00:00Namaste mary dost
00:02Господи, мой микрофон работает
00:04Боже, я волнуюсь
00:06Namaste mary dost
00:08My name Koko
00:10This is my vlog
00:12This video we have done a lot of things
00:14I have done a lot of things
00:16I have done a lot of things
00:18I have done a lot of things
00:20I have done a lot of things
00:22I have done a lot of things
00:24I have done a lot
00:26I have done a lot of things
00:28I have done a lot of things
00:30Because you can see
00:32My husband, my speaks
00:34When I am always
00:36So I am always
00:38And you can say
00:40And you can say
00:42I have done the perfect thing
00:44But
00:46Everything was bad
00:48I went
00:50My social media
00:52Because
00:54How could I
00:56I have seen this word in Google Translate, maybe it means depression or something like that.
01:07It can come to every person like this.
01:13I will tell you why I can't tell everything I can tell you, but I will tell you and share it with you.
01:24Everything started when I came to India.
01:28After the new year, I probably remember my new year vlogs.
01:32I was very happy with my family with my family.
01:36As I remember, in January 8th, my ticket was back to India.
01:45And then, my husband, my husband, my husband, my husband, my husband,
01:51I got a new flat on my way.
01:54Because before we lived in a few years.
01:57Now we lived in another flat.
01:59I got another flat on my way.
02:01And the flat on my way was better than the start.
02:05I didn't know why.
02:07But I didn't know why I didn't get to meet anyone with anyone.
02:11I didn't get to know anyone with anyone.
02:13I helped myself to get to know someone with anyone.
02:16But, I was not sure what I was going to do with my previous videos.
02:22I was a very introvert.
02:24I am a very introvert.
02:26I was a very introvert.
02:28But, I needed to find a good friend.
02:30There were some friends with whom I met with, and I was like, I know that this market, this market, this market, but I didn't want to go anywhere.
02:43I had a lot of mistakes in my country and I couldn't help myself.
02:51I went to the gym and came back to the gym.
02:56Then, something happened to us that we had to leave the gym.
03:03And we had another one.
03:06The gym had my friends and it was good.
03:10But then, my feelings were not good.
03:15I was always looking for some reasons so that I could get out of the gym.
03:22Everything started with small things.
03:27When I went to the mall, I was living here.
03:31You know, if you live in Delhi, you are living in the DLF.
03:35When I was living in Delhi, I was living in Delhi.
03:40Or some other shops.
03:42Then, I was going to the mall.
03:44I was very scared.
03:46I had a scarf, glasses, and masks so that people can recognize me.
03:52So that no one could talk to me.
03:54Because I was scared to talk to me.
03:57I didn't know why.
03:58I never had this before before.
04:01I was always a smoker and a man.
04:04I was always a smoker and a man.
04:06I went to the mall.
04:07Then, I went to the mall.
04:09Then, I went to the mall app and I didn't go anywhere.
04:12So, I wanted to go out to school and I was living here.
04:19So, I wanted to go out to school and I would go out to the mall.
04:23So, Sephora app, Zara app, and I ordered everything, so that I would always ask no way to go, so that I wouldn't go to my house, so that I wouldn't have to go to the gym.
04:41I would only go to the gym and go to the house, but I had only a gym that kept me alive, and my husband.
04:51I didn't know that.
04:53However, I had a couple of friends with me who would call me.
04:58But I would never give a message to me, because I couldn't explain it.
05:10Then, what happened?
05:12Then, the first step was that my gym didn't give me so much.
05:21Because I'm always so dedicated,
05:25How do you say dedicated?
05:27I don't know in Hindi language.
05:29I have so much passion for my gym.
05:35I always liked weight and muscle.
05:40But, what did I show you?
05:46Oh, shit.
05:47What are you doing?
05:48I've got dumbbells on my house, I wanted to flip cards.
05:55I uploaded all the Indian apps.
05:58I uploaded them 5KG and 1KG.
06:03and one more like this, I mean two more like this
06:06and one more like this
06:10and one more like this
06:13so that I can do the moves in the machine
06:19like double raise, something else
06:22for more shoulders
06:24because I need more weight for the legs
06:28so I wouldn't go to the gym
06:32but so that I don't want to go to the gym
06:36I also want to go to the house
06:38at that time, I started my course
06:41in Russian language
06:43fitness certification
06:45because for my fitness topic
06:47there was always a feeling
06:49just one thing in my life
06:51that gave me a feeling
06:53I was learning anatomy, physiology
06:56muscle building
06:59how to make muscle
07:01this was a feeling for me
07:03it was a feeling
07:04but only at any time
07:07there was a feeling
07:09when I didn't feel a feeling
07:12I was rising
07:13and I was rising
07:15with this thought
07:16as I was rising
07:17so it was a feeling
07:18that in my life
07:19another day
07:20one more day
07:21one more day
07:22one more day
07:23one more day
07:24one more day
07:25one more day
07:26one more day
07:27on a day
07:28it will be closed
07:29out and so it will be
07:30resolved
07:31And I didn't have any idea, but it was just my motivation, what do you call it?
07:43It was just a goal, so that my body, my body, my body would lose, so that I would go to gym,
07:52so that everything is lost in life, but it doesn't have to be lost.
07:58But with this thought, I only had to go to gym.
08:03Sometimes I had nails and eyelashes, sometimes I didn't have to go to gym.
08:10But at night, I only had to go to gym.
08:14Sometimes I had to go to coffee or something like that.
08:17I had to go to gym.
08:19But it was a lot of work.
08:22I had to take care of myself and my husband said no, stop.
08:27My relationship with me was so much that I was very angry and angry.
08:36And I said no, no.
08:40You don't need anything.
08:42You will go to therapy.
08:45And honestly, my friend, I tell you, if someone goes through this part of my life,
08:55that I have said that it's harder to be no more, it's easier for me to take care of myself.
09:04There is therapy and anti-depressant too, I tell you that it's more than a good thing,
09:09therapy or anti-depressant
09:12I will tell you the truth
09:13Then I got a little bit of a joy in my life
09:19that everything is not so much
09:22something is good in my life
09:24something is good
09:25I need to go out of this camera
09:29and then I have to look at my mom's face
09:37I didn't talk to my mom
09:40but I always do it
09:42I just didn't talk to anyone
09:44Then after that, I talked to my mom
09:50and my mom, my dad, my mother
09:54gave me the idea that I should do my YouTube
09:58because this was the thing
10:05which helped me to support people
10:11because in India, my friends have a lot of work
10:14almost only my friends and my friends
10:17I don't get my life here
10:19and so on with the camera
10:25I am looking forward to people
10:29I feel good
10:31Some people have told me that she is just doing for views. She is just using Indian audience for money.
10:41I have to open a way, if you don't know about this, that in 2022, when Russia and Ukraine had this situation, which I have known,
11:00then Google has told me that Russian citizens, Russian people, which are Russian people,
11:12they have told me to open a Google Adsense account. Yes, if you don't know,
11:19that's why you've never seen any ads on my channel. I haven't seen any ads on YouTube.
11:26I have just kept it, because I feel good to talk to people.
11:36I feel good to talk to people. I feel good to talk to people.
11:40Because I don't like my friends. Yes, I can say that I am in a very own way.
11:50I feel good to talk to people. I feel good to talk to people.
12:00I feel good to talk to people. So, I feel good to talk to people.
12:02But I feel good to talk to people in my life.
12:04I feel good to talk to people.
12:07When someone knows me and tells me that I am looking for photos, I feel so happy that if only one person feels good, then it's enough.
12:25If you understand, sorry if my words are not correct in Hindi, I hope, I hope that I have understood what my meaning was.
12:40Now I want to come back to YouTube.
12:43Vlogs about making my life is still warm.
12:49It's warm in my heart.
12:51I am in my heart, as you know.
12:53I want to go back to Russia.
12:59After that, I want to go back to Delhi.
13:11Because my partner will go to another country,
13:16so I will go to another country.
13:19I will tell you later, who is from India.
13:22Of course.
13:23I will tell you all about everything.
13:24And how do I do this video?
13:25I don't know.
13:26Please forgive me.
13:27Please forgive me.
13:28Please forgive me.
13:29Please forgive me.
13:30Please forgive me.
13:31Because I don't know.
13:32I don't know why I am.
13:33Please forgive me.
13:34Please forgive me.
13:35If I was not at all.
13:37Just forgive me.
13:39Just forgive me.
13:40I just want to talk to you.
13:44Bye bye, my friend.
13:45I want to talk to you. Bye bye, my friends. If my video is good, then my channel will subscribe. If it is bad, then my channel will be better.
14:11But I feel very bad
14:13In the next vlog we will definitely see you
14:17Bye Bye
14:18I was waiting for you
14:21I love you
