00:00This is Jessica. Today she's going on her first blind date as a woman.
00:07It's been three years that I have been living life full time as a woman and life never felt so good.
00:16I'm feeling very nervous. I come across as being a very confident woman.
00:21I'm actually like shaky and shivering.
00:24Hello. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you too.
00:29How should I? No, it's fine, Jessica. I have a hairdresser appointment.
00:34Okay, Jessica. Time is up.
00:38I am very excited because today I'm going on a blind date.
00:44Hi, I'm Jessica. It's been three years that I have been living life full time as a woman and life never felt so good.
00:54To me, it's just organic being a woman. My mum, my family, my sister, they say the same.
01:01My mum watches me getting ready. She says, you are meant to be a woman.
01:08I just hope that he's going to like me and that I'm going to like him too.
01:14Hi, I go by the name of Show John. I'm an all-round creative based in Hertfordshire.
01:19I haven't been informed too much about my date thus far, but I'm excited.
01:26Hello. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you too.
01:29What's your name? I'm Show John. And you? I'm Jessica. Nice to meet you.
01:35So, Jessica, where are you from? Well, I'm originally from Brazil.
01:40Okay. But for the past 22 years, I've lived in London.
01:45It's nice to meet you. And what do you do? I'm an all-round creative actor, model, musician.
01:51Oh, cool. What about you? I do some modelling as well.
01:55I am a fashion brand ambassador to a quite large American brand.
02:02I'm 39 years old and I'm single. Throughout the years, I lived my life quite intensely.
02:11I travelled, I worked hard and I kept having surgeries.
02:17And I forgot to look after and take care of my personal life, to love someone rather than yourself.
02:27It is also very important, but I forgot about that personal side throughout the years.
02:34I don't go on dates very often.
02:36Luckily for you, you're with an experienced blind dater, so I hope you feel comfortable.
02:42Yeah, I think that I need a drink. Oh, we shall get the drinks in.
02:47I had a four-year relationship. It was an amazing experience, but it ended, we just grew apart.
02:53I wasn't what the person was expecting me to be.
02:56I kept changing year by year, month by month, having surgeries, coming back home with a different face.
03:04And it was hard for that person to cope with my changes.
03:09So it had to end, but now I'm back on the game.
03:14Thank you very much.
03:16So, Jessica, do tell me where you see your career going. Where are you going to swing the Jessica brand to?
03:25Listen, my ambition is a little bit different than yours.
03:29And at the age that I am right now, as a woman, I really want to have a family.
03:35I have a lot of love to give.
03:37I can tell, I can tell.
03:39Oh, here's the food.
03:41Do you eat red meat?
03:43I'm not at this time.
03:45What's the time now?
03:47No, no, I mean at this time when I'm working on my diet, my nutrients.
03:52My first impression was that I was meeting a nice, fun guy.
03:59And no, he's still nice, but he's just not fun.
04:03And he just keeps trying to impress me.
04:06Dating is my true self.
04:09It is not fun.
04:13I keep trying to hold myself back a bit and not disclose too much.
04:19Afraid that that will put the person off me.
04:22I don't know if he realizes that I'm a trans woman.
04:28Let's take it back a bit, because I'm really intrigued about your time in Brazil.
04:33What was it like?
04:35In Granada, it was really tough.
04:38I have always been different than other kids at school.
04:45And for that reason, I was bullied.
04:49Physically bullied, only verbally bullied.
04:52So, did you grow up in Granada itself?
04:57Yes, I'm a mental health advocate as well.
05:01So, it's one of the things that I'm known for within the Greenwich community.
05:05I put on fundraisers. I also have my own chocolate bar.
05:08I should have brought someone along to share with you.
05:10I love chocolate.
05:12Me too, me too.
05:14I do say sometimes, usually when I'm on stage, I'm the only chocolate rapper with a chocolate wrapper.
05:20Yeah.
05:22Clearly, this is a blank day.
05:25And I have been trying to get to know you.
05:28And there is a lot that you should know about me, which you don't know even half.
05:34On my social network, on my Instagram, I have nearly 7 million followers.
05:39That's like the size of a country, pretty much.
05:43I've done more than 600 television shows in 24 countries.
05:48Like I said, I'm 39 years old and I'm genuinely looking for a relationship and connection.
05:54To have a family.
05:57I mean, Jessica, I feel like you may have misunderstood me just a little piece.
06:02I just didn't try to get to know me.
06:05But I'm actually a transgender woman.
06:08And how do you feel about dating a transgender woman?
06:12I generally see a person for who they are.
06:15I don't see gender.
06:18Do you know many transgender boys have been transgender before?
06:22Did you have a relationship with one of them?
06:25But okay. And what was it like?
06:28Beautiful as many of my relationships are.
06:32You're not afraid to be judged by society?
06:35I don't care about anyone else's judgment.
06:39Well, that is you.
06:41But most of the time, they feel afraid to be in a relationship with a transgender woman.
06:45I'm afraid of being judged by family, friends, society.
06:50And a lot of them just want to have a hidden relationship.
06:53And close doors.
06:55Those men do not understand love.
06:58I am pretty sure I know or understand love.
07:02But love happens once it starts to get to know the person.
07:07Should we go?
07:09I have a hairdresser appointment.
07:12The puns.
07:14Jessica, I asked about your upbringing.
07:16And I really wanted to know about Brazil.
07:18I told you already.
07:20There's no going back now.
07:22Okay, Jessica.
07:24You know what?
07:26It's been lovely to meet you.
07:28And I really wish you all the best.
07:31Take care.
07:34Unfortunately, the date didn't go down very well.
07:37Shanzhou and I didn't have any chemistry whatsoever.
07:42Well, I believe it started off well.
07:45What did you like about Jessica?
07:47She is strong, beautiful.
07:50And when she is not having a good time, why does she let someone know?
07:55Jessica, not every man is the same.
07:59I wasn't interested in your fame.
08:02Or just your looks, which you're stunning.
08:04I'm looking for a relationship.
08:06I'm looking to get to know someone who's going to take me out and have fun with me.
08:12Hold my hand.
08:14Not for my celebrity status, but for who I am as a person.
08:19I'm still looking for love.
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