.
00:32:44Because there's a beautiful thing about living a life for yourself, too.
00:32:47Yeah, sure.
00:32:48So, my concern is, as somebody who wanted this and is currently living it and knows how hard it is,
00:32:53if somebody chooses to have kids simply because they're trying to make a partner happy,
00:32:58that's one of the most terrifying thoughts.
00:33:00And that's what I told you.
00:33:01And especially for Emma.
00:33:02Like, I love her to death, and I would not be able to live with myself if I didn't say
00:33:06that.
00:33:08Would you be willing to live your life without children, or is that not an option?
00:33:11So, I was trying to be open about it.
00:33:13The more that I'm thinking about it, I don't think I can.
00:33:16That's good.
00:33:17Yeah.
00:33:19Nobody has to justify why they want kids or don't want kids.
00:33:23No, it's a beautiful thing.
00:33:23I love being a grandma.
00:33:24I love being a Mimi.
00:33:26I love my babies.
00:33:29But I also want to support you.
00:33:32Yeah.
00:33:32You.
00:33:33And I haven't asked.
00:33:36No.
00:33:36Like, I told you I would not push you.
00:33:38No.
00:33:38I'm not feeling pushed or pressured on any of this.
00:33:41And I respect your decision, whatever it is.
00:33:43Yeah.
00:33:43Good.
00:33:44Family is so important to me, and I would not have said yes if I was not open.
00:33:54But you were a hard no for a long time.
00:33:56Yeah.
00:33:56So, that's why we're a little bit protective.
00:33:59I think we were all pretty certain you would not have kids.
00:34:03Throughout the time, he's let me be who I am and, like, be independent and have my choices,
00:34:10but also, like, is there for me when I need him.
00:34:13On the pods, I didn't want to tell anyone about my adoption or, like, my surgeries,
00:34:17because those are the deepest parts of me.
00:34:19And, like, oh, it's just, like, my self-identity is rooted in that.
00:34:22Right.
00:34:22You were so kind and so reassuring.
00:34:25Like, I was getting emotional, and he was like, I'm here.
00:34:28Take your time.
00:34:28I'm not going anywhere.
00:34:30And the more I thought about kids, it's like, I don't know if I'm going to pass down the birthmarks.
00:34:35I don't know if my parents had other birth defects.
00:34:39I don't know if my birth mother had birth complications.
00:34:42Right.
00:34:43Do you think you were right of having kids because of your birthmarks and stuff?
00:34:47Oh, yeah.
00:34:47100%.
00:34:50I had a great life growing up.
00:34:52But, like, it was very, very tough mental problems.
00:35:02Like, not feeling good enough comparing myself to other people.
00:35:06Like, I just don't want, like, I, like, don't want to bring a kid into that because it's tough.
00:35:11Because of your scar?
00:35:14Oh, really?
00:35:15Yeah.
00:35:15Yeah.
00:35:16See, we didn't know.
00:35:17Mm-hmm.
00:35:19Because you always handled yourself.
00:35:21Yeah.
00:35:21Yeah.
00:35:23With strength.
00:35:24Yeah.
00:35:24And we were curious how much, how much she covered up and didn't, in middle school, I think,
00:35:30she would come home from school and just shut down and go to the basement.
00:35:34We wouldn't.
00:35:34Just quiet.
00:35:35And she didn't want to talk.
00:35:35Yeah.
00:35:36And then we went to this parent teacher and the teacher's like, Emma just lights up the
00:35:40room.
00:35:40She talks.
00:35:41She drives the conversation.
00:35:42Well, you guys already know that.
00:35:44And you're like, nope.
00:35:45Yeah.
00:35:46Yeah, communication's not in my strong suit.
00:35:49I wasn't bullied or anything.
00:35:51No, you had a great...
00:35:51I had a great life.
00:35:52I had a great friendship.
00:35:53It was all mental.
00:35:55Mm-hmm.
00:35:55Right.
00:35:56Like, there was always something that I was like, I'm, I felt different.
00:36:03Mm-hmm.
00:36:05Growing up for everything.
00:36:08Um, also, dating is like, been a whole nother ballgame, especially in Wisconsin.
00:36:14Yeah.
00:36:15Like, it's like, you still feel different.
00:36:19Like, you want to be chosen, you know?
00:36:21Yeah.
00:36:22And, sometimes I wasn't, you know?
00:36:27So.
00:36:30We try, you know?
00:36:31Yeah.
00:36:32To check in and make sure everything's okay.
00:36:34Yeah.
00:36:34And on the outside, you were okay.
00:36:36And I hope we did good by you.
00:36:40No, you, no, you did, you guys did amazing.
00:36:42And like, I think for me, I'm just so independent that I like...
00:36:45Mm-hmm.
00:36:46I don't ask for help.
00:36:48And then like...
00:36:49No, you do not.
00:36:49Like, I can do it myself.
00:36:51One of the things I most admire about Emma is that she takes care of herself.
00:36:55And I know how much mothers lose by having children.
00:36:59And I don't want you to lose that.
00:37:01Yeah.
00:37:09You can't do everything that you think you're going to do with kids.
00:37:12So many people that haven't had kids yet are like, it's not going to change my life.
00:37:16Oh, yeah, it will.
00:37:17Oh, yeah.
00:37:17Yeah, you're not...
00:37:18They will ruin your vacations.
00:37:20Believe me, I've heard it from my own parents.
00:37:22I've heard it from my own parents.
00:37:23Uh-huh.
00:37:24It is hard, but it's worth it, my opinion.
00:37:26It is.
00:37:27Not if you don't want them, though.
00:37:28But I got three there.
00:37:29That's been worth it.
00:37:30I understand that.
00:37:30Yeah, it's only worth it if you want it.
00:37:32I'm not saying that.
00:37:32No, I know.
00:37:32I'm just advocating for her wishes.
00:37:34I know you're advocating for my wishes, but like, I have the right to change my mind, too.
00:37:39Absolutely.
00:37:39I am just supporting you.
00:37:41We are making sure that if you change your mind, that Mike is somebody who is going
00:37:46to be able to support you in the way that we would love you to be supported so that you
00:37:52continue to thrive.
00:37:53Yeah.
00:37:53And that's like...
00:37:54That's what I want.
00:37:55Yep.
00:37:55You having children would be amazing.
00:37:57Yeah.
00:37:57I would love to be on it.
00:37:58I would love that.
00:37:59Are you kidding me?
00:38:00Me?
00:38:00Not so bad.
00:38:01Yeah.
00:38:02She's our baby.
00:38:04I guess, you know, there's the adoption element to this, but we've never thought of her as anything
00:38:09but a member of our family.
00:38:14Yep.
00:38:19I know.
00:38:20We love her.
00:38:21She's got the best heart.
00:38:23Our two oldest left.
00:38:26We're about three years ahead of her.
00:38:28So when they left the home, we had Emma to ourselves.
00:38:31So she became our only child.
00:38:33That was great.
00:38:33She's the sweetest, kindest person.
00:38:36My grandma just passed a few years ago and she was like 106 almost.
00:38:41And when they were going through her belongings, there is a stack of handwritten letters from
00:38:48Emma.
00:38:48I mean, who does that?
00:38:50Emma does.
00:38:51I mean, she's just...
00:38:53Yeah.
00:38:53So, we want the best for her.
00:38:55Obviously.
00:38:57Oh!
00:38:58Hi!
00:39:01Oh my gosh!
00:39:04Hi!
00:39:04Hi!
00:39:06Hi!
00:39:07Hi!
00:39:09Hi!
00:39:09Hi!
00:39:09Hi!
00:39:10Hi!
00:39:10Hi!
00:39:11Hi!
00:39:11Hi!
00:39:12Hi!
00:39:12Hi!
00:39:13Hi!
00:39:15Hi!
00:39:23What I was happy to see is they are addressing the hard questions with themselves honestly.
00:39:27Okay.
00:39:28If Emma chooses him to be her life partner, um...
00:39:31Then we choose him.
00:39:31We choose him.
00:39:32If she feels like she's ready for it, then we stand beside her.
00:39:36Hi!
00:39:37I'm Mike.
00:39:37Nice to meet you.
00:39:38Nice to meet you, too.
00:39:40And how old are you?
00:39:42I'm five.
00:39:43Oh, nice.
00:39:44Oh, yeah.
00:39:45She's two.
00:39:46Yeah.
00:39:47That's so cute.
00:39:48Can you shake hands with Mike?
00:39:49Hi!
00:39:50Hi!
00:39:52Good job.
00:39:54Good job.
00:39:55Good job, baby!
00:39:56That doesn't do anything for you?
00:39:58No, it does.
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:18Hello!
00:40:18Hello!
00:40:19Hello!
00:40:20Today we are meeting Annie, my little sister, my older sister Katie and then my mother and
00:40:24father i'm hoping she gets to see why i'm the favorite john okay so connor actually like hand
00:40:47these flowers wow like one by one can i can i see something oh wait can you guys believe it
00:40:58we're like i mean no i don't believe it i can't believe it and you got dressed up too
00:41:03wait yeah you're from michigan i was screaming we were talking about our hometowns and like
00:41:13you can see kind of that you start to see the life together and i just all i had described
00:41:19was like electric my heart was like racing like i was like physically responding to like
00:41:23you guys haven't heard that before it's crazy like wow it's so weird you guys look great together
00:41:30do you believe it i was like he's not ugly you guys i'm like he's not because when you see
00:41:37each other
00:41:37the first time yeah yeah i wouldn't care what you look like well but here's the thing is like you're
00:41:42so attracted to him for like all these different reasons and i'm like i don't even care what you
00:41:45look like i don't even care if you're like medium ugly like i like you like it doesn't matter
00:41:49she said it like every day i'm like you're not medium ugly like i was just obsessed with it
00:41:54i guess should we sit down yeah yeah let's sit down let's do it so what has it been like
00:42:00living
00:42:00together and what you're like smiling you smile i think the question is directed at you no honestly
00:42:09no it's actually been great like i've never lived with anybody so transparently like the day we were
00:42:15moving in i like had a moment i was like how do you load the dishwasher she literally was waiting
00:42:22for me to load it you need to see this yeah show me the good bad and the ugly yeah
00:42:25how do you put like
00:42:26the knives and where do you do yeah oh i know because i haven't loaded a dishwasher in three years
00:42:30i haven't had a dishwasher you guys know that so i was like i get one non-judgment because i'm
00:42:34like
00:42:34i don't remember how to do it like you're fine at the dishwasher he was also we cooked together too
00:42:38and i love to cook did he make his famous plain chicken not yet not yet she doesn't she she's
00:42:44not
00:42:44huge on pasta like i am oh it's like pasta every day i'm like i have tried like six new
00:42:49things this week
00:42:50though oh so i heard you saw his house and you guys yeah how was that yeah did you go
00:42:56in through
00:42:56the door that doesn't lock be honest there's a keg outside it's a good investment i was like okay
00:43:01that's a problem and then you guys would see my house that he couldn't be on more opposite ends
00:43:06of the spectrum like i'm in the opposite opposite is kind of nuts he's a single guy he's a boy
00:43:12like
00:43:13he's just a standard boy he's so when i went in i was like this all checks he is so
00:43:17boy he's like i'm
00:43:18like you're just a boy he's a midwest blue collar guy yeah so i was like blue collar excuse you
00:43:24i work he's a hard worker he works hard he's a dumpster business you get out what you put in
00:43:30what was different about him after the pods that you're like i didn't expect this
00:43:35the house or what actually i think what was surprising to me like i'm not used to like i live
00:43:40by myself i'm so independent like you know i'm having a bad day like i'm just gonna go home and
00:43:45kind of lay on the couch or do whatever i need to do to like reset but managing those emotions
00:43:50together was really crazy trust for me yeah like he literally i'm like crying about like being
00:43:56overwhelmed and he's like is this helping or hurting i'm like i don't even know that's only a
00:44:00question to ask though like i love that it's so surprising like when someone shows up for you like
00:44:06that like i'm like not used to it was the keg surprising yes it's like what was more surprising
00:44:12it's like how he showed up for me i was like this is wild communal and for you to pick
00:44:16up on those
00:44:17emotional cues for me i was like well this is crazy wow and i was like if it wasn't connor
00:44:21it was nobody
00:44:22yeah like really right it was and i say that wholeheartedly and my friends know they're like
00:44:27you wouldn't be here if this wasn't for real it's like we can talk about anything under the sun like
00:44:31i mean
00:44:32things that as a single female that you're like my biggest insecurities are like am i being too much
00:44:38am i being not enough like how am i coming off and like for once i felt like i could
00:44:43come in and
00:44:43just like let it rip like i was like we're talking about fertility i'm 33 years old like i just
00:44:49went
00:44:49and had my fertility tested and like this stuff matters and like i think like i had the realization
00:44:53of like it doesn't matter how quickly you fall in love it's just a matter of like if you're gonna
00:44:58fall
00:44:59in love right love you honey oh my gosh it's the circulation in these hands i was about to ask
00:45:04how
00:45:04do you feel about his sweaty hands you should have seen this at the reveal but like now they're
00:45:08freezing yeah so when i met him you guys we're just like oh my gosh it's you and his palms
00:45:14he
00:45:14comes up and grabs my hands i'm like you're dripping sweat yes i was like appreciate it isn't
00:45:20this crazy ain't she nuts like you guys actually though like i i requested the mustache because i was
00:45:26like i think i think i would like love you for that really nice i was like you can rock
00:45:31the mustache
00:45:32a hundred percent i gotta figure out how much i owe her yeah um yeah no it it it's it's
00:45:40very nice to
00:45:41see each when when one of your kids finds somebody that is their connection they appear to be very much
00:45:47in love i would be proud to call her a daughter-in-law welcome to the family
00:46:01how are you feeling after your your mom good it's good to see her i definitely see where you get
00:46:06your
00:46:06travel bug from we kind of had like a time to chat do you want to talk about your last
00:46:12relationships
00:46:12more like i'm not yeah trying to like attack you or anything like i just want to know like your
00:46:16story
00:46:16you know i mean uh the college was more puppy love similar schedules with student athletes it kind of
00:46:21made sense there was always like you know her accent was always in the picture as a friend type thing
00:46:26which was kind of a bigger red flag for me like why are you guys still friends i don't get
00:46:29it the
00:46:30chicago relationship was more the one that you learn um on and off you know a little bit of distance
00:46:36to start with so i don't really blame her for leaving necessarily just the way that she did it
00:46:40was not great um and i don't love that you know kind of cheating going on behind the scenes to
00:46:47where it's not great i don't love that yeah not a big fan of that obviously but i also point
00:46:51the
00:46:51finger myself i definitely had some growing to do it i had to learn who i was outside of soccer
00:46:56and what
00:46:57i mean by that is obviously that relationship ended and i had to go find myself elsewhere which
00:47:00i did through travel okay was it just the two then uh that are the most serious there's a you
00:47:07know a
00:47:07third that was um a little bit longer oh the travel yes exactly was this the one that was going
00:47:15to go to australia with you yes yeah that's pretty serious you said it wasn't that serious well i mean
00:47:20it was over four months it was over a summer so that one ended before australia correct yeah what why
00:47:27did it end well because i was leaving and she didn't want to travel nurse at that time you guys
00:47:32like
00:47:32ended like amicably yeah yeah yeah do you still have a relationship with any of her ex i mean i'm
00:47:37friends with her for sure i mean she's got a new boyfriend and by friends i mean it's like hey
00:47:42i hope
00:47:42you're doing well but it's not a hey let's get back together type thing when is like the last time
00:47:47you
00:47:47guys talked or saw each other a while ago i mean i saw her in austin for um a week
00:47:54when was that
00:47:55um when is it september ish were you visiting her in austin i was visiting a number of people in
00:48:03austin yeah was she one of them yes yeah what was that dynamic when you visited her then i mean
00:48:09we
00:48:10hooked up for sure september's not that long ago it's just weird because i'm not friends with my ex
00:48:15and i don't care to text him hope he's well and that's how i am with the one that you
00:48:20know
00:48:21was cheating on me as well um but i'm happy to cut that off if it's an issue no i'm
00:48:27just
00:48:27if you're like confident in that that's fine so what was your dating life like in cleveland then
00:48:32before because you were in cleveland for a year and a half like yeah i don't expect you to not
00:48:36have any
00:48:36relationship no there yeah there was a situation ship for sure i met her through the gym we were
00:48:41you know probably about three maybe four months she ended things i don't think she understood my
00:48:46lifestyle and my nomadic dynamic that i've been living for the past three or four years she ended
00:48:51things and then i think a month later roughly i kind of got the linkedin message to kind of come
00:48:59this show and at that point i shut things down um i don't know october i think i'd have to
00:49:08get a
00:49:08look at that but i believe it was early october um and then so go ahead you said you got
00:49:14the linkedin
00:49:14message about a month after in october yeah which would mean that you were seeing this girl in september
00:49:22which is when you went to austin no so this girl in austin was right after this girl in cleveland
00:49:36okay but there was some kind of relationship with the austin girl because you don't just like
00:49:41yeah go to austin and see a girl two days after the girl ended things that i was seeing in
00:49:47cleveland
00:49:48i reached out to my ex it was my ego basically saying okay you want to end things that's fine
00:49:53i can go get whatever i want right afterwards i'm not the greatest because i didn't like being broken
00:49:59up with at that time and then i came back to cleveland afterwards and it was how it worked that
00:50:04doesn't
00:50:04make me look great but it's honest yeah okay okay i was just making sure yeah what i feel like
00:50:12something about that makes you uncomfortable no like i said i was just i wanted to make sure like
00:50:16we've talked about cheating is like a non-negotiable so like when you set the timeline and it was like
00:50:21september i was like okay it's not there was no overlap and even if there was we weren't together
00:50:27exclusively because i asked the question she didn't want that but there was no overlap okay
00:50:34okay when i stumble it's i'm trying to remember the exact date of i'm not trying to follow you i'm
00:50:39not
00:50:39trying to like catch you yeah i know you're not i know you're not but it i don't want it
00:50:43to make like
00:50:43very clear there was absolutely no overlap it's also not cheating in my eyes no i i wouldn't say
00:50:49that either okay um you cope how you cope um i think the biggest thing for me was like i
00:50:55was in
00:50:55a relationship just about a year ago and i thought that man was gonna be like the father of my
00:50:59children
00:50:59and like i thought i was gonna have babies with him just please be honest with me yeah and please
00:51:05don't cheat um that's not happening and i apologize like that that's happened to you before not
00:51:10really my place to say sorry but i don't love that that's happened for you
00:51:13i got you
00:51:23yeah
00:51:55a few more of these i'm losing a thing
00:52:20oh my god
00:52:34i'm like i had to celebrate with my girls are you kidding me oh i love you i love you
00:52:41i love you
00:52:55good man good good oh my god
00:53:04those little potato things are good those are good no this feels so good i'm so glad to see everybody
00:53:09i do miss jess though i wish she was still i miss jess i know she's just like the sweet
00:53:14little like
00:53:14nurturing yeah angel because i have no words for chris like everybody was delusional that man is so
00:53:20i just got like some obscure like oh yeah in my dm i was like from who from chris shut
00:53:27the
00:53:27fuck up yeah shut up connor and everybody he did at the house i like checked my phone and then
00:53:32i had
00:53:32a friend request from chris and i was like what the fuck so i accepted it he dm'd me at
00:53:39like 11 30 and
00:53:40was like oh yeah and i was like what the happened last night and he was like call me and
00:53:45i'm like
00:53:46ew i literally was like connor abort i was like look at this did connor say anything to him i
00:53:51said
00:53:51don't make a big deal out of nothing like who knows this man is like spiraling i was like obviously
00:53:55i'm not engaging with it it's not a big deal guys he bought followers no yeah we were we were
00:54:02that's why i was like we were he bought follows he fought i want to unfollow he can't afford me
00:54:08all of his followers if you look are like all random random people that don't know followers
00:54:13two posts and they're like all from like mexico okay i don't understand that he was my number two
00:54:19he is a different person like first night single goes to strip club i'm like the way i gasped i
00:54:26was
00:54:26like no the strip club picture the strip and the pole in the background and the stripper on his left
00:54:33like it was like one extreme to the next like not even just like a fucking gross ass bit it's
00:54:39exactly it i'm like this is not something's off something doesn't matter to stick he literally
00:54:44told connor he goes for 21 to 25 year olds i was like so she's 38 like what this is
00:54:51why i told you
00:54:52guys those pussy ass bitches and he is one of them we're too fucking short to be this cocky too
00:54:58short to
00:54:59ride this ride
00:55:19what's up man how are you good to see you chris and jess is weird they seem like such a
00:55:26good couple but
00:55:27i don't think about it too much just because me and brie at the end of the day is what
00:55:31i came here
00:55:32for so they're like hi how are you good to see you welcome back to the crazy we're here um
00:55:39dudes are
00:55:40fucking idiots at the end of the day amber how are you
00:55:59hi
00:56:28i don't give a flying
00:56:39i don't know
00:56:43wait who's here who's just showed up i don't know
00:56:46perry yaga my god
00:56:49i think yeah is that free yeah oh god is it
00:56:55what's up how do you know priyanka uh priyanka was in a friend group of mine in chicago she's been
00:57:02in
00:57:02my friend group for a little while hello what's up hi how are you good how are you doing hi
00:57:07priyanka
00:57:08yeah she was in the pods but i wanted priyanka to have her entire experience untarnished and if i'm
00:57:15going to come out and say hey we knew each other there's a chance for that not to happen
00:57:18hi hi what are we doing without each other what are we doing hi it's the whole damn time
00:57:26you look great you look great thanks it's so beautiful are you real i know simulations
00:57:36i like this actually oh thanks man it's fresh yeah it's nice sweater be careful how you touch it it's
00:57:41expensive
00:57:43i'm just kidding he's a funny guy you think you're a funny guy don't you
00:57:57mexico is great mexico is incredible so in love everything's amazing we literally thought they're
00:58:03like already married okay because that's what i thought so it's amazing whatever we get back
00:58:07he was like how would you rate our physical connection on a scale of one to ten this is
00:58:13where i'm about to kick him in the teeth and i go what what do you mean and he's like
00:58:17well like i'm
00:58:18just i'm used to being with somebody who works out every day are you kidding me this is where i
00:58:24kick
00:58:25him in the teeth i'm i'm i'm i'm confused what he said is gross but then he also said before
00:58:32we
00:58:33stop talking he's like i also like keep wondering like what if i had chose my number two she's like
00:58:38what was his number three creepy oh so then that night he started an instagram out of nowhere and
00:58:45then he posts a story on instagram of him at a strip club with his friends with a stripper on
00:58:49his
00:58:49laugh she's like no the bar is on the ground and like obviously christine like i don't follow him
00:58:58i don't want anything to do with it but everybody screenshotted it and sent it to me i know that
00:59:03that
00:59:03is not okay for me and i don't have anything to do with him and he's also since split into
00:59:10another
00:59:10girl's team he told me about it right away i'm just an honest person i know you are i know
00:59:15people
00:59:16fucking don't like it all right i'll be right back i gotta pee you know that he has issues right
00:59:23you
00:59:23know this is nothing about you i was 110 in i was 110 percent in love three years ago it
00:59:30would have
00:59:31like ended me dude brie is so hot i saw brie and i was like yeah i'm into her i
00:59:43want to talk to
00:59:43her and connor i don't care what's he now beat me up yeah yeah right
01:00:04wait amber i love this guy so much i love chris i love this dude so much i know like
01:00:10he's such a good
01:00:10dude like everyone's like amber is like they're like yo she's crazy she's crazy she's like too much
01:00:16for us but i'm like she's perfect for this dude you and amber are like goddamn like the only couple
01:00:22that's only gonna get married i swear to god i said that to his face he's good for me
01:00:27no i swear to god i swear yes he does he's so crazy too in a good amber in a
01:00:37good way i know you
01:00:38you probably date me a little bit okay listen listen i just feel like you don't like i don't know
01:00:45know me like as like a person person like i promise you like i'm not like a crazy
01:00:50asshole i swear to god chris doesn't give a about anything but himself so i don't give a about him
01:00:56you think you're gonna get another hot doctor i'm just saying i'm just saying okay
01:01:07are you okay no i'm fine listen i don't care if she's a neurosurgeon or if she's a goddamn hundred
01:01:14million dollar trust fund if i'm gonna get married to someone for the rest of my life i need to
01:01:18be like
01:01:23you don't need a reason like you are no no i'm not gonna say i don't give a fucking
01:01:26fuck i've heard him say it i don't give a flying fuck four times already
01:01:32you couldn't pay me to be in that conversation
01:01:35the sex and like everything like i could see it like growing yeah and like
01:01:42i even tore i even said it it's gonna be on camera like i don't give a flying
01:01:45fuck like i need someone like that does like pilates or like does she hide that from you in the
01:01:51pods
01:01:51no but she said she danced for 15 years and i was like okay well that may be a thing
01:01:56but like i
01:01:57don't care i've been with girls who don't work out but they're also like 5 11 and they're taller than
01:02:01me i don't give a flying fuck and they're like ballet dancers and shit i mean she's not like morbidly
01:02:05obese or anything she's not she's stunning she's beautiful she's great she's yeah she's hot yeah
01:02:10yeah i agree and i'm like gesture you just want someone that works you want someone to go to the
01:02:13gym with you you want someone who's like doing those things like you have the partner things
01:02:16together it's way different it's like it's way different routine it's like the discipline and
01:02:22like the i need to redo a sexual attraction when we're naked together and it's like i feel like
01:02:26there's a thing like when you're like having sex with someone it's like pheromones and like
01:02:30it's like you're with together and like you love it with each other and like it just
01:02:34for me i tried it multiple times it just wasn't there and i'm like i don't know if you can
01:02:39do this
01:02:39the rest of my life and i was like i'm gonna bring this up like this is a big thing
01:02:42and i was like
01:02:43listen we have such a deep emotional connection i could not do that for the rest of my life you
01:02:47guys
01:02:47can say whatever you want i don't know i'm kind of like i'm like i'm not trying to get i
01:02:52don't know
01:02:52for me like if i'm gonna be this one the rest of my life and listen listen no no actually
01:02:57actually
01:02:58actually listen to me when i'm 90 i don't give a flying fuck but guess what girls like i am
01:03:03fucking 30. i want to fuck for when i'm like yes i want to like do those things for at
01:03:09least 40
01:03:09more years and i want to enjoy it and like if i'd want to say if i'm not like second
01:03:13checked it to
01:03:14you like i'm not gonna force it or but i told her i said maybe this can grow maybe it
01:03:19can and i
01:03:20asked her and she said adios and i said yes i was not trying to be mean i swear to
01:03:25god i was not
01:03:25trying to be mean if i want to marry someone like i want to make sure like trust me it
01:03:29doesn't even
01:03:30be 100 but like it needs to be something enjoyable but it was the worst i've ever had in my
01:03:33life
01:03:33you're screaming i am yeah why are you getting your voice is echoing i'm sorry sorry i'm loud and i'm
01:03:39like wait we should all go like do something together like just me and then that's right
01:03:43do you want to chat with os a little bit sure what do you mean me okay i'm ready sorry
01:03:49all right
01:03:50be over here seriously i'm on i'm on nobody's side with anything like we're all navigating it like
01:03:57connor and i kind of like stayed in our lane of just doing our thing because it's like hard when
01:04:01you open it up to everybody and hear everyone's stories because it's like i hear jess i hear you
01:04:05but like i get it like we're making a big decision i just laugh so loud because when you say
01:04:10like me
01:04:10and connor it's kind of like what why is it funny you want me to let it rip i like
01:04:21connor but he's very
01:04:22submissive i could have turned up the notch with you and connor wouldn't be what do you mean existence
01:04:33oh like in the pods yeah
01:04:38i see it in the real world i'm like i fucked up
01:04:44connor loves me to the nth degree i think he's an amazing guy when that's
01:04:48he will say yes at the altar and he will say i will love you forever and i'll do the
01:04:53dishes and
01:04:53i'll clean the house yeah and you're like well i need someone who's going to
01:04:58do a lot more i'm bringing him to my hometown this weekend and my dad and my family are all
01:05:04like
01:05:04he's gonna meet your dad finally your dad's a legit man who's been successful in life he needs
01:05:09somebody who you're gonna introduce him to to be like hey this is my charles swab account this is what
01:05:14i'm doing this is what's going on in life this is where my directions are one three years that's
01:05:19what you need
01:05:23we're going to grand rapids this weekend i heard do you feel like ready confident i think we'll get
01:05:29along i mean i'm just literally a normal blue collar dude like i work for a dumpster rental company
01:05:34like if brie has confidence in somebody like that's the utmost confidence because she's not gonna
01:05:38fuck around with some randos so and like i talked to like one of her friends and it's like i
01:05:43don't
01:05:43think she's looking for someone to like out work or out motivate or out like alpha her
01:05:48i think brie and i are very similar and the way you're showing up for her is exactly what she
01:05:53is
01:05:54yeah it's the best you've ever had what size no but it's good okay so you're looking for the best
01:06:05you've ever had i like to give the best yeah they've ever had so i'm saying also so like that's
01:06:13important to me like people are like oh it's five percent but that's why i was like like for me
01:06:16it's important for me it's important wait sometimes you get the ick like i get it like
01:06:21it's not the ick it's hard it's like work i'll be honest with you um i just feel like i
01:06:28feel like
01:06:28you guys aren't gonna get married and i feel like you need someone who's gonna be more dominant in
01:06:32your life and to help you like guide you and like show you places you've never been before
01:06:37he's a very submissive guy i'm not a submissive guy i know i'm not like that like i would never
01:06:41be
01:06:42submissive in my life i want to do that with you stop i swear to god i even said to
01:06:48jess i was like brie
01:06:49it's like a girl like i would go for in my normal world and i was like she's hot the
01:06:55way she looks
01:06:56the things she does i'm just saying i feel a regret because i saw you and i was like
01:07:07that is the girl like i would literally propose
01:07:23i know i've never felt like this in my life i love you deeply baby deeply
01:07:30i a hundred percent think you are the right part i love her authenticity you excited for the wedding
01:07:36excited to see you in a tux i know what it's like to feel love now you love me i
01:07:44feel like i even fall in
01:07:45love with you like more and more each day it feels like a forever thing i want to do life
01:07:48with you
01:07:48and experience so much with you at the same time if you're not sure about me insecurity's coming out
01:07:54a little bit i guess that's my fear with you i definitely am stronger feelings than you and that
01:08:00scares me please leave me alone it just feels like you have a backup plan i don't know she's the
01:08:07inverse
01:08:08of what i like i i want that burn that brown eye girl you've been in contact with her for
01:08:12years
01:08:13right now i feel attacked i've never dated a woman with a child before i tried to think this whole
01:08:19thing through like fully before making a lifelong commitment i am super in love with you i trust you
01:08:24like with all my heart that you were like communicating everything to me i love him so much but like
01:08:30he
01:08:30really wants kids the next three to five years and i'm like i don't want kids until like i personally
01:08:35want them it's hard i i never want to sway her opinion and she needs to make this decision first
01:08:40can i show a crazy question can you be honest with your wedding ring on yeah like what if you
01:08:46had to
01:08:46choose like one person where mr busco babies yeah you knew what you were doing i think you were ready
01:08:55for marriage i'm just feeling really blessed and really thankful your whole future right in front of you
01:09:01i'm so happy oh emma now is the time to decide if love is blind this is the biggest moment
01:09:10of my life
01:09:13i'm so happy
01:09:20i can't stay here
01:09:26one more night
01:09:29Get out of my head
01:09:37Get out of my head
01:10:26Get out of my head
01:10:56Get out of my head
01:11:26Get out of my head
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