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Somewhere in Indiana-SD
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00:00:00I'll never forget that love.
00:00:18Ain't so bad being a toy.
00:00:22It really takes time to stop and think about what's important in the movie.
00:00:25Teen Idol actor Eddie Ray was killed in a motorcycle accident.
00:00:28I got bigger fish to fry in places to see.
00:00:31On California State Road 653, his first movie, Rebel Without a Reason, was a huge hit with teenagers.
00:00:40It had been a very rough winter.
00:00:43For two weeks in late January, the temperature stayed in the single digits, dropping to a
00:00:49low of minus 36 degrees one night.
00:00:52On top of that, we had a record snowfall.
00:00:54I lost my job in early January, and things were very tense at home between Rita and me.
00:01:03I accidentally happened on an Eddie Ray fan club website, where I met Sam, Dan, and Jane.
00:01:08They were all younger than me, but we all shared a love for Eddie Ray and the influence he had
00:01:13on that generation.
00:01:16My parents' generation.
00:01:17It was late May when we made the decision to visit Fairview, Indiana, Eddie Ray's hometown.
00:01:24We would all meet up in Indianapolis, and then drive up to Fairview and spend a couple of days there.
00:01:30I would drive in from Cincinnati, and the rest of the group would fly to Indianapolis.
00:01:36Four different people embarking on a journey in search of answers.
00:01:40There was Sam, who was trying to find himself.
00:01:49Just think about it, okay?
00:01:51I told you, there's nothing to think about.
00:01:54Sam, are you still going across the country on this wild goose chase?
00:01:57It's crazy.
00:01:58Those others, they're not our kind.
00:02:00You don't know anything about them.
00:02:01Going off to Indiana, your papa would roll over in his grave.
00:02:05Mom, calm down.
00:02:08Remember what your doctor said.
00:02:10Besides, I think Dad would be proud of me.
00:02:14Nothing good ever came out of Indiana, right, Marvin?
00:02:18Dan Quayle.
00:02:19Dan Quayle, what a joke.
00:02:21What about your job?
00:02:22What does your boss think of this Meshugganah idea of yours?
00:02:25I'm only missing one day.
00:02:26And he worked extra last week.
00:02:28Sam, I'm just looking out for your well-being.
00:02:31I don't want anything to happen to my little boy chick.
00:02:34I've got to pick up Rose.
00:02:38Catch you later, Sam.
00:02:48I'll be fine.
00:02:56And there was Dan, still grieving over the tragic death of his young bride, Tabitha.
00:03:01Hello, Dan.
00:03:10Aaron.
00:03:10You know, I really hope Allah somehow spoke to you and convinced you to change your mind.
00:03:20Dan, I'm telling you, I have a very bad feeling about this trip.
00:03:23Since when did you care for such things?
00:03:25You're a non-believer, remember?
00:03:26I'm only a realist.
00:03:28Okay, so what?
00:03:29I question everything.
00:03:30But my friend, I'm questioning you.
00:03:32I mean, you're traveling this great distance.
00:03:35And for what?
00:03:38Dan, I grieve for Tabitha, too.
00:03:41You know she was like a sister to me.
00:03:44But do you honestly believe that this Eddie Ray is going to help you?
00:03:48Dan, he's dead.
00:03:50And he's been dead for almost 50 years.
00:03:53Why are you doing this?
00:03:57Aaron, I've told you.
00:03:58These are good people.
00:04:00They've helped me through my grief.
00:04:02They...
00:04:02Never mind.
00:04:05I'll call you later.
00:04:06And last there was Jay.
00:04:15Someone who pushed, prodded, and convinced all of us to go to Indiana during that hot August weekend.
00:04:28I still think of her.
00:04:33But I have a hard time remembering her.
00:04:36Well, honey, you were only five years old when we lost her.
00:04:44Just...
00:04:44Just hold on to the memories you have.
00:04:47She loved you.
00:04:48So much.
00:04:54Dad...
00:04:55Did Mom know?
00:04:58I mean...
00:05:00Back then?
00:05:03Honey, I don't know.
00:05:06But I believe she...
00:05:07Well, you know.
00:05:12Sorry.
00:05:15I got stuck in traffic.
00:05:17Okay.
00:05:22Time for me to leave.
00:05:41You'd be a good girl, all right?
00:05:43Can I go with you?
00:05:45Can you bring me back something?
00:05:46Sweetheart, I'm only going to be gone for three days.
00:05:48Maybe next time you can go with me.
00:05:50I know that you and Mom are...
00:05:51Well, she's mad.
00:05:53But she'll get over it.
00:05:54Listen.
00:05:55I know things have been really difficult lately.
00:05:58But we both love you very much.
00:06:00And you know that.
00:06:01And deep down, we love each other.
00:06:03And that's what's important.
00:06:03I'll see you soon, okay?
00:06:05All right.
00:06:06I've been stumbling around, blind in the dark.
00:06:28Banging on walls
00:06:31Screaming at everyone
00:06:34I see you standing there
00:06:38That look in your eyes
00:06:42Oh, so innocent
00:06:44But you are to blame
00:06:48The things that you do to me
00:06:52So you still plan on going to Indianapolis?
00:06:57That's why you're too young
00:06:58To be going through male menopause.
00:07:01Look, don't run away from me!
00:07:03I'm not running away from you!
00:07:04But I don't have anything else to say.
00:07:06You just don't understand me.
00:07:08I don't think you've ever understood me!
00:07:12Understand?
00:07:14I gave up trying to understand you
00:07:16A long time ago!
00:07:19You have obligations here!
00:07:22You shouldn't be going off
00:07:23And screwing around
00:07:24With somebody younger
00:07:25Than your own sister!
00:07:26Dad, it's not that way at all!
00:07:28I can control myself
00:07:29What about last year?
00:07:32When you and what's his
00:07:33Stay for sorrow
00:07:36Stop the pain
00:07:38But you're free
00:07:40And you're strong
00:07:41Rita, it's only for three days
00:07:42Things are going to work out
00:07:45Things that you do to me
00:07:47You just have to trust me
00:07:48You think that I'll forget
00:07:52But you are wrong
00:07:55I'll take it to the grave
00:07:59Which might not be so far away
00:08:02So far away
00:08:04Far away
00:08:07I've been stumbling around
00:08:14Report card's going to be good?
00:08:16Mm-hmm
00:08:17You like your teachers?
00:08:18Yeah, I even told him that you're going to Eddie Ray's hometown
00:08:21Oh, yeah?
00:08:22Cool, that's right.
00:08:22I'll leave tomorrow.
00:08:23I'll be gone all weekend.
00:08:24Have you ever been to Eddie Ray's hometown before?
00:08:26No, I never have.
00:08:27It'll be my first time.
00:08:28Yeah, did you ever watch his movies when you were a kid?
00:08:30Yeah, I remember watching his movies on television.
00:08:32But you know, he was popular even before I was born.
00:08:35Wow, I think he's so cool.
00:08:37I even think Mom likes him.
00:08:38He's so cute.
00:08:40Hey, I taped a special about him last night.
00:08:42Do you want to watch it?
00:08:43Yeah, do you want me to go get Mom?
00:08:45No, Mom's pretty busy.
00:08:47Maybe she can watch later.
00:08:48Okay.
00:08:48Okay?
00:08:48All right.
00:08:49Let's see here.
00:09:07There we go.
00:09:13Fifty years ago, a young man from Fairview, Indiana, left the comforts of home to follow
00:09:18his dream and head for Hollywood, seeking fame and fortune.
00:09:22Little did he realize that his life would be cut short by a tragic motorcycle accident,
00:09:27just as he was obtaining a measure of the admiration he was seeking, or that he would
00:09:31be credited with influencing young teenagers worldwide in the baby boomer pop culture scene
00:09:37for the next half century.
00:09:38Let's look at one of the most recognized and revered scenes from the history of the cinema
00:09:42from Rebel Without a Reason.
00:09:44Why'd this happen to us?
00:09:52I ain't a bad kid, am I?
00:09:54Hey, Ronnie, you're not bad.
00:09:56It's them.
00:09:57Sometimes I feel like no one trusts me.
00:10:01They treat me like a child, like I'm being suffocated.
00:10:03I hate them.
00:10:04They're all monsters.
00:10:05Ronnie, don't ever say you're bad.
00:10:07You're not bad to me.
00:10:10I'll never treat my kids like the way they treated me,
00:10:12or the way they treated that David.
00:10:15Poor kid.
00:10:17You know, the whole world is so messed up.
00:10:20Nobody takes time to stop and think about what's important anymore.
00:10:24They're so comfortable in their nice homes and nice jobs.
00:10:28It's all an illusion.
00:10:29None of it's real.
00:10:31It's like the whole world forgot how to love.
00:10:34Nobody cares about love anymore.
00:10:36Money's all they care about.
00:10:38Well, Ronnie, you're not like them.
00:10:40You know how to love.
00:10:41You're so nice, and strong, and gentle.
00:10:47And you've always accepted me for who I am.
00:10:50You've never treated me like a tramp.
00:10:56Betty, I swear, I'll never forget how to love.
00:10:58Yeah.
00:10:59Yes.
00:10:59Mother, I swear, I swear, I swear, I've got nothing.
00:11:01I swear, I swear, I swear, I Finn's all letters.
00:11:02I swear, I swear, I swear, I swear, I swear.
00:11:11I swear, you can't love it.
00:11:12What, theesten, I swear, is that it's my son?
00:11:20So, anyone hungry?
00:11:41I am starving.
00:11:42I couldn't eat that crap they served on the plane.
00:11:44I mean, unless everyone else is hungry, I can wait.
00:11:49I could go for some grub and a cup of coffee.
00:11:51Sure, I could use a bite.
00:11:53Great, I found this sandwich coffee shop kind of place on the internet.
00:11:56It's in an artsy neighborhood.
00:11:57Oh, yeah?
00:11:58Yeah.
00:11:59You know, theater district, art galleries, that kind of thing.
00:12:01Cool.
00:12:11I'm starving.
00:12:13You're not a dead man.
00:12:14I'm a shooter for it.
00:12:19This is gonna be great.
00:12:27Are you excited?
00:12:29You know, about being on this trip.
00:12:32Yeah.
00:12:33I am.
00:12:34Normally, I'm not an impulsive person, but you're very persuasive.
00:12:40Well, I usually get my way.
00:12:44So, have you ever been to Indianapolis before?
00:12:47Yeah.
00:12:48I was here when I was a kid.
00:12:50A long time.
00:12:51Gosh, 30 years ago.
00:12:53Anyway, this part of town was a lot different then.
00:12:56There were a lot of gypsies around.
00:12:58Really?
00:12:59Yeah.
00:13:00What did they do?
00:13:01I have no idea.
00:13:02I was just a kid.
00:13:03Adam, you're a lot older than...
00:13:08I mean, so, how old are you?
00:13:14I'll be 36 this year.
00:13:18You look so much younger.
00:13:21So, Sam, tell me.
00:13:22How long have you been an Eddie Ray fan?
00:13:23Since I was about 13, I guess.
00:13:24And that's when I saw Rebel Without a Reason.
00:13:25That was such a cool movie.
00:13:26It really rocked.
00:13:27You know, the grown-ups were so...
00:13:28What's the word?
00:13:29A square.
00:13:30It's hard to believe that our parents were the ones that grew up with those films.
00:13:31And they still ended up being so uptight.
00:13:32No, my dad never treated me like that.
00:13:33He was really understanding.
00:13:34My father wasn't.
00:13:35He was strict.
00:13:36He was also very traditional.
00:13:37You know, in the old ways.
00:13:38What do you mean the old ways?
00:13:39He was supposed to go back to Lebanon after he graduated.
00:13:41But he ended up marrying my mother instead.
00:13:42Was your mother Lebanese?
00:13:43No, she was not.
00:13:44I was not.
00:13:45I was not.
00:13:46I was not.
00:13:47I was not.
00:13:48I was not.
00:13:49I was not.
00:13:50I was not.
00:13:51I was not.
00:13:52I was not.
00:13:53I was.
00:13:54I was not.
00:13:55I was.
00:13:56I was.
00:13:57I was.
00:13:58I was.
00:13:59I was.
00:14:00I was.
00:14:01I was.
00:14:02I was.
00:14:03I was.
00:14:04No, she was English.
00:14:05And a Christian.
00:14:06Was your wife an Eddie Ray fan?
00:14:09My wife loved Eddie Ray.
00:14:12She was, uh, very Western in some ways.
00:14:15But it wasn't until, uh, it wasn't until she was killed that I started watching his movies.
00:14:21Anyway, now I'm here instead of back in New York working.
00:14:24Yeah, but at least you have a job.
00:14:26Nowadays, with the way the economy is, marketing types like me are a dime a dozen.
00:14:32Well, I can't be fired because I have my own business.
00:14:35I mean, if my business isn't doing well, I don't have to worry about making payroll.
00:14:39I just don't pay myself.
00:14:41But listen, my friend, things will improve.
00:14:44You'll find a job and my business will grow.
00:14:47God willing.
00:14:49Anyway, Jane, um, tell me.
00:14:52I can't remember.
00:14:53Did your dad ever remarry?
00:14:54No.
00:14:55No.
00:14:56So, where to now?
00:15:01Would you mind if we drove to the track?
00:15:03I've always wanted to see it.
00:15:04That's cool.
00:15:06Hold on.
00:15:07Hold on.
00:15:08Hold on.
00:15:09Hold on.
00:15:10Hold on.
00:15:11Hold on.
00:15:12Hold on.
00:15:13I don't know.
00:15:43So,
00:16:13was it what you expected?
00:16:15I wish my father could have seen it.
00:16:18He was a big race fan.
00:16:20I remember we used to listen to the race on the radio when I was a kid.
00:16:23Really?
00:16:24Yeah, but he never made it up here.
00:16:26He died so young.
00:16:29Anyway, did you enjoy seeing the track?
00:16:32Yeah, I guess.
00:16:34I'm not a big race fan.
00:16:36It was bigger than I thought it'd be.
00:16:38You know, Dan,
00:16:39you should come back in May
00:16:41and, you know, see the race.
00:16:43Yeah.
00:16:44We better head to Fairview.
00:16:45We've got to take the back roads to get there.
00:16:47You okay?
00:17:07Yeah, I just don't like to sit in one place for a long time.
00:17:15I'll be fine.
00:17:16Don't worry about me.
00:17:17Sam?
00:17:29Yeah?
00:17:30Come on in.
00:17:35Where's your mom?
00:17:36Mom's out shopping.
00:17:39So.
00:17:40You know what we talked about?
00:17:49About what happened the other night?
00:17:51That again.
00:17:52We've been through this.
00:17:54Sam, put the groceries away.
00:17:55Your poor old mama's tired.
00:17:58So, Marvin, how are you?
00:17:59Fine.
00:17:59How is your beautiful, unattached sister
00:18:02that doesn't have a date Friday night?
00:18:04Mom, stop.
00:18:05No, it's not right.
00:18:06You sit in front of that computer all day
00:18:07ruining your eyesight.
00:18:09And those pictures you look at,
00:18:10you know you should be going out
00:18:11with a nice, attractive girl.
00:18:13Rose is going to make some lucky man
00:18:15a very nice wife.
00:18:15Mother, please.
00:18:16Sam, a good-looking boy like you
00:18:18with so much to give the girls,
00:18:19just like your papa, may he rest in peace.
00:18:22You should be on the lookout
00:18:23for a nice girl like Rose.
00:18:24And you're not going to find one
00:18:25in those bars you go to.
00:18:27In those places,
00:18:27all you're going to find is a bunch of whores.
00:18:29I didn't raise you to go out.
00:18:30Oh, yeah?
00:18:30Well, you don't know anything about me.
00:18:41Dan?
00:18:44Back at lunch,
00:18:46you know when you asked me
00:18:47if my dad had remarried?
00:18:50Well, he's gay.
00:18:52Has been as far back as I can remember.
00:18:54Oh.
00:18:55Oh.
00:18:57And, well, my dad's African-American.
00:18:58What?
00:18:59I thought I was weird
00:19:00with a Jewish mother
00:19:01and a German Methodist father.
00:19:02Well, my mother's Asian.
00:19:04They met when my dad was in the service.
00:19:06Was your dad in Vietnam?
00:19:08Yes, but my mom was an American.
00:19:11Her family came to San Francisco
00:19:13before the Second World War.
00:19:16They were prisoners
00:19:17at the Amache intern camp
00:19:20in Colorado.
00:19:20Wow.
00:19:25Now, here's a clip
00:19:26from the star-studded movie
00:19:27The Very Tall Texan.
00:19:30Look, Tommy,
00:19:31I ain't trying to butt in.
00:19:32But you gotta stay away
00:19:33from them Farleys.
00:19:35You don't belong up
00:19:36in that big fancy house.
00:19:37It's only gonna bring you trouble.
00:19:40Them people don't care
00:19:41about folks like us.
00:19:42We're just like something they own.
00:19:45It ain't right thinking
00:19:46you can mix with them.
00:19:48I see you sniffing around
00:19:49that Mary Ann.
00:19:50Boy, you ain't nothing
00:19:51but a toy to her.
00:19:53Her old man finds out
00:19:54what's going on,
00:19:55he's gonna shoot you in the back
00:19:56and claim you drawed first.
00:19:59Look, Pops,
00:20:01it's none of your damn business.
00:20:03It ain't so bad being a toy.
00:20:05Ain't my problem Frank
00:20:06ain't manning up to satisfy her.
00:20:07Boy, you're headed for trouble.
00:20:09I'm only trying to help you out.
00:20:11That Mary Ann's gonna drop you
00:20:12like a hot potato.
00:20:13Worse, she'll say
00:20:14that you forced yourself on her
00:20:15and then they'll lynch you.
00:20:17Tommy, you're a good kid,
00:20:19but you just gotta stay
00:20:20with your own kind.
00:20:22That's just the way it is.
00:20:23Pops, I don't plan on
00:20:26being a cowpuncher
00:20:27the rest of my life.
00:20:28I got bigger fish to fry
00:20:29in places to see.
00:20:30There's more to the world
00:20:31than this damn ranch.
00:20:35Is there a quicker way?
00:20:43Nope.
00:20:44Welcome to the Midwest.
00:20:46A million small towns
00:20:47in the middle of nowhere.
00:20:51Damn!
00:20:53Are you okay?
00:20:59Yeah, I'm fine.
00:21:00You guys should watch
00:21:00where you're going.
00:21:01Someone could get hurt.
00:21:02Oh my God,
00:21:03is everything all right?
00:21:04Very lucky, my friend.
00:21:05Yeah, lucky so I've been told.
00:21:07What the hell are you doing
00:21:08out here in the middle of nowhere?
00:21:10I could ask you guys
00:21:11the same question.
00:21:12As a matter of fact, I will.
00:21:13We're going to Fairview.
00:21:15You know, the hometown of...
00:21:16Fairview?
00:21:16That's where I'm headed.
00:21:18You mind giving me a lift?
00:21:20Sure.
00:21:21Well, I'm Jane.
00:21:22Sam, and it's Dan, and...
00:21:24I'm Adam,
00:21:24the distracted driver.
00:21:26Okay, you guys ready to roll?
00:21:29You mind if I sit up front?
00:21:30No, go ahead.
00:21:31What'd you say your name was again?
00:21:34Some folks call me Roy.
00:21:35So Dan, you're Lebanese.
00:22:03No, I'm American.
00:22:04My father was Lebanese.
00:22:07Did you ever get back to Lebanon?
00:22:10No, you see,
00:22:11my father was Muslim,
00:22:13but my mother was Christian.
00:22:15That must have been challenging.
00:22:17Well, it was.
00:22:18For six months,
00:22:19I would go to church with my mother,
00:22:20and for six months,
00:22:21I would go to mosque with my father.
00:22:23Really?
00:22:24Yes.
00:22:25My father, he was...
00:22:26he was strict,
00:22:28but he was also very cunning.
00:22:30In what way?
00:22:31Well,
00:22:34before my 16th birthday,
00:22:36he told me I needed to decide
00:22:37whether I wanted to be Christian or Muslim.
00:22:41So, on our way to buy this old car,
00:22:43for me,
00:22:44he said it would be a great car
00:22:46to drive to mosque.
00:22:48And?
00:22:49Pretty much got the message,
00:22:50and he became a Muslim.
00:22:51What does your wife think about you
00:22:54going on this little junket?
00:22:57Well,
00:22:58well, my wife,
00:22:59she was, uh,
00:23:00she was,
00:23:01she was killed in the convenience store
00:23:02hold up
00:23:03almost a year.
00:23:08Did they catch the guy who did it?
00:23:10Yeah.
00:23:11Maybe some,
00:23:12some dumb kid
00:23:13looking for money
00:23:15to buy some more dope.
00:23:16Damn junkies.
00:23:17No.
00:23:18I mean,
00:23:19I felt that way at first,
00:23:21but
00:23:21we just started hanging out
00:23:23with the wrong crowd.
00:23:25That's too bad.
00:23:27Sometimes life is really unfair.
00:23:36Dane,
00:23:36you must let go of your grief
00:23:37and move on.
00:23:39I hate saying you're so depressed.
00:23:40I just blame myself
00:23:44for making Tabitha work.
00:23:47If my business
00:23:48would have been better
00:23:49or,
00:23:49or if she would have gotten
00:23:50that teaching job,
00:23:51she'd still be with us.
00:23:53You must put this tragedy
00:23:55behind you
00:23:55and move on.
00:23:58Tabitha would want that.
00:24:00Maybe you should start
00:24:01seeing other people.
00:24:04You know,
00:24:04meet other women.
00:24:07Go out.
00:24:07I just can't.
00:24:12I would feel like
00:24:12I betrayed her.
00:24:14Not right now.
00:24:16Listen, Dan.
00:24:18Each day you grieve
00:24:20is a day lost.
00:24:22You must accept the past
00:24:24and embrace the future.
00:24:26Do you want to honor her?
00:24:29Honor her by living your life.
00:24:31All in good time.
00:24:32All in good time.
00:24:37Stop.
00:24:42Pull it.
00:24:42Pull it here.
00:24:43Do it.
00:24:57Damn you!
00:24:59You're not good,
00:24:59better!
00:25:00Damn you!
00:25:01What are you doing?
00:25:03Hey!
00:25:06What are you doing out here?
00:25:07We don't open
00:25:08for a couple of hours.
00:25:10I'm sorry, sir.
00:25:12I don't know
00:25:13what's going on here.
00:25:14Are you the manager?
00:25:15Yeah,
00:25:15and I'm also the owner.
00:25:18Dad opened this theater
00:25:19back in 49.
00:25:20So,
00:25:21where are you folks from?
00:25:22From all over.
00:25:23I'm from Cincinnati.
00:25:24The lady's from San Francisco.
00:25:26One of the guys
00:25:27is from Florida
00:25:28and the other one's
00:25:29from New Jersey.
00:25:30I don't know
00:25:30where Roy's from.
00:25:31Where are you headed?
00:25:33We're heading to Fairview.
00:25:34Are we getting close?
00:25:35It's just up the road.
00:25:36Great.
00:25:36You know,
00:25:36this drive-in's
00:25:37where all the kids
00:25:38from Fairview
00:25:38would come in the 50s
00:25:39and 60s.
00:25:40Nowadays,
00:25:41they all play computer games
00:25:42or rent movies.
00:25:43I don't know how much longer
00:25:44I can keep the theater going.
00:25:46You know,
00:25:47there's not very many
00:25:47drive-ins left around.
00:25:49But,
00:25:49we've been open since 49.
00:25:52Except for that time
00:25:52after them kids were killed.
00:25:54My dad felt real bad
00:25:55about the accident,
00:25:55so he closed earlier that year.
00:25:57You know,
00:25:57usually we close
00:25:58at the end of October.
00:25:59That year,
00:25:59he closed in August.
00:26:00Wow.
00:26:02What happened?
00:26:03Well,
00:26:03I don't remember exactly.
00:26:05I was just a little boy
00:26:06at the time,
00:26:07but the story is
00:26:08that these kids
00:26:08came to see Rebel
00:26:09without a reason
00:26:09and they'd been drinking
00:26:11and left the theater,
00:26:13got into a terrible car wreck
00:26:14and were killed.
00:26:15Gosh.
00:26:16It was back in 1958.
00:26:19Uh-huh.
00:26:19Well,
00:26:20look,
00:26:21you folks enjoy your visit.
00:26:22Thanks,
00:26:22I appreciate it.
00:26:23Take care.
00:26:23You mind telling me
00:26:27what that was all about?
00:26:29Don't worry about it.
00:26:30Let's go, okay?
00:26:36Alright.
00:26:45Hey,
00:26:45why don't we stop
00:26:46and get something to eat?
00:26:47Don't you have a place to stay?
00:27:05Yeah.
00:27:06Don't worry about me,
00:27:07I'll be fine.
00:27:08Why don't you stay with us?
00:27:09We have three rooms reserved.
00:27:11That's okay, isn't it?
00:27:13Okay.
00:27:14You guys go check in
00:27:15and I'll wait out here.
00:27:28Hello,
00:27:28can I help you?
00:27:29Yes,
00:27:29we have three rooms reserved
00:27:31under the name of Jane Mystic.
00:27:32I have been trying
00:27:33to reach you all day,
00:27:34sweetheart.
00:27:35We only have two rooms left.
00:27:37What?
00:27:39See the pork producers,
00:27:41they're meeting over in Goodlyton,
00:27:42the county seat,
00:27:43and well,
00:27:44they ran out of rooms
00:27:45so we get their overflow.
00:27:47We have a contract
00:27:48with the county.
00:27:50There was nothing I could do.
00:27:52I'm sorry.
00:27:53So,
00:27:55well,
00:27:55I managed to save you
00:27:56two rooms,
00:27:57but I had a reservation.
00:27:59Alright,
00:28:00we have five people now.
00:28:03What are we going to do?
00:28:05Well,
00:28:05I thought you might
00:28:06pick up an extra person,
00:28:08so one of the rooms
00:28:09that I saved
00:28:09is our mini suite.
00:28:11On one side,
00:28:12there's a king-size bed,
00:28:13and on the other side,
00:28:14there's a sofa bed
00:28:15and a cot.
00:28:17The second room
00:28:17has two queen-size beds,
00:28:19so see,
00:28:19there's room enough
00:28:20for five people.
00:28:22Alright,
00:28:23come here, guys.
00:28:29I don't think
00:28:29there's much
00:28:30we can do here.
00:28:32Jane,
00:28:33Roy,
00:28:33and myself
00:28:33will take the suite.
00:28:35Sam,
00:28:35you and Dan
00:28:35take the other room.
00:28:38Okay,
00:28:38who will sleep where?
00:28:40You take the bed,
00:28:42we'll put Roy on the cot,
00:28:43and I'll sleep on the sofa bed
00:28:44in the other room.
00:28:45I'm responsible
00:28:46for Roy being with us,
00:28:48and we don't know anything
00:28:49about the guy,
00:28:49so I'd like to
00:28:50keep him where I can see him.
00:28:52Fine with me.
00:28:54Sure,
00:28:54we were going to share
00:28:55a room anyway.
00:28:55Jane?
00:28:57Sure,
00:28:57that's okay.
00:28:58I feel responsible
00:28:59for asking Roy
00:29:00to stay with us.
00:29:02I'm sorry.
00:29:03Don't worry about it.
00:29:04Let's just all
00:29:05get some rest.
00:29:14Hey,
00:29:14did you notice
00:29:15anything strange
00:29:16about the town
00:29:17back there?
00:29:18No.
00:29:19What do you ask?
00:29:20I don't know,
00:29:21there's not much
00:29:22to the town,
00:29:22but maybe it's
00:29:25just a feeling.
00:29:25Whatever.
00:29:27So,
00:29:29have you
00:29:30ever dated
00:29:31any women,
00:29:32or have you
00:29:32always been gay?
00:29:33Look,
00:29:34I'm not gay,
00:29:35okay?
00:29:35I've been with
00:29:35plenty of women.
00:29:36They beg for mercy.
00:29:38Why would you
00:29:38even ask that?
00:29:39Come on,
00:29:40I saw the way
00:29:41you were looking
00:29:41at that guy
00:29:42back there at the track.
00:29:43That's not the way
00:29:43that someone who's
00:29:44straight looks
00:29:44at another man.
00:29:45So I notice
00:29:46one good-looking guy,
00:29:47and all of a sudden
00:29:48I'm a homosexual.
00:29:51Come on, Dan.
00:29:52I didn't think
00:29:52you'd be so judgmental.
00:29:55Well,
00:29:55all I'm saying
00:29:55is life's full
00:29:56of difficult choices.
00:29:57Remember that story
00:29:58I told you about
00:29:59having to choose
00:30:00between being
00:30:00Christian and Muslim?
00:30:02Think about it.
00:30:03Well, I...
00:30:05So,
00:30:06did you ever
00:30:07regret your decision?
00:30:10Sometimes I used to wonder.
00:30:12That is,
00:30:12until I met
00:30:13Tabitha in college.
00:30:14I mean,
00:30:14she was a modern Muslim,
00:30:16but she would've never
00:30:17considered marrying me
00:30:18if I were Christian.
00:30:19Really?
00:30:19Yeah, I mean,
00:30:22sometimes I believe
00:30:23that once we make
00:30:24that defining decision
00:30:25in life,
00:30:26our die is cast,
00:30:27and we have very little
00:30:28control over our destiny.
00:30:31Well, I don't think
00:30:32things are set in stone.
00:30:33You can always
00:30:34change your mind.
00:30:37Well, my friend,
00:30:38I hope you're right.
00:30:41Yeah,
00:30:41I hope you're right.
00:30:42Good night, man.
00:30:46Good night.
00:30:53Oh, sorry.
00:30:55Oh, come on.
00:30:57I thought you had
00:30:57seen someone in the
00:30:58bathroom before.
00:31:04Need to pee?
00:31:07Yes.
00:31:10Where's Roy?
00:31:11Roy, he wasn't here
00:31:12when I started my shower
00:31:13and his bed's still made.
00:31:17I don't know.
00:31:18He wasn't in the room
00:31:19when I went to sleep
00:31:20last night either.
00:31:21Maybe he went for a walk
00:31:22or something.
00:31:23Anyway, what's the plan?
00:31:24I'll call Sam
00:31:25and see if those guys
00:31:26are ready for some breakfast.
00:31:28In what, 15 minutes?
00:31:29Yeah, that sounds
00:31:30pretty good.
00:31:32No, wait.
00:31:32Actually, make it
00:31:3320 minutes, okay?
00:31:35You got it.
00:31:36Thanks.
00:31:41Up in the country
00:31:46the day the spreader broke
00:31:48we went to town
00:31:49for parts
00:31:50I and my neighbor
00:31:51a man of furrowed years
00:31:53knowing every mile
00:31:54of corn and beans
00:31:55along the road
00:31:56like so many freckles
00:31:57on his arm
00:31:58whether good soil
00:31:59or bad
00:32:00and how the drainage was
00:32:01a new John Deere
00:32:03tires as big as a walk
00:32:04I'm even in Manhattan
00:32:05I like eggs over easy
00:32:12toast, bacon
00:32:13you know
00:32:14the regular breakfast thing
00:32:15Hey, Roy
00:32:16Hey
00:32:17You guys going to
00:32:18sleep your life away?
00:32:20We were going to
00:32:20get something to eat
00:32:21Would you like to join us?
00:32:22Gosh
00:32:23I've already eaten
00:32:24Come on
00:32:25have some more coffee
00:32:26Ah, sure
00:32:27But let's see
00:32:28what the poet
00:32:29has to say first
00:32:30Thank you
00:32:35Soybeans
00:32:38The October air
00:32:40was warm and musky
00:32:42blowing over brown fields
00:32:44heavy with the fragrance
00:32:45of freshly combined beans
00:32:47the breath of harvest
00:32:48He was pulling a truckload
00:32:50onto the scales
00:32:51at the elevator
00:32:52near the rail siding
00:32:53north of town
00:32:53when a big Cadillac
00:32:55drove up
00:32:55A man stepped out
00:32:57wearing a three-piece suit
00:32:59and a gold pinky ring
00:33:00The man said
00:33:01he had just invested
00:33:02a hundred grand
00:33:03in soybeans
00:33:03and wanted to see
00:33:04what they looked like
00:33:05The farmer stared at the man
00:33:07and was quiet
00:33:08reaching for the tobacco
00:33:10in the rear pocket
00:33:11of his jeans
00:33:11where he wore
00:33:12his only ring
00:33:13a threadbare circle
00:33:14rubbed by working cans
00:33:16of dip
00:33:16and long hours
00:33:17on the backside
00:33:18of a hundred acre run
00:33:19he scooped up
00:33:20a handful of small
00:33:21white beans
00:33:22the pearls of the prairie
00:33:23saying
00:33:24Soybeans look like
00:33:26a foot of water
00:33:27on the field
00:33:27in April
00:33:28when you're ready to plant
00:33:29and can't get in
00:33:30like three kids
00:33:31at the kitchen table
00:33:32eating macaroni
00:33:33and cheese five nights
00:33:34in a row
00:33:35or like a broken part
00:33:36on the combine
00:33:37when your credit
00:33:38with the implement dealer
00:33:39is nearly tapped
00:33:40Soybeans look like prayers
00:33:42bouncing off the ceiling
00:33:43when prices on the
00:33:44Chicago grain market
00:33:45start to drop
00:33:46or like your old man's tears
00:33:48when you tell him
00:33:49how much the land
00:33:50might bring for subdivisions
00:33:51Soybeans look like
00:33:53the first good night
00:33:54of sleep in weeks
00:33:55when you unload
00:33:55at the elevator
00:33:56and the kids
00:33:57get Christmas
00:33:58He spat a little juice
00:33:59on the tire
00:34:00of the Cadillac
00:34:01laughing despite himself
00:34:02and saying to the man
00:34:04now maybe you can tell me
00:34:05what a hundred grand
00:34:06looks like
00:34:07I found out how to get
00:34:28to the museum
00:34:29How's that?
00:34:30We'll go out to the main road
00:34:31and turn left
00:34:32and it's
00:34:32go four blocks
00:34:33and then take a right
00:34:34and it's supposed to be
00:34:35on the corner there
00:34:36so it should be no problem
00:34:37Hi y'all with the pork producers?
00:34:40No, we're just visiting
00:34:41I'm from New Jersey
00:34:42I'm from Got a Big One
00:34:43you want to see?
00:34:44Sam
00:34:45You'll have to excuse my friend
00:34:47he's from South Florida
00:34:48lack of ocean water
00:34:50has affected his brain
00:34:50Right
00:34:51Oh, that's alright
00:34:52I can see I got the wrong
00:34:53kind of plumbing
00:34:54for such a big man anyhow
00:34:55Yeah, well you're nuts
00:34:57Besides, where does some pig farm
00:34:59from Hicksville
00:35:00know about anything anyway?
00:35:01Sam, stop it
00:35:02settle down
00:35:03What?
00:35:04Dan's not interested in her
00:35:05he's got the hots
00:35:07for that waitress
00:35:08over at the coffee shop
00:35:09what's her name?
00:35:11Barbara?
00:35:11Jesus, Sam
00:35:12what is it with you?
00:35:13Yeah
00:35:13what makes you be treated
00:35:14with respect?
00:35:15Like an exquisite flower
00:35:16Fine, I'm sorry
00:35:19Hey, roller
00:35:20There's nothing I like better
00:35:22than a good pissing contest
00:35:24except maybe a good drag race
00:35:26What about it, Dan?
00:35:28What about what?
00:35:29You and me
00:35:29and those two rods
00:35:30out on the street
00:35:31a race to the finish
00:35:32mano a mano
00:35:33We can't just take those cars
00:35:35Sure we can
00:35:36I've talked to the owners
00:35:37and they said it's fine
00:35:38Anyway, I told them
00:35:39you're an up-and-coming
00:35:40indie race car driver
00:35:41and I'm Fireball Robbins
00:35:42You don't know much
00:35:44about drag racing, do you?
00:35:46What about it, Dan?
00:35:48I can't race you
00:35:49What if we wreck the cars
00:35:50or if we get hurt?
00:35:51Come on, let's do it
00:35:51Loser buys the first round tonight
00:35:53You're nuts
00:35:54Why would I want to race you?
00:35:56Why not?
00:35:56What else is there to do?
00:35:58Why are you taunting me?
00:35:59What did I ever do to you?
00:36:00Everything
00:36:01I can't race you
00:36:03Look
00:36:04Your old man would be out
00:36:06on the car
00:36:07revving it up by now
00:36:07Hell, he's probably
00:36:09looking down on you
00:36:10ready to disown
00:36:11you right now
00:36:11Unless you're checking
00:36:14Leave him out of this
00:36:15I'm not afraid of you
00:36:17You want to race me
00:36:18to the finish
00:36:19fine
00:36:20Let's do it
00:36:21Let's do it
00:36:22The old drag strip
00:36:23south of town
00:36:24Good luck, Dan
00:36:25Do you think they'll be okay?
00:36:27I mean, did they know
00:36:28what they're doing?
00:36:29I sure as hell hope so
00:36:30Ready?
00:36:32On your mark
00:36:33Get set
00:36:35Go
00:36:36where'd you learn from?
00:36:58where'd you learn to drive like that i've been around that's good to know i can still
00:37:10beat a pro though wait a minute how'd you know i used to race well you uh you know you told me
00:37:14your father used to love racing and he bought you a car when you were 16 so i just put two and two
00:37:18together so why did you quit well you know my wife tabitha after my accident she well i wasn't hurt
00:37:26bad but she made me promise to quit racing that was about three years ago so how do you feel how
00:37:34do you feel right now oh my god i feel i feel just amazing it's like it's like a huge weight has been
00:37:39lifted off my back i haven't felt this good since since just before she died thank you god that was
00:37:45incredible wow unbelievable great outstanding tell you what guys let's tell uh barbara the the waitress
00:37:54back at the restaurant that dan won the race no come on guys we'll just tell her that i lost just
00:37:59by hair and she'll feel bad for me why do i get the feeling that you're gonna get whatever way to go
00:38:04see you guys back at the restaurant all right cool
00:38:07i'm so tired i'm so weary the day has been so long i'm ready to go oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
00:38:37Oh please, set me free, oh please, set me free from these chains that are holding me.
00:38:50Was a time, was a place, that I saw the light, now I'm down on my knees.
00:39:02Oh please, set me free, oh please, set me free from these bonds that are holding me.
00:39:15Let me roll, roll, roll away, let me sing, sing, sing away.
00:39:38Let me roll, roll, let me roll, roll, let me roll, roll, let me roll away.
00:39:51God bless you, I made my day.
00:40:00Say listen guys, I've got something to do tonight, so I won't see you folks until breakfast.
00:40:04That is, unless you sleep till lunch time.
00:40:06Do you need a ride?
00:40:08Nope, so tomorrow we're going to the museum and the grave site, right?
00:40:12That's the plan.
00:40:13See you guys later.
00:40:14See ya.
00:40:15You know, I wonder where he goes at night.
00:40:19It's like he's a reverse vampire or something.
00:40:21Out of sight before the moon rises.
00:40:23Vampire?
00:40:24Sam, you have quite an imagination.
00:40:26Shower feels good after a hot day.
00:40:51Cheers.
00:40:53Jane.
00:41:02Why did you really come here?
00:41:08You're starting to sound like Roy.
00:41:12I don't know.
00:41:21Things just haven't been right at home for a while.
00:41:28I should move out.
00:41:33You know?
00:41:34Get my own place.
00:41:39Then I broke up with Floyd.
00:41:44My boyfriend.
00:41:47Or ex-boyfriend.
00:41:53I'm not in the mood right now.
00:41:59I don't need to have sex all the time.
00:42:02Yeah, like I haven't heard that from you before.
00:42:05It's not just the sex, Jane.
00:42:10It was like you were somewhere else during dinner tonight.
00:42:14I've got a lot on my mind.
00:42:17Well, like what?
00:42:19You don't understand.
00:42:22You're right.
00:42:23I don't understand.
00:42:24I can't.
00:42:25You won't even let me in.
00:42:27Look, maybe it would just be easier if we didn't see each other anymore.
00:42:33Life is too short for all this aggravation.
00:42:37I'm gonna get something to drink.
00:42:39Leave your key on the way out.
00:42:44It was just too...
00:42:50Immature.
00:42:52...
00:43:03...
00:43:04...
00:43:08...
00:43:12...
00:43:15...
00:43:21I'm going to get some more wine.
00:43:37All right?
00:43:51I'm going to get some more wine.
00:44:21I'm going to get some more wine.
00:44:51I'm going to get some more wine.
00:45:21I'll be right back.
00:45:30So, cat got your tongue?
00:45:40No, I'm fine.
00:45:43No?
00:45:44Everything's okay.
00:45:47You missed breakfast.
00:45:49How are you?
00:45:50You guys ready to go?
00:45:55Yeah.
00:45:56Hey, why don't you stay with me for a minute?
00:46:00Sure.
00:46:01Okay.
00:46:02Well, let's meet at the museum in half an hour.
00:46:04Yes.
00:46:05Make it an hour.
00:46:06I've got some things I want to do.
00:46:10Okay.
00:46:11Let's go.
00:46:12Let's go.
00:46:13I should have known better.
00:46:25I mean, he's married.
00:46:27It's not a disease, you know.
00:46:28Well, he has a daughter.
00:46:30I'm just so...
00:46:32What...
00:46:33What happened happens.
00:46:35And I'm sure he feels the same way, so don't worry about it.
00:46:38Well, I'm not some slam-bam, thank you ma'am type of person.
00:46:41Of course not.
00:46:42And I'm sure Adam doesn't think that way, so...
00:46:45I don't know.
00:46:48I just wish I could get my life straightened out.
00:46:51What do you mean?
00:46:53Well, my dad tells me I should crawl on my shell.
00:46:58Well, you can't...so, um...
00:47:03What are you afraid of?
00:47:07Nothing.
00:47:08Look, Jane.
00:47:10Something's bugging you.
00:47:13Tell me about your mother.
00:47:18There's not much to tell.
00:47:23I don't remember her.
00:47:25Yes, you do.
00:47:26What?
00:47:27What happened that night?
00:47:30I don't know what you're talking about.
00:47:35I was five years old.
00:47:46A lot of boys woke me up.
00:47:56You!
00:47:57How could you?
00:47:59Why did you marry me like I have a child?
00:48:01Calm down!
00:48:02I was talking about you.
00:48:03You would've thought there were another woman!
00:48:05You're sick!
00:48:06You're sick!
00:48:07Why did you do this to me?!
00:48:10No!
00:48:12No, Jane!
00:48:14No!
00:48:15I thought I would change after we were married if Jane was born.
00:48:28Please, are you kidding?
00:48:32Please?
00:48:33No!
00:48:34I'm so sweaty.
00:48:37I'm so sorry, I'm gonna be a virgin.
00:48:47She ran outside.
00:48:50We got to the car.
00:48:54She wasn't a very good driver anyway.
00:49:00Dad went out to borrow neighbor's car.
00:49:02But before he could leave,
00:49:10the police called.
00:49:13And then she said that she was in an accident.
00:49:20And had been killed.
00:49:27Dad had been blessed all the place.
00:49:32I killed her.
00:49:39It was his fault.
00:49:42And I hate him.
00:49:46I hate him.
00:49:50Oh, Steve.
00:49:52He called your dad and talked to me about this.
00:49:54No way.
00:49:56Steve.
00:49:57I hate him.
00:50:00I hate him.
00:50:06Don't say anything you might regret.
00:50:09You should let me have tomorrow to apologize.
00:50:17Steve.
00:50:18I hate him.
00:50:39I hate him.
00:50:40hello dad honey are you okay no I'm not okay I'm pissed off why do you tell me mom ran
00:51:02off that night crying because she found out you were a faggot watch your mouth how could
00:51:09you call me that don't change the subject you killed mom you murdered her why why Jane I didn't kill her
00:51:22I loved her it's just I couldn't love her the way she needed to be how did you find this out I was
00:51:35there I saw the fight I watched her storm out the door I was up why why did this happen I didn't get to know her
00:52:01Jane no please honey slow down take some deep breaths tell me you're okay deep breath
00:52:12daddy
00:52:15Jane I'm sorry I didn't tell you
00:52:24I guess I was trying to protect you
00:52:28am I I mean you're you're my real dad aren't you yes honey I am your real dad
00:52:44you know mom must have you know done it what happened
00:52:55Jane I I wanted to spare you this but now I've got to tell you something
00:53:06it's gonna hurt you it's gonna hurt you but Jane you know I love you
00:53:13well you
00:53:20were an accident what
00:53:25Jane I did love your mother but we never made love except once after a new year's party
00:53:34I was very drunk I don't remember much of what happened
00:53:43but
00:53:46I believe you're
00:53:49oh god this is so difficult for me to say
00:53:54I believe
00:53:58she took advantage of the fact
00:54:00that I was drunk and she was able to excite me
00:54:04I don't understand
00:54:06you mean you and mom never had sex except for this one time
00:54:12that's right
00:54:13I couldn't I couldn't get aroused
00:54:17I thought it would pass I even went to see a doctor
00:54:19which is ironic because
00:54:22that's where I met Bill
00:54:24he was a year older than I was
00:54:27he invited me
00:54:29to his house for a drink
00:54:31and one thing led to another
00:54:33and
00:54:33soon we were in bed
00:54:37that's
00:54:38that's when I found out I was gay
00:54:41I was very confused back then
00:54:45very unsure of what to do
00:54:47I had made this commitment to your mom
00:54:50things were different
00:54:54you know
00:54:55at work and everywhere
00:54:58daddy
00:55:00I'm sorry
00:55:02I knew what I said
00:55:04what happened to Bill
00:55:07after the accident
00:55:10I stopped seeing him
00:55:11I wanted to spend my energy trying to raise you
00:55:15Jane I'm sorry
00:55:16daddy
00:55:16I love you
00:55:18I'll always love you
00:55:21I love you sweetheart
00:55:24Jane
00:55:29how's the trip going?
00:55:32it's great
00:55:33weird you know
00:55:35the other guys are great
00:55:37I'll call you when I get back
00:55:45I love you
00:55:46bye
00:55:47goodbye sweetheart
00:55:49is she okay?
00:55:59yeah
00:55:59she's fine
00:56:02I should have told her sooner
00:56:08but she knows now
00:56:10she's fine
00:56:11she's fine
00:56:12she's fine
00:56:13she's fine
00:56:14she's fine
00:56:15she's fine
00:56:16she's fine
00:56:17she's fine
00:56:18she's fine
00:56:19she's fine
00:56:20she's fine
00:56:21she's fine
00:56:22she's fine
00:56:23she's fine
00:56:24she's fine
00:56:25she's fine
00:56:26she's fine
00:56:27she's fine
00:56:28she's fine
00:56:29she's fine
00:56:30she's fine
00:56:31she's fine
00:56:32she's fine
00:56:33she's fine
00:56:34she's fine
00:56:35she's fine
00:56:36she's fine
00:56:37she's fine
00:56:38Hey, I just saw Jane in the alley.
00:56:47Is she okay?
00:56:49She'll be fine.
00:56:52You look like you could use another cup of coffee.
00:56:54We'll miss the others.
00:56:55It's almost time to meet them at the museum.
00:56:57It's Sunday.
00:56:58The museum doesn't open till then.
00:57:00Okay.
00:57:09Why didn't you mention it being Sunday earlier?
00:57:12You know, when we were all here having breakfast?
00:57:15To tell you the truth, I was trying to forget what day it is myself.
00:57:19But time marches on.
00:57:21You're a strange dude, you know that.
00:57:23Sometimes I wonder.
00:57:25Yeah, I've heard that before.
00:57:28Sam?
00:57:30When are you going to come out?
00:57:33What is it with everyone?
00:57:35First the towel head, now you.
00:57:37I'm not gay, okay?
00:57:43Maybe I'm a little bisexual.
00:57:47You know, kind of gay.
00:57:49You mean like being kind of pregnant?
00:57:51Kind of gay my ass.
00:57:54Look, no one's going to love you unless you can learn to love yourself.
00:58:01And you can't love yourself unless you accept yourself.
00:58:05Don't you understand?
00:58:08You're a gay man.
00:58:09You're still a man.
00:58:11You're just gay.
00:58:13Anyway, just trust your instincts.
00:58:17If your friends have a problem with you being gay, then screw them.
00:58:22And your mom.
00:58:24Just give your mom some time.
00:58:26She'll always love you.
00:58:27What else matters?
00:58:29What else matters?
00:58:32What about my job?
00:58:34The people I know?
00:58:35No.
00:58:36You don't have to wear a poster and you don't have to tell the whole world.
00:58:39But stop lying to yourself and the people that are most important to you.
00:58:48It's that easy?
00:58:50No.
00:58:52It's not easy.
00:58:53It's damn hard.
00:58:57No one said that life is easy or that life is fair.
00:59:02Just play the cards that you're taught.
00:59:03Sam.
00:59:04Sam.
00:59:05You have something you want to tell me?
00:59:10I'm gay.
00:59:11Yeah.
00:59:12I'm gay.
00:59:13See, that didn't kill you, did it?
00:59:17Let's go find the others in the museum, alright?
00:59:23Let's go find the others in the museum, alright?
00:59:47There you guys are.
00:59:49We're heading to the grave site.
00:59:51The museum doesn't open for another hour.
00:59:53You guys go on.
00:59:55I was there this morning.
00:59:57Hey, I'll meet everyone at the museum, okay?
00:59:59Alright, see ya.
01:00:01Hey guys, hold up.
01:00:03I have something I have to say.
01:00:07I'm gay.
01:00:09Surprise, surprise.
01:00:11Good for you. Let's go.
01:00:17Bye, baby.
01:00:19Bye, love.
01:00:29Bye, baby.
01:00:31Bye.
01:00:35Bye, baby.
01:00:40Bye, baby.
01:00:42Bye.
01:00:45Bye.
01:00:47Based on Sid Beisway's award-winning novel Southwest of Paradise, Eddie's
01:00:53character Bobby finds his long-lost mother Hallie at a brothel.
01:00:58Hey cutie, I'm going to give you a freebie.
01:01:23It's open.
01:01:34Hey sweetie, that'll be five dollars and you pay me now.
01:01:45Come on, if you don't pay you can't play.
01:01:58Look, if you're thinking of hurting me, you better think again.
01:02:06I'll break every bone in your body.
01:02:11Mama, don't you recognize me?
01:02:13I'm Bobby.
01:02:18Okay, so that's the game you want to play.
01:02:23Sure honey, come on to mommy.
01:02:27I'll make you feel better.
01:02:29No, I am your son.
01:02:31Tom Baker's my father.
01:02:38Tom Baker?
01:02:41What did you say your name was?
01:02:44Bobby.
01:02:47Mama, why did you leave us?
01:02:54So what did your papa tell you?
01:02:56Nothing.
01:02:57He just said that you died when I was born.
01:03:04Listen Bobby, your papa raped me.
01:03:10My papa worked at the store your grandfather owned.
01:03:15I was just 13 years old.
01:03:20Your papa was a crazy person back then.
01:03:26Is your grandpapa still alive?
01:03:33No, ma'am.
01:03:34He died just a few years ago.
01:03:40Well, when you were born, your grandpapa gave my family $200 and told them to send me away.
01:03:51$200 bucks.
01:03:56My papa gave me $30 and sent me to San Francisco.
01:04:01And he kept the rest.
01:04:06I've been fending for myself ever since.
01:04:14Wasn't that great?
01:04:16Of course it was based on an award winning novel.
01:04:19But three movies, that's all he left us.
01:04:31I wonder if Eddie Ray had any idea of the influences he would have on world culture.
01:04:37Or how he would be marketed.
01:04:39You know, selling everything from cups to jeans.
01:04:42Well, I'd like to think he would be mad as hell about them co-opting him.
01:04:46Hey, Roy.
01:05:02You guys.
01:05:03Sal was the grave site.
01:05:04He was okay.
01:05:05I felt something.
01:05:06I don't know.
01:05:07Yeah.
01:05:08There were definitely some vibes there.
01:05:09I felt something too.
01:05:10Vibes.
01:05:11At a grave site.
01:05:12You guys are...
01:05:13Yeah.
01:05:14Never mind.
01:05:15It's $5.50 apiece to get in this place.
01:05:19It's $5.50 apiece to get in this place.
01:05:49Welcome to the Eddie Ray Museum.
01:05:51This home is one of the places that Eddie Ray lived in during the time he lived in Fairview.
01:05:56The museum opened in 1968, 10 years after his tragic death.
01:06:01We've had visitors from all 50 states and over 40 countries.
01:06:05Even people from Little Monaco, the smallest country in the world, have visited here.
01:06:09Um, I thought Vatican City was the smallest country in the world.
01:06:13We don't count that.
01:06:15Everything here is from the collection of Mr. Edward K. Hunter, who started collecting Eddie Ray memorabilia while he was a teenager, shortly after Eddie Ray's death.
01:06:24Mr. Hunter also authored the book, Will the Real Eddie Ray Please Stand Up?, which received critical acclaim and is on sale in our gift shop.
01:06:32Now, if you all follow me, we'll begin the tour.
01:06:45You must accept the past and embrace the future.
01:06:55It's like a huge weight that lifted off my back.
01:06:59You should be on the lookout for a nice girl life.
01:07:01Look, look, I'm not, I'm not, I'm gay.
01:07:04I'm gay.
01:07:06You murdered her.
01:07:08You murdered her.
01:07:09You murdered her.
01:07:10You murdered her.
01:07:11You're my real dad.
01:07:12You're my real dad.
01:07:13You're my real dad.
01:07:14You're my real dad.
01:07:15You're my real dad.
01:07:16I gave up trying to understand you a long time ago.
01:07:19I tried to understand you a long time ago.
01:07:21I didn't control me.
01:07:25And that concludes our tour.
01:07:26I hope you've enjoyed our museum.
01:07:28Please feel free to roam around.
01:07:30If you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask.
01:07:32Or you can always visit the gift shop.
01:07:35James, let's visit the kitchen.
01:07:37Thanks.
01:07:39Right this way.
01:07:49That's so black.
01:07:57Hey, you young man.
01:07:59Yes?
01:08:01You don't speak to me like that.
01:08:03What day is this?
01:08:05Beg your pardon?
01:08:07Didn't you hear me? I asked you what day it is.
01:08:11Today's Sunday.
01:08:13Do you need any help?
01:08:15Are you crazy?
01:08:17Of course I need help.
01:08:21I mean...
01:08:27You look familiar.
01:08:29Don't I know you?
01:08:33The Lord is you. Praise the Lord is you, ain't it?
01:08:43It's good to see you again.
01:08:47How have you been?
01:08:49You look like shit.
01:08:51What happened?
01:08:53Why are you here?
01:08:55Why are you gonna take me away?
01:09:01No, it's not your time yet.
01:09:09Mother!
01:09:11Now, Mother, are you bothering this nice man?
01:09:15You promised you wouldn't run off like that.
01:09:17We said we were gonna stay together.
01:09:19Well, I...
01:09:21I was just...
01:09:23I don't remember.
01:09:25Now go back and see Annette, okay?
01:09:31I'm sorry, she's just...
01:09:33She's just very forgetful.
01:09:35You know, Mom loves coming to the museum, but her dementia is getting worse.
01:09:39It's difficult.
01:09:41She's not that old.
01:09:43I'm sorry to hear that.
01:09:45She was no trouble at all.
01:09:47How long has she been like that?
01:09:49Oh, it's been about a year.
01:09:51Well, at least that's when we first noticed.
01:09:53We moved her in with us about six months ago.
01:09:55I gotta go.
01:09:57I gotta go.
01:09:59Sure.
01:10:06Human mind is so fragile.
01:10:12Makes you...
01:10:15Realize how lucky you are.
01:10:17I better go get the others.
01:10:25We need to be heading back to Annapolis soon.
01:10:30I'm going back to the van.
01:10:31Alright.
01:10:47Thanks again for having fun.
01:10:53Sure.
01:10:54I see you've met Irene.
01:10:56Yeah!
01:10:57I did.
01:10:58She's the last one living, you know.
01:11:01What do you mean?
01:11:03She's the last person from Fairview who is still alive who knew Eddie Ray.
01:11:07Of course, she was four years old at the time, but still...
01:11:11Eddie was her cousin.
01:11:13Really?
01:11:14You know what's odd?
01:11:16Everyone from Fairview who knew Eddie Ray either moved away or died an early death.
01:11:22Some folks say it's a curse on the town.
01:11:26Some even blame us for this death.
01:11:31Well, you have a safe trip now.
01:11:33Thanks for coming.
01:11:36Yeah, thanks.
01:11:38Come back anytime.
01:11:40See ya.
01:11:41Bye.
01:11:46Bye.
01:11:48Bye.
01:11:49Bye.
01:11:52Bye.
01:12:14Adam, you better pull over for some gas.
01:12:22That's a good idea.
01:12:44Hey, hey, hey, hey.
01:13:14Roy.
01:13:29Yeah?
01:13:33I don't know what happened back there.
01:13:37But I don't believe your name is really Roy.
01:13:40I never said my name is Roy.
01:13:41I said that's what some folks call me.
01:13:44So who do you think I am?
01:13:46I don't believe in ghosts.
01:13:51Well, I didn't believe.
01:13:56Hell, now I'm not so sure.
01:13:58The ghost.
01:13:59This ghost.
01:14:06Eddie Ray's ghost.
01:14:10You've got to be kidding me.
01:14:12You've known me for three days and you still don't know anything.
01:14:15Christ, man, I don't look anything like Eddie Ray.
01:14:18He was, what, 24 years old when he died?
01:14:20Well, maybe after you die you continue to age.
01:14:23If that's the case, I'd be a hell of a lot older, wouldn't I?
01:14:25I'd be, what, 72?
01:14:27Alright, I don't know.
01:14:29But that woman, back in Fairview, she acted like she knew you.
01:14:37So?
01:14:38So she's the last living person from Fairview who knew Eddie Ray before he died.
01:14:43She was, what, nine years old when he left town.
01:14:47You know, you're nuts.
01:14:49In case you didn't notice, that lady is feeble-minded.
01:14:53Anyway, I was just being nice to her.
01:14:58She reminded me of someone I used to know.
01:15:05Alright.
01:15:08What about your outburst the other day at the drive?
01:15:12I was wondering when you were going to ask me about that again.
01:15:17You wouldn't understand.
01:15:21When you look at the leaves on a tree.
01:15:24The sunset.
01:15:26The field of wildflowers.
01:15:31Dammit, you don't get it.
01:15:33No.
01:15:36What are you talking about?
01:15:48This is a gift.
01:15:51Like a bouquet of flowers.
01:15:54With a smell of fresh-baked sweet tea.
01:16:00Treasure it.
01:16:05Because all too soon.
01:16:08It will be gone.
01:16:11And when it's gone, it's gone forever.
01:16:16Answers?
01:16:20The answers are not out there somewhere.
01:16:25They're inside.
01:16:30Ghost.
01:16:31I don't know what a ghost is.
01:16:35As a matter of fact, right now, I don't know what anything is.
01:16:41Yes.
01:16:42So Adam, why did you come to Fairfair?
01:16:48Did you find the answers you're looking for?
01:16:51I came on this trip looking for answers.
01:17:04And I learned that I can't find those answers in the arms of another woman or in some far-off distant place.
01:17:17What I know now in my heart is that the greatest gift in the world is the love my family gives to me.
01:17:32And the love I give today.
01:17:33And I will never, ever.
01:17:34Okay.
01:17:35This is where I say goodbye.
01:17:48You're not coming back to Indianapolis with us?
01:17:52No.
01:17:53What am I going to tell the others?
01:17:56They won't ask.
01:17:58They won't remember.
01:18:01Will I remember you?
01:18:02Maybe.
01:18:03Maybe.
01:18:04Maybe not.
01:18:05Maybe only in your dreams.
01:18:06So.
01:18:07You are Eddie Ray's ghost.
01:18:08Those are your words, Adam, not mine.
01:18:10Just remember.
01:18:11You can't find any answers in Fairview.
01:18:14Fairview is just another small town.
01:18:20Somewhere in Indiana.
01:18:25Just remember, you can't find the answers in Fairview.
01:18:32Fairview is just another small town somewhere in Indiana.
01:18:55Okay. Ready to roll?
01:19:22Sure. You ready to go home?
01:19:25Yep. I mean, yes, I'm ready.
01:19:31Ready or not, here I come.
01:19:33Not in the back seat, you're not.
01:19:35This has been quite a trip.
01:19:37I came out of the closet, and Jane phoned her father and called him everything but a white man,
01:19:42and then made up with him.
01:19:43And Dan's ready to move on with his life, but what about you, Adam?
01:19:48I'm fine. I mean, yeah.
01:19:54I'm fine. Let's go.
01:20:02Jane, I want you to know that...
01:20:12I have to say anything.
01:20:18Just give your wife a big kiss for me.
01:20:22I know you love her.
01:20:24And maybe we shouldn't, you know?
01:20:30Well, you know.
01:20:32Yeah.
01:20:33Yeah.
01:20:34I understand.
01:20:40So what are you gonna...
01:20:42Hey, isn't that the guy from the drive-in?
01:20:52Hey, remember me?
01:20:53Need some help?
01:20:54Nah, she just overheated.
01:20:55It'll be okay in a couple of minutes.
01:20:56I do remember you.
01:20:57From the other day.
01:20:58Right.
01:20:59Got me to thinking about what happened.
01:21:00You know when them kids were killed?
01:21:01Mm-hmm.
01:21:02I dug out an old clipping, and it seems that three teenagers were killed that night, and two kids survived.
01:21:15Really?
01:21:16Yeah.
01:21:17This girl was babysitting a four-year-old boy, and she was supposed to be home watching him.
01:21:21Well, she took him with her on this date, and the wreck threw him from the car.
01:21:24They landed in a big haystack.
01:21:26The girl wasn't hurt too bad, but the boy was in real bad shape.
01:21:29Touch and go.
01:21:30I remember my mom telling me about it.
01:21:32The parents took him down to a children's hospital down south.
01:21:35They moved away a couple months later to be closer to the hospital.
01:21:38I don't know if he recovered, but I believe he did.
01:21:42That's strange.
01:21:43You're both pretty lucky.
01:21:44Oh, yeah.
01:21:45Irene and Roy were lucky kids.
01:21:47Did you say Irene and Roy?
01:21:50Yeah, Irene.
01:21:51Eddie Ray's cousin.
01:21:52She's still alive.
01:21:53The little boy's real name was Michael Raymond, and I guess everybody called him Roy because
01:21:59he liked to play cowboys and he had this toy gun set he wore around all the time.
01:22:03That's weird.
01:22:04Do you remember the guy who was with us the other day throwing rocks at your screen?
01:22:10No.
01:22:11I remember you and the other folks in the van.
01:22:14Was there someone else with you?
01:22:16Come on.
01:22:23All right.
01:22:24Never mind.
01:22:25You sure you don't need some help?
01:22:26No.
01:22:27I'll be all right.
01:22:28You folks come back and see us.
01:22:33I know you really ought to visit during the Eddie Ray Festival in September.
01:22:36It's quite an event.
01:22:37We'll see if we can.
01:22:38Thanks.
01:22:39Take care.
01:22:40Bye.
01:22:41Bye.
01:22:42Bye.
01:22:43Bye.
01:22:44Bye.
01:22:45Bye.
01:22:47See ya.
01:22:49Bye.
01:22:50Bye.
01:22:51Bye.
01:22:52The smell you so I need some help every time it has gone.
01:22:54Bye.
01:22:55Bye.
01:22:56Bye.
01:22:57Bye.
01:22:58Bye.
01:23:00Bye.
01:23:01Bye.
01:23:02Bye.
01:23:03Bye.
01:23:05Bye.
01:23:06Bye.
01:23:07Bye.
01:23:08Bye.
01:23:09Bye.
01:23:10Is this what I've been waiting for, just to know I don't know anymore, is this what I've been waiting for, ooh, oh, this is not a lesson, honey, I'm not learning anything, any kind.
01:23:36It was almost a year ago that I visited Fairview. Now I'm working as a freelance copywriter and marketing consultant. Sam was promoted to shift supervisor, Dan is engaged, and Jane has an apartment, a cat, and a lover, in that order of importance.
01:23:54Sometimes I wonder about what actually took place last summer. Who was Roy? Was he real? Or just a figment of my imagination?
01:24:07Is this what I've been waiting for, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh,
01:24:37brand new 98
01:24:39got your push button window
01:24:43got your push button door
01:24:45even got your push button on
01:24:47the floor in my rocket
01:24:49rocket rocket
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01:24:52got a brand new
01:24:56rocket got a brand new
01:24:5798
01:24:58picked up my lady know she's looking
01:25:03real fine tonight she's gonna
01:25:05be in my own mind
01:25:07got a brand new rocket
01:25:15got a brand new 98
01:25:17track
01:25:27travel down a road
01:25:4190 miles a night
01:25:43I flew out my list
01:25:45I'm gonna dive in my rocket rocket rocket
01:25:4998
01:25:50won't you bury me in my rocket
01:25:5598
01:25:56won't you bury me in my rocket
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01:26:03100%
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01:26:20to
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