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Age of Attraction - Season 1 - Episode 08
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00:00:10You
00:00:14Excited very excited. I've been waiting for this forever
00:00:25I
00:00:26Haven't really felt like this about anyone. I am 38 years. You know, I
00:00:3622 trying to roll with that whole age is just a number thing
00:00:43You ready? I'm 60
00:00:50Oh
00:00:50My gosh
00:00:5230 40 56. Yeah, he's 33 years older than me
00:00:57Jorge's literally the same age as my parents
00:01:03I never want to be surprised about something you've done. I came here with you not to feel alone
00:01:10I feel like you're not attracted to me
00:01:14We're kind of in a friend zone right now
00:01:16Okay
00:01:18Is he the right person? Did I pick the right person? Okay? I'm really done talking
00:01:24Okay
00:01:25Can I get this mic off
00:01:26This connection is not going to be easy to find
00:01:31Okay
00:01:32I know I won't find this again
00:01:37Starting tomorrow
00:01:39You are getting visitors
00:01:41You are getting visitors your friends your families
00:01:45I've never dated anyone this much older
00:01:49I hope it works out well for them
00:01:50I hope it works out well for them but it's weird it's weird
00:01:52Being 23 and potentially having two immediate children
00:01:58Yeah
00:01:59I'm leaving everybody
00:02:01And everything I've worked for
00:02:03What the fuck am I doing?
00:02:05I'm just exhausted and I'm overwhelmed because I feel like I can't be myself with you
00:02:11I'm leaving you
00:02:12I'm leaving you
00:02:13I'm leaving you
00:02:13Integrating a 22 year old girl into my life is definitely concerning
00:02:19Is there a future with us?
00:02:22It's decision time
00:02:24Do you commit to taking this leap together?
00:02:29Or do you choose a different path?
00:02:31Alone?
00:02:35It sucks
00:02:42I wasn't fine till you came
00:02:45Into my view
00:02:47Thought I was going insane
00:02:50Till I found you
00:02:52Did you get everything out of the bathroom?
00:02:55But I'll check the other rooms
00:02:57You work on yours
00:02:58I think you need to get a garment bag
00:03:01Yeah
00:03:02I feel nervous anxious
00:03:05This is the last time I'm going to see her
00:03:07Before the commitment ceremony
00:03:09Everything I can do I did
00:03:11I'm super nervous about
00:03:14My alone time
00:03:15And you know what is that alone time going to lead me to think
00:03:20Part of me wants to commit to Vanessa
00:03:23And then part of me is like
00:03:25Is this right?
00:03:26Is this up and down too much for us to handle?
00:03:30You know?
00:03:31And my fear of commitment
00:03:34Continues to be my fear of commitment
00:03:35Right?
00:03:36And so
00:03:37That's
00:03:39Scary thought
00:03:41How are you doing?
00:03:42I got all your stuff ready for you
00:03:43Thank you
00:03:45How are you feeling?
00:03:46Okay, how are you?
00:03:47I'm good
00:03:50I'm sad
00:03:50I don't want you to leave
00:03:51I don't even know what to say
00:03:54I know
00:03:54It's been fun
00:03:55The last few days with you has been like
00:03:57Better than I could ever dream of
00:03:59I mean
00:04:01You're one of the most amazing girls I've ever met in my entire life
00:04:04Thank you
00:04:05It's hard to put it into words, right?
00:04:07But
00:04:08I think it was
00:04:09One of the most amazing beautiful things I've ever experienced
00:04:12And
00:04:13You know, it's weird kind of closing this chapter
00:04:16And
00:04:17I feel like we're breaking off
00:04:19Is this like a breakup?
00:04:23I don't know what to say
00:04:25What if I cry?
00:04:28Okay
00:04:29Don't
00:04:30It's okay?
00:04:31Okay
00:04:32It'll be okay
00:04:34You look amazing
00:04:35Thanks
00:04:38No
00:04:42Okay?
00:04:43Okay
00:04:44You okay?
00:04:46Mhm
00:04:46Is it okay?
00:04:47Yeah
00:04:48Promise?
00:04:49Mhm
00:04:51Okay for you
00:04:53Yeah
00:04:56Okay.
00:04:57I just have PTSD, I think.
00:05:00What?
00:05:01I don't know. Just with, like,
00:05:03the history of my relationships not working out,
00:05:05you know, and I feel like this is just another
00:05:09failed attempt, you know?
00:05:12Like, it's not you. I don't want to project it on you.
00:05:14It's not you at all. It's just...
00:05:17I've just put myself out there before,
00:05:19and only to get hurt, and I just hope, like,
00:05:23this doesn't have the same outcome.
00:05:25That's scary.
00:05:27Something inside me is way too scared to
00:05:31care about you like this.
00:05:34Coming into this with Logan,
00:05:35I had so many reservations
00:05:37because I had been so hurt before.
00:05:40So there is this guard up, like,
00:05:42I'll be okay, I'll be okay, you know?
00:05:44And maybe I won't be okay.
00:05:46I just hope I chose right this time,
00:05:49and I picked the right person,
00:05:51and I feel like you are,
00:05:52and I hope that you feel the same about me.
00:05:56Yeah, I mean, I do.
00:05:59It's really scary to not put yourself out there
00:06:02for this many years,
00:06:04get this close to someone,
00:06:06only for yourself to be devastated all over again,
00:06:10and for the whole world to see.
00:06:14We'll see ya. Okay.
00:06:15Okay. Take care of yourself.
00:06:16To see an older woman with a man 20 years younger,
00:06:20like, that's rare.
00:06:21It's very rare.
00:06:22And it's like, am I delusional
00:06:25to think that it would even work, you know?
00:06:27Am I delusional to put my heart out there?
00:06:32I mean, he's, like, in the prime of his life right now,
00:06:34honestly.
00:06:35I've been here before, darling.
00:06:37I don't think you'll stay.
00:06:40And why would he give that up
00:06:42for someone 20 years older than him?
00:06:44I'll hold out, I'll hold out, I'll hold on.
00:06:49But I hope you'll put me on.
00:06:54Go back, baby, out of my dreams.
00:06:59You're leaving.
00:07:00I know.
00:07:01I'm just trying to make sure I don't forget anything.
00:07:03But you're forgetting me.
00:07:06I think that we need this little bit of separation
00:07:09because we haven't had it,
00:07:10and this is the first time that I think I'm gonna be able
00:07:12to look at this from the outside,
00:07:15make a clear decision.
00:07:17Clearly, me and Leah have had ups and downs
00:07:19since we moved in together.
00:07:20But at the same time, there's been much blessings
00:07:23from this relationship.
00:07:24Even during the difficult times,
00:07:26the care and the love for each other
00:07:28has always been constant.
00:07:29And I think that it's very clear
00:07:33that I care so much for her.
00:07:35So the question is, is that,
00:07:37does the good outweigh the bad?
00:07:39And are these good moments enough
00:07:41to continue in this relationship?
00:07:44Give me a hug.
00:07:48Thank you for being you.
00:07:49Thank you for making me a better person.
00:07:52You're welcome.
00:07:54You're seriously?
00:07:57Why are you looking at me like that?
00:07:59Because you're leaving.
00:08:03We didn't even get to dance yet.
00:08:09Yeah.
00:08:12I have a lot of thinking.
00:08:13We both have a lot of thinking to do.
00:08:14Yeah, I know.
00:08:17I...
00:08:22I'm gonna miss...
00:08:24I'm gonna miss you a little bit.
00:08:25I'm gonna miss you too.
00:08:27I think more than you think.
00:08:28You think?
00:08:29Mm-hmm.
00:08:30You're not gonna be able to sleep now
00:08:31because you're gonna be thinking about me?
00:08:32Maybe...
00:08:33Maybe...
00:08:33I don't know about that.
00:08:34What?
00:08:35I might be able to sleep.
00:08:36No, you won't.
00:08:38Give me my hand.
00:08:42It's like bittersweet this morning.
00:08:44All right.
00:08:44I'll see you.
00:08:45I'll see you.
00:08:45With the commitment ceremony coming up,
00:08:47it's gonna be difficult.
00:08:48We're still debating on how we're even gonna make it work here,
00:08:52right?
00:08:52Let alone commit to each other.
00:08:55I know he likes me,
00:08:56and we're leaving off in a great space right now.
00:08:59But, yeah, I don't want to put any pressure on it
00:09:02because I don't know.
00:09:03I don't know what the future holds for us.
00:09:05Because the words won't buffer anymore.
00:09:10How are you feeling?
00:09:13About what?
00:09:13Leaving.
00:09:15Mm-hmm.
00:09:15I feel like I've been the one that brings up,
00:09:18you know, some of the more challenging things,
00:09:20and we don't know how we're gonna communicate after this.
00:09:25Like, we've only ever been in this bubble.
00:09:28So, like, we don't know what it's like to text or call
00:09:31or I've never done long distance before.
00:09:34So those things naturally, I feel like,
00:09:36are things that I'm thinking about.
00:09:39Yeah.
00:09:40I'm glad you brought it up
00:09:43because I just wasn't even thinking about it that way at all.
00:09:47I think I'm just someone that is very realistic.
00:09:50Yeah.
00:09:50And, you know...
00:09:52Yeah, no, I understand.
00:09:53I know that this has to end at some point.
00:09:55And...
00:09:55Mm-hmm.
00:09:56...just...
00:09:58Yeah.
00:09:58I mean, I wish we could stay in this little bubble forever,
00:10:02but, you know, we have to say goodbye.
00:10:05The fact that the next time I am going to see Andrew
00:10:09is the commitment ceremony gives me a little bit of anxiety, honestly.
00:10:14Um...
00:10:14I know he's in his head, and I don't blame him too much
00:10:17because those doubts were in the back of my mind.
00:10:20I just wasn't really vocalizing them.
00:10:22There is a part of me that's afraid that the age gap between Andrew and I
00:10:27will just be too much.
00:10:29And, yeah, I have a fear that, ultimately, that will just be too overwhelming for both of us.
00:10:36Just run into the fountain, cause now I can feel it.
00:10:43Okay.
00:10:47Bye-bye.
00:10:49See ya.
00:10:50See ya.
00:10:52See ya.
00:11:25Bye-bye.
00:11:29Bye.
00:11:29No, I'm...
00:11:43Is that beautiful?
00:11:44Mm-hmm.
00:11:46Well, I will think of you every time I look at him.
00:11:50I was thinking about that this time away.
00:11:55I love supporting you,
00:11:57and I love being here for you when...
00:12:03you're going through some shit.
00:12:04So I'll be thinking about you.
00:12:08Um, I'm going to have some time
00:12:12just to, like, think and get myself, like, more centered.
00:12:16Mm-hmm.
00:12:16Um, and I'm going to miss you for sure.
00:12:20We've gotten so close in such a short period of time,
00:12:24and living together was amazing.
00:12:27Um, I'm going to miss that for sure.
00:12:30But I think this time apart is going to be good for us,
00:12:33even though I hate saying goodbye.
00:12:38Um...
00:12:38So I'm glad I have these.
00:12:42I'm there with you.
00:12:44Okay.
00:12:49Well, thanks for being everything for me.
00:12:51Mm-hmm.
00:12:52And...
00:12:55Don't miss me too much.
00:12:57Impossible.
00:13:00I am in love with Teresa.
00:13:02The way she's allowed me to open up and be vulnerable
00:13:06and not put on a facade, which I've done in the past,
00:13:09and just the joy she brings me, like, when I wake up and I see her,
00:13:12and that sense of home.
00:13:15It feels good.
00:13:16I love you.
00:13:17I love you.
00:13:18Am I hoping that we come out on the same page
00:13:22and even a little stronger?
00:13:24Yeah, and I think that's a possibility.
00:13:29But there's a chance that...
00:13:32It's going to be weird.
00:13:33Yeah.
00:13:36She just gets way too in her head,
00:13:40and she might be a different person when I see her again.
00:13:45Bye.
00:13:46Okay.
00:13:46Goodbye.
00:13:47Goodbye.
00:13:57I have a huge, huge decision to make.
00:14:03There's no denying that we had a true and real connection
00:14:07from the beginning.
00:14:10Time is gonna let you down.
00:14:15However, I still have some doubts.
00:14:21Is this just the final call?
00:14:26It's a huge commitment to say that this person,
00:14:33who's 27 years younger than me,
00:14:35is my boyfriend.
00:14:38and that I'm going to commit to going forward with this
00:14:42and opening this up to the world.
00:14:48I don't know if I have the strength to see this through.
00:15:02It's cheers to this journey that we've had.
00:15:05Cheers to a big decision.
00:15:06A very big decision coming.
00:15:16How do you feel?
00:15:19I know that that doesn't always make everything okay and easy.
00:15:27I do understand the logistics of where we are in life.
00:15:32Geographical challenges, other challenges as well.
00:15:36So, you know, it's time to take all that into consideration.
00:15:40Yeah.
00:15:41You know, this whole time we've kind of been like,
00:15:43oh, we're in a fairy tale and everything is perfectly smooth
00:15:46and we're having no challenges, which was true.
00:15:49It was true up until these last few days.
00:15:52So the fact that we're taking this time apart now
00:15:57has me a little bit unsure about my decision.
00:16:06A lot of questions have come up that I just have been ignoring
00:16:09and I think I've been putting them off
00:16:11because I didn't want to ruin anything
00:16:14or have anything be different than what it was.
00:16:17So, like, while it is confusing and it's scary,
00:16:23I know that this time apart will end up benefiting both of us
00:16:29because my decision will be grounded
00:16:31and, like, it will be thoughtful.
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:37And I respect that.
00:16:41I definitely think her concerns are valid,
00:16:44but one thing that I've done the last few days
00:16:48is try to truly focus on her feelings and her emotions
00:16:52and I've taken myself out of it a little bit
00:16:56and obviously we're going to have some time apart
00:16:58to where, you know, I'm going to have to think that through
00:17:02on my side as well
00:17:03and what does that look like
00:17:05because it's a big commitment
00:17:07and can she handle it?
00:17:09See?
00:17:11We're probably just at different stages in life.
00:17:13I have my boys.
00:17:15How will that match?
00:17:16There's so many question marks.
00:17:19I'd be lying to you
00:17:21if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
00:17:23If it's not too late
00:17:29If it's not too late
00:17:32If it's not too late
00:17:57So today is the commitment ceremony.
00:18:01I feel confident,
00:18:03but I don't know how she's been feeling.
00:18:06I don't know if she let the thoughts get to her
00:18:08or the stress of her kids get to her.
00:18:14You know, I support her
00:18:16and I'm here for her
00:18:17and my family supports, you know, our relationship
00:18:21but I'm worried that Teresa hasn't bought in
00:18:24because of a lot of factors that I can't control.
00:18:33I'm fully committed to Teresa
00:18:44and I hope she's ready
00:18:46to take that leap
00:18:47with me.
00:19:01My feelings are getting much stronger
00:19:04every day for John.
00:19:05I have to admit that, you know,
00:19:07I am falling for him.
00:19:09It's almost been too good to be true
00:19:11but there's also a piece of me that still has doubts.
00:19:22This age gap difference is huge
00:19:25and, yeah, I'm scared.
00:19:32I have the option of walking away today
00:19:36and, you know, I'd be walking away from a lot.
00:19:39I know that I will regret not having him in my life
00:19:44but I don't know if it's going to be too much.
00:19:49Should we just take the easy route
00:19:54and go our separate ways
00:19:56and go back to our lives the way they were?
00:19:59I don't know if I'm ready for this.
00:20:02A final tear drop
00:20:33We've gone through a lot of hard stuff early on
00:20:37that I'm thankful for.
00:20:39We had to be there for each other
00:20:41and that says something.
00:20:42I've never been able to be there for someone.
00:20:43I was never in the right headspace for it.
00:20:45I was never open to receive this
00:20:48and to support someone like I've supported you.
00:20:50I feel lucky that I get to show up for you.
00:20:56I'm confident in this.
00:20:58I'm confident in what we've built.
00:21:00I know what we have
00:21:01and it's the feeling.
00:21:04It's the immediate sense of calmness
00:21:09that you bring me whenever I see you.
00:21:12Us being able to laugh
00:21:15during the most serious moments,
00:21:17the most intimate moments.
00:21:20I'm looking forward to that next step
00:21:25and we'll get there with the age thing.
00:21:28Mm-hmm.
00:21:30I need you to believe that age is just a number
00:21:33but also believe in me
00:21:35that every day I'm going to show up
00:21:37and work on this together.
00:21:44When I decided to take this journey
00:21:46to find someone to share my life with,
00:21:52I said to myself that I was ready.
00:21:56When I met you,
00:21:57you drew me in with your smile,
00:22:01your energy,
00:22:02and your steadiness.
00:22:06You made me laugh.
00:22:10And you made me feel better
00:22:13than I ever had in the past.
00:22:16But for whatever reason,
00:22:17there was still something holding me back.
00:22:23When you met my kids
00:22:25and I didn't tell them your age,
00:22:27it wasn't because I was ashamed.
00:22:30It was because I was scared.
00:22:33Scared because if I spoke it,
00:22:35it would be real.
00:22:38Scared because
00:22:40of the things we might face from the world,
00:22:45knowing that the world is not fair
00:22:49and that there is a double standard
00:22:51against women who date younger men.
00:22:54So it got me thinking,
00:22:57maybe it would be better
00:22:58if I walked away
00:23:00before it got to be too difficult
00:23:07and too real.
00:23:10You're kidding.
00:23:15It's a lot.
00:23:20It's a really scary thing for me.
00:23:23if I let myself
00:23:28be totally vulnerable
00:23:31with you
00:23:33and the world.
00:23:35It's the hugest risk
00:23:38I will ever have taken.
00:23:44I just didn't see this coming.
00:23:55It's a total 180
00:23:57from what we were feeling.
00:24:01And we've shared some amazing times together.
00:24:06And you've been really patient
00:24:07and very understanding.
00:24:14But I just worry
00:24:16that it's too much.
00:24:20You're not up for the fight?
00:24:23I mean,
00:24:24I'm a fighter.
00:24:26I'm also
00:24:27just trying to protect myself
00:24:30and to protect you.
00:24:34I don't know what to say.
00:24:36There's a letter
00:24:37that my kids wrote to you
00:24:40that I want to read.
00:24:49All right.
00:24:51Dear John,
00:24:52it was really nice meeting you
00:24:53and watching you
00:24:54and our mom together.
00:25:00She just seemed so happy
00:25:02and we haven't seen her
00:25:04like that in a while.
00:25:10Give me a second.
00:25:14We don't know exactly
00:25:16what the age difference is,
00:25:17but it doesn't matter to us
00:25:19after seeing YouTube together.
00:25:22We just want her to be happy.
00:25:26And you clearly do that.
00:25:27So we support your relationship
00:25:31and are excited
00:25:32for whatever comes next.
00:25:34Love Lauren, Richard, and Michael.
00:25:46I just need to know
00:25:47if you believe that.
00:25:48If you're up for that challenge
00:25:53and you believe
00:25:55and trust your kids
00:25:57that they support you,
00:26:00I need you to wake up
00:26:02every morning
00:26:03and see
00:26:05and believe
00:26:07and trust
00:26:07that your kids support this
00:26:10and that whatever comes after that,
00:26:12we can,
00:26:13you know,
00:26:14go to battle,
00:26:15but
00:26:17it's up to you.
00:26:18I've said it the whole time,
00:26:20the ball's in your court
00:26:21on if
00:26:23you believe that.
00:26:27I mean,
00:26:28it makes me feel
00:26:29a lot more confident
00:26:30and happy
00:26:32to know that
00:26:33they wrote that to you.
00:26:35I had no idea
00:26:36what it said.
00:26:37Mm-hmm.
00:26:38And so I don't want
00:26:39to walk away.
00:26:43In fact,
00:26:43I want to walk
00:26:45towards something
00:26:46with you.
00:26:47Mm-hmm.
00:26:48And I don't know
00:26:49exactly what that will be
00:26:50or what that will look like.
00:26:52Mm-hmm.
00:26:53But I think together,
00:26:55you know,
00:26:56we can navigate it.
00:26:58And I think if you
00:27:00are able to support
00:27:02me and my
00:27:04crazy
00:27:06anxiety,
00:27:09you know,
00:27:10we can
00:27:11make this
00:27:12into
00:27:12something really special.
00:27:15I think so, too.
00:27:16And I will
00:27:17be able
00:27:18at some point
00:27:21to
00:27:21maybe
00:27:22scream it
00:27:23from the mountaintop.
00:27:24Mm-hmm.
00:27:27But
00:27:28right now,
00:27:30I'm
00:27:31just going to
00:27:32promise you
00:27:34and commit to you
00:27:36to continue
00:27:37to build our
00:27:38relationship
00:27:39into something real
00:27:40and something
00:27:42really great.
00:27:48I accept.
00:27:52Hilarious.
00:27:54I'm excited
00:27:55for
00:27:56whatever's next
00:27:57and
00:27:59I'm thankful
00:28:00for this experience
00:28:01and
00:28:03I want to
00:28:04continue
00:28:05falling in love
00:28:06with you.
00:28:08So do I.
00:28:09I love you.
00:28:11I love you, too.
00:28:13I love you too much
00:28:14to let you go.
00:28:16I'm good
00:28:17because you don't
00:28:17have to.
00:28:19Good answer.
00:28:34All your dreams
00:28:37and all your fears
00:28:41You think those worlds collide
00:28:47I'm feeling
00:28:48a little nervous.
00:28:50I have confidence
00:28:51in Derek
00:28:52and I have confidence
00:28:53in our relationship
00:28:53but I still have
00:28:55a lot of fears
00:28:56about my own future.
00:28:59Ringing on the bell
00:29:00I just want to help
00:29:02I just want to know
00:29:04I mean, I'm 23.
00:29:06I never imagined
00:29:08that I would be
00:29:09moving across the country
00:29:10moving for a man
00:29:12who has children
00:29:13and I think
00:29:14the fear
00:29:15is just coming
00:29:16from a place
00:29:16of not having experience
00:29:18in being
00:29:19in that sort
00:29:20of relationship
00:29:21or being with somebody
00:29:22who has kids.
00:29:26This is a big decision.
00:29:30Essentially,
00:29:30I either walk away
00:29:32without Derek
00:29:33and I go back
00:29:34to my life in Seattle
00:29:35or I leave
00:29:36with Derek
00:29:37and I get something
00:29:39extremely different
00:29:40than anything
00:29:41I could have
00:29:42ever imagined.
00:29:47I'm conflicted.
00:29:48It's like,
00:29:48do I risk it all
00:29:49and change everything
00:29:50I know for a man
00:29:52and for a relationship
00:29:53or do I make
00:29:55the hard decision
00:29:56to end it?
00:29:56But you can't find
00:29:58a way to let me in.
00:30:02Not in a million years
00:30:04did I ever think
00:30:05that I would come
00:30:06into this experience
00:30:07and find such
00:30:09a real, genuine,
00:30:11authentic connection.
00:30:12And you say,
00:30:13oh, I don't want to know.
00:30:17It feels like
00:30:18I'm getting married,
00:30:19honestly.
00:30:20There's a lot
00:30:21weighing on it.
00:30:22You know,
00:30:22there's a whole life
00:30:23change that she has
00:30:24to consider.
00:30:25The last conversation
00:30:26we had,
00:30:27she definitely
00:30:28has some question marks
00:30:29and the nerves
00:30:30are there.
00:30:31She's scared
00:30:31and giving up her life,
00:30:33possibly changing
00:30:34her career.
00:30:35I know that's a lot.
00:30:37I'm wanting to be
00:30:38sympathetic
00:30:39and empathetic to that,
00:30:40but I want her
00:30:41in Dallas with me,
00:30:42but I'm not sure
00:30:43that our relationship
00:30:45at this time
00:30:46is strong enough
00:30:47for her to make
00:30:48that change.
00:30:49I just want to know
00:30:53why you can't find
00:30:55a way
00:30:55to let me in.
00:30:56I love you.
00:30:58You look amazing.
00:31:02From the first date,
00:31:03I didn't know
00:31:04exactly what it was,
00:31:05but I knew I was
00:31:06extremely comfortable
00:31:07with you.
00:31:08I felt at ease,
00:31:09at peace,
00:31:10from just
00:31:10a quick conversation.
00:31:13Like,
00:31:13honestly,
00:31:14that moment,
00:31:15I knew,
00:31:16like, deep down
00:31:16that I didn't
00:31:19want to even explore
00:31:20any other options
00:31:21at the retreat.
00:31:23And,
00:31:24you know,
00:31:25we continued on,
00:31:26moved in,
00:31:29and, you know,
00:31:30yeah,
00:31:31there were some nerves.
00:31:32It's not easy
00:31:33to think I'm going to move
00:31:34in with someone
00:31:34that I just met,
00:31:35but through that process,
00:31:38I thought that
00:31:38it would be great,
00:31:39but I was wrong.
00:31:40Like,
00:31:40it was much better
00:31:41than I could have
00:31:43even imagined.
00:31:44So,
00:31:45for me,
00:31:46you know,
00:31:46the journey,
00:31:47all the laughs
00:31:48and all the good times,
00:31:50the challenges
00:31:51and tough conversations
00:31:53were just as important.
00:31:54I feel like we've grown
00:31:56every point
00:31:57alone is right.
00:32:00From the first day,
00:32:02I knew that you were special.
00:32:05Despite our 20-year
00:32:08age gap,
00:32:08I'm certain
00:32:09that my greatest blessing
00:32:11was meeting you.
00:32:13I've always thought about
00:32:15and dreamed about
00:32:16the man I would end up with,
00:32:18but you are far better
00:32:23than anybody
00:32:25I could have imagined.
00:32:28And now I can't imagine
00:32:31a future without you in it.
00:32:38I've been confident
00:32:40in your character
00:32:41since our first date.
00:32:44But after moving in,
00:32:46I'm certain
00:32:47that you were
00:32:48one of the best men
00:32:49that I've ever met.
00:32:59It's been an honor
00:33:00to share this journey
00:33:02with you.
00:33:04And the closer we get,
00:33:07the more I know
00:33:08and the more I see
00:33:09just how great
00:33:10of a man that you are.
00:33:19Derek,
00:33:20you are a phenomenal person.
00:33:24Sometimes it seems
00:33:25too good to be true,
00:33:27but it really is
00:33:28just who you are.
00:33:30And I feel like
00:33:32I'm the luckiest girl
00:33:33in the whole world
00:33:35to have found you here.
00:33:38Many people
00:33:39spend their whole lives
00:33:40looking for
00:33:42what we've found here.
00:33:45If I were to leave here
00:33:47without you,
00:33:48I may regret it
00:33:49for the rest of my life.
00:33:52But if we were
00:33:53to stay together,
00:33:56my life would look
00:33:58wildly different.
00:33:59than I ever anticipated.
00:34:04I would be sacrificing
00:34:06my entire life
00:34:08in Seattle.
00:34:09My friends,
00:34:11my support,
00:34:13and everything I've built
00:34:15over the last four years.
00:34:22But today,
00:34:25I'm putting the unknowns aside
00:34:27and I'm trusting my heart.
00:34:30So,
00:34:31I am 100%
00:34:33committed
00:34:34to moving to Dallas
00:34:37and starting
00:34:38our dreams together
00:34:42outside of all of this.
00:34:48that was a lot.
00:34:52But I promise
00:34:53I'm always going to
00:34:55put in the work.
00:34:57I'm always going to try.
00:34:59I'll always protect you
00:35:01and I'll always protect your heart.
00:35:03Pfeiffer,
00:35:04I truly love you.
00:35:06So,
00:35:06this is
00:35:08my gift to you.
00:35:12It's a key
00:35:13to our place
00:35:14that's been my place.
00:35:17That means the world to me.
00:35:19Absolutely.
00:35:21I don't want you
00:35:22to be alone
00:35:22and I don't want you
00:35:23in Dallas
00:35:23in a separate place.
00:35:24Literally,
00:35:25my place is our place.
00:35:27I feel like
00:35:27the luckiest person
00:35:28in the whole world
00:35:30and I have this whole time.
00:35:33Thanks to all of us, babe.
00:35:34I want to shine
00:35:38Just need a spot
00:35:41somewhere
00:35:41I want to shine
00:35:45Show me the world away
00:35:48Someday I'll shine
00:35:50I think I just got one more breath
00:36:02Broken heart is beating
00:36:03out of my chest
00:36:05Tired of running
00:36:06I just need some rest
00:36:09I came here
00:36:10to be able to open my heart up
00:36:12to find someone
00:36:13that I want to spend my life with,
00:36:15you know?
00:36:16When I think about my future,
00:36:18I just want to be happily married
00:36:19to a wonderful guy
00:36:21and despite all of her ups and downs,
00:36:24I think it could be Chris.
00:36:25I got one hand on the edge
00:36:28of this cliff
00:36:29and I can't see the girl
00:36:31I'm like a hopeless romantic,
00:36:33you know?
00:36:34So I would like for this
00:36:36to work out with Chris.
00:36:37We have something here.
00:36:38We are finally in a great space,
00:36:40but this step is big.
00:36:43I'm 41, he's 26, you know?
00:36:45So is he really ready?
00:36:49I'm not sure.
00:36:50I can't give up hope,
00:36:52regardless.
00:36:53Don't have any blood
00:36:54left to believe
00:36:56I feel very uneasy.
00:36:58Clearly me and Leah
00:36:59have love for each other
00:37:00because we have been
00:37:01on an emotional rollercoaster.
00:37:02We didn't have love
00:37:03for each other.
00:37:04As soon as it got really dark,
00:37:05we wouldn't be here anymore.
00:37:06The question was,
00:37:07and still is,
00:37:08are we in love?
00:37:12Leah is somebody
00:37:13that I have built
00:37:14such a connection with
00:37:16and a care for
00:37:17that I want to
00:37:18look past
00:37:20what we've dealt with
00:37:21and try to move forward.
00:37:23At the same time,
00:37:24I'm trying to figure out,
00:37:25am I ready for this
00:37:27or am I not?
00:37:29Because it's a decision
00:37:30that will affect me forever.
00:37:35Logic, emotions,
00:37:36my head, my gut,
00:37:37which one do I listen to?
00:37:38And there's so many voices,
00:37:40whether it's outside
00:37:41or in our own heads
00:37:42that are telling us
00:37:43to do a certain thing,
00:37:44and I'm trying to just ignore
00:37:45everything that society says
00:37:47should happen
00:37:48and listen to
00:37:50what I know is true,
00:37:51which is the voice in my heart
00:37:53telling me what is right.
00:38:00You look good.
00:38:01You look beautiful.
00:38:04I know.
00:38:09Prior to this
00:38:11retreat,
00:38:12I was praying
00:38:13that God would send
00:38:14me and my person,
00:38:16and I was really hoping,
00:38:17well, maybe they'll be
00:38:17at this retreat,
00:38:19and then I met you,
00:38:21and then from our
00:38:22first conversation,
00:38:24I knew we had
00:38:25something special,
00:38:27and our first gift
00:38:28was fire.
00:38:30You lit something
00:38:31inside of me
00:38:31that I thought
00:38:32was gone.
00:38:35I know we've had
00:38:36our fair share
00:38:37of ups and downs,
00:38:40but for me,
00:38:41the good times
00:38:41outweigh the bad.
00:38:49You challenged me
00:38:51to do and be better,
00:38:54and I thank you for that.
00:38:56Thank you for hearing,
00:38:59seeing,
00:39:00and always telling me
00:39:02to just be me.
00:39:07from day one,
00:39:08we've talked about
00:39:09being honest
00:39:11and being open,
00:39:12and I think that
00:39:13the most important thing
00:39:15I want to highlight
00:39:15is just how honest
00:39:18and open you've
00:39:18allowed me to feel.
00:39:20You've challenged me,
00:39:22you've helped me grow,
00:39:23and I hope I've done
00:39:24the same.
00:39:26I can't thank you enough
00:39:28for the experiences
00:39:29that we have lived.
00:39:37We've had ups and downs,
00:39:39and there's no doubting
00:39:40that there's been
00:39:41difficult times,
00:39:42and there's been
00:39:43beautiful times,
00:39:44and I want to remember
00:39:47both.
00:39:50I think that we do need
00:39:51to continue to be honest
00:39:54with each other,
00:39:57and, you know,
00:39:58we've talked about
00:39:58our age difference
00:40:00many times,
00:40:02and maybe
00:40:04the age gap
00:40:05was harder
00:40:05than we thought,
00:40:08but here we are,
00:40:09and I think we've both
00:40:11made a decision
00:40:12that will impact
00:40:12our lives
00:40:14and our families,
00:40:14and I just hope
00:40:15and pray
00:40:16that it's the right one.
00:40:19I think I just wanted you
00:40:21to be able to
00:40:23see what I see,
00:40:24and I wanted to show you
00:40:25the world.
00:40:26I want to see more
00:40:27with you.
00:40:29And I want to get you
00:40:30out of your comfort zone,
00:40:32you know,
00:40:33and I do want to challenge
00:40:34you in all the ways
00:40:35that I can,
00:40:36and I love it
00:40:37when you challenge me, too.
00:40:38I can see myself
00:40:40growing with you,
00:40:41building with you.
00:40:42Um, I know it's not easy.
00:40:45I understand that
00:40:47we weren't at our best,
00:40:50and it's like,
00:40:50I want to see you
00:40:51be at your best
00:40:52and me at my best
00:40:53and see how we can
00:40:54be our best together.
00:40:56Huh.
00:40:58I would like
00:41:00to commit to you.
00:41:05Excuse me.
00:41:10So, wow.
00:41:20So, we've talked
00:41:21about our differences
00:41:22and we laid out
00:41:24what we want
00:41:26out of a partner
00:41:26from day one.
00:41:27I think we both
00:41:28want to have a family.
00:41:29I think we both
00:41:29want to settle down.
00:41:30I think maybe
00:41:31we want it
00:41:31at different paces.
00:41:32I do think
00:41:33that the age difference
00:41:34did cause
00:41:35an unnecessary pressure
00:41:36on both of us
00:41:37and put us
00:41:38in a situation
00:41:38where
00:41:41for the first time
00:41:43in my life,
00:41:43I felt like
00:41:44it was hard
00:41:45for me to be myself.
00:41:46Now I'm floating
00:41:49Lift me off the ground
00:41:52My heart is open
00:41:57And that's why
00:41:58ultimately,
00:41:59I feel that
00:42:00this partnership
00:42:00is not right.
00:42:02Now I'm floating
00:42:05Lift me off the ground
00:42:08Now my heart is open
00:42:15And ultimately,
00:42:18I can't move forward
00:42:19with something
00:42:19that I don't feel
00:42:20is 100% right.
00:42:22And I don't feel
00:42:23like that's fair to you.
00:42:24I don't feel like
00:42:24that's fair to your family
00:42:25or mine.
00:42:27So, I am deciding
00:42:29to end this relationship
00:42:30here.
00:42:31Now I'm floating
00:42:39Honestly, I will cherish
00:42:40every single freaking
00:42:42moment and experience
00:42:44And I hope that this
00:42:45isn't the end
00:42:46of a friendship
00:42:46that I truly value.
00:42:50So, seriously,
00:42:52thank you.
00:42:52You're welcome.
00:42:54You are a beautiful person
00:42:55inside and out.
00:42:58Can I have a hug?
00:43:11It's nice meeting you.
00:43:24Chris didn't really
00:43:24want to be with me.
00:43:26If somebody really likes
00:43:27she really wants
00:43:27to be with you,
00:43:28they'll be with you
00:43:29and they'll fight.
00:43:31That's why I was willing
00:43:32to give us a shot
00:43:33and see if we really
00:43:34could get it together.
00:43:36But he wasn't.
00:43:38I've always wanted
00:43:39to be chosen,
00:43:40but I wasn't going to
00:43:41beg someone to choose me.
00:43:42I also can't turn a boy
00:43:43into a man either.
00:43:44At least I gave my all.
00:43:48I was hoping to find
00:43:50my love here
00:43:51at the retreat,
00:43:52but I didn't.
00:43:54Overall, I think
00:43:55I've just learned
00:43:56who I am
00:43:57and I'm a very strong,
00:43:58intelligent,
00:43:59beautiful woman.
00:44:00And my future partner
00:44:02will be happy
00:44:03to be with me.
00:44:04And I'm excited for him.
00:44:06No words left to say
00:44:09cause I'll be okay
00:44:11I'm stronger now.
00:44:27I'm definitely
00:44:29a little bit unsure.
00:44:33You know,
00:44:34the last few days
00:44:35I've definitely
00:44:35been in my head.
00:44:36I mean,
00:44:37there's so much fear there
00:44:39that the age gap
00:44:41will be too much,
00:44:42where we're at
00:44:43in our lives
00:44:43will be too much,
00:44:44the timing,
00:44:45the distance.
00:44:46I come and drink
00:44:47this water
00:44:49cause my carpet
00:44:50overflows.
00:44:52Are we too far away
00:44:54from where the other
00:44:55person is in life?
00:44:57And I would be lying
00:45:00if I said that
00:45:01that still doesn't
00:45:02cross my mind
00:45:03every single day
00:45:03with Libby.
00:45:06There's definitely
00:45:07two sides
00:45:09going back and forth
00:45:10that's like
00:45:10it's not gonna work.
00:45:12One's going off
00:45:14of previous experiences
00:45:16and all of the things
00:45:17that haven't worked.
00:45:18And then the other
00:45:19side of it
00:45:19is like my heart.
00:45:21Can you see the shoes
00:45:24worn out of my feet?
00:45:28I'm a bit nervous
00:45:29going into this.
00:45:30Me and Andrew
00:45:31have been so solid
00:45:32this entire experience.
00:45:33I don't think
00:45:34I expected to get
00:45:35to this point
00:45:36this morning
00:45:37and be questioning things.
00:45:41But the past couple days
00:45:43he's brought up
00:45:45the thing about him
00:45:46worrying about
00:45:47taking from my life
00:45:48and the distance
00:45:50between us.
00:45:51So I'm smiling
00:45:53a little bit too.
00:45:54Andrew's doubts
00:45:55are putting
00:45:56more ideas
00:45:57in my head.
00:45:58I'm like
00:45:59wait
00:45:59is he right?
00:46:00Is this gonna work?
00:46:05His doubts
00:46:05have now become
00:46:06my doubts
00:46:07and
00:46:07I think
00:46:09all of this
00:46:09is really starting
00:46:10to freak me out.
00:46:17I don't know
00:46:18how he's feeling
00:46:19and
00:46:20I don't know
00:46:21if he's
00:46:22decided
00:46:23that
00:46:23the age difference
00:46:24it's too much
00:46:25so
00:46:26I think
00:46:26it's very possible
00:46:27that Andrew's
00:46:28going to break
00:46:28my heart
00:46:29on this mountain
00:46:29today.
00:46:40What's up?
00:46:43Thanks.
00:46:45You look handsome.
00:46:46It's true.
00:46:52I came here
00:46:54hoping
00:46:56to find something
00:46:57but I don't think
00:46:58I truly
00:46:58believed
00:46:59that I would
00:47:00find something
00:47:01real.
00:47:02There's a part
00:47:03of me
00:47:03that wonders
00:47:04if this works
00:47:07when we're
00:47:07outside of the
00:47:08bubble
00:47:08that we've
00:47:08been living in.
00:47:11You're 22
00:47:13I'm 38
00:47:15that's a big gap
00:47:18your life
00:47:19is just
00:47:20getting started.
00:47:21They're figuring
00:47:22out who you
00:47:23are
00:47:23what you
00:47:24want
00:47:25where you're
00:47:26going
00:47:28and I'm
00:47:29settled
00:47:29in the life
00:47:31that I've
00:47:31already built.
00:47:33The biggest
00:47:34fear
00:47:34for me
00:47:35is keeping
00:47:36you
00:47:37from your
00:47:38dreams
00:47:40even though
00:47:41you're a part
00:47:42of mine.
00:47:47I understand
00:47:48what you mean
00:47:49and obviously
00:47:50I've been
00:47:51thinking about
00:47:51that too.
00:47:52You know
00:47:53that sometimes
00:47:53it's hard
00:47:55for me
00:47:55to really
00:47:58express
00:47:58how I'm
00:47:59feeling
00:47:59with my
00:48:00words
00:48:00and
00:48:00sometimes
00:48:02it's better
00:48:03and easier
00:48:03for me
00:48:04to write
00:48:04it out
00:48:05so I wrote
00:48:06you something.
00:48:15coming into
00:48:15this experience
00:48:17I hoped
00:48:18for the best
00:48:19but I truly
00:48:20never thought
00:48:20that I'd meet
00:48:21someone like
00:48:22you.
00:48:23You have
00:48:23everything
00:48:23that I've
00:48:24ever wanted
00:48:24in a guy
00:48:25which is
00:48:26incredibly rare
00:48:26because that
00:48:27includes some
00:48:28outrageous
00:48:28things
00:48:28like someone
00:48:29who will sing
00:48:30Taylor Swift
00:48:31with me
00:48:31and manifest.
00:48:33You challenged
00:48:34me to open
00:48:35up in ways
00:48:35I never
00:48:36have before
00:48:37and brought
00:48:38out a side
00:48:38of me
00:48:39that not
00:48:39many people
00:48:40get to see.
00:48:41I love
00:48:41the way
00:48:42you talk
00:48:42and care
00:48:43about your
00:48:43daughters
00:48:44and the way
00:48:44you protect
00:48:45them in
00:48:45every aspect
00:48:46shows what
00:48:47a great
00:48:47dad you
00:48:47are.
00:48:49Hearing
00:48:49about your
00:48:50experiences
00:48:50as a father
00:48:51has been
00:48:52one of the
00:48:52many things
00:48:53that drew
00:48:53me to you.
00:48:54With that
00:48:55being said
00:48:56I know
00:48:56that that
00:48:56comes with
00:48:57a lot
00:48:57of weight
00:48:58and it's
00:48:58something
00:48:58that I
00:48:58don't take
00:48:59lightly
00:48:59and I
00:49:00know
00:49:00that
00:49:01you're
00:49:02worried
00:49:02about
00:49:03our
00:49:03age
00:49:03gap
00:49:04and
00:49:04the
00:49:04fact
00:49:04that
00:49:05I'm 22
00:49:06and you
00:49:08think that
00:49:08there's a
00:49:08possibility
00:49:10that you
00:49:10could be
00:49:11taking too
00:49:11much from
00:49:12my life
00:49:14and it
00:49:15has me
00:49:15thinking the
00:49:16last couple
00:49:16days about
00:49:17what it is
00:49:18that I
00:49:18really want
00:49:21and I
00:49:22really feel
00:49:23like it
00:49:23would only
00:49:24be an
00:49:24addition
00:49:25to my
00:49:25life.
00:49:34I've
00:49:34had a
00:49:35lot
00:49:35of
00:49:35time
00:49:35to
00:49:36think
00:49:37as
00:49:38well
00:49:38and
00:49:41the
00:49:41truth
00:49:42is
00:49:45no matter
00:49:46how much
00:49:46I doubt
00:49:47the age
00:49:48gap
00:49:49the
00:49:50distance
00:49:51the
00:49:52timing
00:49:52I
00:49:54don't
00:49:54doubt
00:49:54the
00:49:55way I
00:49:56feel
00:49:56when
00:49:57I'm
00:49:57with
00:49:57you.
00:49:59When
00:50:01we
00:50:01first
00:50:02got
00:50:02here
00:50:03you
00:50:04asked
00:50:05me
00:50:05if
00:50:06I
00:50:07ever
00:50:07thought
00:50:08I
00:50:09could
00:50:09fall
00:50:10in
00:50:10love
00:50:10before
00:50:11the
00:50:11end
00:50:11of
00:50:11this
00:50:13and
00:50:13I
00:50:14remember
00:50:14saying
00:50:17I
00:50:17think
00:50:17someone
00:50:18could
00:50:19but
00:50:20I
00:50:20didn't
00:50:21think
00:50:21I
00:50:22would
00:50:22be
00:50:22that
00:50:22someone
00:50:25I
00:50:26was
00:50:26wrong.
00:50:29because
00:50:30I
00:50:30have
00:50:32and
00:50:32I
00:50:32do
00:50:33love
00:50:33you.
00:50:36You
00:50:37have
00:50:37opened
00:50:38up
00:50:39things
00:50:40in
00:50:40me
00:50:41I
00:50:42thought
00:50:42were
00:50:43shut
00:50:43down
00:50:43for
00:50:43good.
00:50:44I
00:50:44have
00:50:44been
00:50:45waiting
00:50:45a
00:50:46long
00:50:46time
00:50:46for
00:50:47something
00:50:47like
00:50:47this
00:50:49really
00:50:50long
00:50:50time
00:50:50and I
00:50:52feel
00:50:52like
00:50:52it's
00:50:52finally
00:50:53my
00:50:53turn
00:50:55like
00:50:56this
00:50:56might
00:50:57actually
00:50:57be
00:50:58my
00:50:59rom
00:50:59com
00:51:01happy
00:51:02ending
00:51:03I
00:51:03know
00:51:04I'm
00:51:04so
00:51:04cheesy
00:51:04no
00:51:05I
00:51:05love
00:51:05it
00:51:08I
00:51:09been
00:51:09thinking
00:51:09a lot
00:51:10about
00:51:12what
00:51:13happens
00:51:13after
00:51:13this
00:51:15and
00:51:16I
00:51:17don't
00:51:17know
00:51:18what
00:51:19your
00:51:20generation
00:51:20calls
00:51:21it
00:51:22these
00:51:22days
00:51:22hard
00:51:24launch
00:51:25soft
00:51:26launch
00:51:28probably
00:51:29something
00:51:30way
00:51:30cooler
00:51:31than
00:51:32what
00:51:32I'm
00:51:32about
00:51:32to
00:51:32say
00:51:33but
00:51:35I
00:51:36would
00:51:36really
00:51:36love
00:51:36to
00:51:37leave
00:51:38here
00:51:38with
00:51:39you
00:51:39as
00:51:39my
00:51:39girlfriend
00:51:40do
00:51:40you
00:51:40want
00:51:41to
00:51:41hard
00:51:41launch
00:51:41me
00:51:42I
00:51:42want
00:51:42to
00:51:43I
00:51:45need
00:51:45you
00:51:45to
00:51:45answer
00:51:46before
00:51:46I
00:51:46continue
00:51:47okay
00:51:47okay
00:51:50I
00:51:50want
00:51:50to
00:51:51commit
00:51:51to
00:51:51you
00:51:52and
00:51:53I
00:51:53want
00:51:53a
00:51:53relationship
00:51:54with
00:51:54you
00:51:54outside
00:51:55of
00:51:55here
00:51:55because
00:51:56I
00:51:57also
00:51:58love
00:51:58you
00:51:58too
00:52:09so
00:52:10there
00:52:11is
00:52:12one
00:52:12more
00:52:12thing
00:52:13my
00:52:14daughters
00:52:15they
00:52:16are
00:52:16the most
00:52:18important
00:52:18thing
00:52:19to
00:52:19me
00:52:21with
00:52:22you
00:52:22you make
00:52:23me feel
00:52:23safe
00:52:24make
00:52:25you feel
00:52:26safe
00:52:26to
00:52:27open
00:52:27up
00:52:28that
00:52:29box
00:52:29again
00:52:31and
00:52:31I
00:52:32would
00:52:33really
00:52:33love
00:52:33for you
00:52:34to
00:52:34come
00:52:34to
00:52:34Baltimore
00:52:35for you
00:52:36to
00:52:36meet
00:52:36my
00:52:36daughters
00:52:38because
00:52:39I
00:52:40do
00:52:40see
00:52:40you
00:52:42in
00:52:42my
00:52:42future
00:52:43forever
00:52:45that means
00:52:45the world
00:52:46coming from
00:52:46you
00:52:48that's
00:52:49really
00:52:49sweet
00:52:50I
00:52:51think
00:52:51that
00:52:52I
00:52:53know
00:52:53how
00:52:53important
00:52:54your
00:52:54daughters
00:52:54are
00:52:55to
00:52:56you
00:52:56and
00:52:57I
00:52:57want
00:52:57you
00:52:57to
00:52:57know
00:52:58that
00:52:59I
00:53:00think
00:53:00that
00:53:00that's
00:53:00something
00:53:01that's
00:53:01equally
00:53:02important
00:53:02to
00:53:03me
00:53:03and
00:53:04I
00:53:05think
00:53:05that
00:53:05if
00:53:06you
00:53:06were
00:53:06willing
00:53:07to
00:53:07open
00:53:07that
00:53:08part
00:53:08of
00:53:09your
00:53:09life
00:53:09to
00:53:09me
00:53:09I
00:53:10would
00:53:10be
00:53:12happy
00:53:12to be
00:53:12a part
00:53:13of it
00:53:15I
00:53:16really
00:53:16do
00:53:17love
00:53:17you
00:53:18I
00:53:20really
00:53:21do
00:53:21love
00:53:22you
00:53:22too
00:53:41I
00:53:42I
00:53:42I'm
00:53:42in a
00:53:42really
00:53:42good
00:53:42place
00:53:43in
00:53:43my
00:53:43life
00:53:44I'm
00:53:44getting
00:53:44ready
00:53:45to
00:53:45turn
00:53:4550
00:53:45years
00:53:46old
00:53:46I've
00:53:47never
00:53:47felt
00:53:48more
00:53:48comfortable
00:53:48in my
00:53:49body
00:53:49financially
00:53:50spiritually
00:53:51everything
00:53:52and the
00:53:53one thing
00:53:53that is
00:53:54missing
00:53:54is
00:53:54love
00:54:00I
00:54:00thought
00:54:00I
00:54:00was
00:54:01never
00:54:01going
00:54:01to
00:54:01find
00:54:01love
00:54:02again
00:54:02but
00:54:03Logan
00:54:03makes
00:54:04my
00:54:04heart
00:54:04feel
00:54:04full
00:54:04and
00:54:05he
00:54:05gives
00:54:06me
00:54:06hope
00:54:06and
00:54:07he
00:54:08makes
00:54:08me
00:54:08feel
00:54:08alive
00:54:17Logan
00:54:17and I
00:54:17have
00:54:18had
00:54:18a lot
00:54:18of
00:54:19ups
00:54:19and
00:54:19downs
00:54:19we're
00:54:20finally
00:54:21at
00:54:21a
00:54:21really
00:54:21good
00:54:22place
00:54:22except
00:54:23for
00:54:23the
00:54:23question
00:54:24mark
00:54:24is
00:54:24he
00:54:24ready
00:54:24for
00:54:25a
00:54:25commitment
00:54:25is
00:54:26Logan
00:54:26going
00:54:27to
00:54:27take
00:54:27a
00:54:28step
00:54:28forward
00:54:28and
00:54:28be
00:54:29ready
00:54:29for
00:54:29a
00:54:29commitment
00:54:30or
00:54:30is
00:54:31he
00:54:31ready
00:54:31to
00:54:31go
00:54:31back
00:54:32to
00:54:32his
00:54:32party
00:54:33boy
00:54:33lifestyle
00:54:34in
00:54:34Dallas
00:54:35and
00:54:36I'll
00:54:36go
00:54:36back
00:54:36to
00:54:37Ohio
00:54:37and
00:54:37start
00:54:38over
00:54:38from
00:54:38square
00:54:38one
00:54:46the
00:54:47thought
00:54:47of
00:54:47going
00:54:47home
00:54:48alone
00:54:48would
00:54:49just
00:54:49be
00:54:49devastating
00:54:51I
00:54:51don't
00:54:51want
00:54:52this
00:54:52to
00:54:52end
00:54:58I've
00:54:58obviously
00:54:59fallen
00:54:59in love
00:54:59with
00:54:59Vanessa
00:55:00our love
00:55:01feels
00:55:02so in sync
00:55:03it feels like
00:55:05something that I
00:55:06really
00:55:06to be honest
00:55:07I didn't think I
00:55:08would find
00:55:16she loves me in a way
00:55:17that I haven't been loved
00:55:19before
00:55:21it's crazy that
00:55:22she's 20 years older
00:55:23than me
00:55:23but regardless of age
00:55:25I don't know if I'm gonna
00:55:26find anybody else
00:55:27like Vanessa
00:55:32going into the commitment
00:55:33ceremony
00:55:33the unknown is
00:55:35am I gonna be able
00:55:36to give her
00:55:36what she truly wants
00:55:38there's a chance
00:55:39that
00:55:40you know
00:55:41I get up there
00:55:42and see this woman
00:55:42that I've fallen in love
00:55:43with
00:55:44and
00:55:44it's picture perfect
00:55:45and
00:55:46there's a chance
00:55:47that
00:55:48I might not be able
00:55:49to meet those expectations
00:55:50there's a chance
00:55:51that
00:55:52we walk away
00:55:53without each other
00:56:00hi
00:56:01hey
00:56:02you look so cute
00:56:03good to see you
00:56:04I'm so nervous
00:56:06yeah right
00:56:07yeah
00:56:10can I hold your hands
00:56:11it helps me move our nerves
00:56:16Logan
00:56:17when I first met you
00:56:19you were such a gentleman
00:56:20we had an amazing conversation
00:56:22and then
00:56:24we go out on our dance
00:56:26and you tell me
00:56:27you're worried about
00:56:28the optics of dating
00:56:29an older woman
00:56:29and I'm like
00:56:30what is up with this guy
00:56:32I can't figure him out
00:56:33so
00:56:34I was like
00:56:35forget it
00:56:35you know
00:56:36but
00:56:37you
00:56:38did a few things
00:56:39that were really important
00:56:40to me
00:56:44you apologized
00:56:45and you took accountability
00:56:47for your actions
00:56:48and
00:56:49that meant a lot to me
00:56:50so I decided
00:56:51I really want to give this guy
00:56:53a chance
00:56:58yeah
00:57:00I feel that
00:57:01with you
00:57:03I opened up more
00:57:04than anyone else
00:57:05I've ever opened up to
00:57:06in my life
00:57:07I feel safe with you
00:57:09and that's something
00:57:10that's so important to me
00:57:13I was really in a dark time
00:57:15before I came here
00:57:16you know
00:57:17I lost my mom
00:57:17and it's been almost a year
00:57:20and being with you
00:57:21you brought light back
00:57:22into my life
00:57:23and
00:57:24I'm happy that you're here
00:57:27I'm happy to be here
00:57:31yeah I mean
00:57:32our journey has been
00:57:35everything but
00:57:36picture perfect
00:57:38despite the whirlwind
00:57:40we found a connection
00:57:41and I think
00:57:43you know
00:57:44you challenged me
00:57:45and you asked me
00:57:46the tough questions
00:57:47and
00:57:49wondered if I was
00:57:51ready for a commitment
00:57:53ready for something serious
00:57:54or
00:57:56I was just another flame for you
00:57:57yeah
00:58:00but the reality is
00:58:01you have made me
00:58:03into a better man
00:58:05and
00:58:05going on this
00:58:06process with you
00:58:08it was like
00:58:09nothing I could imagine
00:58:11I'm glad after all those
00:58:12hardships that we landed
00:58:14in this place
00:58:15of
00:58:15peace
00:58:16and love
00:58:17and there's no more fighting
00:58:18and
00:58:19I don't want to go back
00:58:20to my old life
00:58:21without you in it
00:58:22so
00:58:23that being said
00:58:25I would like to
00:58:26bring you into my world
00:58:28and
00:58:29meet my family
00:58:30meet my friends
00:58:31and be by my side
00:58:32and
00:58:33you know
00:58:34as we move forward
00:58:35I'm hoping
00:58:36you would do the same
00:58:37for me
00:58:38and allow me
00:58:39to meet your friends
00:58:40and your family
00:58:41and be a part of your world
00:58:43because I really want you
00:58:44to be a part of my world
00:58:57is this the part
00:58:57you break up with me
00:59:04here's the thing
00:59:11our journey
00:59:12our journey
00:59:12has had a lot of
00:59:13ups and downs
00:59:15and
00:59:16the chaos
00:59:17that we've found
00:59:20is
00:59:20it's
00:59:23you know
00:59:24is that
00:59:25toxic
00:59:26or
00:59:27was it healthy
00:59:28right
00:59:29and
00:59:31it's really
00:59:32made me question
00:59:35whether or not
00:59:36it's
00:59:37it's
00:59:37it's good for us
00:59:39right
00:59:41the time alone
00:59:44has made me realize
00:59:45that
00:59:46maybe I'm not
00:59:48the man for you
00:59:51maybe
00:59:53I'm not good enough
00:59:54for you
00:59:55it's really
00:59:55questioning that
01:00:02it's
01:00:02it's
01:00:03it has been difficult
01:00:04and
01:00:06I don't
01:00:07want to make promises
01:00:08that I can't
01:00:12so
01:00:19I need the promise
01:00:20to ring back
01:00:20to ring back
01:00:53it's
01:00:54it's been a tough
01:00:54journey
01:00:57my first instinct
01:00:58is always the
01:00:59correct instinct
01:01:00and I should stick
01:01:01with my first gut
01:01:02instinct on someone
01:01:05and maybe I was
01:01:06just trying to fit
01:01:07a square peg
01:01:08into a round hole
01:01:10and
01:01:10my picker
01:01:11was wrong
01:01:12once again
01:01:14yeah
01:01:16but
01:01:19during my alone
01:01:21time
01:01:21I've also
01:01:22realized that
01:01:24maybe I don't
01:01:25have to be
01:01:26the perfect man
01:01:31maybe I just needed
01:01:33to be the guy
01:01:34that was there
01:01:35for you
01:01:36throughout all
01:01:37the good times
01:01:38highs and lows
01:01:40somebody that you
01:01:40could talk to
01:01:42and count on
01:01:43somebody that would
01:01:44always be there
01:01:44for you
01:01:45just like your mom
01:01:45was before she left
01:01:49and I think
01:01:50spending time with you
01:01:53enjoying you
01:01:55not realizing there was
01:01:57an age gap
01:01:59has made me
01:02:02want to
01:02:03commit
01:02:06what is happening
01:02:09what
01:02:10I don't want
01:02:12this journey to end
01:02:13oh my god
01:02:14what is happening
01:02:15and
01:02:16you know
01:02:19it's been a crazy
01:02:20roller coaster
01:02:22of a ride
01:02:24but
01:02:25I'm not getting off
01:02:26anytime soon
01:02:27I love the shit
01:02:29out of you
01:02:30and
01:02:32you know
01:02:32I want to make
01:02:33a promise
01:02:33and a commitment
01:02:37you're someone
01:02:38who deserves
01:02:38everything
01:02:40what is happening
01:02:42and someone
01:02:43who deserves
01:02:43the Kobe ring
01:02:44stop it
01:02:46no
01:02:48is this really
01:02:51Vanessa
01:02:54I'm not ready
01:02:55to get off
01:02:55anytime soon
01:02:56oh my god
01:02:57what is happening
01:02:58so
01:03:01we want to continue
01:03:02this journey
01:03:03and do life together
01:03:11yes
01:03:15oh my god
01:03:16I'm shaking
01:03:20oh my god
01:03:23it's so pretty
01:03:24so let's do it
01:03:25oh my gosh
01:03:26I fucking love you
01:03:31oh my god
01:03:34oh my goodness
01:03:35you got red lipstick on you
01:03:37yeah I know
01:03:38oh my god I'm shaking
01:03:41you tricked me so hard
01:03:45when you started attacking me
01:03:46I was like oh shit
01:03:49oh my god
01:03:51oh my god
01:03:52oh my god
01:03:52oh my god
01:03:53oh my god
01:03:54oh my god
01:03:58age doesn't matter for us
01:03:59as crazy as it is
01:04:01as crazy as it is to
01:04:03get engaged to somebody
01:04:05that's 20 years older than me
01:04:07it's
01:04:08it's Vanessa
01:04:09she's
01:04:11the one that
01:04:12has changed me
01:04:13she's the one that's
01:04:14made me feel ways
01:04:16that I haven't felt before
01:04:17so
01:04:17you know
01:04:18at the end of the day
01:04:20it's what I wanted
01:04:21I ran every scenario
01:04:23of what could happen
01:04:24when I was coming here
01:04:25but the one scenario
01:04:26I didn't think of
01:04:27was finding the love
01:04:29of my life
01:04:29I came into this experience
01:04:32with a complete open mind
01:04:33and I'm really super happy
01:04:36with how it ended
01:04:44I did not think
01:04:46I was going to come
01:04:47into this experience
01:04:48and completely changed
01:04:50my life
01:04:50what was your name
01:04:51Derek
01:04:52Derek
01:04:52I'm Pfeiffer
01:04:53I love your eyes
01:04:54thank you
01:04:55me too
01:04:57it's so rare
01:04:58that you find somebody
01:04:59that you connect with
01:05:00like this
01:05:00and I never would have
01:05:01expected it to go this way
01:05:03but I'm so grateful
01:05:04that it has
01:05:08you want to give me
01:05:09Pfeiffer's definitely
01:05:10a person I've been looking for
01:05:11she's humble
01:05:13she's loving
01:05:14all of those are
01:05:15like something
01:05:16that I've definitely wanted
01:05:18but I honestly didn't know
01:05:20that it existed
01:05:21I've always thought age
01:05:22was just a number
01:05:23and damn yeah
01:05:25this experience
01:05:26really proves that
01:05:27it's just that
01:05:28only love can light it up
01:05:31I came here to try something
01:05:33completely unorthodox
01:05:34to meet people
01:05:36from all different ages
01:05:37and if anyone said
01:05:38you're gonna come here
01:05:39and you're gonna fall for a guy
01:05:41that's 20 years younger than you
01:05:42I'd be like
01:05:43you're absolutely crazy
01:05:46Romeo
01:05:47Romeo
01:05:50is this supposed to be
01:05:51the opposite way
01:05:52like I think you're supposed
01:05:53to be up here with your hair
01:05:54but what Logan and I have
01:05:55is something really special
01:05:57so I am 49
01:06:02I was gonna guess 29
01:06:08why Vanessa
01:06:09I mean
01:06:10I could have connected
01:06:11with anybody else
01:06:12there were 19 other
01:06:14women at the retreat
01:06:15some closer in age to me
01:06:16but I don't think
01:06:18I would love anybody else
01:06:19like the way I love Vanessa
01:06:20she's one in a million
01:06:21where do we go from here
01:06:23you know
01:06:23snacks
01:06:24we enjoy the night
01:06:25I thought I was going to go
01:06:29into the last years
01:06:31of my life alone
01:06:32and now
01:06:33here I am
01:06:34turning 50
01:06:34and I'm in love
01:06:44I got more than everything
01:06:45I've ever wanted
01:06:46out of this experience
01:06:47I met somebody
01:06:49I never thought
01:06:51I would meet
01:06:52one go
01:06:53Andrew does see me
01:06:55for the real me
01:06:55and not my age
01:06:57he sees parts of me
01:06:58that a lot of people
01:07:00don't
01:07:00and he just recognizes it
01:07:03and he appreciates it
01:07:04I don't think I've ever
01:07:04had that before
01:07:05I'm enjoying
01:07:06what we have right now
01:07:07I'm waking up to you
01:07:09yeah
01:07:09well it's probably
01:07:10the nicest thing
01:07:10I'll ever say to you
01:07:11but like the more
01:07:13I get to know you
01:07:14the more I like you more
01:07:15I really do feel like
01:07:17I got my rom-com
01:07:18happy ending
01:07:19and I don't think
01:07:20I could have scripted it
01:07:21any better
01:07:24I absolutely believe
01:07:26age just as a number
01:07:27because I never would have thought
01:07:30that I could connect
01:07:32with somebody
01:07:32that is 27 years old
01:07:35on this level
01:07:38I'm gonna go for it
01:07:40I love Teresa
01:07:41I love how
01:07:42she makes me feel
01:07:44right
01:07:44and for
01:07:46seeing me
01:07:47for who I am
01:07:48and loving me
01:07:49and accepting me
01:07:51for the 27 year old
01:07:52is a little more mature
01:07:54it's the connection
01:07:55it's the connection that counts
01:07:56not the candles on the cake
01:07:57should I grab your ass
01:08:00no
01:08:01I love this
01:08:03James
01:08:04I love you
01:08:04I love you
01:08:06I see it in a new life
01:08:08I love you
01:08:10I see it in a new life
01:08:12again with fresh eyes
01:08:15hurry for the best life
01:08:17I love you
01:08:18I see it in the new life
01:08:21I see it in the moonlight
01:08:24I see it in the moonlight
01:08:29I see it in the moonlight
01:08:44New life, ooh, I see it in a new life.
01:08:49I'm getting it with fresh eyes.
01:08:52I'm ready for the best life.
01:08:54New life, ooh, I see it in a new life.
01:09:15New life, ooh, I see it in a new life.
01:09:16New life, ooh, I see it in a new life.
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