CTP (20260815 S4E165) FAQ with Nurse Jess Rebroadcast Dealing With Health Issues BTS/SP Video

Joseph M. Lenard

CTP (S4E165) Chronic Illness And Creative Grit We talk with nurse practitioner Jessica “Nurse Jesse” about living with chronic illness while still building a creative life from home. We get practical about pacing, mental health, AI in healthcare, and how to ask for the help you actually need.  • living with chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, IBS-D and unpredictable bad days  • pacing work around usable hours and protecting recovery time  • using simple tools like hot soaking to calm pain and stress  • building podcasts and books without overspending early  • outlining stories, saving drafts and promoting after publishing  • using AI for notes and ideas while avoiding self-diagnosis traps  • understanding OCD and ADHD as a spectrum, not a stereotype  • separating addiction from physical dependency and using meds carefully  • “mirror moment” self-reflection and dropping pride to seek help  • supporting loved ones by listening and embracing awkward conversations  • improving the patient-doctor relationship by writing questions down and speaking up  SEND US FEEDBACK: https://www.buzzsprout.com/2210487/fan_mail/new  https://tinyurl.com/SubscribeToCTP   CTP Audios: https://tinyurl.com/CTPonBuzzsprout  CTP Videos: https://tinyurl.com/CTPonBITCHUTE  https://tinyurl.com/CTPgear   https://tinyurl.com/JLenardDetroitGear   AI images/videos/audio CTP uses: https://tinyurl.com/GalaxyMagicaAI     https://tinyurl.com/BookPromotionViaFiverr   - other services: https://fiverr.com/jlenarddetroit

Transcript

00:00:00Hello, welcome to another episode of Perstitutionalist Podcast.

00:00:06I am your host, Joseph M. Leonard.

00:00:09That's L-E-N-A-R-D.

00:00:12It looks French.

00:00:13It's not.

00:00:14It's Leonard without an O.

00:00:17Thank you for tuning in, as Graham Norton used to say, on his show.

00:00:23Let's get on with the show!

00:00:26Welcome to Season 4, Episode 165, August the 15th, 2026.

00:00:37I know you've heard me say this before, this is going to be an odd episode.

00:00:42Well, yes, this is not even actually going to be one of my episodes.

00:00:48I am now airing, with permission, the episode I was on with podcaster Nurse Jessie.

00:01:01So, we had a great discussion.

00:01:05Got permission?

00:01:07Going to air that discussion here.

00:01:10Here it is.

00:01:11Hello, everybody.

00:01:12My name is Jessica.

00:01:13I'm a nurse practitioner, and I run the podcast called the Frequently Asked Questions by Nurse

00:01:18Jessie.

00:01:19Otherwise, I go to nurse practitioner, Jessica.

00:01:23And I'm here today with Mr. Joseph M. Leonard.

00:01:27So, how are you today?

00:01:29Oh, like I always say, could be better, could be worse.

00:01:33And, hey, you started off well.

00:01:34You got the name right.

00:01:36It looks French.

00:01:37It's not Leonard.

00:01:39It's Leonard without an O.

00:01:42Joseph M. Leonard, because there is a Joseph Leonard out of South Carolina, who I'm here in Michigan,

00:01:50who is also a Christian author.

00:01:53So, I need to make that distinction.

00:01:57Yep.

00:01:58Yep.

00:01:58Yeah.

00:01:58How do you get my head out?

00:01:59Well, I get emails about his books, and I have, no, wrong, wrong Joseph.

00:02:06He's Leonard.

00:02:07I'm Leonard.

00:02:08That's why I use my middle initial in there.

00:02:11I have no idea what his middle initial is.

00:02:14I've tried reaching out to him through third parties and email and even phone calls.

00:02:23Doesn't ever get back to me.

00:02:26Oh, wow.

00:02:27I think it'd be interesting to have a discussion with him, see if he ever gets any questions about my

00:02:33books.

00:02:34Yes, exactly.

00:02:36Yeah, that'd be interesting.

00:02:40Yeah.

00:02:41So, you've been living with chronic illnesses, health issues in 2001.

00:02:46Can you tell me about that?

00:02:48Yeah.

00:02:48Well, it's a long list.

00:02:51Chronic fatigue, immune dysfunction is the main one, CFIDS.

00:02:57So, yeah, immune issues, IBSD, fibromyalgia.

00:03:02I've had Bell's palsy.

00:03:04I've had cancer in 2010.

00:03:07So, I mean, that's the short list.

00:03:12Yes, oh, wow.

00:03:15Yeah.

00:03:16Oh, but I guess, well, you're still here and you're still walking and rolling.

00:03:23I'm still kicking.

00:03:24I like to joke.

00:03:25I'll hold up my green screen here.

00:03:27See, I don't know if you could see the couch.

00:03:30I'm not a hoarder, but I am a slob.

00:03:34So, I use the green screen to hide stuff.

00:03:38I'm here in my living room, my couch underneath the green screen.

00:03:43And it's like, what can I do with my health issues from my home?

00:03:48Well, I can write books.

00:03:50I can do podcasts.

00:03:52So, I'm also now a songwriter again.

00:03:57I used to write and record music.

00:03:59My dad was Ted Leonard Jr., founder of Ted Leonard Jr. and the Polka Kings.

00:04:05They had a three-record deal.

00:04:08I never got a record.

00:04:09I didn't play polka music.

00:04:12And I never – I played, you know, a little bit of country, a little bit of folk,

00:04:16a little bit of rock and a variety of stuff.

00:04:19But I never got a record deal.

00:04:21So, my equipment's long gone now.

00:04:24But now with Suno AI.

00:04:28Yeah.

00:04:29So, tinyurl.com slash JLD on Suno.

00:04:35You can find my stuff.

00:04:37So, I can write again now.

00:04:39And, of course, having actually been a musician, a singer, a songwriter in the old days, the

00:04:46old way with, you know, a blank sheet of – a blank piece of sheet music and actually having

00:04:53to write it all up.

00:04:54Oh, excuse me.

00:04:56Write it all up.

00:04:58I just came from dinner and it's coming back to haunt me.

00:05:02Oh, no.

00:05:04That ham I had for dinner.

00:05:06My apologies.

00:05:08But, yeah.

00:05:09So, now, you know, I know all that structure.

00:05:11So, even one of the songs I did recently, a cappella.

00:05:16I mean, I'm probably the only person on Suno that has an a cappella song because I know my

00:05:23a cappella from my hole in the ground, so to speak.

00:05:28I know my cappella from my age, you know what, yeah.

00:05:33Yeah.

00:05:34Yeah.

00:05:35It's so awesome.

00:05:36And you do all of this at home?

00:05:38Yeah.

00:05:38Yep.

00:05:39I do it all from home.

00:05:40Yep.

00:05:41Yeah.

00:05:42Oh, that's so great.

00:05:44You just do everything.

00:05:45Like, you write your book.

00:05:47You do your podcast.

00:05:48You write a lot of the music.

00:05:49All that stuff that I can do on my time as my health allows.

00:05:56Right.

00:05:57So, on good days, I'm able to do things.

00:06:00On my bad days, I just don't do anything.

00:06:03You just don't?

00:06:03Okay.

00:06:04Can you tell us more about those good days and bad days?

00:06:07Well, a good day is just one of those things will hit.

00:06:11You know, the fatigue or the fibro or, you know, stress or the IBSD.

00:06:18A bad day is when they all hit at once, right?

00:06:21Bam, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam.

00:06:22Yeah.

00:06:23Like, Mike Tyson pounded on my face.

00:06:26Yeah.

00:06:28And what do you do with those bad days?

00:06:30Like, you just recover?

00:06:32Just lie around.

00:06:34A lot of lying around.

00:06:36I mean, not much else you can do.

00:06:39Yeah.

00:06:40That's, like, one of the things I keep hearing a lot with my patient when I see them.

00:06:43It's, you know, managing those bad days.

00:06:47And it gets hard.

00:06:47Like, how do you balance those bad days and good days?

00:06:50Yeah.

00:06:50And there's no, like, sometimes I'm at a loss, too.

00:06:54Like, I'm trying to be encouraging, but it's not.

00:06:56There's no right or wrong answer.

00:06:58It depends on the person.

00:07:00And I always say soak in a nice hot tub for a while.

00:07:04That, you know, it helps the body to calm and reset.

00:07:08It helps with aches and pains, even if you don't have fibro.

00:07:13You know, if you're having a bad day, soaking in a hot tub is good.

00:07:16It opens up the pores.

00:07:18And, you know, so that's always good.

00:07:21That's, I think that's always good advice, no matter what your ailment is.

00:07:26Yeah, exactly.

00:07:27Yeah.

00:07:27And then when you have those good days, you're trying to do as much as you can on those days.

00:07:31Exactly.

00:07:32I cram more in.

00:07:33But that's why I can't work.

00:07:35That's why I'm on disability.

00:07:36I don't know when a good day or a bad day will be.

00:07:40I can't, I can't schedule things.

00:07:43Like, I mean, this interview, I schedule things either in the afternoon or the early evening.

00:07:49And those are usually my usable, doable hours.

00:07:55Even if I'm having a not so good, but not entirely bad day, I can still either record my own

00:08:04podcast or appear as a guest on a podcast.

00:08:08Because I do Christitutionalist.

00:08:10I think I'm pronouncing it wrong.

00:08:13My own broadcast.

00:08:15Everybody wants to call it Christitutionalist.

00:08:20And, indeed, that's why Christ is in there.

00:08:23Christ, but I pronounce it Christitutionalist.

00:08:26Kind of like the old Greek Christos.

00:08:29Yes, yes.

00:08:31It was like the old saying, you know, X-mas.

00:08:35Don't say, oh, yeah, put Christ back in Christmas.

00:08:37Yeah.

00:08:38Sorry, people.

00:08:40Christ is in Christmas.

00:08:41X-mas.

00:08:44Christos.

00:08:44Mass of the Greek.

00:08:46That's keeping Christ in Christmas.

00:08:48Yeah, exactly.

00:08:50Can you tell me more about your podcast?

00:08:55Yeah, I've always, well, said my music, so I'd always written it.

00:08:59I also always wrote stories.

00:09:02So I published my first international book, though, in 2022.

00:09:07And it became an Amazon bestseller in three categories.

00:09:11Terror Strikes Coming Soon to a City Near You.

00:09:14So in 2023, I thought, well, I'm obviously going to keep writing books, but I do that whenever, you know,

00:09:23the influence.

00:09:24I like to say I transcribe the books.

00:09:27And apologies, there was another podcaster who gave me that idea to say that.

00:09:32I used to say they flow through me, right?

00:09:35I just put them onto the page, type them onto the page.

00:09:39But transcription, she said, she does, too.

00:09:43It's like from wherever they come, they flow through me.

00:09:47I type them on.

00:09:48But I do that whenever the influence or the, you know, the motivation, the inspiration is the word I'm looking

00:09:58for.

00:09:59Hits me.

00:10:00But a podcast.

00:10:01So I started one, Christitutionalist Politics Podcast.

00:10:06I'd shortened it to Christitutionalist Podcast now.

00:10:10Based on the full Bible in full context, real Christianity, not Matthew 23, where you're picking and choosing things.

00:10:19But the whole thing in context and our Judeo-Christian constitutional foundations.

00:10:26So Christitutionalist.

00:10:29Okay.

00:10:30So I started.

00:10:31Yeah, yeah.

00:10:32I trademarked the term.

00:10:34I invented it.

00:10:35So you don't have left, right, Democrat, Republican, liberal, conservative.

00:10:40You're either Christian or you're not.

00:10:42But that's not true entirely.

00:10:43There are a lot of Matthew 23, fakes, frauds, vipers, snakes, blind guides, as Christ foretold we would have.

00:10:53And, boy, there's a lot of them.

00:10:55But, yeah, are you a real Christian or aren't you?

00:10:59So I started that show.

00:11:00I do Saturday monologues.

00:11:03And then on Wednesday, normally, I do a guest.

00:11:07Okay.

00:11:07But every once in a while, I'll do a whole week of shows, though, and it's like I did health

00:11:13weeks in February of last year.

00:11:15I did music weeks.

00:11:17I've done book authors weeks like I did in October 2025, most recently.

00:11:26The week that we're recording is, for the record, since I don't know when this will air, May 28th, Thursday,

00:11:34is when we're recording.

00:11:36This week, I've got a whole week of shows that were previously video exclusives that I dropped on video.

00:11:43So I can put on my 40-ish audio shows that way to have them heard and get caught up

00:11:52on them.

00:11:53I don't have to record anything new.

00:11:56I've already got it.

00:11:57I just got to put an intro and an outro on it.

00:12:00And, bam, there it is.

00:12:01There you go.

00:12:02Yeah.

00:12:04Awesome.

00:12:06Shortcuts and cheats.

00:12:08I like that.

00:12:09I know.

00:12:09Yeah, and they help us.

00:12:11Yeah.

00:12:12In fact, one of my books is –

00:12:15Let me see.

00:12:16Oh, there it is.

00:12:17Podcast.

00:12:18Podcasting Quick Start Guide.

00:12:20So if you're thinking of doing a podcast, start off slow.

00:12:24Start off inexpensively.

00:12:25Don't spend tens of thousands of dollars to make a studio in your house until you know you're good at

00:12:32it and you're going to keep doing it.

00:12:34Yeah, you're right.

00:12:36Yeah.

00:12:36What kind of advice can you give to people that want to do it?

00:12:39Well, you do need a decent camera.

00:12:43Like, I do it from my couch, as we have established, from my ugly couch.

00:12:49I'll lift up the green screen again there.

00:12:51Yeah, the ugly couch.

00:12:52Yeah.

00:12:53But, yeah, and then project an image on it.

00:12:56Usually I project other things, but we're using Google Meet, so I'm a little limited what I can project on

00:13:03my background.

00:13:04Normally on my show, I've got things in motion going, so it's a little more – you know, I'm in

00:13:10my fourth season now, so I'll try to get a little more fancy.

00:13:14And that's – you know, I discussed that in the podcasting Quick Start Guide, which isn't showing up.

00:13:22There we go.

00:13:23Podcasting Quick Start Guide.

00:13:26Okay.

00:13:26You know, start off slow.

00:13:28Oh, I had a plain background, and I got a more fancy image, and now I'm on full video behind

00:13:35me on my show.

00:13:37So, you know, invest as you go.

00:13:41Don't spend it a lot.

00:13:42But I forgot the question.

00:13:44I forgot where we were going with this.

00:13:46Yeah, I know.

00:13:47We were talking about podcasting.

00:13:49I was just letting it go, but this is awesome.

00:13:52Where can I get this book?

00:13:55All my books are available on Amazon.

00:13:59TinyURL.com slash JLD, Joseph Leonard Detroit.

00:14:05I'm in the Detroit area, so JLD initials on Amazon.

00:14:11They're all there, and a few of them are indeed Amazon Kindle exclusives.

00:14:18Audiobooks are available there also for many of my books.

00:14:22Or you could go to, if you're in the U.S., some of my books are available in print, autographed

00:14:31copies.

00:14:32Terrorstrikes.info slash shop.

00:14:35That's terrorstrikes.info slash shop.

00:14:38Based on my first international book.

00:14:42Sorry, yeah.

00:14:44Terrorstrikes.

00:14:44Not working with the green screen too well.

00:14:47There we go.

00:14:48Terrorstrikes coming soon to a city near you.

00:14:51That's a full novel.

00:14:52like the podcasting

00:14:54book is really thin

00:14:56I'll wiggle it you can see

00:14:58it kind of thin

00:15:00but I want to keep that's part of the point

00:15:02I want to keep your cost down

00:15:04making the point

00:15:06keep your cost down when you're

00:15:08first starting same thing goes

00:15:10for writing a book

00:15:12I've got how to oh hey that one's

00:15:14actually showing up

00:15:16well now it's not cooperating

00:15:18but there we are

00:15:20in front of me

00:15:23how to write a book and get it published

00:15:25hints tips and techniques if I

00:15:27hold it in front of me rather than the

00:15:29green screen oh there

00:15:31it's working okay

00:15:33who knows what's going to

00:15:35work today or not but

00:15:36yeah terror strikes that info

00:15:39full novel a lot of my other ones

00:15:41lately are novelists or short stories

00:15:43so again tinyurl.com

00:15:46slash jld

00:15:47on amazon

00:15:48they're all there of course

00:15:51booktopia in australia

00:15:53or you know

00:15:54where

00:15:55oh

00:15:57books a million

00:15:58yeah

00:15:58but in the u.s

00:16:00autographed copies

00:16:01of some of the books

00:16:03not all

00:16:03terror strikes

00:16:05got info

00:16:05slash shop

00:16:06yeah

00:16:07oh that's amazing

00:16:08because I think a lot of people

00:16:09they have curiosity

00:16:10I hear a lot of people

00:16:11they want to do these podcasts

00:16:13and they want to write

00:16:13these books and all that

00:16:15and this is a great resource

00:16:16to have

00:16:17yep

00:16:17that's amazing

00:16:19yeah

00:16:19how to write a book

00:16:21there's a million books

00:16:22on how to put your book

00:16:24on amazon

00:16:24exactly yeah

00:16:26you don't need that

00:16:28you can read amazon's

00:16:29help files for free

00:16:31why are you spending

00:16:3210 12 20 bucks

00:16:34to buy a book

00:16:36that tells you something

00:16:37you can read for free

00:16:38or watch a youtube video

00:16:40for free

00:16:40I go

00:16:42from

00:16:43the concept

00:16:45what is the concept

00:16:47and a story outline

00:16:49like a storyboard

00:16:50for a movie

00:16:51and

00:16:52publishing options

00:16:54what to do

00:16:56when you've published

00:16:57because you're not done yet

00:16:58and you know

00:16:59you got to promote

00:17:00marketing and promotion

00:17:02and what to expect

00:17:04out of reviews

00:17:05I have a

00:17:06character development

00:17:08and a scene development

00:17:11oh that's amazing

00:17:12yeah

00:17:13chapter in there

00:17:14so you know

00:17:15a lot more than

00:17:16just the simple

00:17:17basic stuff

00:17:18you know

00:17:19you don't need to

00:17:20buy a book

00:17:20for that

00:17:21yeah

00:17:22and you're right

00:17:23yeah

00:17:23and I think

00:17:24a lot of people

00:17:25have that into

00:17:26they really want

00:17:26to do this

00:17:27but they're like

00:17:28lost

00:17:28and they don't

00:17:28really know

00:17:29how to do it

00:17:29yeah

00:17:30it's an amazing

00:17:31resource

00:17:32that's actually

00:17:33my second

00:17:34international book

00:17:35follow up

00:17:36to terror strikes

00:17:37coming soon

00:17:38to a city near you

00:17:39because I'd go

00:17:40on a bunch of shows

00:17:42and they'd say

00:17:42we'll just talk

00:17:43about the writing

00:17:44and publishing

00:17:45part of it

00:17:46and I said

00:17:47okay I'll come back

00:17:48and do a show

00:17:49on that

00:17:49and after a dozen

00:17:50of those shows

00:17:51I thought to myself

00:17:52light bulb

00:17:53right

00:17:54write a book

00:17:55on it

00:17:56if people are

00:17:57interested

00:17:57so I'll give

00:17:59like a free advice

00:18:00again

00:18:00a freebie

00:18:02and you can also

00:18:03go to

00:18:04tinyurl.com

00:18:06slash

00:18:07write

00:18:08and publish

00:18:09supplement

00:18:10all run together

00:18:11right

00:18:12tinyurl.com

00:18:13slash

00:18:14write

00:18:14and publish

00:18:15supplement

00:18:15and

00:18:16write

00:18:17and publish

00:18:17supplement

00:18:18two

00:18:18three

00:18:19and four

00:18:20and I think

00:18:21there's even

00:18:22a five fifth

00:18:22out there

00:18:23all for free

00:18:24free advice

00:18:25before you even

00:18:26consider buying

00:18:28my book

00:18:28for the extra

00:18:29stuff

00:18:29like a story

00:18:31outline

00:18:32you need to

00:18:33outline your story

00:18:34before you start

00:18:35writing it

00:18:36if it's in the

00:18:37computer

00:18:38or on three

00:18:39by five cards

00:18:40so you can move

00:18:41things around

00:18:42when you need to

00:18:43yeah exactly

00:18:44that's right

00:18:44because that's where

00:18:45people get lost

00:18:46in the detail

00:18:46like how did you

00:18:47organize your story

00:18:49what do I need

00:18:49all this stuff

00:18:50and another

00:18:52another free tip

00:18:53never ever

00:18:54actually hit

00:18:56delete

00:18:56yes you're right

00:18:58use the

00:19:00strikethrough

00:19:01function

00:19:01right

00:19:02Microsoft Word

00:19:03Word Perfect

00:19:04whatever

00:19:04you should use

00:19:06Microsoft Word

00:19:07because that's

00:19:07pretty much

00:19:08the industry

00:19:09standard now

00:19:10but yeah

00:19:11if you're

00:19:12going to

00:19:12remove something

00:19:13highlight it

00:19:14hit the

00:19:15strikethrough

00:19:15so it stays

00:19:16because later

00:19:18you might want

00:19:19to put it back

00:19:20or you might

00:19:21want to move

00:19:22it somewhere else

00:19:23but if you've

00:19:24deleted it

00:19:25then you gotta

00:19:26oh

00:19:26what did I

00:19:27say

00:19:28well

00:19:29won't you

00:19:30hit delete

00:19:31and then when

00:19:32you're ready

00:19:32to publish

00:19:33and do each

00:19:35chapter in a

00:19:36different document

00:19:37and then you

00:19:39could cut and

00:19:40paste between

00:19:41them

00:19:41and then when

00:19:42you're done

00:19:43merge them all

00:19:44into one

00:19:45big document

00:19:46remove all

00:19:46your strikethroughs

00:19:48and whatever

00:19:49red notes

00:19:50you might have

00:19:51in there

00:19:52and damn

00:19:53there's your

00:19:53final book

00:19:54so that's

00:19:55all free

00:19:56advice

00:19:56but there's

00:19:57a lot more

00:19:57available

00:19:58and how to

00:19:59write a book

00:20:00and get it

00:20:00published

00:20:01because everybody's

00:20:03got a book

00:20:04in them

00:20:04yeah

00:20:05exactly

00:20:06and I'll

00:20:07include those

00:20:07links that you

00:20:08gave me

00:20:08they're all

00:20:09there in the

00:20:09description

00:20:10and YouTube

00:20:11as well

00:20:11as Apple

00:20:12Podcasts

00:20:13and Spotify

00:20:13so anyone

00:20:14can just go

00:20:14and click

00:20:15on it

00:20:15yeah

00:20:16please go look

00:20:17into it

00:20:17yeah

00:20:18the Gemini

00:20:19I saw

00:20:20Gemini

00:20:21Gemini AI

00:20:22is taking

00:20:23notes

00:20:23so it'll

00:20:25know

00:20:25to pull

00:20:26out

00:20:27hyperlinks

00:20:28and yeah

00:20:29yes

00:20:30we pull

00:20:31the hyperlink

00:20:31and make

00:20:31them available

00:20:32for everybody

00:20:33to see

00:20:33and that way

00:20:34you just go

00:20:34ahead and click

00:20:35on the link

00:20:35and

00:20:36that's the

00:20:37good part

00:20:38of AI

00:20:38because I'm

00:20:39a former

00:20:40IT guy

00:20:40before I

00:20:41went on

00:20:41disability

00:20:42so I'm

00:20:43on a lot

00:20:44of shows

00:20:44talking about

00:20:45AI

00:20:46right

00:20:46the good

00:20:46the bad

00:20:47the ugly

00:20:47that's one

00:20:48of the good

00:20:49things

00:20:49yes

00:20:50what do

00:20:51you think

00:20:51what about

00:20:52the other

00:20:52thing with

00:20:52AI

00:20:53what do

00:20:53you think

00:20:53well the

00:20:54ugly is

00:20:55hopefully

00:20:55Skynet

00:20:56doesn't become

00:20:57self-aware

00:20:58and kill us

00:20:59all right

00:20:59that's right

00:21:00I mean

00:21:00that is still

00:21:02a real

00:21:02possibility

00:21:03although

00:21:04we'd like to

00:21:04hope to

00:21:05downplay that

00:21:06oh and

00:21:07here's a

00:21:09interesting

00:21:10note

00:21:12Terminator

00:21:12Mike

00:21:13was it

00:21:14Michael Bay

00:21:15that did

00:21:15that movie

00:21:17whomever

00:21:18well it was

00:21:18James Cameron

00:21:19Cameron

00:21:20thank you

00:21:21Titanic

00:21:21guy

00:21:21yeah

00:21:22Michael Bay

00:21:23was the

00:21:26Transformers

00:21:27guy

00:21:27yeah

00:21:28so James

00:21:29Cameron

00:21:29the Terminator

00:21:30he actually

00:21:32got the idea

00:21:33from a movie

00:21:33in the 70s

00:21:35called

00:21:35Colossus

00:21:36the Forbin

00:21:38Project

00:21:38which is

00:21:39hard to

00:21:40find

00:21:40it's hard

00:21:41to find

00:21:42that movie

00:21:42now I

00:21:43got two

00:21:43copies of

00:21:44it thankfully

00:21:45on DVD

00:21:46because with

00:21:48AI becoming

00:21:49self-aware

00:21:50but that

00:21:50was the

00:21:51first movie

00:21:51where an

00:21:53American

00:21:53computer and

00:21:54a Russian

00:21:55computer linked

00:21:56up to

00:21:56conspire

00:21:57against the

00:21:58humans

00:21:58so that's

00:22:00where the

00:22:00idea of

00:22:01Skynet came

00:22:02from so

00:22:03as Paul

00:22:04Harvey would

00:22:04say now

00:22:05you know

00:22:06the rest

00:22:07of the

00:22:08story

00:22:08exactly

00:22:09you're right

00:22:10yeah

00:22:10and that's

00:22:11good we do

00:22:12need to keep

00:22:12that in mind

00:22:13with AI

00:22:13I'm actually

00:22:14using AI

00:22:15now at

00:22:16work

00:22:16it's more

00:22:17like it

00:22:17try to

00:22:18capture

00:22:18the

00:22:18when I'm

00:22:19doing it

00:22:20with my

00:22:20patient

00:22:20I always

00:22:21let my

00:22:21patient

00:22:21know I

00:22:22am recording

00:22:22but it

00:22:23does capture

00:22:23the visit

00:22:24and all

00:22:24that

00:22:24it's good

00:22:25for taking

00:22:26notes

00:22:26and yeah

00:22:27and summarizing

00:22:28a visit

00:22:29and if

00:22:30you mention

00:22:32you need

00:22:32to write

00:22:33a prescription

00:22:34it can

00:22:34remind you

00:22:35to do

00:22:35the prescription

00:22:36and yeah

00:22:37so again

00:22:39that's a

00:22:40good use

00:22:41a bad

00:22:42use would

00:22:42be patients

00:22:44skipping the

00:22:44doctor and

00:22:45going straight

00:22:46to AI

00:22:47like

00:22:47exactly

00:22:48like

00:22:49I'm sure

00:22:50you know

00:22:50when WebMD

00:22:51first started

00:22:52right

00:22:53you had

00:22:53no doubt

00:22:55people

00:22:55oh yeah

00:22:56I ran my

00:22:57symptoms

00:22:57through WebMD

00:22:58I think

00:22:59I'm dying

00:22:59of XYZ

00:23:01syndrome

00:23:01you know

00:23:03the symptoms

00:23:04are the same

00:23:04for a lot

00:23:05of things

00:23:06that's why

00:23:06you really

00:23:07need a human

00:23:07to interact

00:23:09with a human

00:23:10yeah

00:23:10you need

00:23:11a human

00:23:12touch

00:23:12when it

00:23:13comes to

00:23:13these

00:23:13things

00:23:13yeah

00:23:14and also

00:23:14not only

00:23:15that

00:23:15I'm a

00:23:16primary care

00:23:17provider

00:23:17I'm the

00:23:18one that

00:23:18knows you

00:23:19best

00:23:19so when

00:23:19you come

00:23:20in telling

00:23:20me

00:23:20these

00:23:21things

00:23:21let me

00:23:22look into

00:23:22your history

00:23:23and say

00:23:23well no

00:23:24it could

00:23:25be this

00:23:25so let's

00:23:26look into

00:23:26that more

00:23:28so yeah

00:23:28that's where

00:23:29it's like

00:23:29it gets

00:23:30important

00:23:30like you

00:23:30have to

00:23:30work together

00:23:31to do

00:23:31it

00:23:32yeah

00:23:33uh yeah

00:23:34there's a

00:23:35joke to be

00:23:35had there

00:23:36but like

00:23:36I always

00:23:37like to

00:23:37interject

00:23:38I used

00:23:39to co-host

00:23:40on savaged

00:23:41unfiltered

00:23:42podcast too

00:23:43and I was

00:23:44known as

00:23:44jokester

00:23:45joe and

00:23:46raging

00:23:46joe there

00:23:47so you

00:23:47know I get

00:23:48on my

00:23:48soapbox

00:23:49and rage

00:23:49sometimes

00:23:50other times

00:23:51I would

00:23:51joke but

00:23:52you said

00:23:52primary care

00:23:53there's a

00:23:54psych ward

00:23:55joke in there

00:23:56somewhere

00:23:56I just

00:23:57don't know

00:23:57what it is

00:24:07I primarily

00:24:08think you

00:24:09should be

00:24:09locked up

00:24:15why are you

00:24:17even allowed

00:24:17to be out

00:24:18on the

00:24:18loose

00:24:21that's the

00:24:22joke

00:24:22it just

00:24:23took a

00:24:23while to

00:24:24come to

00:24:24me

00:24:30one of the

00:24:32things I

00:24:32keep saying

00:24:32a lot

00:24:33like sometimes

00:24:33I see this

00:24:34in the media

00:24:34you have

00:24:35OCD

00:24:36sometimes

00:24:36people

00:24:37oh I'm

00:24:38glad you

00:24:38brought that

00:24:39up

00:24:39yeah

00:24:41you know

00:24:41people say

00:24:42things like

00:24:43oh it's my

00:24:44OCD

00:24:45you know

00:24:45that kind

00:24:45of thing

00:24:46like how

00:24:46did that

00:24:46make you

00:24:47feel

00:24:47and it

00:24:48does at

00:24:49times

00:24:49I mean

00:24:50it's a

00:24:51spectrum

00:24:51my latest

00:24:53book

00:24:53I have

00:24:54to hold

00:24:55up only

00:24:55a picture

00:24:56because it's

00:24:57not a

00:24:57physical book

00:24:58it's only

00:24:58available on

00:24:59Kindle

00:25:00and it just

00:25:01came out

00:25:01in May

00:25:02so I

00:25:03don't

00:25:03even if

00:25:04it were

00:25:04out on

00:25:05print

00:25:05I wouldn't

00:25:05have print

00:25:06copies of

00:25:07it yet

00:25:07but it's

00:25:08called

00:25:08roller coasters

00:25:09the life

00:25:10kind

00:25:12yeah

00:25:12I have

00:25:13you know

00:25:13ups and

00:25:14downs

00:25:15and spins

00:25:16and twirls

00:25:17and so

00:25:18roller coasters

00:25:19has always

00:25:20been a great

00:25:21metaphor

00:25:22for life

00:25:22but I

00:25:23also go

00:25:24into

00:25:24ferris

00:25:25wheels

00:25:25and tilt

00:25:26the whirls

00:25:27and carousels

00:25:28so I

00:25:30think it's

00:25:30a good

00:25:31read but

00:25:31that's one

00:25:32of those

00:25:32that's a

00:25:32Kindle

00:25:33exclusive

00:25:35audio

00:25:36well I

00:25:36can't say

00:25:37that because

00:25:37it's available

00:25:38on audio

00:25:39but it's

00:25:40Amazon

00:25:41exclusive

00:25:42again

00:25:43tinyurl.com

00:25:44slash

00:25:45JLD

00:25:46on Amazon

00:25:49but yeah

00:25:50I have my

00:25:51character

00:25:51Rick

00:25:52in the book

00:25:53has OCD

00:25:54because I

00:25:56on my

00:25:56Christitutionalist

00:25:57podcast

00:25:58had someone

00:25:59on April

00:26:01Langford

00:26:02I think

00:26:02is her last

00:26:03name

00:26:03and we

00:26:04were talking

00:26:04about autism

00:26:05it's a

00:26:06spectrum

00:26:07well

00:26:07ADHD

00:26:08and OCD

00:26:10and yes

00:26:11you can be

00:26:12bipolar

00:26:13and be

00:26:13both

00:26:14and I'm

00:26:15I'm bipolar

00:26:16and ADHD

00:26:17at times

00:26:18and OCD

00:26:18at times

00:26:19and it's

00:26:20in part

00:26:20why I

00:26:21have the

00:26:21health

00:26:21problems

00:26:22I do

00:26:22my body

00:26:23you know

00:26:24my brain

00:26:24would just

00:26:25keep going

00:26:26keep going

00:26:27and eventually

00:26:27my body

00:26:28said

00:26:29no

00:26:30if you're

00:26:31not going

00:26:31to slow

00:26:31down

00:26:32we're going

00:26:32to slow

00:26:33you down

00:26:33and it

00:26:33shut down

00:26:34so yeah

00:26:35some days

00:26:36my OCD

00:26:37may be

00:26:37mild

00:26:38some days

00:26:39and in fact

00:26:40on Suno

00:26:42tinyurl.com

00:26:43I bet you

00:26:44knew that

00:26:44was coming

00:26:44right

00:26:47tinyurl.com

00:26:48slash

00:26:49JLD

00:26:50on Suno

00:26:51I've got

00:26:52a whole

00:26:52playlist

00:26:53of ADHD

00:26:54OCD

00:26:55songs

00:26:56there's like

00:26:57seven of

00:26:58them there

00:26:59now

00:26:59including

00:27:00one called

00:27:01Wired

00:27:02which is

00:27:02thrash

00:27:03metal

00:27:03because you

00:27:04know

00:27:04some days

00:27:05are like

00:27:05that with

00:27:05OCD

00:27:06because when

00:27:08people hear

00:27:08OCD

00:27:09that's why

00:27:10I wanted

00:27:10to put it

00:27:11in the book

00:27:11it's not

00:27:12just Howie

00:27:13Mandel

00:27:14and germophobia

00:27:15right

00:27:16people hear

00:27:17OCD

00:27:17that's what

00:27:19they think

00:27:19when they

00:27:20hear OCD

00:27:21though

00:27:21they think

00:27:22of Howie

00:27:22Mandel

00:27:23and it's

00:27:24a spectrum

00:27:25it can be

00:27:26mild

00:27:26it can be

00:27:27drastic

00:27:28and some

00:27:28days it

00:27:29can be

00:27:29mild

00:27:30it can be

00:27:31in between

00:27:32so it's

00:27:34tough

00:27:34so I

00:27:35wanted

00:27:35roller coasters

00:27:37the life

00:27:37kind to

00:27:38not just

00:27:39be entertaining

00:27:40but educational

00:27:41like all my

00:27:42life and living

00:27:43series of books

00:27:44and bet you

00:27:45know this is

00:27:46coming

00:27:48tinyurl.com

00:27:49life and living

00:27:51series

00:27:51to find all

00:27:53those books

00:27:53and you don't

00:27:54have to read

00:27:55them in order

00:27:55you can read

00:27:56any one

00:27:57without any

00:27:58of the others

00:27:59you know

00:28:00it's a series

00:28:01because they're

00:28:01all based

00:28:02on life

00:28:02and living

00:28:03yeah

00:28:04not like

00:28:05terror strikes

00:28:06is the first

00:28:06one but it's

00:28:07not about

00:28:08death and

00:28:08destruction

00:28:09it's about

00:28:10life and

00:28:11living

00:28:12right

00:28:14after I

00:28:15wrote that

00:28:16and wrote

00:28:17how to write

00:28:18a book

00:28:18and get it

00:28:19published

00:28:19I'm thinking

00:28:20what do I

00:28:21want to

00:28:21write next

00:28:22and the

00:28:22light bulb

00:28:23goes on

00:28:23well I

00:28:24have four

00:28:25books now

00:28:26that are

00:28:27companions

00:28:28the

00:28:28christitutionalist

00:28:30edu series

00:28:31again tinyurl.com

00:28:33slash

00:28:33christitutionalist

00:28:35edu series

00:28:36of books

00:28:36for those

00:28:37but why

00:28:39not do a

00:28:39life and

00:28:40living series

00:28:41exactly

00:28:41and the

00:28:43characters

00:28:44carry over

00:28:45slightly but

00:28:46you don't

00:28:46have to read

00:28:47the whole

00:28:48series to

00:28:49get the

00:28:50point and

00:28:50I write

00:28:51them differently

00:28:52like

00:28:52terror strikes

00:28:54is narrative

00:28:55with a

00:28:56little bit

00:28:56of dialogue

00:28:57and it's

00:28:59a traditional

00:28:59novel

00:29:00the one

00:29:01after that

00:29:02is if I

00:29:03can grab

00:29:04it here

00:29:04the book

00:29:05of Kennedy

00:29:06oh

00:29:07the book

00:29:08of Kennedy

00:29:09project

00:29:10put it in

00:29:11front of me

00:29:12it'll show

00:29:12up the book

00:29:13of Kennedy

00:29:14project

00:29:14carpe diem

00:29:15right carpe

00:29:16diem sees

00:29:17today a

00:29:18life and

00:29:19living book

00:29:20it's written

00:29:21narrative with

00:29:22zero not

00:29:24one stitch

00:29:25of dialogue

00:29:26there are

00:29:27some quotations

00:29:28and quote

00:29:29marks to

00:29:30highlight certain

00:29:31words or

00:29:32an exact quote

00:29:33but no actual

00:29:35dialogue and

00:29:36also a short

00:29:38story a

00:29:39lasting legacy

00:29:40it's actually

00:29:41a misnomer

00:29:42title it's not

00:29:43a short story

00:29:44it's a novelette

00:29:45but a short

00:29:47story refers

00:29:49to Ryan's

00:29:50life being

00:29:51cut short

00:29:52from our

00:29:53expected norms

00:29:54and it's

00:29:55written entire

00:29:56journal entry

00:29:57style

00:29:58you know as

00:29:59if you're reading

00:30:00somebody's diary

00:30:01except for the

00:30:02last chapter

00:30:03which is called

00:30:04eulogy

00:30:05and then

00:30:06there's

00:30:06so it's

00:30:08journal entries

00:30:08and then there's

00:30:10dialogue

00:30:10in the form

00:30:11of monologues

00:30:13of people

00:30:14eulogizing

00:30:15Ryan

00:30:16so I try

00:30:18to write

00:30:18things

00:30:19different styles

00:30:20because

00:30:21not everyone's

00:30:24choice

00:30:24it's in fact

00:30:26I've got a

00:30:27Suno song

00:30:27yeah

00:30:28eye of the

00:30:30beholder

00:30:30right beauty

00:30:31is in the eye

00:30:32of the holder

00:30:32right

00:30:33writing styles

00:30:35is too

00:30:36music genres

00:30:37is too

00:30:38you might

00:30:39prefer

00:30:39country

00:30:40you might

00:30:41prefer

00:30:41rap

00:30:42you might

00:30:42hate

00:30:42thrash metal

00:30:43like I

00:30:44mentioned

00:30:44the wire

00:30:45or thrash

00:30:47metal

00:30:47might be

00:30:47the only

00:30:48thing

00:30:48you look

00:30:49that's in

00:30:50the ear

00:30:50of the

00:30:50beholder

00:30:51so I've

00:30:52got a

00:30:52song called

00:30:53ear of the

00:30:53beholder

00:30:54that's

00:30:54right

00:30:55yeah

00:30:56oh that's

00:30:56so awesome

00:30:57and I think

00:30:57those things

00:30:58they help

00:30:59like try to

00:31:00understand

00:31:00like what's

00:31:01going on

00:31:01because it's

00:31:01a different

00:31:02way

00:31:02it's different

00:31:03it's a

00:31:03spectrum

00:31:04it's a

00:31:05whole lot

00:31:05it is

00:31:06it is a

00:31:07spectrum

00:31:07yeah absolutely

00:31:08like my

00:31:10brain still

00:31:11almost never

00:31:12shuts off

00:31:13and that's

00:31:14one of the

00:31:15reasons I

00:31:15can't work

00:31:16anymore

00:31:16it's hard

00:31:17to sleep

00:31:18it's both

00:31:19a blessing

00:31:20and a curse

00:31:20though

00:31:21let me say

00:31:22that

00:31:22right like

00:31:23you think

00:31:23of Rain

00:31:24Man

00:31:24with Dustin

00:31:26Hoffman

00:31:27and Tom

00:31:27Cruise

00:31:27that movie

00:31:28Autism

00:31:29well he

00:31:30was high

00:31:30on the

00:31:31autism

00:31:32scale

00:31:32but he

00:31:34was also

00:31:35highly

00:31:36capable

00:31:37he was

00:31:38on

00:31:38motor

00:31:39skill

00:31:40high

00:31:41capability

00:31:41also

00:31:42so he

00:31:43could

00:31:43function

00:31:44but he

00:31:45was also

00:31:45a savant

00:31:46when it

00:31:47came to

00:31:48things like

00:31:48card counting

00:31:49and things

00:31:51like that

00:31:51OCD

00:31:52is a

00:31:53blessing

00:31:53in that

00:31:54your mind

00:31:55is always

00:31:56working on

00:31:56a problem

00:31:57that never

00:31:57shuts off

00:31:58a boss

00:31:59loves

00:32:00somebody

00:32:01with OCD

00:32:01because

00:32:02they're

00:32:03focused

00:32:03on the

00:32:04task

00:32:04and they

00:32:04stay on

00:32:05the task

00:32:06until the

00:32:06task

00:32:07gets done

00:32:07and never

00:32:09stop

00:32:09but it's

00:32:10also a

00:32:11curse

00:32:11because that

00:32:12person can't

00:32:13sleep at

00:32:14night

00:32:14if their

00:32:15brain won't

00:32:15shut off

00:32:16like me

00:32:17and then

00:32:18your body

00:32:19falls apart

00:32:20yeah and it

00:32:21gets very

00:32:22frustrating

00:32:22it can be

00:32:23frustrating for

00:32:23the patient

00:32:24and it's also

00:32:25very hard

00:32:25for the

00:32:26provider to

00:32:26do it

00:32:27especially if

00:32:27they don't

00:32:28understand

00:32:28like they

00:32:30think just

00:32:30throwing

00:32:30I'm not

00:32:32saying like

00:32:32you can't

00:32:33take medicine

00:32:34but sometimes

00:32:35meds don't

00:32:36always work

00:32:36sometimes

00:32:37it really

00:32:37depends on

00:32:38the person

00:32:38yeah

00:32:39yeah

00:32:40exactly

00:32:40like chronic

00:32:44fatigue

00:32:45immune

00:32:45dysfunction

00:32:46syndrome

00:32:47right

00:32:47well

00:32:48what do

00:32:49they often

00:32:50attribute

00:32:52fatigue

00:32:52always

00:32:53fatigue

00:32:54to

00:32:54depression

00:32:55so they

00:32:56try to

00:32:57treat that

00:32:57with depression

00:32:58drugs

00:32:59right

00:32:59and it

00:33:00doesn't

00:33:00it may

00:33:01I don't want

00:33:02to say it

00:33:03doesn't help

00:33:03your mileage

00:33:04may vary

00:33:05right

00:33:06yeah exactly

00:33:08everybody's

00:33:08different

00:33:09yeah something

00:33:10might work

00:33:11a Sarah

00:33:13Sarah

00:33:14Quill

00:33:14or

00:33:17there's so

00:33:18many

00:33:18whatever

00:33:19yeah

00:33:20depression

00:33:21drug

00:33:21could help

00:33:22none of them

00:33:23helped for me

00:33:24they just made

00:33:25things worse

00:33:26so

00:33:26yeah

00:33:28and that's

00:33:28why it's

00:33:29important to

00:33:29like collaborate

00:33:30well for the

00:33:31provider to

00:33:31collaborate with

00:33:32the patient

00:33:32because that's

00:33:33not always

00:33:33the case

00:33:34I always try

00:33:35to focus on

00:33:36the medical

00:33:36aspect before

00:33:37I move on

00:33:38the behavioral

00:33:38because what

00:33:40I've been

00:33:40finding a lot

00:33:41of patients

00:33:43they present

00:33:43with very real

00:33:44it's a very

00:33:45legitimate

00:33:46complaint

00:33:46and I'm like

00:33:47well let's just

00:33:48find out what

00:33:49it is

00:33:49I don't want

00:33:49to say it's

00:33:50depression

00:33:50it's something

00:33:51else

00:33:51and usually

00:33:52it is

00:33:55I'm one of

00:33:56those that

00:33:56would dig

00:33:57and find

00:33:57I research

00:33:59and then

00:33:59there were

00:34:01times where

00:34:02I've even

00:34:02reached out

00:34:03to specialists

00:34:03and say

00:34:03listen this

00:34:04is not

00:34:04what you're

00:34:05thinking

00:34:05it has

00:34:06to be

00:34:06something

00:34:07else

00:34:08I also

00:34:10deal with

00:34:10anxiety

00:34:11and stress

00:34:12at times

00:34:13IT

00:34:13I was always

00:34:14on call

00:34:15I was always

00:34:16dealing with

00:34:17anxiety

00:34:17and stress

00:34:18then

00:34:18so

00:34:19I still

00:34:21today

00:34:21have a

00:34:22prescription

00:34:23of Xanax

00:34:24over there

00:34:24of course

00:34:25now with

00:34:26the laws

00:34:26and the

00:34:27rules

00:34:27I hate

00:34:27to give

00:34:28out a

00:34:28prescription

00:34:29but I

00:34:30get a

00:34:31prescription

00:34:31free filled

00:34:32once a

00:34:33year

00:34:3330 pills

00:34:35will last

00:34:36me a

00:34:37year

00:34:37because I

00:34:38will only

00:34:39take it

00:34:39when I

00:34:40really

00:34:41if feeling

00:34:42jittery

00:34:43if you

00:34:43know

00:34:43the anxiety

00:34:45and stress

00:34:46is causing

00:34:46physical pain

00:34:48or jitteriness

00:34:49and I really

00:34:50need the

00:34:51Xanax

00:34:51like I

00:34:52last week

00:34:53I took

00:34:53it too

00:34:54but I'll

00:34:55never take

00:34:55it more

00:34:56than two

00:34:56days in a

00:34:57row

00:34:57because

00:34:57when I

00:34:59first

00:34:59went

00:35:01it was

00:35:02first

00:35:02going through

00:35:03all the

00:35:04diagnoses

00:35:05and whatnot

00:35:06not working

00:35:07anymore

00:35:07the stress

00:35:09was one

00:35:09thing

00:35:09I was

00:35:10put on

00:35:10Xanax

00:35:12the highest

00:35:13dose

00:35:13twice a

00:35:14day

00:35:14and I

00:35:15was that

00:35:16way for

00:35:16like a

00:35:17year and

00:35:17a half

00:35:18so yeah

00:35:19I don't

00:35:20have an

00:35:20addictive

00:35:21personality

00:35:22but I

00:35:23was able

00:35:24to come

00:35:24up but I

00:35:25still had

00:35:25to deal

00:35:26with the

00:35:26withdrawals

00:35:27the addiction

00:35:29and the

00:35:30physical

00:35:31dependency

00:35:31are two

00:35:33different

00:35:33things and

00:35:34a lot of

00:35:34people don't

00:35:35understand

00:35:35that

00:35:36so I

00:35:36went through

00:35:37the withdrawals

00:35:38and it

00:35:39took four

00:35:40times before

00:35:41I was able

00:35:42to quit

00:35:42and I

00:35:43still have

00:35:44the controlled

00:35:45substance

00:35:45because I

00:35:46can control

00:35:48myself

00:35:48I know

00:35:50to take it

00:35:51only if

00:35:53and when I

00:35:54really need

00:35:54it I

00:35:55use the

00:35:56drug

00:35:56the drug

00:35:57isn't

00:35:57ruling my

00:35:59life

00:36:01any more

00:36:02it was a

00:36:03little

00:36:03you know

00:36:03when I

00:36:04was on

00:36:04it for

00:36:04a year

00:36:05and a

00:36:05half

00:36:05and yeah

00:36:06all that

00:36:06that hyper

00:36:07sense of

00:36:08paranoia

00:36:09and all

00:36:09that stuff

00:36:11my wife

00:36:12landed up

00:36:13leaving

00:36:13during that

00:36:14time

00:36:15it was like

00:36:16yeah because

00:36:16I was a

00:36:17different person

00:36:18I was

00:36:19indeed

00:36:20paranoid

00:36:20all the

00:36:21time

00:36:22yeah

00:36:23and that

00:36:24was the

00:36:25drug

00:36:26that was

00:36:26the side

00:36:27effect

00:36:28that was

00:36:28the side

00:36:29effect

00:36:29and it

00:36:30was because

00:36:30of what

00:36:30you were

00:36:31going through

00:36:31with everything

00:36:32in part

00:36:33two

00:36:33yeah it

00:36:34was part

00:36:34mental

00:36:35part

00:36:35drug

00:36:36right

00:36:36exactly

00:36:37you've

00:36:37got to

00:36:38examine

00:36:39the whole

00:36:39situation

00:36:40and everyone

00:36:41is different

00:36:42again

00:36:42your mileage

00:36:44may vary

00:36:44as the joke

00:36:45yeah exactly

00:36:46and everybody's

00:36:47different

00:36:47and I think

00:36:48that's like

00:36:49the big thing

00:36:49like

00:36:49we have

00:36:51to list

00:36:51I have to

00:36:52list as a

00:36:52provider

00:36:53and I try

00:36:54to do that

00:36:54with my

00:36:55patient

00:36:55because

00:36:56what they're

00:36:57telling

00:36:57they don't

00:36:57understand

00:36:58they're trying

00:36:58to communicate

00:36:59what their

00:36:59needs are

00:37:00and everybody's

00:37:01different

00:37:02so and

00:37:03if you don't

00:37:04find out

00:37:05it does

00:37:05have a

00:37:06triple down

00:37:07effect

00:37:07it affect

00:37:07everybody

00:37:08around you

00:37:09yes

00:37:09yeah

00:37:10and I've

00:37:11always had

00:37:11a good

00:37:11relationship

00:37:12with my

00:37:13doctors

00:37:13over the

00:37:14years

00:37:14so it's

00:37:15good

00:37:15you know

00:37:16I know

00:37:17WebMD

00:37:18can be a

00:37:19tool

00:37:19but you

00:37:19can't let

00:37:20it be

00:37:20your doctor

00:37:21yeah

00:37:22but yeah

00:37:23you know

00:37:23so I've

00:37:24used it

00:37:25as a

00:37:25resource

00:37:26and the

00:37:26same thing

00:37:26with AI

00:37:27you can

00:37:28use it

00:37:28as a

00:37:28resource

00:37:29well

00:37:30but

00:37:30symptoms

00:37:31A, B,

00:37:32and C

00:37:32could be

00:37:33X, Y,

00:37:34or Z

00:37:35you can't

00:37:36let it tell

00:37:37you well

00:37:38for sure

00:37:38it's X

00:37:39well

00:37:39again

00:37:40that's why

00:37:40you need

00:37:41a human

00:37:41doctor

00:37:42you've

00:37:42got to

00:37:42run

00:37:43the battery

00:37:43of tests

00:37:44yeah

00:37:45and you

00:37:45have to

00:37:46have the

00:37:46psych profile

00:37:47done

00:37:48and all

00:37:49that stuff

00:37:50so

00:37:51the AI

00:37:52you know

00:37:53yeah

00:37:53a robot

00:37:54could probably

00:37:55take your

00:37:55temperature

00:37:56and your

00:37:56blood pressure

00:37:57and all

00:37:57that

00:37:58in the near

00:37:59future

00:37:59but

00:38:00it's no

00:38:01substitute

00:38:02for a

00:38:03human

00:38:03doctor

00:38:03yeah

00:38:04the robot

00:38:05doesn't know

00:38:05subtlety

00:38:06in a human

00:38:08or sarcasm

00:38:09yeah

00:38:10exactly

00:38:11because I

00:38:12joke all

00:38:13the time

00:38:14it's like

00:38:14you better

00:38:16watch what

00:38:16you say

00:38:17to the AI

00:38:18because it

00:38:18almost takes

00:38:19everything

00:38:20literal

00:38:21or I

00:38:23found the

00:38:24other thing

00:38:25it conversely

00:38:26can get

00:38:27caught

00:38:27like I

00:38:28converse

00:38:28with

00:38:29grok

00:38:29I'm on

00:38:30X

00:38:31and I

00:38:31use

00:38:32grok

00:38:32again

00:38:33as a

00:38:34tool

00:38:34or you

00:38:35know

00:38:36to bounce

00:38:36ideas

00:38:37off

00:38:38as a

00:38:39research

00:38:40tool

00:38:41and a

00:38:42lot of

00:38:42times

00:38:42you find

00:38:44you say

00:38:45something

00:38:45and the

00:38:46first thing

00:38:46it says

00:38:47back

00:38:47is ha

00:38:48ha

00:38:48well

00:38:49this is not

00:38:50a laughing

00:38:51matter

00:38:51this isn't

00:38:52a joke

00:38:52we're having

00:38:53a serious

00:38:54conversation

00:38:54you cannot

00:38:56say ha

00:38:57ha

00:38:57because the

00:38:58last three

00:38:58things were

00:38:59jokes

00:39:00you gotta

00:39:00understand

00:39:01context

00:39:02yes

00:39:03exactly

00:39:04yeah

00:39:05I think

00:39:08I'm having

00:39:09a heart

00:39:09attack

00:39:10ha

00:39:11maybe

00:39:11you should

00:39:12go to

00:39:12the hospital

00:39:13that's not

00:39:14a valid

00:39:14response

00:39:15the go to

00:39:16the hospital

00:39:17part is

00:39:18but the

00:39:18ha

00:39:19part

00:39:19ain't

00:39:20yeah

00:39:20exactly

00:39:24so again

00:39:25that's the

00:39:26AI

00:39:26the good

00:39:27the bad

00:39:27and the

00:39:28ugly

00:39:28it's not

00:39:29quite there

00:39:29yet

00:39:30and the

00:39:31other thing

00:39:31is being

00:39:32an author

00:39:32ripping off

00:39:33authors

00:39:34it's ripping

00:39:34off you

00:39:35know

00:39:35movie

00:39:36producers

00:39:37it's ripping

00:39:38off

00:39:38podcast

00:39:40content

00:39:40makers

00:39:41because it's

00:39:42using that

00:39:42to study

00:39:44its model

00:39:44and it may

00:39:45say something

00:39:46oh

00:39:47like

00:39:47someone

00:39:48says

00:39:49write my

00:39:49paper on

00:39:50terrorism

00:39:51and if

00:39:53AI quotes

00:39:54my book

00:39:55without giving

00:39:55me attribution

00:39:57or accreditation

00:39:58and they put

00:40:00it in a

00:40:00thesis paper

00:40:01guess who's

00:40:02responsible for

00:40:03plagiarism

00:40:04not

00:40:05you

00:40:07exactly

00:40:09yeah

00:40:10and that's

00:40:10why

00:40:10and it's

00:40:11the thing

00:40:12a lot of

00:40:12people

00:40:12they're all

00:40:13cracking down

00:40:14on it

00:40:14like well

00:40:14you shouldn't

00:40:15use it

00:40:15yeah

00:40:16you can

00:40:18and I

00:40:20have no

00:40:20problem

00:40:21if you're

00:40:21writing

00:40:22something

00:40:22on terrorism

00:40:23quoting

00:40:24terror strikes

00:40:25coming soon

00:40:26to a city

00:40:27you

00:40:27because it's

00:40:28historical

00:40:28fiction

00:40:29it's part

00:40:30fact

00:40:31and part

00:40:31fiction

00:40:32and you

00:40:32the whole

00:40:33idea is to

00:40:34not necessarily

00:40:36know where

00:40:37the fact

00:40:38and the

00:40:38fiction

00:40:39end

00:40:40or begin

00:40:41but so

00:40:42you can use

00:40:43it to quote

00:40:44as long as

00:40:45you're giving

00:40:45me appropriate

00:40:46accreditation

00:40:48quoting

00:40:48this is from

00:40:49the book

00:40:50by joseph

00:40:51m leonard

00:40:52and again

00:40:52leonard

00:40:54without an o

00:40:54it's not

00:40:55leonard

00:40:55even though

00:40:56it looks

00:40:56french

00:40:57and i gotta

00:40:58use the

00:40:58middle initial

00:40:59because joseph

00:41:00leonard

00:41:01of south

00:41:02carolina

00:41:02i am joseph

00:41:04m leonard

00:41:04of michigan

00:41:06hence on

00:41:07social media

00:41:08you find me

00:41:09most places

00:41:10j leonard

00:41:11detroit

00:41:13joseph

00:41:14elf

00:41:14j for

00:41:16j for

00:41:16joseph

00:41:16leonard

00:41:17again

00:41:18no o

00:41:18detroit

00:41:20except on

00:41:21x i'm

00:41:22j leonard

00:41:23michigan

00:41:23because

00:41:24elon

00:41:25suspended

00:41:26locked out

00:41:26my quarter

00:41:27of a million

00:41:28follower

00:41:28account

00:41:29so

00:41:30i'm back

00:41:31to scratch

00:41:32again

00:41:33so

00:41:33oh my god

00:41:34oh wow

00:41:35across all

00:41:37my platforms

00:41:38i'm on more

00:41:39than a dozen

00:41:40different platforms

00:41:41so i've got a

00:41:42quarter of a

00:41:43million followers

00:41:44but it's just

00:41:45not on one

00:41:46platform

00:41:47yeah exactly

00:41:48yeah you're

00:41:49right yeah

00:41:49do you uh

00:41:50find when you

00:41:51of these followers

00:41:53do you have

00:41:53these people

00:41:54they share the

00:41:54same story

00:41:55same condition

00:41:56as you

00:41:56do you ever

00:41:57see that

00:41:57oh some

00:41:58do yeah

00:41:59of course

00:42:00some do

00:42:00and that's

00:42:02and i want

00:42:03to say this

00:42:04um before

00:42:05we go too

00:42:05far

00:42:06yeah

00:42:06i'm on

00:42:08disability

00:42:09right

00:42:09but i also

00:42:11recognize

00:42:11that there's

00:42:13a lot of

00:42:13people who

00:42:14want to

00:42:14game

00:42:15the system

00:42:16and scam

00:42:18the system

00:42:19because there's

00:42:20no real

00:42:20cure for

00:42:21chronic fatigue

00:42:22immune

00:42:23dysfunction

00:42:24you have

00:42:25to you

00:42:26know if

00:42:26you've got

00:42:26the immune

00:42:27dysfunction

00:42:28part it's

00:42:29easier to

00:42:29diagnose

00:42:30because your

00:42:31immune system

00:42:32is depressed

00:42:33and that's

00:42:34easier to

00:42:35tell

00:42:35but a lot

00:42:36of people

00:42:37will claim

00:42:38chronic fatigue

00:42:39syndrome

00:42:40well there's

00:42:41no real

00:42:42test for

00:42:43that

00:42:43and scammers

00:42:44indeed try

00:42:46to scam

00:42:47the system

00:42:47so you

00:42:49know when

00:42:50i first

00:42:50applied for

00:42:51the disability

00:42:52i was of

00:42:53course denied

00:42:54and i have

00:42:55no problem

00:42:56with that

00:42:57because indeed

00:42:57there's a lot

00:42:58of scammers

00:42:59out there

00:42:59who would

00:43:01get off

00:43:01their ass

00:43:02and do

00:43:03things but

00:43:04they don't

00:43:05want to

00:43:05they want

00:43:06the rest

00:43:07of us

00:43:07to pick

00:43:08up for

00:43:08them

00:43:09which you

00:43:09know the

00:43:09whole

00:43:10and ran

00:43:11atlas

00:43:11shrugged

00:43:12thing

00:43:17okay

00:43:18um

00:43:20and

00:43:22what do you

00:43:22think about

00:43:23like

00:43:24the health

00:43:25care system

00:43:26in general

00:43:26especially with

00:43:27people dealing

00:43:28with chronic

00:43:28health issues

00:43:29what do you

00:43:29think about

00:43:30that

00:43:30well i still

00:43:31think we

00:43:32have the

00:43:32best in

00:43:33the world

00:43:33uh could

00:43:34it be

00:43:35better

00:43:35yes

00:43:35could it

00:43:36be a lot

00:43:37worse

00:43:37heck yes

00:43:38uh you

00:43:39know i i get

00:43:40tired of this

00:43:41yeah you're

00:43:42against

00:43:43socialized

00:43:44medicine

00:43:45uh you're a

00:43:46nazi because

00:43:47you're against

00:43:48so excuse me

00:43:49do you know

00:43:50who invented

00:43:51that

00:43:53national

00:43:54socialist

00:43:55deutschland

00:43:56abeter party

00:43:57the national

00:43:58socialist

00:43:58the nazis

00:43:59invented

00:44:01socialized

00:44:02medicine

00:44:02because it

00:44:04was about

00:44:04power and

00:44:05control over

00:44:06people

00:44:07not health

00:44:08care

00:44:09oh wow

00:44:10oh that's

00:44:11interesting

00:44:11yeah

00:44:13i mean

00:44:14that's

00:44:15that's

00:44:16you might

00:44:18say you

00:44:18like

00:44:19socialized

00:44:20medicine but

00:44:21you can't

00:44:21argue with

00:44:22the fact

00:44:22where it

00:44:23comes from

00:44:23so my

00:44:24opposing it

00:44:25isn't me

00:44:26being a

00:44:26nazi

00:44:27that's me

00:44:28that's you

00:44:28actually being

00:44:29pro-nazi

00:44:31if it comes

00:44:32down to it

00:44:33i hate to

00:44:35be so blunt

00:44:36and frank but

00:44:37you know our

00:44:38education system

00:44:39is so poor

00:44:40in this country

00:44:40people don't

00:44:41know anything

00:44:42they just

00:44:43don't know

00:44:44and they

00:44:44don't want

00:44:45to know

00:44:46they prefer

00:44:46their delusional

00:44:47little bubble

00:44:49yeah and

00:44:50are there a

00:44:51way we can

00:44:52help reach

00:44:52to these

00:44:53people help

00:44:53educate these

00:44:54people

00:44:54well i

00:44:56you know i

00:44:56try through

00:44:57my podcast

00:44:58right i

00:44:59mean

00:45:01yeah you

00:45:02write your

00:45:03bull

00:45:03off

00:45:04and do

00:45:04everything

00:45:04yeah

00:45:05yeah

00:45:06okay um

00:45:11i'm just

00:45:12looking

00:45:12yeah um

00:45:13is there

00:45:14anything like

00:45:15when you're

00:45:16on your

00:45:16podcast

00:45:16is there

00:45:17any like

00:45:17guests that

00:45:17you feel

00:45:18like that

00:45:18got mental

00:45:19health wrong

00:45:19or something

00:45:20about mental

00:45:21health wrong

00:45:22what do you

00:45:22think

00:45:23no i i've

00:45:24i've had

00:45:25some great

00:45:26guests uh

00:45:27for health

00:45:28weeks and

00:45:29even not

00:45:29during health

00:45:30weeks other

00:45:31weeks i've

00:45:32never had

00:45:32anyone that

00:45:33i've really

00:45:34you know i'm

00:45:35not a doctor

00:45:36nor do i

00:45:37play one on

00:45:38tv i'm not

00:45:39a lawyer nor

00:45:39do i play

00:45:40one although

00:45:41i do share

00:45:42a meme on

00:45:42social media a

00:45:44lot that i

00:45:44created i'm

00:45:45not a know

00:45:46it all i

00:45:47just play one

00:45:48on the

00:45:48internet

00:45:53so so

00:45:55you know

00:45:56everyone's

00:45:57entitled their

00:45:58opinion but

00:45:59it matters

00:46:00whether your

00:46:00opinions based

00:46:01in reality

00:46:02or unicorn

00:46:03fart fantasy

00:46:04delusion and

00:46:06i try to

00:46:06always make

00:46:07sure i stay

00:46:08rooted in

00:46:08reality but

00:46:09there are

00:46:10going to be

00:46:11differences of

00:46:12opinions as

00:46:13long as you're

00:46:14both trying to

00:46:15deal in reality

00:46:16that's fine

00:46:18let me say

00:46:20this i did

00:46:21have a guy

00:46:22on to talk

00:46:23about meditation

00:46:24yeah and

00:46:25he was just

00:46:27so monotone

00:46:29and dull and

00:46:32boring that i

00:46:33almost didn't

00:46:34air the show

00:46:35but i did air

00:46:37it because you

00:46:38know it's an

00:46:39important topic

00:46:40people who

00:46:41stress meditation

00:46:42can help so i

00:46:45wanted people to

00:46:46have that

00:46:46information

00:46:47yeah so i

00:46:49i've actually

00:46:50encouraged meditation

00:46:51with my

00:46:51patient but i

00:46:52also know it's

00:46:53one of the

00:46:54non-pharmacological

00:46:55method we do

00:46:56but i always

00:46:58say you know

00:46:58it goes well

00:46:59with therapy

00:47:00and sometimes

00:47:00medicine it

00:47:01depends on

00:47:02your needs

00:47:02again everyone's

00:47:04an individual

00:47:05and your

00:47:06mileage may

00:47:06vary

00:47:07exactly

00:47:08everybody's

00:47:09different but

00:47:09i try not to

00:47:10be like oh

00:47:11just go ahead

00:47:11meditate you

00:47:12know that

00:47:12yeah

00:47:13which is

00:47:14if you've got

00:47:15ocd imagine

00:47:17how hard it

00:47:17is to try to

00:47:18calm your mind

00:47:19and just relax

00:47:20and i've even

00:47:22got a playlist on

00:47:23suno called

00:47:24calming where i

00:47:25wrote a couple

00:47:26instrumentals or

00:47:28or you know

00:47:28slow songs about

00:47:31ocd or adhd to

00:47:33try to calm down

00:47:35and calm the mind

00:47:37and slow it's

00:47:39kind of a music

00:47:40form of meditation

00:47:42yeah oh that's

00:47:43really good yeah

00:47:44and i and i and

00:47:46that's really good

00:47:46for anyone that

00:47:47wants to go there

00:47:47check it out

00:47:48listen to these

00:47:49music again

00:47:51tinyurl.com

00:47:52slash jld on

00:47:54suno and

00:47:56exactly go

00:47:56there and check

00:47:57it out my

00:47:58playlist i've got

00:47:59america 250

00:48:00playlist i've got

00:48:02the adhd ocd

00:48:04playlist i've got

00:48:05parodies playlist i've

00:48:07got life and

00:48:08living for my

00:48:09book series a

00:48:11playlist i've got

00:48:12that calming uh

00:48:14i've got like 10

00:48:15playlists there of

00:48:17different stuff so

00:48:18uh bad breakup

00:48:19songs you know

00:48:20everybody likes

00:48:21weird i've got one

00:48:23called fireworks on

00:48:25the fourth or no

00:48:26more fireworks on

00:48:28the fourth of july

00:48:29you know the yeah

00:48:30the figurative and

00:48:32literal no fireworks

00:48:33today because our

00:48:35relationship lost the

00:48:36fireworks and we're

00:48:37no longer together

00:48:38kind of thing

00:48:39oh wow oh

00:48:41that's good i'd like

00:48:42to go listen to it

00:48:43yeah that's in my

00:48:44bad breakups uh

00:48:45playlist

00:48:48yeah oh is there

00:48:50any like advice or

00:48:51recommendation you can

00:48:52give somebody who's

00:48:53struggling with their

00:48:54mental health

00:48:55uh well before i do

00:48:57that i want to also

00:48:58mention i wrote april

00:48:59fools should be our

00:49:01anniversary

00:49:01yeah yeah as both a

00:49:04parody and a bad

00:49:06breakup song it's like

00:49:07yeah well you sure

00:49:09played me for a fool

00:49:10april fools should be

00:49:12our anniversary now

00:49:13yeah my advice for

00:49:15anyone with health

00:49:16issues mental or

00:49:18otherwise seek help

00:49:20don't try to self

00:49:22medicate especially

00:49:24with alcohol or

00:49:26illegal drugs seek

00:49:28help we all have to

00:49:30learn to not be

00:49:31like in my

00:49:34christianalist edu

00:49:35series my

00:49:37christianalist book

00:49:38three i talk about

00:49:41hubris right

00:49:42right the the sin

00:49:45isn't pride you

00:49:47should be proud of

00:49:48johnny hitting the

00:49:49home run at little

00:49:51league and walk off

00:49:52home run you should be

00:49:54proud of sally getting

00:49:55all a's or winning a

00:49:57ribbon at the pony

00:49:58shows or in

00:49:59gymnastics or her

00:50:01little league baseball

00:50:03if she plays right

00:50:04you should take pride

00:50:07in a job well done at

00:50:09work but it's hubris if

00:50:11you're then going into

00:50:12the boss and pounding

00:50:13on it says i demand

00:50:15triple my salary because

00:50:16all these other people

00:50:17are worthless that's

00:50:19hubris that's pride

00:50:21fullness that's

00:50:22different you've got

00:50:24to put your pride

00:50:25aside and realize

00:50:27we're all human

00:50:28we're all flawed

00:50:30we're all frail

00:50:31we're all imperfect

00:50:33you need to seek

00:50:35help you can't

00:50:36resist seeking

00:50:38help would you

00:50:39need it

00:50:40anyway and that

00:50:41can be very

00:50:42difficult especially

00:50:42in these times

00:50:43um i feel like a

00:50:45lot of time they

00:50:46have these like

00:50:46stigmas associated

00:50:47with it how would

00:50:49you overcome

00:50:49something like that

00:50:50yeah again you

00:50:52just yeah i i

00:50:54started this thing

00:50:55a couple months

00:50:56ago called the

00:50:57mirror moment

00:50:59okay you know

00:51:00michael i i've

00:51:01talked about music

00:51:02so let me michael

00:51:04jackson's man in

00:51:05the mirror yeah

00:51:06right uh man or

00:51:08woman in the mirror

00:51:09whatever i'm asking

00:51:11him or her to

00:51:12change his ways

00:51:13right it starts

00:51:14with you same

00:51:15thing rick

00:51:16springfield from

00:51:17his karma album

00:51:18has a song called

00:51:19prayer i

00:51:20send a prayer

00:51:21to heaven for

00:51:22the chance to

00:51:23be a better

00:51:24man or woman

00:51:25than the man

00:51:27or woman i

00:51:28see presumably

00:51:29looking back in

00:51:30my mirror so

00:51:31i created the

00:51:33mirror moment on

00:51:34my show not

00:51:36you know the

00:51:37old network

00:51:38movie where the

00:51:38guy says i

00:51:39want you to go

00:51:40to the window

00:51:41open up and

00:51:41scream i'm

00:51:42as hell and i'm

00:51:43not gonna take

00:51:44anything well

00:51:45that's just

00:51:45pissing in the

00:51:46wind that's

00:51:47i do want

00:51:50you to

00:51:51literally get

00:51:52up off your

00:51:53ugly couch

00:51:55go to your

00:51:56bathroom look

00:51:58yourself in the

00:51:59mirror point

00:52:00your finger

00:52:00remember what's

00:52:01the old thing

00:52:02three more of

00:52:03your own are

00:52:04pointing right

00:52:05back at you

00:52:05because a lot

00:52:06of people fool

00:52:08of their liars

00:52:09their hip

00:52:10hurts and they

00:52:11fool everybody

00:52:12but the person

00:52:13they fool the

00:52:14most themselves

00:52:16you gotta be

00:52:18able to look

00:52:18yourself in the

00:52:19mirror have an

00:52:20honest conversation

00:52:22with yourself a

00:52:24mirror moment and

00:52:25self-reflect and

00:52:27who am i really

00:52:28what are my

00:52:29strengths what are

00:52:30my weakness not

00:52:32like you're at an

00:52:32interview of course

00:52:33but you know what

00:52:35i mean right and

00:52:36you've got to at

00:52:37first come to

00:52:38to thine own

00:52:40self be true but

00:52:42also the saying

00:52:43know thyself

00:52:44yeah you're

00:52:45right know

00:52:46thyself and

00:52:48before you can

00:52:50make any change

00:52:51and indeed if

00:52:52you're suffering

00:52:53hubris that's the

00:52:55first thing that's

00:52:56got to go

00:52:56the first thing

00:52:59to go has got

00:52:59to be a

00:53:00recognition i

00:53:02man or woman

00:53:03or whatever you

00:53:04want to call

00:53:05yourself have

00:53:06room for

00:53:07improvement and

00:53:08need to want

00:53:09to improve

00:53:10right

00:53:11and that's

00:53:12what we all

00:53:13do we're all

00:53:14on this journey

00:53:15in life it's

00:53:16not so much a

00:53:16destination it's

00:53:17always a journey

00:53:18and we're always

00:53:18working on

00:53:19ourselves

00:53:19oh great

00:53:21you set off my

00:53:22ocd brain now

00:53:24now i'm gonna

00:53:24now i'm gonna have

00:53:26the journey song

00:53:27when the lights

00:53:28go down

00:53:34i can't sing

00:53:35anymore that's

00:53:36another reason why

00:53:37i used suno ai

00:53:38instead i used to

00:53:40have a reasonable

00:53:41voice but my

00:53:42vocal range is

00:53:43between screeching

00:53:44cat and laughing

00:53:45haina now

00:53:46so i could do

00:53:49man and

00:53:50there i'm

00:53:51starting with

00:53:52the man

00:53:53the man

00:53:55mj which is

00:53:56appropriate the

00:53:57michael movie is

00:53:58out and i

00:53:58highly recommend

00:53:59it you know

00:54:00because he

00:54:01tried you know

00:54:02ebony and ivory

00:54:04and and human

00:54:06nature is the

00:54:07most important

00:54:07song i believe

00:54:08he ever wrote

00:54:09so michael movie

00:54:11is out now i

00:54:12think it's an

00:54:12important movie to

00:54:13see no it

00:54:15doesn't cover

00:54:15everything but it's

00:54:17important to

00:54:19recognize we

00:54:20gotta be nicer

00:54:20to each other

00:54:21we gotta try to

00:54:22be and but

00:54:23again man in

00:54:25the mirror it's

00:54:26gotta start with

00:54:27you it's gotta

00:54:27start within

00:54:29exactly and how

00:54:31can like people

00:54:31around the

00:54:33patient like

00:54:33their family

00:54:34their friend help

00:54:35out in that

00:54:36situation oh

00:54:37that's a good

00:54:38question i i

00:54:39haven't told this

00:54:40in a while on a

00:54:42broadcast but i

00:54:43used to play

00:54:44hockey through

00:54:45high school i

00:54:46never got to

00:54:47play in

00:54:48college or you

00:54:49know go pro or

00:54:50anything like that

00:54:51but uh so i

00:54:53watch a lot of

00:54:54nhl over the

00:54:56last few years

00:54:57several teams

00:54:58had psa's

00:55:00right public

00:55:01service announcements

00:55:02they have a psa

00:55:04called embrace

00:55:05the awkward

00:55:06right and

00:55:08they're showing a

00:55:09bunch of people

00:55:09uh you know

00:55:13like i know

00:55:14something's not

00:55:15right with you

00:55:16something's

00:55:17different i may

00:55:18not be able to

00:55:19help you but

00:55:21no i will

00:55:22listen and i

00:55:24will try to

00:55:25help you find

00:55:26the help you

00:55:27need embrace

00:55:28the awkward

00:55:29yeah you're

00:55:30right that's a

00:55:31good idea and

00:55:32that's something

00:55:32that everybody

00:55:33needs to keep

00:55:34that in mind

00:55:34too late

00:55:36especially with

00:55:38veterans the

00:55:3922 project i

00:55:40talk about all

00:55:41the time in

00:55:42fact i do in

00:55:43my uh terror

00:55:44strikes coming

00:55:45soon to the

00:55:46city of you

00:55:47ptsd

00:55:48uh survivors

00:55:50guilt for

00:55:51terrorists or

00:55:53even crime

00:55:54survivors that's

00:55:55a form of

00:55:56ptsd yeah

00:55:5722 project on

00:55:59average 22

00:56:00veterans committing

00:56:02suicide a day

00:56:03that's almost one

00:56:05an hour oh

00:56:06yeah or is it

00:56:0822 every hour

00:56:10i i i forget

00:56:12now but 22

00:56:13a day is

00:56:15too many

00:56:15it's too many

00:56:18two a month

00:56:19would be too

00:56:20many all

00:56:20lives have

00:56:21value

00:56:23it's not like

00:56:24it's a wonderful

00:56:25life with

00:56:26jimmy stewart

00:56:27and donna reed

00:56:28you know clarence

00:56:29isn't going to

00:56:30come down and

00:56:31show hey you

00:56:32saved somebody

00:56:33who went on

00:56:33to be a war

00:56:34hero or hey

00:56:35you you stopped

00:56:36a pharmacist

00:56:37from poisoning

00:56:38a child which

00:56:39would have ruined

00:56:40a few families

00:56:41lives most

00:56:43people's lives

00:56:44are never going

00:56:45to be that

00:56:46traumatic

00:56:47right but

00:56:48like my

00:56:55i think

00:56:56something with

00:56:58the internet

00:56:59i'm grabbing

00:57:00grab

00:57:01oh

00:57:03yeah i think

00:57:04we kind of

00:57:04uh stop a little

00:57:05but you're back

00:57:06yeah in the book

00:57:08of kennedy project

00:57:09carpe diem

00:57:10kennedy shares a

00:57:12forced smile

00:57:13smile with sam

00:57:14at a ice cream

00:57:16place because

00:57:17sam is divorced

00:57:19and it's his day

00:57:20with the kids

00:57:20and you know

00:57:21they're giving

00:57:22them a hard time

00:57:23over what flavor

00:57:24they want and

00:57:25she shares a

00:57:26smile with sam

00:57:27and sam

00:57:28was contemplating

00:57:30not going on

00:57:31anymore

00:57:31but that

00:57:32little smile

00:57:34that little

00:57:35moment

00:57:36made a big

00:57:37difference in

00:57:38sam's life

00:57:39and while it's

00:57:40fictional

00:57:41this relates

00:57:42to the real

00:57:43world

00:57:44sam then goes

00:57:45on to remarry

00:57:46whose then

00:57:47child

00:57:48goes on to

00:57:49cure cancer

00:57:50it wouldn't

00:57:52have happened

00:57:52without that

00:57:53little smile

00:57:54that kennedy

00:57:56doesn't even

00:57:56remember

00:57:57but sam

00:57:58does

00:57:59yeah

00:57:59but you know

00:58:00if you're kennedy

00:58:01you may not

00:58:03remember the

00:58:04smiles

00:58:05of the lame

00:58:06jokes you tell

00:58:07or what

00:58:07but it matters

00:58:09it does

00:58:10it adds up

00:58:11to something

00:58:12greater in the

00:58:13book of life

00:58:14or in the

00:58:15egyptian

00:58:16osiris

00:58:17uh

00:58:18grand scheme

00:58:20of themes

00:58:20whether your

00:58:21heart and your

00:58:22soul is lighter

00:58:23than a feather

00:58:24the mass

00:58:25of life

00:58:26little things

00:58:27add up

00:58:28in the grand

00:58:28scheme of

00:58:29things

00:58:29greater than

00:58:31those things

00:58:32that you

00:58:32think are

00:58:33big negatives

00:58:34in your life

00:58:36exactly

00:58:37like embrace

00:58:37like the little

00:58:38things in life

00:58:39it's kind of

00:58:41like

00:58:41we overlook

00:58:42those

00:58:43and i'm

00:58:44telling you

00:58:44they matter

00:58:45they do

00:58:47they do

00:58:48and every day

00:58:49is a blessing

00:58:50when you wake

00:58:50up that kind

00:58:51of thing

00:58:52yeah

00:58:52so embrace

00:58:53the awkward

00:58:54and insist

00:58:55they watch

00:58:55this show

00:58:57exactly

00:58:58so they hear

00:59:00all this

00:59:00you don't have

00:59:01to remember

00:59:01all this

00:59:02you can just

00:59:03tell them

00:59:04to listen

00:59:04to the

00:59:05nurse

00:59:05jesse

00:59:06podcast

00:59:07with joseph

00:59:08m leonard

00:59:09on it

00:59:10exactly

00:59:10yeah and

00:59:12this is so

00:59:12wonderful

00:59:13i want people

00:59:13to hear that

00:59:14because i'm

00:59:15trying to

00:59:15encourage these

00:59:16patients like

00:59:16just come in

00:59:17even utilize

00:59:18they have a

00:59:18family doctor

00:59:19utilize them

00:59:20and the

00:59:20resource

00:59:20as well

00:59:22you have

00:59:22a great

00:59:23relationship

00:59:23with your

00:59:24doctor

00:59:24how can

00:59:25patients get

00:59:25that kind

00:59:26of relationship

00:59:26with their

00:59:26doctor

00:59:27yeah well

00:59:27again it's

00:59:28it's

00:59:30there's other

00:59:31psas about

00:59:32you know

00:59:32like you go

00:59:34into the

00:59:34doc you ask

00:59:35questions everywhere

00:59:37you ask

00:59:37questions at

00:59:38the theater

00:59:39you ask

00:59:39questions at

00:59:40the diner

00:59:41you ask

00:59:41questions at

00:59:42the gas

00:59:43station

00:59:43but you go

00:59:44into the

00:59:45doctor and

00:59:45it's like

00:59:46you clam

00:59:47up

00:59:47yeah

00:59:47exactly

00:59:48yeah

00:59:48you've got

00:59:49to talk

00:59:50my last

00:59:53doctor visit

00:59:54we spent

00:59:5420 minutes

00:59:55together

00:59:55because i'm

00:59:57starting to get

00:59:58shakes in my

00:59:58right hand

00:59:59i need to go

01:00:00to a neurologist

01:00:01do i need to

01:00:02worry about

01:00:03parkinson's

01:00:04my fibromyalgia

01:00:06my on my

01:00:07dad's side

01:00:08my grandmother

01:00:09had really bad

01:00:11ra

01:00:11rheumatoid

01:00:12arthritis

01:00:13i've got

01:00:14swelling in

01:00:15my right

01:00:16foot that

01:00:16doesn't go

01:00:17away it

01:00:18seems to be

01:00:19getting worse

01:00:19i need to

01:00:20talk to a

01:00:21professional about

01:00:22that but

01:00:23that's you've

01:00:24gotta talk

01:00:25you've gotta

01:00:26ask questions

01:00:28jesse can't

01:00:29read your

01:00:30damn mind

01:00:31exactly

01:00:32you're right

01:00:33dummy

01:00:33right

01:00:34yeah that's

01:00:35how i am

01:00:36i'm like i

01:00:36can't read

01:00:37too much

01:00:37you don't

01:00:38tell me

01:00:38and if i

01:00:39if you don't

01:00:40tell it's

01:00:40like i can't

01:00:41help you if

01:00:42i don't have

01:00:42the information

01:00:43that's

01:00:43right

01:00:44and i try

01:00:44to explain

01:00:45the patient

01:00:45sometimes i

01:00:46tell them

01:00:46like just

01:00:46write it

01:00:47down or

01:00:48oh i'm glad

01:00:50you said that

01:00:50i'm reaching

01:00:51behind my

01:00:51green screen

01:00:52on my

01:00:52here's my

01:00:53notes from

01:00:54my last

01:00:55doctor visit

01:00:55now obviously

01:00:56i don't want

01:00:57to dox

01:00:57no i know

01:00:58yeah yeah

01:00:59yeah yeah

01:00:59yeah i get

01:01:00yeah exactly

01:01:01that's a good

01:01:02idea

01:01:03there's a

01:01:03heck dozen

01:01:04things on

01:01:05this sheet

01:01:05that i wanted

01:01:06to make sure

01:01:07i didn't forget

01:01:08to cover

01:01:09with the doctor

01:01:11when i was

01:01:11there because

01:01:12well that's

01:01:13an expense

01:01:13thing i don't

01:01:14want to have

01:01:14to go to

01:01:15the doctor

01:01:15three different

01:01:16times and pay

01:01:17a co-pay each

01:01:18time when i

01:01:20get it all in

01:01:21in one visit

01:01:22now i got

01:01:23another doctor

01:01:24visit anyway

01:01:24because i

01:01:25need to go to

01:01:26a neurologist

01:01:27yeah yeah

01:01:28general practitioner

01:01:29doesn't deal

01:01:30with uh

01:01:31parkinson's

01:01:32yeah and

01:01:33also you want

01:01:34to like limit

01:01:34the amount of

01:01:35visit like you

01:01:36want a more

01:01:36direct route to

01:01:37your issues

01:01:38you want to

01:01:38talk to a

01:01:39practice a

01:01:40normal general

01:01:40practitioner

01:01:43neurologist that

01:01:44will help you

01:01:44with that

01:01:45get a referral

01:01:46yes get a

01:01:47referral

01:01:47exactly

01:01:48whether you

01:01:49have insurance

01:01:50or not whether

01:01:51they require the

01:01:52referral or not

01:01:53it's good to

01:01:54have the referral

01:01:55yeah exactly

01:01:56and that's what

01:01:57i'm here for

01:01:58like i'm always

01:01:59there at the

01:02:00resource if i

01:02:00don't know the

01:02:01answer i will

01:02:02find the answer

01:02:02and again

01:02:04and again to

01:02:05sum things up i

01:02:07i am a doctor

01:02:08technically i i

01:02:10do have an

01:02:10honorary doctorate

01:02:12degree so i am

01:02:13dr joseph m

01:02:14leonard but i

01:02:15never put the dr

01:02:16or the phd at

01:02:18the end so i

01:02:20am a doctor but

01:02:21not really you

01:02:22know what i mean

01:02:23yeah i'm not

01:02:24a medical doctor

01:02:25nor am i trying

01:02:26to play one

01:02:27here jesse is

01:02:28a professional

01:02:29here yeah

01:02:30yeah that's

01:02:31right yeah

01:02:34and let's

01:02:35see i have

01:02:36like one last

01:02:36question

01:02:38um

01:02:42i guess

01:02:43uh-oh you

01:02:44lose it

01:02:45oh no

01:02:46i'm sorry

01:02:46yeah

01:02:47um

01:02:50did you

01:02:50have you ever

01:02:51felt like

01:02:52dismissed by

01:02:52your health

01:02:53care professional

01:02:53with your

01:02:55issues and

01:02:55all that

01:02:56again i i

01:02:57have a good

01:02:58relationship with

01:03:00the doctor now

01:03:01it was hard at

01:03:03first in 2001

01:03:04when i was going

01:03:05through my issues

01:03:07and before i got

01:03:08put on the

01:03:09disability and

01:03:10was no longer

01:03:11working

01:03:12yeah

01:03:12till 2004

01:03:14those three years

01:03:15were really rough

01:03:16going through

01:03:17things

01:03:17indeed trying to

01:03:19find out the

01:03:20diagnosis i felt

01:03:21rejected by

01:03:23the legal

01:03:24system not

01:03:26wanting to

01:03:26you know confirm

01:03:27i was disabled

01:03:29because hey i've

01:03:30got both arms

01:03:31working i got both

01:03:33legs that work

01:03:34you know disability

01:03:36can be internal

01:03:37too so i felt

01:03:39dismissed in that

01:03:40way but never by my

01:03:41doctors but we were

01:03:43confused together

01:03:45yeah i never felt

01:03:48dismissed

01:03:49yeah and then you

01:03:50guys were working

01:03:51together like what

01:03:52what's going on like

01:03:53how to figure this

01:03:53out what we do

01:03:55you can't read minds

01:03:57and narc is there a

01:03:59it's not like star

01:04:00track where you got

01:04:01the little thing

01:04:03oh yeah i could tell

01:04:05by the tricorder

01:04:06reading you've got a

01:04:08bum knee or you

01:04:09you you've got a

01:04:11heart valve problem

01:04:13or because that's

01:04:14been another one i

01:04:15had taver surgery

01:04:16last year

01:04:17yeah oh wow

01:04:18my main or the

01:04:21artery uh had to

01:04:22be replaced with a

01:04:24uh i think it was a

01:04:25cow cow part

01:04:27there's cow part or

01:04:28pig part but yeah

01:04:30and that's the other

01:04:31thing why i have a

01:04:33good relationship with

01:04:34my doctor is i do

01:04:35research things before

01:04:37i go in to talk to

01:04:39them yeah but i

01:04:40don't go on and

01:04:41say well web md

01:04:42says no no no no

01:04:44no you talk to

01:04:45them like a human

01:04:46and say yes i did

01:04:48go on web md or i

01:04:50did consult grok or

01:04:53i did and that was

01:04:55their thoughts and

01:04:57influence my thoughts

01:04:58but you're the

01:05:00professional yes we

01:05:01need to work through

01:05:02this together we

01:05:04need to yeah work

01:05:05together like work

01:05:06together review with

01:05:07see what's going on

01:05:08and how can we move

01:05:09forward what is the

01:05:10next step what do we

01:05:11need to do with this

01:05:12point right because

01:05:14things will only get

01:05:15worse yeah exactly

01:05:17yeah you're not gonna

01:05:18make there's no magic

01:05:20wand it's not gonna go

01:05:21away yeah right you're

01:05:24right unless you do

01:05:25something to change your

01:05:26situation yeah exactly

01:05:30all right uh we're coming

01:05:32up to the end oh wow

01:05:33we're coming up to the

01:05:34end of the power already

01:05:36yeah yeah wow this is

01:05:38amazing and is there any

01:05:40last word anything you

01:05:41would like to say to the

01:05:42listeners well i've given

01:05:43out a lot of tiny url sites

01:05:45but my actual author site is

01:05:49joseph m leonard again it

01:05:52looks french it's not

01:05:53leonard without a note

01:05:55joseph j-o-s-e-p-h m for

01:05:58martin l-e-n-a-r-d dot u-s

01:06:02is my author site i also for

01:06:05terror strikes have

01:06:07terror strikes dot info

01:06:09there's a lot of pages my

01:06:12author site is pretty bare it's

01:06:14kind of just a billboard but

01:06:16my terror strikes there's page

01:06:19upon page upon page you're

01:06:21gonna have weeks or months of

01:06:22research you could do there if

01:06:24you want so as little as you

01:06:26want to look at or as much as

01:06:28you want to look at is at

01:06:30terror strikes dot info finding

01:06:32me on social media or whatnot

01:06:34link tree if you know what

01:06:36link tree is i'm j leonard

01:06:39detroit link pr dot ee slash

01:06:43j leonard detroit right and i

01:06:46will include everything all the

01:06:48links and everything in the

01:06:49description to the reader you're

01:06:50gonna run out of room i gave you

01:06:52so many yeah i know but we've

01:06:55got to we got to do it so yeah

01:06:57so the main one is probably the

01:07:01link tree if you only remember

01:07:04one thing it's l-i-n-k-t-r dot ee

01:07:08slash j leonard detroit j for

01:07:10joseph not j-a-y j for joseph j

01:07:14leonard detroit uh because that's

01:07:17got most my links then in that

01:07:19one place yeah yeah that's great

01:07:22yeah and i would definitely i would

01:07:23add it to the description it would

01:07:25be definitely posted for everybody

01:07:26to see so well thank you so much i

01:07:29really appreciate your time this

01:07:30has been very informative and

01:07:32wonderful it was a wonderful to

01:07:33talk to you you've been amazing and

01:07:36i would put everything in the

01:07:37description um remember i am not a

01:07:41know it all but i do play one on the

01:07:43internet yeah yeah yeah thank you so

01:07:48much i'm going to end the recording

01:07:50okay

01:07:50all right

01:08:00you

01:08:04you

01:08:06you

01:08:07you

01:08:09you

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01:09:07Transcription by CastingWords

01:09:09It's in those heart-pounding moments, the climbs and the falls, that we discover who we truly are.

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01:09:57Empty glass on the table, your side of the bed so cold, I yelled, I screamed, I was able to

01:10:06promise our hearts together would grow old now.

01:10:10Silence screams in my head, every word I wish unsaid. I professed how my heart swelled at your touch, but

01:10:22still put you through hell.

01:10:24Roller Coaster tears. Falling down my face. Fighting all my fears. Lost in this lonely space. Roller Coaster tears. Never

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01:10:46Roller Coaster tears. A love I can't replace.

01:10:58The doorbell rang late that night. A siren's wail, a flashing light. My world went dark, no sun, no bright.

01:11:08Just endless wrong, no end in sight.

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01:11:26Roller Coaster tears. Roller Coaster tears. Falling down my face. Fighting all my fears. Lost in this lonely space. Roller

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01:12:13I pledged undying love till dust

01:12:17But alas, I was never worthy of your trust

01:12:20Now these nightmares won't let me be

01:12:23I was blind, I could not see

01:12:32Rollercoaster tears, falling down my face

01:12:38Fighting all my fears, lost in this lonely space

01:12:44Rollercoaster tears, you're gone, no trace

01:12:52Rollercoaster tears, a love I can replace

01:13:10The story is over, but yet again

01:13:17I have to live on, keep your legacy alive

01:13:22My love, my friend

01:13:24Rollercoaster tears, falling down my face

01:13:31Fighting all my fears, lost in this lonely space

01:13:39Rollercoaster tears, you're gone, no trace

01:13:44Rollercoaster tears, a love I can't replace

01:13:54If only one last time

01:14:01I could see your face

01:14:28I'm glad you're alive

01:14:31I'm glad you're alive

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01:15:18on the back of her plans.

01:15:49She said,

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01:15:57Teach me how to see the sacred in the middle of an ordinary life.

01:16:10She watched a kid chase a pigeon trip, then burst into grins. Mother's hands trembling slightly, like she'd almost lost

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01:16:23She thought, maybe this is the movie, not the part where the credits roll by.

01:16:31Just two plastic bags in a grocery cart and a quiet thank you at the end of the line.

01:16:38Are we just mediocre days with a few bright minutes stitched inside?

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