00:00Whilst I was in the bath I heard a big noise and I thought that sounds like a helicopter
00:03and it was a helicopter landed outside here. I will never for as long as I shall live get in
00:10a
00:10helicopter because they terrify the life out of me and well a lot of things terrify me at the
00:16minute. I actually was um looking last night as to why since becoming a mum I have become so scared
00:23of everything and every time I leave the house or every time I get in an uber or every time
00:28I get
00:28on a plane. I never ever ever used to be scared of anything like I literally all my friends will
00:33literally say to you even Erin's always like you're so brave like you're the non-scared one in the group
00:37like if I go skiing or anything I'll throw myself down a mountain. I don't really have much fear I'll
00:41watch any horror movie I'll go on any roller coaster but I'd say in the last year I see danger
00:48every
00:49single corner like every single time I leave the house I think something's going to happen to me
00:54every single time Bambi leaves the house or goes somewhere I'm worrying that something's going to
00:57happen to her like I just feel like when you become a mum your sense of danger just personifies.
01:04I don't want to sound deep I don't want to say I've been struggling with it but it's like kind
01:07of
01:08quite debilitating at times because even like when we've been going into the city whilst we're here
01:11every time I get in an uber I'm just like praying to get out of the uber and I'm just
01:15like I just want
01:16to get out I just want to get out I just want to be safe I just want to be
01:19on ground and I think it's
01:20because also when you have the responsibility of someone else and you have to be present for someone else
01:25like I'm not just living for me anymore I'm living for a child and I'm like her protector I just
01:31think you have so much more responsibility when you become a parent that you have to sort of
01:36safeguard yourself a little bit more and make sure that you protect yourself to be there for them
01:40so you don't only have the worry of keeping them alive you also have the worry of keeping yourself
01:45alive gosh sorry I didn't mean to get deep there but I actually wanted to talk to you guys about
01:48that because I didn't know if there's any other parents out there that are feeling like that
01:51and he's looking at me like I've lost my damn mind and never used to be scared of anything
01:55you put me on any roller coaster any fairground ride I'll walk down a dark alley at night like
02:01I am that girl I just don't fear I never used to fear anything and now I'm at the polar
02:06opposite
02:06where I literally look at a car and I see dangers any other parents out there feel like that
02:12or non-parents as well
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