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Jinx No More, Love at the Door EPISODE ENG MEGA
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00:00Diagnosed with cancer, I was told me to inform my family, I told my family on the phone, about my
00:04cancer, can anyone lend me some money, my stomach had been hurting, and I thought it was indigestion, I went
00:09to the hospital, and it was cancer, I was shocked, thinking about the insane costs, I almost laughed out, I
00:13got my phone, and sent a message in the group, everyone, I have stomach cancer, can anyone lend me some
00:18money, or when I die, will anyone at least take care of me, after 10 seconds, I was removed from
00:22the group by dad, I lowered my eyes and laughed, dad kicked me out of the group, my own brother
00:26even cursed me to die, this is perfect, their wish is coming true, they can find me.
00:30I will finally be a happy family, I tossed my phone aside, lay down on the bed, starting imagining my
00:34next life, I won't be a jinx, I won't lose my parents and my brother, and someone will love me,
00:38the ringtone cut through my thoughts, it was Grace, she is my father's friend's daughter, after he died in an
00:43accident, my father took her in, someone said her birth chart matched my father's, so my father treated her even
00:48better than his own son, there was blaring music, piercing my ears, Grace's voice faded in and out, I'm sorry
00:53Leah, everyone's busy celebrating my birthday, so no one replied, everyone saw your message, mom said we'll go back after
00:59the
01:00party, dad today wanted to get me a channel bag, but they ran out last minute, that's why dad got
01:04mad, he didn't mean it, please don't blame him okay, before I said anything, dad's voice came through the phone,
01:10but all this, isn't it just because money, she ran away on her own, and now she's short on cash,
01:14once you left us, what did you think you were, Leah, why the hell can't you just stop being fake,
01:18my stomach cramped with nausea, I tried to hold it and said with a smile, yeah, if I weren't about
01:24to die, you think I'd talk to you, Raymond and Grace, and I am Leah,
01:27Raymond is my brother, he was born when my dad's business was booming, my dad thought he was a lucky
01:31charm, but when I was born, we were going downhill, on top of work problems, my dad also has to
01:36deal with family pressure, he said I was a curse, so he dumped all his bad temper on me, he
01:40said a happy home brings success, but I ruined the peace, I was the reason, I just didn't want us
01:44to be at peace, I didn't want them to do well, later my dad adopted Grace, Grace was bright, and
01:49brought new color into our home, she was pretty, and everyone adored her, even if she got spoiled she was
01:54still cute, technically Grace was adopted, and I was their real daughter, but I just
01:57kept envying her, she was born lucky, always sunny, cheerful and bright, but I was gloomy and quiet, always on
02:03guard, like a skittish guinea fowl, I was just with bad luck, when my dad's business bounced, his attitude eased
02:08a little, I tried so hard to please him, I tried to joke around like Grace did, but it always
02:12came out wrong, on Grace's last birthday, Raymond brought two dresses from Paris, one for Grace, one for me, I
02:17was so happy I almost cried, but when I tried it on, it was Grace's size, no one at home
02:21had remembered
02:21my size, I still like it though, even though I never wore that dress, Raymond was furious with me, he
02:26said I was ungrateful, and I never would be, a week later, Grace wore that dress to school, she then
02:30found a huge rip at the waist, she ran home in tears, humiliated, Raymond was sure I did it, he
02:34said I copied Grace all the time, but I was jealous, I denied it and argued back, things got heated,
02:38Raymond grabbed my hair, ripping at the roots in big clumps, he dragged me into bathroom, he twisted my arms
02:43and shoved my head into the toilet, he told me to apologize to Grace, my head thrashed in the toilet,
02:47but I refused to make a sound,
02:48I don't remember how many times it was before I finally nodded, it ended with me apologizing to Grace, I
02:53can't forget that disgusting toilet stench, Grace was crying her eyes out, holding my hand and saying she'd forgive me,
02:58Raymond stared at me, gritting his teeth, I will never let anyone bully my sister, but he forgot, I'm his
03:04sister too, someone got to me in a group, for a drink blocker, 500 a bottle, I thought about all
03:09the bills and I went there, I shouldn't drink, but I don't care, better be done with it, numbing myself
03:13beats being awake in pain, music is blasting, with lights and booze, then I spot a table of familiar faces,
03:18my mom stands up, staring at me in disbelief, Leah, what are you doing here, mom, I asked sis to
03:24come, Grace clings to mom's arm, and says, I told her there's a part time job, it's my birthday today,
03:30I wanted her to witness my happiness, part time, other than drinking, what else is there to do, how did
03:35you end up like this, you really have no shame, Raymond sneers and says, just ignore her, she lies about
03:40everything, she even said she has stomach cancer, never seen a cancer patient work in a bar and drink on
03:44the job, I wish the cancer were true, if you just want attention so badly, why not just kill yourself,
03:48my stomach is churning, the stomach holds your emotions, guess that's true, I tried to stand steady, trying to say
03:54something, Grace wanted to smooth things over, her face is pale, tears hanging on her lashes, she looks pitiful, she
04:00didn't mean to lie, she just wants someone to care about her, no matter how broke sis is, I still
04:04hope you'll respect yourself, don't work in places like this, you'll only break your family's heart, you not caring about
04:09me is fine, but do you not care at all about mom and dad's feelings,
04:12I was so speechless, I shoot back, done with your act, my eyes sweep around the room, in the center,
04:17there's a three tier cake, costly as hell, at least 10 bottles of Kawasaki 1970, I let out a bitter
04:22laugh, on my birthday, I couldn't afford a timing cake, and no one remembered, the fun is all theirs, I'm
04:27with loneliness, you're basically a whore, my father's roar yanks me back, whore and a walking curse, do you have
04:32to disgrace us this much, he hesitated, then still said it, I wish I'd strangled you the day you were
04:37born, my chest aches, yeah, you didn't kill me at the day I was born,
04:40so I'm back as a curse to ruin your life, I swallowed the pain, grinned and said, acting carefree, but
04:45don't worry, this curse is about to die, one more second, and my mask will rip open, I won't be
04:49able to hold back tears, I bolt out the door, it was snowing, I struggled all the way to the
04:53villa, then just collapsed, I fell into the snow, I let the snow bury me, I thought, maybe it is
04:58fine, when I woke up, I was in a strange room, our neighbor, Noah Grant, walked in with a bowl
05:02of ginger tea, he lost his parents young, and grew up withdrawn and alone, my mom absolutely hates him, she
05:07always says he is a rude, mean little thug, and tells us to stay away,
05:10feeling better, Noah looked at me, cheeks pink, voice awkward, drink the tea and warm up, your family will be
05:15here soon, he tucked a water bottle under my blanket, it was so warm, he was nothing like mom said,
05:20before I could even thank him, he bolted out of the room, like I was some kind of monster, what
05:25a weirdly nice guy, I thought, I closed my eyes, I don't know how long it was, and I heard
05:30Grace Shaw talking,
05:30Leah, who are you trying to fool with this pathetic act, let neighbors think we abuse you, get back home
05:35now, stop embarrassing us here, Raymond do not talk to Leah like that, Grace grabbed Raymond's arm, speaking in a
05:40fragile voice, it is all my fault, I did not do a good job, I should not have had a
05:44birthday, Leah, I will give you all my presents, even the ones from dad and Raymond, they should have been
05:48yours, I am only a girl the Shaws took in, I will never fight you for anything, I could not
05:53win anyway, just do not blame dad and Raymond, okay?
05:55I shot her a look of pure disgust, without thinking, I grabbed the tea and dumped it on her face,
06:00watching her like a wet chicken, I sneered and said, did the truth not invite you, with such good acting,
06:05do your real parents know?
06:06Grace's eyes filled with tears and she hid behind Raymond, Raymond finally snapped, he yanked my blanket off, dragging me
06:12off the bed, it was all ice and snow, my bare feet sunk into it and he dragged me like
06:16a chick, he hauled me forward, holy crap, I forgot to scrub the toilet, ever since the first time Raymond
06:20shoved my head in the toilet, the first thing I do every morning is to scrub every toilet in the
06:24house,
06:24I never want to smell that stench again, I do not remember how I ended up on the floor, my
06:28arms were twisted behind bent like a screw, the pain was so sharp, mom was cooking in the kitchen, when
06:32she heard the noise, she shut the kitchen door, I closed my eyes in despair, Raymond grabbed my hair, yanking
06:37me up hard, he kept shoving my head into the toilet water,
06:40apologize, apologize, my lungs felt like they'd explode, dying like this might be easier, suddenly I vomited a mouthful of
06:46blood, Raymond froze and then let go of my arm, I lay on my side gasping for air,
06:50enough, stop faking it, Raymond's voice was still cold, his eyes full of mockery, no one is buying that acting,
06:55why am I still alive, I clutched my stomach, I must have been hallucinating, I saw mom and dad rush
07:00over, their faces were filled with worry, even Raymond looked shaken and got me to the bed,
07:04call the ambulance now, mom's face was pale, tears flooded her eyes like a cold mask suddenly cracking, just as
07:10mom was calling the ambulance, Grace suddenly said,
07:12Leah, do you feel good making everyone worry, stop being childish, Leah, you are the one who should be on
07:18stage, I found all of this in your drawer,
07:20she opened her palm, showing several prop capsules, everyone's face froze, dad slapped him out of nowhere, landing on my
07:25cheek, half my face went numb, my ears rang non-stop,
07:28it took a while for the pain to hit, dad rubbed his temples, his voices with impatience, you really stop
07:33at nothing, it is disgusting, get out, from now on, I do not have a daughter like you,
07:37I struggled to get up from the bed, with indifference and a calm tone, fine, in the past, dad always
07:42used the most vicious words,
07:43I was afraid of being homeless and begged desperately, trying to hold on to them, I'm sensitive and fragile, anyone
07:48could hurt me, but now I'm tired,
07:50they were stunned, I didn't understand what's in their eyes, soon turning into indifference, do what you want, I hope
07:54you get far away and never let us see you,
07:56I looked around, there was nothing to take with, except for a longevity locket, back when I was just born,
08:01my mother, with happiness had this locket for me,
08:03and no one said I was a jinx, grace didn't show up, raymond was at the steps arms crossed, tone
08:07sarcastic,
08:08if you apologize to grace, we might take you back, no need, there's nothing worth here, I walked past him
08:13without even looking, raymond didn't stop me,
08:15outside, snow was falling heavily, the world was like in a nordic fairy tale, and I had nowhere to go,
08:19I limped through the snow,
08:20until the lights disappeared, then I finally broke down, crying, I emptied myself, but no one filled me up, I
08:26went to a store,
08:26bought a box of matches and a small knife, I decided to die, the cold blade slid across my wrist,
08:31roses bloomed in the snow,
08:32I thought of the little match girl, if I lit a match too, what would I see, the flame rose
08:36but nothing appeared,
08:37as the flame went out, I saw the grandmother, wait, why is he a man, my consciousness began to fade,
08:42everything was white,
08:43I realized I was lying on a hospital bed, the nurse was mean, why would you kill yourself, your boyfriend
08:48is so worried,
08:49I saw Noah Grant who is resting on the bed, long eyelashes are casting shadows on his face, he's sleeping
08:53in peace,
08:54my blood was bleeding under bandaged wrist, afraid to use strength I propped myself up and walked out, leaning on
08:59the wall,
08:59a dying person shouldn't burden others, I just want to disappear,
09:02Leah it's you again, you just won't go away,
09:05a familiar voice was behind me, I took a deep breath and turned around, Raymond frowned, his gaze falling on
09:09my wrist,
09:10then he had a scornful smile,
09:12what are you playing now, you said you didn't want us, why are you following us, just to put on
09:15this show in front of us,
09:16I don't understand why you have to compete with Grace, Grace hurt her finger, and we are here at the
09:20ER,
09:20and you, after faking illness, you're playing suicide now, at least make it look real, cutting horizontally won't kill you,
09:25follow the artery, and cut vertically, that's how you die properly, look forward to your obituary,
09:29I listened to his words, feeling nothing inside, I turned and waved lightly with my bandaged wrist,
09:34saying casually, as you wish, thanks for the advice,
09:38Noah appeared behind us at some point, he pulled me behind him,
09:41what the hell are you talking about, is that how you talk to your sister, look what you've done to
09:44her,
09:44what kind of brother are you,
09:45doctors and patients peeked out to watch, nurses hesitated to intervene,
09:49dad and mom came out supporting Grace, dad saw me first, face full of anger,
09:52what kind of sister are you, it's all your fault, your sister went out in the snow for you and
09:56cut her finger,
09:57you're nothing but bad luck, stop being so selfish,
09:59before I could respond, Noah snapped,
10:01are your eyeballs just for decoration, she's bleeding to death, don't you know,
10:04your daughter's finger would have healed, if we'd be here any later,
10:07I've seen biased parents, but never once biased this much, just looking at you makes me sick, let's go,
10:11Noah supported me, and carried me out like a chick, mom's voice called from behind,
10:15Leah, how can you be with a hoodlum, that's where you learn to lie,
10:18I tried to hold back tears, saying, slander me all you want, but not others,
10:22mom, the hoodlum you speak of has more heart than you all,
10:25Raymond snorted, voice resentful,
10:27Leah, you've already ruined this family, now everyone's unhappy, are you happy,
10:30if you leave, you'll have no home to return to, think carefully,
10:33what home do I have left, Noah turned back,
10:36get lost, then tightened his grip, and said gently,
10:38I'll take you home,
10:39I curled up in hospital bed, watching the snow outside,
10:42the heat was on full blast, but I was still freezing, shivering in the bed,
10:45Noah pinned me to the bed, holding me down so hard, while the nursery bandaged my wound,
10:49my eyes were unfocused, my voice icy, if you hadn't saved me,
10:52I'd be dead already, and I wouldn't have to suffer,
10:55Noah let out a cold snort,
10:56if you died, the house prices would drop, I'm not taking that loss,
10:59then I'll jump into the ocean, my tone was firm,
11:01please don't pollute the water, besides, you're so pretty,
11:04you'd swell up into a giant corpse, Jesus,
11:06Noah stared at my face, shaking his head, as if he could see me as that corpse,
11:10then I'll jump off a cliff, I muttered,
11:12there are many kids hiking these days, you'd scare them to death,
11:15eat first, then plan your death, you can't die in hunger,
11:18like a magician, Noah suddenly pulled a lunchbox from his coat,
11:21he flipped it open, steam rising, inside were ribs, my favorite dish,
11:24but Grace hated sweets, so mom never made it again,
11:27I didn't wanna eat, but my stomach growled twice, and so loud,
11:30fine, I guess I'm not dying today, but I should deal with my basic needs,
11:33I don't wanna die starving, I wolfed down the ribs, crying as I ate,
11:36these ribs are so damn good, thank god I didn't die yesterday,
11:38Noah's eyes turned dark, he paused, before speaking,
11:41life rarely goes the way we want, but we have to keep living,
11:44I reluctantly looked up from the ribs, my mouth stuffed with rice and mumbled,
11:47I've got stomach cancer, it won't change much, there's nothing in this world tying me down,
11:51I just wanna go quietly now, Noah looked at me, his look has been resolved now,
11:55try again, if nothing is holding you, then let me be the thing that does,
11:58I've been alone in this world for a long time,
12:01I'd love to have a little troublemaker, who worries about me,
12:03I was shocked, rice all over me, you're the troublemaker,
12:06things have turned out absurd, or maybe I just lost too much blood,
12:09Noah was right, life rarely goes the way we want,
12:11otherwise, how would I have been in this house, Noah even cleared out a room for me,
12:14pink wallpaper, white lace curtains, and a bed full of toys,
12:17it was like the fairy tale princesses,
12:19I was supposed to have a little sister, but my mom died in labor,
12:22Noah took a deep breath, looked at me and said,
12:24but don't worry, you're not her stand in,
12:26the most awkward thing about that is that,
12:27I can always hear the shahs next door, even through the wall,
12:30their laughter in the yard never stops,
12:31I see them building snowmen, four snowmen, a family of four,
12:34Raymond even wraps a scarf around the one for Grace,
12:36Grace coos Ray, I love you,
12:38Raymond laughs back, in a tone no one has ever used with me,
12:40then a snowball fight, laughing and chasing that kind of warm family fun,
12:44I have never had, they don't even seem to notice,
12:46the family is missing me, I laughed again, pushing the pain back down,
12:49Noah suddenly appears behind me, cover my ears and whispers,
12:51not listening blah blah blah, he makes me laugh so hard,
12:54sometimes one ray of sunshine can chase all the darkness away,
12:57the doctor says it hasn't spread, and if I cooperate, there's hope,
13:00a heavy snow falls, meaning a good year,
13:02new year is around the corner, and I decide to try living on,
13:05after the first round of chemo, my hair starts falling out,
13:07so I just shave my head, and Noah, for my sake, shaves his too,
13:10we look at each other, and burst out laughing,
13:12with wigs on, they look just like everyone else,
13:14Noah heads out to buy food for dinner, and I grab a broom to sweep,
13:17I run right into the shawls,
13:18when Raymond sees me, his face goes gloomy,
13:21do you know we have gone crazy for you,
13:23you're so worried, and you're in some man's house,
13:25do you have no shame at all,
13:26Leah, is this what I taught you,
13:27mom's voice is soft, but she's disappointed,
13:30and you still won't go home,
13:31dad gives me a look of disgust, and spits on the ground,
13:33your sister's been sick over you,
13:35this is how you act with her big sister,
13:37the four snowmen still at their door, grinning at me,
13:39Grace grabs my hand, and I fling them into the snow,
13:42her eyes are red, with two tears that never fall,
13:44she pleads,
13:44I'm begging you, please come home,
13:46I look at these four drama queens,
13:48and answer, I'm not going back,
13:49what the hell is that,
13:50Raymond steps up, cursing at me,
13:52haven't you out of your mind,
13:53you're acting out again,
13:55I'm gonna teach you what respect is,
13:56he pulls his same trick, grabbing my hair,
13:58but the seeing imagines doesn't happen,
14:00cold snowflakes fall on my smooth scalp,
14:01all four of them go pale,
14:03Raymond stares at the wig in his hand,
14:04so rattled, he gasps,
14:06what trick are you pulling now,
14:07I smile at him,
14:08but there's no smile in my eyes,
14:09chemo for stage 2 stomach cancer,
14:11I told you already,
14:12none of you believed me,
14:13Raymond clearly doesn't buy it,
14:14but for what he just saw,
14:15he can't deny,
14:16that time wasn't the capsules,
14:18wasn't it a prank,
14:19behind him,
14:19Grace's lips have gone white,
14:21Raymond looks at her,
14:22and she panics,
14:23I didn't think it would get this bad,
14:24I was just joking with my sister,
14:26she stammers and can't get another word out,
14:28a flash of disgust crossed Raymond's face,
14:30he'd never looked at Grace that way before,
14:32like something hit him,
14:33Raymond grabbed my hand,
14:34yanked up my sleeve,
14:35like he was finding something,
14:36a long ugly scar ran across my wrist,
14:38you could still tell it had once been cut down to the bone,
14:41his lips trembled as he shook his head,
14:42so that day you really meant to die,
14:44no way no way,
14:45but why,
14:46did you have to compete with Grace,
14:47my mom grabbed my wrist,
14:48face full of pain,
14:49with tears,
14:50Leah please don't do anything stupid,
14:51don't be like this,
14:52I pulled my hand back,
14:54where were you,
14:54stop whining,
14:55I'm tired,
14:56my father looked awkward,
14:57but he still kept that posture,
14:58his tone though,
14:59wasn't as harsh as before,
15:01we might have been strict with you,
15:02but we never starved you right,
15:03what you wear and where you live,
15:05re-weigh better than most kids get,
15:06and just because of a few words,
15:08and your sister's joke,
15:09you throw away your parents kindness,
15:11even a dog knows to wag its tail,
15:12you,
15:13I looked up and met his eyes,
15:14I'd never really looked at him before,
15:16I didn't dare,
15:17and now I don't want to,
15:18his face was full of pride,
15:19in his mind,
15:20I'm still Leah,
15:21who can't leave the shahs,
15:22the Leah who wags her tail and begs,
15:24they never starved me,
15:25but no one has ever loved me,
15:26my closet is full of imported luxury,
15:28but not a single thing is my size,
15:30my toes got deformed from shoes that didn't fit,
15:32no one has remembered my birthday,
15:34but Grace is wrapped in love,
15:35the whole family loved her,
15:36the clothes and shoes are all Grace's size,
15:38no one has remembered me,
15:39Leah,
15:40Raymond grabbed my hand,
15:41choking up,
15:41to the hospital,
15:42the best one,
15:43I brushed his hand away,
15:44my stomach cramped up,
15:45twisting in pain,
15:46forget it Raymond,
15:47you are not my brother,
15:48you said it yourself,
15:49Grace is your only sister,
15:50his expression froze,
15:51it was like he just realized the last time I called him brother was already years ago,
15:55a pair of warm hands pulled me into an embrace,
15:57shielding me behind him,
15:58Noah loomed like an eagle,
16:00staring them down darkly,
16:01cut the fake act,
16:02you broke her legs,
16:02then gave her a crutches,
16:03and now you blame her for being ungrateful,
16:05why have her at the first place,
16:06and if you don't love her,
16:07why not just admit it,
16:07why blame her,
16:08what did she do,
16:09Noah's voice was heavy with grief,
16:10and that grief was actually for me,
16:12Noah's tall frame covered me,
16:13snowflakes kept falling,
16:14and I had an umbrella,
16:15I really don't get Noah's taste,
16:17after kicking them out,
16:17he dug into all the bags,
16:18and pulled out a pile of pink stuff,
16:20a pink hat,
16:21pink gloves,
16:21a pink puffer coat,
16:22pink wool socks,
16:23a pink tulle dress,
16:24and pink snow boots,
16:25everything fits,
16:26I looked at me in the mirror,
16:27imagining I was a princess in a pink princess dress,
16:29I remembered what I told Noah about my childhood,
16:31I said I was jealous of Grace,
16:33because her closet was full of pink princess dresses,
16:35Raymond once said pink was for princesses,
16:36and only a real princess deserved it,
16:38I was just the clown,
16:39I looked at Noah gratefully,
16:40he scratched the back of his head,
16:42uh,
16:42I was buying stuff,
16:43wandering around and seeing these,
16:44so I grabbed them,
16:45hey,
16:46don't cry,
16:46I wiped my tears,
16:47smiling happily,
16:48thank you Noah,
16:49Noah flicked me on the forehead,
16:50I'm warning you,
16:51don't call me that,
16:52brother,
16:53quit it,
16:53I'll see you next time,
16:53bye,
16:53You
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