00:00have you been able to eat or anything have you had a lot of anxiety i uh well i actually
00:06have
00:06um what i decided so i started working out i'm doing my burn boot camp style workout now
00:13i thought it no i just well just because i'm in a like a 7 by 11 style i figured
00:20i might as well
00:21do something oh i know and so i yeah you can push up squats push-ups uh i can do
00:28uh uh dips off the
00:31edge of the bed oh yeah and so i've been doing all that you have a pillow yeah do you
00:37have a pillow
00:37blanket and stuff or they yeah they well it's not really a pillow i'm just using the bed mat it's
00:42kind of rolled it's not very comfortable at night but oh i'm sorry well it's fine it's it's uh i'm
00:49so are you in good spirit through all of this um i am because since i started reading the first
00:55day
00:55it was really hard for me just to read the bible i felt like um yeah but i felt like
01:00as i started
01:01reading the psalms and stuff i got through well i got all i went through the whole devotional like
01:05all the comments they had about different things um i just started reading the bible today and i've
01:12i was pretty anxious feeling this morning but now i feel really encouraged so
01:18oh so it kind of comes in waves yeah wait go ahead just encourage you to just read the bible
01:24um okay i haven't quite gotten there yet i'm i'm blaring music though super well i'm i'm blaring
01:31music i mean i can try i can try that but i'm just it's just um is it comforting well
01:39i was
01:39amazed how comforting the psalms are oh so okay well maybe i need to get there it's in psalms
01:46yeah i mean you can just listen to me i haven't been able to eat i haven't even been able
01:51to eat
01:51hardly but i thought i was asking how you work because i i've been unable to eat for
01:56well my stomach isn't always settled but i yeah if it's not settled i lay down and
02:04it feels better after a little bit so um wow that's impressive yeah but i uh um i've i'm not
02:13eating like hardly any of the bready stuff i'm trying not to like eat junk mostly just
02:19eat the veggies and the protein stuff um and yeah some of it some of the some of the protein
02:27has um other like there was this chicken sandwich thing it was breaded but i ate the bread and the
02:34breaded chicken but like i'm trying to focus on just just doing that and hopefully i'll trim out
02:39some in the process oh yeah i'm trimming up i think i haven't gotten on the scale but i think
02:45i feel a lot trimmer now i feel bad like i feel like better don't feel as bloated as i
02:52was
02:53no before but yeah yeah i'm definitely not bloated either i've been i'm about i'm gonna be a skinny
03:01i cannot eat mama keeps trying to get me to eat she's like oh you need to eat some and
03:08i'm like
03:09i will try but unless it's liquid it doesn't really go down so it's like it's it's been a battle
03:17listen to mama try to yeah help you they said they said i gotta be well to to take care
03:24of all
03:24these decisions and everything and so anyway we got we got a oh i know it's good to hear you
03:31you
03:31sound really good and so it makes me happy oh i didn't feel good after our last conversation i had
03:37a
03:37lot of because i was like it felt really weird and tense and like we didn't really talk about
03:41anything and i was like i i was like i don't feel good so after it you know but it's
03:47fine like you
03:48know i i knew i just didn't know what happened and so anyways yeah oh sorry i'm walking i can
03:55hardly
03:56walk i get really winded because i'm so weak oh and my legs and my body i lost my laugh
04:04too
04:04like it's a silent laugh you know how when i was really sick with the silent laugh again oh yeah
04:10oh well make sure make sure you try to get some food in because it's gonna help you
04:16gain some stuff back there i feel like yeah well i'm gonna try yeah yeah give you a mat to
04:25sleep on
04:25yeah it's like a mat on like it's like a concrete bench is what it looks like yeah and they
04:30put a mat
04:31that's like a three inch four inch thick yeah wow so as long as i sleep on my back i'm
04:38pretty okay
04:39but if i try to sleep on my side too long and i my ribs oh yeah that's so i'm
04:45i think my back's
04:47probably getting used to it though oh baby i i just i'm so sorry oh well i love you oh
04:54well i love you
04:55too it's not a problem i'm happy i love you yeah well i yeah i will we'll see where god
05:05takes us
05:06through all this yeah and yeah and hopefully we come back stronger i think you know i think we will
05:12because i think that we're gonna realize how much we need him ultimately and that's oh yeah you know
05:18that kind of is where i think you know it's a good place to be like yeah being dependent on
05:25god is
05:25always a good thing so i know well you sound like you're doing good yeah i think that's just what
05:32i
05:32want to encourage you about is just like okay if you can keep keep remembering that as as we can
05:40depend
05:40on god god's gonna even if it's you know bad things that come our way god's gonna keep us right
05:47where he
05:47wants us and okay and when you know it's right now it's it's hard to you know it's probably hard
05:53to
05:54hear his voice i know it is for me but it's um the more that we put our efforts towards
06:00him i think
06:02he's gonna come through for us and i think that's what the promises i'm holding to you know okay that
06:08god's god's gonna be there so yeah just i know things are you know wild and crazy but you can
06:17you can just remember that in the back of your head whenever you get a moment here and there
06:21maybe to you know see what you know see what time you can spend with god okay i'll try to
06:29you guys
06:30should start in psalms you think yeah psalms is a great place because it's uh it's i mean you can
06:35talk to you know the different people there too
06:38you
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