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00:00:30I made a joke this morning about the house burning down and Liz got all mad because she thinks
00:00:54I'm not making any progress and maybe I'm not, maybe I'm not.
00:00:56So, I go high speed to fuck it.
00:01:01Yeah, right, true.
00:01:07Uh-huh.
00:01:08An arbitrary task.
00:01:10Yeah.
00:01:15That's helpful.
00:01:16That's helpful.
00:02:16It calms you quickly.
00:02:24The cold water stimulates the parasympathetic system, slowing everything down.
00:02:32Only cunts walk alone.
00:02:34Good.
00:02:36Good job, Richard.
00:02:37Keep going.
00:02:38Let's move on to pee pacing.
00:02:41Nobody cares about you.
00:02:43You're feeling all the way out.
00:02:47You act like a baby.
00:02:49You think anybody wants to date a baby?
00:02:53Very nice.
00:02:54Five to seven cycles, please.
00:02:57You think you're an artist?
00:03:00You have no talent.
00:03:05You're old.
00:03:10Is anything coming up for you, Mel?
00:03:14No.
00:03:15Good.
00:03:16Nice work.
00:03:17All right, everybody.
00:03:18Let's take a quick five-minute bathroom break and return here for process.
00:03:22So I put the click-click in the trash, and now I basically have to go home after school
00:03:27and think about what I've done.
00:03:28Mm.
00:03:29Did you see my peas?
00:03:30What?
00:03:31My peas on the sidewalk.
00:03:32No.
00:03:33Look, man.
00:03:34I think humans are like dolphins.
00:03:35We need a lot of water.
00:03:36Like, that's why it's so dumb to live in the desert.
00:03:37Everyone's gonna die.
00:03:38Yeah.
00:03:39But I guess that's everywhere.
00:03:40Except the ocean.
00:03:41Nah, even there.
00:03:42I bet the Army's missiles mess up the waves and the fish.
00:03:45My dad probably wasn't thinking about that when he joined, you know?
00:03:47Nobody thinks about the fish.
00:03:48Like, when I was in second, everyone would just tell me that we were there since her license.
00:03:52And now she's girlfriend-boyfriend with Jeremy Thompson.
00:03:53And I don't get it, because, like, he smells.
00:03:54And I'm not a mean person.
00:03:55Like, I could say mean things sometimes, but I'm not mean.
00:03:56I just don't even sit next to him, and I could smell that boy from a mile away.
00:03:59What?
00:04:00Tavi, what are you doing?
00:04:01No, standing on the bus.
00:04:02I get off here.
00:04:03Here?
00:04:04This is the middle of the street.
00:04:05No.
00:04:06No.
00:04:07No.
00:04:08No.
00:04:09No.
00:04:10No.
00:04:11No.
00:04:12No.
00:04:13No.
00:04:14No.
00:04:15No.
00:04:16No.
00:04:17No.
00:04:18No.
00:04:19No.
00:04:20No.
00:04:21No.
00:04:22No.
00:04:23No.
00:04:24No.
00:04:25Here you go.
00:04:26You're rocking and cheese.
00:04:28Nice job today, Rich.
00:04:29Nice job.
00:04:30I need to do my target behaviors.
00:04:32I'm stressed.
00:04:33I know it.
00:04:35I always feel like that.
00:04:37Me too.
00:04:38Do opposite action.
00:04:39I walk the track.
00:04:40Take a bath.
00:04:41The track.
00:04:42What track.
00:04:43My union.
00:04:44I know exactly what I want to eat and what I want to drink.
00:04:47Bells distract me.
00:04:48I keep them next to my stove so I don't touch it.
00:04:51Chicken fingers and Armageddon.
00:04:53Why don't you go to the movies?
00:04:54I can't go to the movies.
00:04:56I'll get popcorn and end up at the bar.
00:04:58Well, you could listen to music
00:05:00and make a nice lunch with apricots,
00:05:03and look at your worksheet.
00:05:04When I'm alone, that's when it gets going, okay?
00:05:07It's just a want, Richard.
00:05:10Just a thought.
00:05:12You wanna go to the store with me?
00:05:14I need to be alone. Bye.
00:05:15Where are you going?
00:05:17He needs DMI cable.
00:05:20Where are you going?
00:05:21Have a great day, everybody.
00:05:22Use your resources.
00:05:24Rogers.
00:05:28I don't want to.
00:05:31But I should.
00:05:32Can I come?
00:05:34Sure.
00:05:35Uh, does anybody have a lighter?
00:05:37Oh, fuck. Everything up if I go.
00:05:39I feel weird. I wanna leave.
00:05:41Shotgun!
00:05:50I don't have no idea.
00:05:51I'm gonna leave.
00:05:53I just wanted to take care of your habits.
00:05:55I know.
00:05:56I know it's done.
00:05:57I know it's done.
00:05:58I know it's done.
00:05:59I know it's done.
00:06:00Not done.
00:06:01I know it's done.
00:06:02I've been done.
00:06:03I know it's done.
00:06:04A lot of things I have been done.
00:06:05I know it's done.
00:06:06I know even I can do, but I'm not done.
00:06:08All I know it's done.
00:06:09I know it's done.
00:08:14Do you play?
00:08:16No.
00:08:18I just think they're really beautiful.
00:08:21Like a wood body with a wood neck.
00:08:26It says you were a football team in New Mexico?
00:08:36I was on the football team here, yeah.
00:08:37No, this says you were the entire football team the way that you wrote it.
00:08:40Oh, was it?
00:08:41Yeah.
00:08:43So is that true?
00:08:43You were the entire football team?
00:08:44Must be a typo.
00:08:45I'm just making sure.
00:08:48It's more stylized, but it fits in your pocket.
00:08:54Uh, not really HDMI, though.
00:08:58Not technically, but it does the same thing.
00:09:02You have your computer on you.
00:09:05Uh, one sec.
00:09:07What's this do?
00:09:08Hello?
00:09:09I don't know.
00:09:11Uh, Dad, how are you?
00:09:13Okay, well, what does that mean?
00:09:20No, she's not with me.
00:09:23What is this...
00:09:25What is this about you can't be out past nine?
00:09:28What is that?
00:09:28Well, I'm currently on parole, so nine is my curfew.
00:09:39Curfew from who?
00:09:41The state.
00:09:43Oh.
00:09:47Yeah, all right, well...
00:09:49But my parole officer recommends me.
00:09:51I even listed her as a reference.
00:09:53Sure, yeah.
00:09:54Okay.
00:09:54That's kind of unusual.
00:09:55Yeah, no, I'll let you know.
00:09:58Hello.
00:10:28I saw you fall.
00:10:46What was that?
00:10:47I saw you fall.
00:10:50On the sidewalk yesterday.
00:10:52Over there.
00:10:53Oh.
00:10:59Yeah, I did.
00:11:02Tripped.
00:11:03I saw you.
00:11:11You saw me?
00:11:14Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.
00:11:16Hi, this is Keith again.
00:11:21Uh, Tavi's dead.
00:11:22Maybe they just have some attendant.
00:11:23Can you please...
00:11:24How old is she?
00:11:26No, no, she's not here.
00:11:28I don't know if that's protocol.
00:11:30Now they're gonna call.
00:11:30She's in California.
00:11:31Why would they?
00:11:34It's all fine.
00:11:36It's just better if you don't call.
00:11:39What are you gonna do now?
00:11:42I'd rather tell her myself.
00:11:45Okay, never mind.
00:11:46Actually, never mind.
00:11:47You pretend I didn't call.
00:11:49Okay.
00:11:50Okay.
00:11:50Are you guys coming?
00:11:57What do you see?
00:11:59What do you see?
00:11:59A little bit of orange.
00:12:20Maybe my cousin.
00:12:21Boom, boom, boom.
00:12:33Yeah.
00:12:35You already know.
00:12:41Not even walking by?
00:12:43No.
00:12:45She's in a yellow shirt, I think.
00:12:47No one has been here today except you.
00:12:51I don't know.
00:12:54Shit.
00:12:55Shit.
00:12:56I don't know.
00:12:57Isn't that's a thing?
00:12:58Police protocol.
00:13:00They notify everyone involved.
00:13:02They don't think she's with her.
00:13:04They don't know she's in California.
00:13:08I don't think she ran away.
00:13:13I don't know.
00:13:14If I knew, why would I be driving around?
00:13:21In a house?
00:13:24Yeah.
00:13:26Me too.
00:13:28It's weird.
00:13:29We both live in houses.
00:13:32Yeah.
00:13:33It is.
00:13:38Mine's more like a building than a house.
00:13:41Like a department store?
00:13:43Nah.
00:13:47It's just houses have families.
00:13:52And I just live with a couple of people who don't really acknowledge each other.
00:13:57That sucks.
00:13:59Yeah.
00:14:02It sort of does.
00:14:05Mine has three stories.
00:14:07It's big.
00:14:09For ants.
00:14:10It's huge for ants.
00:14:28I should get going.
00:14:32Do you know where you are?
00:14:37Kind of.
00:14:38Here.
00:14:46If you get lost.
00:14:50Or.
00:14:53If you feel like getting lost.
00:14:58Call me.
00:14:59Bye.
00:15:09Goodbye.
00:15:10Bye.
00:15:21Bye.
00:15:21Bye.
00:15:23Bye.
00:15:23Bye.
00:15:23Hi, Dad.
00:15:24Hi, Dad.
00:15:31You've been here the whole time.
00:15:34The whole time?
00:15:39Skipped school today?
00:15:41Not really.
00:15:44Miss Kasiba called me.
00:15:46I left early.
00:15:49Why?
00:15:50I had other things to do.
00:15:54You have to go to school, Tav.
00:16:02It's one of those things we have to do even if we don't want to.
00:16:07I'll make you a better person someday.
00:16:10You're like, I gotta go to school too.
00:16:13Every day I go to this thing.
00:16:14It's basically school.
00:16:15Me and you are doing everything we can to be better.
00:16:26Smarter, healthier.
00:16:30If you don't want to go one day, just tell me.
00:16:34We could do something fun.
00:16:36Play hooky.
00:16:36I'm good at hooky.
00:16:42I didn't know where you were.
00:16:52Sorry.
00:17:02Are you scared?
00:17:03I don't know.
00:17:10It's fine.
00:17:19I'm sorry.
00:17:21Don't be sorry.
00:17:23Are you okay now?
00:17:31Yeah, I'm so stupid.
00:17:32I overreacted.
00:17:43I'll eat dinner.
00:17:46Eggs?
00:17:49Sure.
00:17:49What do they say to try and leave the cave in better shape than when you left?
00:18:02Right.
00:18:03Than when you initially went there?
00:18:04Or I think it's try and leave it in the same shape.
00:18:06Don't try to prove up on it.
00:18:07While I was down there, I did let a little bit.
00:18:10This is embarrassing to admit, but I was scared, as I said.
00:18:13And I let just a little bit flow.
00:18:16Just a small number one.
00:18:17I'm hoping none of it touched the cave floor, but...
00:18:20This was a religious experience.
00:18:22Yeah, I mean, truly.
00:18:23You can't have a religious experience without emitting a teaspoonful of urine.
00:18:42Hey, Liz.
00:18:43Tough.
00:18:59Hi, Mom.
00:19:05I got it.
00:19:07Is it clay?
00:19:08I got it.
00:19:10Oh.
00:19:14He's good.
00:19:16He's cooking.
00:19:21Scrambled eggs.
00:19:25It's fine, because I have other things for lunch.
00:19:27I got it.
00:19:35I got it.
00:19:41I need to go to.
00:19:45I got it.
00:19:49I'm going toΡΠ½ΠΊle eggs.
00:19:50Okay.
00:19:50You guys have a drink.
00:19:51I need to.
00:19:51I can't wait.
00:19:52Hope it looks good.
00:19:54I don't know.
00:19:54I have a drink.
00:19:55I have a drink.
00:19:56Dinner!
00:20:04Thank you to the food for giving me nutrients, keeping me alive.
00:20:10Thank you to my kid across the table from me here, sitting with me.
00:20:18Thank you to Liz for checking in on us.
00:20:25Even with her busy schedule and my friends in the program who believe in me.
00:20:37Thank you to my eyes for letting me see.
00:20:40And Liz for giving me quality time with my child.
00:20:44Thank you to the sun for giving light and to the moon for giving darkness.
00:20:51Thank you to my legs for carrying me around.
00:20:55Thank you to Julian for falling on the sidewalk.
00:20:58And thank you to my dad for giving me food every morning and every night.
00:21:02Thank you to my heart for becoming more open.
00:21:06Thank you to Maxine who uses the right pronouns and makes me laugh.
00:21:14Thank you to my ears for bringing all the new possibilities.
00:21:20And thank you to the sand which cushions me when I look too closely.
00:21:37Do graves get watered by the rain?
00:22:07Mm-hmm, yeah.
00:22:30Just make sure she gets to school today.
00:22:33They, not she.
00:22:35Alright, no problem.
00:22:36Make sure.
00:22:37Thank you, Ari.
00:22:38I can't believe you did that.
00:22:41I didn't say anything.
00:22:42I don't get why people think your dad's so hot.
00:22:44He's out of shape.
00:22:46Not really.
00:22:47Maybe it's because he's crazy.
00:22:49People love crazy.
00:22:50Disgusting.
00:22:51He's not that crazy anymore.
00:22:52He should really stop magendering you.
00:22:54Like, that's messed up.
00:22:55Do you even correct him?
00:22:57No.
00:22:58It shouldn't be on you, so.
00:23:00He should just know.
00:23:01You should be my mom's friend.
00:23:03She works for an ambulance.
00:23:04She wears this thing over her ears, like a tape, but, like, it doesn't rip the skin.
00:23:08Maybe you can borrow them.
00:23:09Yeah.
00:23:10Well, I really like that restaurant.
00:23:14It's very cute.
00:23:16I hated it.
00:23:18I wanted chicken tenders.
00:23:19Honey.
00:23:20Mom.
00:23:21Girls.
00:23:22Richard, look out!
00:23:38Hi, Nikki.
00:23:40I'm Anne.
00:23:41I work for the police force.
00:23:44I have some very unfortunate news for you today.
00:23:47Your family died in a car crash tonight.
00:23:51Oh.
00:23:52And I know you don't have any other relatives, so I'm sorry.
00:23:57It seems like your life is going to be very hard from now on.
00:24:02OK.
00:24:03Nobody will be able to help you.
00:24:06And it's honestly your fault.
00:24:10You could have asked them to eat with you at home, but you were too busy chatting with
00:24:15someone on your cell phone, weren't you?
00:24:18OK.
00:24:19What a shame.
00:24:22Now they're all dead.
00:24:24And you're all alone.
00:24:27And nobody cares.
00:24:29Let's take a quick five-minute bathroom break and return here for process.
00:24:34Let's take a quick five-minute bathroom break and return here for process.
00:24:39Let's take five minutes.
00:24:40Great job.
00:24:41Hey.
00:24:48Hello.
00:24:49Hey.
00:24:50Uh.
00:24:51Hello.
00:24:52Hey.
00:24:53Uh.
00:24:54I was just wondering if you guys are hiring right now?
00:24:57Uh.
00:24:58I don't think so.
00:25:00Okay.
00:25:01Well, I have a lot of experience with ceramics.
00:25:03I use a lot of pottery.
00:25:04I pay very, very close attention to cups.
00:25:05Um.
00:25:07Well, I'm not the manager.
00:25:08Well, I still would like to get involved.
00:25:09Mm-hmm.
00:25:10So, okay.
00:25:11Here's my resume.
00:25:12And references.
00:25:13You can call the number at the top.
00:25:14Uh.
00:25:15Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:25:16I'm just wondering if you guys are hiring right now?
00:25:17Uh.
00:25:18I don't think so.
00:25:19Okay.
00:25:20Well, I have a lot of experience with ceramics.
00:25:22I use a lot of pottery.
00:25:24I pay very, very close attention to cups.
00:25:26Um.
00:25:27Well, I'm not the manager.
00:25:30Well, I still would like to get involved.
00:25:32Mm-hmm.
00:25:33So, okay, here's my resume and references.
00:25:39You can call the number at the top.
00:25:41Uh.
00:25:42Yeah, you can set it right there.
00:25:43Yeah, just set it right down.
00:25:45Thanks.
00:25:46Okay.
00:25:47Thank you for your time.
00:25:52Uh.
00:25:53Appreciate it.
00:25:54All right.
00:26:03Uh.
00:26:04A social worker would never really say that.
00:26:17And so it's, it's dumb, but it also really scares me
00:26:22because, like, Richard and everybody are, like, falling out of their seats.
00:26:26Mm-hmm.
00:26:27I was a 9.
00:26:29I don't know if anybody could tell.
00:26:31Same thing happened to me the night before my exposure
00:26:34My thoughts went really high thinking about it. I always think that thinking about it makes it happen
00:26:40Yeah, but you get to see and hear your thoughts right out there in the open
00:26:45That's why I found mine so helpful. That's that's why I haven't done mine yet. I can't even say it out loud
00:26:53About Liz
00:26:57Now my suds are innate
00:27:01I couldn't feel my heart
00:27:03Yeah, that happens to me too, but I know that's the whole point it makes it absurd I
00:27:10Did a relapse one
00:27:13And I didn't relapse
00:27:17Does that counts definitely
00:27:20And you said it made you feel like you could handle it right Richard yeah doing it gave me the power mm-hmm
00:27:28Like I could see what would happen. I would freak out and I'd say a bunch of dramatic shit
00:27:35But it would be fine. I could handle it
00:27:57It would be fine
00:27:59Just to ask you later
00:28:00It was a feeling like you could handle it
00:28:02Oh
00:28:05It would be fine
00:28:06Uh
00:28:07Gotta catch it
00:28:08Or
00:28:09Yeah
00:28:10Oh, my God.
00:28:40You know Colosseums?
00:28:59Like Rome?
00:29:03Or the Aztecs?
00:29:07Yeah.
00:29:09Have you ever made one?
00:29:10Oh, probably in some way.
00:29:16An accident is sort of Colosseum.
00:29:26We recognize fully and honestly how our behaviors have created difficulties in our lives.
00:29:34I've tried different methods.
00:29:38We usually like to keep them in the body.
00:29:40Four essential DBT skills to master.
00:29:44Essential.
00:29:46Essential.
00:29:48The fencing master on the road.
00:29:52You may give him your sword.
00:29:54When you're manic, you know, people show up.
00:29:56Like you're going 90 in a 55.
00:29:58Searching for the library in a fog of thug.
00:30:00One ski ready for Everest.
00:30:02One Rockaway beach.
00:30:04One.
00:30:05I decided that it will be a perfect souvenir from the United States.
00:30:08Don't pass the disappointment mailbox.
00:30:12Merciless.
00:30:14The fencing master on the road.
00:30:20Hello.
00:30:22Hi.
00:30:24I don't have all my numbers.
00:30:25Who's this?
00:30:26Sorry, what?
00:30:30I don't have all my numbers. Who is this?
00:30:34Oh.
00:30:38It's Mel? Mel. Mel?
00:30:42Yeah, from the group.
00:30:46Oh, Mel. Hey.
00:30:50Yeah, sorry, I can't really hear so great in my car speakers.
00:30:54Um,
00:31:02are you there? Yeah, yeah.
00:31:06Do you want to meet to do our worksheet together?
00:31:10Uh, yeah. Hello?
00:31:14Yeah, I'm just cruising around, you know,
00:31:18listening to resource recovery, trying to get in that zone.
00:31:22Probably be good to have another head, brain.
00:31:26Hey, you're in the car?
00:31:28Yeah, I could, uh,
00:31:30I could take you off the speaker.
00:31:32It's just one button versus another.
00:31:34Could you, like, pick me up?
00:31:38Like, pick me up?
00:31:50A baby.
00:31:54These aren't just for babies.
00:31:56Oh, my hamstrings are tight from those jumps earlier.
00:32:14Might have to hum on them later.
00:32:18You ever done that?
00:32:20No.
00:32:22The vibrations reorient the muscle if it gets twisted.
00:32:26What do you eat?
00:32:40Food-wise.
00:32:42Pale colors.
00:32:44Yeah.
00:32:48Rice?
00:32:50Yeah.
00:32:52Cheese?
00:32:54Not really.
00:32:56Mmm.
00:32:58Chicken?
00:33:00No.
00:33:02You vegetarian?
00:33:04Yeah.
00:33:05Huh.
00:33:06Me too.
00:33:07Well, I mean, when I can afford it.
00:33:13I shall not kill.
00:33:15I shall not gossip.
00:33:19I shall not kill.
00:33:21I shall not gossip.
00:33:22Well, would you kill an animal if you had to?
00:33:25I don't know.
00:33:27Like...
00:33:29If I was starving?
00:33:31Yeah.
00:33:32I like these.
00:33:33Color.
00:33:35I mean...
00:33:37I could kill the fish.
00:33:39I have killed the fish before.
00:33:41Nobody cares about the fish.
00:33:43But...
00:33:45Like, if I was starving...
00:33:48You know, it's tricky.
00:33:50I mean, it kind of goes back to, um...
00:33:53It's about the milk, Mom.
00:33:55Isn't that your friend, Tavi?
00:33:57Thank God.
00:33:58Stop.
00:33:59Hi, Tavi.
00:34:01Fancy seeing you here.
00:34:05Alice is getting her tonsils out tomorrow,
00:34:07so I let her take off and we're...
00:34:09buying a ton of ice cream.
00:34:11Oh.
00:34:12Sounds like a lot of fun.
00:34:14I got mine out.
00:34:19Get peppermint.
00:34:21Peppermint soothes.
00:34:22Also, raw honey.
00:34:24Just put some on your lymph nodes.
00:34:26Like this.
00:34:30Does your dad know you're here?
00:34:33Does your dad know you're here?
00:34:35Excuse me?
00:34:36No, that's not really the question.
00:34:37Mom...
00:34:38Stop.
00:34:39No, don't tell me to stop, Allison.
00:34:41I don't...
00:34:42I don't know why Tavi's here in the middle of the day
00:34:44with Strange Man, but I...
00:34:46Bye.
00:34:47What?
00:34:48Tavi is not a she.
00:34:49She's a they.
00:34:50What?
00:34:51Tavi is not a she.
00:34:52She's a they.
00:34:53What?
00:34:54Tavi is not a she.
00:34:55She's a they.
00:34:56That's not what we're talking about right now.
00:34:57Oh, my...
00:34:58She's...
00:34:59She's...
00:35:00Your friend is here in the middle of the day
00:35:01with some Strange Man.
00:35:02Do you have a backyard?
00:35:03Sorta.
00:35:04Can you see it?
00:35:05Here it is.
00:35:06Do you dig that?
00:35:07No.
00:35:08Do you have a backyard?
00:35:13Sorta.
00:35:14Do you see it?
00:35:15There.
00:35:26Here it is.
00:35:31Do you dig that?
00:35:33No.
00:35:38Want a glass of water or something?
00:35:48No.
00:35:50Thanks.
00:35:51I'm just...
00:35:53This hole just reminds me of another hole that I totally forgot about.
00:36:01Okay.
00:36:02Tell me all about it inside.
00:36:05Let's pledge allegiance to the sand, which stands but lays in a dance.
00:36:22One.
00:36:26Turn it to rock.
00:36:30Turning rock.
00:36:33Turn the rock.
00:36:36Turn the rock.
00:36:38Turn the rock.
00:36:41Turn the rock.
00:36:42Turn the rock.
00:36:43Turn the rock.
00:36:44Turn the rock.
00:36:45Turn the rock.
00:36:46Turn the rock.
00:36:47Turn the rock.
00:36:48Turn the rock.
00:36:49Turn the rock.
00:36:50Turn the rock.
00:36:51Turn the rock.
00:36:52Turn the rock.
00:36:53Turn the rock.
00:36:54Turn the rock.
00:36:55Turn the rock.
00:36:56Turn the rock.
00:36:57Turn the rock.
00:36:58Turn the rock.
00:36:59Turn the rock.
00:37:00Turn the rock.
00:37:01Turn the rock.
00:37:02Turn the rock.
00:37:03Turn the rock.
00:37:04Turn the rock.
00:37:05Turn the rock.
00:37:06Turn the rock.
00:37:07Turn the rock.
00:37:08Turn the rock.
00:37:09Turn the rock.
00:37:10Turn the lock.
00:37:34Yeah, it's weird when that happens, those gaps.
00:37:37When one thing reminds you of another thing.
00:37:43Yeah, I'm trying not to be superstitious about them anymore.
00:37:50Same.
00:37:57What was the hole?
00:38:00Oh, one I tripped in.
00:38:02It was retarded.
00:38:04I mean, stupid.
00:38:07Like, um, psychedelics?
00:38:10No, I sprained my ankle.
00:38:12Oh, damn.
00:38:13Yeah.
00:38:14It's okay, I put tape on it.
00:38:16Yeah, that's what I did when I sprained my wrist.
00:38:20Hmm.
00:38:23It took me like four months to get these movements back.
00:38:26Sorry, did I cut you off?
00:38:31Um, my last conversation analysis, I kept cutting my partner off.
00:38:38A lot of guys do that.
00:38:40Yeah.
00:38:41I didn't make eye contact in mine.
00:38:45Well, that's a big one for honesty, right?
00:38:49Mm, yeah, apparently.
00:38:51I've never really done eye contact, but I guess I've never really been that honest either.
00:38:58I don't know.
00:38:59I don't know.
00:39:00Whatever.
00:39:01Huh.
00:39:02You're making my eye contact now.
00:39:03Yeah, thanks.
00:39:04I've been trying.
00:39:05Every couple seconds.
00:39:06Yeah, feels natural.
00:39:08Sit here.
00:39:09All right.
00:39:10All right.
00:39:35Let's go.
00:40:05So, we need to arrive at a sequence.
00:40:15That's an agency pair.
00:40:35What's your password?
00:40:57And, uh, door logs?
00:40:59Door logs?
00:41:05Like, door logs?
00:41:06One word.
00:41:07Here we go.
00:41:08Here we go.
00:41:09Here we go.
00:41:11Here we go.
00:41:13Here we go.
00:41:43Here we go.
00:41:50Here we go.
00:41:53Here we go.
00:41:55Here we go.
00:41:57They say, Lord, I can't do nothing.
00:42:06They will see you never see me.
00:42:11They will see you never see me.
00:42:13I cannot feel that you see me.
00:42:20These people are living in their world.
00:42:24I don't know if I'm going to get rid of it
00:42:34I don't know if I'm going to get rid of it
00:42:42Shit, it's almost five. I gotta start dinner
00:42:47Tabby's probably home. Did you hear the door?
00:42:50Tabby
00:42:54Oh
00:43:04Tab!
00:43:12Oh, you're home
00:43:15Hi Dad
00:43:18We added sand to the walls
00:43:20Yeah
00:43:24I'm Keith
00:43:26Tabby's Dad
00:43:27Hi
00:43:29I'm Julian
00:43:30It's like outside but inside
00:43:35We met before?
00:43:37Um...
00:43:39I don't think so
00:43:42I saw Julian fall on the sidewalk
00:43:44Uh-huh
00:43:52Are you staying for dinner?
00:43:57Uh...
00:43:59If you're offering?
00:44:01Sure
00:44:02What's up?
00:44:03Uh...
00:44:05Uh...
00:44:07My daughter moved all this furniture around
00:44:09I always rearrange my room
00:44:11Yeah...
00:44:12Yeah...
00:44:13Uh...
00:44:14Uh...
00:44:15Uh...
00:44:16My daughter moved all this furniture around
00:44:20I always rearrange my room
00:44:23Yeah...
00:44:26I set the table
00:44:28Uh...
00:44:30I set the table
00:44:33Wow, that's so nice
00:44:35Yeah, I don't...
00:44:36I don't know, um...
00:44:37If I did it the way that you guys do it, but...
00:44:40I won't be offended if you move things around or anything
00:44:44Oh, that's great
00:44:45Thank you
00:44:50Just need, um...
00:44:52Napkins...
00:44:55And one extra seat
00:45:00Your wife?
00:45:03You've got a constitutional right to receive dental care in prison
00:45:08Yeah, I like that
00:45:10Behind your ear?
00:45:11Every prisoner should have access to at least basic dental care
00:45:15Oh, you'd mark her
00:45:17But these prison dentists just peel your teeth instead of repairing them
00:45:22So when you leave prison, everyone's staring at you because you have no teeth
00:45:29But they didn't treat the gum disease or any of the other deadly shit floating around in your mouth
00:45:34And now you're fighting multiple health battles on top of a major no teeth stigma
00:45:39Can we switch it?
00:45:41Yeah
00:45:42Walk into any thrift store in the world and you'll see every person working there has no teeth
00:45:46I feel confident saying that because a lot of my friends that did time now work in thrift stores
00:45:52And they'll actually hire you
00:45:54Do you want me to choose?
00:45:55No, I got it
00:45:56Do you want me to choose?
00:45:57No, I got it
00:45:59Do you want me to choose?
00:46:01Do you want me to choose?
00:46:03No, I got it
00:46:04No, I got it
00:46:05I hope I have my key.
00:46:35You know, there it is.
00:46:50What are you going to do tonight?
00:46:52I don't know.
00:46:55Yeah?
00:46:57Why don't you take a shower?
00:47:02Yeah.
00:47:03That would be good.
00:47:10So, Julian is Tavi's teacher?
00:47:17I don't know.
00:47:19How does she know him?
00:47:23That's around here, I guess.
00:47:26Oh.
00:47:28Can I tell you this text?
00:47:35Sure.
00:47:36I think she's mad.
00:47:39She's busy.
00:47:40Yeah, she's busy and she's mad.
00:47:43Why would she be mad?
00:47:45I don't know.
00:47:46I made a dumb joke the other day.
00:47:51She's not mad.
00:47:52She's busy.
00:47:53Okay.
00:47:54Yeah.
00:47:55Sorry.
00:47:56No.
00:47:57Don't be sorry.
00:47:58I get it.
00:47:59I blocked all my contacts.
00:48:00Oh, yeah.
00:48:01Yeah.
00:48:02I had to.
00:48:04Maybe I will take a shower.
00:48:09Do it.
00:48:11Showers rule.
00:48:13How'd she go this-
00:48:30iana,ya.
00:48:32How'd she go this-
00:48:36I don't know.
00:49:06I don't know.
00:49:36I don't know.
00:50:06I don't know.
00:50:36I don't know.
00:51:06I don't know.
00:51:36I don't know.
00:51:38I'm just getting water.
00:51:40Oh, good.
00:51:42No, me too.
00:51:46You have chips?
00:51:52I don't know.
00:51:54I'm very old.
00:51:55I found them in the pantry.
00:51:58Hmm.
00:52:00Are you okay?
00:52:02Yeah.
00:52:04You look sweaty.
00:52:06I did some jumping jacks.
00:52:10Hmm.
00:52:14Okay.
00:52:16Good night, Dad.
00:52:18I don't know.
00:52:28I don't know.
00:52:30I don't know.
00:52:32I don't know.
00:52:34I don't know.
00:52:38I don't know.
00:52:40...
00:52:44habΓa ΠΏΠ΅ΡΠ΅ΠΆΠΈΠ²at.
00:52:46What?!
00:54:48Are you going to shower?
00:54:55No.
00:55:01Me neither.
00:55:02Dad?
00:55:05Dad?
00:55:08Dad?
00:55:08Dad?
00:55:26Dad?
00:57:26Do you have a knife or a shovel?
00:57:34I'm feeling pretty good today.
00:57:36I am too, actually.
00:57:38I like the raisin exercise.
00:57:42Yeah, it was alright.
00:57:43I just don't like raisins in my chili.
00:57:46They're fine.
00:57:47It's not my chili.
00:57:49Yeah, I never heard of that.
00:57:50What's up?
00:58:00Do you want Carol on her knees to make her look shorter?
00:58:04It's fine.
00:58:06Carol, would you mind getting on your knees since his daughter's shorter?
00:58:09Sure.
00:58:21Should we start?
00:58:24Yes.
00:58:24So, Tavi, I wanted to talk to you about this before I spoke to your dad.
00:58:33Okay.
00:58:34What is it?
00:58:35You know how I had to go away for a couple of weeks to work?
00:58:39Yeah.
00:58:39Well, I loved being away.
00:58:44I contact Keith.
00:58:46Not from you, of course, but from your dad.
00:58:49He's such a burden, don't you think?
00:58:52Yeah.
00:58:54All of his problems are so annoying.
00:58:59I don't even get what he has.
00:59:02I'm so sick of worrying about him.
00:59:04Me neither.
00:59:06You know, ordinary people can eat a little too much, drink a little too much, have a day
00:59:12that's not exact, and they don't have to go crazy.
00:59:17He's really very messed up.
00:59:19I'm glad I came out normal.
00:59:22Sometimes I think it's just an excuse to be lazy and not make any money.
00:59:30Yeah, he doesn't do anything all day.
00:59:32He's messing up our lives.
00:59:35Yeah, I hate him.
00:59:38And I met someone who makes a lot of money and doesn't have any of these issues.
00:59:46He's easygoing and famous.
00:59:49Wow, cool.
00:59:50I love famous people.
00:59:53So, we should leave your dad and move in with this guy instead, right?
00:59:59Yeah, definitely.
01:00:00When?
01:00:02Later, when your dad's sleeping.
01:00:04Yeah.
01:00:05I don't want to say bye to him.
01:00:07Oh, me neither.
01:00:08He'd probably cry.
01:00:09Yeah, he's such a loser.
01:00:13Such a loser.
01:00:14Yeah, he won't even beat up the creep that's been following me.
01:00:18Because he's pathetic.
01:00:19I'll call the hospital now.
01:00:23Well, I'm so excited.
01:00:25Does my new dad have enough money to take us to Hawaii?
01:00:27Oh, definitely.
01:00:29Yay!
01:00:30I don't want to see dad ever again.
01:00:32Oh, well, you won't have to.
01:00:33They don't allow children in these psych hospitals.
01:00:35Yeah, I'll just pretend he never existed.
01:00:37That's just what I was thinking.
01:00:43Keith D., I am a representative from Swords, a psychiatric hospital in Portales.
01:00:49You have been signed for, and you will live there from now on.
01:00:53Your family did not want to see you before you left, so you'll come with me now.
01:01:05Let's take a quick five-minute recess, and we'll be right back for process.
01:01:16Suds?
01:01:16Uh, eight.
01:01:19I don't know.
01:01:208.5?
01:01:21I think it's 8.7 now.
01:01:24Kind of freaking out.
01:01:26Good.
01:01:27Good.
01:01:28Why don't we have a seat back on the mat, and we'll work on that, okay?
01:01:43Do you want to have a seat over here, and we'll work on that?
01:01:46Okay?
01:01:47All right?
01:01:50Use your resources to lower them down, okay?
01:01:55Try to get it to a five.
01:01:58Meditate.
01:01:59Listen to music.
01:02:01You know the resources that are good for you.
01:02:07Good work.
01:02:07Good work.
01:02:08Good work.
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01:03:35Wow.
01:03:43What you can't say.
01:03:45What you can't say.
01:03:47What you can't say.
01:03:49What you can't say.
01:03:53Fuck you, Keith.
01:03:55Some of us come here and do the work and do all the worksheets and play by the rules.
01:04:03You just come here and do whatever you want and you always have to be the center of attention.
01:04:10Why do you even come here, man?
01:04:12I just want to validate that it's really brave to do an exposure in general.
01:04:22It's fucking bullshit.
01:04:24I have to agree.
01:04:26And even though it may seem like it makes it worse, you are handling it.
01:04:34This is you.
01:04:36And Elena.
01:04:38I feel like I'm making it happen!
01:04:50Yeah, one thing that struck me, the first time they went actually down into this cave,
01:05:02I had to stay behind because I was having a back issue.
01:05:04So I was just in the van listening in on everything.
01:05:08But I was able to go down at a later date and the thing that struck me was that the size of the sound that they were able to get from these...
01:05:18I don't think I have a long and the size of the sound of me is like you.
01:05:39So let's look at the size of the sound of the sound of the sound of the sound...
01:05:46I am not having this conversation with you, Max.
01:06:03Because you know I'm right.
01:06:04It's true.
01:06:05You're so addicted to this celebrity culture,
01:06:06you actually believe these donations.
01:06:08Like, it's a classic move.
01:06:09They do it to make the fans happy.
01:06:10Donate.
01:06:13Oh, look.
01:06:14It's Tabby.
01:06:15Tabby!
01:06:19Who is she with?
01:06:19I don't know.
01:06:20Wait.
01:06:20Don't look up the seat.
01:06:26Look.
01:06:26Move.
01:06:27Shh.
01:06:28Look, I got to fill up this tank,
01:06:29and we got to go get these paper towels for Ma.
01:06:32Who is that?
01:06:36Who is that old man?
01:06:39With everyone, person, plan, everything.
01:06:45Like, would you have a uniform or not is probably the question.
01:06:50I, I wouldn't have a name, and...
01:06:57Come on, Tabby!
01:07:02Come on!
01:07:03Get away from my friend, you sicko!
01:07:05Get in the car.
01:07:15You get in the car.
01:07:20You?
01:07:23Shame on you!
01:07:27I'm full.
01:07:28I'm sorry.
01:07:58Are you okay?
01:08:00Hmm.
01:08:03Do you know where your mom and dad are?
01:08:05Neither one of your parents are answering.
01:08:10Do you think their mom and dad are home?
01:08:14Is this something that happened all the time?
01:08:24Is your mom still on set?
01:08:26Yeah, and dad's probably a group.
01:08:30Are you still doing that?
01:08:32It doesn't just go away.
01:08:33Okay, then it's Saturday.
01:08:35You can't do that through the week.
01:08:37I'm sorry.
01:08:38I'm sorry.
01:08:39I'm sorry.
01:08:53Hey, how's it going?
01:09:08Can't complain.
01:09:11I, uh, was just wondering if you guys are hiring right now.
01:09:18We are.
01:09:22You are?
01:09:23Yep.
01:09:30Wow.
01:09:32Great.
01:09:34Got a resume?
01:09:36Yeah.
01:09:37Yeah.
01:09:38Here.
01:09:43But I should just let you know that I was recently incarcerated.
01:09:51The important thing is that you flip the sign.
01:09:58People forget to flip the sign and then everyone thinks we're closed.
01:10:01Uh, that's important.
01:10:14Yes, it is.
01:10:17Thanks.
01:10:18How do you meet that guy?
01:10:30I saw him.
01:10:32Where?
01:10:34Over there.
01:10:36How could I have known that?
01:10:51Of course I'm with her now.
01:10:53Hey, you just talked to her.
01:10:54I can't do anything right.
01:10:56Tavi.
01:11:03It's your mom.
01:11:04I'm fine.
01:11:14Why are you crying?
01:11:17I'm fine.
01:11:20I don't want to talk to you right now.
01:11:22Yeah, Liz, I'll call you back, okay?
01:11:28About to do that right now.
01:11:31I'm sitting right here.
01:11:33I'll call you after.
01:11:34Okay, I'm hanging up now.
01:11:38Goodbye, okay?
01:11:39I'll call you later.
01:11:43Ah, Tav.
01:11:46No one's mad at me.
01:11:48No, no.
01:11:51No one's mad at you.
01:11:52You did nothing wrong.
01:11:53You did...
01:11:55nothing wrong.
01:11:57We just want to know about this guy, you know?
01:12:01Like, we don't know him.
01:12:04I don't know anything about him.
01:12:06No?
01:12:07So, it's kind of weird.
01:12:12We love you.
01:12:13I love you.
01:12:13You're my fucking kid.
01:12:15Do you know what that means?
01:12:17You're like...
01:12:19You're like the only thing in the world
01:12:22I'm really fucking proud of.
01:12:27So, I want to keep you safe.
01:12:30And it's kind of weird.
01:12:32Like, we don't know what you've been doing with this guy, you know?
01:12:35It's kind of weird.
01:12:36Like...
01:12:36We just like each other.
01:12:40Oh.
01:12:51Let's just calm down a second.
01:12:54Have you guys...
01:13:07been...
01:13:13touching?
01:13:16What?
01:13:16Has he touched you?
01:13:17Mm-hmm?
01:13:18Yeah.
01:13:20What?
01:13:25Fucking piece of shit.
01:13:26He's not a piece of shit.
01:13:28Tavi...
01:13:30I need you to understand...
01:13:32it is not...
01:13:34okay...
01:13:35for someone to touch you...
01:13:37without your permission.
01:13:38We've just been touching like this.
01:13:41We've just been touching like this.
01:13:50Okay, well...
01:13:53Uh...
01:13:54as...
01:13:57as he touched you here...
01:13:58as he touched you here...
01:14:05or here...
01:14:10and made you touch him?
01:14:11No.
01:14:13Just here.
01:14:14The contrary...
01:14:17to...
01:14:18in, on...
01:14:20with...
01:14:22You...
01:14:23You...
01:14:26The way back is...
01:14:27the road is...
01:14:29What is the...
01:14:30The way back is that...
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01:14:32is...
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