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00:26Hi, Mark.
00:27Good evening.
00:28Hi, Mark.
00:59Hi, Mark.
00:59Do you want to leave together as you came?
01:02Do you want to leave with someone new?
01:05Or do you want to leave alone?
01:08Okay?
01:09We're going to start with Cheyenne.
01:12Ready?
01:13I'm ready.
01:13Let's do it.
01:16I guess it's just time for Jack to show out in a different light.
01:21I feel like she took away your personality.
01:23Yeah, my personality was gone.
01:25Your personality was in a box, and then as soon as you got in here, you unlocked it and opened
01:28the box, and now we're like, why would you ever want to put yourself back in that box?
01:32I haven't stood on business for five years, dude, and I'm not putting up with that bullshit anymore.
01:36Here we go.
01:37Finally.
01:38Somebody lit the flame under your eyes.
01:40No, no.
01:40I'm not doing it anymore, bro.
01:42I need to, like, embrace myself in life a little bit more.
01:45I'll get a lot farther.
01:48Who's best kisser in the house, honestly speaking?
01:50You can tell you.
01:50You are.
01:52For real?
01:52Yeah.
01:53Hear it out.
02:15I mean, he can't even stick with the same girl.
02:17What makes me think he could have stuck with me all through our relationship?
02:21Uh, what about the very first sentence in this clip?
02:24That I kept him in a box?
02:25Yeah, that for five years he hasn't been able to be who he is, I guess, or something along those
02:31lines.
02:31I think you know what I'm saying, that there was this weight.
02:34I don't even know, Mark.
02:35This is the thing that I just don't understand with him.
02:37It's like, if he was so miserable in the relationship and he wanted to be with somebody else, why did
02:42he have to sit here and, like, drag me along with this entire relationship?
02:46Why couldn't he have just left?
02:47You also had complaints about him, too, though, didn't you, Cheyenne?
02:49I mean, I did, but I have just been looking past this.
02:55I've listened to both of you talk about your relationship.
02:58Mm-hmm.
02:59You have shared a little bit about how you want a provider, somebody who's a little bit more mature-minded,
03:04a little bit more, like, in the adulting and business and things like that.
03:08And when he cheated, you didn't say, oh, my God, I can't believe he's with another woman.
03:13How could he do that to me?
03:14I love him, and he just betrayed me.
03:16What you said was, he's a loser.
03:18He's always been a loser.
03:19He'll never amount to anything.
03:20He's not a man and things like that.
03:22So I'm suggesting to you, and you tell me if I'm wrong, that your problems in a relationship had very
03:29little to do with fidelity and had much more to do with not fulfilling needs.
03:35Yeah, I think I was just hoping that eventually he would be successful, and I don't think he has it
03:44in him.
03:45I've stood there by his side throughout this whole relationship, and I've started a business.
03:50I've done multiple things that he hasn't done.
03:53How am I more successful than you, and how do I try harder in life than you?
03:59And, like, it just, I don't know, like, he's a man, or he's a boy.
04:03He says he's going to be a man, but it's just, it's very clear that I am not getting that,
04:08and I'm just happy that we can leave it here at Temptation Island, and we can move on.
04:13Because I have, I have nothing else to, like, give.
04:16I don't care that he isn't successful anymore, because that's not my fucking problem.
04:20No, I get why you don't want to move forward.
04:22I support it, I understand, and I think it's a wise move for you.
04:25Yeah.
04:25I'm just, in this last hour of our time together, pushing you to get real about this, that, in fact,
04:31in the back of your mind, you knew things aren't firing so well.
04:35Him cheating gives you a little nudge towards what you actually want, right?
04:41Right.
04:42Because the next relationship you are in and he's in needs to be healthier than the one you've just come
04:47out of.
04:48Right.
04:49I agree.
04:50I don't want to fall back into the same habits.
04:55All right, Sydney.
04:57It's my turn?
04:58Yeah.
04:59Let's take a look.
05:01I'm surface level when it comes to other people, but, like, with you, it's just, like, you just make it
05:04easy.
05:06Like, I'm more in tune with my emotions because of you, not even on, like, a romantic level, because we
05:10haven't even been, like, romantic yet.
05:12Mm-hmm.
05:12So, I would truly say, like, you helped me grow as a person before I can really, because, like, if
05:19I'm not whole as an individual, I don't think I can be whole for somebody else.
05:22Right.
05:23And I truly feel like you helped me there.
05:25Mm-hmm.
05:26I just fuck with you.
05:27I do.
05:30Sydney filled my head up with love and all this other stuff, and I'm just, like, damn, like, my feelings
05:37are hurt.
05:38I have a great personality.
05:39I have a great fucking person.
05:41I don't know why.
05:43I just feel really tricked into coming here because I just wanted to be, I just thought we were going
05:47to be better.
05:48That's all.
05:50It's fucking me up because I really do care about Sydney.
05:53And I'm saying she doesn't care about me and her hurts.
06:08Um.
06:10I've said it before.
06:11I'll say it again.
06:11My goal coming here was never to hurt Mikey.
06:15My intent was to come here with Mikey and to leave with Mikey.
06:19But in coming here, I saw better.
06:22I expected better.
06:23I wanted more.
06:26Have I moved on?
06:28Have I, you know, taken steps in another direction with Xavier?
06:35I have.
06:37Honestly, that was a decision that I made for myself.
06:41Mm-hmm.
06:42But I hate seeing him like that because I know he's hurting.
06:46It's very clear to me.
06:47I was struck by the clip because now I know Mikey a little bit, too.
06:51Yeah.
06:52And compared to when I first met him to now, that seemed really raw and honest.
06:57There was no BS in what he was saying.
07:00He just really got down to how he felt about it.
07:02I'm impressed with what I saw from Mikey tonight.
07:04Yeah.
07:05And that's all I've wanted.
07:06I even said that, I don't know if it was a second or third bonfire, but I said, I want
07:11to see Mikey growing in himself.
07:13And, like, that's exactly what I just saw.
07:16So, although it hurts me to see him like that, I'm also happy for him and proud to see, like,
07:21the growth that he's experiencing.
07:24I'll be interested to see what form your friendship takes on with Mikey.
07:28Definitely.
07:29If there's a possibility there.
07:31Definitely.
07:32Okay.
07:34Kaylee.
07:35Yep.
07:36Here we go.
07:38I have gotten so close to you, and I've gotten to know you so much in such a short period
07:43of time, and I didn't expect to find somebody that has, like, such a beautiful soul here.
07:48Oh, thank you.
07:49I feel the same way.
07:50You know, when I'm the happiest and in the best headspace here, it's when I'm, like, going on dates with
07:56you.
07:57Hanging out with you makes me happy.
07:59Your smile makes me happy.
08:00Like, you're just, you're good.
08:02You're good people.
08:03I feel like if I met you in the real world, I would be just as excited to get to
08:07know you.
08:08I would be, like, so lit up by hanging out with you and, like, just want to keep getting to
08:16know you.
08:16Like we have been.
08:17I didn't expect to connect with somebody this much.
08:20And, yeah, I don't know.
08:21If we were in the real world, I would be very excited about you.
08:25Well, that makes me excited.
08:26You.
08:27I mean, yeah.
08:28Like, that's what it is.
08:29And then you kind of have to, like, evaluate if, like...
08:31I know.
08:33Things change or, like, what all this means.
08:37I'm down and also here for you.
08:40I appreciate you.
08:42Like, just, you're awesome.
08:44Thanks.
08:45I feel so much.
08:54Well, it looks like someone's falling for Summit.
08:58I think she sees all the amazing qualities in him that I see.
09:03And I knew when he came here, everyone would see how amazing he is.
09:08But, I mean, what am I supposed to say to that?
09:13You've shared with me his commitment to your relationship time-wise, texting, calling, hanging out, time spent together, is not
09:21at the level that you are desiring and aching for.
09:25It's not even just text and calls.
09:28I mean, it's like...
09:28No, I know it's not.
09:29Quality time together.
09:30It's about feeling that you're the priority.
09:34Yeah.
09:35Is that fair to say?
09:35Yes, I want to be the priority.
09:37Right.
09:38And he tells me, like, over and over again, like, you are the priority, like, you are the number one.
09:43And then?
09:44And then it's, you know, me being like, well, can you do this in order to make me feel that
09:50way?
09:51And then he'll be like, yeah, I do do that.
09:55And trust me, I am a very patient person.
09:58I have been so patient with him.
10:01I'll sit with this for a second, because I'm going to get very real with you right now.
10:04Okay.
10:05Because you deserve to feel exactly what you're expressing you're not feeling.
10:10Are you putting yourself as a first priority for you?
10:15Or are you feeling as though you're not a priority and hoping he makes you feel that way so that
10:20you can be that?
10:23Often, the thing that's not working in communication isn't a relationship with him.
10:28It's your relationship with you.
10:30Mm-hmm.
10:31Yeah.
10:33Make room.
10:34Yeah.
10:35For someone to mirror what you've now discovered you are worth.
10:38You're right.
10:41I gotta put myself first.
10:45When you can look in the mirror and go,
10:50I love you.
10:51Mm-hmm.
10:53Then usually what happens is the people around you go, I love you.
10:56And that's what I've done here.
10:58Good.
10:59With my girls.
10:59Yes.
11:01Okay.
11:02I'm saying there's a deeper level to look at.
11:05Yeah.
11:05It has to do with you.
11:06Mm-hmm.
11:06But you're going to be in the same funk feeling the same way if you don't address how you feel
11:11about you,
11:11which I'm going to suggest is not as good as you appear.
11:15Yeah.
11:15Because you appear like we look at you and go, you know, unbelievable.
11:21Supermodel.
11:22But then there's this thing that makes me think you, for some reason, someone has told you,
11:26Yeah, you're not that special.
11:28And you believe it.
11:29Love you.
11:34That's right.
11:36You good?
11:36Yeah.
11:38You're good.
11:39You're good.
11:41You know it.
11:44You know it.
11:45Yeah.
11:46You get to feel special.
11:48You're allowed.
11:50Thanks.
11:52Okay.
11:54Scarlet.
11:56I'm ready.
11:56Let's take a look.
12:00I just didn't like how her message was like,
12:01I mean this with love, and then dove in, and she's like,
12:04I wish we didn't set strict boundaries going into this.
12:07It's like, well, she didn't express what she's been working on in this process.
12:10She just said, like, she's been opening up to people more, like, emotionally.
12:13I was just kind of following the playbook,
12:15because what if the rules were reversed in that instance?
12:17Right.
12:17And, like, I opened up, and she's like, what are you doing?
12:19Like, you break the rules, and now I'm just, now you're mad at me,
12:22because I didn't break them, too.
12:24It's always me taking accountability and saying that Cole did this, Cole lied, Cole did this.
12:29Here's why I lied, though.
12:30This is what I realized when being here.
12:31I had this fear in the relationship, fear of losing you, fear of hurting you,
12:35that I've no longer have.
12:38It's gone.
12:38Because I'm so just, like, ready to be, like, free of it,
12:42that I'm like, babe, I will be so transparent with you.
12:46I felt so much pain in my chest from being here,
12:49so much sorrow that I have nothing else to give but just be...
12:52That's all you need to say.
12:52...just to be so raw with you.
12:54Yeah.
12:54And I love you.
12:55That gave me the chills.
12:56That's all you need to say.
12:57But if that is not up to the emotional connection that you need,
13:01what else do you want me to fucking do?
13:02Well, and that hurts.
13:07Um, so I have a few notes.
13:11Okay.
13:12First, um, you know, our boundaries coming in here were nothing physical.
13:18We never said don't speak to anyone else.
13:20This is not about temptation.
13:22This is not about the boundaries, like, at all.
13:25This has become so much less about Cole and I and so much more about myself.
13:31I am now realizing, like, yes, I do put things on Cole of, like,
13:35you've lied about this, you've lied about that,
13:37but what about, like, what do I just actually need
13:41that I'm not getting that is making me put this at the forefront?
13:46I think you broke it down pretty well,
13:47but I want to give Cole a little credit.
13:51He said something that I think you need to really hear.
13:54He's afraid of you.
13:57Yep.
13:58He's afraid of you, and the way it shows up for him,
14:00at least what he says is,
14:01he doesn't tell the truth for fear of how you'd receive it.
14:05He's also afraid of the confrontation of you,
14:08so he says whatever you need to hear to move on.
14:13This is the weird paradox of the two of you.
14:16The reason you don't trust him is because you're scared.
14:19He doesn't make you feel safe.
14:21Right.
14:21The reason he lies to you is because he's scared he doesn't feel safe.
14:24It's a fear-based relationship.
14:26I'm telling you that the 80% of what's working in your relationship,
14:30you know, we have fun, we have the same interests,
14:32that stuff is not going to get you through 30 years.
14:36It's not.
14:37It's not.
14:39That's really what I've uncovered here.
14:41The things that I value most are the things that are missing.
14:45Well, then it begs a bigger question,
14:47which is another scary question like I threw at Kaylee.
14:49And it's even possible for you to get over your distrust of him.
14:54I don't know the answer.
14:57That's the big question here,
15:00and it's why I'm so confused
15:01and why I've been breaking the last few days
15:03is because it is very real.
15:05You still have some time.
15:07I'm challenging you to look at this fear thing even deeper,
15:11look at the trust thing, can you let it go,
15:13and work it out with not these women,
15:15but the men in the house to get some perspective.
15:21Okay.
15:22You made it through another bonfire.
15:23The next time you're here,
15:26it's not going to be about clips.
15:27It's going to be you and the man you came to the island with.
15:31You're going to ask all the questions about what you want to know,
15:34and then you're going to be faced with the ultimate decision.
15:37What do you want the rest of your life to be?
15:42Before you head back to the villa,
15:44there's one more thing you need to know.
15:46Tonight is your last night with the single men.
15:51I know some incredible bonds have been formed,
15:53but tomorrow, their time on the island comes to an end.
16:01I'll see you here at the final bonfire.
16:03Thank you very much for sharing.
16:05You can head back to the villa.
16:10Mark has brought to light a lot of issues
16:14that we didn't fully understand coming in here.
16:18Oh.
16:20My goal is to love myself enough
16:24to make the decision that's best for me.
16:27I still have a lot of unanswered questions.
16:30We won't be able to find that clarity we need
16:32until we are face-to-face.
16:41My heart sank when I saw what I saw in the clips,
16:44but he's shown me since pretty much the first bonfire
16:48that this is who he is.
16:50There's no changing it,
16:52and I have to just move forward with what I've seen.
16:56Jack is hurt.
16:58That man is hurt.
17:00There's somebody in the house right now
17:02that proves that he's more of a man
17:04than Jack ever could
17:05in the five years we've been together.
17:09He's making his way around.
17:12Seeing Mikey so emotional,
17:14it's hard to take that and keep moving forward,
17:18but I see the same cycle happening
17:20whereas he sees the problem,
17:22he tries to fix the problem,
17:24and then the problem goes back to how it was.
17:26But this time, it's different
17:28because I'm already gone.
17:29I'm wishing on the wind,
17:31I'm holding on to faith
17:33With every bit of hope I'm finding my way
17:36I just feel like, from what I saw,
17:38that's the exact thing that Cole has told me for months.
17:41Cole is so caught up in not crossing boundaries,
17:44but you're not growing.
17:45You're not diving in.
17:47Like, what have you learned?
17:48You know, I'm looking for a relationship
17:50that lasts a lifetime,
17:52and a fear-based relationship is not sustainable.
17:55I just feel like I'm still at square one with him.
17:59Love is worth a journey,
18:01no matter where it leads.
18:02Keep wishing on the wind,
18:04dancing all my dreams.
18:09Yeah.
18:10Welcome back.
18:12What's up, ladies?
18:13Hi.
18:13Cookies and ice cream.
18:14Cookies and ice cream.
18:17Hi.
18:19Cookies and ice cream.
18:21I was literally just saying
18:22I wanted a chocolate chip cookie, I swear.
18:24Guess what we've done.
18:26What?
18:26Made all your dreams come true.
18:28Aw.
18:28Thank you, thank you, thank you.
18:30Been missing you.
18:31I miss you, too.
18:32I miss you.
18:33I miss you, too.
18:34Bye.
18:38Hey.
18:39How was it?
18:39That's my best mom.
18:40What happened?
18:42It's over with.
18:43She said fucking with me is settling.
18:46What?
18:48The disrespect that woman has put me through
18:51for the past three weeks.
18:57I'm like, my brand new friends
18:59that don't owe me shit
19:00won't even do that to me.
19:02You get what I'm saying?
19:04So, I don't know.
19:06Whoever I do end up with in the future,
19:09they're not going to say that they're settling.
19:11I can tell that a lot of insecurities
19:14that Mikey has
19:15has come from the way
19:17that his girlfriend treats him.
19:19And honestly,
19:20I wish that Mikey
19:22finds someone that truly appreciates
19:24the person that he is,
19:26respects him,
19:27like, just makes him feel worthy.
19:29Shit's lame.
19:31Shit's lame.
19:33I need someone who sees me,
19:36knows the pieces that I hide.
19:38Oh, oh, oh, oh.
19:44Tonight's bonfire
19:45Yeah?
19:46Hit me a little deep.
19:48I was like, sheesh.
19:50Yeah, no, I kind of figured a little bit.
19:53But, as expected,
19:55you know,
19:56it started off
19:57with a clip of Mikey Prime.
20:01And it's like,
20:02the reason that I say, like,
20:03tonight's bonfire cut deep
20:04It's because like I never wanted to hurt him in a way that I was hurt in a way that
20:08he heard me
20:08You know some shit
20:10You aren't the bad guy
20:12Like things were done on this part that led to this, you know? Yeah
20:16You should have showed up like that day one and he didn't
20:20So it's like even seeing him hurting like that seeing down the reason why
20:29That shit sucks, but I choose myself every time
20:34I chose you because you chose me from day one
20:38He never did that
20:40So yeah
20:43I'm glad I met you
20:54If like this was the moon this would be me so that means I'm over the moon
21:00Like I don't know I'm uh
21:03I'm just so very happy
21:05It's just an amazing feeling like she chose me
21:09And um I hope we're leaving together
21:12Have I said that I love the fit you look amazing
21:15Yeah
21:15Yes
21:16This love's gonna last for a lifetime
21:51What's the tea sis?
21:51It's really like you know you're you and Preston have been like glowing together like the whole you know the
21:56whole house could see it
21:57She's a totally different person
21:58Totally different person
21:59You're smiling you're having you're dancing you're like what the hell where's she been at?
22:02Yeah for real
22:04And it took you you know that clarity to know that and i'm super proud of you for doing that
22:08Thank you
22:09I second that
22:16It's sad i don't want to leave you guys but i do want to spend the last night with you
22:22And another thing i want you to help me with is how i should go into this final bonfire
22:26And like what i should say i don't know just like stressed out about this it's like not an easy
22:31thing
22:31Like i feel like the way i've moved in the house is a little up
22:35But like but you're single i mean yeah but like i also want to be respectful about it though
22:41Yeah and i think you are i don't want to i don't want to make it like a disrespectful thing
22:45i feel like
22:47I've you know i've opened up to this experience to the full extent i don't think i can open up
22:51anymore
22:51I think at that point if i open up anymore i'm just going to be a crazy person there's a
22:55line
22:56Yeah and i don't want to i just don't want to do it anymore yeah
23:00I'm emotionally attracted to you and i feel like
23:03We can just talk and it's not fake like cut the like yeah like i just think it's like it's
23:09more real
23:11wow thanks
23:21So we have an announcement
23:25It's our last night all together in the villa
23:27No way what
23:29So let's go out with the bangs
23:39It genuinely hurts my heart to know that the guys will be gone tomorrow
23:44These are the guys that have supported us through this whole journey these are the guys that have helped us
23:49find ourselves
23:50The memories we will forget and memories we will remember i love you all
23:55It's a long lasting memories cheers cheers
24:09I know it's been said many times but like i'm just so so grateful i met each and every one
24:15of you guys
24:16I know you know this is the end but i'm so excited to see what you guys all do with
24:21your futures because you're all amazing
24:23And i hope you know one day we can all
24:27See each other again so i love you guys i really do love you guys
24:36Say goodbye to these single girls it's it's sad i mean they have been such a monumental
24:43Part of our journey and i couldn't have imagined doing it with any uh anyone else
24:52Bradley come on
24:55I hate those mustaches
24:56I don't know his deal yeah it was not
25:00Yeah she like picked him in front of me at the first date and i just didn't think anything of
25:04it i was like
25:05All right yeah have fun yeah
25:08Yeah
25:09I don't get it but anyways
25:16We're gonna talk about the fucking journal though
25:19Should i lead in with that or should i like note that one
25:22No no no i would just tell her
25:24Like i've never gone through her shit in my life but
25:28Like we all make mistakes here too like i didn't cheat on you but it's like
25:31We all did like reactive emotional shit i assume yeah like i would just be up front
25:37Like hey just want you know i went through your journal
25:40i
25:42Regret it we went to your house i was
25:43Don't regret it but i'm honest about it like i'm not like looking through your
25:48Shit like under normal circumstances
25:50I think you'll be fine
25:53I think you'll be just fine
25:56Yeah i don't know
25:58Every time that i try to move on you do something to pull me around
26:06And i let my god
26:09Tell me
26:10It's the last night
26:12No
26:13I know
26:14I don't want to just like leave
26:16I know
26:17Without getting like
26:22Just like telling you
26:24Like how i feel
26:27Because i feel like from day one
26:31Like
26:33It was obviously just so natural
26:36And like the moment like we talked i was like i just felt like how genuine you were
26:42I genuinely
26:43Have so much love for you just like as a person
26:47And just like the way
26:50Same
26:50I know
26:51You don't know how special you are to me
26:55And like what you've done for me throughout this like every day who's my go-to
26:59No no
26:59Like it's you
27:01I know and that's just how i wanted it to be like i just wanted to be like a soundboard
27:06For you
27:15I told people like i would never shed a tear on this
27:18But no it's weird because like i genuinely
27:21Have so much love for you just like as a person
27:24Just like
27:26I just wanted you to know like
27:28That's not
27:30Wasn't necessarily like easy
27:33Because just like human nature like you just start to have like not love but i love you as a
27:38person
27:38I know and like who you are i don't want to leave without like saying it because like
27:44I just want to be like open and direct like i don't i don't
27:47I have been with you the whole time but it's like i'm obviously not going to tell you
27:51Everything because it's not about me it's about you but i'm just trying to tell you how i feel
27:59Bradley really is just like an incredible human and he has been my rock honestly throughout this
28:06You know he's been the shoulder that i've leaned on he's been my deepest conversations
28:12So i have a lot to think about everything going into the final bonfire
28:17It's been fun
28:18The best
28:19I'm gonna miss you
28:21Yeah i'm gonna miss you
28:23Love you
28:25I don't know
28:27But here in the dark
28:30There's a sliver of light peeking in
28:41Your role on my journey through temptation island was so important to me and i hope you know that
28:48I i mean i can definitely feel that but i'm really glad to hear you say it because
28:53Yeah that means a lot
28:55I mean we've said it a million times but just how much you love life and like learning
29:00And just trying to be the best version of yourself yeah i mean that's why you're so amazing
29:08I thank you so much yeah no totally
29:12I appreciate you saying all of that obviously i had so much fun with you and
29:16Seeing you happy makes me happy because like i just genuinely
29:19Like you so much as a person like i want your happiness
29:22It took me some time to open my eyes to see myself clear
29:29Pick myself up when i'm feeling down
29:32Burling with both feet on the ground
29:36Oh
29:39Our affirmation corner yeah i know
29:43Um
29:43Oh gosh
29:46I don't even know where to start like genuinely
29:52Am I gonna get emotional about it um
29:57The last night i know so sad because i've genuinely enjoyed
30:03Like every single day that we've had here yeah it's been amazing
30:09I like can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me
30:15Like i'm not gonna cry
30:18I'm not gonna cry i just didn't think that like
30:22People like you existed
30:25Like someone that could just see me for me
30:28And like force me to like
30:31Realize things that i didn't want to even think about
30:35And you did it with like ease and you just like
30:40Just made me feel so understood like every step of the way
30:45And even tonight like i'm still figuring stuff out and you're still helping me like figure it out and like
30:51reaffirm
30:53Like the right from the wrong
30:57I don't know it's again it's also been a blessing to show you
31:00How you deserve to be treated yeah, and that's like the queen you are
31:06And to own that shit and to own that you are that yeah
31:10And to realize like
31:13I gotta do this on my own and I need to learn to like be more independent and put me
31:20first
31:22It's like something I like never even thought about but it's true
31:28If he doesn't want it then he doesn't want to be that guy then he doesn't want to
31:34And you're content with that
31:38I'm like at my wits end
31:40I will not beg for the bare minimum anymore because you don't deserve the bare minimum yeah
31:50There are moments when we're happy and you take my breath away
31:58This has been quite the journey and my next step is just going to my final bonfire with summit and
32:06I am going to
32:08Stand on business. I'm not gonna cry
32:11It's going to be a game time decision on whether or not we live together
32:18I don't want to taste another kiss
32:25Because I don't want to learn different lips
32:32And yeah, it's hard to hurt like this
32:39Can nobody else compare to you
33:01Hello?
33:03Mom?
33:04How are you?
33:05I'm, I mean
33:07Well
33:09I'm really struggling to be honest like this process is way way way
33:15Harder than I thought and it's not like
33:17The journey I thought I was going to go on
33:20Are you tempted by just having fun or are you second guessing how serious you are with kaylee
33:25Or did you actually meet someone that you could potentially spend time with?
33:39Oh my gosh, are you okay?
33:42Yeah
33:47It's just
33:47What's going on?
33:48It's just hearing your voice nothing
33:50I haven't done anything with any girls or anything. It's just
33:58Good, let it out. That's what it's for
34:03It's it's all a lot and think of this opportunity as a gift
34:08It's a gift for both of you because before you settle down with someone you want to be tempted beyond
34:14anybody's imagination to make sure
34:16Right everybody should have this goddamn test
34:19And that doesn't mean that you need to commit to kaylee forever as your wife
34:26You're young. You both are young
34:28There's so much life to live and I don't know if that's what you're questioning, but if that's what you're
34:34questioning
34:36You need to do what's best for you
34:40Yeah, I haven't even said a word but that's exactly what i'm questioning
34:48How did you know that this is what I was pondering?
34:53Tell me you're my son. I'm connected to you. I think about you all the time. What's crazy is right
34:57before you called
34:59I felt that you were struggling
35:01You literally know me
35:04Oh, I love you so much. We know you're gonna make the right decisions. I miss you
35:10I miss you guys
35:12I love you summit. Call soon. I love you. Love you. Bye, honey. Bye
35:19She's verbalizing everything i've been thinking about and saying for that matter throughout this process, you know
35:25I just have to decide if i'm gonna leave this process with kaylee like
35:32That's it. I want to be with her forever and if she's not forever
35:37I need to decide that
35:56It's crazy how like close we are to the end yeah, like the met like they're actually leaving yeah
36:01Yeah, like this is not a drill. No. Oh, that just made my stomach drop
36:06I did not expect myself to like get attached to them the way that I am saying
36:11They made us like realize our worth. I'm just glad like we're all leaving here with the pizza then you
36:16know. Yeah, too
36:17You know, here they are
36:20Hey guys, hi
36:22This is so sad
36:25I'm gonna miss you. Oh, thank you. Thank you for everything
36:31Oh
36:39Chat soon
36:41Thank you for everything
36:43Seriously
36:50Oh god
36:52um
36:54You know from day one
36:57um
36:58It's been love
37:00But I just want to thank y'all for like
37:03seeing me
37:05For who I am
37:06I can't really talk right now
37:08But thank you for
37:11Pulling the best out of me
37:16We love you
37:27I've learned that there's still good guys out there i've learned that there's men that can hold an actual conversation
37:34Without you know having an end game in mind
37:39And i'm not ready for them to go home
37:41It wasn't hard to pull the best out of you sydney you're already so amazing
37:44Thank you
37:45It's gonna be fun
37:46I love y'all though
37:47For real
37:49Breathe in
37:51Oh my goodness
37:53Shit
37:55Temptation on me
37:55Temptation on three
37:56One
37:57Two
37:58Three
37:58Temptation
38:08Ladies ladies ladies
38:12Nah man so this is the end for real
38:15um
38:16I'm gonna keep it short
38:18I appreciate every last one of y'all for real like
38:22You guys have helped us in ways that we probably didn't know that we needed help with
38:26And i just want you guys to know you guys are beautiful you guys are honorable you guys lived
38:32In y'all's truths and y'all's stories and no matter what i hope that you guys can look at
38:37me as your friend
38:38Because i always got y'all's back no matter what so i just want to say thank you guys so
38:42much for putting up with my
38:43Bullshit and their bullshit i am gonna miss you guys so much thank you
38:49Miss you guys my journey here has been the craziest thing uh coming into this experience
38:55I feel like you guys got me through this process and everyone holds like a different place in my heart
39:01um
39:03I love you guys and i'm about to cry i don't know why
39:08Oh
39:10Thank you again
39:12I love y'all bring it in bring it in
39:14It travels
39:15Bring it in bring it in
39:21All right get out of here you crazy kids
39:23Bye guys
39:24Hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on
39:26What's y'all doing?
39:28Give me a damn hug
39:30Come here little one come on
39:32I'm gonna miss y'all bruh this is crazy bruh
39:35We love you mikey
39:37We hope you
39:39Continue on and stand on business stand on business
39:42I hope that everything that we gave you take into the real world we genuinely just want to see you
39:48win
39:48Three amigas we're signing out
39:51I just want to say i really do appreciate you
39:52Good to meet you cindy
39:53You'll do good
39:54I got no other choice
39:55Stand up
39:56Stand up
39:57Knees up
39:57These are good women
39:59To see them go it hurts
40:02We have family in there
40:03And they've helped me with so much to become a better person
40:08And i'm just so blessed to have met them
40:11Oh my god
40:12Don't forget about it
40:13Yeah don't forget about it
40:23Can we believe that we made it through
40:25I can't believe it
40:26We've made it through
40:27I am so proud of us
40:29I'm so proud
40:30I feel like i have changed so much as a person
40:33That it's like
40:33Yeah we have all changed
40:35And it's like
40:36We've evolved
40:36Yeah
40:36And for the better
40:38Yeah
40:38Coming into this
40:40We all expected it to just be like resisting temptation
40:43And like that was not even a piece of our journey
40:46No
40:47You know like everyone had their different ones but like
40:50For me it was like okay in the beginning scared if like what if
40:54Cole did cheat or what if that and it's like no it was so much deeper
40:58It was about trust and communication and like just
41:02Learning about ourselves
41:04And like who we truly are
41:05Yeah
41:06I think like for me coming into this experience you know like
41:10Being with mikey and his big personality like i came into this like
41:16I'm gonna take the back seat
41:18I'm gonna let you take the forefront and everything and
41:20It's like i realized in conversations with you guys and conversation with the guys like just
41:25I was making myself smaller to put him in the spotlight and it's like being here being with y'all
41:32being with x like
41:33I finally feel seen i finally feel like you know i'm chosen like i can break out of my shell
41:39and be like
41:39It's my time now like you know it's my time to shine
41:42I literally feel that yeah on you i think we like all kind of realize that yeah
41:48Yeah no matter what happens we're leaving here better people yeah we are truly he's gonna be like what happened
41:55to her
41:55Yeah
41:55Yeah and i'm gonna be like temptation island baby yeah baby
42:02I love it we're all shining so bright oh my god the personal journey is real baby
42:10I love you guys so much i couldn't have done it without any other group of girls like
42:14Seriously the best group of girls i've ever come across
42:19Like we will never be the same like we will carry these lessons with us for the rest of our
42:24lives
42:24Yeah yeah yeah i love you guys group hug i love you guys oh my god my girl
42:45How'd you guys sleep last night okay mine's just been kind of racing
42:52You know i came in here obviously you know with a plan and a set of expectations and just how
42:57This whole thing i thought would go and play out but realize you know within days of being here
43:02The problems that i thought we scarlett and i were even coming in here with weren't maybe even actually the
43:06The issues that were the real issues yeah yeah you know as soon as you get here you realize how
43:12Fucking real it is like there is no sugar coating or faking this process like you are just here with
43:18your emotions
43:19And single women and temptation i thought it was all about resisting temptation but it's actually
43:25For me it was a little bit about like
43:29Exploring that temptation i really just had to follow my heart and actually you know doing that is really
43:35How i discovered more about myself and more about what i want out of a relationship yeah yeah definitely man
43:42What this experience really is it's not about sex it was never about sex it was always just about
43:49Figuring out how how to make the most from this experience and become a better person and i truly
43:55Feel as if i've grown so much that like maturity wise that i can love at a higher level than
44:01when
44:01i came into this experience like you can't come out of this not being tougher like you went through hell
44:07yeah
44:07You know you you were gonna come out real tough yeah i needed to stop
44:13Focusing on pleasing somebody that
44:18You know at the end of the day more than likely wasn't going to work out in my favor
44:22This experience has taught me to be myself and uh
44:25Just be genuine and open with my feelings
44:27And even with girls too like they did they taught us a lot and the good times we had were
44:32like
44:33Amazing like memories that i won't ever forget
44:37It's too bad you know going into the final bonfire we won't have each other but
44:42You know we we've leaned on each other enough we're on our own boys give them hell yeah let's do
44:47it
44:47Let's do it
44:48Hey man
44:49I love y'all boys man
44:50Who would have thought we would have been here
44:52All right close
44:53Give them hell
44:54Love y'all
44:54Love y'all
44:55Let's do it
44:58Sorry's an excuse and you know it
45:01But i swear to god that i tried
45:05I just wanna be chosen
45:08And i need a little more time
45:13I'm feeling excited to see scarlet i'm gonna apologize and take accountability for the things that i think are necessary
45:18i'm gonna tell her up front i looked at her journal
45:23The old cole might not have disclosed that or might not have brought that up without her asking first
45:34From day one we had trust issues lack of communication
45:40Bradley mirrored so many qualities that i need and crave in a relationship
45:45You know he had great communication he had depth he was transparent and those are the exact things that i've
45:50been missing with cole
45:51Did you mean anything that you said did you not understand what i meant
45:59The thought that she might break up with me is in the back of my head
46:02From what i've seen in the bonfire videos it seems like she's unsure
46:05I know how much i love her and how much i care for her my goal is to walk out
46:08of here with her
46:09But only time will tell
46:21There's so much on the table cole and i live together we have a whole life together this is my
46:26best friend
46:27The possibility of leaving without him and not having him in my life breaks my heart
46:34This is going to be an extremely hard decision
46:38The only thing i can do is trust my gut
46:48Hi scarlet hi mark
46:58Welcome to your final bonfire thank you what are you feeling right now nervous
47:04really nervous have you thought about what you want to say to cole
47:09i have i think i just want to speak from the heart
47:13you're going to be asked to make a decision about what you want to do
47:17have you thought about what you want are you going to kind of wait and see how you feel
47:21um
47:24i think i know okay you ready to see cole let's bring him out
47:30can't tell how many times i've tried
47:36tried fixing all the wrongs to make them all seem right
47:41hey hi
47:42every time we reach the end
47:47you and i find our way back to each other again
47:52will this break our hearts or make us whole again
48:07it's
48:09destiny
48:11But I can't deny this feeling that we might be in destiny
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