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00:00on sober house
00:01Seth is 90% sure if I'm home tonight
00:04I wasn't over here
00:05Waking up in the hospital really just
00:08left me very distraught
00:09I'm scared for you
00:11Crack
00:12Where'd you find this?
00:13It was in my shorts
00:14I think the f*** is always gonna haunt me
00:17Wow, you can just cut that up
00:19No, no, no
00:20Everyone says David's like an f*** lover talking about Seth like that
00:23I don't care, Mary
00:25I'm drinking in first class
00:27See you soon, okay?
00:28I'm not so stupid
00:30Like he thinks I am
00:32And tonight
00:32Rehab ends
00:34The work begins
00:36You're about to watch
00:40Recovering Addicts
00:43Continue their fight
00:44Outside of treatment
00:46Without a safety net
00:48I'm Dr. Drew
00:50And this is Sober House
01:03It's 8pm on day 22
01:05And Mary has made the decision to attend Swingfest
01:09Despite repeated warnings from her peers about how it could jeopardize her sobriety
01:13We're concerned about it
01:15It's just really tempting
01:17And it gets really weird
01:18And you're gonna be with someone who you're uncomfortable with right now
01:24I wish you guys a moment
01:26I know
01:27She's going with her boyfriend, David Weintraub
01:29With whom she continues to have issues
01:31And I fear that this event could lead to a relapse
01:34I'm drinking in first class
01:36See you soon, okay?
01:39I'm not so stupid
01:41Like he thinks I am
01:51Mary, but if you
01:52Listen, if you can't trust me
01:54And you can't listen to me
01:55I can't do it
01:55David, with all his drama
01:58And a hotel full of partying swingers
02:01I think it might be a little hard
02:03To maintain sobriety
02:11Please get ready
02:12We need to walk out of here in three minutes
02:14So please get dressed
02:15I am dressed
02:17Mary's gonna host today
02:18She's got a number of events, parties, autograph sessions, interviews, press
02:24We'll see where it takes us
02:26Babe, enough
02:27Stop
02:28I just keep saying that
02:29No, you're being annoying
02:30Just let me deal with it
02:33David's so mean
02:43She's the host
02:47Sometimes I really feel like
02:48David just wants to exploit me
02:50We'll come back for a little candy
02:51She likes it sweet
02:52If you know what I mean
02:53And just make money off me
02:55What you're doing
02:56Is what you're supposed to do
02:57Exactly
02:59You gotta run a hundred yards
03:00That's it
03:03I'm not sure if he really cares about me
03:05Or if he just sees me as some stupid whore
03:08You can make money off of
03:09This is the face of Swing Fest
03:12The one and only
03:15Mary Carey
03:16You know, Mary Carey is like a fake happy
03:18It's like I'm, you know, just smile for everybody
03:21Because I feel like I have to
03:24I'm definitely happiest when I'm Mary Ellen
03:26Swing Fest that way
03:31You can do the challenge of the G-Man
03:33And Mary Carey is nice
03:35Hey, Mary
03:36What's up, girl?
03:37Hey, do you want a drink?
03:38No, I'm actually sober
03:38I'm actually 17 days sober
03:40I want to stay sober
03:41But this is definitely a challenge
03:44It was vodka, Red Bull, maybe
03:46You know, it's hard, too
03:48Because David's drinking
03:49If he was really wanting to be supportive
03:51He would be staying sober with me
03:53I need a vodka and Red Bull
03:56Without us ordering it
03:58From the waiters
03:58Just bring it to the table
04:00I know
04:07Somebody's going to come up to you
04:08And bring you a drink
04:09What?
04:10When it comes, you'll know what it is
04:12I'm not going to do that, David
04:13No vodka, no
04:14No vodka, no
04:17When I finish this process
04:19And become sober
04:20I don't even know
04:21If I want to hang out with David anymore
04:26I was really upset
04:27When I left Swingfest
04:28Because I switched my flight
04:30To leave as early as possible
04:31And David wanted to stay
04:33The extra day longer
04:34At this time, we'll continue
04:35With our ghost card holders
04:36I don't know how much
04:38I trust David
04:39I know he was at a swinger's party
04:41And, you know, he's probably drunk
04:42I don't know what he meant
04:43I don't know
04:55I don't know
04:57I don't know
04:57I don't know
04:57I don't know
04:57I don't know
04:58I don't know
05:05David
05:05I don't know
05:07You're fine
05:07What happened?
05:08I was on a trip
05:09He was so mean
05:13Sorry.
05:14I'm sorry.
05:16I'm sorry.
05:19I'm sorry.
05:20I'm sorry.
05:21I'm sorry.
05:28You got to stop hearing what you said, guys.
05:32It makes you sad.
05:33I'm so happy.
05:36You got to stay away from him.
05:37Just tell him, hey, you know,
05:40I want you to be my agent, and that's it.
05:42Show him some maturity.
05:44Show him your age.
05:46That's a good point.
05:47Obviously, he likes it when you cry.
05:51Don't cry.
05:53Laugh.
05:56This is true.
05:57I think it would work out much better that way.
06:10I'm sorry.
06:11After a night of reflecting on her unhealthy relationship with her boyfriend, David Weintraub,
06:16Mary finally found the courage to take a critical step towards claiming her sobriety.
06:21Hey, David.
06:23You know, everyone in the house is right about you.
06:25The way you talk to me is totally wrong.
06:27The way you've treated Seth is wrong.
06:29And I just really think that I want to keep it strictly business.
06:34And I really don't even want to keep it business, except for the fact that we have the book deal.
06:38Yeah, I got a 12-year-old.
06:42What a surprise, David.
06:45It hung up on me.
06:47Breaking up with David is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
06:51But it made me realize how much I value the friendships and support that I've found with my new fellow
06:56roommates.
07:08Since Andy's arrival, he's had a stabilizing influence on the house.
07:11However, he has suffered with his addiction for many years.
07:15And it's been at the core of his belligerent behavior that not only cost him a great deal of public
07:20humiliation.
07:21Back to the valley!
07:23But also destroyed many of his closest relationships.
07:27I wanted to have him sit down with renowned psychiatrist, Dr. Charles Sophie, to help him address these issues.
07:32Hi, Dr. Sophie.
07:34Andy?
07:34Hello.
07:34How are you? Nice to meet you.
07:36Good to meet you.
07:36Have a seat. Make yourself comfortable.
07:38Thank you so much.
07:38So we were going to meet today as an initial meeting to kind of get some kind of plan to
07:42move forward.
07:43So tell me, when you were using, what was your drug of choice beer?
07:49A lot?
07:49A lot of beer.
07:51Regularly?
07:52Every day.
07:53Any criminal history?
07:56A little bit.
07:57What's that mean?
07:58Well, just a little bit.
07:59I've been arrested a couple times, and I crashed my car and got a DUI.
08:04I went to jail for that.
08:06Tell me, what was it like growing up?
08:09My dad was in the Navy, so he just physically wasn't there.
08:12And my mom was drinking a lot, so she wasn't there.
08:15Look at that.
08:16But they were great.
08:17My mom had dinner on the table all the time.
08:19Did you just hear yourself?
08:21My dad was never there.
08:22My mom was drunk.
08:24They were great, though.
08:25Well, they were.
08:26That's all I knew.
08:28Yeah, I understand that.
08:29But that doesn't mean they're bad.
08:30Yeah.
08:31But that does mean that maybe you didn't get parenting.
08:34Yeah.
08:34I don't think I got much parenting.
08:36And I think that there's a lot of stuff in there to trigger anybody.
08:40How old do you think you are emotionally?
08:45I might be 12.
08:48Are you afraid to grow up?
08:51I'm not afraid.
08:52I just, I kind of don't want to.
08:56So tell me, do you like yourself?
09:00Yeah, sometimes.
09:01There's a lot of things about my past that I don't like.
09:08I would love to redo chunks of my life.
09:13Go back and just redo it.
09:14Do it right.
09:15Well, you know, you have the opportunity to do somewhat of that.
09:19Kind of going out and making your amends.
09:22And repairing the people that, you know, got trampled on in the meantime.
09:27Yeah.
09:28Because if you don't, that's what triggers you to drink.
09:31Okay.
09:33That's our plan.
09:35Yeah.
09:35Okay.
09:36All right.
09:38Nice to meet you.
09:39I'll see you again.
09:39Thank you, sir.
09:48My drinking has destroyed a lot of my closest relationships.
09:53And right now I'm going to sit down with a very close friend of mine, Mo Collins, who I have
09:59hurt.
10:00She has been in the trenches with me.
10:03Hardcore.
10:04With drinking and drugging.
10:07Then she stopped.
10:09I don't know if she's comfortable talking about her stuff, but we'll find out.
10:13Oh.
10:19Oh.
10:20Did I scare you?
10:22I'm sorry.
10:24You did scare me.
10:25Hi, baby.
10:26Hi.
10:26Hi.
10:29Thanks for meeting me.
10:31Aw.
10:33Are you losing weight, baby?
10:34No.
10:35Mm-hmm.
10:35You're just always skinny.
10:37Thanks for meeting me.
10:39Well, I wanted to see you because I'm still living up in the house and I can't really go
10:43out, but I wanted to apologize.
10:51And you know what?
10:53I'm sure there's a million things to apologize for.
10:56I'm glad you asked.
10:57Here's my list.
11:00The scroll.
11:01Yeah, I was going to ask you because most of the time I was so drunk I don't even remember.
11:05Let me hit the ones that I remember.
11:07Okay.
11:07I remember you were on stage at one of the comedy clubs and I was out of my mind.
11:15You ruined my set.
11:16Yeah.
11:16I apologize for that.
11:18As per usual, Andy Dick, you had to make it about you.
11:24But not, not anymore.
11:27I'm not drinking.
11:28We'll see.
11:31Do you remember having a conversation with my ex-husband?
11:40That was horrible.
11:43And I'm divorced now.
11:45I should make an invest in him.
11:47That was really, really painful for him.
11:53I forgot.
11:54That was really bad.
11:56That was a big one.
11:58It really is.
12:01I was trying to help.
12:03But I was sick and I was...
12:07You know, there was a lot of stuff going on if you remember.
12:11That's why I called you.
12:13You're really one of my only friends I have left.
12:16But you understand, you know.
12:19But all my other friends, I really lost.
12:22I really almost killed them.
12:24Killed them.
12:27Yeah.
12:27You're one of my only friends.
12:34That was very good for me to do, but I need to do that.
12:39Hundreds of times over with a lot of different people.
12:46Coming up, this is a...
12:55For every patient, relapsing brings with it additional problems and stress.
13:00Unfortunately for Steven, his last relapse precipitated legal consequences as well.
13:05You still smell it.
13:07Still completely chaked with heroin.
13:21Well, I'm getting ready to go to court, take care of a business that I brought upon myself that I
13:29need to take care of so I can move on to the future.
13:32And the only way to do that is to show up.
13:36And that, and I don't want Dog the bounty hunter coming looking for me.
13:41Steven Adler seems to be doing better since his last relapse.
13:46All right.
13:47That's respectable, huh?
13:49However, as a result of his actions, he's had to hire a lawyer and now must appear in court.
14:02This is a simple, we call a pretty basic drug possession charge.
14:08The only difference is that it's heroin.
14:13Which carries probably the most stringent penalties of all the drugs you could abuse.
14:19That is a bus you never want to be on.
14:23There's two places you don't ever want to be.
14:25And it's in jail, and having to have to wear the court.
14:28And the morgue. There's three places.
14:30I'm telling you, you don't know you're at the morgue.
14:41Good luck, we'll catch you when you're coming out.
14:43All right.
14:48We love you, gentlemen.
14:49Okay, good luck, good luck.
14:50We'll see you when you come out.
15:01How'd it go in there?
15:02It went great. It went great.
15:04We have the matter put over to the 20th of August for arraignment.
15:10How'd you go about this, Stephen?
15:11All right, well, listen, the bottom line is, I made a mistake, I relapsed.
15:17You gotta pay for your mistakes, you know.
15:19Stephen, any advice?
15:21Have your loved ones videotape you, use it.
15:26And then watch it when you're sober, and see how terrible you look and how terrible you act.
15:33And I'm pretty sure that'll help you not want to use it anymore.
15:38And I'm pretty sure that'll help you not want to use it anymore.
16:02But in many ways, is at the core of his addiction.
16:06So, I'm about to see a guy named Craig.
16:11He's the owner of a bar called The Woods, which I've been kicked out of on a number of occasions.
16:17So hopefully this guy will accept my amends, because I don't know.
16:21Maybe he won't.
16:25It's dark in here.
16:29I didn't really realize how beautiful this place is.
16:33How are you doing, Andy?
16:34Hey Greg, how are you?
16:36I'm doing a lot better.
16:39Well, I came to address, you know, me coming to your bar, I think a lot.
16:46You came here, like, right when I opened.
16:49You haven't made it to my new one yet.
16:51What's that?
16:52I'm not telling you.
16:55Well, I want to apologize for the way I act when I just drink too much.
17:02Obviously, I'm drinking to the point where I don't know what I'm doing.
17:07And I do something to upset somebody, and all of a sudden I'm being escorted out.
17:11I've come to learn to just go along with it.
17:14As soon as I feel somebody grabbing my arm, I'm like, what did I do now?
17:17I don't even fight it, and I just leave.
17:19I mean, I appreciate you apologizing to me.
17:21I don't enjoy having to tell people to leave.
17:25I specifically don't enjoy seeing people that you know need to stop.
17:32You know what I'm saying?
17:33I mean, yes, this is what I do, and this is where I make my money, but I'm not here
17:36to see people destroy themselves.
17:38I do have vague recollections of you just being really nice to me when I was not in a good
17:46place.
17:47I'm in a sober living right now.
17:50I went to rehab, went into sober living.
17:57So I want to apologize.
18:01Yep.
18:03Yep.
18:03That's very sweet.
18:15Coming up.
18:16You get f***ed up, you do stupid s***.
18:24With only a few days left until the residents leave the sober house, I'm encouraged by their progress, especially Rodney,
18:31who's steadily becoming more secure in his recovery.
18:34But I fear that if he doesn't find a healthy way to work and live, he may spiral back into
18:42his old ways when he leaves the sober house.
18:44I wanted to meet with him to discuss his plans for the future.
18:47My brother just started a job today.
18:50He just started the construction job.
18:53Yes, the construction.
18:55So I'm going to call him so I can find out when I can get started.
18:59Oh, you're going to work for him?
19:00Okay.
19:00Yeah.
19:01So it would fit into your structure here at Sober Living, right?
19:03Yeah.
19:04Oh, yeah, he'll make sure.
19:05Great.
19:06And what are your challenges right now?
19:08My challenges?
19:10Yeah.
19:11I've been really thinking on really turning the house into a sober living.
19:16Your own home?
19:18Yeah, my home.
19:19Will you have to get rid of some people to do that?
19:21You know, but I don't now.
19:22I don't now because my brother, he's moved on with my aunt.
19:27And so it's just me and Don there.
19:32And we was thinking about just, you know, getting an apartment somewhere and just, you know, make sure the house
19:37runs like a productive sober living house, you know, with the meetings.
19:42Right.
19:42And all.
19:43Great.
19:44That could be nice.
19:46Yeah.
19:47Yeah.
19:47I want to give something back, you know?
19:50Good.
19:51Part of being sober.
19:53Right.
19:54I think you're doing real well.
19:54I think you know you're doing well.
19:55Thanks.
19:57Thanks for everything, Doctor.
19:58Doing good, my friend.
19:59I really appreciate it.
20:02That's all I am.
20:08That's funny.
20:08After talking with Dr. Drew about starting my own sober house.
20:11I felt pretty motivated about it.
20:13I decided to take a ride out to my house.
20:16I hadn't been back there since I got sober.
20:21But when I walked in, I was absolutely shocked.
20:27Gosh, I couldn't believe that's how I was living my life.
20:39I looked around and it was hard to imagine, you know, my drinking had got me to this place.
20:52For the first time, it hit me that my addiction had robbed me of everything.
21:11Coming back here and seeing my house in this condition, there's no way I could set up a sober house
21:18here.
21:20This was enough to make me want to start drinking again.
21:23I mean, I just wanted to get the hell out of there, you know.
21:33Life is more exciting, sober.
21:36I'm more childlike when I'm sober.
21:39I want to go explore and do things.
21:42When I was drinking, I just wanted to sit in my booth at the pizza place and drink my pitchers
21:48of beer.
21:49That's all I wanted to do.
21:51So boring.
21:52My assistant would say, are we going to sit here in the pizza place again for five hours?
21:58Cooper used to be my assistant and we got sober together.
22:02He has remained sober and I remained drunk.
22:08So I need to make an amends to him because I think I made him look bad on a number
22:12of occasions.
22:13Good to see you, buddy.
22:14Hi, buddy.
22:15Hey, buddy.
22:18How are you?
22:21What's this?
22:22This is, um, they actually put me in the psych ward.
22:26They're smart.
22:27I drank so much that they tranquilized me in the ass twice.
22:32You would have laughed.
22:34I would have.
22:36I would have.
22:36You would have laughed.
22:39Well, the reason I wanted to talk to you in person like this is because I want to apologize for
22:44things that I've done to you that weren't cool.
22:48Whether it was me yelling at you or whether it's making you look bad because you invited me to one
22:55of your clubs and then I show up drunk.
22:57And the thing is, the weird thing is that usually I was so drunk that I don't even remember.
23:01And I'm asking you, are there things that I need to apologize for that I'm not even aware of?
23:08You get up.
23:09You do stupid.
23:12And it could quite possibly kill you.
23:15There was the time when we were driving back from Vegas that I had tried saying, and you can't drink
23:19an open beer in the car and pouring it all over me.
23:23I get out the car.
23:23You drive off.
23:24I was sitting there at 2 a.m. on the side of the 15 in the middle of Death Valley
23:29like, okay, what the f*** am I going to do now?
23:31And my cell phone was in the car.
23:35Just so you understand the level of insanity that you went to, you know, there was the time where we
23:42were pulling onto the street and your foot was out the window.
23:45You know, I was rolling the windows up and you thought I had tried to trap your foot in the
23:49window, so you started kicking me in the face.
23:55I love you, buddy, and I'm always going to be here for you.
23:59Just not when you're acting like you.
24:01I just want to tell you that I have to apologize for all the crap I put you through, but
24:09I'm sick of it.
24:10And I'm done with it, and I ain't going back.
24:12This is the first time where I have put sobriety before anything else.
24:18Career, family, you, friends.
24:20I just got it, too.
24:23You know, if you take this seriously, that's the best amends you can make to any of us who are
24:29actually close to you.
24:34I want nothing more than for you to succeed.
24:36I love you.
24:41We're meeting with Andy, and he went great.
24:43I think he's taking it seriously.
24:44You know, he seemed honest, and it's the first time I've heard him say that he's putting his recovery for
24:50anything else in his life.
24:51And it means a lot to me because he's taking care of himself.
24:55That's a big thing.
24:58Coming up.
24:59Today, I really...
25:05I have grave concerns for Nikki, who just two days ago was making amazing progress with her music
25:10until she got word of a tragedy surrounding her friends and family.
25:14To make matters worse, today marks the anniversary of her mother's death.
25:18It's really hard dealing with the death of my mom sober.
25:22You know, God works in mysterious ways.
25:26Everything hit me all at one time.
25:28I was thinking about things and trying not to cry, and just normally I would have a few drinks, do
25:35a little bit of bloat in them, the pain.
25:37I mean, just anything to take it away.
25:42Tonight, she must sing for the first time at her new job in Beverly Hills.
25:46So I wanted to meet with her to be sure she's not on the brink of a relapse.
25:52How are you?
25:53We're very colorful.
25:55Yeah.
25:56Bright.
25:57So how are you?
25:59Not very good.
26:00Yeah.
26:01Did you wake up feeling bad, or...
26:03Did you anticipate feeling bad, or were you thinking this would be easier than you thought?
26:10I don't know.
26:15Give me your thoughts now.
26:16What has this all taken you today?
26:18Well, that she was here.
26:21Wish I could just hug her one more time, or hear her call me dirty bitch.
26:25I don't care.
26:27You know?
26:30It was so hard.
26:32It was so unfair.
26:34Are you blaming yourself, Les?
26:36I don't know.
26:39I just wish I wouldn't have been there partying with her.
26:42Okay.
26:43Fair enough.
26:47You need to let yourself off the hook.
26:50Maybe not today, but you've got to forgive yourself.
26:55I don't know.
26:56Today I really feel like I need a drink.
26:59I'm sure.
27:01No.
27:02You're going to be okay?
27:03I don't know.
27:05Honestly.
27:06Honestly.
27:08I don't know.
27:12Aren't you going to perform tonight, too?
27:13Yeah.
27:14Is that going to be okay?
27:15I don't think so.
27:16You don't think it's going to be okay?
27:18It's just not really what I wanted to be doing today.
27:21What'd you want to do?
27:23Cry.
27:25What's a better thing than just crying?
27:27Yeah, well...
27:28I just don't know if I'm going to make it through inconsolable,
27:31and I'm worried about that.
27:34You know, it's a really deep song about somebody that just passed away,
27:40and, you know, I can't imagine a life, my life without you kind of song.
27:46I just don't know if I'll be able to make it through this song.
27:48If you're not moving forward in recovery...
27:53But I am.
27:54Yes, you are.
27:54Yes, you are.
27:55No, no, no.
27:56Nikki, I'm very pleased with how you're doing.
27:58Very, very pleased.
27:59And you're tolerating today.
28:00You have been doing very well.
28:01I think that's just because that's me.
28:05Like, I'm tired of trying to be the other person.
28:11The hostile, aggressive person.
28:13Right.
28:14Well, the rock star chick.
28:16This one.
28:17Yeah.
28:18Now, I have to figure out a way to, you know,
28:22be that crazy rock star on stage without drugs and alcohol.
28:26Like, I have to totally turn it around and find a new way to do that.
28:30And I think that that person is almost gone, like the bad one.
28:37And that more of me is coming out and I'm more positive and I'm more sweet and sensitive.
28:46Can you draw the two together a little bit?
28:48I have to find a new way to do that.
28:51I believe you will.
28:54So.
29:07Ever since Stephen's court appearance, he seems to have had a shift in attitude.
29:12Not only has he become very lethargic, but he appears to have adopted an aggressive attitude.
29:18F***.
29:19Just a week ago, he offered to help Nikki with her music.
29:22So, Stephen, I needed to ask you, if we, like, put this whole band together, will you drum?
29:28Yeah.
29:29Yeah?
29:29Please.
29:30I'd love to.
29:30Really?
29:31Of course.
29:32That'd be cool.
29:33But now, just hours from her big performance, he's having second thoughts.
29:37You okay?
29:38Yeah.
29:39I got the Nikki thing.
29:41You consider to do the Nikki thing, too.
29:42Yeah.
29:43Yeah.
29:45Yeah.
29:45It's my song.
29:46It's the one you recorded.
29:47Yeah, I don't know.
29:49I don't think we should do it.
29:51She doesn't need me, necessarily.
29:53Well, she wants you there.
29:55Yeah, I know she doesn't.
29:56But she was like, I think about what I'm supposed to do.
30:00Because what I don't do is one show that we don't even have anything played together.
30:05It's like karaoke.
30:08I don't think that's what I'm here.
30:11She looks to you.
30:13Don't start with that.
30:14I don't look to nobody.
30:16I want nobody to look at me.
30:17All right, don't give me that.
30:18I'm trying to make me feel guilty with it.
30:21It just doesn't work on me.
30:22Steve, it's Chuck that's talking.
30:23That's right.
30:23And Chuck is trying to make me feel guilty over here, and it sounds crazy.
30:27You can listen to the songs.
30:29Listen to it and playing it.
30:31I'm totally different, honey.
30:33Okay?
30:34Don't tell me about how to run my job.
30:36I'm not telling you how to run your job.
30:38Don't tell me how to just do this.
30:39I can do that.
30:40I know what I can do.
30:41I'm just giving you an idea.
30:42I know what I want to do.
30:44I'm just telling you, because you don't let anybody talk.
30:48I'm talking because other people are telling me what to do.
30:52So I feel I'm sorry I don't understand or agree with that.
30:57I just don't know.
30:58But nobody's disagreeing with you, buddy.
31:01You're saying that you are.
31:02No, I'm not.
31:03I'm just, my job is to give you the facts and let you make the decision.
31:07Jeez.
31:21Coming up.
31:29Come on.
31:29We're going to be late.
31:30I'm ready to go.
31:31You should perform in these tonight.
31:33I am.
31:33Oh, well, good idea.
31:36Tonight we get to go to P.F. Chang's, which is my mom's favorite restaurant.
31:40That outfit's going to be hot tonight.
31:42I'm so excited to see you perform.
31:44And then after that, I got to perform.
31:46And I'm a little bit nervous.
31:48I don't know that I'll be able to make it through inconsolable.
31:59This is a really important night for Nikki.
32:02And when I heard that Stephen wasn't going to perform with her, I wanted to see what was
32:06up with him.
32:07Are you going to perform tonight?
32:10I guess.
32:10I'm sure you don't want me to.
32:12Yeah.
32:13They'd love for you, too.
32:15Yeah.
32:15Yeah.
32:17Yeah.
32:17Yeah.
32:18Yeah.
32:19Yeah.
32:23I think that Nikki just goes ahead of the table.
32:29Nikki, why is this a special place?
32:31What's magic here?
32:32This particular location was the first time my mom had ever had P.F. Chang's.
32:38And it was while I was on American Idol.
32:40And she just raved about it.
32:42So this particular location is in the middle.
32:45This is the place.
32:46This is the one.
32:47I didn't know this was the one.
32:48Oh, this one?
32:49Yes.
32:50You guys, to Nikki.
32:51I'll drink a virgin Mai Tai with you, Nikki.
32:53To Nikki.
32:54To me.
32:58Where's Stephen and Ron?
32:59Why aren't they coming to dinner?
33:01Stephen, hi today?
33:02I totally thought he was high today, too.
33:05How I can really tell is he's getting so charitable.
33:08Yeah.
33:08And because he wants to be home.
33:10He looks not himself.
33:12And I'm concerned for him.
33:14I'm concerned he might be getting high or he's going to get high.
33:18He might just be going through a really tough time.
33:20Okay.
33:21He might be.
33:21That makes you look really high.
33:23You know, there's a lot of drama and he doesn't like it.
33:25Yeah.
33:27It's 8 o'clock.
33:28You're supposed to be on at 8 o'clock.
33:29I know.
33:31The worst thing that could happen in my performance tonight was that I cry through Inconsolable.
33:37And I just can't do it.
33:39There's just so much going on for me right now that I honestly can't believe I'm still sober.
33:45I'm really nervous.
33:46It's my first time performing sober, really.
33:50So it's definitely going to be a new experience for me.
33:53It's also the anniversary of my mom's death.
33:57So, you know, I'm going to be doing this one for her.
34:04Francisco.
34:05Hi.
34:06How are you doing?
34:07It's good to see you.
34:08We're very excited to have you here.
34:10This is a very fun place to be.
34:12So I'm going to leave you for a couple of minutes.
34:16Okay.
34:16I'll call you when we're ready.
34:17Okay.
34:18Okay?
34:18All right.
34:18So take your time.
34:20All right.
34:21Bye-bye.
34:21Bye.
34:24I'm used to being able to have a couple of drinks before I go on stage.
34:27So it's something that weighs really heavily on my mind.
34:30But I just can't do it.
34:32Hey, everybody.
34:33How are you?
34:35How are you all feeling tonight?
34:37Great.
34:37We're going to have a little green eye, a little entertainment for all of you.
34:41The wonderful and beautiful friend of mine, who I love very much.
34:46Beautiful and talented Nikki McGiven.
34:50Come on.
34:58All right.
34:59This song I'm going to dedicate to my mom and my best friend.
35:03So here we go.
35:13Memories frozen in a picture frame.
35:20Days go on.
35:22Things will never be the same.
35:26When you're left too soon.
35:30When you're left too soon.
35:31I believe a part of you will always stay with me.
35:39Can you hear me?
35:43It's on the phone.
35:50I can't go on.
35:53Pretending everything's going to be the way it was.
35:58Can you hear me?
36:03I am inconsolable.
36:19It was really good just to be able to finally let go.
36:22I think I was afraid to show any kind of emotion because I was afraid that I was going to
36:27break
36:27down and cry and so to know that I can make it through it sober.
36:31I know my mom would be proud.
36:33It felt like I was honoring her memory.
37:05I have relapsed yet again.
37:07This is the latest you stayed up, Mickey, I think.
37:10Did you have fun?
37:12Yeah.
37:13I got to see you saying.
37:15Steven did a good job, but he seemed a little wasted.
37:18He was falling high at my show.
37:21Oh, my gosh.
37:23Oh, I really hope he's not using.
37:25He's been high for so many years.
37:28That's crazy.
37:29And his, I mean, he's just so up.
37:33But you guys have been sober in rehab for the full time, right?
37:36He didn't do any drugs in there.
37:37I'm like, now I don't know.
37:39Do you think he ever smoked before process group?
37:42What does he keep getting all the drugs from?
37:44You know what?
37:45What the f***?
37:45He was probably getting the drugs when he kept leaving the house a lot lately.
37:49Maybe, like, he was walking away and going outside and going to smoke a cigarette or something
37:52and having someone eat him.
37:54I mean, it's not hard.
37:55Drug addicts are smart when they want to get their drugs.
37:58You guys, I just gotta go test him.
38:08Steven, I need you to do a pee test for me, honey.
38:27There's a female.
38:28I see it.
38:30Chase, see a female.
38:32Is he high?
38:43Next, on the season finale of Sober House, the bail rules have been, you are to remain in treatment.
38:49You know what, Steve?
38:50You guys, I'm going, I got to f*** this crap.
38:52Steve, Steve, don't walk out.
38:54Steven.
38:55Are you going to handcuff me?
38:56Just take me a f*** and he'll arrest me now.
38:57Just take me a f*** and he'll arrest me now.
38:58Go ahead.
38:59All right, he'll arrest me now.
39:01Are there things you want to tell Lucas about how you've been as a father?
39:04I wanted to just apologize.
39:07It felt a little empty to me, I've got to be honest with you.
39:09I mean, you're talking about this young man's entire life with his father, and it's not,
39:13oh, I'm sorry.
39:14Did I tell you I found a cute apartment today?
39:16No, you didn't.
39:17Oh, it's a sublet, and, you know, it has everything.
39:22I love you.
39:23Bye, Mary.
39:25Everyone says they're going to keep in touch, but I, we'll see.
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