00:00Well, thanks a lot. My parents want me to go see a psychiatrist.
00:04Well, maybe that's not such a bad idea.
00:05It's a terrible idea. I don't need a psychiatrist. I'm fine.
00:09Sometimes we think we're fine and we're not.
00:11What's that supposed to mean?
00:13Holly, I know. I have been there.
00:16If you're anorexic, there may come a point where your body chemistry takes over
00:19and you have nothing to say about it anymore.
00:21That's ridiculous.
00:22Holly!
00:24You may want to eat, but your body will reject food.
00:28If you get to that point, there may be no going back.
00:31I can't believe this.
00:32I really think you're all crazy. I'm fine. There's nothing wrong with me.
00:37You know, when I was your age, I remember having a similar conversation with my mother.
00:41I told her I was fine. I meant that.
00:44But I wasn't.
00:46You're wrong this time, Miss Grant.
00:48You're wrong.
00:50I hope so.
00:52I think the most important episode was the one about anorexia.
00:58It's a very, very important subject to bring to light.
01:04And after that episode, I actually got a lot of feedback from people saying that it helped them.
01:11It helped them to recognize their own problem and to seek help.
01:15For me, it was especially important.
01:20I did a lot of research on the disease before playing the character.
01:26And I was surrounded by it my whole life.
01:29My mother was a ballerina.
01:30And back then, the mentality around classical ballet was very, very unhealthy.
01:39Women were never thin enough.
01:41They were always being told to be thinner and thinner.
01:44And as a result, there were a lot of people in my life when I was younger that were sick.
01:51I actually didn't know what it was when I was that age.
01:54But we had babysitters who were anorexic and bulimic.
01:58And then I was a model.
02:01And so, of course, the same very unhealthy message about women's bodies and women's weight was very prevalent in that industry.
02:10And still in Hollywood as well, not nearly as unhealthy as the ballet world, but still a really, really dangerous message has always been presented to women in our society.
02:28And I think, you know, the only way to change that is to bring awareness, which means talking about it and, you know, and making a decision to change the way we see women and accept women and cherish women.
02:50Oh, you're welcome.
02:51It was also a very special episode because Valerie Landsberg got to direct it.
02:55Valerie, who played Doris, was actually the director.
02:59And we already had a very close friendship.
03:02And so that level of trust was necessary for me to be that vulnerable on camera.
03:11I really, I think that for me, I had never been able to be that emotional in my work.
03:17But it really was a result of just an incredible amount of trust that I had in Valerie and, you know, the friendship that the two of us had.
03:25But you can't solve our problems by starving yourself to death.
03:35You might succeed in keeping us together for a little while, but time is not on your side.
03:43And if you die, Holly, if you succeed in killing yourself, your father and I will grieve for you, we'll mourn for you, and we'll miss you very much.
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