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00:00I'm going to be giving Nick the special boudoir calendar that we made.
00:05I was just feeling a little insecure that day in my lingerie.
00:09Her negative self-talk can just kind of create a bad energy in the house.
00:13You need no armor here. Put your shield down.
00:18I have kind of been talking to someone else.
00:20I have knots in my stomach right now. Like, we're cheating on her.
00:24Have you started dating other women?
00:27I went on a date with someone.
00:30Her and Angelica didn't feel right. The three of us didn't feel right.
00:33Angelica met this person.
00:33Yeah, she met her before.
00:35Wow.
00:35I find out he was dating somebody else. Now, Angelica lied to me about it. I just, I can't do this anymore.
00:43I'm definitely heartbroken right now. There's no coming back from this.
00:49So, do I get to meet your wife?
00:51Do you want to?
00:51Yes.
00:52Okay.
00:52Things have been going so well with Randy, I really feel like there's some type of connection.
00:57Meet me and my date.
00:59That's so weird.
01:01I think Billy is underestimating what the real emotional impact will be once this starts rolling.
01:09Oh, bonita.
01:10I've been waiting for me and Lorena to get married. This is exciting.
01:14All right. See you in a minute. Love you.
01:15I mean, it's just a piece of paper. I know that. But, Simone makes me feel a little bit plus tied to Garrick.
01:23Garick and Lorena just went inside the county building here in Aspen and they are going to come out, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield.
01:38Garrick and Lorena just went inside the county building here in Aspen, and they are going
01:48to come out Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield.
01:51No other people could go in, so just waiting.
01:55Lorena absolutely, like, her and I have a great connection, and I think, like, it couldn't
02:03be any better, really.
02:06I don't want to be emotional because I know it's, like, exciting for Lorena and Garrick
02:15and all this.
02:17Okay, that's enough of that.
02:25Oh my God!
02:34You're so happy!
02:36Huh?
02:37Thank you!
02:38Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield!
02:42Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield!
02:48Finally today, I married Garrick.
02:52Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield!
02:57Lorena is going to be able to stay here in America, and we're going to actually be a family.
03:01Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield.
03:16Yes, the penny is actually sinking in because everything happens so quickly like him in my life and
03:22is getting married.
03:23Ah, it's actually been a dream.
03:29Oh my God!
03:32We can frame this one.
03:34Official!
03:35It's kind of surreal like to think that after so many years, it's finally gotten to the point
03:44where we're actually living this as a family. It's real. With a future, you know, where we can
03:50actually grow a family, where more children, and every day we can actually be together, you know.
03:56Not have to take trips to see each other all the time.
03:58That's such a relief.
03:59Oh, yo!
04:00Hi!
04:01How are you doing?
04:02Good, how are you?
04:02Good, good. My name is Frank.
04:04Frank, I'm Garrick.
04:05Garrick.
04:05What are you doing here?
04:07Well, we just got married.
04:08Oh, congratulations, great.
04:11So which one is your wife? Which girls married with you?
04:16Both.
04:18Both?
04:19Oh, so, okay.
04:23Which one is the first?
04:24She's the first.
04:25Oh, she's the first?
04:26Yeah.
04:26She's the second?
04:28Yeah.
04:30You have a good life?
04:31Yeah.
04:31All right, great.
04:35I want to give you a shout for the congregation for your marriage.
04:38Oh!
04:39Who won the first?
04:41Lorena.
04:42All right, we do the one shot.
04:46Two shot.
04:47Oh!
04:47Oh!
04:48Three shot!
04:50All right, winner!
04:52Yeah!
04:52Yeah!
04:54Okay, all right, good.
04:57So you enjoy it.
04:58Good, good, good, good, good, good, good.
05:00Uh, cheers.
05:00Cheers.
05:01Familia.
05:02Familia.
05:02Familia.
05:03Familia.
05:04And Deus.
05:05Deus.
05:05And Deus.
05:06Number one, same.
05:12Now, I am Merrifield.
05:16Si.
05:17Si, familia.
05:19I think, you know, being three months into Lorena being here, it's still fresh.
05:22I think there's still a lot of settling in to do, even after three months.
05:27One for all, all for the team.
05:30You know, I really want her marriage with Garrick to be blessed. I really want them to be
05:35strong because when her relationship with Garrick's strong, then it makes mine and
05:40Garrick's relationship that much strong, and then all of us stronger together.
05:44You know, I think there is a little bit of a lingering sadness.
05:47I'm very happy for Garrick and Lorena, but like, you know, it's opening up our home and our safe place.
05:53Cheers.
05:54Cheers.
05:58I'm wondering how the future is going to look for all of us.
06:05You ready for some drinks?
06:18Yes.
06:19All right.
06:19Let's get in.
06:21I know.
06:22So, I met Randy at a public playground.
06:25We started off around there and things are going really well.
06:28So, I want her to meet Billy and kind of see, you know, what Billy thinks of her.
06:33I actually, I have a text from, from Billy.
06:37Yeah?
06:37Um, meet me and my date.
06:39That's so weird.
06:43I can't wait to meet her.
06:44Is she coming now?
06:45Yeah, she should be here anytime.
06:46Okay.
06:47I have never had an open relationship.
06:49I've never had a polygamous relationship.
06:53So, I am nervous to meet Billy because I want to get to the bottom of how she feels about all this.
06:59So, you want to play 20 questions?
07:01Oh, dear lord, I guess.
07:03Let's do it.
07:03Um.
07:04So, what is the craziest place you've ever had to ice skate for?
07:09The foot of the bed.
07:10Really?
07:13I told you.
07:14What is that?
07:14Oh yeah, you're vanilla.
07:15I'm pretty vanilla.
07:16I would say maybe a car, but nothing.
07:19Too crazy?
07:20Yeah.
07:20That's okay.
07:21I was like a late bloomer and stuff.
07:24So, where's the craziest place that you had ever?
07:28The one that sticks out.
07:29It's not really crazy, but on the beach.
07:32It's not fun.
07:33I was going to say, a lot of sand.
07:36Man, kudos.
07:38What is a crazy sexual position you've ever done?
07:44Okay, can I say one I don't like?
07:47The one.
07:48Oh yeah, go for it.
07:50Reverse calendar.
07:53Just be.
07:55Because sometimes everything doesn't line up and there you go.
07:59It can be painful.
08:06But I like everything else.
08:08So, the date is going really well.
08:11I feel like a little giddy school girl.
08:14Like, I don't know.
08:15Like, I haven't been on many first dates and stuff.
08:17So, like, to have it go so well.
08:20I have, like, this, like, sense of guilt, almost.
08:23Like, I have this dissonance of, like, okay, this is, like, this is good,
08:28but also this is, like, this is bad that I'm feeling this way.
08:31Like, I just kept feeling myself, like, look for her and be like,
08:35oh no, is she around?
08:36Did I say that?
08:37Did she hear it?
08:37Like, but no, it's okay.
08:39It's okay.
08:39She's, she's given me permission for this.
08:43Hey.
08:44Hi.
08:45How are you doing?
08:45That's good.
08:46How are you?
08:47How are you?
08:47This is Billy.
08:48I'll give you a hug.
08:49I'm a hugger.
08:51Sorry.
08:52I'll have a seat.
08:53I hope his conversation was good.
08:55It is.
08:56And it's going to be even better now.
08:58I'm like, yeah.
08:59You'll get some tea.
09:00I've been wanting to meet you.
09:02Yes, yes.
09:03You guys are, like, a lot alike.
09:05And it's weird.
09:07And...
09:09Can you handle two?
09:10I don't know.
09:11Like, shoot.
09:12This is a lot.
09:14So, thanks for coming out and going on a date with him.
09:18Um, what made you, like, interested?
09:20We were talking about kids.
09:21Raising kids is so difficult on its own.
09:24Right.
09:25I've not had the partner that I've always wanted to be there for me to help me raise the kids.
09:31So, having, like, a village.
09:33We were talking about, like, a village to raise these kids.
09:35And I love kids.
09:36She has three kids.
09:38They're all different ranges.
09:39I love it.
09:39She's got, like...
09:40Stair steps.
09:40They're, like, stairs steps.
09:4117, 14, and 5.
09:43Oh, okay.
09:44I wish I would have had more.
09:45She has Bibby fever, by the way.
09:46I do.
09:47I do.
09:47Sorry.
09:48Dang it.
09:48No, I said no school team.
09:50My first impression of Randy is that she's very friendly.
09:52She's very welcoming and open.
09:54She didn't seem, like, put off by me coming in.
09:57We seem to have a lot in common right now.
10:00So, I think that's a good place to start.
10:02So, how has it been going?
10:04Has everything been going good?
10:05You want some tea on him with some...
10:07I would love some tea on him.
10:09Oh, no.
10:10Give me the tea on...
10:11Or the D.
10:14Someone's getting a little...
10:15I'm sorry.
10:16Excited.
10:17Very good.
10:19So, anyways, what do you want to know?
10:22What kind of things do you want to know about him?
10:23Oh, okay.
10:24He said he was really vanilla.
10:26Ha.
10:26Okay, yes.
10:27Ha.
10:27So, does he just lay there?
10:32That's another good way to put it.
10:33Do you have to do all the work?
10:35That's a good way to put it.
10:36Or do you have to change that?
10:37Yeah, no.
10:38He will if you let him.
10:39So, you got to be like, no, we're doing this.
10:41I try hard.
10:45He just needs to get .
10:46Are you kidding me?
10:51Seeing him, like, laughing and joking and, like, clearly get along was...
10:57It was good to see because that's what you want to see, but at the same time,
10:59it makes you have some feelings inside that you're like, oh, why is it so easy for him to laugh
11:04with her already?
11:05Like, why is it so easy for you to just, like, joke?
11:10So, okay, interesting.
11:13All right.
11:15That kind of makes me a little nervous, but...
11:19All right, so how are you going to feel about jealousy?
11:23Like, if I'm sitting on your couch in your house and we're holding hands or something, like, is that...
11:28I've never felt it before.
11:29I've never seen him with someone else.
11:31So, like, obviously him going on a date, like, today, it was...
11:34How was that for you?
11:36I won't lie.
11:37In the beginning, I was like, it's kind of weird that I don't know what's going on.
11:41And so, I mean, there was a little bit of, like, intrigue to be like, is he having fun without me?
11:46Right, right?
11:48Like, what's he doing?
11:49Whole new world, whole new world.
11:52So, what would happen in, like, your case with jealousy?
11:55So, like, how would you react, how you feel?
11:58Because obviously, like, she's first wife, like, right?
12:01Like, would you be okay with that?
12:04You know, I am not sure because I've never done this before.
12:09Okay, right?
12:09Would you be okay?
12:10I'm sorry.
12:11I mean, I might get jealous.
12:13I can't say I wouldn't.
12:14Billie carries herself with a lot of strength.
12:19And she shows facial expressions that she's not comfortable.
12:25Maybe she was jealous.
12:27I want to believe that she won't be jealous, but we never know.
12:38I'm home.
12:39How'd it go?
12:41It was a time.
12:42I've been home all evening, waiting for Matt and Shanae's date to end.
12:48All right, come on.
12:49Tell me everything.
12:50I'm really nervous.
12:51I'm anxious.
12:53Well, um...
12:59If they left me, I would be devastated because I'm never going to find that kind of love.
13:04Things have been tense at home.
13:06I'm starting to wear a little thin on the Davises.
13:09I can't this up.
13:11But I am also known for my wife and I.
13:20Yeah.
13:20Okay, but...
13:21Bye.
13:22I'm going to be jealous.
13:23I'm watching someone's favorite.
13:24Stay at us.
13:25I'm going to be jealous.
13:26Stay at us.
13:26Stay at us.
13:28Stay at us.
13:29Stay at us.
13:30Stay at us so much.
13:30Stay at us.
13:31Stay at us.
13:32Stay at us.
13:33Finish us.
13:34called us.
13:35I'll be jealous.
13:37All right.
13:38I'm waiting for Matt and Sinead's date to end.
13:42How was it? How'd it go?
13:45It was a time.
13:47I'm really nervous. I'm anxious.
13:50I'm, I don't know, I'm just a ball of mixed emotions.
13:55All right, come on, tell me everything. Let's go.
13:58You want to know everything?
14:00I want to know everything, all the details.
14:03Well, um...
14:09She broke up with us.
14:12Okay, um...
14:20Okay.
14:24I'm really sad.
14:27As soon as Matt opened up his mouth,
14:30I could already see the words coming out,
14:34and it just, it just hit me right in my heart,
14:38and I, I could feel just like a hole.
14:46I did try.
14:48What I always say, the worst you can say is no.
14:51So why not try?
14:53Do you, like, do you think there's any chance
14:59that we'd be able to, you know, get Sinead back?
15:06I don't think so.
15:07Like, I, from, you know, what I got tonight at dinner,
15:12I just think she's done.
15:14You know, I think she's done with everything.
15:16I did tell her that, you know, we went on a date together.
15:20Um, I kind of think that might have been where
15:23she really kind of drew her line.
15:26I didn't tell her.
15:27That wasn't for you to tell her.
15:29I can definitely see how, you know, that upset her.
15:33I just don't want her to, you know, feel like
15:39I was going behind her back.
15:41No, I'm sorry I put you in the middle of this.
15:45She was, like, your best friend.
15:48Yeah.
15:51I wanted more years.
15:53I wanted more years.
15:54Three is not enough.
15:56I definitely wanted forever.
15:58My heart feels broken.
16:00The three of us together just made sense,
16:03and we all care for each other.
16:05We all respect each other.
16:06You know, we were able to spend time
16:10with each other outside of a physical or romantic thing.
16:14Just spend time together and just be in the moment.
16:18You know, and for me to care this much
16:21and for her this much, she means a lot.
16:24We spent all this time and energy and love
16:29trying to build something together
16:31over these last three years.
16:33You know, we've had this vision of what we all want,
16:38how our family will grow and become one unit.
16:44And now it seems like everything's just going down the drain.
16:47So where do you guys think you go from here?
16:55Where do we go from here?
16:57You know, over time I do want to continue searching for a sister-wife
17:02because it did bring a lot to our relationship and our family.
17:06I do need a little bit of time to process what I'm feeling.
17:10Let the pain kind of subside,
17:12and then we can discuss, like, what we'll do next.
17:16It wasn't supposed to happen.
17:19The reason why I started this sister-wife search
17:23was because I didn't have the support.
17:26I don't have the village.
17:27I don't have a community.
17:29But I'm hurting.
17:31I think I have to go back to basics.
17:33Let me go back to my community where I came from,
17:37see if I can get the support there.
17:39My sister Chastity is the only one in the family
17:43that knows about this.
17:46And even she has a lot of strong opinions.
17:49My mom and my aunts know absolutely nothing.
17:54My mother-in-law is very opinionated.
17:59She doesn't mince words at all.
18:01With Shanae being gone,
18:03things are definitely going to change.
18:06At this point, I'm just pretty much it.
18:10I need my family around,
18:12and I am going to take this risk
18:14and let them in to our relationship.
18:19And hopefully, you know, it is received well,
18:23and I will have a family that I can turn to.
18:27This sucks.
18:29It does suck.
18:36And I'm not a pool shark, but it's definitely my happy place.
18:51I don't even know the last time I played Polteresa.
18:54Today, I'm taking my friend Brandon to a pool hall.
18:57Brandon has been my dear friend for about 20 years now.
19:01I met him back in high school,
19:04and he's always been my sounding board,
19:07and he's always been someone to really uplift me
19:09when I'm feeling low.
19:11Thank you, Brandon. You're the best.
19:12You're welcome.
19:13Wow, this place is busy.
19:15Oh, my goodness. I know.
19:17So things have been tense at home.
19:20Meltdowns and the negative self-talk have become more frequent.
19:25I've had a lot of abusive relationships
19:28that I'm still healing from,
19:30and over the last several weeks,
19:33Nick has tried to come and talk to me
19:35about how I'm feeling and the concerns that he's having,
19:37and April and Jenny will say,
19:40it's okay. We're here. We love you.
19:43I think they are getting tired of me running away
19:46and not addressing the issues when they bring them up.
19:50Maybe I shouldn't have worn heels,
19:52but, you know, I can bend down pretty well.
19:54I'm starting to wear a little thin on the Davises,
19:57so it's nice to get out and go see a friend
19:59and kind of vent a little bit.
20:03I don't think you made any of them in.
20:05No, I didn't.
20:06When I found out Teresa was joining Nick's family
20:09and the dynamic that she was going into,
20:11I was excited for her.
20:13I don't really know Nick and his family, to be honest.
20:17I do know that they have been having some issues,
20:20but that's why I'm here today,
20:22hoping we can get to the bottom of it.
20:27Hey, look at that.
20:28What is new with you? What's going on?
20:30Um, you know, we've been just...
20:33It's been hard, Brandon. It's been really hard.
20:36You know, I just feel like all my past trauma and stuff
20:39is what's hindering me from having, like, a genuine connection with him.
20:45And then on top of it, I have a lot of healing that I have to do.
20:49Like, they're always having to give me pep talks.
20:51They're always having to remind me and reassure me that I'm, like,
20:55there's no reason to be insecure, especially in this type of relationship.
20:59But I don't think I'm worthy of this type of relationship.
21:05I'm just taking up so much of their time because I have so much healing to do.
21:12Um...
21:13What do you think you need to do? What do you feel?
21:16I just feel like I'm making their lives, like, miserable.
21:20I have seen Theresa get down on herself in the past.
21:25I've known her for 20 years, and I know she has a lot of love to give.
21:29But I do know that Theresa's had a lot of trauma in her life and in her past.
21:35It's played a big role in how she goes with day-to-day life.
21:39She just needs a little bit more affirmation than other people.
21:43Are your insecurities bringing down the house?
21:46I want to hear, like, how you are viewing things from you.
21:51Yeah, I think, um...
21:55I'm constantly comparing myself to Jenny and April.
21:58Um...
21:59I feel like they're more wife material than me.
22:02I'm not as valuable as they are.
22:06And I never will be.
22:08You are.
22:09Don't ever say that. You are.
22:11I have a lot of shame.
22:15A lot of things that make me feel like I'm not good enough for a monogamous relationship, let alone a polygamous one.
22:22You know?
22:23Mm-hmm.
22:24I don't think anybody on this planet Earth is gonna love me to the degree that Nick loves me.
22:29And I definitely feel like polygamy is the best route for me.
22:33But I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that Nick loves multiple women.
22:39I know that I have a lot of work to do, and it's an uphill battle.
22:44My biggest fear right now is losing them.
22:51Where do you want to go from here?
22:54If I left them, I would be devastated.
22:57Or if they left me, I would be devastated, because I'm never going to find that kind of love.
23:03I would be devastated, Brandon.
23:06Like, I can't this up.
23:08Excuse me.
23:09Mess this up.
23:10Like, I can't.
23:12Hey.
23:13I love you.
23:19Right here?
23:20Yeah.
23:21Sounds good.
23:22I love you.
23:23I love you.
23:24I love you.
23:25I love you.
23:30I love you.
23:35I love you.
23:40Okay.
23:41Over here?
23:42Yeah.
23:43Sounds good.
23:44Okay.
23:45So, how are you doing?
23:47I don't know if I want to go to me yet.
23:49There's just so much.
23:50You want to know all the dirty details?
23:53Yes.
23:54Oh, my gosh.
23:55Give me what you have.
23:57Oh, my gosh.
24:00Samantha has definitely always been a big supporter of my marriage with Garrick.
24:03So, I'm hoping today I can just unload a little bit on Samantha and get my emotions
24:07and feelings out and hopefully feel strengthened.
24:11I was waiting outside the courthouse for like 30, 40 minutes and it was kind of like a little emotional outside.
24:17Yeah.
24:18Kind of weird, right?
24:19Yeah.
24:20Like, just knowing that he's now legally married to someone else.
24:24I think like it settled in my heart like he still loves me and like it doesn't matter about the piece of paper,
24:29but knowing now that he shares that with someone else, I can't ever have that with him.
24:35I think it was just a little bit, you know.
24:38That would be weird.
24:39A little bit hard.
24:40Yeah.
24:41In my heart, like I almost wish he like didn't have to be legally married to anybody.
24:47Yeah.
24:48All Lorena and Garrick being married, it's definitely weird.
24:53Me and my husband have questioned like, is this what you want?
24:56Are you just doing this to make your husband happy?
24:58And she says, no, I feel like this is what God wants for me.
25:01So, I'm like, okay.
25:04You know, it's just been you and Garrick and you're sharing a bed and now you have to like,
25:08not share a bed with him every day.
25:10Like, how is that going?
25:11Like, you know.
25:12Honestly, it's been going really smoothly.
25:14Like, we're, we still altering every two days for her, two days for me.
25:19And then Garrick has off on Sundays.
25:21He's alone.
25:22Cause I would, I would think if I were ever living this lifestyle,
25:25I would want Garrick to, Sam to come into my bed.
25:28I wouldn't want like the sheets and you're being intimate and then somebody else.
25:31Like, do you change the sheets like every two days?
25:34Yeah.
25:35Like, how do you do?
25:36Cause to me, that's kind of nasty.
25:38Nasty.
25:39I would want clean sheets.
25:41So, Lorena and I are very respectful of each other, like cleaning up after ourselves.
25:50Yeah.
25:54It would be so much easier if we had separate rooms.
25:57Cause I know it's kind of a hassle for me and Lorena.
25:59Like I leave my toothbrush in Garrick's bathroom and it's,
26:01I'm supposed to be upstairs in the sister room.
26:03And then I have to like go downstairs and be like, can I get my toothbrush?
26:06I've been keeping my stuff in a, like a travel bag.
26:09This plural lifestyle, people live it differently.
26:11Like, I don't live that lifestyle, but for me, it'd just be, I like my space.
26:16I like my things where they need to be.
26:19Having to like carry my tote bag and not having it in my room.
26:23But I don't know if they, that's what they want to do.
26:26Wait, does Lorena want a third sister ride?
26:30We've been seeking still.
26:33She's okay with that?
26:34She is.
26:35She has her moments, I think, cause she's still adjusting to so much.
26:38Yeah.
26:40She knows like, this is the lifestyle.
26:42Like we're not done seeking.
26:43But I think being in America, missing your family, language,
26:47just learning English, you know, learning Garrick and me, our family dynamic.
26:51Like feeling comfortable in the house.
26:54Seeking another sister wife has always been part of our plan for Garrick and I.
26:58And Lorena has always understood that since we first started talking to her.
27:01But with Lorena's immigration status,
27:04it could take up to two years for her to get like full citizenship.
27:07So if we do find someone outside of the U.S.,
27:10it may mean that we would have to wait at least two years for Garrick and Lorena to get divorced,
27:16because we wouldn't want to risk her citizenship.
27:19I think it's a little hard for Lorena too.
27:21Cause you know, Garrick and I have been together so long.
27:23So there's a lot of established trust and understanding with each other that she's still learning.
27:31I know Lorena is a strong person, but I honestly don't think that she's fully ready to add a third.
27:37Cause I feel like it's such a different dynamic coming into a relationship versus adding someone else to that relationship.
27:44How do you handle all of that?
27:46It has to be stressful.
27:48Yeah, it's a lot.
27:49Geez.
27:51That's the piece that is hard with potentially adding a third is that how will she handle that?
27:57How will she take that?
27:58Because that's always been a trigger point in the past for women.
28:01What happens if her and Garrick just aren't in a good spot one day, you know, and they're struggling and she's not feeling good about it?
28:08You know, what happens?
28:14I actually, I heard from Randy.
28:15She messaged me.
28:16Oh, really?
28:17What?
28:18I don't like that look.
28:19I know maybe a little bit overwhelming seeing you guys get along so well.
28:25It's taken me for a little bit of a loop.
28:27It's super frustrating to be hearing all these negative emotions from Billie because this was her idea all along.
28:34Wow.
28:38Hi, babies.
28:54There you are.
28:55And there's an egg.
28:56Come on, baby.
28:57Come on.
28:58Let's go.
28:59Let's go.
29:00Come on.
29:01Oh, mom is so happy.
29:03That makes me very happy.
29:04Oh, eat that bug.
29:05Get it.
29:06Except for this.
29:07Yes.
29:08So in our household, Billie kind of does more of, we'll say, the masculine thing.
29:17She likes to change the oil, do some repairs. She likes to get some elbow grease going.
29:23We'll probably have to get a new air filter for it.
29:26I'm going to leave that in your court.
29:28I might scare the chicken, so be careful.
29:31Reese, when it comes to typical man jobs, he runs the other way.
29:40Where were you?
29:41Come here.
29:42Come on.
29:43Yeah, his honey-do list kind of stays a honey-do list.
29:46It's never a honey-done list.
29:49Yeah.
29:50So, um, I actually, I heard from Randy.
29:55She messaged me.
29:58What?
29:59I don't like that look.
30:00I know.
30:01Maybe a little bit overwhelming.
30:03Um, because, like, walking in and seeing, like, you guys get along so well kind of, um, I guess, like, hit me a little harder than I was anticipating.
30:16After sitting on it for a few days, it kind of festered, and I'm feeling a little off my game.
30:23I am feeling jealous.
30:25There's a bit of me that's like, oof.
30:27It's a lot, seeing him, you know, getting along with another woman with the intent of, you know, dating and marrying them.
30:35So are you having, like, reservations about still doing this?
30:39I don't think it's necessarily, like, reservations about doing it.
30:42Like, I feel like we've got a good vibe.
30:45Like, we all get along really well.
30:48But it's just maybe it's like we get along too well right now.
30:52Like, how did you mesh so well and so easily that, like, I don't know.
30:58It's just, it's taken me for a little bit of a loop because I wasn't, I wasn't expecting it.
31:03Wow.
31:04This was my biggest concern.
31:06Were these gonna come up?
31:07Anything that I did, was it gonna make her uncomfortable?
31:10And I'm starting to see those feelings arise.
31:14It's super frustrating to be hearing all these, like, kind of negative emotions from Billie because this was her idea all along.
31:22So I've gotta ask, do you like her?
31:26Like, do you have feelings for her already?
31:31If I'm being honest, yeah.
31:33Like, there's, I know there's something there.
31:37Okay.
31:40How does that make you feel?
31:44I'm excited because this is what we've been hoping for and I'm glad that you found somebody that can potentially vibe with us.
31:50But it, it makes me nervous.
31:52And what if, like, you fall in love with her and you fall out of love with me?
31:58Like, are you capable of loving two women at the same time?
32:03Like, what if she is everything that you've wanted for and you leave me?
32:09Do you really think that I would leave you?
32:14I mean, it's a fear.
32:16You know everything we've been through.
32:20I know.
32:21We'll never leave you.
32:22I love you so much.
32:24We've been through way too much.
32:26But, you know, like, it's something that's there.
32:30Right.
32:31I mean.
32:32So I wanted to tell you, like, I didn't want to lie or keep it from you, but.
32:35Well, I'm glad you're seeming more human.
32:38And because I knew this, I figured this would come up at some point.
32:42But it's the only way we're going to get through it though.
32:45Right.
32:47I want to kind of change the rules a little bit.
32:50Um, just so that I can go on some dates too.
32:54Um, maybe like every other date so that I can get to know her.
32:58That makes sense.
32:59You know, I think maybe that might make you feel more comfortable.
33:02So that's, that's totally cool.
33:04Being new to this, we need to make sure we stay on the same page as we go through this.
33:11And, you know, like we haven't been intimate or we haven't got to that point yet.
33:16And that's a whole other level of emotions and things.
33:21So I'm anxious to see what happens when we get to that point.
33:29I do have to make it very clear that we have reached a sort of a crossroad.
33:38Well, I think I'd like to have this conversation at another time.
33:42I don't like this disruption in my house.
33:44I got you.
33:45I got you.
33:46I'm gonna go take a, take a moment.
33:47Oh, thank you.
33:48Hey.
33:49What you got going on down here?
33:50Mocktails.
33:51If I guess you could call it that.
33:52Juice and wine glass.
33:53Yeah, yeah.
33:54No alcohol in honor of Jenny's.
33:55Look, look how fancy it looks.
33:56Things with Teresa have been steadily difficult.
34:11It's kind of wearing on us all, the repetition of having to continually have pep talks and reassure her that she deserves to be here.
34:18We're gonna sit down with Teresa and try to dig into some of the conversation that we know is necessary for us to have.
34:26Teresa.
34:41Teresa.
34:42Yeah.
34:43Here, come down.
34:44I made mocktails.
34:45Okay.
34:46Pour juice in the glass.
34:47What you talking about?
34:48Jen, I made mocktails.
34:52I'm not sure if Teresa is aware of how much energy it takes to put into trying to help her feel better.
35:01But it does create almost like an energy vampire type of atmosphere.
35:06Yeah, the mocktails in solidarity of Jennifer's condition.
35:11So we.
35:12Condition.
35:13Well.
35:14Keep it.
35:16But yes.
35:17Cheers.
35:18Instead of cocktails.
35:19Keep it non-alcoholic here.
35:20Yeah.
35:21The mocktails.
35:22Oh, wow.
35:23I have to say, I think there's still some groundwork that we need to do between the four of us.
35:35You know, quite often times, Teresa, you find yourself questioning whether or not this is a place where you belong.
35:48And I know that because of the fact that that's entirely tied to the way that you feel and view yourself, it makes it a difficult situation for us to address.
36:03Um.
36:04You know, we were really talking about how, like, confidence and self-confidence, you know, is a big part of this.
36:16And being in this relationship is just going to naturally, like, bring some of those things out.
36:19There's going to be things that you're going to have to work on.
36:22They have often times tried to talk to me about, um, my self-destructive behavior and I run or just sweep it under the rug.
36:36I knew this conversation was coming and I was really trying to be mentally prepared for it.
36:43But now that it's here, it's terrifying.
36:46And I don't want to be here.
36:48I don't want to talk about this.
36:50I just want to shut down, to be honest.
36:54The way that you are about yourself, Teresa, it's causing disruptions in the harmony of our situation overall that, um, I mean, we just, we can't, we won't be able to function like that.
37:09Um, speaking of, um.
37:21You know, I just think, Teresa, like, how are you feeling?
37:25I don't know.
37:26Well, I think I'd like to have this conversation at another time.
37:30I'm going to go ahead and just go ahead and take a drive.
37:34Like I normally would.
37:37And I mean, well, that's the thing, Teresa, is like running away from it never, it makes it.
37:43We don't get to reconcile.
37:44We don't ever get to reconcile.
37:45And we want to reconcile.
37:46We won't get to reconcile it.
37:47I just need to have a moment.
37:49I'm sorry.
37:50Um, this is a lot right now.
37:54I do have to make it very clear that we have reached a sort of a crossroads where.
38:01I know.
38:02I got you.
38:03I got you.
38:04I'm going to go take a moment.
38:06I feel very sad and I feel very ashamed that these people love me so much and they're
38:19so patient, yet I still somehow can't get it together.
38:23But this is what always happens and then we never get to talk about anything.
38:32Well, I mean.
38:33Because she'll leave and then come back later and then act like nothing's wrong and not want
38:36to talk about anything.
38:37Right.
38:38Yeah.
38:39We've tried to have a conversation.
38:40We've tried to have a conversation with Theresa.
38:41She basically just runs away.
38:42She avoids any kind of confrontation.
38:46It's not working.
38:48Someone needs to take the mic off me.
38:52Now, that's Mike off me.
38:53Will you please come talk to us?
38:54No.
38:55No, I'm okay.
38:56I'm done for the evening.
38:57Yeah.
38:58If she's like getting in the car and going for a drive or something, let her do it.
38:59I don't, I don't, I don't think I do want to go chase after her.
39:12I'm not going to sit up here, no, wait, no, Theresa, don't go.
39:15We'll do it for what?
39:16I'm mad.
39:17This is, this is upsetting to me.
39:19We're trying to get our family established.
39:21If you don't want to understand that or you don't want to work towards that, well then
39:24just never mind.
39:25I'm sitting here trying to have an adult conversation.
39:27I'm sitting there trying to work out some things.
39:29If you want to get up and act all flustered, all extra, then just get the up and go then.
39:36Like I said, it's at a point where it's like, look, we got to get this straight because
39:40I don't like this disruption in my house.
39:42One thing I absolutely will not tolerate from anybody coming into this situation is the
39:47disruption of the peace in my household.
39:56Danny and I haven't really talked about what happened at that dinner with Jackie.
40:00It's a lot to deal with when you're away from what really makes you happy.
40:03Watch that one, huh?
40:04Are you mad about it?
40:05I'm a little pissed about it.
40:06It sucked.
40:07You know, maybe I could have prevented.
40:11The ending of everything.
40:16How do I know you're not just going to run away with my husband?
40:20And how am I supposed to know that I'm not always going to be second?
40:24We put all this effort, time and energy and for it to all just kind of be flushed away is really defeating.
40:32I don't want to have that constant energy in the house of being like, oh, you know what I mean?
40:41Walking on eggshells.
40:43You know, maybe let's give her a chance and like, you know, she'll work through it.
40:50She doesn't want to do that work.
40:52We need to just let her run away.
40:58There's been some things going on in, you know, my, my house, my family.
41:06What is it then?
41:07So, Matt and I have actually been dating.
41:12You sure you're swinging?
41:14Whoa, whoa, whoa.
41:15Listen, let her talk.
41:16Do you have a girlfriend?
41:17Help us, Jesus.
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