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00:00Oh! That is wonderful. She likes those higher notes. Yes. You know what this means. You're
00:13gonna have to get a piano. What's that, Mom? You're gonna have to get a piano. Are you
00:18sure? Yes, I'm sure. That's wonderful! That's wonderful!
00:30One, two, C-State, C-1.
01:00Does that sound good at all? Once I get a cold, I just have it for a while. They just
01:11kind of linger.
01:14Do you like a coffee from the world's most depressing coffee shop? Oh, absolutely. What
01:24do you want? Just cold, I mean, when you sell it that way, yeah. Have you ever heard of
01:29spatch-cocking a turkey? I think I might be trying that this Thanksgiving. I don't know
01:35if we should get jazzy with the turkey. Remember when we tried to fry one? That was a disaster,
01:39but yeah. I think we had an oil patch in our yard for about six months. But besides that,
01:46it was inedible. And can you make those big ribs for Travis? I am making those big ribs for Travis. The
01:52ones he affectionately refers to as dinosaur bones. Texas-sized ribs for a Texas-sized man.
01:58Oh my God. Touring is something that really brings my family together in a lot of ways.
02:08For me, part of the Paris tour is a celebration of my family. Ultimately, I just don't see any
02:17of this happening if all of my family hadn't been involved. I mean, we work together. We're kind
02:25of a family business for 20 years. This next song is by the Dixie Chicks. Oh, water. Yay. Her
02:31mom gets mad when she doesn't drink water. My parents didn't know anything about the music industry,
02:36but they were like, yeah, it's hard. Yeah, we know nothing about it right now. We'll get some books
02:41and read. Like, it's pretty insane. My mom does this every night, draws the 13 on. So now it's
02:49going to be shiny and new. In an industry as cutthroat as a music industry, learning hard lessons
02:56and experiencing ups and downs and triumphs and failures, it was a huge challenge for my whole
03:02family. But everybody was so locked in for my whole life. They all banded together to be like, no,
03:09she wants this. We want this for her. This tour, it's an honor to work on it. It's a real privilege.
03:18And we know that because none of us would be doing anything that we're really good at doing if it
03:23wasn't for what she does that she's incredibly good at doing. It's incredible fun. But mostly,
03:30it's a way for us to be together as a family and to sort of honor this thing we've committed
03:35our entire lives to. I think me and Gracie are going to change up the thing that we're going to do.
03:44Well, we think we want to do the song Us instead of because we just got nominated for the Grammy for Us.
03:50So a few days before we played Toronto, the Grammy nominations came out. We were very lucky. We got six
03:56nominations. And one of those was for a song that I did with Gracie while we were still on the
04:03Ares tour a year ago. This time last year, she and I went out to celebrate in between shows. We ended up
04:15having a lot of drinks. What do I do about this? Okay, you're going to fire extinguishers. I think we're going to die.
04:22Just press it. I don't know. Yeah, yeah. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. How can I?
04:30You never ran up on it. She could have learned from it.
04:34And then we ended up writing a song that we're really proud of.
04:37From you, I want it. How I want it. How I want it. How I get from you. How I want it.
04:42And just got nominated for a Grammy. So I just thought, wouldn't it be cool to do that song in Toronto?
04:48Kind of create a little kind of special moment, mash it up with one of the other songs that the fans really love.
04:54She had this idea to do Us and Out of the Woods, which like...
05:00Out of the Woods is in my like top three favorite songs of all time.
05:05Hey, dude, I have a cold, so I'm just going to like briefly go through.
05:09So we do double chorus, like mashup of Out of the Woods and Us, and I think it works in this key.
05:15Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out in the woods yet? Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods?
05:20Are we in the pre yet? Are we in the pre yet? Right?
05:22Sorry. Right. So like do that whole chorus and then we can do back to back bridges, right, like...
05:24Do that whole chorus, and then we can do back-to-back bridges, right?
05:28Like...
05:29Ironic, a cursor
05:31A miracle, a cursor
05:33I'm always who you're in
05:36Comparable, fuck you, as camera
05:39You must be what I see
05:46Wait for it
05:47What?
05:48Remember when
05:49The freaks too soon
05:5126, he's in a hospital room
05:53He started crying, baby, I did too
05:55Sun came off, I'm freaking out you
05:58Anyway, so we do double bridges
06:01And then we go into like a double chorus
06:03Like mashup of Out of the Woods and Us
06:06And it'll be so, so cool
06:08Then what does she do, though?
06:17The first chorus
06:18It's just insane
06:22She just like can do that in her sleep
06:24Where it's like, I'm gonna chop up two to five songs and make them all
06:28How did she mastermind that?
06:29I don't know, because she's just a mastermind
06:31I need to like write in Sharpie on my arm like
06:35Don't pass out
06:36Don't pass out
06:38The structure of the song
06:40Be like
06:41Me verse, me chorus
06:43Taylor verse
06:45Taylor chorus
06:46Me bridge
06:47Taylor bridge
06:47Taylor verse
06:48Me
06:49Wake up
06:49Wake up
06:51Catch me projectile vomiting on the heiress stage
06:54Catching my breath
07:09Steering out and open
07:12And you're catching my death
07:14And I couldn't be sure
07:19I had a feeling so peculiar
07:23So that this pain would be for evermore
07:29Evermore and Peter
07:49Jesus
07:50I don't, for the life of me, understand how she does it
07:54I have no idea
07:56Because I couldn't do it
07:58If my life depended on it
08:00I couldn't do it
08:01There wasn't a creative bone in my body
08:05It's like the background music for like a horror flick
08:18I agree
08:20You want me to sound that now?
08:28Yeah
08:28I was completely the opposite
08:31I went into business in school
08:32I don't have a musical background
08:35Or play instruments
08:37But I do have this sort of intimate knowledge
08:40Of the psyche of someone who really has to do this
08:46And it goes back to my mother
08:49Marjorie
08:51She was an opera singer
09:04She was a music major out of college
09:07And went straight to work
09:09Live radio performing out of New York
09:11But she married my dad
09:13And they started moving around the world
09:15So wherever they were living
09:17She would star in local operas
09:20Everywhere we went
09:22She was absolutely beloved
09:24My sister and I were often brought along
09:30And put in the front row listening
09:32And on the way home
09:35I remember she would say to me
09:37So Andrea
09:38During that part of the delivery
09:41Did it make you want to cry?
09:45And I would say
09:46Well mom
09:47A little bit
09:50A little bit
09:50You know
09:51She was always looking for feedback
09:52But from an 8 year old
09:55Like opera
09:57So I would give her what I could
10:06But I knew that I had a job to do
10:08Because I was going to be quizzed on the way home
10:10It was a beautiful relationship I had with my mom
10:15But it was all with a full awareness
10:19That my mom was this person
10:21Who loved singing
10:22Who loved to perform
10:23And that people love
10:25So it began with my mother
10:37And I think that that prepared me probably better
10:42Than anything that could have
10:44For having a child like Taylor
10:46Who pretty much wanted to follow
10:50In my mother's footsteps
10:52Taylor always knew
10:55She wanted to perform
10:57And she was already
11:00Writing her own music
11:02Without any co-writers
11:03This is a song I wrote
11:05Yesterday
11:06I wrote this song yesterday
11:07This is a song I wrote
11:08Like a week ago
11:09It's called
11:10One Sided Goodbye
11:11This song is called
11:12Beautiful Days
11:12And the title is kind of
11:14Self-explanatory
11:15So
11:15And then
11:15At 11
11:17Is when
11:18Taylor looked at me
11:19And said
11:20We gotta go to Nashville
11:22Please, please
11:23Take me to Nashville
11:24That is where Faith Hill went
11:26Very quickly
11:32I realized
11:33This is where
11:34My past with my mother
11:36Was gonna really
11:36Really come into play
11:38I think Taylor
11:40Wanted to
11:41Experience something
11:43That she thought
11:44Was
11:45I hate to say the word
11:48But destiny
11:49I do think
11:51That at a very young age
11:53We tend to know
11:54Where we're going in life
11:56And it's
11:58It's good to listen
12:00To them
12:00And where their dreams are
12:02Even at that age
12:03So we're in Toronto
12:09In my hometown
12:10Everything that I own
12:13I don't realize
12:15Because it's just
12:15Always here
12:16It's a part of
12:16The fabric of my life
12:18But truly
12:19Everything
12:20Is dance related
12:21Everything is dance
12:22This is a
12:23I believe
12:24A Christmas tree ornament
12:25I'm such a dance geek
12:27I think more than
12:29Just loving dance
12:29I'm a true dance nerd
12:31Yes
12:32Too much
12:33I think you have to have
12:35A certain personality
12:36To tour
12:37Truly
12:38It's like one thing
12:39To be a dancer
12:40Or a musician
12:41But it's another thing
12:42To be able to handle
12:43What a tour entails
12:44And it's not for everybody
12:47It was always for me
12:49I did great
12:49I loved being on the road
12:51My whole life
12:54It was my dream
12:55To tour like this
12:56And I loved performing
12:57In this show
12:58But after this tour
13:01My dance career
13:02Is coming to an end
13:04It's like that
13:05Beautiful bittersweet
13:07I think is how
13:08How it'll end for me
13:09Everything that I saw
13:13Had dance on it
13:14So I knew from a young age
13:16That this is what you wanted to do
13:19Before you could even write
13:21You drew yourself
13:22Dancing
13:23And the teacher wrote
13:27Amanda wants to be a dancer
13:28Aww
13:29I like dancing because it is fun
13:31I dance good
13:32My mom takes me to dancing
13:36And sometimes my dad does
13:38Thanks for sometimes taking me dad
13:40Thanks for always taking me mom
13:42You're welcome
13:44Are you guys excited to come?
13:46Oh my gosh
13:47Of course
13:47On Saturday
13:48I'm going to try to
13:49Wave to you guys
13:50A little bit
13:51Yeah yeah
13:52But watch your step
13:53Don't I'll fall
13:54Thanks dad
13:55So as we go into these last few shows here
14:08I can't help but think that
14:10This is potentially the last time
14:12That I will ever do this
14:13In front of my family and friends
14:15You know
14:15But I think we all know
14:19How rare and special
14:21Opportunities like this are
14:22And Tay
14:25You are
14:27Oh god
14:28You are all things kindness
14:33And all things grace
14:35And absolutely
14:36My life is different
14:38From now moving forward
14:39Because of you
14:40So have an incredible show
14:42Me too
14:42I love you guys
14:43Let's enjoy
14:45Thank you for un-retiring
14:48My favorite pop star
14:50You are my favorite pop star
14:52Let's go out there
14:54Fuck it up
14:55Fuck it up
14:56Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up
14:59If you love like that
15:01Love like that
15:02Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
15:03I love like that
15:04I'm doing something bad
15:06I'm doing something bad
15:07I'm doing what you've done
15:10Cause baby, now we got bad
15:12Now we got fun
15:15And I don't think we can't stop
15:18You made a really deep cut
15:20And baby, now we got bad
15:23I'm going
15:24Hey!
15:24For Taylor, it's always been about the audience
15:40Making sure that she felt an intimate connection with them
15:46Meeting people
15:47Talking to them
15:48Hugging them
15:49But with the Aeros tour
15:51That could no longer be possible
15:54Because of COVID
15:56And the risk that it brought to everybody backstage
16:00That, you know, you've got this massive production
16:02Having it shut down would be a disaster
16:05I decided that if I couldn't meet fans
16:09In the crowd
16:10In the show
16:11Then I have to come up with different ways
16:16To still give people an intimate experience
16:21Ethan Tobeman is a brilliant production designer
16:26I've been working with him
16:27Mainly I started on music videos
16:29This was the biggest undertaking that we had
16:32I'd like to build worlds around a storyteller
16:37Their relationship with their fans
16:39Our relationship with the songs
16:41If every idea that you have
16:43Creates an emotional response
16:44You are able to make people in the last row
16:48Feel like they're in the first row
16:49I wanted to make sure that our production
16:56Was accessible from every part of the stadium
16:59Well, these people are all the way up here
17:01So we made the floor video
17:03And the video screen on the floor
17:05So now as they look down
17:06They get this incredible view
17:08But now the people on the floor can't see
17:10And so we're going to get a camera
17:12That's overhead
17:13We'll be able to shoot the floor
17:14We'll put up on the screen
17:14I mean, we have a cinematographer for this tour
17:18Which we've never had before
17:20So many people are going to be
17:21Watching those screens
17:22So we know which shots are cooler than other shots
17:38And then also I was like
17:39Do some wild card stuff, Ethan
17:41I want there to be a moment
17:42Where the fans are like
17:43What just happened?
17:44And that's when he comes up with things like
17:46Me diving into the stage
17:48At which point I'm like
17:50Ethan, that
17:50Is not going to work
17:53How does that even work?
17:58You get red lights
17:59Until you get the green lights
18:02Green lights tell you
18:03That you're not going to run into anything
18:04Oh my god
18:04And then you're into a bag
18:06I wonder what that looks like from the top
18:08Downstage
18:12From the top?
18:13Yeah
18:13And it looks cool
18:14It looks even better
18:15Favoring the downstairs
18:16Like as if I'm coming back
18:17Piano
18:18I'm walking here
18:20And I just
18:21Look at you
18:23Did it look good?
18:24Yeah
18:24I love it so much
18:27Do it again?
18:28Yeah, if you're comfortable with it
18:29People scream
18:49It's happening right in front of your eyes
18:55That creates joy
19:00And that's, I think, what great shows do
19:06Make adults feel like children
19:10What we were trying to do with this tour
19:17Was make it the biggest thing we've ever done
19:21But truthfully
19:23None of it happens
19:25Without
19:25A song
19:27And a person up there
19:29Willing to sing it
19:30I love songs
19:32I love songs
19:34I love songs
19:38Storytelling for me
19:44Is one of
19:44The key aspects
19:46That makes me feel like
19:47Life is worth living
19:48Cause our song
19:49Is a slamming screen
19:50Door
19:51Sneaking out
19:52Like tapping on
19:53Here's a window
19:54When we're on the phone
19:55And he talks real slow
19:57It's just
19:58It's that important to me
19:59Gets better than this
20:02You'd take my hand
20:03And drag me head
20:05First
20:05Fearless
20:06And crafting a song
20:08Is just
20:10The happiest I ever am
20:12Hi
20:12Okay, so let's go
20:15I liked it better
20:17When you were on my side
20:20Sorry, hold on
20:24I just wrote this 15 minutes ago
20:26If you're in a writing session with me
20:28Like, I'll go into my lyric space
20:30And it's just sort of like
20:31Just rocking back and forth in a corner
20:33Muttering
20:33What if you start over with the same melody
20:41So it's
20:42In the middle of the night
20:44Yeah, so it starts over
20:45Yeah, yeah, yeah
20:46It's very
20:47I've never lost that sense of just like
20:49I don't know
20:51It's for me
20:52It's
20:52It's endlessly fascinating
20:55I never get bored of it
20:57In the middle of the night
20:59In my dreams
21:01Songwriting happens
21:04Whether I'm on tour or not
21:06Because my life has just always
21:10Been a kind of free-flowing state of
21:13You live it, you feel it, you wonder about it
21:16You write about it
21:17I started going to Sweden
21:22In between my shows
21:23And it just felt like the most
21:25Exciting way to make a secret album
21:28It would just be the three of us
21:32And we would write
21:34And we would record
21:36You want to hear the vocals?
21:38Yes, please
21:38All right
21:39You don't have to hold back on the violence
21:41So go more violent?
21:43I mean
21:44It was almost like you were a little
21:46I think I was trying to be in tune
21:47And I didn't have the click track
21:48Yeah
21:49I can be more violent
21:50Trust me
21:53All right
21:53Making the album
21:55While I was on the Ares tour
21:56I was in a place in my life
21:59Where life felt so full of possibility
22:01And it felt like I was figuring things out
22:04And it felt like
22:04So romantic and magical
22:06And passionate
22:07And I wanted to encapsulate that feeling
22:09On this album
22:10We hadn't made any music together
22:32Since Reputation
22:33Which came out in 2017
22:34So going back and working with
22:38Max and Shellback
22:39Our relationship is very much
22:41That I feel like
22:42They've always been mentors
22:44And I've always felt like
22:45They're an apprentice
22:46And they are so brilliant
22:49What?
22:54Good job, everyone
23:04Mostly dog
23:05It's really a very respectful relationship
23:09That you would have with people
23:10That you
23:10You know they're your peers
23:12But you also look up to them
23:13Okay, so this is a Swedish Christmas dinner?
23:17What is this?
23:18This is a
23:19I don't know what dinner
23:21Station Trues is included
23:23This is the first station
23:25First station of Swedish Christmas
23:29So we put nuts and raisins in the cup
23:32And then we put
23:34The spiced wine in there
23:37And it's hot and we drink it
23:40Yes
23:40I'm excited
23:41That's absolutely delicious
23:43This is incredible
23:46Yeah
23:46Merry Christmas
23:51Go eat it
23:51Go eat it
23:53I was really ready for that sort of challenge
23:57To go back in with these two people
23:58And really try to stretch
24:01And challenge myself as much as possible
24:03To make hopefully the best album
24:06That I could possibly make
24:07I think it should be high
24:09Good thing
24:14You know what I mean?
24:15Like so that it's got something weird
24:17And creepy about the high
24:18Oh I'm obsessed with this
24:22Jesus
24:24I usually hear about new music
24:30Within five minutes of it being written
24:33That is the best thing I can possibly think of
24:40And also the scariest
24:42Because now I know something
24:45That nobody else knows
24:46Other than the people who are in that room
24:48And that's a massive responsibility
24:50It's like I don't
24:51No don't send
24:52No don't send it to me
24:53I don't want it on my phone
24:54No no no
24:54Or like I'm immortal now baby dolls
24:56Like that you're still talking to all those girls
24:59Yeah
24:59But I'm immortal now baby dolls
25:03I couldn't if I tried
25:07Nah
25:08I like that other one that you went to
25:10Yeah
25:10I couldn't if I tried
25:14Thank you for the lovely bouquet
25:18I think I think you put
25:20Bring the beat back on
25:22Okay
25:22Damn it
25:24I just love it
25:25I love being hyper detailed
25:29And having several overarching themes
25:34That are woven throughout
25:35And I think the fans
25:37Have really gotten into that obsessive nature
25:41Of my storytelling too
25:42I think for a lot of people
25:44They feel such a personal connection to her
25:46Her deeply personal writing
25:49The drama that she's been through
25:52The heartbreak and regret
25:53That she's shared with people
25:55And I think it must be meaningful to her
25:57For that to resonate
25:58Woo
25:59Yeah
25:59Alright this is going to be
26:02My last song for today
26:04Taylor Swift is one of my favorite singers
26:06And it inspired me to sing one of her songs
26:08I think a lot of people can relate to this
26:12I wanted to give a compilation of lyrics
26:14That I still have yet to recover from
26:16When you were young
26:17They assume you're nothing
26:19One of the things that sets her apart
26:24From a lot of other people
26:25Is how she writes
26:26You choose stars
26:28Around my scars
26:30But now I'm bleeding
26:34So do you
26:37Stepping on the last train
26:39Mind me like a blessed day night
26:43I'm with you
26:45Leaving my daughter
26:47And I'm like water
26:50I knew you
26:53Handed on my sweater
26:55Baby, kiss you better run
26:58Her writing is personal
26:59And it's vulnerable
27:00And it's very specific
27:01But in that specificity
27:03People see themselves
27:05Cause there we are again
27:08When I loved you so
27:11Back before you lost
27:15It's the one real thing you've ever known
27:18I don't remember a time existing without her music
27:21Every chapter of my life
27:23Is marked by an album of hers
27:25That came out around the same time
27:26I started writing music when I was eight
27:30I remember my friends saying
27:33Would you rather have ten trillion dollars
27:37Or like write a song with Taylor Swift
27:38I'm like write a song with Taylor Swift
27:41Oh, this is going to be a fun one
27:50Hello
27:51Hi, hi, hi, hi
27:52How's your dress?
27:54Thanks, man
27:55How are you feeling?
27:57I'm, you know, I'll get there
27:59This is going to pull me through my cold
28:00This is a medical thing for me
28:02Um, so what I would do is
28:05I'd start out by like
28:06Talking to them about
28:07How we're so excited
28:10Cause we just got nominated
28:11For a Grammy together
28:12So we thought
28:13What better than to
28:15Play a little song for you
28:16Now
28:17And then I'll be like
28:18Gracie, come out
28:19What?
28:23Oh, it's crazy
28:24No, the double bridge
28:25Is going to send me off a cliff
28:27It still feels surreal to be here, you know
28:40She is just the easiest person to be around
28:43She's such a dear friend
28:44I fucking love her
28:46And then sometimes I'm like
28:47How is it that we're singing this song?
28:50For me, this is like a dream
28:52I always get like so smile
28:58It's going to be great
28:58I thought, did you, how did you miss?
29:02Us, us
29:07Wonder if you regret the secret
29:12Of us
29:14Us, us, us, us
29:20Looking at it now
29:23I think you'll remember
29:29The genius
29:31Young lady you saw earlier tonight
29:34Gracie Abrams
29:35Please welcome to the stage
29:39Once again
29:41Gracie Abrams
29:44There's something that happens between
30:03Friends who make music
30:06It's this kind of like undeniable bond that you have
30:10With Gracie
30:14We've had so many special moments
30:16I love you, Gracie
30:33You know, my opening acts on this tour
30:36Are kids that were like 10 years old at my show
30:39And now that we're singing together
30:42Like, you just can't believe
30:44The way that everything's falling into place
30:46And the way you never could have dreamed it would
30:49Toronto, give it up again for Gracie Abrams
31:09You know, I look forward to seeing
31:24The different ways that the fans react from night to night
31:27You see the tears
31:29And you see the hugging each other
31:31And it just
31:31I love it
31:32For me personally
31:34Watching the show
31:35That moment that Taylor appears
31:38And there she is
31:39That to me
31:41Is
31:43Absolutely worth everything
31:46It makes me feel like
31:49This was my
31:50Calling
31:51In life
31:52Whether it was Taylor
31:54Or my mom
31:56It was to be around someone
31:57Who loves entertaining
31:59And is extraordinarily talented
32:01It was just
32:03Just ditto
32:06It just happened all over again
32:07You know, Taylor sings Marjorie
32:13Which is dedicated to my mother
32:14And, you know, we
32:17I knew I was going to do it at some point
32:24The experience writing Marjorie
32:34Was
32:35I was kind of a wreck
32:38At times writing it
32:39I'd sort of break down sometimes
32:41She died when I was 13
32:50When I was on a trip to Nashville
32:52To try and make it
32:53So
32:55I've always just
32:56Sort of felt like
32:57She was
32:57Seeing
32:59Seeing this
33:00You know
33:00One of the things
33:03That still rips me apart
33:04When I listen to it
33:05Is that she's singing with me
33:06On this song
33:07I wrote these lyrics
33:10And if I could know better
33:12I think you were
33:14Singing to me now
33:17Then you hear her
33:20Actually sing
33:21It's things like that
33:27That just make you feel
33:28Like your whole heart
33:29Is in this whole thing
33:30During the tour
33:33She does Marjorie
33:37And I said to her
33:39God, Taylor
33:40I don't know if I can make it
33:41Through the tour
33:42Crying every night
33:44When you sing that song
33:45It just gets me
33:47It started off
33:51As something very simple
33:52You know
33:54We didn't even have
33:55Lights prepared
33:56For that song
33:57We didn't know
34:00That the fans
34:01Were going to
34:02Honor that song
34:03With the reverence
34:04That they do
34:05That they were going to
34:08Hold their phones up
34:09It just became
34:18A very loving tribute
34:21To her grandmother
34:22We do Marjorie
34:24Every night
34:24You know
34:25I think about family
34:28My dad
34:29Passed away last year
34:31She's singing about
34:32Her grandmother
34:32But those of us
34:33That have gone through
34:34Something similar
34:35In the recent years
34:36Like that's always
34:37Kind of an emotional
34:38Moment in the night
34:38My papa was a big part
34:41Of the family
34:42My favorite person
34:44In the whole world
34:45And he unfortunately
34:47Passed
34:47Every single time
34:49I'm on that stage
34:50I definitely feel
34:51His presence
34:51Especially the first night
34:53Just this big rush
34:54Fell over me
34:55And I was like
34:55It's my grandpa
34:56Marjorie is about
35:00Taylor's grandmother
35:01But it's personal to me
35:03And I think that's
35:04A testament to Taylor's
35:05Writing because
35:07It really feels
35:08Like it's your own
35:09Experience
35:10The idea that
35:13You have a loss
35:15And yet
35:17They are still here
35:19With us
35:19Is kind of what
35:21I need to cling to
35:22In every night
35:23I've been performing
35:32With Taylor
35:33For 12 years
35:35And truly
35:37The Ayers Tour
35:38Was a surprise
35:39To all of us
35:41We had had COVID
35:43We all wanted to be together
35:45To make music again
35:46I know I very much
35:47Needed to be here
35:49To make music again
35:50I lost my mother
35:54September of 21
35:56So when rehearsal started
35:58Not only did I need music
36:01And need to be with
36:02With my band family
36:04I needed to heal
36:10Music is the thing
36:18That is the most healing
36:20To me
36:21I for the past few years
36:32Have been really learning
36:34To accept and lean into
36:38That two different things
36:41Can be true at one time
36:42And last year
36:45That really
36:46Smacked me in the face
36:48Because we started
36:50This tour
36:50And we were all
36:52Making memories
36:53And falling in love
36:54With each other
36:54And I was the happiest
36:56I had been
36:57In some time
36:58And at the same time
37:01I was heartbroken
37:03Every moment
37:05Because my mother
37:06Wasn't here
37:07To experience
37:08This joy
37:09And to
37:10See the Ayers Tour
37:13Yeah
37:17Like if you
37:18Saw me sobbing
37:20Somewhere
37:20You would never know
37:21That I was the happiest
37:22I had been
37:23In a while
37:24And if you saw my joy
37:27It was often
37:29That I was
37:30Pretty devastated
37:31And so
37:33Knowing that
37:34I just want to
37:35I don't know
37:37Give permission
37:38To feel both
37:40To be here
37:42Feel what we feel
37:45Be as present
37:45As you can
37:46In these next
37:47Four shows
37:48Thank you to all of you
37:50Thanks
37:51Come fuck
37:51You
37:51All right
38:02All right guys
38:03You heard her
38:03Let's go out there
38:04Fuck shit
38:05I'm fucking
38:06Up up up up
38:08Up up up
38:09Up
38:09Up
38:10Up
38:10Up
38:11Up
38:12Up
38:13Up
38:14Up
38:16Up
38:17Up
38:18Up
38:19Up
38:20Up
38:21Up
38:21Up
38:51Up
38:52Up
39:21I didn't say that, once I didn't say that, you're alive, so am I.
39:30The autumn chill wakes me up, you love the amber sky so much, long winds and frozen swims, you always go past where I feel you can touch.
39:40And I complained the whole way then, the car riding back and up the stairs, I should've asked you questions, I should've asked you how to be, asked you to write it down for me, should've kept every grocery store receipt, cause every scrap of you would be taken from me.
40:00I watched as you signed your name, Marjorie, all your closets are back of dreams, and how you left them all to me.
40:11What died, didn't stay dead, what died, didn't stay dead, you're alive, you're alive in my head.
40:20What died, didn't stay dead, what died, didn't stay dead, you're alive, so am I.
40:30And if I didn't know better, I think you were, singing to me now.
40:40If I didn't know better, I think you were still around.
40:50I know better.
40:53My mom's voice is in that song.
40:55And she would've loved to have seen all of this, she'd be so proud, and I think she'd also be really, really stoked that she's now singing in the stadium every night.
41:10I know better.
41:21My mom commands, who didn't do that call is great.
41:25Sheкт slot, hemii, and I think she could go in front of her in the吹き by the NFL.
41:29What happened to her?
41:32I know better.
41:33I know better than her.
41:34But I remember, when I was nine years old and I was bé in the city of Lauri Galu,
41:36We're at the very end of this tour
42:04so you doing that, you have no idea how much it means to me and to my band and to my crew
42:21and everybody who's put so much of this into this tour, into their, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore
42:26I'm just having a bit of a moment, sorry
42:34It's not even the last show
42:36I love you guys, thank you so much for that
42:46And I'll save you guys
43:02that was fun oh it got I got emotional I felt like a dumbass I couldn't put words together
43:22Austin that was kind of embarrassing that's nice of you to say though you're a very short
43:27person you know what got me was like Camila made this speech before the the the show where she was
43:39talking about how her mom died like her mom died recently and she was just saying like how heart
43:44broken she is that her mom never got to see the aerosaur and never got to see her do this and I
43:50was just thinking about it all night I was and I you know and I knew that and I we always used to
43:54like make eye contact on Marjorie me and Camila because of her mom but it put it in perspective
43:59like I don't know like the fact that that mom did get to see it and like Travis got to see it and
44:08dad got to see it and like I just felt so lucky and that's what it's like cracked me it cracked me wide
44:15open oh my god it was unreal it's just incredible it really was and I think you have every right to
44:24feel emotional because it has to be hitting you honey but yeah this has been being a dream tour of your
44:30life yeah it has I just never thought I never thought we'd ever do something this good I mean
44:35it's gonna be an emotional time from here on out to the end it's so crazy that like all this has
44:40happened and we all got to experience it together we love you love you love you too
44:45so
44:55so
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