00:00Was there ever a pressure about making that next paycheck?
00:05Absolutely. Absolutely that's a pressure.
00:07Especially when you come from, I came from poverty.
00:09You know, not the kind where it's like necessarily we're, you know, it's crazy.
00:12It's just like we didn't have it. You know what I mean?
00:14We just didn't have it. We didn't overthink not having it.
00:16We may do what we had.
00:18You know, we had a great sense of love and community, but we didn't have it.
00:21And so once you see what having it is,
00:24that becomes a difficult thing to even think about going back to.
00:28Your first thought is like, oh, no, I have to I have to reach a point of stability.
00:33And what's so interesting is that even when you reach that point of stability,
00:37when you're working from that mindset and you're having that that pressure,
00:41you don't know when it's over.
00:43And so that's always been something that I've worked on and that I've tried to always.
00:47I think when I became aware of it, which probably I want to say trinkles of it was when I
00:53was like 16, 17.
00:55Hey, something feels a little too much.
00:57You know what I mean?
00:58And maybe I should go to therapy or then 18, 19, 20.
01:01I don't know if I can hold this weight.
01:03I don't know if I can hold that weight.
01:03I don't know if I can hold this weight.
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