00:00And with your OCD diagnosis, was this like through therapy online?
00:03Were you literally in the desert when you found out?
00:05Like how did this work?
00:06I go to therapy via Zoom every week.
00:08So my therapist had been kind of like just registering this for a long time.
00:12But I think really like let me know what I was going through was OCD.
00:18And it wasn't like just anxiety or being stressed.
00:21It was like this real insidious like disease or sickness or disorder that I was struggling with.
00:26And it was interesting because I started putting all these pieces together from my childhood
00:30and these different rituals that I've had my whole life.
00:32And I'm like, wow, like I've been struggling with this thing that I thought I was so alone in.
00:36And like looking up online, like these delusions that you can have, for the lack of a better word,
00:40of like how common they are.
00:41You're sharing this like pretty serious thing and I'm like smiling,
00:44but I'm letting you know that I'm only smiling not because I'm like, this is great.
00:47But I've had OCD my entire life.
00:50I've been in therapy forever.
00:52I've been on medication forever.
00:53And it's, I think like when I was like five years old,
00:56I was like, why do I have scary thoughts that I can't share with anyone?
00:59I'm a kid.
01:00Was it surprising for you or were you kind of like, oh, I've always felt like that?
01:04It was surprising.
01:06I think I was under the influence of the idea that like OCD, like you said,
01:10was like, I need to wash my hands a hundred times.
01:12I watched those like true life things on MTV or whatever back in the day where it's like,
01:15I have OCD and the girl's like making her bed 300 times.
01:18I was like, I don't do that.
01:19I didn't realize how much more there was to it and how many layers to this like problem there are
01:23and how a lot of it has nothing to do with like physical touch.
01:26A lot of it's like this mental obsession.
01:28A lot of stuff in the head.
01:29Yeah.
01:29And I think that's really what my, I don't know, strain or whatever it is has done.
01:33And it wasn't until someone mentioned to me that that is,
01:36that my therapist kind of like put it into my head of like, that is OCD
01:39and that I was able to put the pieces together.
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