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00:00on sober house
00:01Seth is 90% sure if I'm home tonight
00:04I wasn't over here
00:05Waking up in the hospital really just
00:08left me very distraught
00:09I'm scared for you
00:11Crack
00:12Where'd you find this?
00:13It was in my shorts
00:14I think the f*** is always gonna haunt me
00:17Wow, you can just cut that up
00:19No, no, no
00:20Everyone says David's like an f*** lover talking about Seth like that
00:23I don't care, Mary
00:25I'm drinking in first class
00:27See you soon, okay?
00:28I'm not so stupid
00:30Like he thinks I am
00:32And tonight
00:32Rehab ends
00:34The work begins
00:36You're about to watch
00:40Recovering Addicts
00:43Continue their fight
00:44Outside of treatment
00:46Without a safety net
00:48I'm Dr. Drew
00:50And this is Sober House
01:03It's 8pm on day 22
01:05And Mary has made the decision to attend Swingfest
01:09Despite repeated warnings from her peers about how it could jeopardize her sobriety
01:13We're concerned about it
01:15It's just really tempting
01:17And it gets really weird
01:18And you're gonna be with someone who you're uncomfortable with right now
01:24I wish you guys a moment
01:26I know
01:27She's going with her boyfriend, David Weintraub
01:29With whom she continues to have issues
01:31And I fear that this event could lead to a relapse
01:34I'm drinking in first class
01:36See you soon, okay?
01:39I'm not so stupid
01:41Like he thinks I am
01:51Mary, but if you
01:52Listen, if you can't trust me
01:54And you can't listen to me
01:55I can't do it
01:55David, with all his drama
01:58And a hotel full of partying swingers
02:01I think it might be a little hard
02:03To maintain sobriety
02:11Please get ready
02:12We need to walk out of here in three minutes
02:14So please get dressed
02:15I am dressed
02:17Mary's gonna host today
02:18She's got a number of events, parties, autograph sessions, interviews, press
02:24We'll see where it takes us
02:26Babe, enough
02:27Stop
02:28I just keep saying that
02:29No, you're being annoying
02:30Just let me deal with it
02:33David's so mean
02:43She's the host
02:47Sometimes I really feel like
02:48David just wants to exploit me
02:50We'll come back for a little candy
02:51She likes it sweet
02:52If you know what I mean
02:53And just make money off me
02:55What you're doing
02:56Is what you're supposed to do
02:57Exactly
02:59You gotta run a hundred yards
03:00That's it
03:03I'm not sure if he really cares about me
03:05Or if he just sees me as some stupid whore
03:08You can make money off of
03:09This is the face of Swing Fest
03:12The one and only
03:15Mary Carey
03:16You know, Mary Carey is like a fake happy
03:18It's like I'm, you know, just smile for everybody
03:21Because I feel like I have to
03:24I'm definitely happiest when I'm Mary Ellen
03:26Swing Fest that way
03:31You can do the challenge of the G-Man
03:33And Mary Carey is nice
03:35Hey, Mary
03:36What's up, girl?
03:37Hey, do you want a drink?
03:38No, I'm actually sober
03:38I'm actually 17 days sober
03:40I want to stay sober
03:41But this is definitely a challenge
03:44It was vodka, Red Bull, maybe
03:46You know, it's hard, too
03:48Because David's drinking
03:49If he was really wanting to be supportive
03:51He would be staying sober with me
03:53I need a vodka and Red Bull
03:56Without us ordering it
03:58From the waiters
03:58Just bring it to the table
04:00I know
04:07Somebody's going to come up to you
04:08And bring you a drink
04:09What?
04:10When it comes, you'll know what it is
04:12I'm not going to do that, David
04:13No vodka, no
04:14No vodka, no
04:17When I finish this process
04:19And become sober
04:20I don't even know
04:21If I want to hang out with David anymore
04:26I was really upset
04:27When I left Swingfest
04:28Because I switched my flight
04:30To leave as early as possible
04:31And David wanted to stay
04:33The extra day longer
04:34At this time, we'll continue
04:35With our ghost card holders
04:36I don't know how much
04:38I trust David
04:39I know he was at a swinger's party
04:41And, you know, he's probably drunk
05:02You alright?
05:05David
05:06You're fine
05:07What happened?
05:08What happened?
05:09On a trip
05:09He was just so mean
05:13I'm sorry, I'm cold.
05:16I'm sorry.
05:18I'm cold.
05:19I don't love you.
05:20I don't love you.
05:21I don't love you.
05:23I don't love you.
05:28You gotta stop hearing what's that guy.
05:32It makes you sad, I'm so happy.
05:36You gotta stay away from him.
05:38Just tell him, say, hey, you know, I want you to go.
05:40to be my agent and that's it.
05:42Show them some maturity.
05:44Show them your age.
05:46That's a good point.
05:47Because obviously, if you like someone, you cry.
05:51Don't cry.
05:53Laugh.
05:56This is true.
05:57I think it would work out much better that way.
06:11After a night of reflecting on her unhealthy relationship with her boyfriend, David Weintraub,
06:16Mary finally found the courage to take a critical step towards claiming her sobriety.
06:21Hey, David, you know, everyone in the house is right about you.
06:25The way you talk to me is totally wrong.
06:27The way you've treated Seth is wrong.
06:29And I just really think that I want to keep it strictly business.
06:34And I really don't want to keep it business except for the fact that we have the book deal.
06:38Yeah, now you're a f***ing 12-year-old, f***er.
06:42He hung up on me.
06:44What a surprise, David.
06:45He hung up on me.
06:47Breaking up with David is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
06:51But it made me realize how much I value the friendships and support that I have found with my new
06:55fellow roommates.
07:08Since Andy's arrival, he's had a stabilizing influence on the house.
07:11However, he has suffered with his addiction for many years.
07:15And it's been at the core of his belligerent behavior that not only cost him a great deal of public
07:20humiliation.
07:21Back to the valley!
07:23But also destroyed many of his closest relationships.
07:27I wanted to have him sit down with renowned psychiatrist Dr. Charles Sophie to help him address these issues.
07:32Hi, Dr. Sophie.
07:34Andy?
07:34Hello.
07:35How are you?
07:35Nice to meet you.
07:36Have a seat.
07:37Make yourself comfortable.
07:38Thank you so much.
07:38So we were going to meet today as an initial meeting to kind of get some kind of plan to
07:42move forward.
07:43So tell me, when you were using, what was your drug of choice beer?
07:49A lot?
07:49A lot of beer.
07:51Regularly?
07:52Every day.
07:53Any criminal history?
07:56A little bit.
07:57What's that mean?
07:58Well, just a little bit.
07:59I've been arrested a couple times, and I crashed my car and got a DUI.
08:04We went to jail for that.
08:06Tell me, what was it like growing up?
08:08My dad was in the Navy, so he just physically wasn't there.
08:12And my mom was drinking a lot, so she wasn't there.
08:14You know, look at that.
08:16But they were great.
08:17My mom had dinner on the table all the time.
08:19Did you just hear yourself?
08:21Oh.
08:21My dad was never there.
08:22My mom was drunk.
08:24They were great, though.
08:25Well, they were.
08:26That's all I knew.
08:28Yeah, I understand that.
08:29But that doesn't mean they're bad.
08:31But that does mean that maybe you didn't get parenting.
08:34Yeah.
08:34I don't think I got much parenting.
08:36And I think that there's a lot of stuff in there to trigger anybody.
08:40How old do you think you are emotionally?
08:46I might be 12.
08:48Are you afraid to grow up?
08:51I'm not afraid.
08:52I just, I kind of don't want to.
08:56So tell me, do you like yourself?
09:00Yeah, sometimes.
09:01There's a lot of things about my past that I don't like.
09:08I would love to redo chunks of my life.
09:13Go back and just redo it.
09:14Do it right.
09:15Well, you know, you have the opportunity to do somewhat of that.
09:19Kind of going out and making your amends.
09:22And repairing the people that, you know, got trampled on in the meantime.
09:27Yeah.
09:28Because if you don't, that's what triggers you to drink.
09:31Okay.
09:33That's our plan.
09:35Yeah.
09:35Okay.
09:36That sounds good.
09:36All right.
09:38Nice to meet you.
09:39I'll see you again.
09:39Thank you, sir.
09:48My drinking has destroyed a lot of my closest relationships.
09:54And right now I'm going to sit down with a very close friend of mine, Mo Collins, who I have
09:59hurt.
10:00She has been in the trenches with me.
10:03Hardcore.
10:04With drinking and drugging.
10:07Then she stopped.
10:09I don't know if she's comfortable talking about her stuff, but we'll find out.
10:19Oh, did I scare you?
10:22I'm sorry.
10:24You did scare me.
10:25Hi, baby.
10:26Hi.
10:26Thanks for meeting me.
10:31Are you losing weight, baby?
10:34No.
10:35You're just always skinny.
10:37Thanks for meeting me.
10:39Well, I wanted to see you because I'm still living up in the house and I can't really go
10:43out, but I wanted to apologize.
10:51And you know what?
10:53I'm sure there's a million things to apologize for.
10:56I'm glad you asked.
10:57Here's my list.
11:00The scroll.
11:01Yeah, I was going to ask you because most of the time I was so drunk I don't even remember.
11:05Let me hit the ones that I remember.
11:07Okay.
11:07I remember you were on stage at one of the comedy clubs and I was out of my mind.
11:15You ruined my set.
11:16Yeah.
11:16I apologize for that.
11:18As per usual, Andy Dick, you had to make it about you.
11:25But not anymore.
11:27I'm not drinking.
11:28We'll see.
11:31Do you remember having a conversation with my ex-husband?
11:37Oh, my God.
11:41That was horrible.
11:43And I'm divorced now.
11:45I should make an invest to him.
11:47That was really, really painful for him.
11:53I forgot.
11:54That was really bad.
11:56That was a big one.
11:58It really is.
12:00I was trying to help.
12:03But I was sick and I was, you know, there was a lot of stuff going on if you remember.
12:11I love you.
12:11That's why I called you.
12:13You're really one of my only friends that I have left.
12:16But you understand, you know?
12:19But all my other friends, I really lost them.
12:22I really almost killed them.
12:24Killed them.
12:27Yeah.
12:27You're one of my only friends.
12:34That was very good for me to do, but I need to do that.
12:39It's hundreds of times over with a lot of different people.
12:46Coming up, this is a...
12:55For every patient, relapsing brings with it additional problems and stress.
13:00Unfortunately for Steven, his last relapse precipitated legal consequences as well.
13:05You still smell it.
13:07Still completely chaked with heroin.
13:21Well, I'm getting ready to go to court, take care of a business that I brought upon myself that I
13:29need to take care of so I can move on to the future.
13:32And the only way to do that is to show up.
13:36And that, and I don't want Dog the bounty hunter coming looking for me.
13:41Steven Adler seems to be doing better since his last relapse.
13:46All right.
13:47That's respectable, huh?
13:48However, as a result of his actions, he's had to hire a lawyer and now must appear in court.
14:02This is a simple, we call a pretty basic drug possession charge.
14:08The only difference is that it's heroin, which carries probably the most stringent penalties of all the drugs you could
14:18abuse.
14:19That is a bus you never want to be on.
14:23There's two places you don't ever want to be.
14:25And it's in jail and having to have to wear the court.
14:28And the morgue.
14:30There's three places.
14:30And the morgue.
14:31You don't know you're at the morgue.
14:41Good luck, we'll catch you when you're coming out.
14:43All right.
14:48Okay, good luck, good luck.
14:50We'll see you when you come out.
15:01How'd it go in there?
15:02It went great.
15:03It went great.
15:04It went great.
15:04We have the matter put over to the 20th of August for arraignment.
15:10What do you think about this, Steven?
15:11All right.
15:12Listen, the bottom line is I made a mistake.
15:15I relapsed.
15:17You've got to pay for your mistakes, you know.
15:19Steven, any advice?
15:21Have your loved ones videotape you, use it, and then watch it when you're sober and see how terrible you
15:31look.
15:32And how terrible you act.
15:34And I'm pretty sure that'll help you not want to use anymore.
15:52Andy has begun a very difficult but critical step towards his recovery by making amends to those he has harmed.
15:58With each amends, he can get closer to restoring his spiritual emptiness that in many ways is at the core
16:04of his addiction.
16:06So, I'm about to see a guy named Craig.
16:11He's the owner of a bar called The Woods, which I've been kicked out of on a number of occasions.
16:17So, hopefully, this guy will accept my amends because I don't know.
16:21Maybe he won't.
16:25It's dark in here.
16:29I didn't really realize how beautiful this place is.
16:33How are you doing, Andy?
16:34Hey, Greg. How are you?
16:36I'm doing a lot better.
16:39Well, I came to address, you know, me coming to your bar, I think, a lot.
16:46You came here, like, right when I opened.
16:49You haven't made it to my new one yet.
16:51What's that?
16:52I'm not telling you.
16:55Well, I want to apologize for the way I act when I just drink too much.
17:02Obviously, I'm drinking to the point where I don't know what I'm doing.
17:07And I do something to upset somebody.
17:09And all of a sudden, I'm being escorted out.
17:11I've come to learn to just go along with it.
17:14As soon as I feel somebody grabbing my arm, I'm like, what did I do now?
17:17I don't even fight it and I just leave.
17:19I mean, I appreciate you apologizing to me.
17:21I don't enjoy having to tell people to leave.
17:25I specifically don't enjoy seeing people that you know need to stop.
17:32You know what I'm saying?
17:33Yeah.
17:33I mean, yes, this is what I do and this is where I make my money,
17:36but I'm not here to see people destroy themselves.
17:38I do have vague recollections of you just being really nice to me
17:44when I was not in a good place.
17:47I'm in a sober living right now.
17:49I went to rehab, went into sober living.
17:57So I want to apologize.
18:01Yep.
18:02Yeah.
18:03That's very sweet.
18:15Coming up.
18:24With only a few days left until the residents leave the sober house, I'm encouraged by their progress,
18:30especially Rodney, who's steadily becoming more secure in his recovery.
18:34But I fear that if he doesn't find a healthy way to work and live.
18:38How you feeling?
18:39Feeling good.
18:40Yeah.
18:40He may spiral back into his old ways when he leaves the sober house.
18:44I wanted to meet with him to discuss his plans for the future.
18:47My brother just started a job today.
18:49He just started the construction job.
18:53Yes, the construction.
18:55So I'm going to call him so I can find out when I can get started.
18:59Oh, you're going to work for him?
19:00Okay.
19:00Yeah.
19:01So it would fit into your structure here at Sober Living, right?
19:03Yeah.
19:04Oh, yeah.
19:04He'll make sure.
19:05Great.
19:06And what are your challenges right now?
19:09My challenges?
19:10Yeah.
19:11I've been really thinking on really turning the house into a sober living.
19:17Your own home?
19:17Yeah.
19:18My home.
19:19Will you have to get rid of some people to do that?
19:21You know, but I don't now.
19:22I don't now because my brother, he's moved on with my aunt.
19:27And so it's just me and Don there.
19:32And we was thinking about just, you know, getting an apartment somewhere and just, you know,
19:36make sure that the house runs like a productive sober living house, you know, with the meetings.
19:42Right.
19:42And all.
19:43Great.
19:44That could be nice.
19:46Yeah.
19:47Yeah.
19:47I want to give something back, you know?
19:49Good.
19:51Part of being sober.
19:53Right.
19:54I think you're doing real well.
19:54I think you know you're doing well.
19:55Thanks.
19:57Thanks for everything, Doctor.
19:58Doing good, my friend.
19:59I really appreciate it.
20:08After talking with Dr. Drew about starting my own sober house, I felt pretty motivated about
20:12it.
20:13I decided to take a ride out to my house.
20:16I hadn't been back there since I got sober.
20:21But when I walked in, I was absolutely shocked.
20:26Gosh, I couldn't believe that's how I was living my life.
20:40I looked around and it was hard to imagine, you know, my drinking had got me to this place.
20:52For the first time, it hit me that my addiction had robbed me of everything.
21:11Coming back here and seeing my house in this condition is no way I can set up a sober house
21:18here.
21:20This was enough to make me want to start drinking again.
21:23I mean, I just want to get the hell out of there, you know?
21:33Life is more exciting, sober.
21:36I'm more childlike when I'm sober.
21:39I want to go explore and do things.
21:42When I was drinking, I just wanted to sit in my booth at the pizza place and drink my pitchers
21:48of beer.
21:49That's all I wanted to do.
21:51So boring.
21:52My assistant would say, are we going to sit here in the pizza place again for five hours?
21:58Cooper used to be my assistant and we got sober together.
22:02He has remained sober and I remained drunk.
22:08So I need to make an amends to him because I think I made him look bad on a number
22:12of occasions.
22:13Good to see you, buddy.
22:14Hi, buddy.
22:15Hey, buddy.
22:18How are you?
22:21What's this?
22:22This is, um, they actually put me in the psych ward.
22:26They were smart.
22:27I drank so much that they tranquilized me in the ass twice.
22:32You would have laughed it.
22:35I would have.
22:36You would have been laughing.
22:39Well, the reason I wanted to talk to you in person like this is because I want to apologize for
22:44things that I've done to you that weren't cool.
22:48Whether it was me yelling at you or whether it's making you look bad because you invited me to one
22:55of your clubs and then I show up drunk.
22:57And the thing is, the weird thing is that usually I was so drunk that I don't even remember.
23:01And I'm asking you, are there things that I need to apologize for that I'm not even aware of?
23:08You get up.
23:09You do stupid .
23:12And it could quite possibly kill you.
23:15There was the time when we were driving back from Vegas that I had tried saying, Andy, you can't drink
23:19an open beer in the car.
23:21And pouring it all over me, I get out the car, you drive off.
23:24I was sitting there at 2 a.m. on the side of the 15 in the middle of Death Valley.
23:29Like, okay, what the f*** am I going to do now?
23:31And my cell phone was in the car.
23:35Just so you understand the level of insanity that you went to, you know, there was the time where we
23:42were pulling onto the street and your foot was out the window.
23:45You know, I was rolling the windows up and you thought I had tried to trap your foot in the
23:49window, so you started kicking me in the face.
23:55I love you, buddy, and I'm always going to be here for you.
23:59Just not when you're acting like you.
24:01I just want to tell you that I have to apologize for all the crap I put you through, but
24:09I'm sick of it and I'm done with it and I ain't going back.
24:12This is the first time where I have put sobriety before anything else. Career, family, you, friends. I just got
24:21it too.
24:23You know, if you take this seriously, that's the best amends you can make to any of us who are
24:29actually close to you.
24:34I want nothing more than for you to succeed.
24:36I love you.
24:41When meeting with Andy went great. I think he's taking it seriously.
24:44You know, he seemed honest and it's the first time I've heard him say that he's putting his recovery before
24:50anything else in his life.
24:51And it means a lot to me because he's taking care of himself.
24:55That's a big thing.
24:58Coming up. Today I really...
25:05I have grave concerns for Nikki, who just two days ago was making amazing progress with her music until she
25:11got word of a tragedy surrounding her friends and family.
25:14To make matters worse, today marks the anniversary of her mother's death.
25:18It's really hard dealing with the death of my mom sober.
25:22You know, God works in mysterious ways.
25:26Everything hit me all at one time.
25:28I was thinking about things and trying not to cry and just...
25:33Normally I would have a few drinks, do a little bit of bloat in them, the pain.
25:37I mean, just anything to take it away.
25:42Tonight, she must sing for the first time at her new job in Beverly Hills.
25:46So I wanted to meet with her to be sure she's not on the brink of a relapse.
25:52How are you?
25:53We're very colorful.
25:55Yeah.
25:56Bright.
25:57So how are you?
25:59Not very good.
26:00Did you wake up feeling bad or...
26:03Did you anticipate feeling bad or were you thinking this would be easier than you thought?
26:10I don't know.
26:15Give me your thoughts now.
26:16Where has this all taken you today?
26:18Well, that she was here.
26:21I wish I could just hug her one more time or hear her call me dirty bitch.
26:25I don't care.
26:27You know?
26:30It's so hard.
26:32It was so unfair.
26:33Are you blaming yourself, Les?
26:37I don't know.
26:39I just wish I wouldn't have been there partying with her.
26:42Okay.
26:43Fair enough.
26:47You need to let yourself off the hook.
26:50Maybe not today, but you've got to forgive yourself.
26:55I don't know.
26:56Today I really feel like I need a drink.
26:59I'm sure.
27:01No.
27:02Are you going to be okay?
27:03I don't know.
27:05Honestly.
27:08No.
27:12Aren't you going to perform tonight, too?
27:13Yeah.
27:14Is that going to be okay?
27:15I don't think so.
27:16You don't think it's going to be okay?
27:18It's just not really what I wanted to be doing today.
27:21What'd you want to do?
27:23Cry.
27:24Well, it's a better thing than just crying.
27:26Yeah, well, I just don't know if I'm going to make it through inconsolable.
27:31And I'm worried about that.
27:34You know, it's a really deep song about somebody that just passed away.
27:40And, you know, I can't imagine a life, my life without you kind of song.
27:45I just don't know if I'll be able to make it through this song.
27:48If you're not moving forward in recovery.
27:53But I am.
27:54Yes, you are.
27:54Yes, you are.
27:55No, no, no.
27:56Nikki, I'm very pleased with how you're doing.
27:58Very, very pleased.
27:59And you're tolerating today.
28:00You have been doing very well.
28:01I think that's just because that's me.
28:05Like, I'm tired of trying to be the other person.
28:11The hostile, aggressive person.
28:13Right.
28:14Well, that, the rock star.
28:15This one.
28:17Yeah.
28:18Now, I have to figure out a way to, you know, be that crazy rock star on stage without drugs
28:25and alcohol.
28:26Like, I have to totally turn it around and find a new way to do that.
28:30Mm-hmm.
28:30And I think that that person is almost gone, like the bad one.
28:36Mm-hmm.
28:37And that more of me is coming out, and I'm more positive, and I'm more sweet and sensitive.
28:45Yeah.
28:46And can you draw the two together a little bit?
28:48I have to find a new way to do that.
28:51I believe you will.
28:54So.
29:07Ever since Steven's court appearance, he seems to have had a shift in attitude.
29:12Not only has he become very lethargic, but he appears to have adopted an aggressive attitude.
29:19Just a week ago, he offered to help Nikki with her music.
29:23So, Steven, I needed to ask you, if we, like, put this whole band together, will you drum?
29:28Yeah.
29:29Yeah?
29:29Please, I'd love you.
29:30Awesome, really?
29:31Of course.
29:32That'd be cool.
29:33But now, just hours from her big performance, he's having second thoughts.
29:36You okay?
29:38Yeah.
29:39I got the Nikki thing.
29:41Do you consider to do the Nikki thing too?
29:42Yeah.
29:43Yeah.
29:44Yeah.
29:45Yeah.
29:45It's my song.
29:46It's the one you recorded.
29:47Yeah, I know.
29:49I don't think we should do it.
29:51She doesn't need me necessarily.
29:53Well, she wants you there.
29:54Yeah, I know she doesn't, but see, should I not think about what I'm supposed to do?
30:00Because what I want to do is one show that we don't even have anything played together.
30:05Start karaoke.
30:08You guys don't care.
30:11She looks to you.
30:13Don't start with that.
30:14I don't look to nobody.
30:16I want nobody to look at me.
30:17All right?
30:18Don't give me that.
30:18Try to make me feel guilty with you.
30:20It just doesn't work on me.
30:22Steve, it's Chuck that's talking to me.
30:23That's right.
30:23And Chuck is trying to make me feel guilty over here.
30:26And it sounds crazy.
30:27You can listen to the songs.
30:29Listen to it.
30:30I'm playing it.
30:31I'm totally different, honey.
30:33Okay?
30:34Don't tell me how to run my job.
30:36I'm not telling you how to run your job.
30:38Don't tell me how to just do this.
30:39I can do that.
30:40I know what I can do.
30:41I'm just giving you ideas.
30:42I know what I want to do.
30:44I'm just telling you because you don't let anybody talk.
30:48I'm talking because other people are telling me what to do.
30:52What?
30:53That's how I feel.
30:54I'm sorry you don't understand or agree with that.
30:58But nobody's disagreeing with you, buddy.
31:01It seems like you are.
31:02No, I'm not.
31:03I'm just, my job is to give you the facts and let you make the decision.
31:06no, I'm not.
31:18No.
31:20I'm not.
31:22No.
31:22I'm not.
31:24Oh.
31:24No.
31:25No.
31:27No.
31:28No.
31:30I am.
31:33Oh, well.
31:34good idea tonight we get to go to P.F. Chang's which is my mom's favorite
31:38restaurant that outfit's gonna be hot tonight I'm so excited to see you perform
31:44and then after that I got to perform and I'm a little bit nervous I don't know
31:49that I'll be able to make it through inconsolable
31:59this is a really important night for Nikki and when I heard that Steven
32:03wasn't going to perform with her I wanted to see what was up with him are
32:07you going to perform tonight I think that Nikki why is this a special place what's magic here
32:32this particular location was the first time my mom had ever had P.F. Chang's and it was while I
32:39was on
32:39American Idol and she just raved about it so this particular location is in the middle
32:45this is the place this is the one I didn't know this was the one yes you guys to Nikki
32:51I'll drink a virgin Mai Tai with you Nikki Nikki to me where's Steven and Ron why aren't they coming
33:00to dinner
33:00Steven hi today I totally thought he was hi today too how I can really tell us he's getting so
33:16he might just be going through a really tough time okay that makes you look really high you know
33:23there's a lot of drama and he doesn't like it yeah it's eight o'clock you're supposed to be on
33:29at eight
33:29I know the worst thing that could happen in my performance tonight was that I cry through
33:36inconsolable and I just can't do it there's just so much going on for me right now that I honestly
33:42can't believe I'm still sober I'm really nervous it's my first time performing sober really so it's
33:50um definitely gonna be a new experience for me it's also the anniversary of my mom's death so you know
33:58I'm
33:59gonna be doing this one for her Francisco this is a very fun place to be so I'm gonna leave
34:14you
34:14for a couple minutes okay I'll call you when we're ready okay okay all right so take your time all
34:20right thank you bye-bye bye I'm used to being able to have a couple of drinks before I go
34:26on stage so
34:27it's something weighs really heavily on my mind but I just can't do it hey everybody how are you
34:35how y'all feeling tonight we're gonna have a little great night a little entertainment for all of you
34:40the wonderful and beautiful friend of mine who I love hearing my beautiful and talented Nikki McGiven
34:54thank you all right this song I'm gonna dedicate to my mom and my best friend so here we go
35:12memories frozen in a picture frame
35:18days go on days go on things will never be the same when you left too soon
35:30I believe a part of you will always stay with me can you hear me
35:42inconsolable
35:44I am inconsolable
35:52I am inconsolable
36:19it was really good just to be able to finally let go i think i was afraid to show any
36:24kind
36:24of emotion because i was afraid that i was going to break down and cry and so to know
36:29that i can make it through it sober i know my mom would be proud felt like i was honoring
36:34her memory coming up
36:52my hope is that nikki's performance has inspired the others to realize they can have similar
36:57triumphs in their own lives unfortunately the group is now faced with the painful possibility
37:03that stephen adler may have relapsed yet again this is the latest you stayed up nikki i think
37:10did you have fun yeah i got to see you saying stephen did a good job but he seemed a
37:17little
37:17wasted he was falling high at my show oh my gosh oh i really hope he's not using he's been
37:26high for so
37:27many years that's crazy and his i mean he's just so up but you guys that i'm sober in rehab
37:35for the
37:35full time right you didn't do any drugs you know i'm like now i don't know do you think he
37:40ever
37:40smoked before process group what does he keep getting all the drugs from you know what he was
37:46probably getting the drugs when he kept leaving the house a lot lately maybe like he was walking
37:51away and going outside like i'm going to smoke a cigarette or something and having someone eat
37:53him i mean it's not hard drug addicts are smart when they want to get their drugs
37:58you guys i just gotta go test him
38:08stephen i need you to do a pee test for me honey
38:10stephen i need you to do a pee test for me honey
38:13stephen
38:14stephen
38:16stephen
38:17stephen
38:17stephen
38:27stephen
38:43stephen
38:44stephen
38:44stephen
38:52stephen
38:52stephen
38:53stephen
38:53stephen
38:53stephen
38:53stephen
38:54stephen
38:56stephen
38:56stephen
38:56stephen
38:56stephen
38:56stephen
38:57stephen
38:57stephen
38:59Are there things you want to tell Lucas about how you've been as a father?
39:04I wanted to just apologize.
39:07Felt a little empty to me, I've got to be honest with you.
39:09I mean, you're talking about this young man's entire life with his father,
39:12and it's not, oh, I'm sorry.
39:14Did I tell you I found a cute apartment today?
39:16No, you didn't.
39:17Oh, it's a sublet, and, you know, it has everything.
39:22I love you.
39:23Bye, Mary.
39:25Everyone says they're going to keep in touch, but I, we'll see.
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