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00:16The book Yoni Shakti, I wrote between 2010 and 2012, and Yoni Shakti is a woman's guide
00:26to power and freedom through yoga and tantra, and it's about bringing people back into a
00:32respectful reconnection with the rhythms of earth and their vitality of life.
00:40I was interested to see who else is connecting to these practices,
00:46and that is how I found out about the school in Denmark.
00:51And I was like, that is interesting, so I put a two-line reference,
00:55almost like a footnote.
00:58And I didn't think any more about it until 2020, when I was contacted by a reader,
01:05and she expressed horror because she had been studying at that school
01:11and knew about the terrible things that had happened.
01:15And then from that, I connected with other people who'd had similar experiences,
01:20said they all were saying the same kind of thing.
01:25So I found their website, and this little Danish yoga studio was actually part of this
01:32Atman International Federation.
01:37There are members across the world, and when you look on each one, each one has got a different name.
01:43In Romania, it's called Lisa.
01:47In Sweden, it's also called Nata Yoga.
01:50So when you get to England, Tara.
01:53So you wouldn't know that's anything to do with it.
01:56And at this point, I was like, oh, my God, it's everywhere.
02:04It was my life.
02:06Okay, this was 10 years ago for me, but there are still women going through this now.
02:10They claimed that it was consensual and framed me as a liar.
02:18I wanted to move to kind of leave from the position I was.
02:21And he grabbed both my wrists and put them on the bed.
02:25Like, be quiet.
02:26This felt like I've got to get out of here.
02:28I couldn't take any more at that point.
02:31He is portrayed as sexually obsessed.
02:34This is what we see from the files.
02:36How is Omania who are all going to the testimony of Ashley?
02:40He's the missing piece that I needed.
02:42Just watch them square.
02:45It started and ended with him.
03:14July 2019, when I left Paris, I guess I knew that there was sexual abuse happening,
03:22but I didn't at that point piece together trafficking.
03:26But I was just on this kind of constant reading rampage,
03:31becoming really kind of obsessed with understanding it more and more.
03:36The school was still operating.
03:38Everything was fine.
03:39And I just knew that every single day, more and more women
03:41were going through those same experiences and being sent to Paris.
03:47So Ashley got in contact with me and basically revealed why she had left the school.
03:55I was just like, what the fuck is going on?
03:59And so I confronted the main coordinators from Sweden.
04:03And they're just like, it's all lies.
04:07I think he sort of thought he could make some change from within
04:11and that perhaps people would understand and they could break free from Bivolaru
04:14and continue all the good parts of the school.
04:16And he wasn't able to recognise that Bivolaru was the school.
04:22The response was, our belief is so strong that we will do whatever it takes
04:26and we will support him no matter what.
04:29And in that moment, I just felt like this shudder and this coldness come over me,
04:33just thinking like, that's the sort of indoctrination that leads people to drink Kool-Aid.
04:38That's the Jonestown's sort of ideology of you're so aligned with this individual that you would do
04:46whatever it takes at whatever cost to protect him.
04:50And I just got so scared.
04:52I thought, holy shit, these, they're gone.
04:56So it was around May 2020 that I first spoke out.
05:03Hi, everyone. I'm Ashley and I run the Cult Awareness page.
05:07This is the first story I think that I'm...
05:08There was a lot of fear of being judged or misunderstood.
05:12At the time, there was so much fear in me and I was still trying to understand what had happened
05:16and I still wasn't sure where I sat and how I felt about it. And I was kind of oscillating
05:20between
05:21being really certain that something was wrong and that I'd left a cult and then also at other times
05:25wondering if I was wrong to leave and that perhaps I'd fallen off a spiritual path.
05:31But I just kind of had this need that I needed, I just needed to say something.
05:35Ask the teachers, actually ask them, are you sending women to be initiated by the guru?
05:41Is that happening? Just watch them squirm.
05:44I thought that I would feel really silly if I just went to my local police station
05:48and said, hey, I had this experience in France, can you help me?
05:52I just felt really silly. I didn't know where to go.
06:02So when I first heard about the experience of the people in the first school in Scandinavia,
06:07they put me in touch with Ashley, Ashley Freckleton.
06:10And what she sent me, I've never forgotten it. I actually got it, received it here.
06:15I remember it coming through on the email and it was her testimony.
06:21The photo was taken the night before I was trafficked to a foreign country for,
06:27want of a better word, a cult.
06:29People don't show up at yoga classes because, you know, they want to do bad in the world.
06:34They're like looking for self-improvement, to be a better human. That's why she's there.
06:39And there she is in the middle of London looking like really vibrant young woman who's totally
06:44destroyed by this experience. It's just wickedness to do that, isn't it?
06:50I think it's a good thing.
06:50Uma wanted to publish my testimony anonymously in the book.
06:54That was the first time I felt like she gave a voice, sort of on a larger scale.
06:59But then they came after her.
07:03And then they came after her.
07:04In April of 2021, I got a letter of claim, a legal letter.
07:09It basically says that all the allegations I've made are false, defamatory, severe,
07:15and it's going to cause their client loss of potential students, serious financial losses
07:20is their main concern. Initially, I think I felt disbelief. And then I was just terrified.
07:29They want me to tell them the identity and whereabouts of all the parties who provided me
07:35with the information for you to make the defamatory allegations. They want to go after the survivors.
07:40That's what this is about, isn't it?
07:43The whole process ended up with me going to court three times. And it took about two years to complete.
07:52And in the end, the judge decided that they had been out of time
07:57and that there were so many procedural errors that I won the call to get it thrown out of court.
08:03It couldn't go any further.
08:06It was a disaster. Financially disastrous, yeah.
08:10But I kept thinking, you know, the stress I was under was nothing compared to the deep suffering
08:17that those young women had gone through.
08:22What I felt was a kind of sickening sense that these really essentially good teachings had been
08:30twisted up to serve the greed for power of the person who was in charge, who was teaching them.
08:46What I felt was a kind of sickening sense that he was in charge of the person who was
08:47in charge of the person who was in charge of the person who was in charge of the person who
08:49was in charge of the person.
08:53People didn't really speak about him as a human being, more of a spiritual being.
09:00We were really encouraged to look at him as somebody who was enlightened and elevated,
09:07and whatever he taught was the truth. Almost as if he was Jesus.
09:16I knew that the school had originated in Romania. And I was told, don't bother looking him up because
09:24there's this long history with Romania and religious persecution. And he started teaching yoga when it was
09:32illegal and he's been persecuted and demonized by the Romanian authorities. And that's all that you'll find.
09:41So don't bother.
09:51This is a neighborhood in the outskirts of Bucharest. It's called Ferentar.
09:56And this is known because the houses that are used as ashrams by the group Misa. Most of them were
10:05around the streets.
10:11You can see that there are no windows or very small windows, very high fences. Many of them have
10:18very large satellite antennas. And in 2004, police got information that there was much more going on
10:28inside these houses than some normal yoga classes.
10:35In the previous period, I was the prosecutor of the case,
10:39designated to take my instrumentation of Bivolar.
10:48The police had received a lot of complaints coming from parents who told the authorities
10:56that their children were missing because they had joined this movement Misa.
11:26The police told the media that they had information that there might be human
11:32trafficking going on, that there might be organized crime activities.
11:45Well, of course, we had some surprises after that I was killed.
11:52I'm here!
11:54I'm here!
11:56I'm here!
11:57I will be here!
11:58But I was waiting for some women in the world.
12:02I'll be able to find these people well job taken would...
12:08I'm not enough!
12:10Let's go here.
12:11You can put the water here.
12:13It doesn't hurt anyone.
12:16At any question I was asked,
12:19they were opposed to me.
12:24One of them was scared,
12:26they were angry.
12:29They felt free.
12:32I was still, I can't say,
12:35even sad.
12:40There were no 20-something,
12:43or maybe 15,
12:45or if not,
12:46they had a picture of the head of the head
12:47of the head of the head of the head of the head.
13:04I was born in Transylvania,
13:07which I think is a very captivating place
13:11and magical place.
13:14Iogha entered through the contacts
13:17with my mother,
13:19which is a lot of spiritualities.
13:23It was a more ancient world,
13:26which we didn't have access to before,
13:29because it was communism,
13:31it was a more open mentality.
13:33and I didn't have access to these kinds of information.
13:39After the entire period of communism,
13:42people,
13:43once again,
13:43they needed to be agitated,
13:46and to create,
13:47and to deposit all the hope
13:49and the illusion of someone else.
13:57But I was searching for someone else.
13:58I was already pressuring
13:58for my parents.
13:59They were a thousand years old,
14:00so I was inspired by myself.
14:00because I had 12 years old,
14:01and I decided,
14:02I was curious.
14:07It sounded very captivating
14:09to discover
14:10that there is a spiritual guru
14:13who created this school of yoga,
14:16that there was someone
14:17who asked him
14:19to answer all our questions.
14:23The fact that I was standing there, along the master's house,
14:28was that something that was holy that was so intimate.
14:36So, the girls saw it on the Greek as the supreme shiva,
14:41the masculine symbol, the masculine symbol.
14:45Can you see that in my vision of a child of 15 years old,
14:49I started to see myself as a god.
14:59We were talking about the same time when we started the investigation,
15:04and this vision was very much predated and implemented
15:08and this vision of what outside of us is that there is a conspiracy,
15:17how spiritual we are.
15:20Right after the raids that were taking place,
15:24MISA started building up a defense and organizing protests.
15:30And then, exactly when all the heat was going on,
15:33and all eyes were on MISA.
15:38Gregoriami Volaru decided to appear on this very popular TV show,
15:42Mario Stucca, just a few days after the raids had happened.
15:53Good evening.
15:55Good evening.
15:56Good evening.
15:56I wanted to say, at the beginning,
15:58that I am not the leader of MISA,
16:02but the mentor of these movements.
16:05What did you say the guru?
16:07I don't say guru, except for the press and for those who ask me to criticize me.
16:14I am always considered that I am professor of yoga Gregorian Bivolaru.
16:20Did you have sex with one of the sympathizers, MISA?
16:25I don't always do sex with anyone, because to make sex is something of a gradan.
16:30Did you have sex with one of the sympathizers, MISA?
16:33Yes. So, if we made love, we made love.
16:38Not the degradation of sexuality, but the love relationships, as we all know, based on love, respect, reciproc.
16:51And my start was in the beginning of the 2000s.
16:58I was a virgin.
17:02I don't want to give a lot of details about my initiation, but it wasn't very special.
17:10I didn't feel any pleasure.
17:12I remember that it was full of blood, but it didn't stop.
17:19I remember that, at some point, I had tears.
17:28I had 15 years and almost 6 months.
17:32Yes.
17:37In manifestation, everything is in resonance.
17:41And God is the supreme creator of everything that exists.
17:48And the spirit, through the yoga practice, must have to get to know it more deeply,
17:52to reach the state of consciousness.
17:56Awesome.
17:57All the materials with the character of loving compassion for felic.
17:59And the physical shock is not so-s pega, because he is a bad person that is in anything else.
18:05And the physical shock is not meant that a physical shoe YouTuber living could be an headache.
18:07It was the luxury function that we had constantly transfigurar a constant piece yesterday.
18:15And instantly transfer working on theê² ì–´ìš” done.
18:25and those who are open to receive,
18:28with joy, my branch of infinite power to the infinite power of the macrocosmos.
18:36So I'm going to start now.
18:38He said that he's going to kind of transmit a state of absolute happiness
18:43to the viewers who are open to believing in his philosophy.
19:07You would start to wonder if that man is okay from a mental point of view.
19:20I've been involved in fighting against types of movement
19:24and cults for many years.
19:28So that's how I began to be interested in MISA.
19:36I wanted to understand the motives of Peradi,
19:39what was going on with MISA in France.
19:42And I started to read and slowly investigate.
19:46It was something very well organized and always the same.
19:52So they organized a kind of strategy where they ask women from everywhere around the world,
20:01except from France, to come in France for initiation,
20:05to improve their personal development and so on.
20:11After that, they go back to their origin country.
20:14And when you are a thousand kilometers, what can you do? Just nothing.
20:22It's difficult to accept that somebody is completely under the control of someone else.
20:28First of all, you absolutely need to have testimonies from the victims.
20:34And it was a kind of protection for Bivolari to not have compliance influence from French victims.
20:41I had reported to the Royal Charity Commission in the UK.
20:45Nothing had come of that.
20:47Like I put something on Crimestoppers International.
20:50And I followed that up maybe once or twice.
20:53And it never came to fruition.
20:56No one ever got back to me.
20:57No one ever seemed to want to take my testimony.
20:59Oh, I'll see you all righty.
21:00I'll see you all righty.
21:02I put some alerts on my computers.
21:06Paris Omania Guru Cult.
21:11And I quickly found this article in Australian newspapers.
21:17Paris Omania Guru Cult.
21:20The testimony of Ashley.
21:24Hello Ashley.
21:26allow me to introduce myself.
21:30It actually is, yeah, it's pretty wild
21:32because from where I was sitting at that point,
21:34he was just some random guy in France.
21:37And yet, he's the missing piece that I needed
21:40to connect in with the foreign police.
21:44So I was in touch with Ashla
21:45and transmitted this testimony
21:47to the Department of Police
21:50in charge of what is going on in terms of cults in France.
22:05This movement was also a difficult part
22:06We knew there was a difficulty with this movement,
22:08but before 2021,
22:09But, before 2021,
22:12we wouldn't have to start
22:13an investigation
22:14that was going on this movement.
22:20The first step crucial
22:22is the auditory of the victims.
22:24Kymard, which is a very specialized anti-cult unit, did reach out and said that they wanted
22:31to receive my testimony verbally. Then they asked me if I wanted to make a formal complaint,
22:38and I said yes.
22:41On s'est dit qu'il y avait visiblement une possibilité que Grégorien Bivoularu soit sur
22:46le territoire français. Mais c'était très précieux parce qu'il y avait un risque que Grégorien
22:53Bivoularu s'échappe et, par le réseau qui était en place, disparaissent et qu'on ne puisse plus
22:58mettre la main dessus.
23:06Grégorien Bivoularu este judecat pentru cinci capete de acuzare. Este vorba despre
23:11mai multe infracțiuni sexuale, corupere sexuale, trafic de minori, întreținere de raporturi
23:16sexuale, dar și pentru tentativă de trecere frauduloasă a graniței.
23:21After the raids, Grégorien Bivoularu denied all of the charges.
23:26Ce aveți de gând să faceți de acum încolo? Veți încerca să vă ascundeți?
23:30Nu, nu, nu voi încerca să mă spun. N-am de ce.
23:33But then, a trial had begun and he was nowhere to be found. He didn't show up in court.
23:40And the next thing we found out was that Grégorien Bivoularu appears somewhere in Sweden.
23:47Capturat, Grégorien Bivoularu, cel mai vânat român din ultima vreme, a fost prins și reținut în Suedia.
23:53There had only been like 15 years since the fall of the communist regime.
24:01So, MISA was using this argument that was still sensitive in Romania, saying that Romania is still a corrupt country,
24:11where police use force, everything, in order to convince the Swedish authorities to refuse extradition requests.
24:21Slavitură sub centură dată justiției române, Grégorien Bivoularu nu poate fi extradat.
24:25Asta a decis astăzi Curtea Supremă de Justiție de la Stockholm.
24:30Magistrații suedeți au temut că liderul spiritual MISA va fi persecutat în România.
24:33In 2004, escaped Romania to go to Sweden.
24:40Officially, he was living in Sweden,
24:42but there is evidence that since at least 2007, he went in France and stayed in France.
24:59Everything I did was very much connected with the school.
25:03It was my life for quite a few years.
25:08And then I started to date people outside of the school and met somebody and had a child, so my
25:16focus shifted.
25:19I was quite disappointed because there wasn't so much understanding that life with a small child requires huge amounts of
25:27dedication and energy,
25:29and I felt very much left behind.
25:34I was dedicating myself wholeheartedly to motherhood,
25:38and a friend of mine called me and said,
25:41Look, you know, there are some things that I would like to share with you.
25:47So my friend came an evening and sat on the sofa and began to give me accounts of women having
25:54really awful experiences.
25:59For me, I went in because I wanted to.
26:02Like, I really, really wanted it.
26:04So I never felt that I had to do anything against my own will.
26:08It was 100% my choice.
26:14But at the same time, there was a huge underlying pressure for a lot of people to do things against
26:23themselves and against their will and against their boundaries,
26:27because it wasn't really that safety to say, actually, I don't want to do this.
26:40Video chat-urile erau...
26:42A fost o afacere destul de recentă în perioada în care eu ajunsesem în nucleu.
26:50Nu am putut să...
26:51Oficial nu puteam să fac așa ceva pentru că nu avea vâstra.
26:55Dar, cum am spus, este lucrul cel mai normal să faci câteva apariții pe acolo, pe pașaportul altor fete,
27:01că era atâta timp cât erai asemănătoare, puteai să faci ce vrei.
27:05A fost în perioada aceea când am înțeles magnitudinea și când vezi 40 de așramuri, clădiri întregi cumpărate, când vezi
27:16comandamente la Costinești, când vezi hoteluri la Costinești.
27:20Și mi s-a confirmat că toată prosperitatea aceasta unei organizații non-profit vine din site-urile, video chat-urile.
27:36Sfântul Gântul Únărău
27:38Sfântul Sfântul Gântul Fărău
27:38Deci de gret a foste, și mi răsau că un treia de treia este deșel o lopințe,
27:47de ceitatea de la ciită cumpăriți de inni, Celauri va a a a ariam.
27:54Alla direita bázica a a B religionul B'sa a ariã.
27:59In terms of our growth and our development in the school, it started and ended with
28:07Krieg.
28:10There were very many teachers in the school who were incredibly intelligent and charismatic,
28:18and all of them were just so devoted to this human being.
28:25But anybody familiar with the yin and yang symbol, we know that in each light, there's
28:32always a speck of darkness.
28:35Just like in each darkness, there's always a speck of light.
28:41I guess I made an assumption that the speck of darkness in him was really small.
28:47But from everything Stubman uncovered, maybe the speck of darkness is much bigger than
28:53what we assumed.
28:59Misa and Gregorian Bivolaru have always presented Bivolaru as both a victim and a hero.
29:10That he has always been oppressed, attacked, harassed, jailed, tortured, beaten by the hands
29:20of the former secret police of Romania.
29:23Romania.
29:23It's called the Securitate.
29:31During the communist regime, we indeed lived in a closed and totalitarian society.
29:38That is true.
29:40But now, years after, we can actually look up in these files and see what really happened.
30:03The first mention of the Securitate surveilling Gregorian Bivolaru dates back from 1971.
30:16Back then, Gregorian Bivolaru was 19 years old and he was in his last high school year.
30:27They discover that he was in contact with foreign citizens whom he was asking for pornographic materials,
30:39such as like photos, magazines.
30:42So we have one of those letters.
30:45I think it was 72.
30:49I know a lot of things about your sexual freedom in Sweden and I want to obtain pictures.
30:57Do you want to send me sexy photos and sexy slides from Sweden?
31:02Another letter.
31:04I have a great sympathy for the German people and in your sexy photos I can see the emancipated
31:10comprehension of the sexuality in Germany.
31:14Later on, he was actually convicted to prison because he owned and distributed pornographic materials.
31:23He was not jailed because he was a yoga practitioner.
31:26This is what we see from the files.
31:29In the summer of 1989, raids were organized by Securitate in several cities in Romania to dismantle groups that were
31:39practicing yoga.
31:43Yoga had been forbidden since 1982.
31:47Vivolaru was leading such a group, so he was again detained.
31:51But this time, the Securitate decided that his place was not in a prison, but in a psychiatric medical unit.
32:03He is basically portrayed as sexually obsessed.
32:10So, in his own words, back from 1989, he tells the Securitate agents that one day, somewhere in 1986 or
32:211987,
32:22I met near my house a young 12-year-old brunette girl, I think she was a gypsy.
32:32And I asked this close friend of mine to have intimate relations with the girl and afterwards to present her
32:43to me in order for me to initiate her in sexual tantrum.
32:47This shows a potential interest in very young women since so many, many years ago.
32:56And also, it goes on saying that Vivolaru, over the years, has asked his women friends to recruit other women
33:05for him.
33:08He was subject to psychiatric exam, which says that he lacks the mental capacity to assess his own actions, his
33:20own deeds.
33:21And then, just a few months later, the communist regime in Romania fell.
33:28And soon after, special commission of this psychiatric unit decided to release Gregorian Vivolaru.
33:35And soon after that, in 1990, the group called Misa took birth.
33:49So, after Prague, I travelled back to the UK.
33:55And I started to realise how extremist the teachings and practices of the school were.
34:03And there was this website that was made by people who were enemies of the school.
34:10We were told that it was demonic and it was better not to look at it.
34:15So, New Year's Eve, 21, 22, at home on my own, I did look at it and it was like
34:24a mirror.
34:26It just confirmed what I was already feeling.
34:31All of those moments of doubt or incongruence now made sense.
34:37And this word, cult, that before, I hadn't been willing to accept.
34:42I thought that it was a term that was used to denigrate religion and spirituality and keep people away from
34:48it.
34:51At that point, on that New Year's Eve, I realised for the first time that I had to leave.
34:55And I had to leave completely.
34:57And I had to do something about it and I had to speak out.
35:01And then it became really clear their true colours and what they were actually capable of.
35:12So, they claimed that everything was consensual and framed me as a liar.
35:18And people who I thought were my friends were lying about me and saying, you know, how I'd fallen from
35:24the path.
35:25It made me feel sad that that whole foundation of community, which had been such an important part of me
35:34remaining in there for those years, was completely inauthentic.
35:39Wasn't a real community. Those weren't real friendships.
35:42And there was no opportunity for you to truly be yourself.
35:52I got a phone call from my first relationship at the time, Paula.
35:59Initially, she wasn't prepared to discuss any of it, but she revealed everything.
36:04And it was just the final confirmation that I realised, like, this was the last straw.
36:17The fourth and last visit was in October of 2019.
36:27I wanted to move to Ganga Napoli from the position I was, and he grabbed both my wrists and put
36:35them on the bed.
36:35Like, be quiet. And then, eventually, a little bit more after that, he didn't keep them, but he put them,
36:42you know, and then took his hands off.
36:44And then, a few minutes afterwards, I started crying so that he would just get off me.
36:51And then he was screaming at me for, like, three hours, saying that I was never going to be invited
36:57there again.
36:58Because I didn't deserve it, because I didn't love him.
37:02Then, after I left his room and I went to the room with the girls, he came into the room,
37:06and he continued saying horrible things to me.
37:09Like, he just repeated everything he said in his room to me alone in front of the girls.
37:15At that point, I said, I'm never again coming here.
37:18Like, I had it really clear, like, this is just, this is the opposite of what I ever thought it
37:23would be, you know?
37:26Like, this is super traumatic, like, it's not enjoyable at all.
37:29Like, I'm being forced to pretend that I want to do something I don't want to.
37:35And I'm being humiliated because I don't want to, you know?
37:42That was the straw that broke the camel's back. I just, I couldn't take any more at that point.
37:47I just felt like I've got to get out of here. I can't do this anymore.
37:54This investigator from France contacted me, so I did agree to give my testimony.
38:25I was contacted.
38:28Yes.
38:29By this special unit and through the questioning techniques and the use of language of this French unit, I could
38:36tell that they understood.
38:38I gave them my testimony. I just knew that that's what I had to do. There was no other choice
38:46for me.
38:49By the time they spoke to me, they'd already taken statements from a few others.
38:53And I really felt that, okay, this was 10 years ago for me, but there are still women going through
38:59this now.
39:01I mean, I knew that I was a victim of sex trafficking and rape, and that was clear from, like,
39:06even the therapy that I had done and some of the things that I had read until that point.
39:10But it was something about having the police actually say it back to me after hearing all of my very
39:15personal details for multiple days, having them say, yes, this is what happened.
39:19And it's a very serious crime under French law. And we will be absolutely pursuing this as far as we
39:26can.
39:30With the rookieobjects, with the magistrates, we had the performance operation.
39:35We had almost 170 inquieters who were on the floor.
39:40Just before the intervention, we still had uncertainty.
39:44What would we really find behind these doors?
39:49This is what we had never played.
39:51have a look at it.
39:55There were 175 police officers mobilized,
39:58a quarantaine of simultaneous arrests,
40:00all linked to a sectarian yoga group.
40:02The yoga guru was arrested over accusations of sexual abuse and exploitation in France.
40:07He was suspected to have abused dozens of women.
40:10I was just excited. I don't know. It's just...
40:12Honestly, when Ziggy called me, I didn't really have it.
40:15I don't... I can't really find the words.
40:22It just feels like the start of the reckoning that we all wanted to see happen.
40:28He will choose to select a certain number of women
40:31from the four corners of the planet to be initiated by him.
40:35It's an initiation sexuelle under the pretext of personal development.
40:39At first, I wasn't sure if it was real.
40:42It was like... just a lot of shock and awe and gratitude and relief.
40:48Come in.
40:57We're not there yet. This is just the first step in what will be a pretty lengthy process,
41:03but at least we know he can't be doing this any longer.
41:20Do you think he's a criminal guilty of those crimes?
41:24Do you think he's a criminal guilty of those crimes?
41:40Once I took my experiences and the events that had happened to me out of the context of their dogma
41:48and applied it to the context of other normal people's reactions,
41:52my own feelings and experiences, legal definitions,
41:58then I understood that what had happened was trafficking and rape.
42:05There's a yes in my system and also the story's complicated.
42:20But ultimately, the responsibility lies with him.
42:29To me, it was just like a bad experience, something then.
42:32And then talking to my therapist, she was like, you know, let's just put the name for the things that
42:37happened.
42:40When you were kidnapped, she started to use all of these words in therapy.
42:43It was really conflicting.
42:45It was like, I don't want to hear that. That's not what happened.
42:49And then she was like, she really helped me to start putting names on the things that really, like,
42:54to really name properly the things that happened.
42:58And then when I saw the charges that we were accusing him of, and then it said rape.
43:04And then it was an explanation of what rape means for the French law.
43:10Any type of sexual interaction that you had that was done through manipulation or coercion,
43:17it's also called rape.
43:26We don't have to talk a lot.
43:28We just have to read after your declaration to check that there are no mistakes.
43:33I do worry about the fact that I ultimately resisted and I ultimately did say no.
43:39And I left and I wasn't initiated.
43:41I didn't endure the same horrors that others did.
43:47Therefore, is that an indication that their consent was valid?
43:51Because I was able to say no.
43:56So this is the beginning of the shops on the Cowdy Road.
44:00So you can see the sign from here.
44:02You see it?
44:05They're not going to say that this didn't happen.
44:08They're going to say that everybody consented and therefore no crime occurred.
44:15It's all the debate.
44:17It's obviously what supported the examinations is that everyone was free.
44:24Every branch that was open when I left is still open.
44:30They target students particularly.
44:32So it's really upsetting to think that a young impressionable person,
44:36but potentially anyone, could just walk into that yoga studio and have a yoga class,
44:41just like I did, without knowing that it's connected to Bivalaru and Misa and that man.
44:50I see, at my level, as a practitioner of law, and because these issues that I often treat,
44:58that all these young women were under psychological suggestion
45:03when they suffered the effect that they played.
45:08What does France do, in a group and by a certain number of techniques and conditions,
45:16you will be deprived of your free-arbitre.
45:21I think that if there should be a trial,
45:24it won't be held before one,
45:27it's sure, but not before two or three years.
45:32I wait for you.
45:34We've got to wait for it.
45:36We wait for it.
45:40We wait for it.
45:42With the arms arms, like the soldiers.
45:44We wait for...
45:45To agir.
46:01It's been crazy actually, I'm just still trying to make sense of it all, just finding myself
46:16again. I miss the community, I miss the teaching, I miss being so incredibly inspired. And I've
46:25also learned that we can't just keep our gaze up to the light when we're standing in a pile
46:32of shit. The time that I spent actually in there and working alongside the other community
46:41members, I still feel like there's a sense of accomplishment behind all of that.
46:48I have often wondered what my life would be like if I hadn't been in this organisation
46:53for seven years. Maybe I would have had children, I don't know, like maybe I would have been
46:59in a long term monogamous relationship for that time. It's just really hard to know what
47:04would have happened and how life would have been.
47:10I think it's good to be curious about why we're here in this incredible planet. But life is
47:23hard. Life is painful. Life is confusing. A lot of really horrible things happen. And we
47:31don't have the explanation for why. And maybe we're not supposed to.
47:38And what we're talking about today is that life is no doubtful as if you have the power
48:02to take their power I'm still trying to figure out where I sit on the spiritual
48:11spectrum there is a sense of spirituality there but I don't know what
48:17I believe in anymore and I'm still trying to make sense of that since then
48:23I realized that I have this really deep connection with the spirituality if we
48:29want to call a god or the universe or source that I have such a deep
48:33experience that I don't need a guru I don't I don't need anybody else all of
48:38this exists within me
49:02so
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