00:05Who are you, if you can't remember who you are?
00:48Crashing Yields Memory Center.
00:49Yeah, I'm here to see a patient in the Alzheimer's ward.
00:52You're a visitor?
00:53Yes.
00:54I'm sorry, but our solos aren't allowed visitors.
00:56Yeah, I know, I just...
00:59I traveled a long way.
01:01They're meant to stay as solos.
01:03Yeah, I know the rules.
01:04Can you make an exception?
01:08Just this once.
01:26Are you still in Waldo Thompson?
01:31Yes.
01:52Are you Clark Kent?
01:54Yes.
01:55Are you Mickey Mouse?
01:59Yes.
02:12Hello, Stuart.
02:17Install stem cells directly into the bloodstream.
02:22Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutes.
02:27That's just gonna hurt.
02:31Rightfully so.
02:33Oh, no.
02:38No.
02:42No.
02:50Okay.
02:52Phase one.
02:55Based memory.
02:56Sorry.
02:57Okay.
03:05You hear me, Stuart?
03:12Fuck.
03:15Okay.
03:17Look at that light.
03:19What color is that?
03:22Green.
03:24It's green, isn't it?
03:27Green.
03:31Yeah.
03:32Not blue, not yellow, not red, not white.
03:37That's green.
03:39That's right.
03:40Green.
03:42Green like grass.
03:45Green like trees, leaves, salamanders.
03:52Keep going.
03:54Green beans, alligators, all green beans. I love green beans.
03:58Yeah.
04:00What else is green?
04:01Green like peas and pickles and... and...
04:06Parakeets.
04:08The Incredible Hulk.
04:10The Grinch.
04:11The Grinch who stole Christmas.
04:12Mm-hmm.
04:14Yeah.
04:15Woldy clothes.
04:17Craying mantis.
04:19The Emerald City.
04:21Kermit the fucking frog.
04:24Mm-hmm.
04:26It's good, Stuart.
04:27Really good.
04:29Tell me, where are we, huh?
04:30What's this place called?
04:32This is a, uh...
04:34I know you can remember.
04:38Uh...
04:39Beach.
04:40This is a beach.
04:41That's right.
04:42Yeah.
04:42We're on a beach.
04:43All this shit here is sand.
04:45Just sand.
04:47And that...
04:49That's the sea.
04:50That's right.
04:51Not a river, not a pond, not a lake, not a puddle.
04:55The sea.
04:56Don't stop now.
04:57Mm.
04:59The waves.
05:00The waves.
05:02Crashing.
05:04Crashing.
05:05Like timpani drums in Beethoven's Sixth.
05:07Like, like, like fireworks on the Fourth of July.
05:1320%.
05:14You're doing so well, Stuart.
05:17Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
05:18Hey, hey, hey.
05:18Look at me.
05:19Look at me, man.
05:20I can amble.
05:22I can...
05:23My muscles, remember.
05:24My bones, for you quaint.
05:28Look.
05:30You can dance.
05:31Soft shoe.
05:33Tap.
05:34Jazz.
05:35Macarena.
05:36Yeah.
05:37Electric slide.
05:38Oh.
05:39Yeah.
05:40Hey, what did you do?
05:41Watch me whip.
05:44Oh, yeah?
05:45Watch me nae nae.
05:47Whoo!
05:50I can sing.
05:51Oh, I love to sing.
05:53Always have.
05:54Wise men say.
06:00Only fools rush in.
06:05For once in my life, I have someone who needs me.
06:11I miss the old Kanye.
06:13Straight from the gold Kanye.
06:14Chop up the soul Kanye.
06:16Set on his goals Kanye.
06:17Oh, yeah.
06:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
06:22Oh, yeah.
06:24Yeah.
06:25Good dope jams.
06:29The lip bangers.
06:32I know again.
06:36And I know that I know.
06:49But I don't know you.
06:53No?
06:54Why are you doing this?
06:56Why are you doing this for me?
06:59Hmm?
07:02I'm from the National Health Service.
07:04NHS?
07:05Well, if you think you're going to pay for this with my pension, you've got to be able to think
07:09of it.
07:09It's covered, Stuart. Memory regeneration is universal.
07:13Take stem cells, inject them into you, and regenerates total brain function,
07:20and soon after recovers all of your memories.
07:24My memories?
07:27And it's free?
07:28It's free.
07:31As it should be.
07:33I know at first that they were selling this cure for Alzheimer's.
07:39Yeah.
07:40But I always said, I want to be a human, right?
07:45It's awful in there.
07:48That demented fog of dementia.
07:50And there's like being buried alive, or cast in amber, but still puttering inside.
08:03And you want to roar, and you wish to scream, but screams and roars are all banned in that land.
08:11No crying.
08:12No mercy.
08:15No wishes or prayers.
08:19You cry out for your mother, or your father, or your God.
08:28But they're all gone too, and they've all left in the fog, and their terror, and their fury, oh, rises
08:37in you.
08:40I exist, you want to shout, I exist, I exist, but you surely do not, not in this land.
08:56But then, you came, and you burned off all the fog, and I can remember again.
09:08I'm alive, my son.
09:12And you're to blame.
09:18Phase one is complete.
09:20Brain regeneration is at 50%.
09:22Now comes the rest.
09:25Phase two.
09:27Personal memory recovery.
09:37Hang on tight.
09:57What do you remember?
10:01My wife's farts in the night.
10:05Code red.
10:07Code blue.
10:11Floating in my best friend, Leo's pool.
10:14Looking up at the clouds.
10:17Watching 13 going on 30.
10:21Seeing Ming Chong in the supermarket.
10:24Flying down that blue slide into mom's arms.
10:28This slide.
10:32Where was that?
10:34In the park.
10:36With the big trees and a duck pond.
10:39And the woman.
10:41And the mother.
10:43What does she look like?
10:45It's all I can remember.
10:47It can't be everything.
10:49Well.
10:50Yeah.
10:51It's all there is.
10:53It's all the memories.
10:56Afraid so.
10:57Are you sure?
10:59Of course I'm sure.
11:01I already said I'm sure.
11:04It's all there is.
11:05It's all I can remember, okay?
11:08You remember me, Stuart.
11:11I'm afraid we just met.
11:15What is this?
11:16This is some kind of NHS thing, huh?
11:19Like a shakedown of a poor Alzheimer's patient's pension fund?
11:25Were you ever diagnosed?
11:29Of course.
11:30Alzheimer's patients exhibit identical symptoms to aging memory addicts.
11:36Do you install too many recollections?
11:40And over time, your neurons are destroyed.
11:44So you know what I think, Stuart?
11:49That after years of stealing memories, your brain was dying, not from Alzheimer's, but from your addiction.
11:56Son, you, you, you must have the wrong man.
12:00I know who you are.
12:01In case of mistaken identity.
12:04I know what you did.
12:05I didn't do anything.
12:07I spent the past 11 years
12:12trying to find the monster who took the memories of my mom.
12:17Who started by hacking into company servers.
12:20And who graduated to violently assaulting people.
12:24Stuck an extractor.
12:27Right in their fucking brains.
12:30Downloaded their memories.
12:31I've long thought about this day.
12:34About the day I would find the man who took her from me.
12:39In that hospital hall by the vending machine.
12:42And strip that little boy of every memory of the mom he just lost.
12:58What do you want?
13:01What do I want?
13:04Do you know what my earliest memory is?
13:08A dark shadow reaching out to me.
13:13I can't see her face.
13:15Or her body.
13:16She's a glitch.
13:17A blur.
13:20Pixelated buffering.
13:22A dark fog.
13:26I can't even see her.
13:29My own mother and I can't even see her.
13:31And I can't hear another laugh or a cry or...
13:39I love you sweetheart.
13:42I can't even miss her Stuart.
13:45My own mother and I can't even miss her.
13:50But the worst part of all is that the only place she still exists is in there.
13:59And it's a shitty feeling you know.
14:01Because the fucked up thing is...
14:04Now I need you.
14:08So what do I want, Stuart?
14:13I want what's mine.
14:16I want you to give me back what you took from me.
14:20I want her.
14:26I...
14:28can't.
14:29You give me her.
14:31And I won't tell the authorities about you.
14:33I won't bring you in.
14:34You can live out your days here.
14:47How do I know?
14:50How can I know you'll hold up your end?
14:57What choice do you have?
15:08Oh well.
15:14Blue.
15:17Blue eyes.
15:21They had blue eyes.
15:26Blue how?
15:28Blue like the mediterranean at twilight.
15:34Blue like a starling's feathers.
15:39Blue like an aster flower.
15:42This moment's after bloom.
15:45She had blue eyes.
15:49Blue like a starling.
15:50And clumps of mascara.
15:52Always clumps.
15:56And when she looked at you?
15:59When she looked at you, my God, her eyes opened wide.
16:06Really?
16:07Yeah, right.
16:09And she cooed when she saw you.
16:15Involuntarily, she cooed when you walked into her room.
16:19She would gasp.
16:22As if she thought, how...
16:25How could this boy be so perfect?
16:28How could I have made such a beautiful kid?
16:34How could he be mine?
16:35She gasped when she saw me.
16:38Yeah.
16:40And she smelled like lavender.
16:42It was the detergent she used.
16:47I've always loved the smell of lavender.
16:49Mm-hmm.
16:50Well, she would do this thing.
16:54Whenever she saw me, you, in the morning,
16:59she would hold out her hand and sit for a handshake,
17:04like we were business partners.
17:07And she would say,
17:08nice to make you acquaintance, Mr. Man.
17:16And she'd take you to the playground every day,
17:20feed the ducks and play.
17:23And there was this slide.
17:25Slide.
17:26Yeah.
17:27Big blue slide.
17:29It was like your Everest.
17:31You saw her growing small.
17:35And then you slid down,
17:39right into her arms.
17:43And she held it tight.
17:46I don't know what came over her that day,
17:50but her eyes were watery,
17:53and her little nose.
17:56Her nose.
17:56What?
17:57What is it?
17:58Like a button.
17:59Small.
18:00Red.
18:02And she said,
18:04I will always catch you, Otto.
18:09I will never let you fall.
18:15She sounds lovely.
18:18She was.
18:20She really was.
18:26And so were you.
18:28A lovely boy.
18:33Why?
18:34Why do you take the memories
18:36from that little boy in that hospital hall
18:38who just lost his mom?
18:54I had a child once.
18:58A beautiful boy.
19:02During the stay,
19:04I began to make him a nuisance.
19:08An annoyance.
19:10An interruption to the screens that I loved.
19:15To the devices I cherished.
19:21I made excuses not to play with him.
19:25Not to help him with his school.
19:29Not to show him the stars,
19:30or tuck him into bed at night.
19:37And then one day...
19:42One day he got sick.
19:47Byrus took him in its arms.
19:50And he ailed and glitched and...
19:55Begged for breath.
19:59Until...
20:00He was gone.
20:03And then lightened up my world.
20:09And when he passed,
20:12I roamed the streets for days.
20:16Wishing to disappear.
20:19Wishing to die.
20:22Wishing to leave on a rocket ship.
20:25Or...
20:26Stay locked in my stay.
20:29Or...
20:31Travel to the future.
20:35Or be punished forever.
20:39Wishing I had seen my boy for what he was.
20:45Which was the whole world.
20:53I couldn't bear the memories of it.
20:56So I spiraled and tumbled and...
21:01That's when I started...
21:04Stealing.
21:05Thieving.
21:09I needed to stop my heart...
21:12From this...
21:14God awful bleeding.
21:17I stole the other memories...
21:20To rid myself of my own.
21:23I stole from them.
21:25From hundreds of victims.
21:29From you.
21:32The sweet boy.
21:33Just like my own.
21:35And I just...
21:37Needed to remember a boy's love for his parents.
21:43So that I could make myself believe this is what my boy must have felt about me.
21:51So I took your memories.
21:54And I watched every one.
21:57Over...
21:58And over again.
22:01Six years ago.
22:03Of you.
22:04And her.
22:06And together.
22:08And her.
22:12But as the dementia progressed.
22:15And the...
22:16Fog overtook.
22:18And the memories grew dim.
22:20And I could see only...
22:22Dark shadows.
22:24Where people should be.
22:27I realized...
22:30The worst truth of all.
22:35This is what my boy must have felt.
22:38When he looked at me.
22:40A glitching father whose...
22:42Face he hardly saw.
22:47Whose embrace...
22:50He never knew.
22:53Whose love.
22:58Whose love.
22:59Whose love he never felt.
23:05I see now that...
23:07I've committed this same crime twice.
23:12To you.
23:14And to him.
23:19Robbing a child of his parent.
23:23Tell me about that last day.
23:28My last day with her.
23:31Son.
23:32Tell me I want to know.
23:40It was cold.
23:43You had on a sweater.
23:47And you went in to see her.
23:50And she was lying in bed.
23:54Bald and pale.
23:57Her nose was...
23:59Red and small like a bun.
24:02You crept toward her and...
24:06As soon as she saw you.
24:08Her blue eyes.
24:10Open wide.
24:13Her eyelashes.
24:15Caked with mascara.
24:16Wide like this.
24:18She reached out her hand to you.
24:21To shake it.
24:22As if we were business partners.
24:24Which in a way we were.
24:26Her and me.
24:28And she said...
24:29Pleasure to make your acquaintance Mr. Mann.
24:32Exactly so.
24:34Exactly so.
24:37And she held you tight.
24:41Only now it was final.
24:43She smelled of lavender.
24:46She smelled great.
24:50She pulled you close.
24:52Like that day on there.
24:54Big blue slide.
24:57She said she'd always be there to catch me.
25:01Even if she was gone.
25:02That's right.
25:04And her breath grew fainter.
25:07And she pulled you close.
25:12She held you tight.
25:15And she said...
25:19Tell me what she said.
25:23She said my boy.
25:26It has been the privilege of my life to be your mom.
25:31I'm sorry we've had such a short visit together.
25:37And as the years go on.
25:40These moments together may fade.
25:42But it's okay.
25:44It's okay.
25:45It's okay.
25:45If you forget me.
25:49It's okay if you forget me Otto.
25:51Because you never can.
25:53You are literally.
25:55Made up of me.
25:58I'm in every fiber of you.
26:00Every eyelash and follicle and cell.
26:03Like the stars in the sky and the sand and the sea.
26:07I'll always be with you.
26:09And you don't need to remember for it to be true.
26:15For I will for you.
26:22And as you held her close.
26:25You looked at the respirator beside her bed.
26:28The machine that hung and glowed with a green light.
26:33Yeah.
26:35Until her breath ceased.
26:39And she grew still.
26:43And the green light too brief went out.
26:53A memory isn't simply a thing you have.
26:58It's a promise.
27:02It's a vow to the one you love.
27:05Remembering of the search.
27:08And you found her again son.
27:16She would be so proud.
27:27I am sorry.
27:31I'm so sorry for what I've taken from you.
27:37For what I've done.
27:56For what?
27:58I have to take it with me.
28:00What?
28:01The memories?
28:04The green light?
28:06That's right.
28:07No.
28:07You, you, you, you said.
28:09I said I wouldn't tell the authorities about you.
28:15No.
28:17No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
28:20No, no, please, please.
28:21Don't, don't, don't take them.
28:23Don't send me back there.
28:26Please.
28:28I have to, Stuart.
28:30Please.
28:30You know I do.
28:36Can I ask just one small favor?
28:41You don't deserve a favor.
28:44However small.
28:50You've hurt so many people.
28:52I know.
28:54But can't you just leave me one, one memory?
28:59Just one.
29:02Please.
29:07Which memory?
29:10Of your boy?
29:12Those memories are all corrupted, I'm afraid.
29:16So which one?
29:22I don't know.
29:24I know.
29:28I know.
29:29I know.
29:32I know.
29:40I know.
29:41Hey, Stuart.
29:42Yeah?
29:46Would you show me what it felt like?
29:49What?
29:51For a hug?
30:15You know, Stuart
30:20I imagine this is what your boy must have thought your hugs felt like too
30:28How about this one, Stuart?
30:32How about this memory?
30:46How about this memory?
31:20How about this memory?
31:46How about this memory?
31:48How about this memory?
31:50How about this memory?
31:51How about it?
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