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90 Day Diaries - Season 8 Episode 3 - Dear Diary, I Have a Big Secret
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00:10who's ready to trick or treat wow oh who farted
00:18it's been 12 years since i came out as trans so
00:22this girl's been getting in a great mom why is your belly changing and so big
00:28what isn't that bae we have a really big secret that we have been keeping from everyone and that
00:34is we are pregnant with baby number four kobe and i are going to tell the kids the big news
00:42today what big news mom
00:47i'm a model so i need to have some shade i'm about to have a whole bunch of feminizing surgeries
00:54like breast augmentation face lift jaw and shin surgery we're going to restructure the bone so
01:01all the incision is going to happen inside your mouth and i'm just really worried
01:07it's like 3 15 in the morning dallas is supposed to be home at like 2 45
01:12so i checked out his location and he's parked down the street again
01:17is he a girl down the street for me is he cheating i just have like a really bad feeling
01:36happy halloween happy halloween
01:39i can't do it which one we have kennedy a ninja
01:47oliver you're hiding the other ninja i'm kalani i'm 37 years old and i live in orange county california
01:56hi you ready for trick-or-treating yeah are you gonna get a lot of candy yeah
02:03my 90-day journey began with my ex oswalu when we met at a resort in 2016 in samoa
02:10oh wow we fell in love and soon after that i became pregnant and our son oliver was born
02:19hi buffy and then five months later oswalu came to the u.s on a k-1 visa
02:26lord jesus please now
02:36pretty quickly after oswalu got here i found out that i was pregnant again and then oswalu and i
02:42were married in california you may kiss the bride
02:51from the beginning i knew oswalu wasn't faithful to me and that led to a ton of fights
03:10he told me that to make up for the multiple times that he cheated that i could get a hall
03:14pass
03:15but some major stuff came out of that when we went to a couple's therapy retreat
03:20oswalu offered to let me kiss someone so i got to know this other guy we did kiss each other
03:30it escalated into actual sex
03:37ultimately oswalu and i decided to get divorced and i ended up getting into a serious relationship
03:43with the hall pass guy matter of fact baby come here
03:49hi i know hello
03:52hi everyone
03:53i was gonna say hello to the camera but you're over here
03:57good job
03:58i'm dallas i'm 30 years old and i'm from orange county california
04:02we met when i needed help moving
04:06i made like this post that i needed help moving from utah to california
04:11i didn't think she was gonna answer to begin with when i responded to her story
04:15but to be fair i was following her for a while
04:18why were you following me
04:20i mean one you're pretty
04:22two i thought you and your ex-husband were funny
04:25i mean you look queer like you're disgusted
04:31i saw that
04:35we've been together for almost three years
04:38and we also have a 16 month old daughter of masina
04:45oh and look
04:48this is masina come here girl
04:51this is her second halloween but her first one that she could actually walk
04:56i got pregnant like nine months into our relationship
05:00but we were talking about having a baby like
05:02for the longest time
05:03literally like the first week we got together
05:08who's ready to trick or treat
05:11wow all right
05:13last one to the car is a rotten egg
05:15i'm gonna get there first
05:17dressed up and ready for a wild ride
05:21trick or treat
05:22and put a spell on me
05:24what
05:29oh goodness gracious
05:31what do we have here
05:34ninja
05:34ninja
05:35cute
05:36and a baby leopard
05:38and a big ninja
05:39okay come on inside
05:42i am a total halloween freak
05:44i've loved it since i was a kid
05:47i just had this thing with like witches
05:49i could be a bitch for the day
05:51and i could just blame it on the costume
06:01hello sprinkle man
06:03a lot of sprinkles
06:05that looks good
06:07that's a big bite
06:09oh oliver how was yours
06:10good
06:11that looks like a face of not good
06:15i think we have a stinker here
06:17oh
06:17i'll change her
06:19you want to come help me
06:20sure
06:20come on cute girl
06:22okay
06:22let's go
06:24i know
06:26i know
06:28jeez louise
06:30i know i'm almost done
06:31i'm almost done girl
06:35okay
06:35all right
06:36you got a queen booty
06:37let's go
06:41jeez she hates me today
06:43everybody said that girls are so much easier than boys and that is a lie
06:47and how has dallas been with her
06:49oh he's great with her
06:50well that's good that he's been helpful
06:52yeah
06:52how are things with you and him
06:56could be better
06:58you know how he works the night shift
07:00so his hours are already like not great
07:03but then like the other day
07:05uh i woke up randomly out of my sleep
07:08and then i was like what the frick what time is it
07:10it was like 20 minutes after he was supposed to be home
07:13and then i checked his location
07:15and he was parked down the street
07:17he had been in the car i'm assuming for like 20-30 minutes
07:20so then i was like what the f is he doing in there
07:24right
07:26so i don't know
07:28i have absolutely no clue why dallas would be hanging out at his car at 2 in the morning
07:33is he a girl down the street from me
07:36i'm trying to not be paranoid
07:38but that's weird right
07:41i don't know it's like i have this voice in my head that's like something's not right
07:45you know what i mean
07:46yeah
07:47but i didn't bring it up
07:49maybe if it happens again
07:50then i'll confront him about it
07:53i just
07:53i don't want to make a problem if it's nothing
07:57i've
07:57had so much stuff done to me
08:00that now i just have a really hard time trusting
08:03anything with a penis
08:07yeah
08:08i mean if my man was parked on the street at 2 a.m. and was supposed to be home
08:13i'd be a little sketched out about it
08:14i mean you did have a lot of stuff happen to you
08:17that's going to make you second guess everything
08:20but yeah if you're doing it when he is undeserving of it
08:24right
08:25then that's not great
08:27yeah
08:27i do have ptsd from the whole oswaldu thing so my head tends to spin with all kinds of different
08:34scenarios
08:34but dallas has been such a great guy over the last few years
08:38and i don't think he would do anything to hurt me so i'm trying not to be paranoid
08:43let's go check the cookies
08:46okay
08:47okay
08:55oh
09:00frick that's bright
09:03okay
09:03so basically what's going on is
09:06it's like 3 15 in the morning
09:09dallas is supposed to be home at like 2 45
09:11so i checked out his location
09:14and he's parked down the street again
09:16so
09:20i don't really know what's going on
09:23is someone there
09:24is he talking to someone
09:26i just have like a really bad feeling
09:29and i honestly feel like i'm gonna throw up
09:35this just feels like torture
09:37like is he cheating
09:39or am i just like making it all up in my head
09:42because of everything that's happened to me in the past
09:44i don't want to go through this kind of thing again
10:01what's up
10:19i'm emily i'm 34 and i'm from salina kansas and this is my husband kobe
10:25yeah my wonderful husband
10:28kelby from cameroon and i'm 39 years old
10:32oh he's old
10:35you want to get in there don't you
10:40family time is so important for us
10:42because they really are only little this once
10:45and i want to just make sure that we're soaking up all the time that we have with them
10:50and that is even more true now because we have some really big changes coming soon
10:58how is everybody's day today
11:01whatever you do at school what'd you learn
11:04i played games on my computer
11:08that's what you did at school
11:10uh-huh
11:10yeah
11:11must be nice
11:19i didn't know you love chocolate and peanut butter
11:23i don't like peanut butter
11:27kobe and i's 90-day journey started about seven years ago
11:32i went to shihan china to teach english
11:35and i saw kobe in a bar and i was just like oh my gosh this man is so hot
11:40in my mind when i saw her i was like yo i'm taking her home tonight
11:46yeah he thought it was a one night stand but really he was just like a smitten kitten
11:50and fell in love with me
11:51and he proposed to me two weeks later
12:01we had a lot of sex back then at the beginning
12:04every relationship by the beginning there's a lot of sex
12:07oh my gosh there's so much sex
12:08and then we created our first baby cobin
12:12congratulations
12:14i came back to america
12:16with all the intention of kobe coming as well
12:21but with covid and the embassies shutting down
12:25it made that almost impossible
12:27when kobe finally got approved to come to the u.s. after two years of being separated
12:33it was like just such a heartfelt moment
12:36who's that you see papa you see dada
12:39he's so cute
12:41he looks just like you
12:45and then a month later we got married
12:48i kobe take you emily to be my wife
12:51will you emily take this man to be your husband
12:56i do
12:58and since then we have had our baby girl scarlet
13:02our little baby boy atem
13:04and we have moved into our beautiful home
13:07what's that say
13:09big
13:11big sister
13:12good job
13:14wow
13:15can you read for that
13:16open
13:19oh who farted
13:20me
13:21you stinker
13:24mom why is her belly changing and so big
13:28what it's not big
13:30yeah
13:31it's not changing i think i just ate a lot of food
13:33it's getting bigger
13:36okay
13:37it is time to go to bed
13:38yeah
13:39it's time to go
13:40all right
13:40you guys have a good sleepover in scarlet's room
13:44so we have a really big secret that we have been keeping from everyone
13:47and that is we are pregnant with baby number four
13:53our family is growing bundle of joys
13:55well i'm only three and a half months and it's a big secret nobody knows
14:00and we're not gonna find out the gender
14:02yeah
14:03just like that
14:04surprise
14:04hi mom
14:05all right guys
14:06bye
14:07i love you
14:17what's that
14:20bobo
14:22there's daddy
14:23hello
14:26yeah that is
14:27i don't want that putting it out
14:29oh that's a great photo
14:32that's when we went to camera
14:34we're gonna buy a frame and frame it and just hang it in the walls
14:37i have a frame for it
14:39you have a frame
14:40yeah it's in the guest room
14:42do you want to grab it
14:43yeah
14:44yeah um my father passed away a couple of months ago and i just thought that in order to honor
14:52him
14:52his memories legacy and everything um i'll print a photo of him and you know bring it home so we
14:59can hang it somewhere
15:02go up
15:02go up make sure it's a little even
15:03we're gonna put a nail over here
15:06we knew he was gonna do it
15:07we knew he wasn't doing well he had had a major surgery and he had diabetes so his body wasn't
15:14great at fighting infections and how old was he
15:18seven five
15:19and it was really very sad for me because i couldn't make it over there
15:23but i think of my dad every day
15:26he's always gonna have a special place in my heart
15:29and now he's gonna have a special place in the home
15:33see how powerful you are
15:35that's how you were so powerful
15:37all right let's go
15:38he can rip a goat's head off with his bed
15:40no
15:42no
15:43but he was very strong
15:46i want my kids to know that their grandpa was just an open-hearted kind
15:51you know
15:52loved everybody
15:53loved everybody
15:54he really was
15:56is just a
15:58beautiful person inside and out
16:12thank you for taking my son like your son
16:19that's the kind of man that i i am aspiring to be to my kids no matter the odds
16:24yeah
16:26it looks beautiful
16:28okay everybody down
16:30that's cool
16:39cloby and i are gonna tell the kids the big news
16:43today
16:44so what big news mom
16:46huh
16:46what big news
16:49oh we're gonna tell you later tonight okay
16:51okay
16:52love you
16:53love y'all
16:54yeah
17:00okay
17:01let's go over here are you guys excited
17:03all right
17:04come here you have to
17:05all right now it's time for the big surprise
17:07after kobe came home with the picture of his dad it gave me the idea to get family photos
17:13done i thought that would be a really fun way to tell the kids that we were expecting
17:17so my cousin hannah's a photographer and she's gonna take our family photos to capture the kids
17:24reactions when we tell them that we're having another baby we're a family of five which is so wild
17:31right our family of six oh my gosh we're gonna be a family of six just blows my mind
17:38yeah that's why
17:41it's time for the big surprise
17:43are you ready
17:45how should we do it like this
17:48okay are you guys ready
17:50guess what
17:52what is that
17:56no
17:58could there be a baby in mommy's belly
18:02you don't think so
18:03you don't think so
18:04guess what
18:04mommy's pregnant
18:07yeah i told you we have something to tell you
18:10a real baby that you can hold every day
18:14let's go
18:16pretty soon you're gonna be able to feel the baby kick in my belly
18:20yeah very soon
18:21are you excited
18:23uh-oh
18:24smiley come here
18:26what is it going to be for
18:27in may
18:28may very soon
18:30the cat is out of the bag
18:32and the reactions are literally everything i hope for
18:35and you want it to be a baby brother or baby sister
18:38sister
18:40you know it's obviously very sad that we lost this door but
18:43it's special that we're having this baby and
18:46he's gonna always be there for us and he's gonna meet this baby in spirit and
18:51he's gonna watch over us
18:53yeah
18:54yeah
18:56all right
18:57okay
18:58everybody
19:03look at each other look at each other
19:11you guys are just the cutest people i've ever seen in my entire life
19:16that's him
19:17oh my goodness
19:20oh so pretty
19:22we're good we're done
19:24are you pooping
19:24is that what you needed
19:51you can never go wrong with a jacket
19:56like a nice, beautiful jacket.
19:57I think this will be really cool in Seoul.
19:59But am I going to be walking around Seoul,
20:02all bandaged up, rocking this?
20:07Probably.
20:08It's a yes for me.
20:11I'm Cleo. I'm 35 years old.
20:13I am originally from Italy,
20:15but I've lived in London for the past 16 years.
20:18Right now, I am packing to go to Seoul, South Korea,
20:21to get a bunch of feminizing procedures
20:24to give me a super womanly look.
20:26And I am so excited.
20:28This girl's been getting an upgrade!
20:30Finally! About time!
20:32It's been 12 years since I came out as trans,
20:35so it was about time.
20:37I'm getting a breast augmentation
20:38and a plethora of face twigs.
20:42I'm gonna be having breast augmentation,
20:44lower facelift, mid-facelift,
20:47jaw-like snatching and chin snatching,
20:51which will soften the angles of my face,
20:52eye surgery.
20:54That's a lot.
20:55Like, I'm telling you, it's a lot.
20:56I'm getting a lot of plastic surgery.
20:58I need some cardigans.
21:00Anyway, I'll get some stuff sorted,
21:02and then I'll catch up when it's ready!
21:05My 90-day journey began when I met my ex, Christian,
21:09on social media.
21:11And we struck up a friendship
21:13that quickly blasted him into romance.
21:16Eventually, he came to visit me in London.
21:19Hello!
21:20How are you?
21:22How are you?
21:22I'm good.
21:24Finally being able to be together was amazing,
21:28but Christian constantly needed to get validation
21:31and flirting with other women made me insecure
21:34about whether he was really attracted to me
21:36as a trans woman.
21:37So, we broke up.
21:40After Christian and I broke up,
21:42I decided to start my medical surgical transition,
21:46and I had my first gender-affirming surgery,
21:48focusing on this part of my face, primarily.
21:53And unfortunately, a few things didn't go quite as planned
21:56with my healing, and so I had to have a corrective procedure.
22:01This time, I really want to get back on track to resume
22:04and complete my transition.
22:06You know, upper body transition.
22:13Okay, you guys, I have made it through security.
22:17I've chosen to go to Seoul
22:19because I'm going to the number one plastic surgery hospital
22:24in South Korea.
22:25I'm really excited.
22:27Of course, I'm anxious,
22:28because sometimes things don't necessarily go as planned
22:30with surgery, so I've definitely had that experience before.
22:33That's all I've got to say.
22:34So, I'll catch you guys later.
22:38Every head turned away and I won't cry.
22:41I'm the headline, yeah, yeah, yeah.
22:43Sooner soon, I'm the night at the beat.
22:46Me, I'm acting way too far.
22:48Okay, guys, I have arrived.
22:50I am kind of really exhausted right now.
22:53I just want to find the driver and go to the hotel.
22:56Sorry, it's really heavy.
23:00This is so cute.
23:02I love it.
23:04Now, look at that.
23:05They've got PJs ready for me.
23:07Now, I'm definitely going to need some beauty rest
23:09because tomorrow, I am meeting with the surgeons.
23:12And I'm so excited, slash, I can't believe this is happening.
23:18Even as a kid, I never felt comfortable within my body
23:21because it wasn't reflecting how I felt on the inside.
23:25So, this is another step into getting my outer body
23:29to be closer to how I feel on the inside.
23:31And, you know, tomorrow couldn't come any faster.
23:41Today, I'm going to finally meet my surgeons in person.
23:44I'm definitely taking a big risk having the surgeries alone
23:47in a foreign country where not everybody necessarily speaks English.
23:51However, I've known about these doctors and center for years,
23:54and I've been so impressed by the work that I've seen.
23:57And I know that I'm in good hands.
23:59How did you go here?
24:00Are you going to talk about the job?
24:01Yes.
24:02I'm a model, so I need to have some, like, strong feature.
24:06Like, it can't be too...
24:07It needs to have some shape.
24:09Yeah, right, right.
24:10Can I cut your face?
24:11Of course, of course.
24:12We're going to restructure the bone.
24:14So, all the incision is going to happen inside your mouth.
24:17I guess on the scars.
24:18So, from outside, you will be able to see the scars.
24:21And, yummy.
24:22We're found.
24:22All right, you'll see them tomorrow.
24:24I'm going to be done.
24:26I have one last surgeon to meet
24:28before I can finally go over my titties, breast augmentation.
24:32Like, I'm literally going to go through a whole transformation.
24:36Hello.
24:37I specialize in breast and body surgery.
24:39Nice to see you.
24:40Yes, you too.
24:41Could you stand up, please?
24:42Can I measure something?
24:43Of course, of course.
24:44Why don't we just pull down the zipper for a second?
24:46Yeah, of course.
24:46Oh, have you noticed any size differences between left and right?
24:49Because the right is a little bigger.
24:51A little bit bigger.
24:52Yes, that's correct.
24:53I started hormones about 10 or 11 years ago,
24:57and I did develop a little bit of boobies,
24:59but my breasts are still, like, an A cap.
25:02But they're also a little pointy.
25:03Like, it's giving, like, teenagers, and I'm not.
25:07So, it makes me feel really self-conscious and intimacy.
25:10I'm always, like, trying to hide my breasts.
25:13I'm really hoping that this surgery will round out my breasts and even out the asymmetry.
25:18So, most important is the size.
25:20It'd be nice, but I don't want to go too big.
25:23Right, right.
25:23That's right.
25:24So, usually, the bigger implants do make the easier cleavage.
25:27So, yeah, that makes sense.
25:30This is the first time that I'm having work done on my, you know, top surgery.
25:34And I am so torn about choosing the size, because since I have a rather broad chest,
25:42if I get really small implants, then you're still going to see a lot of my rib cage,
25:47which may make it look a little less feminine.
25:51On the other hand, getting bigger patas will make it so that I do have cleavage.
25:56So, I need to make a decision.
25:59Will I change the size tomorrow?
26:01Perfect.
26:01Thank you so much.
26:02It's been a pleasure.
26:03Bye-bye.
26:07Okay, you guys.
26:08Tomorrow is my surgery.
26:10And I still don't know what size...
26:13Oops, I'm gonna cap.
26:14There's something I used to do as a kid, like, all the time.
26:20Oh, my God.
26:22All this paper, the portraits.
26:26I feel like the right side, it's giving mommy, sorry mommy.
26:30Like, it's giving, like, guys would eat that up.
26:33Literally.
26:34But the left side is giving, she's a legend.
26:39She's a model.
26:40She's iconic.
26:42Maybe somewhere in the middle is where I'll end up.
26:44So, I don't know.
26:51Guys, I am here in the bathroom.
26:54I am waiting for my patient coordinator.
26:57Today is the day I am finally having my surgical transformation.
27:03I'm feeling all emotions at the same time at once.
27:06I'm nervous.
27:07I'm excited.
27:08It's a lot.
27:10I literally did not sleep last night.
27:13I was just too excited.
27:14I'm like, yeah, just...
27:16And you'll be sleeping during the surgery anyways.
27:19I've decided to go for the full B cap rather than the C,
27:24because I think the smaller implants will fit my frame better.
27:29We're going to go under the breast.
27:31And from today, you don't have to lift anything too heavy.
27:35I'm literally about to have all these surgeries,
27:38and I'm feeling everything right now.
27:43Okay, we're good.
27:44Perfect.
27:45Yes.
27:46What if something doesn't go up as planned?
27:47What if there's issues with my healing?
27:49What if I am unhappy with some of the things and, you know,
27:54I need further surgery?
27:55Like, I've definitely had that happen to me,
27:58and I'm just really worried.
28:02So when we get ready, don't worry about it.
28:04Just taking a nap, and everything's going to be over.
28:07Thank you so much, Doctor.
28:08You too.
28:28She's Louise.
28:30Oh, she pooped?
28:32Oh, .
28:33That stinks.
28:34Oh, well.
28:35Well, Daddy's got the diaper.
28:37I'm going to therapy.
28:39Okay, bye, y'all.
28:40Bye.
28:41Bye.
28:42So I woke up the other night and saw that Dallas was parked
28:45down the street again.
28:46He eventually came inside at, like, 3.30,
28:49but I can't shake the feeling that something else is going on
28:53or something else is up.
28:57I haven't confronted him about it,
28:59and I just don't know what to do or what to say.
29:02The only quiet place I have in the house is in the garage,
29:05so we're doing therapy in there.
29:07Let's go.
29:08I had a session with my therapist today.
29:11She's been a huge help at processing trauma
29:13in my other relationships.
29:14So I'm hoping that she could tell me if I'm being paranoid
29:17or if I should, in fact, confront Dallas.
29:25Good morning, Lani.
29:27How are you this morning?
29:28Hi, Paulette.
29:29I'm good.
29:30A little tired, per usual.
29:32But I did want to ask you something, Paulette,
29:35about what's been going on, like, with me and my partner.
29:38So for the last couple of nights, I've noticed that he, like,
29:43parks down the street and stays in the car for, like, a long time.
29:49He should have been in the house, like, 20 minutes before that.
29:52So I didn't know how to confront him or if I should.
29:57I don't know if that's worth bringing up or if that would be another thing
30:01where that's, like, my past trauma with my ex and, like,
30:05him kind of being shady with his location.
30:08Like, I just don't want to make problems,
30:11but I also don't want to be dumb.
30:14It's, like, um,
30:18way more hurtful than other things.
30:21Sorry.
30:22Um,
30:24I, like, I know he's not responsible for all of my anxiety,
30:27so there's this part of me that just feels anxious that I have to always be like,
30:31what's that?
30:32What's that?
30:32What are you doing?
30:33You know?
30:34Exactly.
30:34When you have that impulse, that's coming from the trauma.
30:37So when you have that feeling, that's when we stop for a moment and go,
30:42okay, all right, this is what I'm used to.
30:46And you want to be able to kind of ask him,
30:49because why is he parked outside for this long of time, right?
30:54And I would express that to him using your I statements.
30:59I feel a little uneasy because I've noticed that you've been staying in your car for a long time.
31:05I need to discuss it with you just so that I can, like, let go of it.
31:11Excellent.
31:12Paulette is right, and I need to talk to Dallas about this.
31:15But I think I'm just afraid if it is true and if it is what I think that it is,
31:21that everything's just going to be ruined.
31:23Thank you so much, Paulette.
31:25Until next time.
31:26All right, bye.
31:28Back to the chaos.
31:43What movie do you want to watch?
31:45Uh, something not for kids.
31:49Excuse us.
31:53Before we start, can I talk to you about something?
31:56Sure.
31:57A couple of times now that when you're supposed to be home, you're parked down the street.
32:02And I've, like, not brought it up the last couple of times it happened,
32:07but then the other night when it happened was, like, a long time.
32:16Well, I'm parked down the street, and you know where I am.
32:21I can tell you honestly, uh, I just sit in my car and kind of just come back together.
32:29I mean, because I work all day, so.
32:32Sometimes I just need a few minutes to decompress.
32:36I know, but, like, that late at night, don't you just want to go to bed?
32:40I mean, yeah, but sometimes I just kind of need a minute.
32:43You know what I mean?
32:44I don't really understand, like, what you mean by decompress,
32:48and why can't you just decompress at home?
32:50I mean, I'm around people all day at work, so sometimes I just want a couple minutes
32:54of just alone time and just listen to music.
32:58Okay. But, I mean, you can't just do that in the room?
33:01Well, I mean, if I decompress in my car, it just means that I'm not trying to wake you and
33:05the kids up.
33:06Yeah. So you're not having sex with a girl in the back seat?
33:10I mean, have you seen my box?
33:13What box are we talking about?
33:16I've seen neither. I've seen neither.
33:19I've seen neither.
33:26I trust you, but, like, the second I get triggered, I, like, view you from the perspective of my ex,
33:32where it's like, I'm going to get over again.
33:35You're just protecting yourself.
33:36Yeah. Can we just, like, make a deal, baby, that if you're going to be more than 15 minutes,
33:42can you just text me?
33:43Yeah, of course.
33:45I want you to feel safe in this relationship.
33:48Yeah.
33:48That's one of those things where it just takes time.
33:51I know.
33:52But what, we're, like, almost three years in.
33:55I don't care if it takes five years or ten years.
34:02Oh, her alert.
34:07I mean, now that I know you're not cheating, I feel like we always end things a certain way.
34:12You know, make up sex.
34:14Yeah.
34:14You want to go right now?
34:28Mm-hmm.
34:30So, Lou, get ready.
34:31Don't worry about it.
34:32Just taking a nap, and everything's going to be over.
34:35Thank you so much, Dr.
34:36You too.
34:39I'm about to have a whole bunch of feminizing procedures.
34:43I'll be adding my breast augmentation and a plethora of facial tweaks.
34:48I am a little nervous, because it's a lot of surgeries to be had all at the same time.
34:55And I'm just really worried.
35:22I just wanted to have a little update and kind of level with you about how hard it is to
35:32have surgery alone in a foreign country.
35:38I do think that, you know, going forward, for my future surgeries, which I am planning to have,
35:47I want to make sure that there's at least one person going forward.
35:52Just to feel like, if I feel lazy, if I feel tired, if I feel fatigued,
35:57there's going to be somebody next to me, you know?
36:07Hey guys, so I'm getting dressed in a gown.
36:09This is my final consultation with the surgeons.
36:13I'm so looking forward to it.
36:19You know, go ahead and relax against the chair.
36:23And that there's not that much swelling.
36:26Because we've reduced the bone, it's going to be reduced about that much.
36:33Perfect.
36:40I am loving my snatched new face.
36:43And I also really like the way my face is healing.
36:46I feel like especially all my lip scars are looking amazing.
36:54This is the first time I've actually seen them without support bra.
36:57It's crazy.
37:01I love them.
37:03They look so natural and so beautiful.
37:07And they have a really nicely rounded shape.
37:09I'm so happy I went for a B cap.
37:12If I went bigger, I would have 100% regretted it.
37:16You really managed to make them look so natural.
37:18And it's going to become much more natural as time goes.
37:21Wow.
37:21I mean, I'm already happy as they are.
37:23I definitely feel like more grown up.
37:26Like, I feel like the whole time I had this breast that pretty much looked like a teenager.
37:31It definitely made me feel a little, like, at least physically stuck in a body that wasn't fully developed.
37:37And being softer and the angles of my face gave me a more feminine look.
37:43And now I definitely feel like the woman that I was meant to be.
37:54I am almost ready to go.
37:57However, I do think I bought way too much K-Beauty because my luggage doesn't really close.
38:04I am going to have to take it easy for a couple weeks because I need to make sure that
38:09all my swelling goes down and my body fully recovers.
38:12I want to say thank you to this room.
38:14I want to say especially this room for looking after me while I was recovering from surgery and having so
38:20much anxiety.
38:21I want to say thanks to the spirit of this room.
38:25Okay, you guys.
38:26I have to rush.
38:27I'll see you on the other side.
38:29Bye.
38:40Georgina's here.
38:47Hi, girl.
38:49How are you?
38:50I'm so good.
38:51It's so good to see you.
38:53Thank you so much for coming.
38:54Of course.
38:56It's been two weeks since my surgery and I'm feeling nicely.
38:59So I'm having my best friend Georgina coming over.
39:03We're going to do a little photo shoot together, like a sexy, sultry photo shoot,
39:08to show off my snatched new face and boobies.
39:13So these are the girls.
39:16Like, oh my gosh, you look so good.
39:19I can't wait to see them like properly.
39:20Properly.
39:21Yes.
39:22I feel like Korea changed me like literally, internally and externally.
39:29Okay, I think that's good.
39:34I nearly put one of my boobs.
39:38I can't put that name.
39:40I'm loving my body.
39:41I'm feeling the most confident I ever did.
39:47So body is deep, face scarred is not declining,
39:51and mama is ready to hit the dating market.
39:55So watch out, boys.
39:57Mama is ready.
40:05Oh, he's really excited.
40:08Guys, I'm so happy to be here to see you guys for so long.
40:11It's like a Mexico reunion.
40:14Look at Tim.
40:15Oh, my goodness.
40:16Look at me.
40:18I just got back from Ireland.
40:20Mm-hmm.
40:21I've been with Ronnie for a while now.
40:23So I was 100% ready to propose to that man.
40:26I wanted to propose to Ronnie, my boyfriend, but he found the ring.
40:30And since then, our relationship status has changed.
40:34You need a man's man, and he's just not it.
40:39Cheers.
40:40One thing that I do miss is the touch and feel of a woman.
40:43You know, intimate moments and that kind of thing.
40:46Bam.
40:46Listen, relax.
40:47Back, right.
40:49Let me show you something.
40:58Jen, the good times would be overshadowed by the bad times.
41:03Break up with her.
41:04Call her ass.
41:05You're saying call her right now.
41:06Since meeting Jen at the singles retreat in Mexico, it's toxic.
41:10And I know I need to break up with her.
41:12But she's not going to make this easy at all.
41:16You got it.
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