00:00right number two you are struggling there's no two ways about you are all
00:07over the place I think that I can push myself harder I do I don't think I've
00:14done a hundred and ten percent sometimes I overthink things I get very upset if I
00:20fail any of the DS
00:24you don't fail any the DS you fail yourself I'm kind of a perfectionist
00:31really yeah my work ethic is really high I started doing Broadway when I was like
00:39eight and then I ended up doing Disney and stuff when I was in my teen years
00:43and how was that it was stressful the infrastructure isn't really there to
00:50like help people feel anything but competitive against each other I feel
00:56like I lost a lot of choice growing up my mom she was my manager your mom was
01:03your manager as well yeah until I was 21 and I asked her to step down
01:10you stopped her I had to why I was seeking autonomy I was seeking
01:21independence but I'm sort of still uncertain if I handled it the right way
01:27so that relationship fell apart for a while did it yeah your mom it's been
01:32complex there was some financial disagreements for about a year we didn't
01:40I didn't talk to my family and where did you go from there and then I became an
01:47alcoholic do you reckon you were looking for autonomy and then when you got it
01:54you didn't know what to do with it I drank to feel less stressed out I was
02:04self-medicating but I've met my husband and when I got pregnant we decided this
02:10is a great time to just stop I've been sober eight years and I've worked
02:17through all of that truly the reasons for coming here what are they I feel
02:27very called to be here to represent like my husband and his legacy he's actually
02:33a marine veteran okay make him proud I think at the moment you're still in a
02:39phase of what's my husband gonna think as I'm doing this what are the DS
02:43thinking and that's holding you back this is your time you need to show you
02:52can do things but do it for you yes do you agree with that I agree with that
02:57stuff God
03:02I was very confused about who I was meant to be once I became an adult step
03:15I want to figure out who I am and then find an inner strength but I got to put
03:22in the work to get it
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