00:00It took me a while only because I didn't know how to go about the process of getting myself
00:06diagnosed because we're living in a country that although we have access to it, we don't
00:12have exposure to it. I was aware of my ADHD symptoms without having a name for it since
00:22I was very young. So I knew that I was not typical in terms of the way I behaved or the
00:29way that I was bringing myself amongst people in a social setting. But I didn't really have
00:38a name for it until I had access to the computer since I was like maybe 13. So I was on at that
00:46time it was like I think it was like Yahoo or some sort of platform that wasn't Google.
00:52And I think the first sort of realization or revelation was when I had seen sort of a website
01:03that had all the symptoms that I was having. I was very forgetful. My attention span was
01:09running between, you know, 10 different things. I was always multitasking. I was always impatient.
01:17Um, and I was always forgetting to do things that were like deadlines and stuff like that
01:26was not very good for me. I didn't have a good concept of time, meaning, you know, some people
01:32can feel the passing of time. But for myself, it's like, I can't feel it. I can't feel two hours go.
01:38It's almost as if the concept of time isn't something that I could grasp. So I was either very early or
01:44very late. Um, and then I was always demotivated until the last minute where, you know, you have
01:52that sense of urgency. And so when it was all listed down, I knew from the get go that this
01:59somehow was, they were talking about me in that article. Um, the problem with understanding or
02:07knowing, but not understanding is the fact that you don't know how to harness because as a
02:12neurodivergent or someone who is atypical, who's not typically processing in the same way when you
02:20don't know how to harness and how to actually take care of, um, because you have to take care of
02:25yourself differently, right? You know, you have different triggers and all that stuff. So when
02:29that happens, you don't know how to harness your, um, your, uh, what do you call that? Your
02:36strengths and you don't know how to work with your weaknesses. So you're always on that push
02:41and pull and always struggling to fit in and working in the same way as people who are not
02:47neurodivergent, who are neurotypical. Um, so that was the biggest struggle. It was pretending
02:54or masking as if I was like everybody else and having to function the way that they did and
02:59also not knowing how to function the way that I should. Um, and it took me a while only because
03:05I didn't know how to go about the process of getting myself diagnosed because we're living
03:13in a country that although we have access to it, we don't have exposure to it. So there
03:18are two different, you know, um, um, perspectives. It's like, you know, it's there, but you just
03:23don't know how to get to it.
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