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05:06How do you feel about that?
05:08That was the Al's suggestion.
05:11Having our wedding.
05:13Our wedding in the backyard, you picture it.
05:15You open up the door and you see me walking down the stairs.
05:19I really don't have words.
05:22I'm really just trying to wrap my head around it all.
05:25Like, I wouldn't really picture our wedding being there.
05:29I mean, there's a lot of bugs.
05:31There's also a lot of dog poop in the yard.
05:34I just offered it out there because I know
05:37if she needed an emotional break due to overstimulation,
05:42tics, she could have her emotional break in the house.
05:46That's all I wanted to offer, and that's all it is.
05:53I mean, listen, Baylin.
05:54I am warming up to the idea of certain aspects of it
05:58only because I know that your struggles are real.
06:01and I know finances mean a lot to you.
06:06Okay.
06:07Scumbag.
06:08Yeah.
06:09This is kind of like a tricky situation.
06:11I really am concerned about the expenses
06:14kind of getting out of hand for the wedding,
06:16so I don't want to ignore a way for us to save money.
06:20But on the other hand,
06:21Baylin has really been working really hard
06:24to be more independent.
06:26Having this wedding in her parents' backyard
06:28would be kind of, like, pushing her back into the fold.
06:32Yeah, I mean, I think it really just comes down to
06:35what we can find, right?
06:37Like, if we can't really find anything within our budget.
06:40But that's all.
06:41You got options, man.
06:42Yeah.
06:43Definitely.
06:44It doesn't hurt to have options.
06:45Yes.
06:45Yeah, it's good to have options.
06:49You could have told me yourself, you know?
06:51I mean, I know,
06:52but I just still don't know how I feel about it, so.
06:55All right, we're out of here.
06:56Everything was so good.
06:59Plus, I really don't want to hurt my dad's feelings.
07:01He put dick.
07:03A lot of thought into this.
07:05Dick.
07:06All right, I love you.
07:06Thanks, Bay.
07:07Thanks, Collin.
07:08So the big question is,
07:09are we able to make everyone happy,
07:12including ourselves?
07:14Yeah.
07:14So, right now,
07:16we'll keep the backyard option
07:18on the table.
07:22Just tap it in.
07:32Just tap...
07:33Oh, it's good.
07:37That's a great restart for me.
07:39Oh, that's stroke three.
07:42We needed a mini break from wedding planning.
07:46And what's more mini than mini golf?
07:49It's all nips.
07:50It's all nips.
07:52We're doing mini golf
07:52because we've got a pro golfer over here.
07:55I just started pulling in,
07:56but I am competitive.
08:00I'm in the water.
08:01You pulled it.
08:04No redos.
08:06Play it where it was.
08:08Sweet.
08:10That was a good shot.
08:11Two.
08:11Thanks.
08:12Seven to three.
08:14Six
08:14to three.
08:17Sir.
08:22Because of my dicks.
08:24I do have to face a few obstacles
08:26that require a lot of stopping and going.
08:30Collin, I lost my ball.
08:31I know.
08:33I'm not fishing for it either.
08:35Eat a bag of dicks.
08:36Let's go get you a new ball.
08:37One minute.
08:40Someone's calling me.
08:41Hey, Mom.
08:42Hi, baby.
08:43How are you?
08:44What are you doing?
08:45A little mini golf date.
08:46Me and Collin.
08:47Oh, my gosh.
08:47That sounds like so much fun.
08:49It honestly is.
08:50I'm beating him.
08:51Oh, my gosh.
08:52He's probably losing his mind.
08:53Well, I won't keep you too long,
08:56but Bechner would like to have, like,
08:58a sleepover, like, a hangout with you
09:00for the weekend.
09:02Okay.
09:03And he brought it up?
09:04He wants to?
09:05Of course he does.
09:06Yeah.
09:07I'm surprised that Bechner requested
09:09to have a sleepover with me
09:10because, like me, he suffers from anxiety.
09:14Since moving outside of the house,
09:16I don't really know how bad Bechner's anxiety has been,
09:19but I do know it prevents him
09:21from doing a lot of things.
09:22I mean, I wasn't really surprised
09:24when he brought it up
09:25because, like, he misses his sisters.
09:28Like, the boys are a lot sometimes.
09:30He's a lot, but he obviously knows what he wants.
09:33Okay.
09:34I'm definitely thrilled.
09:37I would be thrilled to host Bechner.
09:38I honestly would.
09:39I'm a little, like, nervous.
09:41I've never hosted a kid before.
09:43I'm sure it'll be fine.
09:44Collin, would you care if Bechner spent the night
09:46for the weekend?
09:47This weekend?
09:48Yeah.
09:49I have golf plans this weekend,
09:52so I don't know how much I would be around.
09:54Okay.
09:55It'll be fine, though.
09:57Yeah.
09:58Take a dick.
10:01Things just got way more complicated.
10:04I'm supposed to do this by myself.
10:06When I get overwhelmed, my tics act up,
10:10but I love Bechner,
10:12and I want to be able to spend some time with him.
10:16I know it's a little daunting.
10:17I just think it's good for you.
10:19It's good for him.
10:20We're testing our limits.
10:23Okay.
10:24It'll be a fun little weekend.
10:26He's a handful.
10:27Yeah, I know.
10:29He's an actual handful.
10:30Mom, he's eight handfuls.
10:32Yep, so you better be ready.
10:33I have no idea what to expect.
10:38This is going to be interesting.
10:43Hola, como está?
10:45Muy bien.
10:46You guys ready for this damn sleepover?
10:48It's okay.
10:50It's okay.
10:51Do you think that there's any part of this
10:55where you're still just trying to hold on to Bailin?
11:00I haven't shared this story with that many people.
11:03It's just, you know, when I went to pick her up
11:05and when I talked with her...
11:08Oh, my gosh, we're not talking about this again.
11:10Maybe I was the same as you when I was 15
11:19Except back then I still had big dreams
11:23Always listen to the others
11:24Now my eardrums bleed from the noise inside my head
11:28Joe f***ing Bailin
11:29Joe is a young kid that I met
11:33at a Tourette's event a couple years ago
11:35He has Tourette's syndrome
11:37We stayed in touch through social media
11:40And that's when I kind of got inspired
11:43by who he really is
11:45Hi
11:47Can you see me?
11:49Yeah, I can see you
11:50Okay, sweet
11:51How are you?
11:52I'm good
11:53How are you?
11:54I'm good
11:55Joe f***ing Bailin
11:57Where did that tick come from?
11:59Remember when the election was going on?
12:02I watched a solid three minutes of the total debate
12:05Joe f***ing Biden's buried in my backyard
12:08after storing cocaine off of a zebra
12:09during the Revolutionary War
12:10for 812 and the government's trying to do this video show
12:12And it's come back
12:14But yeah, I got it from watching the debate
12:16Anyways, how are you doing?
12:19How is college?
12:21LSU is really cool
12:23I'm actually taking summer classes now
12:25Oh, yeah
12:26That's another thing about Joe
12:28He's 12
12:29And in college
12:30Obviously, like
12:32people in my class is like
12:346 foot
12:35like plays football
12:36And I'm just sitting there
12:38with my voice like this
12:40It's hard to make friends
12:41What are you studying in?
12:43Uh, sports management
12:44I just really like basketball
12:45Mm-hmm
12:46Are you good at it?
12:48Yeah
12:48You sound like
12:49You're like my brother Beckner
12:50He is so cocky
12:52You're like, yeah
12:53I'm the s***
12:55Joe reminds me a lot of my brother Beckner
12:58Because they both like sports
13:00They're both around the same age
13:02They're both outdoorsy
13:03They're both hands-on
13:04They're both, in a way
13:06Mature
13:08Well beyond their years
13:11So, how have you been feeling physically lately?
13:14I'm doing good
13:15Hmm
13:16Woohoo
13:16Woohoo
13:17I feel like chatting helps my tics a lot
13:19because it distracts me from my tics
13:22I know specifically
13:23that I suffer with very, very bad OCD
13:27and anxiety
13:27and I have ADHD traits
13:29Do you know what type of co-occurring conditions
13:32like you specifically have with your Tourette?
13:34OCD and anxiety, definitely
13:36Tourette's syndrome manifests itself differently in everybody
13:41Joe has verbal and motor tics
13:45because he has Tourette's syndrome
13:47and you have to have both to have Tourette's syndrome
13:49Today, I can't assume that he's not ticking
13:53because he probably is ticking
13:55but underneath the table
13:56and we just can't tell
13:58Joe, what's the hardest thing about making friends your age?
14:03Kids always make fun of me
14:04On my way to summer camp, I got jumped on the bus
14:08because I was ticking
14:09I was, like, yelling and cursing
14:11and I was blinking my eyes
14:13and I broke my nose and had a concussion
14:15So it was rough
14:17but I managed to pull through it
14:20Joe Biden
14:22I'm very sorry that that happened
14:26I mean
14:27it's terrible
14:30Yeah
14:32When I hear that Joe got jumped on the school bus
14:35Joe ****** Biden
14:37It's disheartening
14:39I was also bullied in high school
14:43I've been recorded throughout stores
14:46I mean
14:47I get recorded everywhere I go
14:49and people think that it's okay
14:50but that's also bullying
14:52Unfortunately, I know what it feels like
14:56but I also want you to know that
14:58like, you're so loved
14:59Yeah, and you are loved too, by the way
15:02So, you too
15:03Thanks
15:04Thanks, Joe
15:04I love to help others with Tourette's when I can
15:08because
15:09I
15:10I know what it's like to hate yourself
15:14because of a condition that you have no control over
15:17and I don't want anyone to feel that
15:20ever
15:20Gosh, it was so lovely to talk to you, Joe ****** Biden
15:25I'm Joe
15:26Yeah, me too
15:27Bye
15:28Joe ****** Biden
15:30Hearing Joe talk really makes me think about Beckner
15:34and the way that
15:36kids are when you're younger
15:40The more I think about it
15:43I want to get those two boys together when Beckner's here
15:46I have a feeling it'll be good for them
15:51me
15:52everybody
15:54My mom and Beckner should be here any minute
16:09so you have to make sure that everything's perfect
16:11Okay
16:12How are you feeling about it?
16:15I'm fine
16:16I'm a little nervous on how to host a kid
16:17but it's fine
16:18I mean
16:20I'm just anxious to host somebody
16:22and then be in charge of that person
16:23like
16:24Yeah, but it's not like he's a two-year-old
16:26like
16:26It's not like we have to sit there
16:28and wipe his butt on the toilet
16:29Listen
16:29Listen, let me tell you
16:32if we did
16:33What's up, guys?
16:43How you doing?
16:44Good
16:45How you doing, man?
16:46Good
16:46You guys ready for this damn sleepover?
16:50What's up, y'all?
16:50It's okay?
16:54I'm about to get real
16:55Fill me in on like the lowdown of everything
16:59because I really can't stay long
17:01I have things to make ice cream sundaes
17:03games we can play
17:04I have things to bedazzle
17:06Beckner will love to bedazzle
17:08Have you ever bedazzled anything?
17:09I don't even know what bedazzle
17:10bedazzle
17:11bedazzle
17:11bedazzle
17:11I know Baylen does have some nervous jitters
17:17about hosting Beckner this weekend
17:19for the first time ever
17:20Okay, bye, guys
17:22Bye
17:22I love you
17:23Get home safe
17:23But I also know that she's come so far
17:26just with her independence
17:28and knowing who she is
17:30and what her
17:31what her boundaries are in her life
17:34in regards to what she can and can't do
17:35So this is
17:37I mean, this is
17:38this is groundbreaking, honestly
17:39It makes my mama heart
17:41really proud of her
17:42Okay, I'm gonna show you how to bedazzle
17:45I'm gonna take this
17:46and it goes in the wax
17:47Well, before y'all get started
17:49bedazzle
17:51some stuff
17:52Bedazzle
17:53I'm gonna go ahead and head out
17:54and go golfing, all right?
17:55Okay
17:55Love you
17:56I love you
17:57I had already made plans to go golfing
17:59before Baylen scheduled this sleepover with Beckner
18:02but things are off to a really smooth start
18:05so I feel a lot more comfortable leaving
18:08I have the brown ones that go over here for B
18:10Plus now
18:12Baylen and Beckner can have a little one-on-one time
18:15So?
18:17Wait, I could call a room
18:18No
18:19No
18:20No
18:21Is something burning?
18:25Wait, whoa, whoa
18:26What's over there burning?
18:30Yo, what's burning?
18:33What?
18:34Why is this burning?
18:36Yo, what's burning?
18:47What?
18:49Something's burning
18:49When I start seeing smoke come out of the stove topper
18:54I'm very much confused
18:57I'm...
19:00I can't go over there
19:02I mean
19:03One of the knobs was on
19:05Somebody must have bumped it or something
19:07My instinct is probably run to the shower and turn it on
19:13What is the shower gonna do for us in the kitchen?
19:17Because if you're burning, just sit in the shower
19:20It's running water
19:21We're not burning
19:22The stove top is
19:24Okay
19:27It's not smoking anymore
19:30Nothing is going on
19:32Let's move away from there
19:34Just be careful when walking by
19:36This is the exact kind of thing
19:39That can push me over the edge
19:41So I'm very proud
19:42That I was able to stay calm
19:45But now my anxiety is definitely on high alert
19:49I don't know
19:51This has never happened
19:53I can't believe this is our first real do-something date in
20:0430 years?
20:0620 years?
20:07I don't know
20:08I think...
20:12This is what leads to more kids, but...
20:15What did you just say?
20:17Backer's out of the house for the weekend
20:18So Julie and I thought we'd go out too
20:20We haven't had a date night in 25 years
20:23Because it's been kids and diapers and lack of babysitters
20:28It's pretty important, I think, in this moment
20:31And time for us to still spend time with each other
20:36And kind of rekindle why we are together
20:39Hi
20:40Hello
20:41We're here
20:42Okay
20:43How you doing?
20:43Hi
20:44Al, nice to meet you
20:45Hi, Al, I'm April
20:46So nice to meet you
20:47Welcome, welcome
20:48I was like, we could do pottery or bowling
20:50Quick dance lesson
20:52And Al was all about
20:54He's like, yeah, let's do pottery
20:55Then I booked the dance lesson
20:57Gentle
21:01Practice
21:01Go five, six, seven, eight
21:05And one, two, three, four, five, six
21:09What are you doing?
21:10One, two, one
21:11You're not leading
21:13You're not touching your feet
21:15We're going to take a time out in a second
21:16How do we feel?
21:18Can I switch partners?
21:20Yeah, I'm all
21:21Like, this is
21:22Like, here
21:23Let's get the underhooks on this
21:26Okay
21:26Julie and I usually have fun no matter what we do
21:31We met at my cousin's wedding
21:33When she was a waitress there
21:34I was 28, 29 years old
21:37And Julie was 18, 19
21:39We were the perfect gift for each other
21:41At that moment in time
21:44An accident happened after we got engaged
21:48It wasn't an accident
21:49It was
21:49And I got pregnant with baby Berkey
21:52And we had already started
21:55There was no preventative actions
21:57Anywhere at all
21:59We had started the planning
22:01You could plan on
22:03Yes
22:05We wanted to make sure his birth was legitimate
22:07So we got married at the courthouse
22:10Before he was born
22:11And then we had another wedding
22:12Seven months later
22:13So I could actually wear the dress
22:15And, of course, we had baby Berkey with us
22:18Three or four children
22:20Is kind of what we both agreed upon
22:23Yes
22:23Somehow we garnered up some extra stamina
22:27What are we doing?
22:28You're just trying to grind my leg
22:30I'm not trying to grind anything
22:31If I was, it wouldn't be your leg
22:33All right
22:36The one thing I believe
22:38That helps make our relationship work
22:40Is the fact that we admire each other
22:42And that truly enhances
22:44Our commitment to each other
22:46All right, thank you guys
22:52Okay, you're very, very welcome
22:54Let's go check my phone
22:55Yeah
22:55Yeah, yeah, yeah
22:56It's nice that we've taken this time
22:58For each other
22:59But the kids are always on our minds
23:02Truly, that's the first thing I think about
23:04When we're done on the dance floor
23:05Is checking to make sure that Beckner is okay
23:08And things are going smooth
23:09He hasn't called yet
23:11And she hasn't called
23:12No news is good news
23:13So I'm all about it
23:15So
23:16Do you think Beckner's grilling her over the wedding
23:20Or where are they going to have it?
23:21Are they going to have it at the house?
23:22Oh gosh, no, Beckner doesn't
23:23He's so excited about wanting to have it at the house
23:27I literally think he doesn't even care about the wedding
23:30He just wants people to play whippetball
23:31No, I think he's the first person you've definitely convinced
23:34You have one person on your team
23:35Al is still really championing this idea of the wedding in the backyard
23:41It's such a comfortable, safe space
23:43So there's like this logical side to it
23:45And then I also think that Al is stuck
23:48Just hanging on to all the pieces
23:51Of her life
23:53Do you think that there's any part of this
23:56Where you're still just trying to hold on to Balin?
24:00I don't mean in a negative way
24:02She's your girl
24:03It's really about
24:07Did I do everything that I could
24:13To make sure like her day was amazing?
24:20It's just, you know, when I went to pick her up
24:22And when I talked
24:24Oh my gosh, we're not talking about this again
24:26I haven't shared this story with that many people
24:30Four years ago, Balin was in college
24:34We had kind of talked her into going
24:37Calls
24:39She's manic
24:41I get to there
24:43It's a three-plus hour drive
24:45And then when I went in there
24:46She was just curled up on the bed
24:48With her dog
24:50And she was like, I'm such a burden
24:53I'm such a burden
24:54I can't
24:55I'm like, you're not a burden
24:56Stop talking like that
24:57I gave her a big hug
24:58And I'm like, you're going to be fine
24:59And she's like, I'm not going to be fine
25:01I'm not doing good
25:02And I was like, well
25:04You can't talk like this
25:06Because it's worrisome
25:08And
25:09I just asked her for my own well-being
25:15Like, hey
25:16Like, you're not thinking about, like
25:18Doing something bad
25:21Like, you're not thinking about killing yourself, are you?
25:24And she's like this far away hugging me
25:27And she just turned and looked at me
25:29And she's like this close
25:30She's like
25:31That's all I've thought about for four days
25:35Is how can I just jump off this roof?
25:37And I was like
25:39Never thought that reaction
25:43I just never knew what to say
25:44I just didn't know
25:45Like, all I kept doing was just hugging her
25:47And, like, telling her, like
25:48You
25:50You don't even know
25:52What, like, tomorrow
25:53Is going to be
25:55Like, you don't
25:56You haven't
25:57You haven't
25:57You haven't even lived your best day
25:59You don't
26:00You haven't held your own baby
26:02You haven't, like, gotten married
26:03You
26:03You don't know what it's like to
26:05To experience
26:07Like, true love
26:10Like, somebody who'll do anything
26:11Thinking back at that day
26:17I was really just
26:17Trying to give her
26:19Hope
26:20And now
26:21What I had said
26:22Actually
26:23Is coming to fruition
26:25Like it's here
26:26I just
26:28Don't want her
26:29To be in a place where
26:31It's
26:34It's an emotional wreck
26:35And
26:36All she ever remembers
26:39About her wedding is
26:40Not enjoying her day
26:42Yeah
26:42This is it
26:43So it matters big time
26:44It matters to me
26:45Big time
26:46Big time
26:46I gotta make sure it's good
26:48That's all
26:49That's all
26:50Al is holding on
26:55To some of
26:55His pain from the past
26:57In regards to Valen
26:59I can't relate as deeply
27:01Because I
27:01I didn't live
27:02In that moment
27:03That deep
27:04Dark moment
27:05That he experienced
27:06With her
27:07But I can understand
27:08Because I want to protect her too
27:10So I think that that's why
27:12This idea of a backyard wedding
27:15Is so important to him
27:16Don't put too much pressure
27:19On yourself
27:20You've already done
27:21Everything
27:23You've already been
27:24The best dad ever
27:25And we're going to make sure
27:27That she has
27:29The best
27:30Most comfortable
27:31Day
27:32Accommodating
27:34To her
27:35And of course
27:35Colin is part of this too
27:38But Colin
27:39Colin does a great job
27:41With taking the back seat
27:42He does a good job
27:43He's happy to be sacrificial
27:45And take the back seat
27:46Because he knows
27:46That her needs
27:47Come before his
27:49In a lot of ways
27:49And that is
27:50That makes him
27:52A great human
27:52Just don't feel heartbroken
27:55If this is not
27:56The avenue they pick
27:57And I'm sure
27:59She'll still let her dad
28:01Have some input
28:02Why?
28:04She will
28:05One of the traits
28:08That I admire most
28:09About Alan
28:09Is just
28:11How deeply
28:12And unconditionally
28:13He cares
28:15About our children
28:17I've always said
28:19That it's
28:20Going to be
28:21And it is
28:22Harder for Al
28:23To let go
28:24Have you
28:28Decided where you're
28:29Having your wedding at?
28:30We're still looking
28:31Well there's always
28:32An open option
28:33The backyard
28:34In the backyard?
28:36Yeah
28:37I know exactly
28:39Who put Bacner up to this
28:40Thank you
28:41Alan
28:41My dad is bald
28:44Oh I'm drooping them
28:57Over the sides
28:58Dirty martini style
28:59I don't even know
29:00What that is
29:01But yeah
29:01It's fine
29:01So after
29:03The fire's been kaput
29:06I'm pretty confident
29:07Now that me and Bacner
29:09Can get back
29:10To what we're doing
29:10We're gonna have a good night
29:12And not tell mom
29:13Till the morning
29:14My stomach's already hurting
29:20I feel like at the end
29:24Of this I'm gonna have diabetes
29:25I mean god
29:28Please stop
29:29When my dad found out
29:36That I was having a sleepover
29:37At Bane Collins apartment
29:39He gave me a little task
29:41Have you
29:42Decided where you're
29:43Having your wedding at?
29:46Nope
29:46Text out
29:47We're still looking
29:49We got no idea
29:52Well there's always
29:55An open option
29:56The backyard
30:00Just think about it
30:02What the flip flop
30:06Boy
30:07First my dad
30:09Now Bacner
30:10I really do
30:11Kind of like the idea
30:12Of the backyard wedding
30:14You save a lot of money
30:15You don't have to
30:16Keep looking for stuff
30:18Get it done way sooner
30:19You can
30:20What are you talking about?
30:21Like the
30:21Where the venue is
30:23In the backyard?
30:25Yeah
30:25I know exactly
30:27Who put Bacner up to this
30:29Thank you Alan
30:30My dad is bald
30:33It would honestly
30:35Make dad so happy
30:36It's just
30:38It'd be nice to just
30:39Roll out of bed
30:4015 minutes
30:42Before the wedding
30:43I would like to have
30:44Bouncy house
30:45At the wedding
30:46I don't mean to be
30:48Rude drawing
30:48Four years old
30:49Dad is really
30:54Pushing hard for this
30:55But I'm not anywhere
30:56Close to saying
30:58Yes
30:58To a backyard wedding
31:00We've only seen
31:01One wedding venue
31:02So far
31:02So we have no idea
31:04What else is out there
31:04For us to choose from
31:05I mean
31:06I only plan on
31:07Getting married one time
31:08So let's make this
31:10One time special
31:11Alright let's get buff
31:15I mean we did just
31:16Eat ice cream
31:17I walk right
31:18At my own speed
31:19I don't run
31:21For a nobody
31:22Oh yeah
31:24I walk in my own way
31:26No matter what they say
31:28I like it that way
31:31When did you get this
31:33Gym equipment?
31:34I got it because
31:35It's hard for me to go to the gym
31:36Because of my nerves
31:37It's hard for me to go to the gym
31:38Because of my social anxiety
31:39It's hard for me to go there
31:40In general
31:42Being in the gym
31:44With another person
31:45That's
31:46So I work out here
31:51Me and Beckner
31:52Have always had
31:53A cute little special bond
31:55I would say
31:57Out of all the siblings
31:58Me and Beckner
32:00Are the most alike
32:01He has a lot of anxiety
32:03Just like I had
32:04A lot growing up
32:05But with me
32:05He doesn't feel like
32:06He has to hide it
32:07He knows he can say something
32:09And I'll get it
32:10I also have a problem
32:12With like being in the same room
32:13With people that like
32:14Are sweating
32:15And there's sweats
32:16Just everywhere
32:17You get it
32:19Right?
32:20Yeah
32:20I don't really
32:22Know how to say it
32:24But I do have anxiety
32:25Yeah
32:26Like are you anxious
32:27About sleeping over here?
32:30I have to be
32:30Near a wall
32:32When I sleep
32:33I just don't know
32:34Like how bad
32:35Or how intense
32:36Your anxiety is
32:37So that's just why I ask
32:38Every time I leave my room
32:41I have to leave it
32:41Better or the same
32:43When I walked into it
32:45And what if you don't?
32:46I'll think about it
32:48All the time
32:49And the first thing I'll do
32:50When I get back
32:51Is I'll fix it
32:52And if I do have anxiety
32:55I just tap
32:57Like I'll sit down
32:59And I'll be like
33:00I mean like everything at school
33:08Like with my binder
33:10My books
33:11My books
33:11My Mac books
33:13And all that
33:13It has to be perfectly even
33:15With even with everything
33:17Like
33:17You probably didn't see
33:20But when I got off
33:21I was going like this
33:22To try to make it even
33:23And completely straight
33:24If I don't do that
33:27I'll probably think about it
33:28A lot
33:30I don't know why
33:31But
33:31Listening to Beckner
33:34Is raising some concerns for me
33:36My sister Sammy and I
33:38Both
33:38Went through something
33:40Similar to this
33:41And we both
33:42Ended up with a diagnosis
33:44Of OCD
33:44So I'm wondering
33:47If Beckner could benefit
33:48From some kind
33:49Of medical help
33:50But first
33:51It would need a diagnosis
33:52And
33:53I'm not really sure
33:54How my parents feel about that
33:56Steph
33:59Do you care mom
34:00If we talk for a second
34:01Oh my gosh
34:02What are we doing
34:03What's up
34:03I just want to talk to you
34:05About Beckner
34:05Who is expressing to me
34:07What
34:08They're all running
34:10I can't look at them
34:11Okay
34:11Okay
34:23That's a first
34:25Haven't done that
34:26Since seventh grade
34:27Since Beckner is here
34:29With me for the weekend
34:30I reached out
34:31To
34:31My friend
34:32Joe's mom
34:33To see if I would be able
34:34To get them together
34:35Splash
34:36They live in New York
34:38But they are so excited
34:39She told me that
34:40It'll be absolutely nothing
34:42For them to get down here
34:43Yeah
34:45Holy bullets
34:47And honestly
34:48I thought it'd be
34:49Really cool for Joe
34:50Because it's been
34:50Really hard for him
34:51To make friends
34:52Because of his Tourette
34:53Why is there chickens
34:57In my neighborhood
34:58You're in the hood
35:00I can't look at the chickens
35:07Sometimes seeing chickens
35:12Sets off my ticks
35:13Kind of a lot of animals
35:15Set my ticks off
35:16Especially
35:17Farm animals
35:20I mean not a farm animal
35:22But dolphins
35:22Sorry
35:24That was spot on
35:27Dude that was perfect
35:29I'm gonna look this way
35:32Beckner
35:35They're here
35:36Hi
35:37How are you
35:38Hi Annie
35:39It's so nice
35:40It's good seeing you
35:40Hi
35:41I'm Annie
35:42Nice to see you
35:43Nice
35:43Oh my god
35:45I'm so excited
35:46To see you guys hang out
35:48How was the travel here
35:49It was a little weird
35:50When we got here
35:51With the chickens and stuff
35:52I know
35:52You know
35:53From New York
35:54You know
35:55Yeah and like
35:56Where's the graffiti
35:57So how old are you
36:01Eleven
36:01Oh okay
36:02So he just turned twelve
36:04So you feel like
36:05The same age
36:05Want to play now
36:06Sure
36:07Alright
36:08You guys are gonna play
36:09Me and Annie
36:10Are gonna go over there
36:11How about a one on one
36:12Alright
36:13First to five
36:14Sure
36:14Shoot for ball
36:15I'll shoot for it
36:16I'm so glad
36:27That they were able
36:27To connect
36:28It made me so sad
36:30To think that he
36:30Doesn't have friends
36:31I know
36:31And it's hard
36:32Thank you so much
36:33This like means the world
36:34To him
36:35Of course
36:35If you don't mind
36:37Me asking like
36:37What type of tics
36:38Do you have
36:39Like
36:39Physical
36:41Mostly
36:42Blanking
36:44Sometimes cursing
36:47Sometimes cursing
36:47I usually just have
36:49Like anxiety
36:51One thing
36:52That I always do
36:54And it's tapping
36:56Talked to Bae about it yesterday
36:59And she asked me
37:01Like what I'd do
37:01To like help it
37:02But it's like
37:03I don't know how
37:05You know what I mean
37:06Yeah
37:06Like
37:07It's kind of weird
37:08My first impression
37:11On Joe
37:11He's really nice
37:12Cool
37:12Fun to hang around
37:14Chill
37:15I don't know
37:16How severe
37:17Joe's tics are
37:18But I didn't really
37:19Notice him
37:19Ticking today
37:20Is Joe the only kid
37:22Yes
37:23He's like my one
37:24And only
37:24So
37:24When he was younger
37:26Looking back at videos
37:27At his preschool
37:28He's singing
37:29And he's slapping
37:29Himself in the face
37:30And I was like
37:31Oh he's so cute
37:32He's anxious
37:32Just like his mom
37:33Like he's quirky
37:34And then like
37:36He had this one
37:37Phenomenal teacher
37:37Who was like
37:38Do you notice his
37:39Like blinking
37:39And because of her
37:41He got tested
37:41We found out
37:42That he had
37:43The Tourette's diagnosis
37:44And I was like
37:45Oh
37:46Like
37:47How did I not see that
37:48My mom has six kids
37:50And she hasn't noticed
37:51Half the things
37:51Right
37:52As a parent
37:52You really don't
37:53So like
37:54Be gentle with her
37:55And also
37:56Like
37:56Like my parents
37:57Third generation
37:58Like
37:59You don't get diagnosis
38:00Right
38:01But
38:01It helps
38:02At least answer questions
38:04About the way
38:05That you're feeling
38:05The mantra is like
38:07Don't put it in their head
38:08But it's like
38:09It's already there
38:10Uh huh
38:10The more that I talk
38:11To Joe's mom
38:12The more I feel like
38:13I need to advocate
38:14For Beckner
38:15For me
38:16Finally hearing
38:17Tourette's syndrome
38:18Made sense
38:19Why things felt so hard
38:21Like you can't get help
38:24Right
38:24Medically
38:25Without a literal diagnosis
38:27So I do want to say
38:28Something to my mom
38:29I just don't really know
38:30How she will react
38:31To the whole thing
38:32Just talk to your mom
38:33You know
38:33I just want to do
38:34What's right for Beckner
38:35I want him to get
38:36The help that he needs
38:37Hey
38:39Oh there's my mom
38:41Hi
38:42How are you
38:43I'm good
38:44How are you
38:44Good seeing you
38:45Oh well this was nice
38:46To organize this
38:47Oh my god
38:48Oh
38:49So how was sleepover weekend
38:52We had a blast
38:53We had ice cream
38:54For dinner
38:55Well
38:55Yep
38:57Just ice cream
38:57You guys didn't order in
38:58You didn't know
38:59We had ice cream
39:00Oh
39:01It looks like
39:02They might be done
39:03Bye guys
39:04So have you two
39:05Had fun hanging out
39:06Yeah
39:07I am definitely glad
39:08That Balin introduced me
39:09To Beckner
39:10Because he's cool
39:12Funny
39:12And he gets me
39:14He's like a younger Balin
39:15Or like a cooler Balin
39:17A lot of hair
39:20I was going to say that
39:21I was going to say
39:22Thank you
39:24Bye you guys
39:26It was so nice to see you
39:27Thank you so much for coming
39:28But we'll talk
39:29Yes
39:29Okay
39:30Bye
39:31Bye
39:31Can I get front
39:32Babe can I get front
39:34Yeah
39:34Do you care mom
39:35If we talk for a second
39:36What
39:36Do you care if I talk to you
39:37For a second
39:38Yeah no that's fine
39:39Oh my gosh
39:42What are we doing
39:43What's up
39:43I just want to talk to you
39:44About Beckner
39:45What happened
39:46He was expressing to me
39:47What
39:49They're all running
39:51I can't look at them
39:52Okay
39:52Yeah can we switch sides
39:57Actually
39:57Okay
39:57I cannot look at them
39:59Okay
39:59All the chickens
40:01I really want to be able
40:04To share this with my mom
40:06But I'm very nervous
40:07With how she will react
40:09Or what she will say
40:10I hope she doesn't get
40:12Offended
40:13Or defensive
40:14Beckner expressed to me
40:17His anxiety
40:17Yeah
40:18It's a really big issue
40:20Marlene's a dirty
40:23Fat
40:24Filthy
40:24Horny
40:24Whore
40:25I hope I don't say that
40:27Take in front of your mom
40:28She knows that you
40:29Can't control it
40:30So look her right in the eyes
40:32And you say exactly that
40:33No
40:34This is so pretty
40:37This is so pretty
40:38That's like a little
40:39Bush room
40:40I'm so excited to get back
40:44Into touring wedding venues
40:46Everything about this place
40:47Seems perfect
40:48But is this a place
40:50That fits within our budget
40:51Something else that came up
40:55Is her concern
40:56About Beck's
40:57Obsessions and compulsions
40:59How she's so preoccupied
41:01That these things run in families
41:03It's super important
41:04You guys are getting married
41:06You're going to eventually
41:07Want children
41:08A medical plan
41:09Is probably
41:10The number one thing
41:12When it comes to jobs
41:13At some point
41:14You're going to have to
41:15Trust me
41:16To be able to
41:16Take care of your daughter
41:17You're going to have to
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