00:00Lord, I woke up this morning, before my eyes were fully open.
00:09My day had already begun without you, not on purpose, not with rebellion, just quietly.
00:18A thought here, a plan there, a list forming in my mind as if I was in control of something
00:24so fragile.
00:26And I didn't even notice.
00:30I remembered yesterday's insults, planned today's responses, prepared tomorrow's moves.
00:35But didn't think for a second that I'm living on borrowed time.
00:41I stepped into the day like it belonged to me, like the breath in my chest was guaranteed.
00:48Like I could carry it all on my own.
00:51And somehow, hours passed.
00:56Conversations, decisions, moments I moved through without once stopping to say,
01:00Lord, are you here with me?
01:05But you were, you were there in the things that didn't go wrong in the paths that quietly opened in
01:10the small protections.
01:12I never saw.
01:15You stayed close while I moved far in my attention.
01:19And you didn't interrupt me.
01:21You didn't force me back.
01:23You just stayed.
01:26Like a father, watching his child walk ahead not to leave them, but to be ready the moment they turn
01:33around.
01:34And now I see it.
01:37Not with fear, but with a kind of softness that almost breaks me.
01:42How gently you love me.
01:43How patiently you wait.
01:45How many chances you give me in a single day.
01:48Without ever keeping count.
01:51So here I am, Lord.
01:53Not with perfect words.
01:55Not with a perfect heart.
01:57Just aware that I walked through your day without fully walking with you.
02:02And still, you welcome me back like I never left.
02:07Teach me this, Lord.
02:10Not just to remember you when everything slows down.
02:13But to feel you in the middle of my rushing.
02:17To notice you in the ordinary.
02:18To pause.
02:21Even for a second.
02:23And realize.
02:26I was never alone.
02:30For staying close.
02:32Even when my mind wanders far.
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