Behind The Smile

Transcript

00:00You see me smile, but you don't see what it cost me.

00:14When did that smile first feel like a mask?

00:18There was one video I filmed it, said all the right words, but after the cut I burst into tears. No one saw that part.

00:25What is the hardest thing hiding behind that smile?

00:34Loneliness. I am surrounded by fans and likes, but late at night the silence is deafening. Doubts. Am I enough? Echoes until sunrise.

00:47Tell me about a moment you thought you could not go on.

00:49Last winter, I cancelled plans just to push out one more video, after filming I stood in front of the mirror, stared at my reflection, I broke.

01:02What helped you keep going?

01:07Writing in a journal. No one reads it, but it sussed its honesty on paper, or singing to myself in empty rooms. It reminds me I am still me.

01:20Have you ever thought of just quitting?

01:25Yes, several times, but then a message comes. Your vulnerability helped me today. That is why I smile for you, and because it means something.

01:38What do you wish people understood behind your smile?

01:45That smiling does not mean I am fine. It means I am trying. And if I can feel this deeply, so can you.

01:55I smile for you, but I live for this truth. What is hiding behind your smile?

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