00:00I was using this song as an opportunity to kind of make fun of my ex and myself.
00:05And I feel like when I made this song, a lot of cool stuff was happening music-wise,
00:09but I was also just within my personal life, like, shit is not okay right now.
00:13In a lot of my writing, I try to keep it lighter as kind of a way of coping.
00:18I don't really like making super heavy songs.
00:21I do for myself, but if I knew my ex was going to hear it, I was like,
00:25oh yeah, I'm going to talk my shit.
00:30So when I initially made Pookie's Requiem, I didn't realize how many people were really
00:38going to resonate with it.
00:39So to see that sort of reception is insane.
00:42One day I had like 3,000 followers on Instagram.
00:44And then the next, I wake up and 100,000 people are looking at what I'm doing and perceiving
00:50me.
00:50And that was just genuinely a shock to me.
00:52I'm super grateful because it also has opened doors for me to connect with people that I
00:58really love and respect and people that really fuck with the music.
01:00So that's just been a super, super beautiful experience.
01:03But I also have gone through a lot of growing pains within the past few months of just learning
01:07how to navigate it all.
01:09The most beautiful thing about it is that this song is, I guess, my letter to myself
01:13about self-healing and really just coming to terms with how that relationship changed
01:19me a bit.
01:20And so when all of that was happening, plus this song coming out and the reception of
01:24it all, it's really forced me to kind of sit down and take a self-inventory and be
01:29like, yo, this is what's important in your life.
01:32This is what's good for you.
01:33And this is how to really take care of yourself.
01:41During that time specifically in my life, I went no contact with my ex.
01:45And I was like, ooh, you know how bad that hurt.
01:48It was non-voluntary on my side.
01:51I was like, damn, you got me down bad.
01:54I'm not going to lie.
01:55But it was cool.
01:56I was coming to terms with the fact that I was like, okay, I need to get over you.
01:59Like, I need to actually live my life now.
02:01The, I'm hard to get a hold of, it was like reminding myself, like, okay, make yourself
02:06scarce.
02:07Like, why are you hitting this man up so many times?
02:09Like, girl, go get the fuck up.
02:11Oh, I'll say one thing, my requiem of a dream.
02:18To whatever bitch you got in Bushwick.
02:21This relationship, by the way, was a long distance relationship.
02:23He lived in New York.
02:24I was in Jacksonville at the time.
02:26I had an inkling that he was talking to other people, but I was just like, I was being delusional.
02:31So I was like, you know, whatever bitch you got in Bushwick, like tell her, this is what
02:35I got to say.
02:36I'm trying to poke less fun at the girl.
02:38It's more so the fact that like my ex probably replicated my entire personality to win her
02:43over.
02:44And that's like the funny part about it.
02:54The only reason why I found out that he was talking to other people was because I was
02:58following the other girl's meme page.
03:01So I'm like, let's just like send him the most niche meme I have.
03:05Something that like I would only really laugh at and like isn't inside joke type shit.
03:09Tell me why two days later I see it up on her page and I was like, yeah.
03:15Like it takes time to source and harvest these things.
03:17You know what I mean?
03:18Like that's like, that's a real love.
03:20If I send you reels, like you better watch that shit.
03:23If I send you anything, like you better watch that shit and you better like, I'm a little
03:26toxic.
03:27I'm like, don't share that shit with your friends.
03:28Like they shouldn't be laughing.
03:29You and I, we're doing this intimate thing right now.
03:32Like you better laugh at what I'm laughing at and that's it.
03:34Now you're using my humor and my music and my swag and my sweat just to, you know what
03:40I mean?
03:40Like, yo, that's my girlfriend now.
03:43Like.
03:51What I meant by the mini me line was that he is another version of me now.
03:55Like my ex is a version of me and he won her over using my swag.
04:04This is the part where I was really feeling myself.
04:09Okay.
04:09Like I was like, you know what?
04:11Like, ha ha.
04:11You know what?
04:12You, you stole everything from me.
04:14You took everything.
04:15I bet y'all get a dog and name it after me.
04:17That's how much you love me.
04:18I don't know if they actually ever did that for over.
04:21I'm a retired tweaker girlfriend.
04:23Like I genuinely don't want to know what the fuck you're on anymore.
04:27Like whoever I'm dating, I'm like, you know what?
04:29I'm just going to.
04:34In a very literal sense, I did after that breakup, like rewatch Requiem for a dream,
04:50like over and over again, just to like keep picking at scabs.
04:54I don't know.
04:54To me, I feel like Requiem is the portion of a piece of like, whether that be music
05:02or like literature or whatever that like comes at the end.
05:05This whole song was a reflection of that whole relationship.
05:08And like overall the themes of that entire film is just like addiction.
05:12Pretty much.
05:13It's just like being really, really drawn to like this other person and like not being
05:18able to like give up something, even though like, you know, it's not good for you.
05:22In another world, maybe we would have worked out whatever.
05:25This is my last piece to you.
05:27Like, this is what I have to say to you.
05:32Two things here, crying and also the feeling that love gives you sort of like an addiction
05:45to drugs.
05:45Like it's a double entendre here to where it's like, yeah, like I was crying so much
05:50like over this guy for so long, even knowing how it was going to transpire.
05:55I still went through with like that whole relationship, even though it like wasn't
05:59great.
05:59Like I knew like, okay, it just feels good.
06:02Like that instant validation.
06:03Like that's just what love gives you sometimes.
06:06And so that was that play on words there.
06:15That's just my everyday shoe for real.
06:16So that's, that's what I wear.
06:18Faizos.
06:21And I like wearing black Air Force Ones because I'm irresponsible and I get shit on my shoes
06:26all the time.
06:30That was a portion of the song where I could be vulnerable.
06:37And so vulnerability, honesty, balance it out with wit and humor and you just get a
06:44good little melting pot of emotions.
06:47Like that's how I really like to write all my music.
06:49I think that was the moment in the song where I was like, yeah, like I am not okay right
06:54now.
06:54And then let's get back into the hook.
06:56What's up, Genius?
06:58I'm Sailor from Florida's Finest.
07:01If you know, you know.
07:02Sailor.
07:03Okay.
07:04So my Finsta used to be Sailor Goon and that's a play on Sailor Moon, of course.
07:10But also, okay, I'm Vietnamese and a lot of my family, like we're all immigrants.
07:15And so like when that mass exodus of like people from Vietnam came over to America,
07:20like they're all sailors, especially like within my family.
07:23They're all sailors, especially like within my family.
07:26I just have hella fishermen.
07:28That's how we started like here in America, I guess.
07:30And so like I feel like that like is a nod, nod to my ancestors.
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