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00:04I'm nervous I'm gonna take it one step at a time I'm absolutely petrified 12 virgins are
00:12traveling to a unique island retreat that could change their lives forever this has made me the
00:19strangest day of my life being a virgin at the age of 22 feels very lonely I've just sort of
00:25given up all hope in a world saturated with sex more young adults than ever are caught in an
00:33intimacy epidemic the thought of having sex with someone scares me it gives me the ick I don't feel
00:39confident I'm missing out terrified of the thought of it nerve-wracking gut-wrenching
00:44embarrassing all I think about is what I'm gonna get wrong can you point to the outer labia
00:53nope now they're getting a crash course in intimacy social media porn dating apps there are so many
01:03negative messages and we can help them blossom use it by stimulating the area guided by a team of
01:09experts you see yourself as repulsive they'll confront their insecurities I'm hiding how upset actually
01:17do you feel exploring intimacy in every form yes yes good and maybe have sex with a trained therapist
01:31desperate times call for desperate measures or even one another why are you nervous around me I don't
01:38know it's so good I really do need to change my life the question is get a room guys who
01:47will
01:47finally be ready just like get a bit anxious to go all the way touching the hooker on virgin island
02:04it is such a beautiful day to show up on the island perfect for the next three weeks
02:10hi hi this groundbreaking retreat will be home to 12 young people would you like a hug yeah go on
02:19that
02:20from all over the uk hello you must be tegas yes who need help well I didn't fall in the
02:27sea so I've
02:28done better than I thought I was gonna do I've never kissed anyone I've never dated anyone I've never
02:33had sex with anyone I am a grade A virgin my life just can't go on like this I just
02:39need to take your
02:40phone yes of course the retreat's rules include a full break from the pressures of technology
02:46so you can just like dive in yeah yeah you see sex everywhere sex sells is the old cliche be
02:53it from
02:54social media horn but always thing on my mind is that I can't get an erection being a virgin at
03:00the
03:00age of 28 I feel almost a failure in many ways the group will live on the island for three
03:09weeks oh this
03:11is the recommendation totally cut off from the distractions of modern life go ahead and get
03:17settled okay there's close there thank you including the pressures of their appearance oh wow they're
03:24giving off jungle vibes I've always hated my body and I've got badly bullied over it in the past I'm
03:31terrified to be naked in front of someone it does make me cry when I think about it yeah it
03:38makes me
03:45really upset before the course begins the group of a chance to get to know each other at the hangout
03:55where are you from blackpool from peterborough peterborough yeah shithole I literally don't do
04:06anything other than sit on my computer 24 7 I'm definitely addicted to gaming I don't really
04:14interact with any girls makes me feel alone where are you from oh sorry born in the UK but raised
04:23in
04:23South Africa but live in the UK I instantly don't trust men Alex this makes me a bit sad and
04:33I don't
04:33really know what to do about it to be honest so how old are you I'm 28 you're 28 I'm
04:4023 I'm 22 26 I'm quite
04:44robotic with with women I've had no girlfriends that's a bit sad isn't it we've got another person
04:53with sexual intimacy I feel a little bit broken I can't have sex I have a condition called vaginismus
05:02if somebody tried to touch my vagina it would be pain and it would be discomfort and I'm living life
05:08in fear the way that you're seen as a woman who can't physically have sex is like what's the point
05:18one of the reasons that people are not having sex is there's just a lot more self-consciousness
05:22everybody's being watched all the time you know by their parents by social media by their friends
05:28so we're seeing a lot more people just not getting out there and connecting there's lots of fear around
05:34being canceled and they're terrified of failing but we got amazing results last time and I have really
05:41high hopes for this new group of virgins hi everyone I'm Ellen how old are you um 35 wow only
05:53just
05:54I don't want to get to 40 and still be the virgin the expectation of you're married you've got kids
06:02and at 35 I haven't got those things I feel like a freak really and like I've you know let
06:10let
06:11people down yeah so is anyone else in the LGBTQ plus community obviously yeah you can't look at
06:19the only gay on the island trust me or not I grew up in a very traditional town there wasn't
06:26a lot of
06:26open queer people when I knew I was bi I didn't tell my parents I was actually quite scared I
06:33identify
06:33bisexual but I'm quite a late bloom at school it was a discussion about masturbation I thought it
06:42was a game show I thought it was mastermind hey hello hello my name's Ed oh what seek do you
06:49want to know
06:49first what's your star sign I feel like an outsider a lot of the time the big part of that
06:59is my
07:00disability I would born that a right pectoral restricted movement in my wrist and my arm it
07:06has impacted the way I am I wouldn't have the confidence to talk skills I find it really hard
07:14well hey you're the last one oh my name's will I've just turned 30 I'm a virgin being a virgin
07:22it's not something I'm proud of something I experienced when I was younger is premature ejaculation
07:27I fear that may still be an issue now so I think when I have sex for the first time
07:31it's gonna be
07:31really quick the idea of like having sex is like crazy it's a far away dream for me yeah yeah
07:39yeah
07:39I've never had a girlfriend ever same yeah one of the nicknames I have is posh Bertie I'm a very
07:46well-spoken individual I've not told anyone that I'm a virgin but I think people would guess
07:53yeah yeah he's a virgin to me definitely feel one step behind everyone yeah the group knows the
08:04weeks ahead won't be easy but they have a determination to change the lives breathe into
08:10your own body this unique course has been created by pioneering sex therapists Celeste and Danielle
08:18let it out the ethos at the retreat is very supportive there's so much for them to learn we have
08:28new
08:28exercises new experts and some special surprises supported by a team of sex therapists from across
08:38the globe trained in a range of touch base therapies which finger would you like to enter me with they'll
08:46address the group's anxieties she is terrified of lowering the mask and push them to their limits
08:57hidden away on the island are dedicated therapy spaces and private bedrooms where they'll begin to
09:04explore intimacy I'm hoping that everybody gets to find out who they are as a sexual being regardless of
09:11being a virgin but it is going to be a huge challenge each phase of the course will challenge the
09:19group like
09:19never before as they take their first steps towards sexual connection
09:39and it all starts here oh my god I'm so nervous yeah oh welcome by confronting one of the biggest
09:49barriers to intimacy
09:54shame
09:57welcome to virgin island we're so excited to have you here this phase is all about shame shame really
10:07interrupts pleasure and so we are shame warriors we want wiping away the shame that gets in your way if
10:17I
10:18could shake off the shame of being a virgin I'd feel a lot happier in myself I feel judged and
10:25it's not
10:26something that I talk about really first Celeste and Danielle will perform an intimate demonstration
10:35designed to reveal the group's level of awkwardness and shame so this demo is called pillow talk
10:42oh my god there's a bed oh my gosh I'm starting to feel a bit sick yeah terrified we want
10:49to find out
10:50who's comfortable watching intimacy and the different kinds of talk and touch that come with romance
10:55that come with passion that come with erotic energy oh my god your eyes are so beautiful and sexy
11:07and the way you hold yourself turns me on so much I think I'm gonna have to smell you
11:19I feel so lucky
11:24to be able to touch you
11:41any feelings watching it
11:42like weird having to watch it with other people it's a bit
11:50yeah I think I just feel like a little bit guilty
11:52I think like the idea of watching this and then being asked to like do that that's like sinful
12:03growing up as a Christian you kind of feel you you should be one way um which is usually a
12:08very good
12:09way I have to be kind I have to be soft but I have a sexual side to myself it
12:16kind of brings on
12:17these feelings of shame and and fear because you feel you're you're doing something sinful for wanting
12:22to experience pleasure and I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel right now
12:28we all have ideas and judgment and what we think we should be and all those interventions frees us
12:36up the best way to work your way out of shame is to start to get a different reaction to
12:42shame
12:45to help the group do that you are going to get your scratch on no Celeste and Danielle start with
12:54a series I am folding my arm of deliberately uncomfortable exercises now gonna be choo-choo train
13:10I see myself as very socially awkward and sometimes weird shake it shake it shake it I was diagnosed
13:20with autism I get nervous I get stressed my eye contact goes all over the place being a virgin you
13:28just feel very isolated and you feel very ashamed of yourself after the warm-up Celeste and Danielle
13:36raise the stakes with a more challenging physical exercise so I want a brave volunteer somatic therapy
13:45is not just focusing on the brain it's helping people in a more physical experiential way I'll do it
13:55for 28 year old graduate Alex going fast is a chance to face his fears anxiety has played a
14:02massive part in my life going to private school I put myself under a lot of pressure that if I
14:07didn't perform my best I feel I'd let people down and never really knew how bad it was until I
14:12tried
14:12to have sex and was too nervous to do it anything less than perfect is is not good enough for
14:16me so
14:17I'm gonna start by touching you for my pleasure and then you're gonna touch me for your pleasure
14:23I'm starting by connecting with myself and feeling my body
14:48want to try yeah sure
15:06was okay really feeling it in your body that's what we're going for after Alex's attempt others
15:15step up to give it a try you might do it a bit harder I don't while some get to
15:27grips with the
15:27exercise how's that feel feel nice yeah others can't even bear to watch
16:08anyone else want to give it a try
16:13counting one counting two counting three
16:22oh my god personally that was a little bit creepy I need to be able to be confident in myself
16:30to do the
16:30whole touching exercise I believe the cool kids call it riz I need to have good riz at the start
16:37like when there was doing all that yeah I thought we'd have to do that to each other I was
16:42genuinely
16:47to throw yourself in as much as possible to experience like all these cringe things and
16:50embarrassing things was a struggle joy if you don't mind me asking why um was it so hard for
16:56you the whole touching thing why didn't you get a like a better reaction to it no one's all yeah
17:03no
17:03no worries that workshop was such an emotionally intense experience to come on the island day one
17:10and be expected to have some kind of erotic energy there's a really hard thing for me I
17:15didn't realize how uncomfortable that might make me feel next time I would walk out
17:31so beautiful yeah doesn't oh quick quick Lizzie oh my god I've never seen Elizabeth before
17:41oh I don't like it come out at night and nibble you I might have to tuck my trousers into
17:45my socks
17:46in case it cools on my leg yeah and he's gone it's halfway through day one on Virgin Island I
17:54don't
17:54want to name exact figures but I think it was like one in eight people virgins at 25 so in
17:59a room this
17:59big it's like one and a bit people well I think in this in this room it'd be on an
18:03island on a Virgin
18:05Island every day the experts gather to evaluate progress and work out which therapies will be most
18:15effective it's very interesting to see how they reacted to different exercises oh they've got one
18:22on one sessions here guys oh my god afternoons are dedicated to individual therapy sessions for
18:29those working through specific intimacy issues I don't know if I feel more calm or more stress
18:35yeah everybody has this fear like oh my god it's gonna be so scary or uncomfortable but you have to
18:42completely rewire your brain in order for change to really happen hi there hi how do you feel kind of
18:51on edge I guess mm-hmm the more you can be honest and drop into your truth without too much
18:57humor yeah I
18:58promise you that that is gonna allow us to go somewhere oh I don't like it I don't like crying
19:03I feel like I just can't relax I'm still really scared I'm not sure why out of all the reactions
19:12from
19:12this morning the experts were most struck by joys when Will and Marianne were touching I could see her
19:20some tears came out she really struggled with that some came up for you today in the works well I
19:31feel
19:31like I have this weight on my shoulders of like I'm a Christian you have to be good yeah and
19:36experiencing
19:36sexual pleasure for like for fun how is that good yeah but it isn't just feelings of religious shame
19:44that are holding joy back I know I have a sexual side to me mm-hmm but I have vaginismus
19:50vaginismus is a
19:53condition related to your pelvic floor and also has a psychological fear component around the idea of
19:59insertion or entry the moment I realized that I had vaginismus it was like this whole idea of a sector
20:06of my life that could be just closed up I can't wear a tampon I can't do a pap smear
20:11and I definitely
20:12can't have sex it's just it's so hard at one point like I literally thought that God cursed me with
20:19vaginismus I thought he like I thought he did it to me to stop me from having sex and I
20:24feel like it's hard
20:25to like undo that that feeling maybe that first piece is about pleasure being good
20:39I'm really tight I'm really like anxious I feel like I'm like no it's not no it's not no it's
20:44not
20:45and that clench happens probably all the way into your vagina so I want you to feel all of the
20:52tightness
20:52and the clenchedness and then you can feel the the contrast let's feel the clench and then
21:07like a little shakiness happened in your did you feel it yeah you know what that is
21:14it's like a little tiny release of trauma oh wow from all the holding
21:21you deserve to have that circuit of pleasure
21:30shame gets in the way of sexual intimacy and you cannot get to the other side of shame
21:35until you expose it I feel a bit like in shock it was it was quite intense
21:41I just hadn't even realized all the tension I've been holding in my body
21:44it just made me realize like how much I need this experience
21:51for a gold star lesbian my mind's constantly in the gutter
21:55what's a gold star a gold star lesbian is someone who has never had sex with a man
21:59ah okay the thought of a penis going near me scares me in a way that's like ew get away
22:04nothing to do with you guys no no it's called a little bit
22:07that I'm like anything below their tummy I'm like no I mean you probably all have amazing penises
22:12I'm not saying oh my god it doesn't matter to come so quick don't matter
22:22as the group starts to bond oh this is really like giving hippie vibes isn't it
22:27the next exercise to help release their shame once and for all
22:37all right well as we said this part of the course is all about shame
22:42what we want you to do is write in your notebooks all the negative things people say about you
22:48and all the self-critical thoughts you keep repeating to yourself we really need to get them out so that
22:54we can take the power away from them
23:00be careful the group have been sent off in pairs to share their shame words it's difficult yeah
23:08i'm not exactly an open book people see me as fat ugly and as they identify their insecurities
23:17i don't like how i'm not at all that good socially it's why i've never been on a date before
23:24really
23:24yeah their barriers come down ugly unattractive to girls have been able to get a date in years
23:34my anxiety particularly around intimacy and interacting with women i worry that i'm just not good enough
23:44but 23 year old katie bad things people are saying about me is writing more than most i was once
23:51labeled the ugliest girl in school oh my god um a whale fat slash obese ugly a liar monster disappointment
24:01um and frigid because i've never gone with anyone before yeah
24:10i know how it feels to have something horrible said to me sometimes i look in the mirror to make
24:16myself upset because i need a good cry and it works i don't think there's ever been a time where
24:22i truly
24:24have felt good in my looks ever no are those things people have actually said about you to my face
24:32or online where i've seen online yeah people that i know in person oh my god yeah i've commented publicly
24:42yeah oh my gosh i'm so sorry
24:53figuring out the words though is only half the exercise how did you find that it's quite challenging
25:00i was going to say the same yeah it was quite hard so joy this one's for you thank you
25:06now the experts want them to write their words down on a t-shirt to confront and let go of
25:11their
25:11self-doubt i'm going to invite you to narrow down from all the things that you've written which ones
25:18hold the most emotion so that you can create a t-shirt that's a symbol of all of that i'm
25:27scared that i'm
25:28going to get upset thinking back about all the memories and stuff from school and all the bad things that
25:34i got told and i say to myself it's quite difficult but i really do want to be able to
25:43get as much
25:43out of this as i can it's scary though
26:03good morning good morning good morning hey guys how we going morning oh we've got raisins don't
26:11tell me you're eating a lemon i like lemon it's the morning on virgin island i'm really nervous for
26:20today and the sessions are set to become even more revealing as we go through this phase i do feel
26:27quite a big shame over myself so i'm a little bit apprehensive i was so nervous at first workshop my
26:33heart was going i didn't realize how nervous i was sex intimacy are meant to be natural and experienced
26:38by lots of people and enjoyed whereas me i sort of feel scared of them let's go i have no
26:45idea how
26:46far i'm going to go with this you know it's only going to get more intense from here
26:53having faced many hard truths hello celeste and danielle's next exercise will challenge the group even
27:01further oh dear was that bad with some exposure therapy virgin island style society gives these
27:12negative messages to us about what it means to be a sexual being so it's really important to get
27:17comfortable with intimacy today you're gonna be exploring erotic life drawing we're gonna invite our
27:28lovely models there they are here they are the only time that i've seen vagina or boobs is off like
27:37sticky
27:38vicky when i went to benidorm that is probably the only time i've ever really seen it in real life
27:43i've seen some images online and i'm like oh actually penises are a bit ugly i know the different
27:51parts and the names of the female anatomy but do you know i genuinely don't think i've seen one in
27:58person
27:59i'm the most white meat virgin you could possibly meet don't hide keep your eyes open and be curious
28:23oh my god so many naked parts right now so i don't want you to worry about showing off your
28:30artistic
28:30talent it's really about looking at a naked body and letting yourself feel the sensuality of that
28:37oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my
28:41gosh oh my gosh just draw
28:43it's not hard to start this oh we got this we're expecting to see some discomfort
28:52embarrassment to be exposed to naked bodies we can really see the comfort level
29:00stop making me laugh jesus embarrassing
29:04i can't tell you what's wrong
29:11all i can see is vaginas and boobs
29:17whilst the sight of naked bodies has everyone giggling awkwardly
29:22i really feel uncomfortable ellen is struggling the most
29:30growing up my parents would never talk about sex and at the time there wasn't the internet as there
29:37is now i'm in my 30s i am gay then i've not had a relationship and i've not had experience
29:44around
29:44sexual intimacy sex it's something that i feel anxious about
29:53don't want to do it no one is seeing mine because it is absolutely terrible
29:59you don't have to show me if you don't want to one second sneak peek
30:02can i have a two seconds no so we really want to thank our beautiful models here
30:13any thoughts that you want to share
30:19i was instantly like oh my gosh oh my gosh i shouldn't be watching this i felt the discomfort
30:23of that yeah
30:30it felt like you're literally watching like a group corner i was like oh i want to look but i
30:34was like oh it feels wrong to look yeah nudity felt a bit too soon for me
30:40despite being the oldest of the group when you kiss someone do you do it with your eyes open or
30:46your eyes closed
30:46please don't be that person ellen's lack of experience is clear to everyone
30:55she was having a hard time to look at you yeah i'm excited to have
30:59a session with her to introduce her to the first steps of intimacy
31:04with a storm approaching ellen's feeling a little blustered hello it's windy
31:17ellen you have a sexy smile
31:23lou had a tiny tiny little exchange of erotic energy yeah yeah okay did you feel it um
31:32no but i i guess i don't know what that feeling is because i've not experienced it before yeah
31:44you know what i love awkward silences where you just look at each other okay yeah
31:56a lot of times that's what happens right before a kiss yeah
32:03but i don't want that to happen no we're not doing that today we're just talking in a flirtatious
32:10way what do you think um i'm thinking i'm fine as long as you're on that chair and i'm on
32:16this chair
32:17i'm staying over here don't worry
32:24thank you bye
32:28how was that um in my head i was like okay i'm gonna jump in and then when i got
32:32in there i was like
32:33all of a sudden just like my body closed up
32:38i don't like the idea of someone coming into my personal space that's why i'm here like i've never
32:44been very good at it and i i feel like a failure
32:57oh so are you into females then oh i'm i am a straight heterosexual male nice you are you're
33:05bisexual yeah yeah yeah yeah do you know what it was so weird i had a dream last night of
33:11you guys
33:11mainly alex weird hello did you know katie drank about you last night no that's what happened in
33:23the dream cake she doesn't really know i don't remember at all though katie was dreaming of alex
33:31for him yesterday's workshop was a nightmare
33:35i demoed with him yesterday i felt he was really frozen he can be a little in his head so
33:43i'm curious
33:44if we're going through exercises if he's just going to perform them rather than like actually experiencing
33:50sensation and emotions yeah what did it feel like when you like touched him panicky i i don't know how
33:58calm it looked how i looked but yeah my heart was going i was shaking a bit
34:05so danielle's decided to dig deeper hello come on in into what's holding him back
34:12i feel your heart beating all the way to here sex for me has always been quite a nervous thing
34:19i've
34:19always had anxiety i've always had performance anxiety sports homework whatever and so the first
34:24time i tried to have sex i couldn't get an erection because i was just too nervous not being able
34:29to get
34:29an erection it's constantly playing on my mind it feels embarrassing even to say because it's like oh
34:34this is something that old people deal with but i i just feel like defeated by it you spend a
34:42lot of
34:42time trying to control your body from your head i want to invite you to start to let your body
34:47control
34:47as opposed to the opposite yeah so what i want us to do now is for you to touch me
34:53and really let yourself enjoy and do what feels good yeah what feels good to you
34:59this time danielle wants to see if alex can fully immerse himself in his sensations
35:04are you okay for me to stop yes please okay i'm going to start with your arm
35:28let me move down to your chest
35:39let me move down to your chest
35:46penny for your thoughts
35:51the main overriding thing is still that worry of not getting an erection
35:55but this is like the building blocks so i really want us to have soft goals as opposed to hard
36:01goals
36:02no pan intended because your full body is like a big erection you know like your full body is
36:11a pleasure tool it's not only your cock that's a pleasure tool
36:16to get it yeah absolutely yeah yeah
36:25what did you do just your mutual touching really but i think i went into it thinking oh yeah
36:31she'll cure me and i won't feel anxious ever again around women but you're not going to get
36:35cured on the first session yeah oh are you doing it you do it like that really i thought it
36:45was like
36:45that whilst the others start to embrace island life bertie is finding it harder to adjust
36:53okay a mixture of all nerves i don't like you sitting by yourself i'm i'm okay
36:58i do feel like the weak link and the odd one out because i'm not very sociable i'm still cautious
37:04i'm still nervous okay but i'm good you're right yeah it's gonna go brush me gums and do it down
37:11but what on earth am i going to be like in the days to come when it gets more challenging
37:17and more
37:17intense this whole island is it's it's not just virgin island it's unpredictability island
37:36you know what most women say is the length they want to have sex for
37:42four and a half minutes four and a half yeah no they want to have no sure yeah yeah they
37:49want sex
37:49it's the actual pmv to be four and a half minutes really what's pmv penis and vagina oh that's good
38:02it's mid-afternoon on virgin island how are you are you all right i don't know when everyone's all
38:09together it just gets a bit awkward for me you know i like my oh my god nearly fell off
38:13i like my uh
38:14my space a bit more just gonna just take it easy for a bit okay i'll see you soon no
38:19worries
38:20in terms of sex i've got no clue which is pretty embarrassing coming from someone who's 24 years old
38:28but i don't want to be alone in my whole life i just want to be able to live normally
38:33and just
38:35find more confidence in in myself hi celeste aims to start bertie's route to intimacy by helping him
38:46with connection hello oh hello how do you feel about eye contact aha i knew that was going to come
38:56up i am
38:57terrible at it yeah my eye contact goes all over the place um no matter who i'm talking to but
39:02i do feel
39:03like you you think a lot i am an overthinker so i want to slow it down a little bit
39:08like let your brain
39:08relax a moment and then see what it's like to come back more deliberately and connect and look at me
39:24this is a bit awkward isn't it intimacy is super awkward i know that's not going to go away yeah
39:29so let's just be awkward together
39:42it's hard to take it seriously it is and you don't have to take it so seriously you can think
39:47we're
39:47just having fun together yeah yeah yeah you've got some good sexy eye contact you might not know it
40:03and now you're looking at me so much more i feel connected to you
40:09after bertie perfects the sexy eyes great so if you want to scooch over a little bit
40:14yeah celeste decides to increase the intimacy
40:20what if i like came in right there for a second
40:25i mean that was a bit weird but okay yeah
40:32oh that's so nice you just perfectly like invited me and cuddled me wow
40:43i really like it when you kind of rest your cheek against my forehead yeah you're very natural
40:50it feels natural it feels natural exactly it feels good
40:56it's not long before celeste's technique boosts bertie's confidence
41:03i'll see them giving you a little kiss on the floor i felt that i love that
41:07what about can i go on yeah
41:14well i got a lipstick now you're having kids excellent you're having very good
41:18thank you very much love you bye okay bye
41:26so celeste was she was brilliant and this has happened and i feel a lot more relieved and a lot
41:35more at ease with everything that was a bit of a confidence boost for me hi bertie hello you
41:41okay you want to know how it went what do you think let's go
41:48that is not going to wash his cheek
41:58as the sun sets on the retreat the first phase of the course draws to a close
42:05the first phase of the course has been really intense getting rid of shame is foundational to
42:11being able to have a pleasurable sex life but the way that they have taken it on it's unprecedented
42:18they all have challenges they all have traumas but every individual is beautiful and unique
42:23and the sky's the limit in terms of what's possible here to move forward the group must let go of
42:30their negative emotions oh my god that's a fire hello hello hello so the experts have arranged a
42:39ceremonial bonfire to burn away their lifetime of shame
42:45we've asked you to face your shame directly you have talked about it put it on your t-shirts
42:52and now it's time to let it go the hope is this ritual marks a turning point
42:57and the start of the rest of their lives so for me shame is feeling ugly um
43:06um sorry um yeah i felt ugly like most of my life and i feel ashamed of myself for you
43:19know putting on
43:19weight so brave are you ready to let it go yeah it's going in the fire yes
43:34physical appearance is a common theme i look at everyone else around me and i think they're far
43:39more attractive never getting matched than dating apps and it's it makes me feel really crap about
43:44myself fat and ugly unlovable and i take up too much room quite literally i actually got voted ugliest
43:52girl in the whole school oh my god and depending on the people i could be too loud or too
43:56quiet with so
44:06ng is not good enough i always feel like i'm falling short of a lot of things deep-rooted issues
44:13around self-worth are also shared across the group i feel as though like i might perceived as childish
44:20and that i'm a bit unambitious i've been told i'm too loud basically just i'm too much for some
44:27people and then that kind of leads on to the second point which is that i'm unlikeable and unlovable
44:33i've not had an adult relationship at all i feel terribly unwanted i seriously do are you ready to let
44:41it go
44:45let it go i think i've been like carrying with me some feelings about myself since i was about 12
45:11and i think having these horrible thoughts that i'm a horrible person and that people don't like me
45:18and that i'm really dirty and sinful
45:23let it go
45:30writing it down on the t-shirt was one thing but to actually speak it out was liberating yeah
45:38i found it really difficult to throw my top in the fire i'm just hoping i can become more at
45:44one
45:44with myself shame is something that i specifically struggle with a lot i feel a lot lighter all my
45:52worst things i think about myself are finally like out there and i burn them
46:00next time your dick is connected to my pussy
46:04it's the turn-on phase where the group discover their animal instincts there's another animal next to
46:11you oh oh no emotions are laid bare quite sad that i'm still stuck with that feeling
46:20and for some things are on the up it felt really nice when you're brushing past my genitals would you
46:25like me to do that yeah
46:44so
46:46so
46:51you
46:52you
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