One Last Last Last Hoorah at The Chinese Buffet: May 7, 2018

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Amberlynn has come to the realization that over the past two weeks the weight loss journey was unsuccessful. The only silver lining is that she’s putting thought into action regarding contacting a professional for help, which professional that will be, she’s not sure yet, so until then, she’s going to the Chinese buffet. She has Beck record her eating ice cream while wishing there was a park they could park at instead of the commercial parking lot. They take us into Kroger to get a few things and plan to go to Walmart for a few more items. She picks up a new brand of drink and instead of getting one of both flavors, she gets three of each, not knowing if she likes them or not.  They go home and watch some American Idol before going back out to get more food at Walmart. We get a counter haul and find out what today’s last meal will be.

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00:00Hey guys! I'm pretty sure today is day 14. It's pretty sad that in 14 days I haven't made any

00:09progress when it comes to my weight but I want people to know that I feel like in these 14 days

00:15I have grown a lot more mentally I feel like because before it was always just a thought in

00:21my head oh I'm gonna see a therapist or a dietitian or a nutritionist that was always just thoughts in

00:28my head I never took the step to do it hey I'm a mukbang channel and I've gained 125 pounds

00:34but the fact that I contacted my doctor about it she gave me a place that I can call so I can look

00:45around myself and find someone who suits me and the fact that I'm gonna be calling tomorrow I feel

00:50like that's a really big step so I am very happy if that's all that I've gotten out of these two

00:56weeks and also I feel like I've gotten a chance to kind of show you guys how I really truly do

01:03struggle constantly just on a day-to-day basis I gained 3.6 pounds of chips and ice cream those

01:09times where you guys are like how come you're not talking about your weight how come you're not

01:13weighing in are you still on track like this is usually what is happening but I never talk about

01:18it I never speak about it but here I am talking about it speaking about it just facing up to my

01:24disorder just my food in general a really good example of that is today I was supposed to start

01:29a new plan completely fresh my head is telling me why not just start it tomorrow have one last hurrah

01:35today have one last hurrah today and it's as if I constantly have one last hurrah when is that

01:40gonna stop even though I'm talking to you guys right now and I'm like I know I shouldn't have a

01:44last hurrah I'm still gonna have a last hurrah I get a lot of hate when I talk about this but this is

01:49the way my mind works and this is exactly what I'm going to be telling a therapist or a dietitian

01:55nutritionist whatever I end up seeing I want to tell them this is what I deal with every day I am

02:00completely a food will never leave me alone because it's not like I am an alcoholic and I just tell

02:06myself okay I'm never gonna touch alcohol again because I still have to eat that's how you survive

02:11even if I sit down and I eat something healthy like carrots that's a trigger to me a lot of people ask me

02:16what is your trigger food everything lettuce because it's crunchy carrots everything is a trigger

02:22food for different reasons it's super annoying I literally could be eating like the healthiest

02:27meal in front of me a freaking plain chicken breast and that's a trigger no matter what is put in my

02:33mouth no matter what food is put in my mouth it triggers me because that's like an alcoholic okay

02:39well um how about I'm just allowed beer but I'm not allowed vodka okay I'll just have a little bit of

02:44beer but no vodka so they take a sip of beer it's gonna trigger them to want the vodka it's just

02:49how it is and it sucks because food can't just completely quit it and I know there's gonna be a

02:55lot of haters who are like yeah you can just eat you need to it's healthier than what you're doing now

03:00trust me been around the block um I just I eat you can't because it's just as unhealthy as what I'm

03:06doing now it's not worse because I feel like if I literally didn't for a month I would be dead let's be

03:11wrong I'm actually gonna be going to a Chinese buffet the buffet that I wanted to go to yesterday

03:15but I didn't get to go to because it was raining um it's winning it's winning today but I promise

03:23you guys I swear I really want to do this new plan and see if it works for me I really really do

03:27so we just uh wait wait wait what we just um ate at the Chinese buffet and now I'm having ice cream

03:41my hand shaking why is it shaking I don't know okay yeah um I got jamoka jamaica me crazy

03:56jamoka me crazy jamoka me crazy baby yeah um so yeah that's what I'm doing

04:04this is what we do and it feels pretty good out here like it's kind of warm but it's like not

04:13unbearable and um I don't know it feels pretty nice I wish there was like a park around here but

04:19there's not um which sucks but it'd be nice to just sit out at a park and chillax

04:26well there are parks but they're kind of like good driving distance

04:33our ice cream would melt by then yeah I wish I would have gotten a smaller size drive

04:41yeah yours would melt especially because you had a smaller one than I did

04:46which I should have got that size because I'm over it I'm over it already no

04:56you guys it stormed two days in a row and now I feel like it's going to again

05:03it's like super dark right there jeez anyways we're at kroger because we have to pick up a few

05:11things um I just have a little list Becky and I both do just some things that we need so

05:19there's literally two things I have to get now oh only two yeah peppers and cucumbers

05:23oh I think I have like five can I slip into this slip into this yes you can slip in a little lingerie

05:33outfit

05:33okay I did it yay I did it I did it I did it yay

05:43what I'm no door to explore okay boots these boots are made for walking that's just what they do

05:56I'm the map I'm the map I'm the map me and you like took that completely in two different two

06:01different ways there okay relationship goals oh my god it's warm all right we're gonna head

06:11into the store catch up with you guys I'll show you guys what we get I guess look at these cutting

06:17boards at Kroger get your fruit on that design is so cute in the colors and then this one says

06:23tropical feeling I like both but I definitely like this one more it's so adorable

06:28so cute yeah that definitely looks like something that you'd like

06:34yeah you're really into like sun stuff huh yeah okay so the two things that Becky needs she said

06:43she just wants to get from Walmart and also I wanted to get some premier shakes but the ones

06:47that they have here at Kroger are super expensive so I'm just going to show you food wise and drink

06:52wise what um we're getting from here so I just got some Sarah Lee 100% whole wheat bread only 60

07:01calories per slice these are hint waters that I've heard a lot of people talk about they're not

07:06sparkling so I hate sparkling water so so I got three of the watermelon ones and three of the blackberry

07:12ones I got some sugar-free red raspberry preserves which is jelly obviously I also got elderflower and rose

07:21lemonade I don't know figured I'd give it a try it's 90 calories Becky got some sweet leaf green tea

07:28and some half tea and half lemonade down here I got two things of citrus herb rub salmon this stuff is

07:37great a box of maple and brown sugar oatmeal I don't really care for oatmeal this I can deal with

07:43and I got two of these garlic and chicken spring rolls I love these but they don't have them at Walmart

07:47so I got two just to stock up so I was right it is thundering and lightning so freaking bad

07:57um so that's unfortunate I'm actually kind of scared to be honest look at it it's like pretty

08:05but like scary like I wish I was home then I wouldn't be as scared I don't think

08:10but I freaking knew it did you guys see that

08:17oh my god I caught it on camera that's crazy

08:23so just a little update um we've been home for a little bit and I'm just catching up on some

08:31American Idol I'm on episode eight and so far I think 15 episodes have aired you guys I love

08:37American Idol I've watched it every single season except for like one possibly two and I just get

08:42really like into it and pumped and like let's do this thing so when they canceled it I cried I cried

08:47a lot and now that it's back I'm like yes I was very eerie about the three judges but I actually

08:53love all three of them now they're very good together and it's funny it's entertaining it's

08:58great I'm just watching it on Hulu commercials going through so yay you guys need to watch it it's

09:06great stuff we just got back from Walmart and I didn't film there my initial reasoning for going

09:11was to get some premier protein so I got it in chocolate and one and a banana cream these are

09:16only 160 calories which is great I'm gonna keep them in the fridge but I'm gonna put them on ice

09:20when I actually do drink them because I like them cold cold also got some dark chocolate coconut pure

09:26protein bars which I've never had that Becky got a movie I also got these these are protein bars I've

09:31never even heard of before they're called one so I got almond bliss birthday cake and peanut butter

09:36pie I got some broom spray and papaya passion this smells so good four candles cranberry mandarin

09:43blue hyacinth I'm sure I pronounced that so wrong but it smells good who cares what it's called purple

09:49sand peach and mango I got some pico de gallo that I'm actually gonna be eating with some of these

09:55roasted vegetable malty green um not tonight but like tomorrow two bell peppers two cucumbers and tonight

10:03like I said my last hurrah I got some almond joy I haven't had these in forever I hated them as a

10:09little girl but I love them now for dinner Becky and I are gonna have some hamburger helper loved this

10:14as a little girl that's just was a go-to when I was living with my parents I got a dr pepper and a

10:19sprite zero so that is everything hamburger helper I got my soda got my candy and Becky and I are about

10:28to watch a movie we're actually about to watch Dennis the Menace

10:30he's only a boy huh

10:54so I want to end this vlog but I want to let you guys know that tomorrow there will be a way in

11:01I'm super scared and tomorrow's the first day on a new plan get pumped anything that bad that

11:06happened over the weekend or over the week it's a fresh new day fresh new week clear your mind

11:11and be positive anyways I'm gonna go hope you guys enjoyed this video and I'll see you next one bye

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