00:00I genuinely genuinely have honestly it sounds like I don't know if I mentioned this at the start of
00:04the vlog but the way I've been pretending that this hasn't been happening I can't even put it
00:10into words like I've genuinely been acting as though like a baby is not coming and like life
00:15isn't going to change and then when you're holding up these tiny newborn baby grows you're like
00:18like I don't know how to take care of a newborn like what I don't know how to I don't
00:21know how
00:22to take care of a baby I've done that before have I I think as well because that stage of
00:25my life was
00:26so it was quite traumatic I know it sounds dramatic to say it um I think I've blocked a lot
00:33of it out
00:35and I don't know I've been feeling a little bit anxious the last few days because I think I'm
00:39having that realization of like I'm about to have that period of life again I'm about to go through
00:44the same period of life that I always look back on and think whoa that was an era that I'm
00:50very happy
00:50to like forget about of my life and I'm about to like re-enter it and that is deeply terrifying
00:58I
00:58think that's why I've been like really putting off really coming to terms with the fact that I'm
01:02having a baby I don't know I I guess do I need therapy do I need to see a therapist
01:06like should
01:07I be booking some therapy sessions in ASAP because I am really anxious I feel like I've been feeling
01:13really anxious so anyway um a baby's coming in a couple of weeks so I really need to sort my
01:19hospital
01:20bag out
01:21you
01:21you
01:21you
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