Watch last video of Former London gangster-turned-author Dave Courtney who has died aged 64

Former London gangster-turned-author Dave Courtney dies aged 64

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00:00 Well as you can all see I am in sound mind and body.

00:06 Sorry I've took the coward's way out.

00:11 Don't go racking your brains and thinking why I would tell you exactly why.

00:17 There's no woman trouble or nothing like that.

00:22 I am hurting. I am disguising a lot of pain.

00:26 I've got rapid rheumatoid arthritis which is crippling me up.

00:31 I'm having to hide the fact that I can't get up and down stairs getting out of the car.

00:36 And I'm not enjoying it at the moment. That's really it.

00:42 And I don't want to go and waste having a wicked life like I've had.

00:47 That's super. Any day I can think back on it was funny and brilliant.

00:52 And then the rest of it in pain trying not to go and end it because it will upset everyone else.

01:00 I'm not enjoying it and I don't want to.

01:04 That really is why I'm not here today.

01:08 Don't be sad. Please don't be sad.

01:13 I'm sure I've left enough people in this world

01:18 to happily stick up for Dave.

01:22 There's going to be the haters and all that. That's normally what happens.

01:25 I'll have a million people now writing books.

01:27 I was in the firm. I shagged Dave. I whatever.

01:33 You'll get loads. You'll get them trying to diss me.

01:37 They're not going to. If you can't glamorise crime law,

01:41 they're not going to allow me to roll into the history books nicely.

01:45 They'll try and scar me with something.

01:48 Just bring the people up. That's what you'll see.

01:51 Find the people who queue up and go, "Dave crossed me up," or, "Dave ran away and left me,"

01:55 or, "Dave didn't do the right thing behind the prison door."

01:58 Find them and make them stand up. You don't own any.

02:02 If they had them, they would have used them on me to hurt me over the last 30 years.

02:08 Then people might want to hurt me with the grasping and that.

02:11 It's just something that's already been proved.

02:13 You've got to realise that I did actually take the police to court after that court case.

02:18 The very next week, me and my lawyer,