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18:11et les autres étaient prêts à me battre.
18:13Je me suis ravi et se déroule la conversation à un autre sujet.
18:16Puis les étudiants parlent de leur propre beastkin.
18:18Professeur, ce genre de beastkin vous avez à la maison ?
18:22Je ne sais pas comment expliquer mon histoire avec Nathan,
18:25donc je me suis dit,
18:26« Il est passé.
18:28Je suis désolé. »
18:29Après ça, pendant les deux lectures de la semaine,
18:31les étudiants d'avoir toujours mangé un café, un café ou un café ou un café.
18:34Je ne pouvais pas finir à tout,
18:35donc je pensais de la petite petite beastkin qui s'envoie à travers le campus.
18:38Les beastkin étaient striking, et Wolf Beastkin looked even more handsome.
18:41Mais le petit wolf sur campus avait beaucoup de scars sur les deux côtés de la face.
18:46Il était careful de ne pas se déroule les étudiants,
18:47donc il ne s'envoie pas après la nuit.
18:49Quand je suis venu de la labe à la nuit,
18:50à trouver le petit beastkin,
18:52il s'envoie d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un
18:55coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup d'un coup.
18:57Le petit wolf…
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19:00I was just trying to get out of the rain
19:03I didn't know anyone was here
19:04The young wolf beastkin was completely soaked
19:07You don't have to cover your face
19:08I've seen you before
19:11I have a dryer in my office
19:12Come up and dry off
19:13He hesitated for a moment, then nodded
19:15Thank you, miss
19:16Under the bright office lights, I saw he was very young
19:19Around 18 or 19, same age as my students
19:22While he showered, I went next door and asked colleagues about him
19:25His name's Lucas
19:26I heard he used to be really handsome
19:28So his old owner tried to sell him to the underground black market
19:31For that kind of dirty work
19:32But he fought back hard, bit someone and escaped
19:35His face got messed up while he was running away
19:37When the black market guys saw he was ruined
19:39They beat him and tossed him into the sea
19:42Luckily, some students pulled him out
19:44And he's been living off scraps around campus ever since
19:46Where's he staying?
19:47There's a shed on the hill behind the school
19:49Emily, I heard your beastkin passed away
19:51You're not actually thinking of adopting him, right?
19:53He's so ugly, who would want to adopt him?
19:55His words overlapped with the old mockery I used to hear
19:58She looks so ordinary
20:00How could anyone like her?
20:03But why?
20:04We also have hearts that want to love and be loved
20:08Hayes, Lucas isn't ugly
20:09He's just been hurt
20:10And he's kind and adorable
20:12I've seen him share the food he scavenged with the little beggars outside school
20:15I've seen him donate money to the beastkin school
20:18So please, don't talk about him like that anymore
20:21When I came out of my colleague's office
20:23I saw Lucas standing in the hallway
20:25His hair and tail were still wet
20:26His eyes glistened with unshed tears
20:30I awkwardly changed the subject
20:33If it's hard for you to do it yourself, can I help dry you?
20:36I took the towel and dried his hair and tail
20:38Then used the hair dryer
20:40It was my first time drying a beastkin's tail
20:42So I kept making clumsy mistakes and apologizing
20:45It's okay, thank you so much, miss
20:47After I finished, I offered him the cake and milk tea
20:49He didn't take them
20:51After hesitating for a long time, he spoke again
20:54Voice low, but steady
20:56Miss, I don't eat much
20:58Could you adopt me?
20:59I know I'm not good looking
21:00But I can cook, wash dishes, clean the house
21:03I can also give massages and take care of flowers
21:06But I'm not good looking either
21:07Would you still choose me?
21:10You're very cute, miss
21:12I want to go with you
21:13My eyes stung
21:14I blinked back the tears, took Lucas' hand
21:17And left the lab building
21:18The rain had stopped
21:20I finally had a home
21:21And someone just like me
21:24Don't touch me
21:25Just like the first time I tried to touch his horns
21:27I used to think it was natural dragon aloofness
21:29Turns out it was pure disgust
21:31Even after I rescued him and cared for him devotedly for 13 years
21:34I laughed at myself bitterly
21:36So people who aren't beautiful don't deserve sincerity
21:38Tears fell without warning
21:39When I looked up, I was alone
21:41An immense, silent despair wrapped around me
21:44I couldn't stop remembering those school garden parties
21:46I would carry a big pot of beef stew
21:48And find Nathan in the yard
21:49Nathan, can you come with me to the school garden party this time?
21:53No
21:53But a lot of people bring their bee skin
21:55No
21:56If you want someone to go with, adopt a new one
21:59So I always went to the garden parties alone
22:01I stood in the corner, watching Ethan
22:03Who had the same face as Nathan
22:04Smile so gently at Sophia
22:06Sophia?
22:07Do you want that little bear plush?
22:08Sophia would nod with a smile
22:10Stand on her tiptoes to touch his horns
22:12And Ethan would always bend down to make it easier for her
22:14I watched like a thief
22:15Longing for Sophia's life
22:17Terrified of being discovered
22:18Just as I was about to leave
22:20Kevin and his gang shoved me to the ground
22:21I panicked
22:22Well, if it isn't our class genius Emily
22:24Why didn't your little beasting tag along with you today?
22:27Emily's beastling and Sophia's are twin dragons
22:29The good looking one got the beauty
22:31While the other got stuck with the plane sister
22:32What a shame for him
22:33I started backing away
22:35Only to see Nathan
22:36Who had refused to come with me
22:37Walking towards Sophia with a cone of ice cream
22:39He handed it to her
22:40And my breath caught
22:41As if sensing something
22:42Nathan glanced in my direction
22:43But nothing happened
22:44I wasn't sure if Nathan had seen me
22:46But one thing I knew for certain
22:48The next second he turned
22:49And left with Sophia and Ethan
22:51Seeing this
22:52Kevin laughed viciously
22:53Your beastling doesn't want you at all
22:55He's fucking embarrassed to be seen with you in public
22:58Rage surged through me
23:00I couldn't take it anymore
23:01Gritting my teeth
23:02I swung at the lackey
23:03And knocked him down
23:04Kevin lunged at me
23:06I pinned him
23:06And beat him too
23:07In the end
23:08I was called to the principal's office
23:10I thought my mom would stand up for me
23:12Instead
23:12She complained
23:13Right in front of the teacher
23:15And Kevin
23:15Why did you have to hit him?
23:16Your classmate didn't say anything wrong
23:18Mom
23:19You're not good looking to start with
23:21And your temper is awful
23:23Even the beastling you raised
23:24Doesn't like you
23:25How did I ever give birth
23:26To such a pathetic nerd?
23:28Sometimes I wish Sophia
23:29Was my only daughter
23:30I don't remember
23:31How I ran out of the office
23:32I only remember crying in the park
23:34All night
23:35When I got home
23:36My father slapped me across the face
23:38How did I end up with such a useless daughter?
23:40I sat in the living room the entire night
23:42When the first rays of sunlight came in
23:44I instinctively shrank away
23:45Only when I curled up in my dimly lit bedroom
23:47Did I feel a sliver of peace
23:49I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep
23:52My reversed sleep schedule left my mind blank when I woke up
23:55After a brief moment of emptiness
23:57Endless self-loathing and loneliness
23:59Swallowed me again
24:00I pushed open the door
24:01And realized it was already dusk
24:03Nathan had gone out
24:04But his scent filled every corner of the house
24:06I ate a piece of bread without tasting it
24:08Then packed up everything that belonged to me
24:10There wasn't much of my stuff anyway
24:12After I got into university at 18
24:14I escaped my family home
24:15I was afraid my parents would mistreat Nathan
24:18So I brought him with me
24:19Nathan always kept the same attitude
24:20Neither accepting nor rejecting
24:22Of course, that wasn't entirely accurate
24:25He would reject my touches
24:26My hugs
24:27When I was poorest
24:28I could only afford a single room
24:30He slept on the bed
24:31I slept on the sofa
24:32Nathan was over 6 feet tall
24:34And kept bumping his head in the tiny rental
24:36So I worked day and night
24:37Until I could buy a small 3 bedroom apartment
24:39I thought I only had Nathan
24:41Even if he was a bit cold
24:43He was still my little dragon that I had rescued
24:45Love often feels like owing someone
24:47So I bought him so many things
24:49I never imagined he didn't want any of this love at all
24:51I decided to set him free
24:53I liked walking
24:54Nathan liked walking too
24:55But he never liked walking with me
24:56Only when Sophia was out with Ethan would he join me
24:59I should have realized it sooner
25:00Nathan's tail was usually drooping lazily
25:03His pupils dull and uninterested
25:05Only when Sophia appeared would his dragon tail wag excitedly in tight circles
25:09While his vertical pupils contracted sharply with clear eagerness
25:12I used to think he just missed Ethan
25:14A car horn pulled me out of my memories
25:16I looked up blankly and saw other beastkin picking up their owners
25:19That warmth I had never experienced
25:21I stood there alone
25:22Like a clown watching someone else's happy performance
25:25Are you sure you want to end the adoption with Nathan?
25:27I nodded
25:28Terminating as a human required financial compensation
25:31I left the three bedroom apartment to him
25:33Miss Emily, do you want us to deliver this to Mr. Nathan?
25:36Or will you handle it yourself?
25:37Please deliver it for me
25:38And give him this as well
25:40The letter had only two sentences
25:41Sorry Nathan
25:42I took you away without your consent
25:44So this time
25:45I'm setting you free
25:46I walked out of the beastkin affairs office
25:49Got in the car
25:50And left the city
25:51My new life would be by the sea
25:53Waiting for spring
25:54My new job was lecturer at a coastal university
25:57I rented a small sea view courtyard
25:59The evening sea breeze carried a salty tang
26:01I wore my mask while walking along the shore
26:04The orange sunset was perfect
26:06I took a photo
26:07And habitually opened my chat with Nathan
26:09Scrolling up
26:10It was all my one-sided messages
26:12Cute trinkets
26:13Strange clouds
26:14Blooming flowers
26:15He rarely replied
26:17A short
26:17Hmm
26:18Was usually all I got
26:19The last record stopped on the day I overheard the truth
26:22I asked him
26:23Where are you?
26:24I'll come pick you up
26:25He still hadn't replied
26:26He should have received the termination certificate by now right?
26:29Yet he wouldn't even say goodbye
26:31Only a heart full of dense
26:32Aching bitterness remained
26:34I thought about it
26:35And decided my new life shouldn't be tied to the past
26:38So I changed my phone number
26:39And created a new social media account
26:41Sleep was impossible that night
26:43The night air was cool as water
26:44Moonlight pouring down
26:46This was my favorite time
26:47After my mom publicly tore open my scars in the office that year
26:50Kevin started mocking me about being ugly without restraint
26:53Emily is just an ugly bookworm
26:55Even her own mother doesn't like her
26:57I couldn't argue back because it was the truth
26:59I could only wait for nightfall
27:00Hiding in the darkness to cry in secret
27:03Back then Nathan would always stand in the yard
27:05After I cried on the balcony
27:06He would still be standing there
27:08I once mistook it for his silent companionship
27:10Now I realize he was probably just like me
27:13Using the darkness to cover his own sadness
27:15Besides teaching at university
27:16I had my own research project
27:18After finishing
27:18I would run a lap along the beach before coming back to write
27:21I filled every hour of my schedule
27:23To earn nights without insomnia
27:27Professor, why do you never take off your mask?
27:31Because I'm not good looking
27:33Who said that?
27:34I'll tear their mouths apart
27:35There's no such thing as an unattractive girl
27:37The girls spoke with genuine passion
27:39And the others looked ready to fight on my behalf
27:41I would laugh and steer the conversation to another topic
27:43Then the students started talking about their own beastkin
27:46Professor, what kind of beastkin do you have at home?
27:49I didn't know how to explain my complicated history with Nathan
27:52So I just said
27:53He passed away
27:55I'm so sorry
27:56After that
27:57During the two big lectures each week
27:59Students would always bring me milk tea
28:00Cake or chocolate
28:01I couldn't finish it all
28:02So I thought of the little wolf beastkin
28:04Who scavenged around campus
28:06Beastkin were striking
28:07And wolf beastkin looked even more handsome
28:08But this little wolf on campus
28:10Had many deep and shallow scars
28:12Across both sides of his face
28:13He was careful not to startle the students
28:15So he only came out after dark
28:16When I came out of the lab that evening
28:18To find the little beastkin
28:19It happened to start raining
28:20A shadowy figure slipped out
28:21Cautiously
28:22His bushy wolf teeth
28:23Flicking into view
28:24Little wolf
28:26Huh?
28:26The autumn rain was cold
28:27Sorry miss
28:28I was just trying to get out of the rain
28:30I didn't know anyone was here
28:32The young wolf beastkin was completely soaked
28:34You don't have to cover your face
28:36I've seen you before
28:38I have a dryer in my office
28:39Come up and dry off
28:41He hesitated for a moment
28:42Then nodded
28:42Thank you miss
28:43Under the bright office lights
28:45I saw he was very young
28:46Around 18 or 19
28:48Same age as my students
28:49While he showered
28:50I went next door
28:51And asked colleagues about him
28:52His name's Lucas
28:53I heard he used to be really handsome
28:55So his old owner tried to sell him
28:57To the underground black market
28:58For that kind of dirty work
28:59But he fought back hard
29:01Bit someone
29:01And escaped
29:02His face got messed up
29:03While he was running away
29:04When the black market guys
29:06Saw he was ruined
29:07They beat him
29:07And tossed him into the sea
29:09Luckily some students pulled him out
29:11And he's been living off scraps
29:12Around campus ever since
29:13Where's he staying?
29:15There's a shed on the hill
29:16Behind the school
29:16Emily I heard your beastkin passed away
29:18You're not actually thinking
29:19Of adopting him right?
29:20He's so ugly
29:21Who would want to adopt him?
29:23His words overlapped
29:24With the old mockery
29:25I used to hear
29:26She looks so ordinary
29:27How could anyone like her?
29:30But why?
29:31We also have hearts
29:32That want to love
29:33And be loved
29:34Hayes
29:34Lucas isn't ugly
29:35He's just been hurt
29:36And he's kind and adorable
29:38I've seen him share the food
29:39He scavenged with the little beggars
29:40Outside school
29:41I've seen him donate money
29:43To the beastkin school
29:44So please
29:45Don't talk about him
29:46Like that anymore
29:47When I came out of my colleague's office
29:49I saw Lucas standing in the hallway
29:51His hair and tail were still wet
29:52His eyes glistened
29:53With unshed tears
29:56I awkwardly changed the subject
29:59If it's hard for you
30:00To do it yourself
30:01Can I help dry you?
30:02I took the towel
30:03And dried his hair and tail
30:05Then used the hair dryer
30:06It was my first time
30:07Drying a beastkin
30:08So I kept making clumsy mistakes
30:10And apologizing
30:11It's okay
30:12Thank you so much, miss
30:12After I finished
30:14I offered him the cake
30:15And milk tea
30:15He didn't take them
30:17After hesitating for a long time
30:19He spoke again
30:20Voice low
30:20But steady
30:22Miss
30:22I don't eat much
30:23Could you adopt me?
30:25I know I'm not good looking
30:26But I can cook
30:27Wash dishes
30:28Clean the house
30:29I can also give massages
30:30And take care of flowers
30:32But I'm not good looking either
30:33Would you still choose me?
30:36You're very cute, miss
30:38I wanna go with you
30:39My eyes stung
30:40I blinked back the tears
30:42Took Lucas' hand
30:43And left the lab building
30:44The rain had stopped
30:46I finally had a home
30:47And someone just like me
30:48I left the lab building
30:48You just like me
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