Her Mother Didn�t Believe What Her Stepdad Did

Unfiltered Stories

In today's episode of Unfiltered Stories, we hear from Alex Rodriguez, who shares her personal journey of resilience and healing. From a young age, Alex faced immense challenges at home, as she was subjected to deeply distressing experiences. Compounding her struggles, Alex felt unsupported by those closest to her, leading to a profound sense of isolation and pain that persisted into adulthood.   However, Alex's story takes a transformative turn when she comes to understand that she is not alone in her experiences. Through connecting with others, Alex begins to find solace and support, gradually rekindling her hope for a brighter future. Join us as we listen to Alex's powerful story of survival and personal growth, serving as a reminder that even in our darkest moments, there is always the potential for healing and renewed strength.   #survivorstories #unfilteredstories   Follow Alex on social media:  TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@lunareclipsemythical  IG: https://www.instagram.com/mythicallunar/  FB: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100084709194276   Thank you for watching Unfiltered Stories! We offer a platform for our guests to speak openly about their life stories and journeys, shedding light on the challenges they faced and the resilience they've shown.   Our mission is to raise awareness about survivors by delving into their stories, exploring the impact of their experiences, and how they've managed to heal and rebuild their lives.  By sharing these stories, we aim to break the silence surrounding those challenging memories and create a compassionate environment.   🌅 FOLLOW US 🌅  Facebook ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredFB  Tiktok ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredTT  Snapchat ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredSN

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00:00Those are the most painful things that she ever did was just neglecting me.

00:12My name is Brianna Rodriguez and I am a survivor of being molested and raped.

00:19When I was five years old, I was molested and raped by my dad.

00:24I remember my dad carried me home from a party. It was from the evening.

00:33I called my stepdad my dad. My real dad wasn't with me.

00:37We came back from a wrestling event last night and my mom wanted to stay in my grandmom's house to

00:46still talk with her.

00:47Including my sister stood with her. And my stepdad took me home.

00:52I remember this moment where when we arrived at home, he would put me down on the bed in my

01:00mom's room.

01:01And he would just lay me there and started kissing me and rubbing my thigh and then rubbing my heart

01:11down there.

01:11I didn't know if that was normal because me as a five years old, I didn't really know anything at

01:19all.

01:20This was new.

01:20He didn't say to keep a secret.

01:22It just like out of nowhere and then he stopped.

01:26And after that, I was super tired so I fell asleep because it was early in the morning.

01:32After that, like in a few days, he started making me touch his and then he made me suck his

01:42part.

01:43There would be like a lot of times what he he would do that.

01:48He would keep on. It would be like a everyday daily thing like morning to night.

01:55He would just like do the same exact thing.

01:58I do remember in the next house that I moved into, my mom would give me like sleeping pills, including

02:06him because I had trouble sleeping.

02:08But like every midnight, he would just go in and try to put his inside of me and I would

02:15just wake up to that.

02:16And I try to like say no, I don't want it.

02:20And then he'll just like like get out the room because my mom kept on calling him to see what's

02:26he doing.

02:27And my dad would say, I will be right.

02:31I do have troubles with pills now because it reminds me of it.

02:35There was my stepdad uncle.

02:38He came along.

02:39He was from Mexico.

02:41He also started to try and molest me as well in the basement, like put me into like on top

02:48of the washing machine.

02:50And tried to molest me like that while bending down.

02:54And I was just frozen in fear because I didn't know what to do.

02:59After that happened, I spoke out about it instead of them calling the police or like beating him up.

03:07They just took him back to the airport to Mexico and just cover it up.

03:12Never spoke about it again.

03:14I thought I was not going to see him again, but they did invited him to stay for a little

03:19bit longer.

03:20My mom only told me to stay away from him, but he's literally living inside the house.

03:26I'm literally in the house living in my house.

03:29So how I'm supposed to stay away from him if he keeps on coming at me and I'm just a

03:34little kid.

03:35And this was like over like over the years is just five up to eight.

03:42Those stuff has been happening.

03:43So I would just get beat up, bullied from school because I was either quiet and kept to myself, which

03:51made me started drawing because drawing did help me escape from reality.

03:57I started drawing like the power buff girls.

04:00I started drawing anime.

04:02It would just stop me from writing or like doing homework or just like learning in class because I just

04:11I just couldn't really focus on school more than focusing on my life.

04:17I remember when I got tired of being bullied and I got tired of life at this moment because how

04:26much it was affecting me because he kept on doing it like he kept on molesting me and I kept

04:34on getting bullied.

04:35And every time when I told my mom or my my dad, they would just like ignored me from being

04:41bullied and ended up telling one of the kids.

04:45I wrote down like a letter telling a girl the reason why I'm acting this way.

04:50And like she sent a letter to the counselor and the counselor pulled me in and I told them about

04:59me being molested and raped.

05:02And they didn't want me to go back to class.

05:06I was too scared to go home because I don't know what my mom would think because I don't know

05:11if she would still let him live there after, you know, all the stuff that happened because they did the

05:17same thing to my uncle.

05:18And that's when they call the cops.

05:22They brought him to jail and then court started happening.

05:25And during the court during the trials that was happening, my mom kept on sending love letters and money to

05:34my stepdad thinking that she didn't know what was going on.

05:38But in reality, why would he send love letters and money to him knowing that he was a pedophile because

05:45he would also hit me if I was disrespectful to him.

05:49Like he would just like grab me and slam me to the wall because I did not want to do

05:55anything like I wanted to draw all the time.

05:59And I would just say shut up because I don't want to hear him talk no more.

06:04And I would just get hit.

06:06When those court stuff was happening, my mom did not want to believe it.

06:11You know, I have a feeling she knew about what was happening, but she just pretend not to know what

06:18was happening.

06:19I know for a fact because my this was my my aunt told me when we went to my grandma's

06:27house, they started arguing with my mom because she knew those stuff was happening to me because they even warned

06:37her do criminal stuff and rape girls.

06:39And I was scared every time when my mom visits them, don't just say straight at her because she didn't

06:48do anything about it or she shouldn't have news sooner because she knows all of those stuff.

06:53She's a hypocrite.

06:55She would just say like if she sees stuff or someone tells her that, oh, a guy like molested or

07:02touched someone, she'll say, oh, no, why would they do that?

07:06You know, she was Catholic.

07:07So she'll say God will do stuff.

07:10God will like judge them.

07:12When I was sitting in class, there was this girl that was one of the kids that was bullying me

07:19the most.

07:19And I started writing down my problems about what my stepdad was doing and what was going on at home

07:30about like, oh, my dad like started touching me.

07:34My mom lost interest in me, like neglected.

07:40I wanted to tell someone because all the stuff that was happening, I need the comfort.

07:46So the girl ended up raising her hand and going to the counselor office.

07:52And the counselor told her that she needs to go back to class because this is actually serious.

07:57And that moment he said, so your stepdad did this to you?

08:04And I told him, yes, but this was just a mindful talk from my mind to another person because I

08:12didn't know what to do because I kept on like getting bullied.

08:16So I decided to write that stuff and I wanted to go back to class.

08:22But he didn't let me because this was serious.

08:26That's when they arrested him at work while, you know, my mom was at home.

08:32My mom didn't know he got arrested.

08:34She was just at home until they sent me home early.

08:38They sent me home at after school, but I stood there for two hours in the counselor office.

08:44After that, the next day, my stepdad didn't show up at home.

08:50That's when DHS came to the house.

08:54And that's when I had to go to the doctors, get it checked up.

08:58And turns out he did had his DNA on me.

09:02And that's when court began.

09:04My mom started crying because they told her, but I didn't tell my mom.

09:10And she was mad at me that I couldn't yell.

09:14I couldn't scream after that was happening.

09:16And he went to jail.

09:17The sentence was eight years after eight years.

09:21They put him back to Mexico and I just never saw him again.

09:26That was it for him.

09:28I honestly thought everything was over.

09:32Everything was done after he went to jail.

09:35So they decided to take me to a disability check for just in case if I had anything.

09:42They sent me to a disability check in.

09:46And my mom told me to lie to them to help her and to help me with, you know, our

09:53for living situations.

09:55So I said, OK, just to help them out.

10:00And I lied to them about about, oh, I couldn't focus with this.

10:04I couldn't focus.

10:05And when I told them and I pretend not to know some of the stuff like, you know, blocks or

10:11like words.

10:12And that's when they signed me up for SSI benefits.

10:16And after that, my mom started seeing me different.

10:21Ever since those stuff was being touched, my mom paid attention more to my sister more than me.

10:28Those are the most painful things that she ever did.

10:35Was just neglecting me by taking my money and just lying to me.

10:41Started bullying me by saying things I can't do.

10:45She emotionally abused me by saying I couldn't, you know, I couldn't cry or else she was going to hit

10:52me.

10:52I couldn't get angry or she would hit me.

10:55I was still getting bullied at school to the point I just stopped.

11:00I still stopped focusing on school.

11:03A second time it happened with a next door neighbor.

11:07My mom was outside with my sister smoking and hanging out with the friends.

11:12I was upstairs playing video games and this stranger came in and decided to molest me.

11:20I was playing video games.

11:22He came in and I was trying to focus on playing games.

11:25And he just whipped out his...

11:28And I told him to stop. I don't feel comfortable. Please go away.

11:33And he said sorry.

11:35But he just stand there just playing.

11:37And then he started to kiss my neck and then laid me down.

11:42And I was just frozen in fear.

11:44And he started to do stuff to me like my dad did and my uncle.

11:51After that, a few days later, my mom...

11:54My mom heard my sister ran to her and she told my mom that I was a whore.

12:01That I should get beaten up because I was...

12:06I was getting touched by him.

12:08And my sister started blaming me and she said I shouldn't have beat you up.

12:15And they were outside talking with their friends.

12:17And I didn't know what to do at this point.

12:20And they started blaming me for I shouldn't have done it.

12:23And they started defending him because he was high and that was a brother.

12:28And we have court and then my mom wasn't sitting with me during court.

12:36She was sitting with them and that felt betrayed.

12:40They cared more about my sister's boyfriend brother more than me.

12:45And my mom cared about her friends and them more than me.

12:49He went to jail, the molester that molested me.

12:54And they just kept on neglecting me by not talking to me.

12:59There was no communication.

13:01After that, that's when I told the DHS before they leave that I want to move in with my aunt.

13:08Because I think it's better than living with the people that didn't pay attention or care about me.

13:15I had nowhere to go.

13:17Instead, I went to job courts to graduate from there.

13:20It was like a program.

13:21This was the last court, but it really did mess me up more about my self-esteem.

13:26Because they found him not guilty from sexual assault.

13:30And my aunt was being childish and then laughing at me.

13:34Because, you know, females in my family, females always protect guys over children.

13:41And it's very wrong.

13:43There was so many stuff that happened between me and my aunt and my uncle ever since I moved in

13:50with her.

13:50Like, my aunt, if we were happy and if she was sad, then she'll try to make us upset or

13:59mad because she was mad.

14:01Or if we were sad, they'll threaten to hit us or take something away from us.

14:06Like, phones, technologies, or like art.

14:10It was, they were emotionally abused.

14:12My aunt was emotionally abusing me.

14:14After the neighbor though, my uncle sexually assaulted me.

14:18This was twice.

14:19After my mom and the next door neighbor, I moved in with my aunt.

14:22And after my uncle touched me, I think it was the only way to get away from my mom.

14:28But even though my uncle did touch me, I thought he wouldn't do it again, but he did.

14:33So another court case appeared with my uncle.

14:36And that's when court ended last year on my birthday.

14:40I'm 22.

14:42The court thing ended, you know, on when I turned 22.

14:48That was last year.

14:49After the neighbor got put to jail, everyone just dismissed it like it was normal.

14:58When the court was finished, and this was the last trial for the next door neighbor,

15:03we were sitting in the living room from like the doors.

15:07I was inside the room, but there was like a large window glass.

15:11And my mom looked at me and questioned me about what's happening.

15:18I told her that I want to go live with my aunt because I don't feel safe living with her.

15:27And my mom started crying because I wanted to make that decision.

15:32After that, I waited a few minutes.

15:35And that's when I called my aunt and I told her that I want to live with you.

15:42And then she said, are you sure?

15:46And I was definitely sure because I think it's better to not have that situation happen again.

15:54And after that, we went back home.

15:57I started packing my bags, my belongings, and my aunt arrived after an hour later.

16:04I went downstairs.

16:05My mom bought my little pony headphones that I wanted for like a really long time.

16:12And this was just only a pair of headphones that was from, you know, probably five and below.

16:18But I did want it.

16:19And my mom tried to bribe me just to stay with her.

16:23So she bought me headphones so I won't leave her.

16:26And I just shook my head no.

16:29And, you know, my mom was crying.

16:31She was trying to guilt trip me because I did not want to live with her no more.

16:35And she was just looking at me really upset.

16:39And she looked angry.

16:41After that, my mom didn't really visit me at all.

16:45She would visit me once in the blue just to drink with my aunt.

16:50And that's when I started skipping class.

16:55And sometimes I would just go to classes that I'm not interested in.

17:00And I was just tired.

17:02I was living with my grandma a bit.

17:04And she did not want me either because it was my mom responsibility.

17:09My grandma did not like me because I wasn't doing nothing with my life.

17:14I do remember sitting in the stairway crying because I only had, like, a month left until I had to

17:23move in with my mom again.

17:24I don't smoke.

17:26I don't drink.

17:27Like, I don't want to be like my mom and my sister drinking and smoking.

17:31I want to choose a good path of my life.

17:34I didn't want to mess up.

17:35I remember sitting in their stairway crying.

17:39And one of the principals, he was new.

17:42He came in and saw me sit in the stairway.

17:45And he questioned what was wrong.

17:48And I told him my house and situation in my family.

17:52And he got me a counselor, a co-worker.

17:57I went in there and sat down.

17:59I told them my past story, my life situation right now.

18:03They introduced me to a program called Job Corps.

18:07So I applied to there and I went for an interview to sign up.

18:13And they told me if you want to move in there, you know, move out faster, you can.

18:17It just depends on, you know, your situation right now.

18:22And I told them that I want to move out immediately.

18:25I had to pack up for at least until midnight and then wake up early just to move out of

18:33my grandmom's house.

18:35Job Corps is basically a program that you can graduate from your G&D and high school diploma.

18:43But in order to graduate, you have to have a trade with you.

18:46I did culinary arts for two years.

18:50I just moved on with my life.

18:53And I did met a friend from Job Corps.

18:56We started being friends in a pandemic and we both graduated.

19:01And it turns out he moved closer, like a few blocks away from me.

19:05He told me I can move in with him.

19:08I told him about my family situations and he understand that.

19:12And that's when I moved in with him.

19:15And I just, I cut ties with my mom.

19:17And after that, I didn't know how to get insurance.

19:21I didn't know how to get therapy.

19:23So after that, my illness was getting worse, more like complex.

19:29Because I started having complex PTSD when I was eight years old, like nightmares and flashbacks.

19:35I found out that I have complex PTSD when I was, when I was 19.

19:40Because I was on the computer discovering myself or what do I have.

19:46And it said I have PTSD.

19:48I met my boyfriend through Discord.

19:52Things started to go good.

19:54And that's when we, you know, started going to date.

20:00And I moved in with him.

20:02His family really liked me.

20:04I moved in with him.

20:06Like right now, I'm still living with him after two years later.

20:12And I'm still healing after the whole impact.

20:17After last year, I'm still healing from that, from all the stuff that happened.

20:22I was able to find insurance.

20:24I was able to find a therapist.

20:27But it didn't work out that much because it wasn't really helping.

20:31So I'm still looking for therapy.

20:33I haven't found forgiveness yet.

20:35Because stuff that happened last year did still impact me as a little kid until now.

20:41I'm still figuring out myself.

20:43And the most out of all healing that did help me in life is my friend's mother wants to adopt

20:52me.

20:52To be adopted, I want to be offered to be adopted.

20:56And I did not want to ask people that want to adopt me.

21:01My mom doesn't deserve to have a child in her life, even by name, including my biological dad.

21:08Because even though he wasn't in my life, he was also the same things go to the stepdad.

21:15He was a pedophile.

21:16He was a rapist and abuser.

21:18And he also didn't deserve to be my biological dad.

21:22I feel safe now.

21:24I don't have to be around a lot of men.

21:28I still have trouble with older men, but I feel safe.

21:32What helped me got through it, it's basically reminding yourself that you're not alone.

21:39And other people also have the same situation as you.

21:44And we're all here for each other.

21:46And I know they're going to get through life so far.

21:49I know it's tough on them, but you don't have your hopes down.

21:53Bring them back up.

21:54Even if they're family.

21:56Even when they're toxic, ignore them if they're being toxic.

22:01Find better people in your life.

22:03Find a better friend and family that can help you.

22:06And just be there for you when you're in your bad times.

22:10And also comfort you from the stuff you're going through.

22:14I have social anxiety.

22:17I would dissociate sometimes because some certain stuff will still trigger me until this day.

22:23I'm still learning how to heal, learning how to communicate more by that.

22:29It's hard to express my emotions because I get scared of telling people how I feel.

22:35And I get scared that they're like them, like my family back then.

22:40Even though my boyfriend said, oh, we're not like them.

22:44I guess there's certain stuff that does trigger me, reminds me of it.

22:49So sometimes I would get scared of not telling them what's wrong.

22:52I told my mom that I was going to kill myself.

22:56And she said, go ahead, kill yourself then.

22:59And that's when she left to her room.

23:03And I grabbed the pills from the downstairs where my mom keeps her medication.

23:09Grab a bottle of water.

23:10And I took one pill.

23:13And I threw it back up because I had trouble with pills.

23:17Because sleeping pills.

23:18I thought to myself, what if I committed suicide?

23:22I know my mom wouldn't care because she said that.

23:25Or she'll just like lie to the people saying that she loved me.

23:29She took care of me.

23:30She, like, cared me as a daughter.

23:33But, like, I couldn't let that happen.

23:36So I just stopped myself from taking more pills at that very moment.

23:41And just let myself be.

23:43You're not supposed to blame you for all the stuff that happened to you.

23:46So when I thought about that, it's like, you know what?

23:51I'm going to get myself a chance.

23:52And just, like, try and relive my life.

23:56I want to live a good life.

23:58Before I die, I said to myself, before I die, I want to live a good life.

24:02Before anything happens.

24:04Me thinking to myself, even though I have a bad life right now,

24:07I want to have a good life before I die.

24:10Not just a bad life and then just die without anything good.

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