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Written on 1/6/2026:

I currently feel helpless. It feels like everything I do doesn't even matter. I ask myself:

Why do these things happen to me?
Am I doing something wrong?
How long must I suffer until things change?

There's more, but these are common questions

Understandably, I am not the center of attention, nor is it my intention. However, that doesn't mean that my life, my pain, my voice, my struggles, and my grievances carry little weight.

For the people who read this description, I'm not suicidal.

I'm just... mentally exhausted,

and yet,

nobody says "thank you Chris..."
nobody asks, "how are you doing."

nobody...bat's an eye.

I had a plan for 2026...but now, I don't even care.

Don't be surprised if there's no uploads...

...and if there are, they're "mostly" just old videos.

...I just need to reassess everything. See y'all.
Transcript
00:23Hello everyone, this is Transcendent.
00:30What a journey it has been, 2025.
00:37One of the most impactful years that I've ever had, both in the real world and online
00:47in general.
00:51I'm really proud of how far I've come, not just as a human being, but also as a creator.
01:05I'm thankful for all that has happened within my life, everything, and I will not take it
01:12for granted.
01:15With that being said, I just want to give you guys a small update on this channel.
01:26All of the videos that you've seen from 2017 and above will not be deleted.
01:34And I hope that it...
01:36I'm not going to enlist them, I'll just be straight forward.
01:38I don't want to enlist them either, but if it gets to that point, then sure.
01:42But anyways, I look back at my channel and I get somewhat nostalgic for how it's evolved
01:58over time.
02:00From being this, you know, immature little kid who just wanted to play games to this mature
02:11young man who is actually knowledgeable.
02:17It's really nice, but we can't let nostalgia run us forever.
02:28As you can see, I currently have Wizard101 on the screen, so let me go more into detail.
02:40I'm going to take a step back from Sparkle.
02:48For personal reasons, of course.
02:51Sparkle will forever be one of my favorite marble popping games.
03:01But, I think it's time for me to experiment on new sources of content creation.
03:15Now you may ask, why am I playing Wizard101?
03:20Okay?
03:23Well, to be honest, that's the main game I can really play at this time.
03:29I do not have...
03:31I do have games, but I don't have the computer to play them.
03:37This entire time, I've been using a potato computer, but that's okay.
03:43My time will come.
03:47So, for the time being, I'm going to be producing Wizard101 content.
03:52I'm mostly going to focus on PvE, but I might do some other things like mini-games, you know,
04:00pet mini-game video.
04:01I thought about it, maybe some pet derby involved, because I know there's a lot going on with that.
04:11And, maybe I'll...
04:12Actually, yes.
04:14I want to also do some other stuff like, um...
04:20I guess I'll say helping people in the team-up kiosk, because I know a lot of people who are
04:28doing spellweaving,
04:29and they're trying to...
04:34They're trying to get into spellweaving, and it takes a lot of effort because of other things, you know, related
04:45to the game.
04:50So, until, you know, things have changed, and, you know, the circumstances have changed for me in the real...
04:57You know, in real life, I'm going to be playing Wizard101 for the time being.
05:01You know, I have...
05:03I want to just tell you, I have so many ideas, but what happens, you see this in the real
05:13world as well, is the people with the most ideas do not have the support they need to, you know,
05:23execute them.
05:26But, if there's one thing I've noticed about myself, I always defy the odds, whatever means necessary.
05:38I do my best to not get to that point where I can sort of just transition.
05:48But, if it gets to a point where I can't, you know, continue living with a sense of normalcy, then
05:57I have to, I guess, take matters into my own hands.
06:02And I've done it before, and I'll do it every single time.
06:10You see, this is why I do not like being in this basement, because when there is a phone call,
06:17you just cannot, you cannot ignore it.
06:23Especially, you know, when I'm recording, I just, I get a phone call in this basement, I can't, you know,
06:29I gotta stop everything, you know.
06:31Ugh.
06:33Anyways.
06:36Because now I gotta recollect my thoughts.
06:39Well, I'm just gonna get straight to the point with Wizard.
06:44This is the content you'll be seeing this year.
06:48Now, the reason I'm doing this is because, number one, I want to experiment with the channel and see what
06:54happens.
06:55And if there is support for my videos, then I'll definitely continue making them until, you know, I'll put more
07:04effort into it.
07:04But, for the most part, that's one of the reasons I'm trying to experiment.
07:10And the second reason, actually, is because I have a guild and I'm trying to, you know, sort of get
07:21people to, you know, see if they're interested in joining.
07:25I'm just, I know my choice of words aren't exactly, you know, they're not, it's not the best choice of
07:33words, but I do my best.
07:35Now, the second reason I am making this video, or why I'm going to be switching to Wizard 101 content
07:43is because I have a guild called Social Penguins and I'm trying to promote it.
07:48So, it should be very interesting, you know, I want to see what happens and I'm not going, I'm not
07:58the type of person who's just going to stop after one video.
08:01I'm going to keep uploading, uploading, uploading, but I'm not going to, I'm not going to rip my hair out
08:09over all this because this game has problems.
08:17I'll, I'll just be straight forward like that.
08:20This game has problems of its own, you know, whether it's, you know, with the community itself or it's with,
08:28you know, the choices made by the, the King's Isle, you know, the executives at King's Isle or the lead
08:34developers at King's Isle.
08:35This game is not perfect.
08:37It has problems and some of these problems I don't want to get into, but I'm not trying to focus
08:44or worry too much about those issues because,
08:48at this point, I just want to have fun and that's the thing about, you know, making content or playing
08:58video games in general.
08:59We, we tend to forget the most important thing about doing all of this is to have fun, just have
09:08fun.
09:09You know, yes, you know, put effort into it, but don't put effort into it if you're not having fun
09:15and that's, that's how you can, you know, sort of keep going.
09:21That's how I was able to keep going after all, you know, after that entire Sparkle series and that's what
09:27I intend to do with this, um, with this game going forward.
09:36So, you know, again, there's a lot, there's a lot that I have, there's a lot of ideas, but, you
09:43know, I can't execute them at this time.
09:46Maybe in the future or maybe if someone's willing to help me along this journey, I'd appreciate it, but, you
09:54know, you can't force people to do it.
09:55So, you got to step up and do it yourself because no one else is going to do it.
10:02Anyways, I'm just rambling.
10:04This is just an update.
10:06Again, I thank you guys all for the support over the last, whether it's been from over the last nine
10:13years or over the last three years or until now, you know, you're supporting me now.
10:23And let's make some memories, all right?
10:26Let us definitely make some memories.
10:29With that being said, I hope you guys enjoyed the videos that I upload and the ideas that I, you
10:38know, bring to this game.
10:41And have a wonderful 2026.
11:01Amen.

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