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00:09We're off to the hospital!
00:11I'm sure it's 5 past 3 in the morning. I am but I'm trapped tonight.
00:15Hopefully in a few hours it'll be a ball.
00:18It'll be a ball in my mind.
00:20It'll be like crazy.
00:23Ben, now!
00:29Are you going to sleep tonight? You promise? Are you lying?
00:33Yeah. I know.
00:35Are you going to be up at 8am doing your breakfast with me?
00:39Yes, I'll be up, ready to leave for 10, yes.
00:41And the fact that Aaron has made the effort today to actually participate in this,
00:46it feels like we're taking a step in the correct direction.
00:48Like, my head was not normal when I first had her.
00:53If I get them anxieties again, I think it could be hard.
00:57Hard for me as a mum, hard for us as a couple.
01:01Shut up! I'm crying! This is not helping!
01:04Don't speak to me like that!
01:05Here we go, here we go.
01:07I don't feel like it's ever going to work.
01:10Speak to me!
01:38See, he's just opened his mouth to speak.
01:42Speak to me like what she said now! Grandma!
01:48I've been home from hospital for a week, and I still can't believe I'm a mum to baby Carter James.
01:55He's such a lovely little boy. He's just perfect.
01:59He really is. He's just a little doll and he's just, oh, I hate putting him down.
02:04I just want to squeeze him all day long.
02:06I did end up having a C-section, so I am still recovering.
02:11I am still in a bit of pain when my stitching is like a stinging knife.
02:15My midwife has been, she's took my dressing off, said my wound's called a little bit open,
02:19so just have to put a fresh dressing on.
02:21Sometimes I'll just get a shooting pin on the left side.
02:24It is not the most ideal thing, obviously, when you've got a newborn baby, getting up for feeds and that.
02:30But I am slowly getting there.
02:33Since Tyler came to the bar, things have been much better with us.
02:38But it didn't last long.
02:40Since I have come home from the hospital, Tyler has been staying here.
02:43Last night, we had a bit of an argument.
02:45I told him leave, never speak to me again.
02:47He said he is going to come back today.
02:49I think he just doesn't realise, obviously, the pain I am in myself.
02:53I can't just get up straight away when that baby's crying.
02:58And it's just, it just needs to be around a bit more.
03:02And just help, it's not hard just putting a few clothes in the drawers.
03:06How is it?
03:08Grandma's like a munchkin, aren't you, darling?
03:10Sleeping again.
03:13How are you feeling, anyway?
03:16Fine, it's just a pain. I am in pain.
03:19Is it just where your stitches are?
03:22Yeah.
03:23I know it's not going to be forever, love, is it?
03:24I'm already, yeah, I'm already, yeah.
03:28Tyler's back.
03:29And it just feels a bit awkward between us.
03:32I'm already, yeah, I'm already, yeah, I'm already, yeah.
03:36How's it been this morning?
03:39Sleep.
03:41Usual.
03:44Where are your friends you two now, what?
03:47She just loves her attitude, don't you?
03:50She want your help a bit more.
03:54Yeah, I understand that.
03:56Being a dad isn't just feeding and changing.
04:00There's lots more little jobs to it.
04:03Putting the clothes away, making sure everything's clean,
04:05things like that.
04:08Right, you'll never do it exactly how she wants it.
04:11That doesn't...
04:12She could say, right, you do this and do that,
04:14and she'll still shout at you.
04:18I just want you to start helping me, that's all.
04:21Just little things.
04:23Yeah, I want you.
04:25Oh?
04:27Hey!
04:29You're on my team.
04:31Even he's thinking stop mourning.
04:33You're on my team.
04:36Tell Mummy stop mourning.
04:40I know Tyler's joking, but that's the problem.
04:43He's not taking me seriously.
05:00You're better than Daddy.
05:02No need for that comment, was there?
05:04Absolutely disgraceful.
05:05He's actually washed up more in his four years of life
05:09than you probably ever have in your life.
05:10Mama said don't play with fire.
05:15This morning was so stressful.
05:17My car broke down and Matt missed his hospital appointment.
05:21So, Matt's having a rare day at home with me and the kids.
05:25You go get it.
05:26Get.
05:28It's great to have Matt here,
05:30but I wish he would focus on us and not worry about work.
05:33He's already planning to work tonight.
05:36He doesn't need to be going back to work today.
05:38It's been booked off.
05:39Just leave it as that.
05:40But the first thing that he was worried about was bloody work.
05:44That's the first thing he thinks about all the time.
05:46Just get work out of your mind.
05:48Accept it.
05:48We've missed the appointment.
05:49Just be with us today.
05:51Why are you working tonight?
05:54Because, Ainge, I've had a whole day at home with you and the kids.
05:58Yeah.
05:58And then if I work all night tonight,
06:00it pays for the day I had with you.
06:03It's not the fact of you working.
06:04It's just the fact that...
06:06I just think...
06:09I just think there needs to be a bit more of a...
06:12Home work balance.
06:13Yes.
06:14But that will come in a couple of years,
06:16when we're out of this flat.
06:21This is bloody typical, isn't it?
06:22I took the day off to go to get this stupid thing done.
06:25And you know what it means when Matt takes a day off work.
06:29What do you mean by that?
06:31I don't like being at work.
06:34I honestly feel like you'd choose to work later some days,
06:39certain days,
06:40because you don't want to come home.
06:42I can hear so much in the silence
06:45So alive, the temperature is rising
06:48I'd much rather be at home
06:50with you lot and have the money.
07:01What do you want, a doughnut?
07:04Is he allowed a doughnut?
07:05No chance, we've got dinner in a minute.
07:06Doughnut, doughnut, doughnut, doughnut, doughnut!
07:10If you eat less doughnut, you'd better eat your dinner.
07:14Why are you shaking your head?
07:16I just don't think he'd be having a doughnut.
07:18He's going to eat dinner in a minute and he won't be hungry.
07:20Oh my God, I'm not arguing about a bloody doughnut.
07:26Whatever.
07:28Right, I'll put fish good on you, don't hardly touch his dinner.
07:30Why not? I bet he will eat his dinner.
07:32Not a decent amount. I bet he will.
07:35Who would have eaten all of it then?
07:39You have sacks before your dinner.
07:41But I eat my dinner.
07:42I do it every day on my own, Matt.
07:44I know what he eats and how he eats.
07:46You're literally making an argument.
07:48I'm not making an argument.
07:49All right, all right, all right.
07:51The one time he's home and we're arguing about a doughnut.
08:09I'm five and a half months pregnant now, and I'm trying to enjoy it, but I just can't help being
08:15worried.
08:17Last year, I suffered a miscarriage, and it was one of the hardest moments of my life.
08:24Being pregnant with endometriosis and having lost before, it's so scary, and I want to enjoy it, because I'm so
08:33grateful to even be pregnant.
08:35I want to, you know, enjoy every aspect of this pregnancy, because it could be my last.
08:40Memories to remain in this house.
08:48My best friend Charlotte is also pregnant and has brought her little girl Ada for a play date.
08:55She also suffered a miscarriage, so she's one of the only people I feel I can talk to.
09:02I don't think I have fully relaxed this entire pregnancy.
09:05No.
09:06After having a little.
09:07I've struggled, like, getting excited.
09:10Which is completely understandable.
09:12Everyone's like, you've not got anything for baby boy because it's baby number two.
09:16It's nothing to do with that.
09:17It's just been so triggering, the bleeding, the pain.
09:21I think even now, I've felt the same guilt that it's like, I haven't celebrated this pregnancy the same way
09:27as I had done with the past two.
09:29Yeah.
09:31But until you've experienced a loss yourself, you then don't understand how hard it is to go through pregnancy again.
09:38It's awful.
09:39I hate going to scans because...
09:41The anxiety of, like, what is it and what's happening and is something wrong?
09:51It's nice talking to Charlotte because I can open up to her in a way that I really struggle opening
09:55up to other people
09:56because she fully understands how it feels to have, you know, gone through loss and then be pregnant again and
10:03whatnot.
10:03So, I just feel very, very blessed to have Charlotte as a friend.
10:12Like, I just can't wait for him to be in my arms.
10:14Yeah.
10:15Did you see that?
10:16Yeah.
10:17But it doesn't invalidate her feeling at the moment.
10:19Yeah.
10:37You used the potty today?
10:39Did you?
10:40Did you?
10:40Did you wear your big boy pants?
10:42Should you put your big boy pants on in a minute?
10:45Yeah.
10:46Juggling college, a new relationship and a toddler isn't easy.
10:52And to make my life more difficult, I've started trying to toilet train Khalil.
10:57You're going to tell Mummy if you need to use the toilet.
11:00Say, Mum, I need the toilet.
11:02I need the toilet.
11:04Good boy.
11:05No, thank you.
11:08I feel like with potty training, hand to God, I have not been as consistent as I should be.
11:13As annoying as it is changing the wet clothes and going through the nappies and stuff, I need to just
11:19crack on and get them in big boy pants.
11:24You're going to use the toilet?
11:25Yeah.
11:25Do you need to do poo-poo's?
11:27Poo-poo's.
11:29No, don't do it yet.
11:30Do it on the toilet.
11:30Do it on the toilet.
11:31No.
11:32No, not in your nappy, baby.
11:34Toilet.
11:34Yeah, let Mummy take the nappy off then.
11:36Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
11:39Good job.
11:40High five.
11:42Success.
11:43Are you doing more?
11:44The problem is, he wants to hang out in there all day.
11:47Tell Mummy when you're all done, OK?
11:49Yeah.
11:49OK.
12:00He's been in there for 15 minutes.
12:03I think I'll call my mum for some moral support.
12:12Hey, if I have to go through this, so do you.
12:15Khalil's having a poo in the toilet.
12:17No!
12:22Listen, Mum, listen.
12:24Khalil, are you all done?
12:25What?
12:29Oh, my God, Mummy's locked himself in there.
12:33Khalil!
12:34Open the door!
12:37Khalil, open it, please!
12:48Don't lock the door when you go in the toilet.
12:50You can get stuck in here.
12:52Get your bed!
12:54Rain's pouring down.
12:55Do you need to use the toilet, yeah?
12:58Do you need to use the toilet?
13:00Are you going to the toilet?
13:05We've made some progress today,
13:07but it feels like sometimes it's one step forward
13:10and one step back.
13:13Don't do it in your pants, Khalil!
13:16Khalil!
13:17Oh, my God.
13:19You need to take your pants off before you do the wee-wee.
13:22All right.
13:24Oh, my God.
13:25Bye-bye.
13:27Bye-bye, babe.
13:44All right.
13:45Aaron, Tina's asleep.
13:47It felt like Aaron was finally starting to make a bit more effort
13:50and we even decided to go on our first date since Tina was born.
13:55But it looks like that might not happen now.
13:58I was looking for the money that we'd put away
14:01for our anniversary meal
14:04and I asked Aaron, where is it?
14:06You know, what have you done with it?
14:07Do you know where it is?
14:08And he was just telling me how he could not remember.
14:11Couldn't remember where he'd put this money.
14:12Eventually, he ends up admitting
14:14that he actually bought his work colleagues some drinks
14:18and I am really, really, really annoyed about it.
14:24Lying just breaks down any trust we've built up.
14:28All round and round we go
14:32Should we talk about it this morning?
14:35No, no. I got up and went to work.
14:38What do you mean you got up and went to work?
14:41Are you forgetting the lies you told me?
14:43About the drinks?
14:45Yeah.
14:46What do I say about that?
14:49But I don't get why you needed to lie, Aaron.
14:52It's you.
14:53What do you mean, it's me?
14:55Evil water years kick off.
14:58Well, no, I'm going to kick off more if you're lying about it.
15:00You can just admit.
15:01Why did you feel the need
15:03to say that you cannot remember
15:05what you did with the money last night?
15:09I don't know.
15:11A little white lie.
15:12A little white lie?
15:14Yeah.
15:15Was it necessary?
15:17Probably not.
15:18It would just be nice
15:19to not have to call someone out all the time.
15:22It feels like I'm telling off a toddler.
15:24Obviously, me doing a nice gesture
15:27for other people.
15:28Obviously, I've brought trouble back here.
15:30Now I'm in trouble.
15:32I'm spending the money.
15:33Obviously, I should have probably thought a little bit
15:35before I did it.
15:38It's going to take something big
15:39to make this meal feel special again
15:41because now it kind of just feels like a bit of a chore.
15:43Yeah, you always let me down.
15:57Bloody hell, I've had enough.
16:02Teddy?
16:03What are you doing?
16:03As usual, Matt's at work
16:07and I'm doing the bedtime routine alone.
16:09Jessie, you can't escape.
16:12I was hoping for some downtime this evening,
16:14but both kids are really playing up.
16:19AHHHHH!
16:21Bedtimes are a nightmare without Matt here.
16:27It's supposed to be bedtime.
16:28It is nights like tonight
16:30that I wish Matt was home from work,
16:32but I think I'm just so used to doing it on my own now
16:35that it's just a routine.
16:37But it would obviously be nice to have some extra help,
16:40but that's not the case.
16:43There's one of me!
16:44And there's only one!
16:46No-one else is going to do it for me, are they?
16:48And just when I thought it couldn't get any worse...
16:51Jessie, what have you done?!
17:03I'm not going to do it for me!
17:04What is wrong with you?
17:07No, don't stand in it!
17:11Right.
17:12I just cannot be bothered to clean anymore.
17:15I can't be bothered to wipe that up,
17:17but I have to!
17:19I'm feeling stressed.
17:21I just want to scream and I want to just...
17:25I just can't cope today.
17:27I really can't cope.
17:28I can't, I can't, I can't do it alone.
17:40AHHHHH!
17:41AHHHHH!
17:42You could be right here, right now.
17:45So hard, you never come down.
17:48I've been going to be here.
17:51You're going home.
17:53Tyler!
17:54Yeah?
17:55You want me to come in here?
17:56Yeah, I will do.
17:59After me and mum chatted with Tyler about helping out more,
18:02I want to see if he's actually taking it on board.
18:08Did you want that?
18:10I've got some clothes away.
18:11Erm, yeah? Oh yeah?
18:13These ones here?
18:14Obviously when I was pregnant, yeah, he was playing in the back cheek and that,
18:17but I was doing everything.
18:18Obviously I can't do that now.
18:20If I stand up for too long, that's it.
18:22I'm in agony, I need to sit down and then I struggle standing up.
18:25So I do just need to heal properly then.
18:28I can be there for my boy.
18:31You're going to have to tell me where everything goes, kind of.
18:35There is something telling me he's going to step up here
18:37and he is going to be the Tyler that I obviously, I do know.
18:42That just chucking in dry.
18:43Which one?
18:44The very end one.
18:46This one?
18:48Yeah.
18:49Yeah?
18:50Why have you rolled it like a cracker?
18:53I don't know.
18:53I think we've gone better since the baby's come though.
18:57Yeah, he's brought us more, more together.
19:01Like having a baby.
19:02Look at him.
19:05Cute, isn't he?
19:06Yeah.
19:07His little face.
19:08We had little arguments and stuff.
19:11Little?
19:12I wouldn't say very little.
19:14But we thought we were just better together even more.
19:18Last night he did really annoy me though.
19:22I know obviously, I know sorry for that.
19:25But that's why I went home for a bit.
19:27Give you a little time for chill.
19:29Relax.
19:29Well not relax, but...
19:30Relax?
19:31It's the first night you didn't have a proper sleep.
19:33Next time you'd know off on that foot keep me hitting, didn't you?
19:36Yeah, I do.
19:37You would have had a proper sleep, wouldn't you?
19:39I learnt my lesson from that one.
19:47And that's...
19:48That's it.
19:49A round of applause for me.
19:53Job well done.
19:55I am very happy that Tyler has helped out and done things.
19:59That's all I need.
20:00Just a little bit of extra hands for your balm.
20:04What's that?
20:05The very first one, yeah.
20:07It makes us better for the baby.
20:10And just...
20:12It makes everyone else more happier knowing he's helping and stuff like that.
20:16It just makes life a lot easier.
20:34Let me have a look at him.
20:37It is an allen key that you need.
20:38You've just not got the right one.
20:40We're decorating Elizabeth's house bedroom before the baby comes.
20:44So while she's away at mum's, we're dismantling the toddler bed
20:47and building her a new big-girl bed.
20:51You're not aware for that allen key to come off that.
20:54You're not aware for that allen key to come off that.
20:57Elizabeth hopes...
20:58Actually getting a real big-girl bed now.
21:03Don't pull it off because then you'll break it.
21:07I just feel very proud that, like, how far she's come in a year.
21:12She's grown up so much and now baby brother's gonna get that cot
21:18and he's gonna have a beautiful space and she's gonna have a beautiful space
21:22and I just can't wait to see her little face.
21:25Let's go!
21:26It was crazy to think that when I was pregnant with Elizabeth Hope,
21:29I was putting up next to microbes alone,
21:33decorating my bedroom the best I could alone
21:37and, like, worrying about things alone.
21:42And now...
21:44I've got you.
21:46And she's got you.
21:49I didn't realise how much a dad could bring to the table until I met you.
21:58Obviously, like, I never had a dad growing up
22:01and my mum did a bloody fantastic job to the point I never realised
22:04what I was missing out on, you know what I mean?
22:07But seeing yours and Elizabeth Hope's relationship...
22:13..it's so beautiful and she'd missed out on a lot if it weren't for you.
22:18I'm just so glad that she's got a jack.
22:25We just feel so blessed to have you.
22:28I'd say I feel proud that I've been able to come into our family
22:34and make a difference.
22:38I just feel so blessed and lucky.
22:42Jack can wind me up.
22:43But, honestly, my kids have the best I've had
22:47and that's just the top and bottom of it.
22:52I love you.
22:52I love you.
22:54I love you.
22:55I love you a little bit more if you broke the drill.
23:01Alright.
23:08Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
23:14I step into the arena...
23:16No! Can you just listen to mummy? Stop that!
23:19Lil!
23:22Recently, mum life has been tough.
23:24Lay down!
23:26I worked really hard to make Khalil's room nice.
23:29But it seems to have made her sleeping even worse.
23:33Mummy's not joking anymore.
23:35You need to put on your listening ears now.
23:38Lay there now for me.
23:40The past few nights has been a headache
23:42because I've just been sat there in my bed
23:44and why should I do this room up?
23:47No!
23:47No! Khalil!
23:49He doesn't see his bedroom as a bedroom anymore.
23:51It's a playground for him.
23:52There's so many toys.
23:53There's so many things to do.
23:56Let's not be a fun few couple of days for me.
23:58Running solo's overrated with the crew like us.
24:02We check where we're going. Should we look left?
24:05And then right.
24:07Hopefully, a trip to the park will wear him out before bedtime.
24:11They can go feral and we can eat.
24:16How are you?
24:20I get no sleep. My child's not party trained.
24:24Mardo isn't.
24:27You know what? Let me move on this side.
24:30Because T thinks she's better than us
24:32because she has a five-year-old
24:33that is party trained and sleep trained.
24:36Not even.
24:37How's Khalil sleeping in this new room?
24:39I had a few thoughts the past few nights.
24:41What have I done? Why did I do this?
24:43Why did I do up his bedroom?
24:44As much as I love his bedroom, he doesn't sleep in it anymore.
24:46Is he being silly?
24:47It's a playground.
24:49Stairgate?
24:50It's already on the door.
24:52Bed bars.
24:53Not like a prison, but you know, like the...
24:54No, no, I like that idea.
24:56Tell me more. Do tell me more.
25:00I just have to be stern.
25:02Because I give in so easily.
25:03Especially when he's been crying for a bit too long.
25:05And he goes,
25:07I'm like, oh, you're just a baby.
25:09But you're not. You're two. I love you.
25:10You need to go to bed now.
25:11And I think it's harder when you're the only person that's telling them no, no, no, no, no.
25:16Yeah.
25:17You have to be the bad guy.
25:18Yeah.
25:18And you have to try to be the fun guy as well.
25:19Yeah.
25:20And when you're the fun guy too much, they don't take you seriously.
25:22Yeah.
25:23You'll get there.
25:24You can do it.
25:25I believe in you.
25:26I do it all just because...
25:31After hearing from different perspectives, like, it's just...
25:35I just end up understanding that all just stuck.
25:37All just stuck.
25:39And I think we found out today, like, no matter what advice you take or whatever you read,
25:43every child works differently.
25:44It's just a journey.
25:46This is why I don't complain.
25:47Because, what's it, when Cleo's being stubborn, I'm like, I should probably be quiet.
25:50I was worse as a child.
25:52My mum always goes to me, this was your karma.
25:54And I don't even argue with her.
25:55I'm like, yeah.
25:55That's what my mum says.
25:56This is your karma.
25:57And I think I weren't that bad.
25:58I was.
25:59I don't think I'd do anything for you.
26:06Just because.
26:16Uh-oh, yeah.
26:20How are you going to go play with Daddy while Mummy does her make-up?
26:23Hey, how you doing?
26:27Oh, you're so warm. Look at your little curls.
26:31A bit of this.
26:32Despite Aaron spending the money we put aside for our anniversary meal,
26:36we're still going to go out to celebrate.
26:38My mum is going to watch Tino for us.
26:41But it's the first time we've been out, just the two of us, since he was born.
26:45So that's playing on my mind.
26:47I have got my cameras on, so I will be watching my mum
26:50and seeing what them two are getting up to.
26:52I need to know that he's safe, otherwise that would distract me more.
26:55So having the cameras on in the background is just going to give me peace of mind
26:58and let me be able to relax and enjoy the time out we were having together.
27:03I do want to have fun tonight.
27:05I just need to try and switch off.
27:18This is nice.
27:21Are you going to take your coat off?
27:23I am.
27:24Just try and get the cameras up.
27:29Aaron.
27:29What?
27:31The cameras are offline.
27:33Unlucky.
27:35Can't check up on your mum.
27:37I'm going to call her.
27:41She's going to answer.
27:43Unless she does, should I get annoyed?
27:45I know.
27:45She's going to be annoyed that I'm calling.
27:49Your call has been forwarded to voicemail.
27:51The person you're trying to reach is not available.
27:53How do you have to answer?
27:54Please record your message.
27:56When you...
27:56That is cheeky.
27:59I'm sure mum and Tina will be fine.
28:02I just need Aaron to help take my mind off them.
28:05If they don't fall into us, rethink your energy.
28:11Cheers.
28:15It just feels a bit awkward between us.
28:17Like, we've forgotten how to talk to each other.
28:22I feel like Tina is like our conversation starter.
28:26It is.
28:27Like, if he was here right now, we'd be like,
28:29I'd be like, Tino, do you think daddy likes his food?
28:32Like, we just...
28:33No.
28:34Yeah, we do.
28:35Aaron, when do we realistically, when do we talk?
28:39Uh, wanting to go home from work.
28:40No, we don't.
28:42No, we don't.
28:43No, we don't.
28:47My camera.
28:48Is it back on?
28:49Yeah.
28:50Living room motion was detected.
28:51Uh-oh.
28:52Crying.
28:53Oh, it's...
28:54What's she doing?
28:55It's his mum blowing her nose.
28:56Oh, look at him.
28:57No, sorry.
28:58Oh, my God.
29:00Look.
29:02Oh!
29:03Can we see this?
29:04Cute little bean.
29:06What should we do now?
29:08Do you want another drink?
29:09No.
29:09Yeah.
29:13We might as well just go home, then.
29:15I mean, if we're not doing anything else, what's the point?
29:19Can I get the bill, please?
29:20Yeah, of course.
29:21Cheers.
29:23Yeah.
29:26It's yours.
29:27Keep it as, like, a trophy.
29:29A trophy, put it in the frame.
29:31The meal I paid for for our anniversary.
29:41It felt like a first date.
29:43Me and Aaron have gone so quick into our relationship.
29:45Everything's happened, one after the other.
29:48And we've never really been on many dates, so without me being either pregnant or having a baby.
29:55So it was definitely really, really awkward, really, really hard to do.
30:19You're all right.
30:22Feel like you're leaving her.
30:24They usually do.
30:25They just get a little ball, patch it back.
30:28Tyler's gone out for a bit, and I'm finally feeling up to getting out of bed.
30:34I'm really happy that he came back after I kicked him out last night.
30:38He's going to help out a bit more.
30:39It feels like we're a little family again.
30:43There is still things we need to work on.
30:46We will get there.
30:48We've stepped up now, both of being pregnant and the baby.
30:51So we can start those two out, definitely.
30:53Just as long as we're both obviously there for that baby, that's all that matters, really.
30:57With Tyler, though, I did bite my tongue last night.
31:00I was a bit annoying myself, but I thought, I do have to take a step back.
31:05You're going to have fallouts.
31:07Not everything's going to be hunky-dory.
31:08At this age now, Carter James is literally a week old.
31:12In a few months' time when he's doing a bit more and not sleeping.
31:19When you start not sleeping yourself, that's when you're going to argue
31:23because you're tired.
31:24I'm here, yeah.
31:25You use me.
31:26I'm not asked to do one thing.
31:27If you want to have a shower and that, I'll have baby.
31:29Yeah, but I'm not asked to do one thing.
31:32I know, but it's little things what need doing, what are not being done.
31:36So it's like, well, I intervene.
31:40Yeah, but you don't have sterilised bottles, you do that.
31:43Yeah, because you can't walk proper.
31:46Tyler can sterilise bottles.
31:47Yeah, but...
31:48Basically trying to say, because Tyler's not doing it, you're doing it.
31:51No, we've only just got onto them bottles.
31:52I know, but it does nothing else but having to look after a baby.
31:56Oh, right, OK, OK.
32:03I don't want you to do nothing anymore.
32:04I don't want you to sterilise, no bottles.
32:05So you're just being horrible now?
32:07No, I'm not.
32:07No, I'm not, cos I'll do it myself.
32:09Yeah, but you can't right now.
32:11You've got to look after yourself.
32:13No, I don't mind.
32:15Tyler can do a bit more.
32:18Well, I'll get him to do it.
32:19You had to fall out with Tyler to make him put clothes away.
32:22Yeah, I know that, I know that.
32:24But is that what's going to happen all the time?
32:26No, but we do argue still as well.
32:29And that's why I won't tell you nothing, cos no matter what,
32:31everything gets thrown back in my face,
32:33just like you've just done then.
32:37But no matter what you do, it's never going to be right for you.
32:44I'm trying.
32:45But I am so much biting my tongue.
32:48I don't care, I don't want to wear you anymore.
32:50People just don't understand.
32:52You just don't understand me.
32:55I am going to wind up about everything.
32:57Right, we can't bother, the conversation's over.
32:59Right.
33:02Sometimes you just don't understand.
33:04It's one of them, where Leone can whinge about them all day long.
33:09I've just said, oh, I really agree with you there,
33:11and then I get it all.
33:13Don't bother doing this, don't bother doing that.
33:16And...
33:17Oh.
33:20I think I know the outcome, what's going to happen in time,
33:24but...
33:25I suppose we'll have to wait and see, won't we?
33:29She needs to realise, at the end of the day, he's his dad.
33:31He's not done nothing wrong to her.
33:35Me and Tyler, that's our only issue.
33:37She's nothing to do with it.
33:38Sometimes I wish she didn't even live here at this point.
33:57What's these?
33:59That's your big boy pants.
34:01Are you going to wear them today?
34:03Yeah.
34:04With all my focus on Khalil's potty training this week,
34:07I'm worried my college studies are falling behind.
34:11We're going to take your napi off later, yeah?
34:13Yeah?
34:13Yeah, good job.
34:15Things are only going to get harder,
34:17as tomorrow, my mum's going away for work for a few weeks,
34:20so I'll have no extra help.
34:25What's that?
34:26I do feel sad, because it's just so nice having your mum here,
34:30and I'm not going to lie, like,
34:32I love the amount of support my mum gives me,
34:34even though, in the beginning,
34:35when I was first getting my foot in with this whole motherhood thing,
34:37I was getting a bit annoyed,
34:38because I was like,
34:39Mum, I need to figure this out by myself.
34:41But then, over the years,
34:42I've realised, like,
34:43there's no shame in accepting help,
34:45and I was like, well, just taking it,
34:47because it takes a village, like they say,
34:49and my mum makes up a large portion of my village.
34:51We're here!
34:53We're here!
34:54We're here!
34:55Let's go!
34:55But while I've still got her here to help,
34:57we're going to enjoy the sunshine,
34:59and a day out with Khalil,
35:00and my little brother, AJ.
35:03Wow, there's a train!
35:06Chase it, chase the train!
35:07Go, go, go, go, go!
35:11Hello!
35:12What is it?
35:14Oh, there's someone in there!
35:18Khalil, no, can we be gentle, please?
35:22If you sit here,
35:24we can watch them running in a circle.
35:27I'm going to miss you when you go tomorrow.
35:30I'll miss you, too.
35:32Well, you're going to be fine.
35:33I miss your car more than you.
35:34You're chauffeur.
35:35Yeah.
35:35That's all you miss.
35:36Yeah, actually.
35:36You're going to be fine.
35:38You'll be fine.
35:40I know.
35:41It's preparing you for the tougher world.
35:42No, I know it's fun.
35:43Yeah.
35:44You've already tasted it, so...
35:46And you're doing it like a pro.
35:48I never really know
35:52Which way this is gonna go
35:54Sometimes I do worry about Whitney
35:57because I feel she has a lot in her plate.
35:59I do give her a lot of praises,
36:01but sometimes I think she doesn't believe me,
36:04but I actually genuinely mean it
36:05because for a 19-year-old
36:08to be doing what she is doing now,
36:11to be honest, she deserves a medal.
36:17So, how's college and everything?
36:19It's not bad.
36:19I'm literally just coming towards the end.
36:22Do you know, there's a lot of mum guilt there, though,
36:24because of school.
36:25Obviously, I've just finished college,
36:26and I said I was going to take a gap year, work,
36:28spend a bit more time with Khalil,
36:29but now I'm contemplating
36:30do I just go straight into uni?
36:32And it's like, I feel bad
36:32I've not spent a lot of time with him.
36:35Do you know what I mean?
36:36Don't feel bad.
36:37Also, another thing to consider as well is
36:40when you take that gap year,
36:43are you gonna be strong-willed
36:45that you're gonna go back?
36:47Because you can easily
36:48keep saying, I'll go, I'll go,
36:50and then it will never come.
36:52Well, strong-willed to go back to college,
36:54so hopefully it's the same when uni comes around.
37:01If I don't start uni this year,
37:03then there is a real possibility
37:04that I may just never go back.
37:06Yeah, because I don't really have discipline.
37:08I may enjoy making money
37:09and think, no, I can just start uni at any point
37:11and then just keep pushing it back and back.
37:18You're gonna do what you're gonna do.
37:20You got this, you know,
37:22your habits under control.
37:23And I don't doubt that.
37:28Oh, I'm changing.
37:41Stop kicking your mum now.
37:43I'm not having it.
37:44There's a little piece of me
37:46that wants to give you sympathy.
37:48Teddy, you kick mum with me again,
37:49I'll be taking you to Naughty Corner.
37:50We're not doing anything.
37:51Me!
37:52Me!
37:53I'm holding it!
37:54My relationship with Matt feels really broken.
37:59But I'm trying not to think about that today,
38:01as it's mum's birthday
38:03and I've got big plans.
38:05Would you like to come and help me with Nanny's presents?
38:07I have set up a surprise birthday meal for her.
38:10So all my family's gonna be there,
38:12just like a little family get-together,
38:14which I think is gonna be really nice for her.
38:16There, there.
38:16Once again, Matt's missing out because he's working.
38:23Right, let's go.
38:25I just want to enjoy the moment with my family.
38:28I just have a nice time.
38:30Mum thinks we're picking up a pushchair.
38:32You look nice.
38:35She has no idea I've organised a surprise meal
38:38with all the family.
38:41They've got a table.
38:49Happy birthday!
38:52Happy birthday!
38:54Hey, you!
38:55Hi!
38:56What are you all doing here?
39:02Oh, fresh you all.
39:04I'm supposed to be getting a pushchair.
39:08Thanks, Ted.
39:09Give us a kiss.
39:09It looks very better, mate.
39:10Mwah.
39:16Yay!
39:22Yay!
39:22I know today is all about my mum.
39:24Tina Biscuits!
39:30But I need some advice about me and Matt.
39:35Did you like your surprise?
39:36Yeah, that was lovely.
39:38I didn't know nothing about that.
39:39You've actually done something.
39:40Yeah, I wasn't going to do anything.
39:42Bless you.
39:43But you've got the kids tomorrow, haven't you?
39:45I have.
39:46So I can go out on Matt.
39:47Yes.
39:47I'm gonna talk to him.
39:49Are you?
39:49Kind of just wanna say, like, is he happy?
39:51Yeah.
39:51Or why has he been acting like that?
39:53How do you feel?
39:54Are you still happy?
39:58No.
40:02It's just...
40:04hard.
40:07What I've noticed when you've had a chat before is like,
40:10oh, and if you're not happy...
40:11Leave.
40:12Leave then.
40:13It's over.
40:13That's all he ever says.
40:14But then that's, yeah.
40:15But does he ask me that because he wants me to leave?
40:17I don't know.
40:18I really don't get it at the minute.
40:20He's...
40:21He really is different.
40:25The feeling I get that when I'm around them
40:27that Matt doesn't really wanna be with Angel anymore.
40:29He's more interested in his work.
40:31But I feel that's an escape
40:32because he's not quite happy in his relationship.
40:37What vibe do you hear?
40:38Something that you don't wanna hear?
40:39I don't really care anymore.
40:42I'm just done with the whole situation.
40:44Yeah.
40:45Can't be bothered to argue.
40:47Yeah.
40:48Just see what you can get out
40:51within the conversation.
40:52It might make you feel at peace a bit more.
40:54Yeah, definitely.
40:55I think this chat is long overdue.
40:57Like, we haven't really had time to actually talk
41:00because the times he is home, he's sleeping
41:02or we just are so busy with the kids
41:05that we don't even ever get time to talk.
41:07If you don't hear what you wanna hear,
41:09I'm here to help you, alright?
41:11I'll always have your back.
41:13I appreciate that.
41:14It's a really hard situation, to be honest,
41:16because we've been together for so long.
41:19But I think there is love there.
41:21I don't know.
41:22I don't know.
41:23It's hard.
41:25It's hard.
41:25It's hard.
41:26It's hard.
41:27It's hard.
41:32Do you love it?
41:34Yeah.
41:35Can you get on?
41:36Oh, yeah, baby.
41:41Oh, there's someone in there.
41:52You're angry with me, aren't you?
41:54Yeah.
41:55Because we're all angry at the minute.
41:56I hate her.
41:57I generally do.
41:58I'm getting surprised.
41:59I don't even wanna be here.
42:00Do not touch me.
42:01I love you, but do not touch me.
42:02Today was one of the more frustrating days
42:03of toilet training.
42:05Have you had an accident?
42:07Accident.
42:08You're mainly there to be our support system with her.
42:12It's hard for me, because I wanted this fully involved.
42:16He's not a good partner, and the fact that if I get to do the washing up without, you
42:20know, clinging onto my legs and things like that, that's a favour to me.
42:23Like, what's gonna happen when the new baby comes, when she's like three weeks old?
42:28Yeah, I get where you're coming from.
42:30I'm really bloody awkward.
42:31I feel like I can't talk.
42:32I get fed up of being told, like, I'm always doing the wrong thing, and it pisses me off.
42:36And I feel like that with you.
42:37I'm not doing this.
42:37I just feel like, like, every time I try to, like, speak, I just get shut down.
42:42I love Matt, but is love enough to stay if I'm not happy?
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43:07Bye.
43:15Bye.
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