- 7 hours ago
Category
📺
TVTranscript
00:00I love you
00:43I love you
01:00It's Denise Fox
01:04You've been waiting for my call
01:07Homework please
01:09Forcing it out of Denise
01:12In the middle of the flicking front of the kids
01:13I wouldn't have done it if I
01:15Sit
01:16Breathe
01:19I'll put the kit on
01:24I can message Amy if you want
01:26Maybe we could all go over in a little bit
01:29Kim
01:30Jordan got hurt
01:33So Denise felt
01:34She had to put her treatment off
01:38Hold on
01:38You knew
01:41You should have told me Yolandi
01:44I know
01:46I'm in
01:46Well I'm telling you Libby
01:48I'm telling you now
02:07Okay look
02:08Denise has got acute
02:09Myeloid leukemia
02:12Okay it's an aggressive blood cancer
02:15Starts in the bone marrow
02:17Is that why you've been so knackered
02:20Yes
02:23And that they want it to start chemotherapy
02:25Okay
02:26Okay good
02:29Doctor sorted my mum out
02:30This is an inpatient
02:32No it's
02:32Going to be for a month
02:35It's starting tomorrow
02:37What?
02:38So you're going to have to stay at the hospital
02:40Nights and all
02:41That's nearly half the summer holidays
02:43Consultant says he's urgent
02:45Mate
02:45Oh my god
02:47Are you going to die?
02:50Oh so you decided to join us then did you?
02:52Have you washed your hands?
02:56No
02:57No
02:58I am not
02:59I am going to be around for a very
03:04Very
03:04Long time
03:06That is a promise
03:08Okay?
03:09Okay
03:11Look hospital is nothing
03:13It's just lying there
03:14While they give you some medicine
03:16What I'm more bothered about
03:18Is you lot staying on top of things
03:20While I'm out of action
03:21Like having a shower every day Raymond
03:24Yes
03:25And not ruining me carpets
03:27With your hockey boots
03:27And not lying in the bed
03:30For the next four weeks
03:30Steering at your phone
03:32We were going to start yoga
03:33Weren't we?
03:35And you promised me
03:36That you were going to
03:36Sort through that wardrobe
03:37I'll do it
03:38I'll start leaving my hockey boots
03:40At the back door
03:41Yes
03:41You will
03:42You're all going to have to
03:43Step it up a bit
03:45So
03:46I'm setting up a rota
03:48And I've made you a list of chores
03:50Every day
03:51Is it like them star charts
03:53She used to give me as a kid
03:54She tried to do that
03:55With me and Libby
03:56Ah no
03:57Though
03:58Because this
03:59One is on your phones
04:00So no one can accidentally
04:02Add half a dozen stars
04:04On there
04:04Ricky
04:06Because it will be shared
04:07And I'll be watching you
04:09Now you all need to
04:10Download the app
04:11I'll be sticking it on your iPad
04:13Highest number of ticks
04:14Wins a prize
04:15What's a prize?
04:17Ah that's a secret
04:18But it'd be something brilliant
04:20And you don't even stand a chance
04:21If you don't know how to work
04:22The washing machine
04:24Jack
04:26What?
04:27Come on
04:28You shrink every jumper
04:29That you touch
04:30Don't you?
04:31I ain't got a pair of knickers
04:32He hasn't turned pink
04:33You've never checked a pocket
04:34For a tissue in your life
04:35Oh
04:36Oh right
04:37Okay
04:39Fine
04:43Okay so come on
04:44Let's make a start on these
04:45While we wait for the spaghetti
04:46Come on
04:47An Anami scan
04:49Could have helped us plan
04:52That is it
04:53That is the only thing
04:54I would have said
04:56If you'd given me a chance
04:57Ben
04:59Sorry
05:01I'm sorry
05:01Okay
05:03And you're right
05:04And you are so lovely
05:07And I'm sorry
05:10I think I'm just
05:12It's just the woman
05:13And I'm just worried about Denise
05:15I think
05:16And my dad
05:16And
05:17Yeah well
05:17I should
05:18I said the thing I thought
05:21I want to be there for you
05:24Both of you
05:26Not just part time
05:30Live with me
05:32Just us
05:33Us three
05:36Our family
05:39How do you fancy moving in together Penny
05:48Can we get a tickly visit?
05:50Depends if there's chocolate
05:51Yeah
05:55Look
05:55I know that I've had more time with this
05:59And this has come as a bit of a shock
06:01But
06:02We're all right
06:04Okay
06:05We're all
06:05All right
06:06You don't need to worry about us
06:09We're all put together
06:10Aren't we?
06:11Good
06:13Bath
06:14Bed
06:14No arguments
06:16Come on
06:17Teeth
06:18Teeth
06:18Teeth
06:18You pack your PE kit
06:20And if your phone needs charging
06:22Kitchen please
06:24Come on
06:25Life goes on
06:26We've all got school in the morning
06:31You've done good
06:33We need to
06:34You don't have to do this tonight
06:37Yes I do
06:39It's a risk of infection
06:41And all that
06:44Can you
06:46Warn the kids
06:47Yeah
07:13Chelsea let me in
07:16Sorry
07:17Bad time
07:19I'd better
07:22Yeah don't wake up
07:23Okay
07:30Sorry to hear
07:38Might want to talk
07:43Pretty sure the football's on
07:48Highlights at least
07:58I'm glad that you texted
08:02But I've got everything
08:04Set up
08:05If you
08:08Thanks
08:12Give me a minute
08:13Okay
08:14Okay
08:15Sorry
08:18I'm so sorry
08:19Diddy
08:22Don't be nice to me
08:23Okay
08:26Okay I can
08:27I can do that
08:33I just can't believe
08:34This is happening
08:35Kim
08:37It's like I want to wake up
08:40I ain't stopped looking online
08:41I keep going down
08:42Rabbit holes
08:45So I go
08:47Into the hospital
08:49With cancer
08:51And then they lower
08:53My immune system
08:54Which
08:55That's standard
08:58But it just doesn't seem to make logical sense
09:02Because it just all seems so
09:05Brutal
09:08I know
09:12But you can't
09:14You know
09:14You can't always trust everything
09:16That you read on
09:17The internet
09:18You know
09:19You keep thinking
09:21I know what the plan is
09:25Jackie just keeps pushing
09:27Pushing
09:30But it's not his
09:32Life
09:33It's my life
09:36There's still time
09:39I could change my mind
09:42I
09:42I don't have to do this
09:48Do I?
09:52So
09:53I told Denise
09:54You know
09:54If you
09:55We need any help
09:56You know
09:57Picking up Ramis
09:58From school
09:58That sort of thing
09:59I'm just saying
10:00You know
10:01I'm about
10:03I appreciate it
10:04Oh he's close
10:06Oh
10:08Come in
10:09She ain't doing anything
10:12I don't feel that bad now though
10:16I don't want to feel worse
10:19And bald
10:23Not even me eyelashes
10:25I don't care
10:26If that sounds vain
10:28Because
10:30This
10:33It is
10:36Well it's the first step
10:38Isn't it
10:42I don't want to lose
10:43All my hair cube
10:45Do you know
10:46How much
10:47That might freak
10:48Raymond out
10:51And Jack
10:54What if he can't
10:55Stand the sight
11:01Well you ain't done
11:02The menopause yet
11:04Trust me
11:06Hard enough
11:07To keep the spark
11:09The
11:09I'm throwing up
11:15What if I just
11:16Don't go
11:18Just
11:19Like
11:20Stay
11:22Home
11:26Because
11:27No one
11:27Knows
11:28When they're gonna go
11:29Do they
11:29Where's the difference
11:34Yes
11:36We can
11:37We could
11:39It's your choice
11:44I have to do the best
11:46Kim
11:53And the kids
11:55I don't know
11:56What best it is
11:59I
12:02I'm
12:02I'm only 57
12:05There's so many things
12:06I haven't done yet
12:07I
12:07I
12:08I don't know
12:09I've never tried
12:10I
12:12No
12:12I don't want to do this
12:18I feel like
12:22Standing
12:23At the edge of a cliff
12:26Just so
12:31Hopeless
12:36What if I go into the hospital
12:38And never come back out
12:48I promise
12:50Raymond
12:50I could die
12:59Couldn't I
13:13I'm so scared
13:16I'm so scared
13:19I'm so scared
13:26And
13:30You're allowed to be
13:33And so am I
13:36But listen
13:40I need you to know
13:42You can always tell me the truth
13:45And I will always be honest with you
13:49Okay
13:53This
13:55This
13:55This is a wobble
13:56Dee
13:58And you can put it off
14:00You can put it off if you want
14:02All that you want
14:05But you know you don't really have a choice
14:10You have to trust your consultant
14:14Okay
14:17And I promise you
14:19I will buy you
14:20I will buy you the most
14:20Beautiful head wraps
14:22There is
14:23Yeah
14:23And you will be known as the Nubian queen of Walford
14:27Yeah
14:30And then
14:30I don't know
14:32We can
14:32Do something together
14:34You know
14:35We can
14:35I don't know
14:36Learn
14:36Learn French
14:37And go to France
14:40And
14:40See the Monet
14:44Okay
14:44But if you don't want to be helpless
14:47You have to do what they tell you to do
14:52You have to
14:57And I know that
15:00You're the one that's going through this
15:04But trust me
15:08You're not alone
15:12You're not alone
15:13Sis
15:20And
15:20And I promise you
15:23If anything
15:26If anything
15:30I promise you
15:32If anything
15:34I will be a mum
15:36To your kids
15:38I promise you
15:42Well if that ain't motivation to get better
15:44I don't know what is
15:46You are so rude
15:48A bag out of water
15:50You are rude
15:53Oh
15:55Okay
15:58Ready
16:02Okay
16:02We got this now
16:03Okay
16:27I don't want to be fast
16:32I don't want anyone
16:34Waving me off
16:37And I hear
16:39Your ship is coming in
16:46Your tears
16:48And see for me to swim
16:51I know people
16:52Are
16:54Just trying to be kind
17:02I don't want any pity
17:05And glances
17:05Or
17:07Anything like that
17:26Hard enough
17:26Hard enough getting me own head round
17:34You are beautiful
17:35You are beautiful mum
17:38Yeah
17:47Yeah
17:50Have you seen this new picture Raymond's done?
18:07So are you going to be okay
18:08Getting the kids off to school this morning?
18:10It's just I know you've got a lot on your plate with Jordan
18:12I'm fine
18:14I've got this
18:16And if Jordan needs extra physio
18:17Then
18:18I'll do more shifts
18:19And get more cash
18:35Mum
18:37No way
18:38Come in
18:40Come in
18:42You're not
18:43What is
18:44What are you going to be around?
18:47Oh
18:48Yeah
18:48You just called us
18:49Oh
18:50Oh
18:50Come in
18:50Came as soon as I heard
18:52Oh
18:53But you didn't have to do that
18:55Not with your job
18:55And everything
18:56I'm here for as long as you need me mum
18:58Day
18:59Yeah
19:00Yeah
19:01Will you
19:01Will you come first thing in the morning?
19:06Oh my squiggle
19:10I feel better already
19:11Just having you at home
19:14Oh
19:16But you are part of this family now
19:18Your land is all over the place
19:19I just don't know what I'm supposed to say to her
19:21Maybe I'll get her some flowers or something
19:24Just
19:26Don't want to get in the way
19:30No
19:30No
19:31No but you know what this text means
19:34Negative
19:34That means Lauren can stop washing the towels every five minutes
19:38Clear Peter
19:38NHS confirmation
19:39That means nothing creeping
19:40Growing on
19:42Or rotting the crown jewels
19:43You're an absolute catch aren't you?
19:45Yes
19:45Yes
19:46That's very astute of you to notice
19:48And
19:49I'm not a super spreader
19:50Spread the word
19:51Wait
19:51There's our summerー
20:34Just saying, you could have told me if you thought Mum was ill.
20:37Yes, yes, only I didn't.
20:39So I couldn't, but you could have come home more than once
20:42if I hadn't checked for yourself.
20:43I have what?
20:44Yes, we know, you are very busy, you have a CBT event
20:47and you're working late and you're the only one
20:49who can deliver this very important project.
20:51I know I do my best and now that I have Jordan, I...
20:55And I haven't.
20:57Why is it that ten minutes back here
20:59and I'm already feeling like I can't breathe?
21:02People grow up, they move on and move out
21:06and it doesn't seem to matter how much I have done,
21:09I am straight back here and straight into being treated
21:12like I'm seven years old.
21:13That's not what I mean.
21:13I'm not like you or Mum or Aunty Kim
21:17and, you know, I am really grateful for you giving up your bed,
21:20but long-term option, I don't want to be sleeping on Mum's sofa.
21:23And no, not because I'm a snob, but because it rips my neck.
21:26Can you just stop? Stop!
21:31My son is in hospital
21:35and he might never walk again.
21:40And now Mum has left
21:42and, yeah, OK, I should have noticed
21:48that she is sick
21:50and I never...
21:53And I know that this is really, really selfish,
21:57but I can't...
22:01How am I going to cope
22:06if she's not here?
22:22So, use the bell.
22:26You don't worry about bothering anyone.
22:28If something feels off,
22:29you press the bell.
22:38I'm going to be honest with you.
22:40The next four weeks are going to be extremely difficult.
22:44This ward will become your life.
22:48The chemotherapy we're starting is deliberately harsh.
22:52It has to be.
22:54It will destroy your bone marrow completely.
22:58It'll have no immune system at all.
23:01So a sore throat, a mouth ulcer, a little cut...
23:06The sort of things you normally ignore
23:08could become very serious very quickly.
23:13You will be isolated.
23:16Visitors will be restricted.
23:19Staff will be coming in and out at all hours.
23:22We will try to give you time to rest,
23:25but it can be relentless.
23:29You will almost certainly require
23:32repeated blood and platelet transfusions.
23:36Bleeding and bruising,
23:37a common infection is expected.
23:40It's not unusual.
23:43Some patients end up in intensive care.
23:48That's not inevitable, but...
23:51I do have to warn you.
23:54We are putting you through this, Denise,
23:57because it's your best chance of a cure.
24:01But it comes at a cost.
24:09So, you feel unwell?
24:11Or frightened, or something simply doesn't feel right?
24:15Ring the bell.
24:16I got it.
24:17Can we start, please?
24:23From now, I will help.
24:25I've got some savings, not much.
24:27No, Libby, no.
24:28You do not want to be taking out loans.
24:30And how are you going to have the time to do more shifts?
24:34Jordan does need a wheelchair when it gets out,
24:36and you're going to want the best.
24:38And Patrick's bedroom will need to be set up.
24:39All of that's going to cost money, Gels.
24:44Gels?
24:47OK, fine.
24:49Mum's had me set up that star chart thing,
24:51so I'll just put a message in there.
24:53Maybe somebody will know what the big secret is.
25:02OK.
25:05I've got these letters.
25:08From Grey's family to Jordan.
25:12But I have, I've shoved them in a baby box.
25:17But they've been coming to the old house since he was born.
25:21Nicola's been passing them over.
25:26I think they're from Grey's nan.
25:31I've only opened one.
25:33Just one.
25:35It's a birthday card.
25:37You know what, Jordan can have the lot when he's 18,
25:40and he's old enough.
25:42OK.
25:43The card had a check-in.
25:47For a grand.
25:50No, no, please don't say it,
25:53because honestly, I can't,
25:54and I have not told anyone, Libby.
25:57And I know, I know what £1,000 could do,
25:59even more now.
26:00And I know that Jordan needs it,
26:02and I know that there is blood,
26:04but I, I still get flashbacks.
26:08I, I can't have that man know anything about my son,
26:13not even indirectly,
26:15because Grey is evil, Libby.
26:18And I have to protect Jordan.
26:20I, I have to protect him, don't I?
26:24Minute.
26:26Hello?
26:27Yes?
26:28Yes, yes, it's Chelsea Fox.
26:31Is Jordan awake?
26:34Er, no, no, no, yes, no,
26:35I'll, I'll, I'll grab a pen.
26:36I'll grab a pen.
26:37Er, has his test results come back yet?
26:39Ah, but I'll grab a pen.
26:39I'll grab that pen.
26:40Oh, boy.
26:45Okay.
27:27You might be a bit cold, that's normal.
27:30Just let me know if anything is sharp or sore.
27:33If it stings, tell me straight away.
27:36Okay?
27:51You're doing exactly what you're supposed to be doing.
27:53Just breathe normally.
27:55You don't need to brace.
27:59I'll warn you, the pump beeps for no reason other than to make people jump.
28:04Okay.
28:05Good.
28:06I'll check back in 15.
28:10When will I feel it?
28:12Day one's usually the easy day.
28:14Quiet part.
28:15It's a marathon, not a sprint.
28:17The drugs are just getting started.
28:20Is that your family?
28:23Sweet.
28:39Then, go to school.
28:53Especially in 20s.
28:53Wait ...
28:53What?
28:53See you now?
Comments