00:00Did you apologize to him because he got hurt?
00:02A lot of times, because I was really guilty of what I did to him.
00:07Because, aside from the fact that he had a lot of first time magical moments that he will remember,
00:21I took that from him.
00:24So, I apologized to him a lot of times,
00:28and I still feel guilty.
00:33It's like I don't have any word or effort that I can give to him to make him feel better.
00:42Because I still wanted him to be my friend.
00:47But that's the painful part, because you can't go back to that.
00:50I can't go back.
00:51But it's enough that you acknowledged what you did.
00:56You asked for forgiveness from him, sincerely.
01:00You sincerely asked for forgiveness from him, which also comes from love.
01:05You asked for forgiveness from your God,
01:09and you should also ask for forgiveness from yourself.
01:14You let go of the weight of guilt, of doubting yourself.
01:22You need to be free from that.
01:25Did you forgive Ivan?
01:27Yes, especially when we broke up, it was really messy afterwards.
01:33Because when he broke up with me,
01:40we had a common friend who became my close friend for a time.
01:48To the point that,
01:51when Chaba and I were talking,
01:54we said that we will invite Ivan as our common friend.
01:59And it turned out that they were the only ones in a relationship.
02:04I was the last one who found out.
02:07So, that's also one of the heavy things that our friendship went through.
02:14Honestly, I also don't know what happened between them when we became boyfriends.
02:23That was my first boyfriend.
02:25I don't know what happened.
02:30I was the only one who found out when we became a couple.
02:33You were the only one who found out?
02:35Yes, I was the only one who found out.
02:38Yes, you were the only one who found out.
02:40Oh, so you didn't mean to find out that they had something going on?
02:43No, because at that time, they were talking until late at night.
02:48I was surprised.
02:49So, I was thinking that they might end up sleeping together.
02:53I really didn't know that.
02:58I didn't know that they were talking.
03:00And then, as I was exploring myself,
03:08I had a chance since Cutie Pie was the new member of the choir that became his friend.
03:16This is the one we were talking about.
03:18So, my emotions were developing romantically towards him.
03:27We also had a moment where we talked for two days non-stop.
03:34Of course, we slept.
03:35And then, after that, I confessed to him, to my first boyfriend, that I like him.
03:45And then, I was surprised because he also likes me.
03:49I also saw them in a group where they were also happy.
03:55So, I was surprised.
03:58And then, I wrapped that opportunity that we became a couple.
04:01Because there was a spark, there was love.
04:07I felt it.
04:08You felt it?
04:09Yes, a different kind of love.
04:12You were able to differentiate what you felt towards him from what you felt towards the guy.
04:17Yes.
04:18It was very far.
04:19It was very far.
04:20That's why you can say, confirmed.
04:24I am a veklot.
04:26In truth.
04:27I understand you because I am also like that.
04:31I am also like that.
04:32And we were so lucky.
04:34We were able to find such good women
04:37who forced us to understand and forgive even though we hurt them.
04:43Yes, I want to ask for forgiveness from you and from all of you whom we hurt.
04:50Just because we wanted to hide, we pretended.
04:55I ask for forgiveness from you.
04:56We ask for forgiveness.
04:59Because we reached that decision in the middle,
05:02we were able to overcome the heaviness that we felt
05:06just to be able to hide here in this crazy society of ours.
05:12Sorry.
05:14Sorry.
05:16We thought it would cure us
05:20when in fact it didn't have to be cured
05:24because it wasn't painful.
05:26And thank you very much for your determination to understand and forgive us.
05:34And to you, Ivan,
05:37you were also fortunate that you heard forgiveness from the person you hurt.
05:46That's why you need to let yourself go.
05:48I felt like your heart is so heavy.
05:53It's so heavy.
05:54It's beating so much that it's sad.
05:57Your mind is so heavy.
05:58It's thinking so much that it's going to be dark.
06:01I understand you.
06:02It's so painful and difficult for you to do that.
06:04That's why you did that.
06:06But that's the lesson, right?
06:09As much as possible, as much as we can,
06:12let's not let the pain that other people forced on us
06:16become a reason for us to be in pain.
06:21Right?
06:22What's happening to you is so painful.
06:25The ending is to protect yourself from that pain
06:28that other people forced on you.
06:31As they say, hurt people hurt people.
06:35And after this, I hope
06:37let's just be more kind to everyone.
06:40Let's just be more respectful and loving.
06:44Right?
06:46If you can't accept it, at least
06:50be respectful.
06:52It's just like religion, right?
06:54Their religion is different from yours.
06:57But why are you being respectful to each other
06:59even though you are from different religions?
07:02Right?
07:03Aside from religion,
07:04we should do the same to everyone.
07:10We are not the same.
07:11We are different.
07:13Sorry, I can't hug your trip.
07:16I didn't expect you to hug my trip.
07:19But I respect you.
07:23Right?
07:24The world is a shared world.
07:26No one owns this world.
07:28Yes.
07:29So I can't hug your trip.
07:31You can't do anything.
07:32Because the gays, according to you,
07:34are a part of the world that you will move
07:36in the future.
07:38Yes.
07:44So, do you have a boyfriend now?
07:45Yes.
07:46We are together.
07:48Are you happier now?
07:49I'm happy.
07:50I'm so blessed.
07:51Oh, I'm very proud of you.
07:53I'm so happy for you.
08:06And you?
08:08You are still open to the possibility
08:10that I will find the real one.
08:15Right?
08:16After us, I never had a boyfriend.
08:21Although, late last year,
08:23I tried to go on a date.
08:24But after four months, I was ghosted.
08:26So, my love life gave me a chance.
08:31That's okay.
08:32Don't lose hope.
08:33As Rihanna said,
08:35we found love in a hopeless place.
08:37Yes.
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