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00:00:00I am a haunted house, and she is the ghost in the attic, turning on lights, stomping
00:00:23on the floor, and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29She's there, she's always there, to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:37To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:40I am there, with her, up those stairs, sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:48A future we will never have, a future I will never deserve.
00:00:56I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:04If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
00:01:23One thing?
00:01:25One thing's all I get?
00:01:28I don't want to play this game.
00:01:35I want to be President of the United States, that's right.
00:01:40That way I can declare a state anarchy.
00:01:44I want to be a movie star, a big fucking movie star, live in a big fucking house, make big
00:01:53fucking movies.
00:01:58I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious, Molly Ringwald.
00:02:07I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:12I want to be God, for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't think
00:02:16for one minute I will take you out.
00:02:23I want the original promise.
00:02:27I want justice for all.
00:02:31I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:44I want the world in my palm, no cooler than 60 degrees, no warmer than 75, and never a cloud
00:02:54in the sky.
00:02:58I want the perfect kiss.
00:03:01The perfect imperfection.
00:03:04The perfect life.
00:03:09But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:15I want her to walk through that door right over there and order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:28Hi.
00:03:29Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:31I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:36Oh, it's okay.
00:03:37I already know what I want.
00:03:38Okay.
00:03:39I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:41Same.
00:03:42Okay, two biscuits and gravy, anything to drink?
00:03:45Coffee's fine.
00:03:46Alright.
00:03:47Thanks.
00:03:49I'm Brian.
00:03:50Bella.
00:03:51Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:53She blew into my life like a storm.
00:03:56Uprooting everything I knew to be true, and filling it with so much more.
00:04:01She became everything I never knew I wanted.
00:04:04In a single glance.
00:04:06In a moment.
00:04:08In a straight conversation.
00:04:11And that slight smile that started with the curling of her toes.
00:04:14And ended at the corner of her lips.
00:04:17Just before she burst into laughter.
00:04:20She became it.
00:04:23She became perfection.
00:04:31Cool.
00:04:32So.
00:04:33So.
00:04:34So.
00:04:35Morrissey or The Cure?
00:04:36Uh, The Cure.
00:04:37Yeah.
00:04:38Beatles or Stones?
00:04:39The Stones.
00:04:40King of Pop or King of Rock?
00:04:43King of Rock.
00:04:45Definitely.
00:04:46Well, Elvis is always fascinated.
00:04:48How so?
00:04:49Well, here's this normal guy that accidentally got famous.
00:04:52I mean, he wrote a song that was for his dad or his uncle or something like that for the birthday.
00:04:58And the next thing you know, he's a teen idol.
00:05:01I just.
00:05:02Watching his life is like watching a tree grow.
00:05:05And he gets bigger and bigger.
00:05:07And then.
00:05:08He ends up swollen and yellow.
00:05:12I don't know.
00:05:13It's like he was on a satellite somewhere in outer space.
00:05:17Watching himself.
00:05:18And that's what it did to him.
00:05:20Are you saying that Elvis was an alien?
00:05:24Hello, darling.
00:05:26This is Elvis from the planet Graceland.
00:05:28And I just want to thank you for coming out on a date with me.
00:05:33You know what I like about you?
00:05:35What's that?
00:05:36You're full of shits.
00:05:38I think I just got a little on my shirt.
00:05:41Oh, I apologize.
00:05:43Sorry about that.
00:05:44You better be.
00:05:47To Elvis.
00:05:48To Elvis.
00:05:49Elvis.
00:05:51Elvis.
00:05:52Yellow and swollen.
00:05:55How could I have known even then, in a moment of such happiness?
00:05:59The longitude and latitude of my fall from Graceland.
00:06:06Hours went by.
00:06:07Day turns to night, night to day.
00:06:10Small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations.
00:06:15First date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted.
00:06:18I hang on every word, she says.
00:06:20And those hours that became days become weeks.
00:06:21And we were married on a Saturday.
00:06:22And those weeks became months.
00:06:23And Cole, our first daughter, was born.
00:06:24Sweet as sugar.
00:06:25And those months became a year.
00:06:26And that year became four years.
00:06:27And Sarah, our second daughter, was born.
00:06:28Born sick.
00:06:29And that sickness drove Bella into darkness.
00:06:30And she began to wither and die.
00:06:31And me.
00:06:33I became Elvis.
00:06:34Yellow and swollen.
00:06:35I became Elvis.
00:06:36Yellow and swollen.
00:06:37I became Elvis.
00:06:38Yellow and swollen.
00:06:39Watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:06:42And my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:06:44And I became Elvis.
00:06:45I became Elvis.
00:06:46Yellow and swollen.
00:06:47I became Elvis.
00:06:48Yellow and swollen.
00:06:49I became Elena.
00:06:50And I became Maria.
00:06:51I became Emily.
00:06:52I was born.
00:06:53Nobody came back in the room and was born.
00:06:54And my life worsened.
00:06:55And I was born.
00:06:56I was born.
00:06:57I was born.
00:06:58And I was born.
00:06:59I was born.
00:07:00I was born.
00:07:01And I was born.
00:07:02And I was born.
00:07:03yellow and swollen, watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space, counting
00:07:12the rings of my tree, and forever wondering how this perfect life came to be.
00:07:33Yeah, I'll be right there, honey.
00:08:03Yay! Well, I think you got dog poo in your hair.
00:08:28I think we need to wash it out.
00:08:38Okay, then let's wash it out.
00:08:42Alright, here we go. Here, turn over. Lean back. There we go. No, you want to lean back.
00:08:50No, the other way. Because if you lean back, then I won't get your dress.
00:08:54Hold my hands. Hold your hands.
00:08:56Lean back. There we go.
00:08:58Oh, that feels good, right? There we go.
00:09:00Yay, good girl.
00:09:04There it is.
00:09:06Oh, yes.
00:09:08Now we can see it.
00:09:10Standing on the shoulders of children, innocent eyes that gaze upon the world with wondrous excitement.
00:09:16You will probably never know me.
00:09:20You will probably not remember me.
00:09:24But someday, when you're older, your mother will show you a photograph and tell you my story.
00:09:30A story filled with self-abandon and regret.
00:09:34Regret that I will not be there for your report cards.
00:09:38For proms.
00:09:40For graduations.
00:09:42To give you both away at your weddings.
00:09:46I always wanted to be the one to teach you to drive.
00:09:50To navigate life with that same beautiful innocence that fills your youthful spirit today.
00:09:56To hope.
00:09:58To strive.
00:10:00To dream.
00:10:02But you're only three feet tall.
00:10:06And already bigger than me.
00:10:08To dream.
00:10:26Good morning.
00:10:27Time to get up.
00:10:29My water broke, Ryan.
00:10:31Huh?
00:10:32Ryan!
00:10:33I just thought I was having a wet dream.
00:10:35Oh, funny.
00:10:37Come on, get up.
00:10:38Who?
00:10:39Hello?
00:10:40Hello?
00:10:41I can't reach you.
00:10:42Come on.
00:10:43I'll get up.
00:10:44Feel this thing.
00:10:45It's coming out.
00:10:46It's coming out.
00:10:47Please.
00:10:48Alright.
00:10:49I'm just trying to keep you from panicking.
00:10:50Alright.
00:10:52Yeah, take your time.
00:10:55Well, I'm trying.
00:10:56Look, I can't go to the hospital naked.
00:10:57Why not?
00:10:58That would be awkward.
00:11:00Okay.
00:11:01Alright.
00:11:02Speaking of which hospital are we going to?
00:11:04You don't know which hospital are we going to?
00:11:06Yes.
00:11:07I know which hospital.
00:11:08Which hospital are we going to?
00:11:10I don't know.
00:11:11Let's go.
00:11:12I got it.
00:11:13Okay.
00:11:14Okay.
00:11:15Okay.
00:11:16Okay.
00:11:17Okay.
00:11:18Calm down.
00:11:19Okay.
00:11:20Calm down.
00:11:21Watch the hose.
00:11:25Got it.
00:11:26Something with more water than you.
00:11:27Oh, come on.
00:11:28Reese's, you stay right there.
00:11:29And...
00:11:30Okay.
00:11:31Let's get this.
00:11:33Oh.
00:11:34Why is this getting out of the car?
00:11:35Oh, God.
00:11:36We're going to have to detail the car after this.
00:11:37Okay.
00:11:38Okay.
00:11:39Ready?
00:11:40Oh, baby.
00:11:41I'm ready.
00:11:42Are you ready?
00:11:43You seem a little frazzled.
00:11:44Yes.
00:11:45I'm frazzled.
00:11:46Yes.
00:11:47Just breathe.
00:11:48Okay.
00:11:49Maybe...
00:11:50Um...
00:11:51Cole should drive.
00:11:52Cole!
00:11:53Come on.
00:11:54You seem a little frazzled.
00:11:55Yes.
00:11:56I'm frazzled.
00:11:57Yes.
00:11:58Just breathe.
00:11:59Maybe...
00:12:00Um...
00:12:01Cole should drive.
00:12:02Cole!
00:12:04Come on.
00:12:23It's okay. It's okay.
00:12:42I'm gonna go for a watch.
00:12:53Hello? Are you busy?
00:13:15Ryan, are you okay? I just needed to talk to someone.
00:13:20I'll wait up. Thank you.
00:13:23Time. It moves so slowly when you have nothing to do but think.
00:13:36To remember the beginning. To dwell on the end.
00:13:41And to be haunted by everything in between.
00:13:45To be haunted by that word.
00:13:48That undefinable word.
00:13:51As undefinable as God.
00:13:53Yet a word I thought I knew intimately.
00:13:58Perfection.
00:13:59The perfect wife.
00:14:01The perfect children.
00:14:03The house. The dog.
00:14:05The job.
00:14:06The two-car garage.
00:14:07The diapers.
00:14:07The joint bank account.
00:14:10Piano recitals.
00:14:13Tap shoes.
00:14:13The American dream.
00:14:14The American dream.
00:14:17An idea that became an ideal.
00:14:21It's Friday.
00:14:24Is it recycling or yard waste today?
00:14:26The American dream.
00:14:32The Korean starting line.
00:14:38Thecularín isn't in the hospital.
00:14:40wig.
00:14:41The cow.
00:14:42The mom.
00:14:42Is it looming?
00:14:44What?
00:14:44A dog.
00:14:45The camel foot.
00:14:45It looks good.
00:14:46It looks good.
00:14:47Hell my god.
00:14:47It looks good.
00:14:48Have you ever stood naked, alone?
00:15:18And out of reach.
00:15:34The way Sarah cries, I can't help her.
00:15:39And the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me to help her.
00:15:44I just want...
00:15:47I know.
00:15:50Well, I don't.
00:15:53Once upon a time, maybe.
00:15:55But not anymore.
00:15:57You want too much.
00:16:00No, I don't.
00:16:01I just want...
00:16:02Your list is too long and I'm too tired.
00:16:08I only want it to be perfect.
00:16:10Well, it's not.
00:16:11You never would have started fucking me.
00:16:23Do you have any idea what it's like to want something that you can't have?
00:16:27What do you want?
00:16:28I want you.
00:16:30And you want her.
00:16:31But you don't want her.
00:16:32You want the idea of her and what you don't understand, Brian, is that you've idealized your life away.
00:16:47But I want you.
00:16:48I don't know what you want.
00:16:50But you don't want me.
00:16:53I'm just another part of the ideal and I'm not perfect.
00:16:58But you're perfect to me.
00:16:59Don't want kids.
00:17:00I'm a cat person.
00:17:01I need time alone more than that.
00:17:02I need time with people.
00:17:03But I already know all of this, and I love you for you.
00:17:12How can you love me when she gives you everything?
00:17:19Everything I want, but nothing I need.
00:17:25This right here, right now, this is what I need.
00:17:30Now this is what I need.
00:17:41I need her to hold me like she used to, to hold me so close like we're the same person,
00:17:50like this. Like what we have. We have a dance and a photograph.
00:18:12Kim was right. She had become the band-aid for a wound that would not heal. And no matter
00:18:19how much of her I stripped away, she would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:18:25I feel if I'd be more alone with you, than without you.
00:18:33She was right about a lot of things.
00:18:49One day you wake up and you realize that everything you ever wanted, turned out to be nothing
00:18:55you ever wanted at all.
00:18:58And even the big things become as trivial as watermelon.
00:19:05You smell like cigarettes and watermelon.
00:19:12You smell like cigarettes and watermelon.
00:19:19You smell like cigarettes and watermelon.
00:19:26Mmm.
00:19:27Mmm.
00:19:28Mmm.
00:19:29Mmm.
00:19:30Mmm.
00:19:31Mmm.
00:19:32Mmm.
00:19:33Mmm.
00:19:34Mmm.
00:19:35Mmm.
00:19:36Mmm.
00:19:37Mmm.
00:19:38Mmm.
00:19:39Mmm.
00:19:40Mmm.
00:19:41Mmm.
00:19:42Mmm.
00:19:43Mmm.
00:19:44Mmm.
00:19:45Mmm.
00:19:46Mmm.
00:19:47More in the sunshine.
00:19:48Hey, beautiful.
00:19:49Hi.
00:19:50Mmm.
00:19:51Mmm.
00:19:52Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:19:53No.
00:19:54Did you want to do something?
00:19:55Morning sunshine.
00:19:57Hey, beautiful.
00:19:58Hi.
00:20:04Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:20:06No.
00:20:08Did you want to do something?
00:20:10Well, I was thinking about stopping by.
00:20:13I'd like that.
00:20:25What time did you come in last night?
00:20:35What's that, honey?
00:20:38What time did you come in last night?
00:20:40I don't know. I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:44I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:46Really?
00:20:48Well, I gave you a kiss. Good night. You rolled over. I thought I woke you up.
00:20:54What?
00:20:55No.
00:20:56You know, one of these days I'm going to get a call from Canada.
00:21:02You're going to be missing a sock.
00:21:04You're going to have a new tattoo of a heart and some sailor's name on your ass.
00:21:08And you're going to say,
00:21:10I don't know where I was, but I woke up in a car that wasn't mine
00:21:14with some large man in a unitard offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:21:18You're so sexy when you have your drafting face on.
00:21:38Hey beautiful.
00:21:39Hi.
00:21:40Want to go get some lunch or something?
00:21:42Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront.
00:21:44Okay.
00:21:45But first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:47Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:49Okay.
00:21:50Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:52What would that be?
00:21:53Do I have to ask?
00:21:55Oh, go ahead.
00:21:56What else?
00:21:57I can't wait for you.
00:21:58I can't wait.
00:21:59I can't wait for you.
00:22:00Let's see.
00:22:01I can't wait for you.
00:22:02I can't wait for you.
00:22:03Hi.
00:22:04Hi.
00:22:05You look good.
00:22:06Oh, thanks.
00:22:07How are you?
00:22:08I'm good.
00:22:09I just stopped by for lunch.
00:22:10I think we're going to go to the waterfront.
00:22:11Do you want to come?
00:22:12I can't.
00:22:13Thanks though.
00:22:14I've already got plans.
00:22:15Well, that's too bad.
00:22:16We don't hang out enough.
00:22:17I know.
00:22:18We should see each other more often.
00:22:19Oh, that's pretty.
00:22:20What is it?
00:22:21I don't know.
00:22:22I don't know what I'm going to do like.
00:22:23Oh, that's pretty. What is it?
00:22:25Thanks. I think it's called posh, but it tastes like watermelon.
00:22:30I like it.
00:22:34So how have you been?
00:22:36Good. You know, kids and stuff.
00:22:41Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:44Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:46I've got to get back to work.
00:22:48Yeah, I get to see you too.
00:22:53You haven't touched your food?
00:23:23I'm not as hungry as I thought it was.
00:23:31Oh, she does, doesn't she?
00:23:50I've got to see you.
00:23:51Yeah.
00:23:57Bella? Bella? Are you okay?
00:24:00Yeah.
00:24:01Bella?
00:24:02I'm fine.
00:24:02If you want to talk, I'm fine.
00:24:05I'm fine. I'm fine.
00:24:06I'm fine. It's okay.
00:24:08I just...
00:24:08Right out here if you need anything.
00:24:10I'm fine.
00:24:10I'm fine.
00:24:40I'm fine.
00:24:41God.
00:24:46It's going to be okay.
00:24:48Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:50Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:51Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:51Everything's going to be okay.
00:24:53Hey, little angels.
00:25:07How are you doing?
00:25:09What you doing?
00:25:10Putting on a show?
00:25:13Hi.
00:25:15You want me cooking?
00:25:17Something smells good.
00:25:20Cooking, baby.
00:25:26Something smells good.
00:25:27It's hot.
00:25:28How was work?
00:25:35One million clients have trouble for a club, and that was good.
00:25:38It's nice to see you there for lunch.
00:25:40You still have one?
00:25:41Yeah.
00:25:43I'll let you go.
00:25:45Come on.
00:25:46She knew.
00:26:10Nothing more need be said.
00:26:14She knew.
00:26:15And the thought came to her as quickly as a bullet.
00:26:19A bullet expelled from a gun that I had cleaned, oiled, aimed, and fired.
00:26:25Dearest Bella, I miss you.
00:26:31What?
00:26:38Oh.
00:26:50Oh.
00:26:51Oh.
00:26:51Oh.
00:26:52Oh.
00:26:53Oh.
00:26:54Oh.
00:26:55Oh.
00:26:56Oh.
00:26:57Oh my god.
00:27:11Bill.
00:27:12Bill.
00:27:13Bill, what the fuck?
00:27:15Oh my god.
00:27:16Noah.
00:27:17Jesus Christ.
00:27:19Oh my god.
00:27:24Oh my god.
00:27:26Oh my god.
00:27:28Oh god.
00:27:29911, what's your emergency?
00:27:30Oh god.
00:27:31Um, my wife just cut her wrist.
00:27:33I need an ambulance at 6124 Street.
00:27:37Sir, I need you to calm down.
00:27:39Can you do that for me?
00:27:40Yeah.
00:27:41The ambulance is on its way.
00:27:43I need you to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:48Yeah.
00:27:51I need you to stop the bleeding.
00:27:53Oh my god.
00:27:55Brian.
00:27:56Brian, I need you to apply pressure above the laceration and lift her arms above the
00:28:01level of her heart.
00:28:02Can you do that for me?
00:28:03Yeah, but do I have to put the phone down?
00:28:05That's okay, Brian.
00:28:06Put the phone down.
00:28:07Oh god.
00:28:08Don't hang up.
00:28:09Oh god.
00:28:09Hang up.
00:28:11Oh god.
00:28:12Oh god.
00:28:13Oh.
00:28:14Oh.
00:28:15Oh.
00:28:16Oh.
00:28:16Oh.
00:28:16Oh.
00:28:17Oh.
00:28:18Oh.
00:28:18Oh.
00:28:19Oh.
00:28:20Oh.
00:28:20Oh.
00:28:21Oh.
00:28:21Oh.
00:28:22Oh.
00:28:22Oh.
00:28:23Oh.
00:28:23Oh.
00:28:24Oh.
00:28:24Oh.
00:28:25Oh.
00:28:26Oh my god.
00:28:27Oh my god.
00:28:30Oh.
00:28:51Oh.
00:28:52Thank you for calling Jennings Architecture.
00:29:17It is currently after hours, but if you have an emergency,
00:29:20you may contact a representative at 555-4868,
00:29:26or stay on the line and leave a message.
00:29:31Hey, John.
00:29:33This is Brian.
00:29:35I'm having a family emergency, so I'm just calling to let you know
00:29:40that I won't be into work for a couple days,
00:29:43so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:45Bye.
00:29:50BELLA DIED FOR 48 SECONDS
00:30:18I have been dying ever since.
00:30:23As her heart slowed and stopped,
00:30:26I realized at that very moment something I should have always known.
00:30:30She loved me more than she loved herself.
00:30:36Sof.
00:30:37I'm sorry.
00:30:38I'm sorry.
00:30:39I'm sorry.
00:30:40There's no doubt.
00:30:41It was only a question.
00:30:42It was only one of my employees who are not having rid of me,
00:30:43but I was like,
00:30:45I didn't get back for myself.
00:30:46And I thought something was wrong.
00:30:47I need to talk some people to help.
00:31:18I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:36She was beautiful.
00:31:41It's not that she's not beautiful.
00:31:42She's gorgeous.
00:31:45It's just...
00:31:48I'm used to it.
00:31:52I don't even know why I did it.
00:31:54Stupid.
00:31:59It's not commitment that I have a problem with.
00:32:03It's contentment.
00:32:09It's like no matter how good I have it, it's never good enough.
00:32:12It's no one's fault.
00:32:24It's fucked up.
00:32:25It's not...
00:32:39Yeah, this is Brian Sanders, I'm calling to see how my wife's doing.
00:32:55What is her name, please?
00:32:58Bella Sanders.
00:33:09Your wife is in stable condition.
00:33:16She should be released sometime this evening or tomorrow morning.
00:33:20Okay, thank you.
00:33:39She's sleeping, Brian.
00:33:52Okay, thank you.
00:34:09She doesn't want to talk yet, Brian.
00:34:16I just want to make sure she's okay.
00:34:19I think it's going to be a long time before she's okay.
00:34:39Hi, Gary.
00:34:52Is Bella there?
00:34:53She will call you when she's ready.
00:35:09Brian, she's just not ready yet.
00:35:30Can I at least see the girls?
00:35:32Hold on.
00:35:33What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:35:41Whenever you want.
00:35:43Meet me at Owens Beach around 1.
00:35:48Thank you so much.
00:35:50I'll see you tomorrow.
00:35:54You want to see a call tomorrow?
00:35:57Alright.
00:36:03Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:36:28Oh, I know.
00:36:30Here, come on.
00:36:31Here, who's excited?
00:36:33Okay.
00:36:35Get this up.
00:36:37I feel like a magician.
00:36:39Okay, you ready?
00:36:40I'll trade you.
00:36:41Okay.
00:36:42Here we go.
00:36:43There she is.
00:36:45Oh, you're gorgeous.
00:36:47Come on.
00:36:48Come on.
00:36:49Hey.
00:36:53Hold on here.
00:36:56It's good to see you guys.
00:36:59Yeah.
00:36:59How have you been, huh?
00:37:05Oh, she's been.
00:37:07How has she been?
00:37:08Oh.
00:37:10Always doing interesting things.
00:37:12Oh, yeah.
00:37:14Character.
00:37:15Come on.
00:37:16Come on.
00:37:17There you go.
00:37:19Yeah.
00:37:23Oh.
00:37:23There she is.
00:37:40Come on.
00:37:41Let's get out and see the day, huh?
00:37:43There you go.
00:37:45Hi.
00:37:46Hi.
00:37:48There you are, gorgeous.
00:37:49Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:38:03It's just the right thing to do.
00:38:05So, how are you doing?
00:38:10I just want to know if she's okay.
00:38:12She's really hurt, Brian, and I don't think she's going to forgive you.
00:38:17I can't even forgive myself.
00:38:19I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:38:21You just made a mistake.
00:38:23She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:38:27She only knows she's hurting, and it's because of you.
00:38:33I, this is either going to drive you farther apart or bring you closer together, but it's
00:38:39not your choice.
00:38:41It's her choice now.
00:38:44I know.
00:38:46You just have to give her time to decide.
00:38:48It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:39:03Thanks for coming out today.
00:39:06It's the right thing to do.
00:39:08It's the right thing to do.
00:39:18My mother has the gift of Catholic guilt, and my dad's going to kick your ass at the
00:39:33big calling.
00:39:34So, how are you doing?
00:39:37If I see a therapist three times a week, the state won't take the kids.
00:39:41How are you?
00:39:42Well, it's over.
00:39:43I told her we're done.
00:39:45It's too late for them.
00:39:46I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:39:52But I'm sorry.
00:39:54I'm so sorry.
00:39:56How could you do this to me?
00:39:59How?
00:40:00When I love you so much?
00:40:03I don't know.
00:40:05I love you so much, Brian.
00:40:11God.
00:40:12I love you.
00:40:24I want a divorce.
00:40:26Bella.
00:40:27I don't want to talk about it.
00:40:29I want a divorce.
00:40:30And I want the kids.
00:40:32And the house and car.
00:40:34And you can keep the dog, okay?
00:40:40Take whatever you want.
00:40:43Could you be out by Friday?
00:40:45If we don't come home soon, Cole's going to know something's wrong.
00:40:48Well, what are you going to tell her when you come home and I'm not here?
00:40:52I'm going to tell her the truth.
00:40:56Okay.
00:40:57She should know.
00:40:57I have to go.
00:41:07Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:41:09Yeah.
00:41:11I love you.
00:41:20Okay.
00:41:21I guess this is it for a while.
00:41:22Okay.
00:41:22I guess this is it for a while.
00:41:22I have to go.
00:41:23Okay.
00:41:46Okay.
00:41:47By the way,
00:41:48I'm glad to know.
00:41:49I'm glad to know.
00:41:49Cause I'm glad to know.
00:41:50I'm glad to know.
00:41:51Hello.
00:42:14Hi.
00:42:15Where's Kim?
00:42:16Um, I've only been here for a week.
00:42:18I don't think I've met her yet.
00:42:20Okay, thanks.
00:42:21Oh, Mr. Jennings, I need to just stop by his office and look at it.
00:42:24All right, thank you.
00:42:30I've known you for a long time, and I've never seen you like this.
00:42:36I'm sorry, John, I'm just having problems at home.
00:42:39You've missed 43 days in the past three months, and when you do show up, you smell like alcohol.
00:42:46My wife and I are, I don't even know what we are.
00:42:53Which is why it hurts me to do this, but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:42:59I understand.
00:43:00I wish you the best.
00:43:03I really do.
00:43:06Thanks.
00:43:07What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:43:27I threw it all away, as easily as one throws away the wrapping on a birthday present.
00:43:33I've always been too selfish to understand that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:43:39You're fired, he said, in so many words.
00:43:45You're fired from life, for you have failed everyone who has ever loved you.
00:43:50You have failed yourself, and no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:43:56No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:44:00I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:44:03And in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:44:08I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:44:38I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:44:48Excuse me sir.
00:44:51We've had a few noise complaints.
00:44:53I had to top it off.
00:44:54Your credit card is going to be fine.
00:44:57We need to get your stuff out right now.
00:45:00Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:45:03Is this your jacket?
00:45:05Is this the one?
00:45:07Yeah?
00:45:07Here, why don't you put that on?
00:45:09Alright, we gotta grab your stuff.
00:45:11What do you want to bring with you?
00:45:17There.
00:45:19Hold on to that.
00:45:21Hold on.
00:45:23Hold on.
00:45:25I don't know.
00:45:27Is that all you need? Alright.
00:45:29We're gonna go.
00:45:37We're gonna go.
00:45:39We're gonna go.
00:45:41We're gonna go.
00:45:43We're gonna go.
00:45:45We're gonna go.
00:45:47We're gonna go.
00:45:49We're gonna go.
00:45:51We're gonna go.
00:45:53We're gonna go.
00:45:55We're gonna go.
00:45:57We're gonna go.
00:45:59We're gonna go.
00:46:01We're gonna go.
00:46:03We're gonna go.
00:46:05This is...
00:46:21This is...
00:46:24Next...
00:46:35Oh, Hardie just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:46:54Good morning.
00:47:05You know what? I love you, Reese. You know what else? You're too good for this. You want to go home? Come on. Off like a herd of turtles. Come on.
00:47:26I can't believe I let you talk me into this. Well, I know you've heard this story a million times, but if I don't keep talking, I can't keep walking.
00:47:52So, a million and one. What do you have to say about that, huh? Huh? That's what I thought.
00:48:06Anyway, we drove all day to get to where you were born. Have you ever seen your mother drive? Huh? She's beautiful. She's so serious.
00:48:20I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh. I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody. She made me feel that way all the time. Huh. And when she smiled, I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:48:42But don't get any ideas. You're too young to start dating there, mister. You're too young for that.
00:48:54Anyway, we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:49:02And I swear the place was odd. It was like a circus.
00:49:06There was kids on unicycles. Goats with eight horns. I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:49:18That you like to play with that. Chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:49:30And your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:49:34She wore dresses from the 50s and little things in her hair.
00:49:48She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before, well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:49:56I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress. It didn't matter where we went or what we did. I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:50:14She glowed even when she slept.
00:50:24Have you ever seen The Lion King?
00:50:27Yeah. I have about 75 times. I have kids.
00:50:34Remember? Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:50:43Well, that's how it was when I met you.
00:50:50Only, you weren't Simba.
00:50:56You, you were like a peanut butter cup.
00:51:04A fat, chunky, little peanut butter cup.
00:51:17That's how you got your name.
00:51:21Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, okay?
00:51:34One more.
00:51:36Come on.
00:51:37Come on.
00:51:38Come on.
00:51:39Come on.
00:51:40Come on.
00:51:41Come on.
00:51:42Come on.
00:51:43Come on.
00:51:44Come on.
00:51:45Come on.
00:51:46Come on.
00:51:47Come on.
00:51:48Come on.
00:51:49Come on.
00:51:50Come on.
00:51:51Come on.
00:51:52Come on.
00:51:53Come on.
00:51:54Come on.
00:51:55Come on.
00:51:56Come on.
00:51:57Come on.
00:51:58Come on.
00:51:59Come on.
00:52:00Come on.
00:52:01Come on.
00:53:32Oh, I miss you.
00:53:43Oh, I miss you.
00:55:44Fuckin' kids.
00:55:46Hey, fuck off.
00:55:48Hey.
00:55:49Hey, what's your problem?
00:55:52I don't have a problem.
00:55:54You walk through here every day.
00:55:55Where do you go?
00:55:56I don't know.
00:55:57I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:59Quit being a pathetic fuck and say hi every once in a while, huh?
00:56:04Well, you're gonna sit down at a fucking church.
00:56:06Hey, you're a piece of shit.
00:56:07Hey, you're a piece of shit, Paul.
00:56:10I'm Terry.
00:56:11This is my friend, Vodka.
00:56:13Who the fuck are you?
00:56:14Brian.
00:56:15Hey.
00:56:16Hey, waitress, can I get a napkin for my friend here?
00:56:21Don't sleep at all.
00:56:22Don't sleep at all.
00:56:23Don't sleep at all.
00:56:23My child rotting, you stagnant cunt.
00:56:29I gotta go.
00:56:31Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:56:33You got a job interview or something?
00:56:36Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:56:38Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:57:08What?
00:57:11I can do.
00:57:11When he runs a sheep, you 60 hair.
00:57:14I can't sleep at all.
00:57:15I can do it, baby.
00:57:17How can I get a boy?
00:57:18I can turn up every Sunday night.
00:57:19Come on, everybody, cause I'm like go.
00:57:24How can I get a girl?
00:57:25I'm like and size can go.
00:57:28What can I get a girl?
00:57:30Right?
00:57:30Yeah, I'm so 84.
00:57:32You're a good girl.
00:57:33Oh, gonna be a kid.
00:57:34I can even say oh, God.
00:57:34I can't just be a boy.
00:57:35The taste of used food subsides as the flickering streetlights create a rhythmic dance of muted
00:57:59shadows i stuff my coat with newspapers i will never read the first night was cold so was the second
00:58:11and every night that followed memories will never keep you warm at night
00:58:18but they will keep you up even the good ones have you ever held someone so close that you forget
00:58:26which one you are that you think it's your fingers moving that's there
00:58:36that they finish your words
00:58:45i can hear your heart beating your lips
00:58:50i think it's your lips that make my heart beat
00:58:56hey so did you get that job
00:59:02jesus christ watching you is like watching some pathetic dog shit himself and then wipe his ass
00:59:08all over the ground and smear it in real good what you need is an aspirin and a shower
00:59:16well are you gonna sit down or what
00:59:27what is your deal anyway you ain't supposed to be here
00:59:32well i used to have a wife and kids a dog and a house jesus christ you are a dental assistant
00:59:39well i was an architect an architect you were an architect you know how many floors there were
00:59:48between you and the ground
00:59:54let me tell you something you piece of shit i used to be a dental hygienist
00:59:57being a dental hygienist it's a lot like being a shrink only most of my clients were numb kind of like you
01:00:09talk to me about being
01:00:12you ever smoke crack
01:00:16smoking crack is kind of like waking up frankenstein's monster
01:00:20there's a big jolt of electricity and then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely
01:00:24so the town folk they all get together and you know get their pitchforks and
01:00:30they run him out of town or kill him or fuck i forget killed it killed it thank you very much
01:00:40anyway my point is this you walk around here like fucking frankenstein's monster
01:00:45and i see i could tell you ain't supposed to be here you're a fucking accident
01:00:49so i look for my pitchfork but then i realize i'm not a fucking farmer what do i need a pitchfork for
01:00:58but by the time i realize that you're gone
01:01:04just do yourself a favor go be an architect build yourself some big building that you don't want to
01:01:12jump off of or at least be a good drunk you fucking piece of shit
01:01:24thank you
01:01:28yeah go yourself frankie the park fly
01:01:31jesus paul you're a fucking embarrassment
01:01:51you
01:01:52you
01:01:52you
01:01:52you
01:02:21Do you mind if I sit and watch you paint?
01:02:26No, not at all.
01:02:31This has always reminded me of something from a different life.
01:02:35A couple of months ago, it was wrapped in plastic.
01:02:40Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:02:45So, are you in school?
01:02:47Third quarter freshman.
01:02:48Well, it's very beautiful.
01:02:52Do you paint?
01:02:54I always wanted to.
01:02:56I was told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:02:59You're married?
01:03:02No, I'm divorced.
01:03:03I'm sorry.
01:03:05It's okay, it's been a while now.
01:03:07How long?
01:03:10Going on three years.
01:03:12This is too bad.
01:03:15It's all right.
01:03:16Where are you from?
01:03:18Yeah.
01:03:19I must have tourists written all over me.
01:03:21Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the space needle or not.
01:03:28I'm from Portland.
01:03:30Really?
01:03:30Yeah.
01:03:30From Salem.
01:03:31Right on.
01:03:32Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:03:38That's okay.
01:03:39You don't have to.
01:03:42Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:03:45But good luck to you.
01:03:46You too.
01:03:47You too.
01:03:47I don't know.
01:04:17I don't know.
01:04:47I don't know.
01:04:49I don't know.
01:04:57I don't know.
01:05:00I don't know.
01:05:00I don't know.
01:05:01Hi.
01:05:02Hi.
01:05:03How are you?
01:05:04Just trying to get money the other person's food.
01:05:07Do you have any spare change?
01:05:09Oh, I'm sorry, don't.
01:05:12It's okay. Thanks anyway.
01:05:15Have a good night.
01:05:16You too.
01:05:32So I don't give the homeless money, but I will help you help yourself.
01:05:37You don't have to do this.
01:05:38No, it's okay.
01:05:39I want to.
01:05:41See, you can paint pictures, and that way you don't have to bed.
01:05:45Can I hug you?
01:05:46What?
01:05:49Oh, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met.
01:05:53I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:05:57That you know what you have when you have it.
01:06:03Hey.
01:06:11Hey.
01:06:12Hey.
01:06:14Here goes Frankie, the architect.
01:06:16You're going to come over and join me or what?
01:06:28What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:06:40Life goes on.
01:06:44It doesn't matter how much you push it, pull it, remember or forget.
01:06:51It's indifferent.
01:06:52It just goes on.
01:06:55And I think back to the little things.
01:06:58The things that matter most.
01:06:59The laughter.
01:07:02The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:07:06Her lip-lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:07:12Philosophy over coffee.
01:07:16Explaining why the sky is blue to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:07:20So wide-eyed and full of possibilities, endless possibilities, when the world was made of magic.
01:07:32Of course unicorns are real.
01:07:36As real as princesses.
01:07:38As real as Bigfoot.
01:07:41As real as you and me.
01:07:43Once, when I was your age, I rode one.
01:07:48I rode one, but the horn is very sharp.
01:07:52That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:08:00Fly.
01:08:04Fly.
01:08:07Fly as I sink.
01:08:13Fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, fly
01:08:43Take a walk with me
01:09:13And let's go find belief
01:09:17I wanna see the stars again
01:09:22With the wonder that I had
01:09:25At the age of ten
01:09:28So now I'm alone
01:09:32Once again
01:09:35I'm on my own
01:09:37She lost the magic
01:09:40She had for me
01:09:42In her eyes
01:09:46We no longer
01:09:49Share the same skies
01:09:53No
01:09:54We don't
01:09:57Not at all
01:09:59Not at all
01:10:02Not at all
01:10:03So now I walk alone
01:10:10Once again
01:10:13I'm on my own
01:10:16She lost the magic
01:10:19She lost the magic
01:10:19She had for me
01:10:22Lost the magic
01:10:26I'm not complete
01:10:29In each one of us
01:10:33Peter Pan
01:10:35Elvis Presley
01:10:37Superman
01:10:39In each one of us
01:10:43Jacques Cousteau
01:10:45To marvel at the earth
01:10:48And the sea below
01:10:51In each one of us
01:11:04In each one of us
01:11:04Peter Pan
01:11:07Elvis Presley
01:11:09Elvis Presley
01:11:10Superman
01:11:12In each one of us
01:11:16Jacques Cousteau
01:11:18To marvel at the earth
01:11:21And the sea below
01:11:23Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:44Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:46Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:47Do you remember the first day we met?
01:11:51Let's go find belief
01:11:57I want to see the stars again
01:12:11The stars again
01:12:18With the wonder that I had
01:12:21At the age of ten
01:12:25I remember lying on your chest
01:12:35And talking for hours
01:12:37The age of ten
01:12:41And then we remembered
01:12:45We were lying on the bathroom floor
01:12:47So much
01:12:48And we had a shower again
01:12:49So I walk alone
01:13:06Once again
01:13:11I'm on my own
01:13:13I'm on my own
01:13:15She lost the magic
01:13:18She had for me
01:13:21Oh
01:13:23In her eyes
01:13:27We no longer
01:13:30We no longer
01:13:32Share the sky
01:13:34We no longer
01:13:35Share the sky
01:13:36Oh no
01:13:37Oh no
01:13:38Oh no
01:13:40Not at all
01:13:42Not at all
01:13:54Not at all
01:13:55Sometimes I can't help but wonder if
01:13:57Maybe we forget each other every time you look away
01:14:01I see
01:14:06I see
01:14:07You are
01:14:08Beautiful
01:14:09Beautiful
01:14:10In each one of us
01:14:15Peter Pan
01:14:19Elvis Presley
01:14:20Elvis Presley
01:14:22Superman
01:14:24Superman
01:14:25In each one of us
01:14:29Jacques Cousteau
01:14:32To marvel at the earth
01:14:36In the sea below
01:14:38In the sea below
01:14:39Where the light
01:14:40I just need someone
01:14:43Who understands
01:14:46The little boy
01:14:49Inside the man
01:14:53I just need someone
01:14:56Who understands
01:14:59The little boy
01:15:01Inside the man
01:15:03Part of me lives
01:15:06In our dreamland
01:15:08And
01:15:22In our dreamland
01:15:24I remember
01:15:26I remember
01:15:28She thought
01:15:30But I can't forget
01:15:32Once you asked me
01:15:34If I had ever stood naked
01:15:35In front of anyone
01:15:36Alone
01:15:38And out of reach
01:15:39I took off my clothes
01:15:41And backed away from you
01:15:43You simply asked me my middle name
01:15:45And told me to put my clothes back on
01:15:48I am standing naked and raw
01:15:52For you now, Bella
01:15:54Not to beg forgiveness
01:15:56But to beg that you find happiness
01:15:59The kind of happiness
01:16:01I could never give you
01:16:04And if you should see
01:16:06The unrecognizable me
01:16:07On the street
01:16:08Don't look down
01:16:10Don't look back
01:16:12And I will grant you the same respect
01:16:16Ain't you guys got a home to go to?
01:16:21Yeah
01:16:23I was thinking about maybe getting a wife
01:16:26Shitting out some kids
01:16:28Being an architect
01:16:30Will you marry me?
01:16:32Shut up you fucking drunk
01:16:34Do you ever leave the bench?
01:16:37What do they decorate you guys at Christmas time?
01:16:42Yes?
01:16:43No?
01:16:44Okay, well I am going to go get a cup of coffee if you want to join me
01:16:49Okay, well I am going to go get a cup of coffee if you want to join me
01:16:59Come on sweetheart
01:17:00Daddy wants some breakfast
01:17:02Lupy
01:17:06Lupy
01:17:09I don't know.
01:17:39So, we'll see where that comes from.
01:17:42I have more range than my spoken words.
01:17:56Just piss me off.
01:18:09If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
01:18:19One thing is all I get?
01:18:22If one is all I get, I don't want to play this movie.
01:18:26Pussy.
01:18:28I want to be President of the United States. That's right.
01:18:32That way I can declare a state anarchy.
01:18:36I want to be a movie star.
01:18:39A big fucking movie star.
01:18:42Live in a big fucking house.
01:18:45You make big fucking movies.
01:18:49I want to be the love child to sit vicious in Molly Ringwald.
01:18:57I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
01:19:03I want to be God.
01:19:06The sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world.
01:19:09Don't think for one minute I want to take you out.
01:19:12I want the original promise.
01:19:15I want justice for all.
01:19:18I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between.
01:19:25For nothing in return.
01:19:28I want the world in my palm.
01:19:32No cooler than 60 degrees.
01:19:35No warmer than 75.
01:19:38And never a cloud in the sky.
01:19:41I want the perfect kiss.
01:19:45The perfect imperfection.
01:19:48The perfect life.
01:19:51But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
01:19:57And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:20:01And order biscuits and gravy.
01:20:04You're a pathetic fuck.
01:20:11Magnus.
01:20:12Not you.
01:20:13Him.
01:20:14Jesus.
01:20:15That was beautiful.
01:20:17That was beautiful.
01:20:47Oh, God.
01:20:48Oh, God.
01:20:50Oh, God.
01:20:51Oh, God.
01:24:16You're so close, but through the years
01:24:24In circles again, with burdens and fears
01:24:29Oh, now you are swimming in tears of sorrow
01:24:35Oh, oh, oh
01:24:43Contentment fades away
01:24:49Into the grave
01:24:55And goes to view
01:25:01Well, it hides away
01:25:06Where's it going to?
01:25:13And the way you were
01:25:21Lives in shadows now
01:25:25Becomes the blur
01:25:32And nothing can touch the moment
01:25:36It's all yours now
01:25:39You own it
01:25:41And nothing, no, not even reason
01:25:46Can touch the season
01:25:48That you're in
01:25:50Nothing can touch the moment
01:25:55It's all yours now
01:25:57It's all yours now
01:25:58You own it
01:26:00And nothing, no, not even reason
01:26:04Can touch the season
01:26:06That you're in
01:26:07That you're in
01:26:09That you're in
01:26:11La la la la
01:26:13That you're in
01:26:14That you're in
01:26:16La la la
01:26:18That you're in
01:26:20La la la
01:26:22That you're in
01:26:24La la la
01:26:26That you're in
01:26:28La la la
01:26:30That you're in
01:26:32La la la
01:26:34Ah
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