00:00When I went into the NFL, I had a lot of imposter syndrome.
00:02I felt like I never belonged.
00:04Like coaches, players, everyone told me that I didn't belong.
00:06So I had to overcome that.
00:07And, you know, I did the conventional thing.
00:09I did therapy, all that stuff.
00:11And I'm even, I'm not proud of it, but I've even gone left and, you know, self-medicated
00:15and did all that stuff.
00:17But none of that stuff helped.
00:19And I think it was when, and I was, like, honestly, I was embarrassed.
00:22I was embarrassed where I came from.
00:24I was embarrassed about my upbringing.
00:25I felt ashamed.
00:26I didn't want to tell people that I was trafficked.
00:28I didn't want to tell people, I grew up in foster care.
00:30I didn't want to tell people, like, anything.
00:32I just wanted to go to work, put my helmet on, play the game, collect my checks and go
00:36home.
00:37But ultimately, like, I dealt with some issues within myself that I hadn't dealt with.
00:40And it was presenting itself in other ways within my marriage, within my community and
00:45all these different things.
00:46And it wasn't until I started being more vocal about my upbringing and using my life as a
00:53means of inspiration and motivation for my communities and the kids that I'm mentoring
00:58that I started to see some growth and some healing in my mental health.
01:02Because not only did it allow me to own it, it also gave other people that I was communicating
01:08the platform and the confidence to be able to express what they're going through.
01:14It might not be the same, but everyone, we all go through some stuff.
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