00:00When I was kicked out of college and I went home, my mother and I would argue a lot because
00:04when I
00:04went to college, I had this realization of like, oh my god, my mother is horrible. Like she's a bad
00:09person. I got diagnosed with narcolepsy at the end of my senior year of high school. I didn't want
00:15to go to school. And my mom once poured a bucket of water on me to try to get me
00:20up, but she was
00:21just very frustrated with me and very hard on me about that. I took a class at a college in
00:26Vermont
00:27and I found a great therapist there. Afterwards, I went to, I asked my professor if we could talk
00:32and I cried in her office. I was like, I'm terrified to go home. She sponsored me to stay on
00:36campus.
00:37It was a lifesaver in so many ways. And this resulted in me being twice in one week by two
00:44different men. I was going down that route and my therapist said, don't do it, Cheyenne. Just trust
00:49me. It's going to end up with you being again. And because I listened to her, I had the time
00:53to
00:53process it. The end of November of 2020, it hit me like a ton of bricks. One day I just
00:59knew that
01:00when I was a child, my father had me. I didn't tell my family about any of it because I
01:07knew they
01:08wouldn't be great support. I have been blamed for like, you're creating so much chaos in this family.
01:12Why would you do this to us? And I'm like, I don't want to do this. The problem is not
01:17me. The problem is
01:18your behavior. Then you are the people who let this happen. My life could have been so much better
01:23if I had been able to process this sooner.
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