00:00This is Tim Wasper from Festtrek Concert TV.
00:28I'm here at the Regal Cinemas Union Square in New York City for Dances with Films New York.
00:36I think sometimes it feels like I can only be loved if I am the best.
00:43And like getting cut and getting rejected audition after audition after audition.
00:49It just feels like I'm not good enough sometimes.
00:52And that's hard because I've worked so hard, you know?
00:58But it's not going to stop me.
01:08What do I truly want? How do I truly feel about things and life and my relationships and dance and my career?
01:20Now I only want words for you.
01:24So the Enneagram is an ancient personality tool mixed with modern psychology.
01:32And it is a framework that shows us nine different lenses through seeing the world.
01:42What it is, is it's a framework that shows us what is motivating people.
01:50And so behavior can look the same, but the motivation behind the behavior is different.
01:55So it shows us nine different types.
01:58The episode is about the type three, the achiever.
02:01So the core desire of the achiever is to be seen as successful and valuable and admired by others.
02:12And the core fear is of being seen as worthless.
02:16So there's this drive and this need to achieve and be the best and take on a lot of work.
02:24And just, just, it's about doing and they forget that the most important thing is the being.
02:37My name is Haley Davis. I am 25 years old.
02:42I'm a dancer. I live in New York city and I'm a type three on the Enneagram,
02:49which is the performer also known as the achiever.
02:54How I show up in the world in spaces, I come across very confident, but I struggled deeply.
03:06Especially with insecurity and the feeling of not being good enough.
03:13I want so badly to be the best.
03:18And I think becoming so obsessed with what other people think of me and how I show up to them,
03:27that sometimes I don't feel like I know who I am to myself.
03:32But that goes to being the subject. You have to take that in and also put it away.
03:38Totally.
03:39Could you talk about that because, you know, being an artist, but also being a technician and mixing that with passion.
03:46I think I've worked with Lauren for a long time and Lauren and John John are DP.
03:53They really created a space that I felt safe enough to sort of drop down those walls and show what was going on internally.
04:04But then when it would come to shooting a dance scene, because I'm a three, that part's easy.
04:11Like it's easy for me to zip it up and like dance and give you what you need from me.
04:16So that part was really fun and came easy.
04:20But yeah, the sort of dropping of the walls and letting the world in on what was actually happening was difficult.
04:28But they just provided such a safe space for me to do that, that I was able to.
04:36So, yeah.
04:37Hi, sweetie.
04:38Come in.
04:39Hi, baby.
04:40Hi, Mikey.
04:41Love you, baby.
04:42Love you.
04:43Love you, baby.
04:44Love you.
04:45Okay.
04:46Are we going to show you the studio?
04:49Yeah.
04:50Okay.
04:51Let's do it.
04:52You have to be the...
04:53I guess so.
04:55Okay.
04:56So where should we start?
04:58So I grew up training in my mother's dance studio and that's where I learned how to dance.
05:09She was my first teacher.
05:11She taught me my first solos and choreographed like the first performances that I ever did
05:21was her choreography and her teaching me, which is pretty, pretty special.
05:26Yeah.
05:27Where did you find the balance between showing her true self, showing her your true self,
05:32but then also, I mean, bringing yourself into it.
05:36I was both nervous about that, that, you know, I did, you know, know her so well.
05:43And it was the perfect subject to start the whole process with because I had that sort
05:49of safety in the development of things.
05:51And she really, we had the rapport and the, and the trust.
05:55And so I knew, I was like, if this is going to be impactful, I need someone who is going
06:01to be authentic and, and, and say what's actually going on with them.
06:06And that's where I need to start.
06:08And if I have to pull it out of other people, that's fine.
06:10But I knew with her specifically that we had the rapport there.
06:13So yeah, balancing that it does, it is tricky because I do know so much about her and I'm,
06:19but I want the audience to know.
06:21But she knows about you too.
06:22Sure.
06:23Oh yes.
06:24Sure.
06:25Very, that's very true.
06:26And I think another layer, this started when I was in my early twenties.
06:34And I think Lauren could see things in me before I could see them in myself.
06:41So there was a part of like, she, I think as humans that often happens, we can see what's
06:47happening with someone, but they might not actually, totally, totally.
06:53Yeah.
06:54Yeah.
06:55Um, but I think that was a, an interesting layer of it.
06:58First ballet was at three when she wasn't even supposed to be in it.
07:02Her first recital was at two.
07:06They finished in a kneel on the stage at the end, the audience clapped.
07:11She stood up and she ran to the edge of the stage.
07:16And put her arms out.
07:18So that was it done.
07:21She was hooked from then on.
07:25As a dancer and performer, I think we all deal with that every day in my career,
07:31because I want you to see me, um, in a specific way.
07:36I don't want you to see all of me, but what has been like uncovered through all of this
07:44is that all of me is actually why people are drawn to me.
07:50So my instinct is to zip it up and to like, be this, um, specific version of myself.
07:59And the, the dichotomy of it is that actually all of me is why people are drawn to me.
08:05And, uh, learning that and sort of sitting with that and knowing that it's okay to show up as like the messiest version of myself.
08:14And that, that is also loved and okay.
08:18Um, and actually I think makes me more relatable.
08:22Um, yeah, learning that part of it has, has been really interesting.
08:27And I, I think I've been able to, to sort of bring that into rooms, um, and into spaces that I work in more and, and have found a more authentic experience when I can show up that way.
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