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Falling S01E01
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00:26Oh, it's got me.
00:46Oh, hello. They didn't say that you were...
00:49Oh, yeah, sorry. None of my forms.
00:52Catholic?
00:54I've got to say, I haven't been to Confession in close to ten years now.
00:59Sadly, you're totally damned.
01:01Unless you can fix my car, that is.
01:28Anna?
01:31Sister Anna, we've a visitor needs feeding.
01:34I'm sorry.
01:48I'm sorry.
02:04I'd like to bring a few girls from my choir for a visit.
02:07How old, darling?
02:08Fourteen to seventeen. We're mostly still in education.
02:11Devoted?
02:13Some are finding their path.
02:14Any dependents?
02:16I'm sorry?
02:17Sister, good. Father Hicks has travelled a long way.
02:22Uh, only an hour and a half. I was late because my car decided to explode when it was halfway
02:27here.
02:28Oh, how dramatic.
02:30Yeah, I had a burst... something.
02:32Which means a longer bus ride home. You need to eat?
02:35No, it's not a problem. I can just get a snack from the shop on the way.
02:38Sister Anna can do better than a scotch egg from a newsagent.
02:42She sets the bar so high.
02:43Since she took over the kitchen, all of us have pushed on weight.
02:46Something simple?
02:48Uh, yeah, yeah. Thank you. But don't please have fun.
02:51Scrambled eggs? Some bread?
02:53If you're sure. Thank you.
02:54That's two thank yous, which is one too many.
02:57Good. Yes, no dependents. If the girls have children...
03:01In for a visit.
03:03The visit is to see whether they might fit, no?
03:06We are not here to be watched. We are here to be joined.
03:10No one with children.
03:11Or romantic entanglements.
03:13You want me to give them a quiz?
03:15Is that too hard a question to answer?
03:19Um...
03:19Then let us agree a date. I'll fetch our diary.
03:25You're new to the kitchen?
03:27Uh, no. It's been eleven years, I think.
03:32Time passes slowly here.
03:35Been outside?
03:36Uh, yes. Yes. Bulbing. For the new season.
03:39Were you growing?
03:40Children.
03:42Tiny, tiny little children in the middle of the flowers, which we pluck in May, we dry them through the
03:47summer, and then we eat them in September.
03:53Uh, kale, lettuce, spinach, garlic. My cabbages are legendary.
03:59I don't like cabbage.
04:01Well, then I judge you for that.
04:06Eleven years. It's been a long while.
04:09It's been over twenty since I took my vows. And you? Where are you?
04:16Uh, Bristol. Easton.
04:19What do you grow in Easton?
04:21Huh.
04:23Um...
04:23Currently, it's spending a lot of energy trying to get a needle exchange opened in...
04:27Oh, uh, a basketball hoop in a local park.
04:30Uh, they sound like good things to be doing.
04:33Frustrating.
04:34And I'm trying to convince people to run a harvest festival out of the church.
04:45I can't know whether the girls are in relationships.
04:50It would be inappropriate to ask.
04:53And I can't be involved in any duplicity against the abbess.
04:58You'll find a way.
04:59I fail to see how...
05:00You should have talked to her about this.
05:02I'm sorry if I'm being...
05:03It's the rules she set.
05:04It's my job.
05:05To protect all of them. It'll mean we can't come.
05:08Well, then don't come.
05:12Uh, cold water.
05:24You weren't called too badly.
05:28Oh.
05:29Sorry.
05:32No, no, I, uh...
05:37I should say thank you.
05:42I'm sorry if I, um...
05:44If that was the wrong thing to do.
05:47Sorry.
05:48No.
05:51And that's, uh...
05:52Well, that...
05:53That's two thank yous, which is one too many.
06:02Uh...
06:02No, let me do that.
06:03No. No, no, no.
06:04You should sit down.
06:05No, no, please.
06:06No, just tell me where...
06:19This looks beautiful.
06:22Just some eggs.
06:23Huh.
06:24Ah, bless us.
06:25Oh, Lord.
06:27Uh...
06:28And these your gift, for these your gifts which...
06:30We are about to receive from your bounty.
06:33And from the gracious work of...
06:34Your servant, Sister Anna.
06:37Through Christ our Lord.
06:38Amen.
06:39Amen.
06:45I-I don't like the word servant.
06:49I don't like it either.
06:55There's been an accident.
07:21There's still plenty of theds.
07:22Where areiane is?
07:26I'm now or experiment at the center.
07:28What if ...
07:29Lo project?
07:29And there's still some penalty on Elisabeth.
07:29L stumble to get them in now.
07:29To get Heb拿出.
07:29What if there is a real job here too?
07:31I don't know.
07:33Your tank was のish.
07:34He came up here.
07:35It's a fullな damncoat.
07:37Attempt to have dinner night.
07:38So you were Louisville where my place
07:54Morning, Sister.
07:55May the Lord bless this day.
07:58Yes.
07:59And if he could arrange for it not to rain so the polytunnel doesn't get swamped again, I'd really appreciate
08:04it.
08:26Molly, tell Mum Uncle David's in the bathroom.
08:29What, am I not allowed?
08:30Mum put in a rota.
08:31I didn't see a rota.
08:32Jesus.
08:33Bad reasons.
08:37No, it's not hard to just switch it off.
08:38I can't even see what she's saying.
08:41I'm having a text.
08:42No, I asked you.
08:47It's not hard to just switch it off.
08:53Oh, these are lovely.
09:05You are lovely, Graham.
09:06These are vegetables.
09:09Good morning.
09:10Good morning.
09:11They put up the price of dahlias again.
09:14Bastards think we're a soft touch.
09:16You almost dry.
09:17Oh, you know I don't like hosts.
09:21Father Christy agreed with me as a considerably more oral thrush around than they used to be.
09:29Do you think it's okay for the Avis or the trip to ask that I only bring girls who aren't
09:36in relationships?
09:38Yes.
09:39Do.
09:41You're not small-minded to me.
09:44I am small-minded both by profession and inclination.
09:50How's your mother?
09:51I'm smiling, Lord.
09:54Tina's back.
09:55Is she?
09:57She's with her dad.
10:02In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
10:07Amen.
10:08The Lord be with you.
10:10And with us with you.
10:13Lord, we have sinned against you.
10:16Lord, have mercy.
10:18Lord, have mercy.
10:19Show us your mercy and your love.
10:23And grant us yourself with you.
10:27May almighty God have mercy on us, forgive us our sins, and bring us into everlasting life.
10:34Amen.
10:35Amen.
10:37Shall we start with a hymn?
10:49Bless me, Father, because I have sinned.
10:51It's been 24 hours since my last confession.
10:53I remember.
10:57During which I have committed three acts of blasphemy and two of self-abasement.
11:05I mean masturbation, Father.
11:09Of course you do.
11:11I don't mean to hurt people, but I do.
11:19I think you've been very hard on yourself.
11:21I am vile.
11:24You're not.
11:28You're not.
11:46Are you going to invite me in, or are you going to leave a lady on the doorstep?
11:49Oh, you're a deaf one.
11:51Do you wish to say anything?
11:56No.
11:58Do you need absolution?
12:01Yes.
12:09How was it?
12:11Well, half the kids look as if they've got malnutrition and half the adults jaundice.
12:16The rest just seem depressed.
12:17We'll pray for them.
12:19And help as best we can.
12:22Has the school group arrived?
12:23Yeah.
12:24Important, I'm told, by the prioress, for them to see us, for the recruitment push.
12:29Does make one feel one is in a zoo, rather.
12:33Time for whiskey.
12:34I got sent a rather fine malt by the bishop.
12:37Am I chasing you some of the feelings of the day?
12:39He shouldn't encourage you.
12:40It's because he wants you to make him some whiskey mermaid.
12:44Well, I can try.
12:44I told him you're not a takeaway.
12:46He'll take what he's given.
12:48Bless me, Father, for I have sinned.
12:50It's been three weeks since my last confession.
12:53How have you been?
12:56I'm okay.
13:02You know, I'm supposed to pretend I never know who's on the other side of this.
13:07I took a trip to the convent, the Womack.
13:11I'm going to take some members of the girls' choir.
13:12Yeah, and I'd like to ask your mum if you'd like to join the trip.
13:18Thanks.
13:19Is that what you want?
13:22Yeah.
13:24Yeah.
13:29Then, maybe I'll come around the house, talk to her.
13:36He's out most evenings, at the restaurant.
13:52Hi, Biancas.
13:53Vonix.
13:54Um, I'd hoped to talk to you about Tina.
13:56She said tonight might be a good night to come over.
14:20I'll go on what you've got.
14:22Do you need help?
14:23There are things I can do to...
14:25You can leave if you're going to be trying that.
14:26Tina!
14:27I'm coming!
14:30Um, how do you feel about Tina making the decision to lead a consecrated life?
14:36I think she's a kid who doesn't know which way's up.
14:44Did you grow up a Catholic, Bianca?
14:47Why is he asking all the questions to me?
14:50You're the adult.
14:51He wants to check you're okay.
14:54Is there a way to hide in a convent for a life?
14:56Uh, I don't think it's hiding.
14:59But I do understand why commitment, faith, feels a strange thing in this world.
15:06There's a amount of people that ask me things like, oh, do you have to wear it all the time?
15:09Do you never have sex?
15:11He's trying to shock us now.
15:13Priest talking about sex.
15:15And I do think celibacy is an important part of Tina's commitments, but it's not the most important part.
15:21Marx is always quoted as saying, religion is the opium of the masses.
15:25What he actually said was, religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature,
15:30the heart of a heartless world, and the soul of soulless conditions.
15:34It is the opium of the people.
15:37I don't go to church. Can't stand the dither of it all.
15:40Dither?
15:42Well, it seems to me the Bible says do good, then we'll do it.
15:45Stop dithering about with incense and myrrh.
15:47Mum.
15:49I think you're right about the dither.
15:52But, I think what Marx was saying is that the church, by venerating virtue, does something quite important.
15:58And, I think right now, society needs that virtue.
16:03Look, she says she wanted it, she goes.
16:06Good.
16:08Then, I'd like to take you, Tina, with a few other girls to visit.
16:12Why, Mike?
16:13I think that by visiting there, she'll get much better sense of her if that's what she needs.
16:24Um, should I talk to Phil?
16:27No.
16:29Well, that's everything, Father Hicks.
16:47Sister, it's your postulant.
16:49She was found with a phone.
16:51A phone?
16:51She's been keeping it hidden.
17:11It's not easy, when we lose track of ourselves, to find our way back.
17:18Can I ask, why did you feel you needed your phone?
17:23Well, I don't know.
17:27My parents were horrified.
17:30And I said I wanted to be a nun.
17:33My mum said I was throwing myself away.
17:37She thought it was over some bore hill.
17:40Was there a boy?
17:43No.
17:46You?
17:48Not a boy.
17:52It's my friend, Susie.
17:59Is that okay?
18:02With me?
18:04Yes.
18:06With God?
18:08I would hope so.
18:11With you?
18:13No.
18:18Do you want to stay?
18:22Do you want me to stay?
18:28Oh, Empe.
18:30If there is one choice that has to be yours, it is this.
18:36Do you ever doubt your choice?
18:44Faith is dependent on doubt.
18:49Without doubt, there is no faith.
18:52You?
18:57No.
19:16Trust me, I would love you.
19:17Unless you want to stay?
19:18Yes.
19:18Please pray.
19:20Yes.
19:21But I can play.
19:50You
19:56She seems much better this morning
19:58Good
20:01So I've prayed upon it and decided I have no choice but to ask her to leave
20:07No, you can't
20:08When someone is a postulant
20:11She's been with us for over a year
20:14When someone is a postulant, they are here to be judged by us and by themselves
20:18As to whether they can find the patience and love to belong
20:21It's one mistake
20:22A crucial one
20:24I devote myself to God in every way
20:27I isolate myself and give myself to prayer
20:30But I do want to keep checking social media for what my friends are up to
20:33May I speak?
20:35I have been guiding her and I don't think you understand
20:39She is a genuine, kind
20:41Good
20:41My role in this convent is to make the decisions others won't
20:45It's to lead
20:46Your role is not to abandon the poor girl
20:49Francesca, please
20:49No, no
20:50You do not use that name, my name, in anger
20:53It is not a weapon
20:58No, I apologise, Abess
21:06Our commitment cannot be predicated on a lie
21:09She vowed to put away everything from her other life
21:11She couldn't
21:12She lied
21:13To her sisters and to God
21:16She made a vow
21:17And she broke it
21:18She was weak, yes
21:21But these young people
21:22They are growing up in an unforgiving world
21:26Perhaps our commitment might take them a little bit longer to learn
21:31Please
21:32Please
21:33Please give her a chance to find her path
21:48She remains a postulant for at least another year
21:50She has to prove herself all over again, yes?
21:54Yes
21:55Thank you
21:57She's lucky to have you
22:02There will be a time when I am ready to take quieter duties here
22:10I believe you are the right person to succeed me
22:13But if you do
22:14You may discover that these decisions are harder than they might appear
22:28You missed a wonderful deanery meeting last night
22:31Falling congregations since Covid
22:33Had to get people back believing
22:36Anyone suggest another Covid?
22:39I can beg before the incoming flood
22:41Don't forget the accounts need your sign-off
22:44The bishop needs to know precisely what we've got
22:47To set terms for the underfloor heating brigade
22:49Francis, could you run this morning for me?
22:52Sorry?
22:53I realise I've got some pressing Christmas
22:55Could you lead master's morning for me?
22:57Mm-hmm
23:17Bless me, Father, for I have sinned
23:19It's been four days since my last confession
23:24I've been angry with others, impatient
23:28I shouted at the abbess
23:31I was cruel to Sister Justine when she needed support
23:38And I have been having immoral thoughts
23:45Lost
23:54You have to say something to that, Father Clary
23:55You can't leave me on my own with that one
23:59Go on
24:02Go on
24:04Go on
24:04Go on
24:07What does that mean?
24:09It means go on
24:19It's not like I haven't had thoughts before
24:22I have struggled at times with feelings of desire
24:29But this time
24:29Well, these times
24:34These feelings, they're so specific
24:43And that's all I can say, really
24:46I am ashamed
24:47And I'm confused, confused, mainly
24:57Three Hail Marys
25:03Yes, Father
25:06And be careful
25:14God, the Father of mercies
25:16Through the death and resurrection of his Son
25:18Has reconciled the world to himself
25:20And sent the Holy Spirit
25:21For the forgiveness of our sins
25:24Through the ministry of the Church
25:26May God give you pardon and peace
25:28And I absolve you from your sins
25:30In the name of the Father
25:31And of the Son
25:32And of the Holy Spirit
25:34Amen
25:36Amen
25:45Amen
25:55I don't know.
26:28Hello.
26:30This is a surprise.
26:33I just thought I'd come back to talk to the abbess.
26:37Felt like I'd left a few of her concerns on the table.
26:41Right.
26:43I was hoping for more beautiful eggs, of course.
26:46I knew you were the pushy sort.
26:49There you see your cabbages.
26:52Only if you get me really drunk.
27:00Are you that nervous of me?
27:01How best that you'd look around a boring garden to avoid it?
27:04Boring garden? Doubt is that.
27:07No.
27:09But why are you here?
27:16Can I tell you about a girl I'd like to bring you here?
27:18You can tell me about anything you like, but I am no use with the abbess.
27:22Um, her mother, the girl's mother is being hit by the father.
27:31I think it's possible the girl's been hit too.
27:33I raise it with social services.
27:34I raise it with the diocese safeguarding unit.
27:37They both do something, but nothing ever happens.
27:44Sorry, you're not interested in...
27:46What is it you're doubting?
27:48Sorry?
27:49Your ability to deal with it, her response to it, or what else it is that you should be doing
27:53to help it.
27:54Uh, you're remarkably frank.
28:03Why are you looking at me like that?
28:06I just wish I had your conviction.
28:09You have certainty.
28:11I mean, it's a good thing.
28:12I haven't been certain about anything since 2001.
28:16What happened then?
28:19I became a nun.
28:23Well.
28:26Here are my cabbages.
28:29They're beautiful.
28:32You like that word.
28:33Although these might actually be beautiful.
28:36How do you keep the slugs away?
28:37The kind of neath.
28:39They don't like eggshells.
28:42Cuts them up.
28:42Uh-huh.
28:46Helping the girl, and your needle exchanges, no hopes.
28:50It's impressive.
28:52It'll feel impressive.
28:53And here was I, thinking you were trying to impress me.
29:01I, um...
29:02I struggle.
29:03I fail.
29:05I intervene when I shouldn't.
29:07I...
29:07You're a click of the fingers, Christian.
29:10I'm sorry?
29:11You want everything sold in a click of the fingers, and if it isn't, then it costs you.
29:16You have a brutal way of describing things.
29:19Well, I'm sure you're right.
29:21No.
29:21No, I admire click of the fingers, Christians.
29:25They see a problem, and they try to solve it.
29:29I'm about as far from a click of the fingers, Christian, as you can get.
29:33But you followed your conviction?
29:36To live a consecrated life?
29:40Yes.
29:41Well, this has become my home.
29:45For better or worse.
29:48Make it sound like you're not happy here.
29:53It's a good thing, what you're doing.
29:57And I'm sorry, conviction is another word I don't like.
30:02I'll fetch the abbess.
30:05You know, you asked us to make an appointment before coming here.
30:08We are enclosed.
30:11I can find the abbess, please.
30:13Get on with your duties.
30:15I...
30:17I should have disturbed you.
30:19I'm sorry.
30:20I'm sorry.
30:35I'm sorry.
30:49I'm sorry.
30:51Let us pray.
31:34Father Hicks, Father, you're leaving already?
31:43Well, you're right, the abbess told me to make an appointment.
31:48She's quite formidable.
31:51You all are.
31:55I didn't mean to be cruel before.
32:00No, you weren't.
32:02Brutal. Cruel.
32:04Oh.
32:06I didn't mean...
32:07When I used that word, I didn't mean...
32:08Yes, I just thought...
32:11Thank you for sharing your struggles with me.
32:16I didn't mean to be dismissive.
32:17Sister, you've done nothing wrong.
32:22Anna.
32:23Call me Anna.
32:26David.
32:31The girl whose mother's being hurt.
32:37Maybe she could find peace here, but here is not the only peace.
32:44Particularly if she's leaving her mother behind.
32:46We are not a refuge.
32:48It doesn't work.
32:50If we're a refuge.
32:52And we can't save her for you.
32:56No.
32:59We've devoted...
33:01We devote ourselves to something better.
33:05And I think the question we all have to ask ourselves, David, is...
33:10Is if we've done something right.
33:13If we've listened to our hearts and we've done something right.
33:21You should have been a preacher.
33:25You're laughing at me.
33:28I don't think I ever would laugh at you.
33:32Anna.
33:40I, um...
33:41Must get to church.
33:44Bye.
33:48Bye.
33:50Bye.
33:52Bye.
34:17Bye.
34:17Bye.
34:18Bye.
34:18Bye.
34:20Bye.
34:25Morning.
34:26Do you mind if you stay away from my daughter?
34:29My daughter's still spiritual guidance.
34:30I can't lock it.
34:31Yeah, well just stay the fuck away, yeah, big mom.
34:35Early in the morning for a drink, isn't it, Phil?
34:41You're stealing kids off the poor, is that what you do?
34:44Just take them, stick them in a fucking cusp and throw away the key.
34:51Look, why don't we go inside and talk about this properly?
34:55I do recognize your teen is a spiritual guide too, so...
35:05Do not tell me, or my daughter, or my fucking wife, what's my...
35:14Oh, I'm sorry sister, I was just going to wake you, and then I caught sight of this fawn.
35:37Well, I'm sure you want them chased away before they eat your vegetables.
35:42No, my garden's well protected.
35:44We had a deer that used to come right up to the windows.
35:48Must be 40.
35:49No, 60 years ago.
35:51Would you feed it?
35:53Well, that one's tried to stroke its nose.
35:56It didn't like that.
35:59I was scared it wouldn't come back, but it did.
36:05And then, it didn't.
36:09I always worried.
36:11Perhaps someone took advantage of its innocence and killed it.
36:16I did miss it.
36:20Have you really been here for 60 years, Polly?
36:2474.
36:25I came when I was 16.
36:29A wonderful life.
36:33I'm pleased you've stood in defence of Bimpe.
36:37I think she has what it takes.
36:39I really do.
36:40I do.
37:03I mean, I do.
37:10I don't know.
37:40I don't know.
38:19I don't know.
38:49I don't know.
39:12I don't know.
39:16I don't know.
39:17I don't know.
39:19I don't know.
39:20I don't know.
39:22I don't know.
39:52I don't know.
39:52Good day.
39:55I'd like to speak to Father Hicks, please.
39:59I believe he's at home.
40:02Can I help?
40:12Then I will call him.
40:14Then I will call him on the phone.
40:14I'll call him on the phone.
40:15I'll call him on the phone.
40:34I'll call him on the phone.
40:47Where is she?
40:48I'll call him on the phone.
40:52I'll call him on the phone.
40:52No, no, no.
40:53I'll come straight there.
41:12I'll call him on the phone.
41:24a little bit more.
41:26A little less quiet.
41:27A little less quiet.
41:38I always promised myself that I would see the problems in front of me clearly.
41:44I always promised myself.
41:46Do you don't want to sit down?
41:50I always promised myself that I would be honest, that I could be honest about how I feel.
41:58Good.
42:00And I see you, and I'm cruel to you.
42:04You aren't cruel.
42:06I think it's important to understand why, when you came to visit, why I was casual with you.
42:17Um, and I think it's important to say and, well, to act on when, when you touch my hand.
42:33And I, I believe I should listen to my inner truth.
42:40And I, I believe, I believe that I have never felt the way that you make me feel.
43:04Does the convent know you're here?
43:09Uh, well, I think it probably worked it out by now.
43:19Then, you intend to?
43:23Yes.
43:26Why?
43:30Simply because I touched your hand.
43:34because you felt feelings for me.
43:39Well, there was nothing simple about it.
43:44I thought you felt the same,
43:50same sort of feelings.
44:03I'm so sorry.
44:10But you came back.
44:13You came back to the world, Matt.
44:15I'm so sorry if I presented...
44:19If I made you feel...
44:23I can...
44:28There's someone here who can drive you.
44:32Muriel, she's a parishioner.
44:34She volunteers in a cafe here.
44:36She's nice, and I know she has a call.
44:39And you're suggesting I go back?
44:43I don't know what to suggest.
44:47You're saying that I read something that isn't there.
45:03Um, no.
45:05No, I won't be going back.
45:11Where will you stay?
45:12I didn't come here to talk to you about my accommodation.
45:16Have you ever any money?
45:17No.
45:19Uh, I...
45:27I'm really sorry.
45:29Yeah.
45:30So you said.
45:38my house.
45:43You took me to...
45:47You took me to a place.
45:53You were...
45:54Oh, what theeta...
45:54No, no, no, no.
45:57I found a fence.
45:59Who's ok jazzed.
46:00No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
46:18Yes, yes, I will need someone to stay.
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