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00:00:09The surgery. What can I say about it? Other than that, it changed everything. All it took was my
00:00:19whole life. All that pain. All that struggle. And eight hours under anesthesia. I went from
00:00:35a caterpillar to a butterfly. And now I'm me. Can't you see?
00:00:50I'm finally me. Can't you see me for who I truly am? What more do I have to do?
00:01:00Okay, thanks. That's enough. Uh, sorry. No, that was great. Thanks for that.
00:01:07Thank you. As you know, the casting call is for a transgender
00:01:11male or transgender female. Just for our records, which one are you?
00:01:16Oh, uh, um, trans man. Trans male. Trans man.
00:01:23Great. Thanks. We'll be in contact.
00:01:37Hey, I just got out of the audition, which was a little...
00:01:44Yeah. Uh, on that front, bad news.
00:01:48Wait. They already passed. I was just up there 30 seconds ago.
00:01:54Yeah, sorry, Leo. They said they're going in a different direction.
00:01:59Different direction. Well, at least they're efficient.
00:02:03Onwards and upwards. Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're confirmed.
00:02:08The callback? Yep, the callback. It's Monday, 2 p.m. at the production offices.
00:02:13They want you to read the same scene, so I'll send you the sides.
00:02:16I already have them memorized. Wonderful. You're gonna kill it.
00:02:20I know you got it.
00:02:29Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip.
00:02:34zip. Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip. Zip.
00:02:37Got it.
00:02:47Are you okay?
00:02:49Yeah, I'm just dying.
00:03:04Remember, Leo, you are a worm.
00:03:06You're not pretending to be a worm, okay?
00:03:09Loosen up.
00:03:22So I'm on Disney because it's like a teen movie vampire.
00:03:26Really? That's awesome.
00:03:28You're going to be like a vampire?
00:03:31I mean, I'm going to be a vampire.
00:03:34Oh, okay.
00:03:35Oh, so you get to go out of there.
00:03:36Yeah, but I might turn into a vampire later on.
00:03:40Wow, that's so cool.
00:03:59Hi.
00:04:01Sorry I'm late.
00:04:33I feel like I came this close to booking.
00:04:37My agent said they pinned me.
00:04:39That's fantastic.
00:04:41It'd be fantastic to book, but...
00:04:45Yeah, how was your audition?
00:04:48They passed, but, um...
00:04:51I do have this callback for...
00:04:53The serious regular thing?
00:04:54Yeah.
00:04:55Leo, that's great.
00:04:56Yeah, I feel really...
00:04:57Sorry, do you see my shirt?
00:04:58Oh, um...
00:05:03Oh, here you go.
00:05:05Would you want to, um...
00:05:08go to this reading my friend's doing this weekend?
00:05:11Sure.
00:05:15But not, like, as a date, right?
00:05:18Totally.
00:05:19Because I don't want to ruin our dynamic.
00:05:23I think we work really well together as scene partners.
00:05:26I definitely wouldn't want to mess up our classroom chemistry.
00:05:31Good.
00:05:32I'm glad we're on the same page.
00:05:42What are you doing tonight?
00:05:43I've got a date.
00:05:45Cool.
00:05:46What are you up to?
00:05:49Uh...
00:05:50Going to a friend's party, I think.
00:05:54Well...
00:05:54Yeah.
00:06:08Hello?
00:06:10Surprise!
00:06:12Surprise!
00:06:16Squirrel!
00:06:18Squirrel.
00:06:20You gorgeous creature.
00:06:25Ah!
00:06:26You look so different!
00:06:27A year in vitamin T will do that.
00:06:30Vitamin T?
00:06:31That's how strong.
00:06:32Oh my god!
00:06:32Right.
00:06:33Of course.
00:06:34Of course.
00:06:35Come on in.
00:06:36Okay.
00:06:36Yeah.
00:06:41You really don't have to roll out the red carpet.
00:06:44I'm only staying at night.
00:06:46That's fine.
00:06:47Well, thank you.
00:06:50So...
00:06:50What are you doing in New York?
00:06:52Just passing through, you know, living my usual nomad life during the summer.
00:06:57And when I realized that I'd be driving through the city to go upstate, I couldn't resist.
00:07:05And I think you should come with me.
00:07:08I couldn't.
00:07:10I'm not taking no for an answer.
00:07:13No, really.
00:07:14No.
00:07:16Really.
00:07:17I...
00:07:18I really can't.
00:07:23I really can't.
00:07:24I really can't.
00:07:29What?
00:07:30Eleanor!
00:07:32I am not...
00:07:34I'm taking it by the way.
00:07:36What?
00:07:37This is my arm.
00:08:00Oh!
00:08:00Hey.
00:08:02Uh...
00:08:02You want me to...
00:08:04Clear...
00:08:04Up?
00:08:05Nah.
00:08:06We used to change in front of each other all the time, right?
00:08:10Right.
00:08:18Coffee?
00:08:19Ooh, yes.
00:08:20Please.
00:08:22So I hear nothing for three weeks and then out of nowhere, out of the blue, I get a call
00:08:27from a new number and he said,
00:08:29Oh, sorry, I dropped my flip phone.
00:08:31Flip phone!
00:08:32In a bucket of paint at an art gathering.
00:08:35Okay.
00:08:35What the fuck is an art gathering?
00:08:38And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram.
00:08:40And he was like, yeah, I did it for my iPad.
00:08:44So?
00:08:44So I kept fucking him until he disappeared again.
00:08:50You really know how to pick him.
00:08:52I'm nothing if not consistent.
00:08:55Are you?
00:08:56At least I'm consistent in my inconsistency.
00:08:59But you and Will are good?
00:09:01Oh, yeah.
00:09:02I'm glad we got back together.
00:09:04He's, um, less awful than the other guys I've been with.
00:09:08A glowing compliment.
00:09:10You know what I mean.
00:09:12What's he up to?
00:09:14He was on part of the road trip.
00:09:16We actually did a project together combining his drawings and my photographs.
00:09:20It was very romantic.
00:09:21What's the project?
00:09:23People.
00:09:25And signage.
00:09:26Speed limits.
00:09:28Stop signs.
00:09:29Public spaces.
00:09:31Private life.
00:09:32All these little commandments everywhere.
00:09:35Still not fully formed yet.
00:09:37But yeah, how's life as a Broadway hoover?
00:09:40Oh, you know.
00:09:41No, I don't.
00:09:42Give me all the juicy details.
00:09:44I do have this call back for a serious thing.
00:09:48Leo!
00:09:49That's huge!
00:09:51I hope so.
00:09:52I mean, it would feel really good to book something.
00:09:55And then I could say my oldest friend is THE Leo Mark.
00:09:59Eleanor, stop.
00:10:00Don't forget about me when you're famous.
00:10:01Okay?
00:10:02Right.
00:10:04I mean it.
00:10:06I won't.
00:10:08Good.
00:10:11Great.
00:10:17Who?
00:10:20Good.
00:10:28You're.
00:10:31Bye.
00:11:12Wow, that's lovely.
00:11:15Friends of friends in high places.
00:11:21And they're just letting us stay here?
00:11:25Yeah, I met her at an arts residency and Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.
00:11:39Dips.
00:11:43Dips.
00:11:44Dips.
00:11:46Dips.
00:11:55Dips.
00:11:57Dips.
00:11:58Dips.
00:11:59Dips.
00:12:02Dips.
00:12:11Dips.
00:12:12Dips.
00:12:13Dips.
00:12:14Dips.
00:12:14Dips.
00:12:15Dips.
00:12:28Dips.
00:12:29Dips.
00:12:36Dips.
00:12:38You should put on a bathing suit.
00:12:40The sun feels so good on my skin.
00:12:42I'm good as I am.
00:12:45Suit yourself.
00:13:02Hey, this is Will. You know what to do.
00:13:25I think we should go shopping. I've got the urge to splurge.
00:13:30Sure.
00:13:40Oh dear.
00:13:46Do you want to try anything on?
00:13:48I mean, it's a women's store.
00:13:50Ah, right, right.
00:13:52Sorry. Sorry.
00:14:00She's cute.
00:14:02Yeah.
00:14:11Remember when we used to go to Savers?
00:14:14We'd get, what, ten pounds of clothes for ten dollars?
00:14:18I still have some of that stuff. Some really good shit.
00:14:22Okay.
00:14:24Oh.
00:14:26What do you think?
00:14:27It's nice.
00:14:29Nice?
00:14:31I'm not an expert on women's fashion. It is cute.
00:14:36Flattering?
00:14:37Sure. Sure. Well, I like it.
00:14:39Will you, uh, check the tag and see how much it is?
00:14:5165.
00:14:53Woof.
00:14:55We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto?
00:14:56No.
00:14:57No, we're not.
00:15:01Should we steal it?
00:15:04What?
00:15:04We can put it on my back.
00:15:06Eleanor.
00:15:08I'm kidding.
00:15:10Right.
00:15:11Right.
00:15:12I'm gonna wear it out, though.
00:15:26Eleanor?
00:15:29Were you actually joking?
00:15:32Of course. We're not in college anymore. I can afford it.
00:15:36Right.
00:15:53I mean it.
00:15:54You have family in me.
00:15:56Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:15:59You don't have to be bullied to be family.
00:16:02Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:16:05Whether you like it or not, we're both pretty connected.
00:16:08Yikes.
00:16:10Sorry.
00:16:12Is that for your callback?
00:16:14Yep.
00:16:15Dialogue's a little much, huh?
00:16:18I guess. I don't know. I think it's kind of nice.
00:16:22Totally.
00:16:26It's just nice to have a character that's not just, you know,
00:16:31talking about transitioning the whole time.
00:16:34Right. Well, um, whenever you want to practice, I am ready.
00:16:38I'm gonna draw upon my long and storied career as a chorus member from my sixth grade production of Oklahoma.
00:16:45Awkward. I forgot.
00:16:47An acting legend stands before me.
00:16:49Don't be shocked when I act in circles around you.
00:16:58Wine.
00:17:02I think I should move.
00:17:05Again?
00:17:06Again, again, again.
00:17:08But I thought you liked Durham.
00:17:10I do, but...
00:17:13I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?
00:17:18What about Will?
00:17:21Well...
00:17:22Will's transportable.
00:17:23Oh.
00:17:24Oh. Sorry.
00:17:28Just...
00:17:34So... moving?
00:17:37It's always a thought.
00:17:38You know me.
00:17:42Do the thing.
00:17:44What thing?
00:17:45You know.
00:17:47Squirrel!
00:17:48Squirrel!
00:17:49Oh, no, no, no.
00:17:53I never told you this in college, but...
00:17:56You'd be holding court at some party and I would be...
00:18:00Hanging on the edge.
00:18:02Wondering when you were gonna figure out how much cooler than me you were.
00:18:06I would...
00:18:07Fantasize about...
00:18:09Doing something, I don't know, cool enough to keep your attention.
00:18:13Like what?
00:18:16Something impulsive.
00:18:18Like...
00:18:18I don't know.
00:18:20Steal a car, go for a joyride, you know.
00:18:23Throw caution to the wind.
00:18:25We never quite did that.
00:18:27No, I didn't.
00:18:28I do remember seeing you, though, at parties.
00:18:31At your most painfully, socially awkward looking at me.
00:18:36I always wondered what you were thinking.
00:18:38Well, now you know.
00:18:40Yeah, but it makes sense.
00:18:43You're an actor.
00:18:44You're shy in real life, but on stage, you're...
00:18:49Where is with me?
00:18:51Well, everywhere you go, it's theater.
00:18:55Yeah.
00:19:01I think we should go out.
00:19:03Oh, really?
00:19:04Yeah, it's happy hour.
00:19:05We should hit the town.
00:19:07Have a few drinks.
00:19:08Have a few laughs.
00:19:10I haven't heard that one since college.
00:19:12Well, it's still true.
00:19:13The afternoon is young.
00:19:16Or...
00:19:17Old.
00:19:18But the night is still barely nascent.
00:19:20Yes, but I am very old now.
00:19:22Let's go.
00:19:23Please.
00:19:25Please, please, please, please.
00:19:27Sure. Yes.
00:19:57Come on, listen up.
00:19:59I am loose.
00:20:00I am loose.
00:20:01I am loose.
00:20:24We've been hooking up for a year.
00:20:27A year?
00:20:29Yeah, but we're just friends.
00:20:32Oh, really?
00:20:34Yes, really.
00:20:36I mean...
00:20:37If she wanted more, I...
00:20:42But...
00:20:43I respect her boundary.
00:20:45She wants to keep it professional.
00:20:48Except when you're having sex.
00:20:51I just want someone to love me like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.
00:20:55What?
00:20:57They famously love each other.
00:20:58A lot.
00:20:59I read a listicle about her.
00:21:03Well, you deserve an epic love like that.
00:21:08I'd just be happy with something a little more stable.
00:21:19But, um...
00:21:20Yeah, I'm totally fine with the no strings thing.
00:21:26Totally.
00:21:32My own arts practice is really informed by being on the road.
00:21:36Not to get to Kerouac, but the freedom of the open road really frees me.
00:21:43I love Kerouac.
00:21:45Me too.
00:21:47Go to the bathroom.
00:21:49Oh, cool.
00:21:51So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go?
00:21:5515 hours.
00:21:59Wow.
00:22:43No, come on.
00:22:45Go on.
00:22:46Mm-hmm.
00:22:47Mm-hmm.
00:22:47Mm-hmm.
00:22:47Huh?
00:22:48Uh-huh.
00:22:48So...
00:22:50How do they compare to your boyfriends?
00:22:51I'm not gonna, you know, size-wise put you in competition.
00:22:56Mm-hmm.
00:22:58You both have beautiful, artistic hands.
00:23:03Um...
00:23:04Sorry.
00:23:05Uh, I think I'm gonna head out.
00:23:09Um...
00:23:09Sorry, he's my ride.
00:23:11I gotta go.
00:23:14Good to meet you.
00:23:15Good to meet you.
00:23:17Bye.
00:23:32You know, you could have stayed if you wanted to.
00:23:34I know.
00:23:35I just hate Kerouac.
00:23:39And I'd never cheat on Will.
00:23:40It's just nice to flirt a little.
00:24:13You want dinner?
00:24:15No, I'm good.
00:24:16I think I'm gonna just hang out here for a minute.
00:24:20Okay.
00:24:21Night, sweetie.
00:24:35Bye.
00:24:36Bye.
00:24:40Bye.
00:25:28Whenever you're ready.
00:25:32If I hadn't come, what would you have done?
00:25:34Something desperate.
00:25:36No, seriously, what would you have done?
00:25:37Paid my respects and left quietly.
00:25:40These assholes are the only ones who want to turn it into a whole thing.
00:25:43You can't expect to just show up here and know nothing.
00:25:46I mean, you look like Holly Golightly for Christ's sake.
00:25:50Are you slut-shaming me?
00:25:52Maria.
00:25:54I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit, could I?
00:25:59I know that was a lot.
00:26:01What they did...
00:26:03wasn't cool.
00:26:04Oh, threatening to have me arrested for trespassing wasn't cool?
00:26:06You know what I mean.
00:26:08You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:26:09That's not...
00:26:10Showing up here didn't fix anything for me.
00:26:13I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:26:17Why do you care so much?
00:26:21Because...
00:26:22Because you're my family, Maria.
00:26:25Right.
00:26:28Family.
00:26:32I don't have any family.
00:26:37I mean it.
00:26:40You have family in me.
00:26:42Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:26:46You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:26:49Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:26:54Whether you like it or not we're irrevocably connected.
00:26:57Ever since that day at the crash pad.
00:26:59You've been linked.
00:27:02I messed up a line.
00:27:03No.
00:27:04You read them.
00:27:05Fine.
00:27:08I just thought...
00:27:10Maybe you're being a little gentle.
00:27:12Like...
00:27:13Like where's the energy?
00:27:15The...
00:27:15Um...
00:27:16Passion.
00:27:18I...
00:27:19Why don't you try the monologue again but this time maybe like...
00:27:24Angry.
00:27:26Why would I be angry?
00:27:28Well, Maria's kind of a bitch, right?
00:27:31Kind of?
00:27:32Right. She like doesn't listen.
00:27:34So you have to really get through to her.
00:27:37Like really shake her.
00:27:38I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he...
00:27:42You know, was a gentle person.
00:27:44When he's making a point he wouldn't be like in her face.
00:27:47Yeah, but I feel like at this point it'd be a really big breaking point for him.
00:27:52I think you want to wow the director so you should just try something different, right?
00:27:59Yeah, maybe I...
00:28:01Try it angrier.
00:28:02Yeah!
00:28:03Just the monologue.
00:28:04Just like, come on, like really give it to her.
00:28:06Come on!
00:28:07Yeah.
00:28:07I'll give you the line leading in.
00:28:17I don't have any family.
00:28:21I mean it.
00:28:24You have family in me.
00:28:25Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:28:29Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:28:33Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
00:28:38You're not perfect.
00:28:41Neither am I.
00:28:42But we're perfect in our imperfection.
00:28:46Two warped puzzle pieces that managed to fit just right.
00:28:52You fit me.
00:28:54And I fit you.
00:28:57So yeah, Rea, you have family.
00:29:00It may not be those people in the church, but...
00:29:04You got family standing right in front of you.
00:29:09How was that?
00:29:12I think it's getting there.
00:29:15It felt so weird.
00:29:17We can keep working on it!
00:29:20Fuck, I really don't wanna fuck this up.
00:29:22You won't!
00:29:24We'll get there.
00:29:28And then I say...
00:29:29We fit, I guess, in our own misshapen way.
00:29:34And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm and we interlace fingers.
00:29:38Right.
00:29:56You might not be those people in that church, but you have family standing right in front of you.
00:30:03So...
00:30:04Um...
00:30:06Um...
00:30:07Honestly?
00:30:08Yes, honestly.
00:30:10Why are you yelling?
00:30:11I have literally no idea.
00:30:14My friend gave me all these directions and now I'm totally lost.
00:30:17You were fine before.
00:30:19Fuck!
00:30:20Look, just get out of your head and don't run lines with her again.
00:30:24Mmm...
00:30:27I kinda wish it was just you and me up here.
00:30:31Oh yeah?
00:30:32Yeah.
00:30:35That's...
00:30:35Sweet.
00:30:38Is everything okay?
00:30:40I'm happy to run lines and stuff, but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.
00:30:48Oh yeah.
00:30:50That's...
00:30:51I mean, I'm cool with that.
00:30:54Neither of us wanted anything, right?
00:30:56Yeah.
00:30:58But...
00:30:58I guess now I want something with this guy.
00:31:01So...
00:31:03I hope that's okay?
00:31:06Of course.
00:31:07Thanks for being so chill.
00:31:09And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend.
00:31:12Bye.
00:31:25Neil?
00:31:29Coming.
00:31:41You okay? You look like someone died.
00:31:44No, I'm good.
00:31:47Farm store?
00:32:08Ooh.
00:32:10These are gorge.
00:32:14It's a potted plant, so...
00:32:16It's a potted plant, so...
00:32:17What's in your hair?
00:32:18Hmm.
00:32:21Hi.
00:32:24How are vegetables so expensive?
00:32:27Inflation?
00:32:30Fuck.
00:32:32What?
00:32:33Just this person from acting classes here.
00:32:36Don't look, Eleanor.
00:32:38Why can't you say hi?
00:32:39Because he's on a really big show right now.
00:32:42So?
00:32:42And he's really good on it.
00:32:44Leo?
00:32:46Leo!
00:32:48Oliver!
00:32:49Hi! It's so good to see you.
00:32:51It's been a minute.
00:32:53So...
00:32:54What are you doing here?
00:32:56Just up here for the weekend.
00:32:58Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here, so we're here, like, all the time.
00:33:02Oh!
00:33:02This is my friend, Joe.
00:33:04Nice to meet you.
00:33:05Hi!
00:33:06You too.
00:33:09And I'm Eleanor.
00:33:11Sorry.
00:33:12Sorry, this is my friend, Eleanor.
00:33:15Hi.
00:33:17Hi, Eleanor.
00:33:18Um, so...
00:33:19How are you?
00:33:21I'm... I'm good.
00:33:22I just...
00:33:23I should say congratulations on Sifrin House.
00:33:25I've been watching the show and you're so wonderful in it.
00:33:29Thank you. You don't have to say that, though.
00:33:31Leo was just saying how good you are in it.
00:33:34It's just a great show.
00:33:35Wait, wait.
00:33:36Uh, I'm having, like, a brain blast moment.
00:33:39Oh, yeah?
00:33:39Okay, no pressure at all, but you two should totally come over to my place for, like, snacks.
00:33:44I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers. It'd be so lovely to share.
00:33:47I think we have, um, afternoon plans.
00:33:49They're easily changeable.
00:33:51Okay, so change them.
00:33:52Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer, buy a few things, and then we'll meet you outside?
00:33:58Hell yeah.
00:33:59Alright, cool.
00:34:00Amazing. Okay, see you.
00:34:04What's your problem?
00:34:06I guess I...
00:34:07He just was, like, the only other trans guy in your acting class, and...
00:34:12We weren't that close, and it kind of felt...
00:34:15I don't know, like there was some competition.
00:34:16Well, you're not in class now, and I need to be competitive.
00:34:20Yeah.
00:34:21Are you annoyed with me?
00:34:22Because I seized the moment.
00:34:24If you don't want to go, we can back out.
00:34:25No.
00:34:26No, no.
00:34:27Actually, thank you.
00:34:29Let's do the socializing thing.
00:34:32See?
00:34:33Serendipity.
00:34:34Adventure.
00:34:34For sure.
00:34:35For sure.
00:34:37For sure.
00:35:05Hello!
00:35:07Hello!
00:35:07For sure.
00:35:08Yeah, it's open by the corner.
00:35:10Oh.
00:35:11Oh.
00:35:12No!
00:35:12What?
00:35:14Oh my God.
00:35:16Thank you, Joe.
00:35:16That looks so good.
00:35:19That looks beautiful.
00:35:23I mean, I think a lot about, you know, art's ability to create meaningful change, right?
00:35:30I'm an actor because I believe movies are powerful engines for empathy, but sometimes I wonder what actually meaningfully changes.
00:35:38Like, I don't know, can you think of a movie that has changed the course of history, really?
00:35:44Uh, Cruising.
00:35:46You know?
00:35:47Responsible for a huge homophobic backlash against queer men.
00:35:52Oh no, Joe!
00:35:54But I love that movie.
00:35:56I mean, Al Pacino doing poppers in those tank tops?
00:35:59Ugh!
00:36:02I don't know that one.
00:36:05But I'm sure it's better than what you've been auditioning for, am I right?
00:36:09I guess.
00:36:11You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:36:14Come on, Leo.
00:36:15That's not what I...
00:36:16Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:19I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:36:23You know the lines?
00:36:24Yeah, uh, I auditioned.
00:36:28Wow.
00:36:29That is, yeah, it's just so crazy we went in for the same part.
00:36:33Oh, they already passed on me.
00:36:37Yeah.
00:36:39So sorry.
00:36:40It's fine.
00:36:40I'm actually really glad that you're up for it.
00:36:44When Leo first read it, he was so quiet, but I'm trying to work with him and, you know, try
00:36:48to get him to be a little angry, you know?
00:36:50I kind of thought of AJ as a sort of gentle guy.
00:36:56Huh.
00:36:59Joe, remind me of the name of this cheese.
00:37:02Uh, Cam and Bear.
00:37:04Do you eat this?
00:37:05Yeah.
00:37:06Yeah, you can.
00:37:11Why didn't we talk about this kind of stuff when we were in class together?
00:37:14I don't know.
00:37:15I mean, we should have just been doing this the whole time.
00:37:19Yeah, right?
00:37:19Leo said you guys were a little competitive with each other.
00:37:22Eleanor.
00:37:23No, it's true.
00:37:25We were.
00:37:25I mean, we were competing for, like, the scraps of rolls they were throwing our way, but it all feels
00:37:32really stupid now.
00:37:34It does.
00:37:36Well, we're talking now.
00:37:39Cheers.
00:37:39Cheers.
00:37:40Oh, my God.
00:37:41This pool is everything.
00:37:43It was, it was, it was, uh, actually a little traumatizing.
00:37:46Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.
00:37:49Uh, Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.
00:37:52What about you?
00:37:52What do you do?
00:37:53Uh, I'm a photographer.
00:37:55I teach during the year and I travel every summer.
00:37:58Okay, that's enviable.
00:38:01It's nice to be free in that way.
00:38:02Okay.
00:38:03So, what college do you teach at?
00:38:06Oh, Eleanor teaches, like, at this really amazing high school.
00:38:09Oh, that's so cool.
00:38:11I mean, it must be really interesting to work with people that age.
00:38:14Yep.
00:38:15Eleanor has been living in Durham for, like, two years now.
00:38:18Has this really cool boyfriend who's also an artist and they went on this road trip together.
00:38:22Yep.
00:38:23Okay, how was that?
00:38:25Really romantic.
00:38:26He painted and I photographed.
00:38:30By that, he was drawing.
00:38:31Oh, drawing.
00:38:33Yeah, he usually is a painter, but because we were on the road, he was drawing because of the supplies
00:38:38and stuff.
00:38:39I was just texting him yesterday and he said he was really happy to be back home with his materials.
00:38:43Yeah, drawing.
00:38:44Yes.
00:38:47Uh, would anyone like some wine?
00:38:49Yeah.
00:38:49Oliver, do you want to come with me?
00:38:51I can help.
00:38:51No, no, no.
00:38:52You can.
00:38:53Got it.
00:38:58You're being weird.
00:39:01How?
00:39:02I just feel like you're not being yourself.
00:39:04And what is me being myself, Eleanor?
00:39:07It just seems like you're performing.
00:39:10Maybe I'm just having a good time and feeling loose with them.
00:39:15Then why aren't you like that with me?
00:39:18I...
00:39:19I have to pee.
00:39:20I...
00:39:20am.
00:39:24I have to pee.
00:39:50You're right, I was being weird.
00:39:54Good thing you know my love language.
00:39:57Let's just have one.
00:40:02Mmm.
00:40:10Come on, Leo.
00:40:15Are you serious right now?
00:40:17What?
00:40:18Okay, what's with the t-shirts?
00:40:21What do you mean?
00:40:23I feel like you're gonna drown with all those clothes on.
00:40:28Eleanor.
00:40:30What?
00:40:32I'm wearing a shirt because I'm binding.
00:40:36Oh my god, I'm so sorry. I'm...
00:40:39It's fine.
00:40:42Why didn't you tell me?
00:40:50More wine?
00:40:52Mm-hmm. Sure.
00:41:11Hmm.
00:41:19Stop! Stop! No. Seriously, I have to stop laughing because my stomach is hurting.
00:41:28No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.
00:41:31Is there more wine?
00:41:32Do you sure you want more?
00:41:37Yes. I guess I'm driving.
00:41:39That would be great.
00:41:41Does anyone else smell?
00:41:43What is that?
00:41:46Okay, bigger glass. Thank you.
00:41:48No.
00:41:50So we're like in basically the middle of the desert.
00:42:06I told the entire auditorium I was bisexual during my campaign for student body president.
00:42:16And of course I lost.
00:42:19Oh my God.
00:42:20Yeah, thank you.
00:42:21I don't know why I thought the revelation would help my chances of being student body president in 2008 in
00:42:27Chatham, New York.
00:42:30Wow. I thought you were gay.
00:42:35No, uh, uh, bisexual, queer, both.
00:42:41Oliver, what are you?
00:42:43Oh, uh, I'm, I'm queer.
00:42:45Everyone's queer.
00:42:47Except for Leo.
00:42:50Um, I'm not straight.
00:42:53You're not?
00:42:54I'm queer.
00:42:57Didn't know that.
00:42:59Well, I'm just grateful to be able to live a genuine queer life.
00:43:06That part.
00:43:08Sometimes I wish I was queer.
00:43:09Oh, really?
00:43:11But do you think, like, maybe I'm queering heterosexuality maybe?
00:43:19Well, maybe I am queer.
00:43:24Maybe you are.
00:43:26You would be the one to know.
00:43:27Well, remember when we hooked up, squirrel?
00:43:30Eleanor.
00:43:31Well, do you?
00:43:37Making out for less than a minute before you passed out?
00:43:39Drunk?
00:43:40So what?
00:43:41It doesn't count?
00:43:44I guess it counts.
00:43:47I guess you're queer.
00:43:48See?
00:43:49I'm queer.
00:43:49I'm queer, too.
00:43:50Like, why the fuck not?
00:43:52I just want to be, like, in the club.
00:43:55I want to get naked.
00:44:00Is she gonna be okay?
00:44:02Yeah.
00:44:03She's gonna be fine.
00:44:04Just a little too much day drinking.
00:44:06Need it all up in there?
00:44:08Yeah.
00:44:10Well, we should head out.
00:44:11Thanks.
00:44:12Again.
00:44:12Bye.
00:44:24Did you have fun?
00:44:26I did, actually.
00:44:32Oliver's kind of a blowhard.
00:44:38I thought he was nice.
00:44:39I thought him and Joe were smart.
00:44:41Yeah, they talk about ideas.
00:44:47I have an idea.
00:44:50What is it?
00:44:55I forgot.
00:44:57Okay.
00:45:15Eleanor?
00:45:16You may enter.
00:45:23Are you alright?
00:45:25Never better.
00:45:28Anything I can do to help?
00:45:31Sit.
00:45:38Do you still like me?
00:45:39Of course I do.
00:45:42Of course I do.
00:45:42Because I was a terrible brute tonight, wasn't I?
00:45:46I still like you.
00:45:49Okay.
00:45:51That's good.
00:46:04I think I left my phone at their house.
00:46:09I'll pick it up in the morning.
00:46:36I'll pick and do the time in the morning.
00:46:37I'll pick you up.
00:46:37You should test.
00:46:37I'll pick it up.
00:46:38I'll pick you up.
00:46:39I'll pick you up next week.
00:46:40You should leave.
00:46:41Bye.
00:46:42Bye.
00:47:19Good morning.
00:47:21Morning.
00:47:22I have her phone.
00:47:24Thank God.
00:47:26Do you want some coffee?
00:47:28Oh.
00:47:30Sure.
00:47:31Okay.
00:47:38I'm not much of a hiking guy.
00:47:40No, you should definitely.
00:47:41I mean, the path is pretty clear on the property.
00:47:45You just have to, like, look out for the trail markers,
00:47:47and you should be good.
00:47:49Are you sure?
00:47:50Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today,
00:47:52but I know Joe would be happy if you swung by for just a little hike.
00:47:56Maybe we will.
00:47:58I have to think of something to do with her.
00:48:01Oh, I'm sorry about yesterday.
00:48:03She's a lot.
00:48:06It's all good, really.
00:48:09I mean, she's maybe a little territorial.
00:48:13Territorial?
00:48:14Over you.
00:48:18Protective, too.
00:48:20Huh.
00:48:21I think in kind of a sweet way.
00:48:24If a little.
00:48:26A little.
00:48:27A little.
00:48:27Yeah.
00:48:29I just, yeah, I still am sorry for all the unhinged stuff she said.
00:48:32You know, I don't really mind her chaos.
00:48:36Oh, really?
00:48:37Well, then maybe you and I should switch places for the weekend because,
00:48:42oh, she's exhausting.
00:48:44Maybe that's why she's your friend.
00:48:47What?
00:48:49Maybe you like a little bit of dysfunction.
00:48:52Okay, um, former classmate and now my psychoanalyst.
00:48:58Um, for the record, I like simple.
00:49:01I, I like boring.
00:49:05That's, that's good.
00:49:08Is it?
00:49:10Yeah, because I'm boring.
00:49:15You absolutely are not.
00:49:19I don't wanna, I, I'm usually a lot smoother than this.
00:49:28But, um, can I, can I kiss you?
00:49:32Me?
00:49:34Yeah, you.
00:49:37Are you and Joe?
00:49:39Oh, no, we're just friends.
00:49:49I've been wanting to do that since that terrible, terrible class.
00:49:55Really?
00:49:57Yeah.
00:49:58And I'm glad to know that you like boring,
00:50:02because I'd very much like to do something boring with you sometime.
00:50:18Can I call you this week?
00:50:22I would really like that.
00:50:26Cool, me too.
00:50:28So, you should stick around, enjoy the pool, hang out.
00:50:34I'm gonna head back up.
00:50:36We gotta head out soon.
00:50:38Yeah.
00:50:39Yeah?
00:50:39Yeah.
00:50:40All right.
00:50:41Have fun.
00:50:44Thanks for the coffee.
00:50:46Thanks for the kiss.
00:51:04You were gone for a while.
00:51:08Just getting your phone, remember?
00:51:11Ah, thank you, my hero.
00:51:16I got you a nice coffee from that place down the road.
00:51:19It's a little melted, though.
00:51:21I just had a coffee.
00:51:22But it's my peace offering.
00:51:34I'm sorry about last night.
00:51:37Apology accepted.
00:51:41But maybe, don't you think those guys are just like a tiny bit pretentious?
00:51:46Eleanor, seriously, you know you sound like cold and cold.
00:51:49Fine, fine.
00:51:51I am sorry for getting so drunk last night.
00:51:53I honestly don't remember much, but I'm sorry for whatever happened.
00:51:57Okay.
00:51:58Thanks.
00:51:59Cheers.
00:52:11You have family in me.
00:52:13You have family in me.
00:52:16Family in me.
00:52:19Ready?
00:52:22Yep.
00:52:23What time is it?
00:52:25Time for our big hike.
00:52:29Okay.
00:52:35Are you okay?
00:52:37You seem weird.
00:52:38Just tired.
00:52:42Do you want to run lines when we get back?
00:52:44Oh, no.
00:52:45I mean...
00:52:47No, thank you.
00:52:49Just...
00:52:50Appreciate it, though.
00:52:57I will've been down.
00:52:58Let's be morning.
00:53:06Let's...
00:53:07Yeah.
00:53:25I'm so sorry.
00:53:26I'm so sorry.
00:53:26I thought of a movie that changed history.
00:53:29Oh, yeah?
00:53:30The Thin Blue Line.
00:53:32Errol Morris literally solved a crime
00:53:35that exonerated an innocent man.
00:53:38Huh. Okay. Well, what happened afterwards?
00:53:41He made a lot of money doing computer and beer commercials.
00:53:45The death row guy?
00:53:46Errol Morris.
00:53:48Right.
00:53:50Which way?
00:53:53This way.
00:53:55I don't see any trail markers.
00:53:57Trust me.
00:53:59Can we just stick to the trail?
00:54:05This is the trail, silly.
00:54:30Can we take a little break?
00:54:32Yeah.
00:54:35We're having fun, right?
00:54:38I never go on hikes.
00:54:40That's your whole problem.
00:54:42What?
00:54:43You have such a rigid view of yourself.
00:54:45You say you never go on hikes, but here you are going on a hike.
00:54:49You just don't try anything new unless someone pushes you to do it.
00:55:06Okay.
00:55:15You know, maybe what you think of as me being a coward.
00:55:20I never said you were a coward.
00:55:22I never said you were a coward.
00:55:22Is actually me just having a little structure in my life, because my whole life is a risk.
00:55:29And I don't need to, you know, act out like some theater kid just to prove a point.
00:55:36So everywhere I go is theater, right?
00:55:39Yep.
00:55:40Just without stage.
00:55:41I'm a photographer.
00:55:43Oh, right.
00:55:44And, uh, where's the camera?
00:55:47Why are you being such an asshole?
00:55:48If you don't want to keep hiking, then go back to the house.
00:55:50Why am I being an asshole?
00:55:53Go back to the house.
00:55:54Where the hell are we?
00:55:57I think we're lost.
00:55:58Yeah, no shit.
00:56:01No, we're, like, lost.
00:56:02Metaphorically lost.
00:56:06And actually lost.
00:56:10What are you doing?
00:56:12They're gonna navigate us out of here.
00:56:14Not just metaphorically.
00:56:18I don't have service, do you?
00:56:20Don't worry about it.
00:56:22Can you check if you have service?
00:56:26Eleanor!
00:56:28What?
00:56:48I don't have a 3% battery.
00:56:49I think we're close.
00:56:51Oh, yeah, Eleanor.
00:56:52Where are we?
00:56:54See?
00:56:55We're on the trail.
00:56:56Yeah, but do we even know if we're going in the right direction?
00:56:58It's a loop.
00:57:00Okay, my phone just died.
00:57:05Okay.
00:57:08Are you texting right now?
00:57:09No.
00:57:10If you are texting Will with our source of light-
00:57:13I'm not texting Will.
00:57:13I haven't texted Will all weekend because I'm trying to be present with you.
00:57:18You haven't texted Will all weekend.
00:57:19Let's just try to get out of here, huh?
00:57:22So, you haven't texted him at all?
00:57:24No.
00:57:25No.
00:57:26No.
00:57:28Is that, like, normal for you guys?
00:57:30And I...
00:57:30Weren't you just saying that you were texting him yesterday?
00:57:33Okay, busybody.
00:57:34We broke up, okay?
00:57:36The fuck, Eleanor?
00:57:38So you've just been lying to me all weekend?
00:57:40Well, you hide shit from me.
00:57:42You didn't want to take your shirt off and get in the water.
00:57:44Why?
00:57:45Because you didn't want me to know that you hadn't a top surgery, am I right?
00:57:48That is completely different, Eleanor.
00:57:49Oh, is it?
00:57:50You're so fucking clueless.
00:57:53I'm not clueless.
00:57:55You just don't clue me in.
00:57:57This isn't about me.
00:57:59This is about you lying to me all weekend.
00:58:01What do you want me to say?
00:58:03Tell me why you're not telling me shit.
00:58:05What?
00:58:06Okay.
00:58:10We were on the road trip for two days, and I picked some stupid fight about directions,
00:58:14and he just fucking left.
00:58:15Okay?
00:58:17He hitchhiked back home.
00:58:19I mean, why should I admit to you that I'm 29 fucking years old,
00:58:23and I can't seem to keep a relationship for longer than three months?
00:58:27And you have your head so far up your own ass with your shitty little callback
00:58:31for your shitty little TV show, and all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes
00:58:35that you don't even like.
00:58:36Wow.
00:58:37Eleanor, just because you don't like something doesn't mean it's shitty.
00:58:41What?
00:58:42It's not like we're in college anymore.
00:58:45I don't need to follow you around and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinions.
00:58:49Okay, that's not...
00:58:51I know I'm probably not supposed to say this because it's problematic or whatever,
00:58:55because I'm not allowed to have any feelings about your transition,
00:58:57but I miss how things were.
00:59:00when you...
00:59:03who you were before.
00:59:09You...
00:59:10really...
00:59:11aren't allowed to have feelings about that.
00:59:14Like...
00:59:16at all.
00:59:19So fucked, Eleanor!
00:59:24I miss you.
00:59:27I just feel so distant from you now.
00:59:31It's not because I'm trans.
00:59:33It's really not.
00:59:38I don't know.
00:59:39I don't know.
00:59:39What?
00:59:41I shouldn't be here.
00:59:43I shouldn't be in the fucking...
00:59:44tick-infested...
00:59:46Blair Witch Woods...
00:59:47fighting with you.
00:59:50Thank God.
00:59:51The house.
00:59:53Are you sure?
00:59:54Yes, I'm sure.
00:59:55Just tell me you didn't lose the car keys.
00:59:58I didn't.
01:00:05Leo.
01:00:07Leo.
01:00:08I love you.
01:00:11No, you don't, Eleanor.
01:00:16Kind of ironic, I guess.
01:00:18Seeing as it was me keeping secrets all those years being in love with you.
01:00:23And you, pretending you didn't know.
01:00:26Although, I mean...
01:00:28You knew. You must have known.
01:00:31I didn't...
01:00:33No.
01:00:36I mean, I didn't know...
01:00:37No.
01:00:40You liked having me around as your little lap dog and...
01:00:46I'm done.
01:00:48I'm done.
01:00:49I am done.
01:00:52That's so unfair.
01:00:54Is it?
01:01:00Can you...
01:01:03You are cold.
01:01:05You're cold...
01:01:22What was we...
01:01:34I mean it.
01:01:36You have family in me.
01:01:40Fuck.
01:01:55Are you okay?
01:01:57Yeah, just clumsy.
01:02:04Let me help.
01:02:15It's her last night.
01:02:18It is.
01:02:24You shouldn't be drinking long.
01:02:36I heard you.
01:02:39Hmm?
01:02:40Like I heard you.
01:02:41I was fucked up.
01:02:44But can I say something?
01:02:48Maybe less fucked up.
01:02:51Sure.
01:02:53I miss us.
01:02:56You miss us?
01:02:58You're the best friend I've ever had.
01:03:02Like my best, best friend.
01:03:06And I feel like you haven't been acting that way or something.
01:03:15Or like you were my best friend and now you're just someone else.
01:03:23I don't know.
01:03:27I'm still me, Eleanor.
01:03:30Definitely still me.
01:03:34That's good.
01:03:36Maybe it's just...
01:03:40I wish I weren't still me.
01:03:44Maybe if you just accepted you a little more it would help.
01:03:49I mean...
01:03:51I always liked you as you are.
01:03:56Just...
01:03:56It's like when you're not happy being you that you become a little bit too much of you or something.
01:04:05Yeah.
01:04:07I liked following you around in college.
01:04:11You led me out of the hole I was in.
01:04:15And you still do.
01:04:32Eleanor.
01:04:33I think you're confused.
01:04:40I am confused.
01:04:44By you.
01:04:49Okay.
01:04:50You are...
01:04:52Something.
01:05:03I'm sorry.
01:05:05Oh.
01:05:07Oh.
01:05:24Amen.
01:05:26Amos.
01:05:37I don't know.
01:05:57I don't know.
01:06:28I don't know.
01:06:58I don't know.
01:06:59Are you?
01:07:00No.
01:07:01Yeah.
01:07:02Okay.
01:07:11Could you maybe, um, a little to the left?
01:07:15Sure.
01:07:17Yeah.
01:07:28My hand's crammed.
01:07:30Oh, um, that should be.
01:07:32Maybe if, um...
01:07:35Yeah.
01:07:36Yeah.
01:07:59I don't know.
01:08:13Did you just fake it?
01:08:18No.
01:08:22Yes.
01:08:25Okay.
01:08:34I guess I should probably go.
01:08:40Yeah.
01:08:50Eleanor.
01:08:58Oh, God, Leo.
01:09:01I'm so sorry.
01:09:03It was so horrifying.
01:09:07Have you ever had worse sex?
01:09:10No, even the first time wasn't this bad.
01:09:17At least it was brief.
01:09:22And now we know.
01:09:24We really know.
01:09:25And it will never happen again.
01:09:27Unless we're stuck in a cave or on a deserted island.
01:09:30Or on a long cruise ship trip.
01:09:32Or if they make another Avengers movie that's three hours long and we're stuck in the last row.
01:09:37We run out of popcorn.
01:09:47So, I didn't ruin everything.
01:09:52No.
01:09:57I just...
01:10:00I did the thing where I sabotaged a good thing.
01:10:08And I've just been driving around for the past couple weeks aiming my camera aimlessly at shit and not pressing
01:10:16the shutter.
01:10:17And you have a whole life that I know nothing about.
01:10:21And I know it's not your fault.
01:10:26I am a little clueless.
01:10:30But I'm learning, right?
01:10:32We're all learning.
01:10:43You want to know something weird?
01:10:46Another secret?
01:10:49Kind of.
01:10:53You know how much of a loser I feel like I am.
01:10:55You're not a loser.
01:10:57No, don't try to make me feel better.
01:10:59But here's the thing.
01:11:05I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:09Like, I'm bizarrely good at it.
01:11:13And my whole life plan was like, no, I'm an artist.
01:11:17And I was somehow embarrassed that I became a high school teacher.
01:11:22But I admit it.
01:11:26I fucking love my job.
01:11:37That's awesome.
01:11:39Pays shit.
01:11:40Yeah.
01:11:41It's exhausting.
01:11:43The principal's a scumbag.
01:11:45That sucks.
01:11:47Did I mention the pay shit?
01:11:49You did.
01:11:54I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.
01:11:58I'm sorry, too.
01:12:04Why do you care so much?
01:12:10Because.
01:12:13Because you're my family, right?
01:12:22I don't have any family.
01:12:26I mean it.
01:12:29You have family in me.
01:12:32Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
01:12:39You don't have to be blood to be family.
01:12:43Our bond is deeper than biology.
01:12:50Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
01:12:55Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
01:13:01You're not perfect.
01:13:04Neither am I.
01:13:08But we're perfect in our imperfection.
01:13:12Two warped puzzle pieces that managed to fit just right.
01:13:21You fit me.
01:13:24And I fit you.
01:13:27So.
01:13:29Yeah, Ria.
01:13:32You have family.
01:13:35May not be those people in that church, but.
01:13:40You have family standing right in front of you.
01:13:46I was wrong.
01:13:48That's how you should do it.
01:13:51Gentle.
01:13:55You're really good, Leo.
01:14:03Good.
01:14:15Okay.
01:14:16No.
01:14:17Let's go.
01:14:48Let's go.
01:15:17Let's go.
01:15:52Let's go.
01:16:17Let's go.
01:16:54Let's go.
01:17:18But when I look at you, I see an old friend, I see an old friend passing through.
01:17:26And when I think of you, I want to be friends, I want to be friends with you, with you.
01:17:52Are we a mark?
01:18:03Years pass and I pick up the phone to see where this could go.
01:18:13How could we ever know?
01:18:17So let's just take it slow.
01:18:23Tears fall, it seems that we've outgrown, but kept us on our own.
01:18:33It's really come to show, there's nowhere we can go.
01:18:42But when I look at you, I see an old friend, I see an old friend passing through.
01:18:51And when I think of you, I want to be friends, I want to be friends with you.
01:18:59But when I look at you, I see an old friend, I see an old friend passing through.
01:19:08And when I think of you, I want to be friends, I want to be friends, I want to be
01:19:16friends.
01:19:17I want to be friends.
01:19:57I want to be friends.
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